#hi im elijah and im a dumbass

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here are the individual “frames” from the video

[frostemeto]

"Shit-" (final)

Character: Kaito, Shima, Elias

Part 3 of "sick" Pls enjoy ^^

Warning ⚠ Sick-gags-cuddles-bad English

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Elias run and get out of the bus, "W-wait! " Said Kaito, Kaito following him, he pull Elias hand and take him to the restroom, Elias run to one toilet and lock the door, Kaito could hear a softly gags noise and the softly vomit noise, "why I'm the one who feels nauseous but you the one who vomit.. ", Kaito sigh, "need help?.. ", said Kaito. " Hmnnn.. -", Elias was still vomiting so he couldn't answer, "what? -", said Kaito. Suddenly Shima came to the restroom. " Kaito-? ", said shima. " Oh- hey shima-"

"What are u doing here? ", Shima hears someone vomiting, " Damn- who's that? -" , Shima asked. "It's lias.. ", said Kaito. " Oh.. He vomited again?.. ", said Shima. Kaito nodding as yes, " Do you need help lias..? "Shima asked with a softly voice. " M-mhm.. ", as a yes. Elias unlocked the door slowly. Shima and Kaito came in. " Jeez- elias- u vomited all your food u just ate 30 minutes ago.. ", said kaito. Kaito rubs his back and Shima held his hair. The brownie hair and the two blonde hair is inside the toilet. " I.. I'm sorry.. ", said Elias. " For what?.. " That two blonde. Answered. "I-..i bothered you guys.. I'm sorry. sorry I'm a burden. I am so stupid.., im-.. I'm sorry.. " Elias's voice was trembled, start to tearing up.

....

"Hey.. It's alright.. Your not a burden.. ", said Shima. "It's not your fault.. It was an accident.. " Said Kaito. "It's fine, okay? Don't blame yourself.. " Shima and Kaito hugs him. A warm hug from Shima and kaito. Made him feel better. And he cleaned up himself and go back to the bus. Elias is end up sitting with them. Elias sit beside the windows, Shima on the middle, and Kaito in other side from Shima (IDK HOW TO TYPE IT MY ENGLISH IS BAD 😭), Elias finally fell asleep in peace. And the bus start to move again. This time, Elias already drinking a medicine. Atleast it help him feel a bit better. What about Kaito? U said he get motion sickness easily?, about him, he already drink a medicine too. So he doesn't really get motion sickness. Elias forehead is start to feel warm. Atleast it's help the fever down. Kaito fever seem already gone. But not 100% sure.

16/24 hours later. Only 8 hours again the arrived to the place that they wanted too!

The sky is getting dark. Almost night time. Elias sleep for 4 hours btw:v, then he awake, "ur awake, how do u feel lias? " Kaito asked. "Better.. *yawns*" Elias yawns was cute. Shima pull Elias closer. "Let me goo..! ", said Elias. " No, your comfy " Said Shima. "Hmpp! I'm not comfy! " Elias mad and try to go from Shima but he can't. "Cmon lias, your comfy. I like it" Said Shima chuckles. "Bro u like lias? -" Kaito said. "Not like that idiot. I had a gf. " Said Shima. Elias leaning to his chest. "Heh. Dumbasses. " Said Shima who Chuckles. "Shut up.. ", he fell asleep again I'm Shima chest bcs it feels warm. " Wanna join? " Said Shima. "If u won't mind it. " He lean to Shima chest too. "It's comfortable on me thoo" Said Shima. They both fell asleep.

Noah take a picture of them and send it to Elijah, her gf. In the text -Look *send pictures*- , Noah send it to Elijah, -Whoa, look like Elias sleep so comfortable. said Elijah -yeah- noah answered.

30 minutes later. Stopped at a restaurant for dinner.

"Oi, wake up" , said noah. That trio is wake up. All the students is get out from the bus, Kaito and Elias is still sleepy:v (yes, they're a sleepy head.) they ordered some food, "How u feel lias?" Kaito asked. "Better, maybe.." Said Elias, he yawns. "That's great if u feel better! I hope the food u eat now doesn't get out again", said Shima. " Mhm" Said Kaito. The food is arrived, and they eat it.

After eating they look around and take some pictures. Elias oh Elias he so dumb. He was started to feel dizzy but he ignored it. HOW STUPID HE IS. after 15 minutes later they go back to the bus and start to way to the hotel. Elias suddenly hugging Shima, "eh? U alright? Ur acting weird " (It's in the bus way to the hotel btw) , "I'm fine. " Elias closes his eyes. Shima put his hand on Elias forehead, "Ayo ur burning up, how do you burning up so fast..! ", Shima a little bit surprised, but cant do anything again because if he give him a medicine he might puke again. " How do you feel? Dizzy? Nauseous? Tired? ", Shima asked because he worried about him, " I'm just tired and dizzy.. Shut up.. " Said Elias that trying to sleep, he think that sleep maybe help. "Tell me if u need anything alright?.. " Said Shima, pulling him closer and hug back, Kaito was talking to Noah beside them, yeah, talking about they're gf Elijah and Lana. Stalking their social media. Elias coughing, and he sit then take some deep breath. "Whoa whoa- u alright? -" Shima asked, "I-im fine.. ", Elias take a deep breath. " S-shima I think.. " Elias voice tremble. "I think what?- what's wrong? Are u going to puke again? -" Shima asked, Elias shakes his head, "I-its hurts-" Elias start to tearing up, "Hey hey what's wrong? " Shima a lil bit panicked, "what's hurts? ", Shima asked, " C-chest-" , he cough, Shima was panicked, "Kaito call Mrs. ***** ! ", Shima said to Kaito, " Huh- why? -" Kaito said, "Just call her! Elias got asthma attack! " Shima said to Kaito, "Shit- wait-", Kaito quickly call the teacher, Noah beside them was help him too " Lias calm down u will made it worse!.. " Said shima, "h-hurts-" Elias crying, and finally that teacher is gave him a inhaler, u know inhaler right? Find it on google if u don't. "Calm down Elias.. Take a deep breath.. ", after 20 minutes later the teacher finally made Elias a lil bit calm down, and she asked if he wanna seat next to his teacher, just in case. But Elias shakes his head as a no, and that's made people look at them, but they go back to their seat again. He so quite after he got asthma attack, but he's not sleep. But he very quite. He doesn't even talk, he just.. Holding shima hand. Shima was very care about him. Elias and Kaito fell asleep on Shima shoulder, on of Shima hand was holding Elias hand, and the other one to Pat Kaito hair, lemme just tell u guys how they look before we continue.

-Shima

He has blonde hair, kind, and he cares about the other. He loves to wear a jacket, his fav color is blue, has brown eyes, with a light skin. Ambivert

-kaito

He has blonde hair to, kinda quite, obsessed with his girlfriend (just like noah), and introvert person actually, get motion sick easily, clingy.

-Elias

Had brown eyes, energetic, doesn't had a girl friend, kind, loves a cat, he doesn't usually get sick, but once he got sick, it would be bad. Ambivert (he will be extrovert if he okay or doesn't had a problem, but he will be a introvert if he sick, or sad, or anything that made him uncomfortable.)

Ok noah and Elijah I told them later. So, Shima was scrolling his phone. Then he think, in the bus, they use a orange smell(?how to type it-), and that made the sickie and the motion sick boy's is uncomfortable, but Kaito doesn't really got motion sick bcs he already take some, anti-motion sick.

22/24 hours later, only 2 hours more and they arrived.

Elias wake up, Shima was eating an Oreo, "do you want some? " Shima asked. "S-sure.. ", said Elias who finally talking again. He takes the Oreo and eat it. And the he drank a chocolate milk. A few minutes later, " W-when will the bus arrived?.. " Elias asked. "About ½ hours more, why did u ask? You ok?" Shima look at him and ask worried, "I'm fine.. " Said Elias, "tell me if you need anything okay..?" Said shima. Elias nodded,

!24/24 later ! They arrived at the hotel

when he got out of the bus, Elias was still holding Shima's hand, but suddenly Elias squatted down, Shima was confused, "Hey, what's wrong?", he asking worried, Elias gagged, and let out a splash of vomit, Shima was surprised, Kaito is take a water from his bag, and gave it to Shima, Kaito was go to the hotel already, because he gonna check in first. " Elias.. Why didn't you tell us..? " Said Shima, "..." He was still feel nauseous, Shima rubs his back. "Here, take a sip.. " Shima said and help him drink the water, then he lean his head down again and he puke again in there, it's was the Oreo he eat before! And the chocolate milk!, it's was a bad combination to eat in a long trip (for me), "i-urh-... I'm done.. " Elias said. "Let's go then.. ", he help Elias to stand up, and carried him, " I can walk.. Put me down.. " Said Elias, "no. I'm gonna carry u " Said Shima, "whatever.. ", he fell asleep on Shima chest,

"Heh, cute.. ~" Said Shima.

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Okay this is the final! Pls give me more inspiration! I need idea 💡

Okay I hope u enjoy it! Goodbye!

Made by @frostysick

[killerandhealerqueen]

more headcanons on the arranged marriage au ? im alr sooo attached to ur most recent arranged marriage headcanon post <<3 thank you so much !!

You're welcome anon! Honestly didn't think it was going to get as popular as it did, but sure, I can give more headcanons

Yohan is a judge (like in the drama) and he asks Gaon to join and act as one of his prosecutors

Gaon wants to, but thinks that since they're married, won't that be improper? Yohan just smiles and says that it's his court, he can appoint whoever he wants

Gaon joins Yohan's court as one of his prosecutors and starts making friends with the others that work there, like a paralegal named Oh Jinjoo. They become fast friends and it's nice because Gaon hasn't had any Korean friends since he left Korea. Yohan is happy to see Gaon happy and Jinjoo is really nice

Gaon also introduces Yohan to his mafia family, mainly his father Choi Mujin, and they both greet each other warmly making Gaon confused

Yohan explains that he's enlisted Mujin's help before for information and for other things that he can't get the "legal" ways

Mujin definitely threatens Yohan with a katana to his throat that if he hurts Gaon, no one will find his body. Yohan gets the message loud and clear

Gaon and Yohan as domestic in this au as they are in the drama. Yes Gaon does most of the cooking but he leaves the cleaning to Yohan and Ms. Ji, the maid

Gaon and Elijah get on swimmingly and one day she declares that Gaon is her favorite and Yohan looks at her scandalized because how dare she pick favorites and both Gaon and Elijah just stick their tongues out at him and motherfucker, Yohan is fond

Soohyun is still a cop but she's more understanding in this au so she knows of Gaon's mafia background and doesn't shame him for it and even uses his connections to them to help her get information. Sometimes she'll even team up with them if they need to take down another group and the other group is wanted for something

Soohyun is a little bit more surprised that Gaon got married because he had always been so adamant about not wanting to get married but she sees that way that Yohan dotes on him and the way they smile at each other and she finds that she likes Yohan. She also likes Elijah, who is very snarky and sassy but such a good little girl

Forgot to mention, Elijah is probably one of the best hackers in Korea which gets her numerous praises from Gaon whenever she helps them out with cases and trials. Gaon also just thinks she's the smartest kid alive and she likes it when he praises her

Yohan and Gaon do like to smother Elijah with love and while Elijah pretends to hate it, oh no, she loves that shit. She loves it whenever Yohan pets her hair lovingly or Gaon presses a kiss to her hair and just...shows the baby all the love

Some dumbass thinks it'd be funny to take Yohan prisoner (Juk Chang, some other thug) but jokes on them, Gaon and Soohyun and Gaon's entire mafia family shows up like "y'all took my husband, y'all done fucked up now"

Another time some dumbass (a defendant on a case) thought it would be a good idea to kidnap Gaon and hold him hostage and that was just a bad move becomes here comes Yohan and Mujin to fuck shit up

Just husbands being protective of each other, you know?

K is there as well, acting as Yohan's right hand man before Gaon got there and at first he's a little jealous of Gaon (like how we could see in the drama) but Gaon likes K and introduces him to Mujin and his mafia family and Mujin takes an instant liking to him and decides to take K under his wing and let him join the mafia family and K is both a little intimidated by Mujin and Gaon but he's also super stoked because new family? Sign him the FUCK up

Sunah is there as well but she's not fucking crazy. She's the leader of an all female mafia and is good friends with Yohan and she's the one to threaten Gaon that if he does anything to hurt Yohan, she's castrate him personally and Gaon may or may not have peed a little

[callumilott-archive]

who are your favourite fictional characters and why? 💜✨

oof that’s a hard one, i havent really interacted with any fictional media for quite some time mainly because i lack the focus for movies, tv series and books dkjfsd

im gonna go with the few i usually always mention, which are elijah mikaelson from the originals (i do not claim season 5 elijah he was garbage), thorin oakenshield from the hobbit and probably nesta archeron or mor from acotar by sarah j maas. i dont really remember why because it’s been ages since i watched the originals but i vaguely remember elijah being the only one with a functional brain most of the time, i just thought klaus was annoying as hell and rebekah too. the whole villain-good guy-villain-good guy rollercoaster about klaus annoyed me and elijah was kind of a constant? they really messed up his character arc in the final season tho, i know it was just to set up the plot for legacies but damn. character assassination if i’ve ever seen it. i just liked him and his sassiness while looking elegant in suits. i actually met the actor at comic con on my birthday a while ago, i think it was 2018? he was very nice. i missed the final race of the f1 season for it tho because that was on the same day lmao

thorin is an absolute dumbass but i highly identify with him because i, too, am stubborn as fuck and handle emotions through anger. i’d also do anything for people i care about. tho i wouldn’t be dumb enough to follow my nemesis over ice thinking he’s dead when the dude is hard to kill and thus getting stabbed in the process. just thorin things. idk i just. kinda vibe with him and the repressed anger and absolute emotional constipation lmao. movie thorin in this case, book thorin didnt have as much depth to him as movie thorin did. i was obsessed with the hobbit for a while n while i actually also really like kili (i mainly just really liked the actor sdkghs) and fili, thorin has to be a favourite. 

nesta and mor from acotar are also kinda in that vein? nesta and thorin are pretty similar in character, again with the anger so i relate to it and she ends up being pretty badass. mor is also awesome because she’s been through so much and still welcomes feyre with friendliness and a smile and she’s mostly nice to everyone. really admire that, wish i had a little more of it.

i think that’s my main favourite fictional characters? there’s a bunch more i like but these are the ones i always fall back on lmao thank u so much for asking 💜

honesty hour!

[soulfood-fics]

Oreo - Chapter 1

Heyy! This is my first fic, hopefully its not trash!

Pairing: John Boyega + Black!OC

Inspiration: John did an interview where he said a girl broke up with him after seeing him on a Star Wars billboard, this story is a variation of that but with my own little twist. 

I made it an original Character but I hope everyone can identify with it. 

Enjoy!

Waking up to the Living Single theme song and the brightness of her TV, Akida feels the covers around her trying to silence her phone. Squinting her eyes to focus on the screen she realizes it’s not her usual alarm but a facetime call from her older sister Bianca. After letting it ring, she decides to answer and point the camera towards the ceiling.

“Hey lil sis!” Bianca’s chipper voice made Akida groan.

“It’s too early for this B,” rolling over so that only her forehead and eyes were visible on screen “…what do you want?” she says, rolling to the other side of the bed and hiding her head under the pillow.

“Girl it is 10am on a Saturday, get up and open the door.”

Slightly confused, Akida brings the phone directly to her face, “You’re here?” The question was answered by a knock on the door.

She’d forgotten she was supposed to do her sisters hair this morning. Jumping out of bed, turning off her TV and scrambling to make her room look decent, Akida put clothes and papers anywhere they’d fit. Just as she stuffs the last pile of clothes in the closet, Bianca knocks again. Rushing out of her room she makes a mental note to thank her roommate for cleaning the kitchen before opening the door. “What took you so long? You know I’ve seen your room before.” Grabbing each other into a tight hug, “I missed you, B” Akida whispers into her sisters hair. “Oh sure you did. You don’t call, you don’t write. I’m tired of being treated like a bald headed stepchild.” 

Closing the door behind her sister, she’d forgotten how dramatic she was. “You live two freeway exits away. Relax.”

~Only being two years apart they hadn’t seen each other much growing up, having different mothers and estranged relationships with their father. They reconnected sometime in high school when Akida’s relationship with their father had gone rotten. Both had been daddy’s girls but at a young age they became aware that the family dynamic wasn’t normal. The visits with their father became shorter and less frequent and eventually stopped. After high school graduation, Akida went to college in the Bay Area to be close to Bianca who had started a family of her own. Her long-time boyfriend Donovan and their adorable three year old son Jacob were the perfect IG black family goals~

“Ready to get started?” Bianca asks as she turns on the living room TV and gets comfortable on the floor in front of the couch. Akida’s mother made her learn how to do hair, especially her own. She’d become her sisters designated braider since she was the only one who knew how to cornrow. Grabbing the rattail comb and other supplies, she sits behind her sister and begins to part her hair.

“Can you do a little design in the front and a second row of braids in the back? That way it’s versatile.” Bianca asks, making Akida raise her eyebrows in surprise.

“For someone who doesn’t know how to cornrow, you’re making a lot of requests.”

Turning around to face her sister, Bianca says “I am a proud member of the BGWCB club!” They both laughed “The what?” she asks.

“It’s the Black Girls Who Can’t Braid club, we are underrepresented and deserve to be acknowledged” Bianca says between chuckles.

Still laughing she goes back to parting the hair into rows and starts braiding. A brief silence falls over them before Bianca changes the subject. “Dad called”, she says as more of a statement than a conversation starter. “He asked about you.” She adds. Not wanting to entertain the topic Akida stays quiet focusing on making clean parts and even sections. Turning around again, Bianca continues “Kiddie he’s sick and it doesn’t look good for him. I think you two should talk.”

Not wanting to hear any more of it Akida snaps back “And if you want these plaits tight I think you should turn around.” Bianca decides to drop the subject and they sit in silence as Akida finishes her hair, sharing the occasional laugh at the Insecure rerun.

Once she finishes the last braid, Akida puts coconut oil on the parts between the braids and shea butter on the ends, “done” she mumbled and moves to get up from the couch headed to her room. Bianca catches up to her sister and hugs her from behind, “Thank you Kiddie!” she sings “And I’m sorry for bringing dad up, I know it’s still a sensitive topic for you.”

“It’s fine.”

“Ooo why don’t we go out for lunch? Donovan’s mom has the baby so I’m free.” Just the mention of food makes Akidas stomach growl, reminding her she hadn’t eaten. “Come on. It’s my treat” Bianca pleads.

“Fine, it’ll be my payment”

Clapping her hands together, Bianca heads back to the living room. Before Akida closes the bathroom door to get dressed she hears “Oh can we take your car? I don’t want to lose my parking space.”

“Sure.” She says rolling her eyes

They decided to go to Akidas favorite Filipino street food spot on Fruitvale. She ordered chicken lumpia and 24 count of their signature G-Fire wings.

“So how are things with you and uh… um.. What’s his name?” Bianca asks before taking a drink of water.

“His name is Elijah and you already know we broke up.” Bianca never approved of Elijah or his relationship with Akida. When they had broken up a few months ago Bianca wanted to throw a party.

“Oh yeah Elijah, so y’all don’t talk still?” Bianca was pressing for answers that she already knew. Akida could tell she was up to something.

“No we do not. Why?” she answered.

“Oh no reason... So would you mind if I gave that guy over there your number?” Bianca tilted her head towards the end of the line to order. Akida turned, moving her braids from her shoulder and saw him. He was cute. Cute in a ‘nice to look at but don’t touch or else he’ll ruin your life’ kind of way. Since she had just gotten her life together, Akida thought it best to leave him alone. “Im not interested.” She said and turned to dip her lumipa in the sweet and sour sauce.

All while they ate Akida had tried to sneak glances at him. Unfortunately, she wasn’t as slick as she thought and they locked eyes for one second too many. Bianca caught their brief interaction also, “Lier, do you want me to get him over here?” she asks and raises her hand to get his attention.

“EXCUSE ME! You with the Africa tattoo! Yeah, Hi can you come here plea- OW.” Her sentence was cut short by Akidas foot connecting with Bianca’s knee.

“Nope! Sorry, big mistake. Stay in your seat please, Sir.” Akida’s attempt for damage control fails as the man continues to get up from his seat and carry his food towards them. “Oh god no. What did you just do?” she whispers harshly towards Bianca who’s already switched seats to make room for the handsome stranger. “I’m getting you a man. Now shut up and be nice,” she whispers back.

Smiling through the pain in her knee, Bianca stretches a hand out to greet him, “Hi, I’m Bianca. Nice to meet you.” pointing towards Akida and the open seat next to here “ my sister and I noticed you eating alone and thought you might want some company. Please have a seat.”

Putting his plate of food down on the table he shakes Bianca's hand, “Nice to meet you. I’m John.”

Oh god, his accent Akida thought, I’d let him hold me.

She continued to imagine what his arms would feel like around her until her thoughts were interrupted, “And THIS is my sister Akida, she's a little shy.” she hadn't noticed the hand in front of her. Internally yelling at herself for missing the opportunity to touch him, Akida strains a smile. He mimics her smile back to her, “it’s alright love, I wouldn't talk to me either.” he says with a laugh and sat down, continuing the conversation with Bianca.

Akida waits for an opening to interject into the conversation.

“I love your accent, where are you from?” Bianca asks.

“London but I’m Nigerian ” he answered. There it was, her opening.

“Oh really that's cool.” dumbass, she thought, out of all the words you know that's what you put together.

He didn't seem to care though, he was just happy she was talking to him. “Yeah, it is pretty cool.”

The just sit and smile at each other for a few seconds.

Not wanting the conversation to go stale Bianca interjects, “Oh Kiddie, tell him about the Jollof Festival.”

“Yeah Kiddie, tell me about it.” John was teasing. He turned in his chair to face her.

It didn't matter how many clothes she had on, the way he looked at her made her feel exposed and completely bare.

“There’s a festival downtown where different vendors have jollof from different places. But it's mostly Ghanaian and Nigerian vendors there, they're a little competitive.” Akida explains.

“And Nigerian Jollof wins. Hands down.” John said matter-of-factly

“I wouldn't know, I’ve never had it before.”

“You have a Jollof festival but you’ve never had jollof ? That's the only way to have it.”

Akida shrugged, “My ex boyfriend was Ghanaian so he only took me to the Ghanaian vendors.”

“Well he’s an idiot,”

“I couldn’t agree with you more!'' Akida and John had both forgotten about Bianca. She was quiet which isn't normal for her. “Sorry to interrupt whatever's going on here,” gesturing to John and Akida, “but we’ve got to go.”

“Awe do we?” realizing what she’s said, Akida quickly corrects herself, “I mean yes we do, sorry John it was really nice meeting you.”

“Nice meeting you as well, both of you.” John stands letting Akida move from the table, “ Akida I’d like to see you again, if that's alright. Maybe take you out for some real jollof.”

Before she could answer Bianca hands John a napkin with her sister’s number on it, “Oh I thought you’d never ask,” pulling Akida towards the exit, “Bye John.”

As soon as they're out the door, Bianca starts to yell, “DOYOUKNOWWHOTHATWAS?,” stopping in front of Akida. “I didnt recognize him at first but then it hit me!”

“You know him?” 

“Yes! You dont?” 

“No. I’ve never seen him before.” Akida gets distracted by a text, 

Bye Kiddie, Let me know when you want that jollof.

Looking up from her phone, shes met by another screen. Bianca held up a picture, it was John holding a light saber. Her heart dropped “There’s no way.” 

@ghostfacekill-monger @honeychicana

[bilvy]

my one of best friends used to love elijah so i dropped the $5 or whatever it was on a cameo from him to her bc im a dumbass like that and knew shes like it. what i asked him for was “hey my best friend j is one of my favorite people but she can be so dumb sometimes. hype her up bc shes a bad bitch and doesnt need dumbass guys”. what i got was elijah calling her a stupid bitch. ever since fhen ive kinda looked at him like hm.

yeah like idk maybe i just don’t get his humor? or like maybe idk i like to be nice to people but that’s just me. his recent work with the covid relief is very good and i’m happy he’s helping people, but still man i get those vibes and also like....he should have stuck to the script i remember when that cameo stuff was happening too!

[notwxrriors]

mutual pining awlijah is so good.... how would their first kiss happen and how would it go

first kisses r always cute so im combining these asks

ive been thinking abt this and i have so many seperate ideas im trying to hard to settle on one AAAAAA 

okay so, awsten gets homesick a lot. as much as he hated houston as a teenager, he has nostalgia for it, and the first few months of moving to LA was particularly hard on him. he had no one there (except c**r* who broke up with him early on) for him, not until he met elijah 

it got a little easier. he's with elijah and elijah's friends a lot, which take his mind off of it, but he can't help but miss *his* friends - geoff and otto and travis and jawn, all 1500+ miles away. it still gets to him, even months later. 

and to top it all off, he's sort of infatuated with elijah. it's been gradually creeping up on him, until he couldn't really deny it anymore, and its a full-blown crush now and he giggles like a dumbass whenever he's around elijah and elijah is Completely Oblivious 

but it's one of those nights, maybe someone's birthday he can't make it home for, and he's just. bummed. he elijah comes over and holds him as he falls apart, bottled up homesickness and sadness pouring out finally, crying softly into elijah's chest as elijah rocks him a little, tells him it's okay, his feelings are normal and valid and he has the right to be sad

eventually he cries himself out, nothing but sniffles now, face still buried into elijah's shirt. he mumbles a watery "i'm glad I met you" and elijah's heart just.. aches for him. 

"I'm glad I met you too, aws." elijah answers, tucking a hand under awsten's chin and tilting his head up so he'll look at elijah. his eyes are watery, nose red, tear tracks on his cheeks, lashes heavy with tears. and he looks beautiful, like always, and elijah's never wanted something so bad in his whole life. 

"i love you." awsten says, just when elijah asks "can i kiss you?" and awsten smiles, the first elijah's seen since he came over, nods his head once, and they're kissing then, warm and familiar, like they've done it before. awsten can't even look at him afterwards, hiding his face against elijah's chest, and elijah wonders if he can hear just how loud his heart is beating

[whimzea-blog]

part 1 (ends sort of abruptly but im exhausted lol) will finish tmrow

"Where the fuck are we, Elijah?” Zane asked, looking around uneasily. He knew they were still in West Hollywood, but after a bunch of turns and cut-throughs, they’d ended up in a dark, sketchy alley, the only light coming from a blinking neon sign above a large metal door.

“You’ll see,” Elijah replied, winking. He rapped on the door three times.

Zane pulled Heath closer and Heath gave Zane a sloppy grin. “I am very drunk,” Heath declared, wrapping his arms around Zane’s neck. 

Zane sighed. Great. They were in an alley, probably about to be murdered by evil gay clowns, and Heath was singing at the top of his lungs and swaying from side to side. 

“Elijah, maybe we better call it a night. Heath is...” Before Zane could finish his sentence, the metal door swung open.

A very tall, very hairy, and very mean-looking man appeared in the threshold, his arms crossed. Zane looked up at him with wide eyes, and even Heath stopped singing, hiccuping once and pressing closer into Zane’s side.

The man was in black leather from head to toe. His boots looked like they could crush a skull with one stomp, and his pants were straining to cover his tree trunk thighs and massive dick, from the looks of it. His bulky torso was covered with only a harness, revealing a chest and arms covered with tattoos. 

"Haven’t seen you here in awhile,” the man said gruffly, looking Elijah up and down with a critical eye.

“Been busy,” Elijah shrugged. “But you know I always come back to you, Henry.”

Henry remained expressionless. He nodded towards Zane and Heath. “Who’re they?”

“Friends,” Elijah answered simply. “And new queers, as it were. This is their first time in West Hollywood. We hit up all the usual spots, but we had to finish off the night here.”

Henry glanced at Zane and Heath, and Zane suddenly felt self-conscious in his plain black pants and t-shirt, like he was a nerd trying to sit at the cool kids’ table. At least Heath had left his fucking fanny pack at home this time.

Henry held out his hand, and Elijah stuffed a wad of cash into it. Henry stepped aside, and Elijah gestured to Zane and Heath before striding through the door.

Zane grabbed Heath’s hand and led him into the building, jumping when the metal door closed with a thud behind them.

The hallway was dark, but there was hazy red light and music coming from not too far away. They followed Elijah towards the light and as they approached, Zane’s jaw dropped.

Before them was a huge room littered with tables and couches, as well as a bar, and a large stage. The music was loud and the air was thick with alcohol and sweat, but that wasn’t that unusual for a club.

What was unusual- at least to milquetoast Zane and Heath- was that there were only men in the club. And not the type of men you would see every day on the street, either.

Dozens of large men of every color and creed, dressed similarly to Henry in black leather clothing (although the amount of clothing varied greatly) milled around, chatting, laughing, and drinking. 

“Welcome to your first leather bar,” Elijah said with a grin, gesturing towards the room. “You’re lucky, boys. This is a pretty exclusive place. Especially on D/S night.”

“D/S?” Zane asked warily. As soon it left his mouth, a massive black man walked by, leading a much smaller- but no less chiseled- black man along by a gold leash. On a couch not too far away, he saw a white guy sitting with a younger boy kneeling in front of him on the floor, his head resting on his leg.

“Dom/sub,” Elijah clarified, trying not to laugh. “Or, dominant and submissive. Master and slave. That sort of thing.”

Zane couldn’t fathom what that sort of “thing” was, but he nodded anyway to avoid looking like a total dumbass. Heath had lost any apprehension he might have had before and was looking around with interest, totally unperturbed by the sea of leather and leashes. He tugged on Zane’s hand. “I want another drink.”

“Maybe in a bit,” Zane said cautiously, and Heath pouted.

“Elijah!” a voice called from their right and they all turned. Zane’s jaw dropped again.

The last time he had seen these kids, they were trying to scare each other with a harmless haunted house and jumping on their trampoline. Now, they were in thigh-high boots, garters, and latex underwear, the rest of their flawless, muscular bodies bare of anything except a sprinkling of gold glitter.

“There are my favorite twins,” Elijah cooed, and both boys gave him a peck on the lips. “I’m stunned your mistress let you out tonight.”

“She’s on a business trip,” Grayson answered. “But she said we could come see our friends if we had a chaperone.”

“So Kyle brought us,” Ethan added, nodding to perhaps the tallest man in the room, who was sitting at the end of the bar looking very uncomfortable. Zane recognized the man as the twins’ bodyguard, and he internally winced. Awkward.

“And have you been good boys tonight?” Elijah asked, crossing his arms and looking at them expectantly, like he was a third-grade teacher.

“We’re always good,” they said in unison.

Zane could feel Heath trying to slip out of his grasp, and Zane gripped his wrist tighter, pulling him back to his side.

“Stay with me,” Zane ordered, and although it came out much harsher than he intended, he was glad for it. Only a firm, sharp command could cut through Heath’s drunkenness to make him actually follow directions. Zane had learned that the hard way. “I don’t want you by yourself. You’re too drunk.”

The twins and Elijah turned towards them at the sound of Zane’s voice. “These are my friends, Zane and Heath,” Elijah said to the twins. He raised an eyebrow. “I thought this was all new to them, but maybe I was wrong.”

“It definitely is new to us,” Zane assured them. He nodded to Ethan and Grayson. “We met during your Halloween video a few years ago. Nice to see you again.”

The boys nodded but didn’t answer, looking down at the ground.

“Was it something I said?” Zane asked Elijah. Heath squirmed again, but this time Zane was able to stop him with a glare.

“In this context, their mistress does not allow them to speak to other doms,” Elijah explained. “Only other subs, like them.”

“But I’m not a dom,” Zane replied quickly. “I’m nothing.”

“Zane, let me go. I have to piss,” Heath whined. Zane sighed and released Heath from his grip. 

“We’ll take him,” Grayson said to Elijah, careful to keep his eyes averted from Zane. “Why don’t you show Mr. Zane the club?”

“A great idea,” Elijah agreed. Ethan held out his hand to Heath, and Heath took it cheerfully, like he’d just made a new best friend. Heath was a very jolly drunk.

Zane watched the twins lead Heath away towards the back of the club. He wasn’t afraid for Heath’s safety with the twins watching him, but he was a little afraid that Heath would leave him after being sandwiched between two Adonises for several minutes.

Zane followed Elijah towards the bar, and Elijah was stopped a couple of times by people that he knew. 

“You said the twins could only talk to other subs,” Zane said, once they were seated at the bar. “Does that mean you’re a sub?”

“Nope,” Elijah said. He nodded to the bartender, and soon two beers were placed in front of them. “I’m not a dom or a sub. But I am part of the fetish community, and I know their mistress very well. I’m a family friend, if you will.”

Zane took a sip of his beer. “Why do they come here, anyway? If their mistress is a woman, they must be straight, right? I only see dudes here.”

“Because they have sub friends who are queer?” Elijah answered, looking at him like he was an idiot. 

“Oh.” Zane’s cheeks reddened. He was really out of his element. “But...why did they think I was a dom? Just because I told Heath to stay with me?”

“You have the voice down,” Elijah explained, chuckling. “ But that’s minor. You carry yourself like a dom would. You have pretty wicked protective streak in you, too. A good dom isn’t an asshole who just spanks people and ties people up. A good dom uses their power to make sure their sub’s needs are safely satisfied. And since you’re obsessed with making Heath happy, well...it fits.”

“I’m not obsessed,” Zane mumbled, but he knew Elijah was right. He was pretty crazy about Heath and basically waited on him hand and foot.

“But if the dom is the one trying to make the sub happy, then...isn’t the sub really the dom?”

Elijah grinned. “You learn very quickly, Zane. It’s all about balance. Someone is giving orders and someone is following them, but really the power goes back and forth."

“Everyone says that Heath has me totally whipped. I don’t think there’s any way I’m the dom in this scenario.”

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a year without two | alyssa nova 

a total plagiarism but it's gross o'clock in the morning and i woke up from a dream that I don't recall so don't bother asking and i'm still bitter so here have corresponding diary entries to go with the excerpts from the worst year of andrew nova’s life: a saga

fall

I thought he couldn't sink any lower but then the sun is coming up and his frown is going further down. Annie was a lying ass bitch, the sun ain't coming out tomorrow. Or the next day. Or any day until Bianca's home. 

I remember what he was like when he lost her--Adriana. When he lost Adriana. We hadn't been extremely close at that point but we'd been close enough to where I could see that the needle in his compass had been snapped off and buried with the love of his life. He was devastated and for awhile, I wasn't even sure if Bianca would be enough to save him from his grief, his anger. He still has little reminders of her around, I don't know if he knows I know but I've seen the painting she never got to finish in storage. She definitely had talent. And she definitely knew where her life was supposed to be going judging by the signature on a corner in the back. Adriana Nova. Sometimes I wonder if there's days where he might love the memory of her more than he loves the reality of me but, that's probably just Aly de Luca talking, right? Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked. I've got to get dinner on the table. 

Scarlett can't sit still for the life of her. It took me two hours to get her hair into the Leia buns. TWO HOURS. if I'd known she would be so bouncy in every aspect of her life I would have never signed her up for those gymnastic classes. She was headed to yet another Star Wars marathon at Mason's and said she loved whenever her big sister would wear her hair like that, did I have time to do hers? It's funny, isn't it? Scarlett asking someone if they have time for something. I didn't actually but I made the time. When it's her doing the asking, you find yourself creating all the time in the world for that beautiful soul. I cried once she was gone on her way. I remember the first time I had to fix Bianca's Leia buns when she was a kid, Drew couldn't do it to save his life, bless his heart. 

He was young but I was younger. He was a father at sixteen years old, stumbling his way through it all like a blind man in a maze. He had no clue how to be a father and I only knew how to be a friend but just like him, I learned too. I learned how to swaddle Bianca just the way she liked to stop her fussing. I learned the best place to test a bottles temperature and I learned all about the horrors of changing a diaper when Drew just couldn't shoulder every waking moment on his own anymore. I spent some nights there, looking back I'm shocked my parents let me but I guess they trusted Drew or at least remembered what being younger parents was like? Or maybe they knew there was no stopping me. I fell asleep in school a few times, cried in my car before leaving where he was living at the time because I was just so damn tired but also so inexplicably sad for him. He couldn't do it on his own yet he had no choice. I was just a kid landing a hand, being there when he needed to vent out the anger that was lashing in everyone's direction, when he needed to yell, when he needed to be silent. When he needed to cry and the very almost non-existent rare times when I could pull a smile or a laugh from the broken boy. I was just a kid, shouldering grief far beyond my years in order to help him cope with his. I was falling in love with a guy who loved a ghost. Some days I wanted to remember my age, remember the youth I could be celebrating and dropping away from him, protecting myself from the hurt that was surely going to come from crushing on someone so broken. Someone who would vow that he was ever going to love again, that it was just going to be him and Bianca. But I didn't. Because I was going to be the person who reminded him that it didn't need to be that way as long as he had friends, had help. When he lost Adriana, he lost whatever sliver of innocence he had left but maybe when I gave him mine, he was able to reclaim enough of his own to battle back. I'd do it again, even if it didn't lead to us one day becoming more than we were those nights Bianca wouldn't sleep. I'd do it because the world couldn't bare to lose a man like he would become when he learned how to be a father.

Rhys was out, Scarlett was out, it was just us here tonight. It was supposed to be a date night but once Good Will Hunting played, his attention seemed elsewhere for the rest of the night. Now, I'm in bed and his study door is closed. I'm living with a man haunted by a ghost again. 

He's never going to stop beating himself up. 

winter

It's Christmas and all I want to do is cry. I miss my daughter.

I wish he would just go talk to her. Tell her that he knows what she's going through. That he's felt the same bitter bite of betrayal that she has. I wish she would talk to him. Hear him out. I wish I could go back and know what was going on. Know she was falling in love and know Andrew had that kid marked for death. Retribution never seemed so ugly before. 

 Mason and Wyatt's heads are actually officially empty. It's confirmed. 

Some days I'm so angry at him I want to scream. Some days I'm so upset with her for leaving and staying gone this long I want to give up hope. Can anyone blame me? But he's still my husband, love of my life. And she's still my daughter.

Part of me wants to remind him how old she is, where we were each at her age. But that's not going to do me any favors or him any good. Sure, I also want her home with us again, I miss having her around. She's one of my best friends. And sure, this storm has me worried about her and Marisol but...god, is a little baby it's cold outside loving really so out of the question???????

He talked about Seb today. About how he's become just like him and how he hopes it's not going to stay so bad between them forever like it was with him and his father. His anger with Seb would probably have been marked on his headstone had Seb not taken care of his own arrangements years and years prior. I hope so too. I hope they can work this out. I want my family back. I want his good days to stick around longer. 

 spring

I'm such a fucking idiot. My entire body aches. Who tries to tackle the tending of an entire garden all in one go? This dumbass. God, I never had to pee so bad before and I ended up failing as a mother and a wife when Rhys ordered takeout because I hadn't come in and it didn't look like I ever would. But I bet I'm going to have a boss garden this year so, they'll live the one day I didn't supermom it.

 I have no idea what came over him or where his mind had been today but good god that was some great sex. 

 What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?.....

Happy Birthday. I hope someone remembered your favorite cake. 

summer 

It's like Drew knows something. Nothing is off per-say but it seems like something is heavy on his mind, a burden he's not letting me share and it’s not everything going on with Bianca. He’s been okay lately, everything’s been smooth but now, I don’t know. I know there's stuff he sometimes doesn't want to talk about and he tries to shield me from aspects of his job but I just hate seeing his shoulders and mind heavy.

Rhys made a face today that made him look exactly like Ted. It gets hard sometimes without Bee around because it's harder to remember how despite their birth parents, im her mother and Ted Roman has nothing to do with Andrew and my son. No Roman ever will, not while I'm alive.

I wanted to call Bianca a few times today, see if she wants to at least meet up somewhere. Maybe do lunch, get out together and just catch up. I see her at times but..it almost feels wrong, seeing her without Drew. It’s not fair to him and I hate feeling like I’m doing something horrid behind his back when all I’m doing is seeing my daughter. I can’t take much more of this. Something needs to give. I didn’t call. I just texted her a few funny photos of Scarlett. I know she loves having ammo again her little big sister.

Rhys is pulling away. I think it’s just his age, he doesn’t want to live under mom and dad anymore but I also feel like it might have something to do with his charade of a relationship with Liv. I think it’s starting to become more real than fake to him, when did that start? How did I miss the twinkling in his eye as he’s realizing he’s crushing on someone important? And Scarlett, she’s been seeing Elijah and I didn’t even know. We used to joke about boys together, me and my two girls. Cries of mom stop when I’d talk about their father, giggles in one of their bedrooms late into the night as we talked like girlfriends do. Me and my two best friends. God, I’ve been so focused on Andrew lately that my kids have reached that final stage in life where Mom is just...well, their mother. I think they don’t need me anymore, I checked out on them a little too much to be their friend. I wish Bianca was here. She would drag all of us out to mini-golf, make us watch some lame movies from their childhoods when we got back in. Fight with Scarlett over the last slice of pizza and nearly get a concussion in the process. I need my girl. My first girl, my baby girl who raised me as much as I helped Drew figure out how to raise her until Mason took over and I drifted out for a bit. I just need my daughter back. My happy little family. Back to the days where it was just Scarlett that was hard to find around the house. Please, someone give me back my family.

When you’re bitter over your youngest child’s incredible success because the anniversary of it just reminds you that your family has been shattered for nearly a year now. I’m sorry Scar. I wish I could have been more enthused as you roped us into rewatching the games. I just...I can’t face another year without Bianca around the house, getting into everything and ragging on her siblings. I just can’t. And I don’t think Drew can either. It’ll kill him.

Andrew and Rhys are going to London and he’s barred me from this trip. We haven’t been on a vacation in what feels like forever but I’m not going to push it. He’s so on edge lately, stressed out. I’ll let him go work and then maybe I can coax him into a holiday together. Just the two of us. I’ll promise to bring that swimsuit of mine he likes the best. And just give him that knowing wink when he says he doesn’t have a favorite swimsuit of mine. Just me and him. Like when we’d sneak kisses in the kitchen while Bianca and Rhys slept and Mason was banished over to Gia’s. At least throughout all this, even on the bad days, my husband still had a little love somewhere for me. Even when I’d turn my back on him in anger, he’d still lay there in bed next to me, an arm ready to hold me in close when I finally forgave him and rolled towards him. He’s going to London and maybe it’s better I don’t go there, I’ve always been hesitant in the past about it anyways. I’ll be waiting for him when he gets home. Because I’m Alyssa Nova, Andrew Nova’s wife. Mother to three kids, no matter how many live under the roof right now, I’ll always be that. 

Bianca’s coming over while he’s gone. I think I need to finally do something about this all. I know what has to be done. I know what I need to do. I have to risk Andrew being upset with me but I just...this needs to end.

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