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a little explanation on why i see yhs!funneh as a mirror to yumi/yandere-chan.
ive mentioned before that i see funneh as a mirror or a parallel to yumi, but i never really go in depth about it bc i dont really care enough to explain myself, but i have time before my next class so i might as well 🥀🥀
[ DISCLAIMER: I AM REFERRING TO THE OC "FUNNEH", NOT KAT WHEN MAKING THIS POST. KAT IS A PERSON, AND I AM SPECIFICALLY DISSECTING THE YHS FUNNEH. ]
lets break it down:
characters, roles, and storylines.
funneh's role is to be the main protagonist of the main yhs series—which is storyline 1: funneh's journal logs, with gold being the deuteragonist in her life at yhs.
yumi, meanwhile, takes the role of the main protagonist of the lore of the yhs series—storyline 2: the murders—with alec as her deuteragonist. these roles are important for later.
in terms of character and motivation, we get little to nothing from funneh—yumi is motivated by her "love" for senpai. this may just be a huge hole in the krew's writing of funneh in general, but we don't have a set backstory for gold or funneh in the series—no flashbacks, no mention of parents or siblings, and worst of all, no scenes of them at "home", because they go to a boarding school.
funneh doesn't have emotional motivation, but yumi does. you might think this is a direct contradiction of what I'm trying to say, but it actually just fuels what i have to say more because there's reasonable suspicion that funneh may or may not be running from something she's done.
personality and behaviors.
in terms of personality, yumi and funneh are completely different, yet stay in the same category.
in season 1: yumi is volatile, reckless, and unafraid to use violence and threats to get her way. it's offhandedly mentioned that she's killed someone just for the sake of "she looked too much like me", not only in season 1, but in season 2 with ayano. she's jealous, possessive, and self absorbed. (i do want to clarify that she's not a narcissist because she doesn't crave other people's validation and attention) she's a sinister and well written villain, i applaud the krew for being able to write her so well.
in season 1, funneh is just as self absorbed, reckless, and volatile. she doesn't care if what she does hurts people she doesn't like (re: she wanted to jump on mr. draco in ep 6) or if someone is dying (re: olivia's "suicide"), she only cares about having fun and doing things she deems fun or cool. funneh doesn't care about overstepping other people's boundaries or even respecting them. this is very apparent in season 1 where she's constantly insulting and stomping over kyran while they're staying at his dorm (rewatch s1 of yhs again after kyran is introduced, i promise you, funneh and gold treat him so much worse than you remember)
she's also seen breaking into dorms multiple times just to steal food or even breaking into private areas like the police station to steal evidence or taytay's trailer to steal a hairbrush to sell.
deuteragonists.
kyran is not the only victim of funneh being pushy and mean either. gold is also a huge victim of her whims, but funneh also clearly cares enough for her to yield, kind of treating her like a dog—restricting her from things (like a credit card or millions of dogs), giving her a treat now and then to keep her loyal. notable moments of this is when gold almost dies at yumi's party and funneh brushes her off and calls it a freak accident. (personally, if that happened to my best friend at someone's house, i would crash out and take my bestfriend home.)
multiple times, gold says she doesn't want to do something and funneh keeps pushing and coercing her into dangerous situations. that's not something a good friend would do. a good friend can respect your boundaries, even your hard nos.
cross reference what i mentioned with yumi and alec, and suddenly, you're getting the same dynamic. the only difference being alec is doing it for the money and to live, while gold is doing it because funneh is her best friend. they're both being coerced and victimized by antisocial people, even if funneh has more humanity in her.
theories.
this is section is a LOT more fanon than the earlier sections, so feel free to disagree on this! it's not canon, and most likely just me yapping.
theory 1: anyway, i personally think funneh has a likely chance of being a narcissist while yumi is a sociopath. narcissists (NPD) and sociopaths (ASPD) fall into the same cluster of personality disorders, cluster b. the symptoms of cluster b personalities often overlap with each other, giving leeway into why funneh has more emotions than yumi does. why do i think this and should i probably not be using irl mental diagnoses as headcanons? yes, probably BUT both characters have a lot of symptoms of those diagnoses. (not to say people who have NPD or ASPD will act like funneh or yumi, im js saying they have symptoms of those disorders. not everyone with NPD will be like funneh and not everyone with ASPD will be like yumi, im js pointing out symptoms)
theory 2: funneh has killed someone/was involved with someone's murder. she's seen running away from things a lot, and its not hard to imagine she's done something very bad and has hidden it and is trying to run from it.
anyway, thats about it, thanks for reading this long ass post. love u! i have class ill see yall laterr 🤍
#but that's just a theory#a film theory#thanks for watching#ANYWAY on a more serious note i havent been on tumblr a lot solely because i've been busy with school and stuff#and i also keep forgetting to repost my videos and pictures on here like a moron#sorry chat#honestly in terms of writing#funneh is a bit of a dud just like elijah but compared to elijah funneh has screentime#so i have more behaviors to dissect :D#syi says shit 🫧#writing#fanfic#ao3#fiction#ao3 writer#itsfunneh#itsfunneh theory#yhs#itsfunneh yhs#yandere highschool#yandere high school#itsfunneh yandere high school#this is honestly so fanon coded so i promise u do nOT take this as a proper dissection#pls remember to recheck the facts#i am a human being and i am probably misremembering a lot of things#im js a girl#who happens to really enjoy dissecting behavioral patterns like a creep#krew#krewfam#lets break it down -syi
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Spoilers Tbhk chapter 126
The end of the new chapter appears with a brand new question: Who is this Akane?
Is he the same one as the one Nene just tried to kill in the last Timeline?
I had a lot of random ideas about it, so let's talk about it! Disclaimer: It will be a little bit all over the place, some ideas will contradict each other! It's mostly to see what we have right now.
One of my first idea is: Nene doesn't exist in the Present anymore.
At the end of the chapter, Nene appears during the 103rd festival which takes place in 2005, 10 years before the main timeline, and for once, she doesn't seem to wanna use the sandglass right away.
Which means it may be a timeline where Akane and Teru remember, like in chapter 112, and Akane realizes that Nene doesn't exist as she should. It may be even coming from before this after all since she was born in 1999/2000, she should be 5/6 in 2005. He then decided or is asked by Kako to check each festival from 2014 to older years, to see when she is.
It also seems that the Clock of the clock keepers only functions during the three days of the festival. I won't go into details but I am pretty sure they can use the clock keepers biggest power at least only during the festival, which is why time is also so fragile at this period and would also explain the three days limit for the memories.
Second Idea:
Nene is 'stuck' in the hourglass.
This is Kako's reaction to Nene using the hourglass, he is shocked and angry that she wants to use it despite saying his Tale but here he seems just 'mildly annoyed'. The hourglass did disappear with her though. It's great to keep in mind that The sanglass wants to get more and more people into it, probably gaining power like this like the God Pit. Contrary to the God of the pit who at least gives people wishes in exchange, the SandGlass only set people to fail. Its malicious intention way more present than the other Kami the god pit.
It always make Nene go back to the Sand everytime, never allowing her to say she wants to get her old timeline back, to stay there, never giving her a break into the loop, driving people quickly into madness and losing all senses of self.
'It's alright, you can try again and again and again' until your lose your life and soul so you can join us. The Sandglass already knows what's waiting for anyone who uses it, it's never offering a solution, just forcing her to go back until she completely loses it. Making her thinks she has a choice in any of the decisions when she has none. After killing all her friends, I am pretty sure only a few more loops would be enough to make her take her own life or die by becoming much more reckless, and finally be part of the sandglass.
All stories told by Kako end up with the person using it dying. Either by their own hands or by others. The only one who ''didn't kill himself'' is the ClockMaker, putting a curse onto his own soul so it could never rest, so his soul would remember what he did and create a supernatural born from grief. So he could prevent people from doing the same mistake as all those people. The clockMaker is the only one who didn't use the sandglass 'one last time' to get what he wanted.
The Sandglass doesn't care what the present will look like, it only wants to empower itself by using greedy humans.
Which is why I think there is a possibility that the timeline Nene is in right now, is 'stuck' in the sandglass. I can't explain exactly how it would work tbh, maybe that just the sandglass 'create' false or alternatives timelines, enough to make the human using it go insane. Like it's a sandglass who can ''travel'' through timelines? I don't really know how it would work, but the dimension Nene is in is clearly a different space like the Nowhere where rules don't apply as in the real world.
But only humans can have access to it, hence why Akane is the one at the end who appears to potentially get her out, not Kako or Mirai, but a human, who can break the rules that bound the supernaturals and can fall under curses more easily, who can be cursed so can lure the sanglass to allow him to use his power. The sandglass would allow a human to use it, not a supernatural.
I already said here that I think there is a possibility Akane was already going after Nene since some times. The question now is: from which timeline it is? This this will be even harder to explain.
I personnaly think that Akane from the first new timeline (chapter 112 to 125) and from chapter 111 are the same, or at least, share the same memories.
Everything he says in chapter 113 is just so personal.
Which add to my idea that Nene is in a different timeline, that is not the same as the one she just left. She is not trying to change the timelines she is in, she is in a brand new one. The last twos were way more linked together than the ones Nene is in.
Because Teru and Akane don't remember anything, compared to the old one where the clock keepers used their powers.
Like when Kako uses its power in chapter 27, or when people are stuck in boundaries.
People with high spiritual energy always have better chance to remember.
Which implies to me that Nene hasn't really gone back in Time in the same way as they did previously. The Sandglass works differently that the clock keepers's clock. Kako and the Cat stayed in the real hourglass/clock.
Nene only has a part of its sand. The big part of it is controled by Kako and is what helps going back in Time, the clock keepers' powers over the Past.
I just wanna note that for the new timeline, only those who were present during the changes, ended up remembering right away (Nene and Teru). But it still happened at one point for others characters like Kou and Mitsuba/Sousuke. Characters like Tsuchigomori aren't shown remembering anything, but it's hard to say how much it may affect him since he is an old supernatural. His three days of memories left may have already passed, this memory thing is really wonky and only works when AidaIro want it to work though so I have no proof.
I also personnaly don't think the Akane from the many timelines Nene goes through, is the same as we see at the end of chapter 125. I don't think this Akane is supposed to remember the timelines. For a lot of different reasons that I think don't make sense, but Nene is pretty obvious in the way she acts that something is happening.
Akane doesn't change anything in the way he acts at all. He even worries for her because she acts differently and says non sensical stuff. There is no way he remembers all those timelines here. Or he can have the Oscar for the best actor idk it makes no sense. The only thing where I am not sure is the last one, the only time for me he would finally remembers all of it, is when he is dying. But I still think it's a weak plot point, really random and would go against the idea that he has been looking for her for some times.
(Funny note: Akane is a character who is always shown with half lidded eyes when ''''dying''''compared to the others like Teru. He is dying/losing conciousness, not dead/inconscious, right away.)
I still feel like what Kako did is way different than what Nene is doing with the hourglass. Nene is under the sandglass's influence, Kako uses its power only once to get things right (from his pov), never using it without taking precautions and doing his own investigation before acting.
Nene has a part of the sandglass, the core that wants it so bad to be used by human, but Kako still has the biggest part of its power with all the sand present when Nene enters the Clock.
And Kako, is supposedly working with Akane.
Let's go over Akane's role as a clock keeper.
This is more of a personal preference, but it would be insane to me that Akane has been stuck in the old timeline, in the boundary, alone, not doing anything when he has one of the most ''pro active'" personality of the cast. And especially that all this last arc, was for nothing. This arc already makes me mad that apparently no one will remember, this is just unfair to all others characters.
The idea of memories is important for the Clock Keepers in general. The idea that Nene is here using a hourglass creating different timelines and Kako being able to remember the first timelines/changes don't seem like a big stretch to me. They can't pinpoint exactly where/when Nene is and what she has changed since Akane implies that he has been looking for her for some time, with the 'Finally'.
But they know and remember that she is traveling through Time.
Which still begs the question of: why is Akane here in his clock keeper outfit if he doesn't remember/if he is supposed to be dead since he died in all new timelines? And I will be really honest with you and says that I have no clues which make really sense.
If we go into a more of one of the Meta sense of the Present, Akane may have something like Shijima's power.
A kind of power of Ubiquity power, but accross Timelines. There is the human Akane from the new Timeline, and the one from the boundary.
And the one, stuck in the clock keepers boundary, gain the memories of the others once they are erased, like a safety net so the supernatural part of him can still exist like Kako wants him to. By creating new timelines, it create new Akanes, that shares all memories before the changes were done by Kako but the clock keepers of the present is still out there. And with those memories he can see if something has gone wrong, that multiples bad timelines are being created, which is why, he finally acts now.
The only thing that point to this, is the fact that it's implied that Akane has two bodies. And that we don't really know how it works. But it's pretty clear that these two bodies are separated, they only share the same soul. (and we know that souls can be cut too)
He is way stronger and resistant as a supernatural.
If he kept his injuries, Akane should have died when the severance happened, or at least be not okay but he was. His injury only coming back when he gained his clock keeper form back in chapter 85.
Throughout the manga he is one of the character that has taken a lot of injuries, but only in his clock keeper form, and it never interferes with his human body, not even once.
(disclaimer: it may only be just a choice of Aidairo to absolutely refuse to show consequences btw :)) I will put it here because for all others characters it worked like this too when they went back from the far shore, humans go back to how they were when coming back from a boundary)
It's also shown that his power don't work when he wants to use it, because another Kami is in front of him. But he also supposedly know that it doesn't work outside of the school? And he thought that it would give Nene his autorisation but it broke?
We also know that his watch works outside of school in supernaturals prominent places, like the far shore.
I honestly don't really know how it would work, but I at least really think that Akane from the new timeline and the one in the boundary in chapter 111 have the same memories that's for sure. Is the human Akane able to use travel in time if he doesn't go himself 'free the clock keeper Akane'? I am not really sure how it would work once again.
The Akane in the new timeline is still Akane, like every other characters. I am just not sure about the timelines Nene is going through in the loops though. But I can't explain it more than 'it may be something the sandglass is trying to copy the way her friends are/to give her a sense of false security'. Is it some kind of tests to see how long Nene's soul would break? The sandglass don't even need to really travel back in time, it just needs to break Nene's soul to get her in the sand. But tbh this would be a weird choice too. So I am not sure about this, just that the sandglass definitely doesn't work the same way as Kako's clock.
The last option is, Akane at the end of chapter 126 is the one from chapter 111 (so from the old Timeline) and he absolutely doesn't share memories with Akane from the new Timelines, only Kako told him to go after Nene in the Timeloops. But once again it would kinda strange and really underwhelming from AidaIro, the writing for the characters this arc were... not really good for most of them, Nene being the only expection. I at least want one of the character to remember the Timeline we have been in since 1 year (10/12 chapters) for us readers. And Akane is the one who would make the most sense.
Last insane theory is Akane is the cat and he already tried to travel through time without being allowed to and Kako punished him but I won't expand on this because I don't like it much and would add a layer of 'wtf is happening' to this already really confusing arc.
New insane theory: he has another body that's made like the one of the clock keepers since they can cut souls. (I don't like it but here it is)
The clock keeper of the present can see through the eyes of people using the hourglass (no proof at all for this too jut random ideas)
And for the question: Will Akane pay the price to go back to the old Timeline? I already talked a little bit about it : here
I will be really honest but the only way it could have worked for me is: if it was confirmed that Akane was supposed to die at 12 and that the clock keepers extended his life with the contract, in the condition that they can take it back if needed.
But once again, we have no infos, Akane would have known this and I personally think it would be unfair to do that. To Akane, and to the clock keepers as characters. And for the loop Nene is stuck in, why would Akane pay for this? He isn't Kou or Hanako, Akane is a kind character, still he woudln't do something like this right away as the first solution expect if he had no choice, it's not Akane's place to pay for this. Nene shouldn't either but it would make more sense for her to pay a price to me for her timeloops.
I will end all of this to say that AidaIro's writing has... not been the greatest for me in this last arc. I understand the need to keep a lot of things mysterious, but they often put setups they never use after (*coughs* the key Nene got from Amane from the past *coughs* Akane's weird body thing I absolutely don't understand) and now we have so littles informations that we can create anything we want if we cross random informations.
I don't think it's too bad if people guess stuff from time to time, if it means the writing is less blurry. Being able to do theories is cool, but like the broadcasting club I just think it makes everything way more underwheling. Right now, absolutely everything could happen, and we could only nod. Because we have absolutely no informations, on Akane's contract, on how time travels really work in tbhk, wtf is going on with Amane and the big clock, how boundaries and the fare shore really work, why tf is Tsuchigomori a supernatural that can appear to human and not some of the others, why Nene is so special and what is the limits of her ''powers'' etc... They refuse to acknowledges some of the early rules they put, and absolutely don't make the characters deal with consequences. I really hope I will be proven wrong this time and to note that this is my opinion btw, but it's been a long time I've had this feeling with the writing and it's even worst with this arc.
I am glad Nene was proven wrong in this chapter (and it ties to something I talk about here more in details with Kou's character too), mostly because it's good to see something that has been implied since some times.
Nene is a good person, a really nice person, but play with the rules when they have been said explicitly, and see how they answer you.
Supernaturals are bound by rules and I truly think humans characters will be the ones who help them all in the end like it has been happening in the manga, even if humans are also the causes of a lot of their sufferings.
I think a human, will be the one to break the curse and the timeline from the clock keepers who are too stuck on their own rules, because it's still not fair. Nene is absolutely right on this and we understand why she took this risk. But I am still glad Nene was proven wrong this time. You can't expect to play with something as powerful as Time and think you will be okay after it.
They were against Death and Life in the last arc, trying to play by the rules and go out of it without consequences. Now they are against something more powerful than Death, something that can controls everything and suposedly exists everywhere, Time.
And the last thing they will probably be against, with the 7th mystery, will be something even more powerful than that.
Something probably close to Omnipotence, Creation and Destruction. Something that doesn't exist by the rules.
Little detail:
It's important to note that the Future still hasn't woken up yet contrary to the Past, since the Present isn't fixed/isn't here :)))
I can't wait to see if she will have a bigger role now, I am excited for her to appear at least. I also don't think Kako said the full truth and we will have the rest of their backstories a little bit later.
#toilet bound hanako kun#tbhk#jshk#this is all over the place but I am not brave enough to clean it sorry#aoi akane#yashiro nene#mirai tbhk#kako tbhk#tbhk manga#jibaku shonen hanako kun#ramblings#tbhk analysis#it's more like ideas after ideas than real analysis/theories#spoilers alert I have read the last chapter only twice oops#it's conspiracy theories over conspiracy theories lol#I needed to point out that this is kind of a mess#and if no one can guess it's normal :'))#I really hate the idea that Akane is the cat but welp I can see how it could happen still#once again if AidaIro decided to do that we could only nod#because why tf not lol#I wanted to get this insanity out of my chest#it makes no sense to me and I honestly don't know how AidaIro would make it up to me in term of writing rn#but welp#maybe ://#I am also aware I am so upset because it's a clock keepers arc and hmmmm#I am not really liking it :'))#Mirai save me#save me Mirai#may edit and add random ideas later#I did this in one go in like 2/3 hours rip
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AU where Ford's metal plate heats up to extreme temperatures in his head as Bill electrocutes him and starts damaging his brain irrevocably. Bill doesn't notice that he's going too far with things until he demands the equation again and Ford can't give a coherent response as the still hot metal plate continues to cook his mind. Perhaps Bill realizes the metal plate is cooking his brain and instantly cools it with a snap, but Ford is extremely disoriented and doesn't understand enough of what's happening to even start to tell Bill an equation. Bill tries to fix his brain but it's one thing to restart a heart or reconnect limbs, quite another to rebuild damaged neuron connections without even knowing what was supposed to be there. On top of the metal plate being impossible to shift or remove leaving it impossible for Bill to even read what he's doing in his attempts to get the buried or perhaps even erased equation out of Ford's mind.
He almost kills Ford outright in outrage, but the Pines go on their rescue attempt just in time to distract from that being a possibility.
Everything seems normal to the Pines as they smash Henchmaniacs and get Bill to fight the Shacktron, up until they get to saving Ford. They were hoping for Bill's weakness and to save Ford in general, but only a few moments spent with Ford is enough for them to realize something is terribly wrong. Ford is extremely disoriented and confused, not understanding what the kids try to ask him for or perhaps even who they are. He talks a little more hesitantly and with a stammer, with simpler words and it's clear he's working hard even just to talk. his hands tremble and he struggles to stay on his feet.
Stan's a bit more stubborn about seeing that anything's wrong and still angry and he's just jabbing at Ford like he's normal. Ford doesn't really respond until Stan uses the word 'circle' in a sentence. Then Ford says "zodiac" over and over until the kids get that he's remembered something, even if he's not as lucid as normal. they try saying random words until Ford gets stuck on repeating similar ones, like they jog his memory but he's unable to fully articulate what they mean. eventually they get enough terms to gather that the zodiac is a circle with a bunch of symbols all around and Bill in the center. they build the zodiac and guide Ford to his symbol.
they figure out which symbol goes to which person. Stan is last again and he's making a fuss about the thing they'd drawn being stupid and that his brother's lost his mind too much for that to make any sense at being something that will stop Bill. Dipper tries to say that he remembers seeing a page with a symbol like that in the journal as proof that Ford's not lost everything in his mind. Maybe Ford gets teary eyed as he tries to understand anything of what's happening and that finally convinces Stan that something happened to Ford and to finally join in hopes to stop the apocalypse and all that. or something, i'll figure out a stronger reason or whatever later haha.
anyway, they defeat Bill with the zodiac since Stan's been convinced that Ford's not doing well enough for any thank you askering (or if he does try it, Ford's responses being confused and short or nothing at all convinces him enough to just quit asking). and also Ford's not doing well enough in the mind for any kind of retort anyway. kinda just dissociating at that point.
Ford is taken to a hospital outside Gravity Falls, cuz even though the town is restored, the doctors and stuff at the local one aren't specialized in neurology like Ford needs. Ford's brain is found to be intensely damaged once they remove the metal plate, a severe TBI that affects a lot of Ford's cognitive and general mental functions.
Stan feels guilty about it because of his unwillingness to save Ford in the first place and how he didn't believe there was a problem until it was staring him in the face. Stuff like that. He tries to help Ford regain function in some areas as the neurologists recommend and Ford does get better. At least some, the damage is likely to be a permanent part of his life even as he improves in some areas.
He's still very smart, though the injury makes him lose his confidence in that regard as a lot of things he knows are harder to recall or put into words or even in some cases, to understand. He'd put a lot of his identity and worth into being smart and feeling like he's not anymore just wrecks him. Stan helps him see that his intelligence is still there and that it's just been put through a barrier he can learn to overcome with time. Stan also reminds Ford that he's still someone he and the rest of their family loves so very much, even if he isn't smart anymore somehow.
Ford eventually comes to terms with what happened to his brain with Bill and how it doesn't erase who he is or how smart he is. He has a support network in his family and their friends and he can't be more grateful as he navigates his new struggles. He learns to place his worth on something that isn't just his intelligence, to accept himself as who he is regardless of how smart he perceives himself to be.
#gravity falls#ford pines#stan pines#stanford pines#stanley pines#mabel pines#dipper pines#was rereading my april whump challenge and the one i did with ford's torture just... got me thinking about doing a whole thing with it#especially one commenter's idea from that fic about this sort of thing happening#i've been curious about exploring ford having a traumatic brain injury and struggling to come to terms with feeling 'less' than he was#and learning that his worth shouldn't be based on his intelligence so much as on himself as a person worthy of respect and love#regardless of perceived 'slowness'#so once i'm ready i wanna write something about this for real honestly#anybody have any input? something to add or change?#i'm always at least a little worried about coming off ableist when i deal with disabilities in my fics#especially mental ones#but i hope this idea is a good one in that regard even if it isn't fully fleshed out yet
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Of course I forgot to send in the cute birthday celebration challenge forgive meee 😭 (but omg no pressure to answer if the birthday girl isn’t feeling up for it!!)
But let’s try…
Sun + Moon for our blasty boy Bakugo 👀
you catch katsuki in the in-betweens.
he’s grown suspicious of it—you know he out of all people would notice; but you neither confirm nor deny that it’s intentional.
there’s something about katsuki in that sliver of space and time right before sunrise and sunset—right before the shift into something new.
“someone’s excited,” you sneak up behind him, wrapping an arm around his shoulders as you kiss his cheek.
he grumbles before giving you a side-eye, cheeks turning a shade darker under the twilight. his lips part slightly as if he’s about to say something, but he tuts instead, clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth—no sharpness, no bite.
you look at him curiously, hanging on to the stillness of the hour.
today is supposed to be a busy day—the start of a long trip for you and katsuki; the start of his first ever long trip, actually.
“somethin’ on my face or some shit?”
you snap out of staring, gaze falling straight into his—vermillion red softened into a deep mauve amidst the blue light.
this is why you do it—
the perpetual frown on his face is gone, the tightness of his jaw loosened. there’s a look in his eyes that tells you there’s been something on his mind for a long, long while.
—this is why you catch katsuki in the in-betweens.
you give him a small smile, a little mischievous as you lean in and peck him on the nose.
“now you do,” you giggle as you inch closer on the wooden step.
he rubs his nose immediately, checking for smudges of lipstick, “fuckin—“
“just all my lovin’,” you tease.
you’re half expecting him to get back at you for it—to tickle you or smother you in kisses of his own; katsuki can be aggressive in love, a fact you’ve come to know well over the years.
but he doesn’t.
instead, he stares. a few paused seconds that feel slowed down to eternity. there’s the look again, like something’s been on his mind, combined with the look people say he only has for you.
suddenly, you feel nervous—for what, you don’t know, but your hand searches for his out of instinct. it’s damp when your palm sticks against his, his fingers intertwining with yours like a habit of his own.
he turns your clasped hands over, catching view of the back of yours.
it stays quiet for a few moments—a side of him you only see in times like this. you know there’s a war waging on in his head, a decision he’s been mulling over just waiting to be spilled out.
you know because katsuki only ever sits out before sunrise when he has a lot on his mind.
“you okay?” you whisper.
he hums, rubbing the back of your hand with his thumb, “just thinkin’.”
“you can tell me…” you nudge, “…if you want,” the butterflies in your stomach flapping harder.
you hold your breath.
he chuckles, that damn attractive half-sigh, “don’t know how yet.”
and you think you know what it is—a conversation you have every now and then, always with open-ended conclusions. katsuki has his issues, and so do you—
“just say it how it is,”
you never pressed him for answers, fully content to live at the pace he wanted because you loved him and that was enough.
—but when katsuki looks at you like this, like you’re everything gone right in his life, it’s hard not to think about the possibilities of more.
tears begin to collect along your waterline as he leads your hand into his pocket, your fingertips grazing a small velvet box.
you choke up, tears falling as you pout.
“woke up in the middle of the night with a fuckin’ god awful migraine,” he starts, wiping your tears with his thumb, “so i thought i’d go for a run, y’know, sweat it out and shit.”
you nod, listening.
“but when i got out of bed, you started mumblin’ my name,” he takes a deep breath, “thought you were awake, honestly, but you didn’t say anythin’ when i asked what you needed.”
“looked like you had a nightmare, so i went back to bed, and—” he pauses, collecting his words as he breathes out, “—you hugged me n’—”
his eyes gloss over as he tucks you into his side.
“—you told me you loved me.”
it’s not anything new—you both know that; you tell him you love him all the time. but—
“fuck, i’m ramblin’,” he half chuckles again.
“i love that about you too,” you sniffle, half-giggling as you nudge his chin with your nose.
you intentionally catch katsuki in the in-between’s because you love the side of him that comes out when he’s a little loose-lipped; a little less tense from all the day’s worries. you love the way he rambles, how he goes off on a tangent when he’s especially passionate about something.
he gives you a look so soft, your heart swells.
a small smile makes its way to katsuki’s face as he grips your hand tighter.
“couldn’t go back to sleep ‘cause all i was thinkin’ about was how to keep it this way forever.”
you’ve pictured this moment a few times before, all in different scenarios, situations, locations—always with the note that even if it didn’t happen, you’d be okay.
but now you have this: you and katsuki, on the wooden steps right by your garden bathed in twilight.
“decided on it for a while, just didn’t know when would be right,” he fishes the box out of his pocket, fiddling with it as he takes your hand in his other one.
“i know you said that lovin’ me was enough, but forever’s a fuckin’ long time,” he half-chuckles again, a little choked up, “you didn’t think i’d let you waste that on some loser who won’t even ask you to marry him, did you?”
you don’t think you’re coherent when you respond, a mess of tears and all the love you can pour out. katsuki doesn’t even get to show you the ring before you tackle him, nodding into his chest.
it doesn’t matter, anyway—
it was more than enough that he even asked.
n/a: thank u for sending this prompt erika!!! i am so rusty but i am writing this with all the katsuki feelings in me, my heart could burst!!!! sun & moon = twilight just because of the presence of both during that hour; i also just think it’s such a delicate balance to have—which i think also describes their relationship! katsuki has commitment issues 🥲 sorry, i love writing him in the process of healing ajkdndkd also !!! i also think katsuki can be romantic in his own way like wdym he reads all those shoujo mangas … there is stored romance in that boy . maybe not the smooooothest but yk. it works. and also, he wasn't rlly planning on proposing at this moment (more during the trip) but !! just felt right yk?
#katsuki x reader#bakugo x reader#bnha x reader#mha x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#shotorus.workbook#ask#rep#erika.🦇#kedsandtubesocks#HONESTLY. this took me THE FUCKKKK out#ive missed writing so much#this is all i have for now im so soRRY 😭😭😭😭#anyway just some extra thoughts n context; katsuki and reader have been together a while and reader rlly truly loves him#and is willing to be how they are just bc reader loves him that much#katsuki has commitment issues aka more like long term forever life future kind of commitment issues#more like he’s just kinda scared that he won’t be able to deliver what he needs to in the relationship for that long#smth smth unpredictable job smth smth personal angst and he’s just not sure if he’ll be good enuf ever#but he truly does love reader i think to the point that it scares him cos its not smth he can explain#also idt he feels like he’s good at /loving/ bc he’s not sure he knows how / if the way he does is what’s best for reader#honestly i think a lot abt katsuki and all the shit i think he’d be dealing w and it’s a lot …….
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very many a deltarune doodles. started playing the game and: Yes. tenna is still my favourite. he’s literally my best friend.
#deltarune#deltarune fanart#jevil deltarune#kris dreemurr#tenna deltarune#spamton#<- really like that he’s not included in deltarune tagging#just spamton i guess#by default anyway#ralsei deltarune#noelle holiday#noelle deltarune#i’m actually a little obsessed to hell and back with kris wearing the dealmaker#and honestly a little obsessed with their odd companionship with spamton to begin with#who up being puppets? i guess?#who up having someone on the phone?#someone particularly menacing and scary on the phone?#hey. answer the phone.#also the connections he has to noelle. i like that too. and i like tenna not-liking snow.#snow to static to something else#something that means loss very distinctly no matter what the loss is per se#or something…#i dunno i’m just getting into it#on chapter 3 right now taking every note on tenna’s behaviour as i can#which is obviously so i can write a fic where he returns to amicable terms with his former employees#and he gets to be a little bit okay#which is all one man can really want for his bff#i don’t know if i’ll give him to mettaton. i’d have to think on that#on one hand: face yer prollems! on the other: nobody to watch him#ran outta tags sorry
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an angel visited me creepypasta oc art 👍👍
#my posts#tw blood#creepypasta#digital art#no id#creepypasta oc#wormz ocz#If I ever were to write her story or talk about it in depth#I feel as if I would need to do a lot more research and reading first to do it respectfully#The horror of her story is more about how abuse manifests in religious environments and how it effects mentally ill children who aren’t#given proper support and the tragic outcomes that can come of it#But that’s all just ideas of how it can be idk how well I can pull it of in terms of execution#Honestly half of creepypasta stories are about the mistreatment of the mentally ill#but then also half the time the story is demonizing said mental illness#Definitely want to avoid that
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So there was going to be a lot more but consider this a part 1? For OC Lore Drops.
(none of this was drawn today but because it was storming earlier and I got some rest, I feel like I really want to knock out commission work and do not have time to draw something to post today without messing that rhythm up.)
Also a little bit more: Simeon is a romance novel writer and his hobby is people-watching. His ability to sense the supernatural entities is so exciting to the hellhound who just adores /trying/ to get the jump on him but always ends up 'sniffed out' before she can.
#my characters#i had a lot of fun working on this a while back and would love to go back to drawing more info but#at a later date when i dont owe art and have more energy to spare#there are also a lot more Just A Guys in my plots it is truly one of my favorite things to make#such as deacon in the deity plot who is just a human mortal guy dude and gets very involved with the various deities of the world#such as tolliver the just a guy without a soul in the plot evil bound#where all of the other characters are demons or folklore related (like the boogeyman / sandman / and halibut the siren)#its just such a fun dynamic to create around for me personally ?? its in most of my plots lmao#also ego and serenity my beloved oc otp is an example#ego is the older prince thus going to be king while his younger brother extreme can make portals and hop dimensions#and serenity his dearly beloved fiance is actually an energy alien pretending to be human and struggling a bit but ego writes it off as#hes just a weird guy whatever who cares (then becomes friends and really adores the awkwardness its so cute?)#and ego to top it off is scared of the supernatural elements like gets SO scared at ghost stories#so serenity thinks his existence of being an alien would scare ego so he feels really bad that ego thinks he likes him bc hes not a human#but yeah ! just a guy is so key to most of my oc plots and its why a lot of the times i latch onto side characters#i love the just a guy in the background (looking at you chris miller dbh i love you)#its why i tend to love non romantic options in otomes or non party member npcs in rpgs#i just LOVE to see a guy in a situation not having the best time or a guy thriving in a situation despite the odds#its very fun ! and honestly just a guy is a gender neutral term to me but its mostly a guy (masc) because#girls arent allowed to exist in fiction unless they have plot relevance unfortunately (most times)#sorry that got really long in the tags im gonna draw now
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I do think it pisses people off how … good… your relationship with Togame is
#I could spend 400k words in m#these tags talking about all the little things but I afear it might be boring#so anyway instead I’m just gonna say togame has been the biggest fandom let down since ………… uh I’d be here forever picking the right#comparison you just have to believe me#anyway everyone was so hype about him for like 2 days until we all realized he’s incredibly hard to write#😔😔😔😔😔LMAOOOOO#and I don’t blame anyone I’m on that boat too and he’s the love of my life. truly.#but like. ARGJSHS why is he ��� *hits him with a pot*#but yeah that’s just to say people see you together and are like. puzzled you have no relationship problems#and honestly get kinda mad you don’t p*ss each other off. like he is NOT supposed to be a good boyfriend. and yet!#mostly cuz of his reputation n whatnot but it’s still funny for them to come to terms with it#caitie blabs
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Context: Yang and Jaune are chilling in the commons room.
Jaune: "I wonder if anybody here would even date me."
Yang: "I'mma be real, VB. You have a vibe that makes it feel wrong to do anything other than marry you."
Jaune: "…Wait, what?"
Yang: "I'm not saying this as an insult, though. It's just…you give off 'saving himself for his one true love' type of deal."
Yang: "You're a sweet dude, don't get me wrong. But, thinking about you in any way other than 'married life with a few kids and a pet' just feels wrong. Like, I feel like I'm committing a sin for doing that."
Jaune, now very confused: "I don't know what to make of that."
Yang: "You're a Sheppardist, right?"
Jaune: "Yeah, why?"
Yang: "You know that story of...fuckin' whoever where they died due to poisoned clothes?"
Jaune: "Saint Alcides, yeah."
Yang: "Wanting to do anything that isn't 'consummate love in candlelight' or 'give you pizza and a Director's Cut DVD' is essentially how that feels for basically anyone who knows you for more than ten minutes."
#rwby#rwby shitpost#jaune arc#yang xiao long#honestly#i came with the thought of jaune giving off 'you can romance this dude but prepare to feel bad about it' vibes#and it honestly fits in my mind#especially volume 1 jaune#that boy has 'easy to manipulate' written all over him#you can just lie to that boy's face and he would probably believe it#two wolves in every person upon getting to know him: Giving him a long-term love life vs grabbing and shaking him#idk what this is#why did i write this
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pov: you're having your comphet removed 🌈🤯😤 (doctor's orders) 🙏🏼💫🩻


this is why bones only gets to play dress-up as a treat 😔 if they'd put him in a little blue tunic in plato's stepchildren it would've been deadly

@very-bad-poetry-captain was watching the cloud minders and generously brought these skimpy little guard outfits to my attention. and then i blacked out for two hours and...
#star trek#star trek fanart#mckirk#mckirk fanart#star trek meme#leonard mccoy#bones mccoy#jim kirk#star trek tos#the cloud minders#mcspirk#leonard bones mccoy#deforest kelley#honestly i had de AND bones in my head painting this because this just feels like a very de expression#have we all seen that blooper where bill shat and de nearly kiss btw that is VERY important to me#ive got nothing to say for myself really. i shit you not ive done nothing but write and draw for two days#a lot of which... cannot be posted in full here if you know what i mean lmfao. but ive got a lot to show yall!#star trek the original series#dust medibang paints#I FORGOT I MADE THAT TAG arghhhhhhh now im going to have to go back and tag.....#adhd woes. short term memory whomst
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Kind of want to write a fic of every time Mark left Amber as he did superhero work and her life that we don’t see. It won’t be a romance but honestly in my head my girl was stressed.
Being the presumably only black girl in her school, having a crush on a guy who is sweet and what she thought was an upfront guy. Working the soup kitchen and most likely a lot of them ended up there due to the destruction of the heroes around them and hearing those stories. Which is how she pieced the whole Invincible thing together. That moment of Mark meeting her parents and him not showing up just that scene of her making excuses for him to her dad. This makes her even angrier because she never thought she would be that girl UGHHH
#also did you notice whenever she was on screen they only played r&b lmaooo#I see her a lot as a younger syd from the bear idk#I honestly don’t think mark is a good boyfriend in general he’s sweet and kind but in terms of being there intimately? idk#yk it’s bad when you don’t wanna write romance fics but just give female characters a life outside of the protagonist#invincible#amber bennett#mark grayson#allen the alien#omni man
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Can you do Constantine and Damien’s wedding? If not, that’s totally OK. 😗😗
I totally could, though I'd have to do research on Arabic weddings which I know next to nothing about but there's no way Damian Al Ghul Wayne is having a plain white wedding so... I'd have to do it right, yknow?
Also I'd definitely want reader to meet Talia wayyy before they get married so I'd have to write that first which deserves it's own chapter.
#honestly Constantine meeting talia is a really fun idea if i can write it well#im not arabic nor do i have friends who are so any cultural knowledge would be appreciated#i know arabic is a pretty broad term and cultural practices around weddings are more about religion not ethnicity necessarily#i may be overthinking it tho#better too overthink than underthink#constantine! reader#arachnidanswers
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an 8pg comic about samson, who may or may not have something wrong with him
#TAGCEN#yes i DID manage to finish this by my tuesday morning deadline!! unfortunately the results were... ehhh...#i think i was was foiled by printer scaling mishaps 😭 anyway#(coughs up blood) this was... so hard to make......... i had to think of something thatd fit in 8 pages and then write words for it. aieeee#ok the real problem was that i did this is under a week. but i dont know if i wouldve followed through with it otherwise...#ANYWAY.............#samson conveniently leaving out that he HAS to be tag team partners with chip because HE lost a bet lol#''idk why blueshift is so mad at me :^)'' <- guy who ''won'' the 1st match via double count-out and then lost on his own terms on match 2#like bitch u did that on purpose! lmao#chip is way worse than samson but honestly they deserve each other#the in-universe heel samson truthers whove been waiting for him to crash out for years are gods most patient soldiers...#they must be sooo pissed off that ''the championship that makes u evil'' seemingly didnt do the deed. but soon. they will get their payoff
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not to get randomly vulnerable but it’s honestly really disheartening as a lesbian to see the covert vitriol and blatant disrespect towards lesbians in some parts of the cm fandom. please do not reblog my posts where i mention emily’s lesbianism to say she isn’t a lesbian. please do not call emily a lesbian and then in the same breath ship her with a man. the label has a meaning, and while emily is not a real person, lesbians will see what you’re saying, and lesbians do not like men!! it’s honestly deeply uncomfortable to know that my identify isn’t taken seriously by a portion of this fandom. it may just be a loose headcanon to you (& it’s not just that to me) but words do have meaning and i really don’t love how often i’m seeing things like this.
this isn’t meant to cause discourse or arguments, i just wanted to express how it’s made me feel because it’s been bothering me a lot. that being said, if this does not apply to you, i am not accusing you of it! i genuinely hate fandom arguments (so please do not take this as an attempt to start one) but my discomfort with this is bigger than that. i make it very clear on my account that i am a lesbian and that this is personal to me, so i’d really appreciate it if i could not be made to feel bad about that on my own blog. thank u <3
#i also notice a lot of hostility towards people who care about lesbian emily from people who don’t#and i genuinely don’t understand the necessity in going out of your way just to make lesbians feel unwelcome in the fandom#it’s not as big of a thing here luckily but i really wanted to get that off my chest#and it’s hurtful tbh!#especially as someone who came to terms with my lesbianism because of this show#and emily specifically#i’m honestly uncomfortable with any emily x men ship at all#bc to me it’s pretty obvious within the writing that she isn’t romantically interested in men#not to mention her initially being written as a lesbian#and it just kinda feels like the lesbian label is being avoided for her just so she can be shipped with men#but i’m not really trying to start ship arguments and ik that’s where this would lead if i spoke more in depth on that#and that’s not what my point is at All#so i’ll just leave it at that#please take my words in good faith because i’d never intend for them to come across otherwise#jules rambles#lesbian emily prentiss
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I wasn't prepared for Sans to be so much more of an ass-pain than Papyrus but keeping this bonehead consistent is a BITCH
Screaming under the read more
I know it's a meme to be obsessed with this guy, but honestly he's such a fucking compelling character I can't even bother to be embarrassed about my fascination with him. He's somehow both a nihilist and an optimist. He watches the world crumble over and over, knowing how utterly powerless he is in the face of something that holds reality in its hands and distorts it like putty. He's accepted his inability to enact change, he doesn't hope to do anything anymore, not really. But god, doesn't he though? Doesn't he still keep that promise to a woman he doesn't know? Just because he can? Doesn't he put all his effort into making his brother happy? Doesn't he invest all that he has in good food, good friends, and bad jokes? And isn't that worth something? And even when it isn't, even when those things are ripped away from him again and again and again and again he still fights to stay because he can't ever bring himself to stop believing that next time might be better. I'm normal
#i could write an essay on literally every undertale character#undertale#coffeepaintart#honestly still too scared to tag sans#2016 was a bad year for a lot of reasons#and accidentally learning that Google safe search did basically nothing when i just wanted to see art of my favorite guys is#not low on the list#in terms of personal experiences
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I think it’s interesting how as time goes on Zoro kind of becomes more and more like mihawk in some ways whether that’s just because if you spend time with someone for 2 years you’re bound to pick up their habits or a deliberate attempt to emulate him is a conversation for another time. And Mihawk and Zoro where already pretty similar at the start so it’s a little hard to notice now.
But yeah whether unconsciously or consciously Zoro is becoming a bit more like Mihawk and it’s interesting to think that while this means maturing in some ways (he’s swordsmanship for one but he’s also just quieter much more assured of himself) it also means deaging in some others.
Despite their significant age gap and general dispositions, when it comes down to it Zoro is just a lot more emotionally mature and developed than Mihawk is. And a big part of why is because he found something larger than himself to devote his life too, hell Mihawk himself even kind of acknowledges this when he agrees to take Zoro on as a student when Zoro begs for the sake of his captain and crew. He acknowledges that putting aside his own ego and dreams for the sake of someone else isn’t something he can do and sees it as a fault in himself and a strength in Zoro.
Mihawk may be outwardly mature and his skills defiently did not stagnant but I’d wager that Mentally Mihawk is still stuck at the same age he was when he took over the title of world’s strongest swordsman. Honestly maybe even younger. And it isn’t until training Zoro, letting Perona stay with him, for probably the first time in his life taking charge of lives outside his own did he finally unarrest his development.
If Zoro is purposely trying to emulate Hawkeyes, which it wouldn’t be a surprise if he was that’s who he’s trying to be Afterall, then it would honestly set him back emotionally because fundamentally as he is now Mihawk’s attitude doesn’t work in a crew. It’s too singular, too abrasive. And while that abrasiveness can be useful in Zoro’s role as Luffy’s first mate sometimes it makes him a little too callous a little too apathetic, like with his disregard for Luffy’s sadness over vegapunk.
But Zoro has his crew to temper that, they are honestly just too ridiculous to ever stay serious around. And try as he might to hide it Zoro is also just a silly dude who likes to be horrifically petty with his opponents. And zoro still has so much fire in him, so much he has too prove and so much he wants to protect to ever really fall into Mihawk’s apathy. Zoro has Luffy who even after they reach their dreams will probably still continue to turn the world upside down forever keeping Zoro in some kind of trouble and his life interesting.
Zoro can’t be Mihawk because even Mihawk can’t be Mihawk anymore. Being with crossguild and crossing with the Red hair pirates and the strawhats is going to change him, it has too. if Mihawk is going to live after losing his title he’s probably gonna have to become a little bit more like Zoro.
#can you tell how much I like the phrase arrested development#mihawk is essentially mentally still a teenager and honestly that tracks#in psychology terms he never developed his super ego#everytime I write a long post I’m so scared that I didn’t make any point at all and it’s just a bunch of jumbled nonsense and half points#so I hope this made sense 😭#zoro and Mihawk are great they are so alike yet the little differences matter so much#don’t you just hate when people say Zoro has no character arc?#they aren’t even two sides of the same coin they are literally just Son learning from the mistakes of his father#I can’t lie before I really got into timeskip I also thought the changes in zoro was just Oda choosing to rewrite him diffenrtky more badas#I also missed the loud smiling and laughing zoro but the truth is that he’s still there#and maybe it is just Oda deciding to make Zoro cooler but it’s honestly so in line with who he already was and makes so much sense given#who he was training with that it still works as character development#zoro can still be loud and silly and maybe his digs are not said instead of screamed and maybe his smiles are a little meaner instead of#genuine and maybe he doesn’t laugh out loud anymore but honestly sometimes thats part of growing up#Zoro is the way he is so Luffy can be who he is that’s why they work. somebody’s got to take it seriously#somebody’s got to feel the weight of being an emperor’s crew. might as well be Zoro#one piece#throwing thoughts to the void#zoro appreciation post#dracule mihawk#hawkeye mihawk#roronoa zoro#zoro#character analysis#one piece meta#goth fam#goth family#one piece goth family#the strawhats#strawhat pirates
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