#i didnt have a lot of stuff to paste so i put whatever i had... ill buy more decor to paste next time 🙂‍↕️

[boneysoda]

chewing on my bf like a chew toy

[sunnyknight-original]

What Kind Of Monster Was He?

A @forgettable-au fan (colored) animatic

MINOR BLOOD WARNING!

*Was he the kind to do too much, or not enough?

…OK, SO WHAT HAD HAPPENED WAS-

I had planned to finish this into a full fledged animation, but a lot of the parts I did end up finishing just didnt live up to what I imagined…I waited for more motivation to happen, but it just didnt so HERES THE COLORED ANIMATIC CAUSE IM REALLLY HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE and ive sat on posting this for like a 2 weeks 😭 which is an eternity in my time

Im gonna post the unfinished “finished” part on my side account @o-sunny-day though! and probably have people yell at me cause it actually isnt that bad AND IT TOTALLY ISNT I just… art. You get it. ENOUGH YAPPING! ITS TIME TO YAP!

except not yet, MORE BACKGROUND INFO HUCDHUC- but its background info on explaining the lore…

The explaining is much less expansive than in Dear My Dear just because I didnt work on it long enough to think every bit of it through. This is just a clean, nicer looking, and colored version of the very first storyboard.

I usually think about and put more effort into the little stuff while making the FINISHED bits since ive had so much more time to think about that in all the preppin n sketching.

BUT I liked the explaining format I did for Dear My Dear so im sticking with it!

The main idea for this was to do a study of Wingdings’ character from what we’ve been given, mainly focusing in on the expectations he puts on himself because holy shit the lyrics for this works so stupidly well it makes me mad LOOK AT THIS???

its ridiculous. i love it. I didnt know Jack Stauber helped write Forgettable AU???? woww!!! ANYWHO thats the gist of it, not much context is needed past that. Onto the sillies!!!! (per usual excuse the shitty quality of the pngs idk why Tumblr does that-)

Did you know love? Will you rest in peace?

Wingdings and Sans holding hands as kids, before turning to a casket like appearance for adult WD. The flowers hes holding are pretty important too, Marigolds to represent grief, Lilys, new life, and Forget Me Nots for this lovely little line I found when looking up good flowers to use-

“a promise to always remember” ….stop that.

That actually also has a double meaning in this case too. 1, ofc the forgetting of Wingdings. But ALSO Wingdings forgetting something himself. Forgetting who he is. Almost like a Zuko ATLA situation.

Did you have a family?

Who knows where theyre parents are, but this is HAPPY TIME and we’re gonna assume they were so awesome and very kind but had to leave or went to a farm in the sky for whatever reason.

The colors here I had a lot of fun with. Their parents had warm colors but the boys have cold, still with warm accents. Its said they more or less raised each other being very independent as shown in the second part with them running out the door by themselves.

How was the view from the shelf? Did you ever believe in yourself?

Before, we started with the beginnings. The good things, the only thing Wingdings cares to even recall. Now we’re seeing his life really start to turn upside down- making first contact with The Player :D

He’s hesitant to reach out, but is intrigued, before getting a rushing revelation of his reality and how it isnt “real”

Rather than feeling crushing existential dread, he more feels pressured to be BETTER, to figure a solution, to do something. Thats what white represents here

WHAT KIND OF MILK WERE YOU?

We then switch to more examples of how Wingdings is taking this pressure (not well) The soft tones of yellow that were shown before, turn to way brighter, intensifying that feeling that he should be fine, he should be happy, drowning in success of being the Royal Scientist.

But he just desperately wants to just go back to a time of nice coldness.

The warm vs cold tones in this I had so much fun with, coldness is supposed to represent hostility usually, while warm is nice and happy. (same with Black and white. Scary, relieving,) But these points often contradict each other, its hard to tell what you’re feeling vs what you’re supposed to be feeling. Just like Wingdings!

WHAT KIND OF LIFE DID YOU LIVE THROUGH?

The white lab coats, the expectations, theyre on all of them. But Wingdings has essentially become his expectations.

He questions what life he wants to live, one being himself and alone (speaking in wingdings) or not himself and with company (speaking in a “normal” font) Still, he frames it in past tense as he believes theres no going back now, based on what he knows.

“One of the last happy moments they had together” stop that. (i cant find a link to when that was said but I know it was once, about them taking a photo together….)

DID YOUR LIFE RUN RICH WITH CALCIUM?

Calcium….bonesss :3 Hehehehdhehfhehehheheheh still dont know why he has holes in his hands so we’re movin on

DID THEY LAUGH AT YOU OR DID YOU LAUGH AT THEM?

Compared to the childhood Wingdings remembered, heres the sadder, bleaker, more realistic version. He always thought they were laughing at him but… maybe they werent.

DAIRY BELOVED. YOUR DAYS ARE GONE,

It doesnt matter now though. Because in the NOW, Wingdings has become consumed by his expectations of himself, seeing this has the “only option” to do the only thing that he feels will give his life meaning and purpose, establishing connection with THE PLAYER

But the grocery list goes on…

And yet life continues on without him, and his room is transformed into a more livable space now that someone is…living in it. Always hurts so much making the differences between Wingdings and Papyrus’ room. It feels like making something out of the man Wingdings COULD HAVE been. Because honestly thats just what Papyrus is,

Thank you to my bestie @fruitytrip for helping me with all of my art in general but especially the storyboarding on this :3 <3

[callmekyona]

Take it off (Seven x fem!reader)

AN:Some random girl from my school told me yesterday that she liked my Seven keychain,idk who she was but I loved that. I APOLOGISE IF THIS IS SO MESSY 😭 Summary:Your boyfriend Seven finds you using one of his shirts,which he loved a little too much

Warnings:Suggestive language

Word count: 619

"Where the fuck did all of my shirts go???"

That´s what you thought to yourself,you had just gotten out of the shower and you were going to put whatever shirt you found with some grey sweatpants,it was sunday,you had no plans for today besides staying at home with your boyfriend playing some videogames or watching a movie,it was one of those rainy lazy sundays where you didn´t felt like hanging out with your friends or even talking to them.

When you opened your closet you found everything,except for your shirts.Skirts,jeans,tops,sweaters,shorts,and even your favorite winter jacket,but no shirt in sight,and it´s not like you lacked shirts, you had A LOT of them,but of course,they were nowhere to be seen.

"Lemme recall some stuff...okay Yoosung called me yesterday saying that he needed help with laundry because he had too much,if I remember well,I took my shirts with him because they smelled weird,and we did laundry at his house,and- fuck,I forgot all my shirts at Yoosung´s house..."

That´s when realization hit you,you could just steal one from your boyfriend Seven! right?... He´s kinda possesive about his stuff,but when it comes to you,he doesn´t care,so why not? You opened his closet and searched for a plain shirt that he wouldn´t mind being taken.

"Lemme see...god why is his closet so messy? I´ll tell him to organize it tomorrow"

It was hard to search for a shirt with all the mess that was going on in that closet,how did he got dressed like that???

"Finally!This one´s perfect"

You removed the wet towel that you had been using for the past 10 minutes and put on the shirt with the sweatpants,it looked kinda big on you,but it was comfortable.

"I´ll have to call Yoosung now to ask him about the laundry"

20 minutes later...

"He told you what? Girl dump him right now,that´s the worst red flag I´ve seen on a guy"

You were on the phone with your bestfriend talking about some gossip that she had,you talked with Yoosung earlier and he said he would leave a spare key under his doormat so that you could pick up your laundry,because he had class tomorrow.

"I know right,what? Seven? I told him to go to the store like half an hour ago to go pick up some snacks for tonight,yeah maybe we´ll watch a movie,I don´t know why he´s being late but yeah-"

"Honeeeey I´m home!"

"That´s him,I´ll call you tomorrow,bye"

The sound of bags dropping on the floor and fast footsteps didnt even lasted 10 seconds before Seven jumped onto the couch with you.

"Well hello,where have you been?"

"To the store like you told me"

"And it took you 30 minutes?"

"I was trying to find your favorite chips because they ran out of them,but after searching for 10 minutes I found them"

"Thank you,that´s so sweet"

"Well,wanna- is that my shirt?"

"Huh?Oh yeah,sorry,mine are at Yoosung´s house"

"No no,it´s fine,it´s just that-fuck,it looks so good on you,but it would look better on the floor"

You were speechless,it´s been a few months since you started dating Seven,it´s not the first time he says something like this,but you haven´t got used to it yet

"Wha-"

He crawled on top of you,grabbing your wrists so you couldn´t go anywhere,you could feel your cheeks getting hoter and hoter every second

"You heard me,what do you think?"

Words couldn´t escape your mouth,your mind was already feeling dazy with all the thoughts that were coming into your mind about where this was going to lead later.

"I think you´re right"

But as he picked you up, the thought of how sore your legs were going to be tomorrow crossed your mind,however,at this point it didn´t even matter anymore.

[wind-up-thancred]

bit of thancred character musing under the cut that im gonna try to approximate from a 6am discord rambling into something i can actually post. both SHB and EW spoilers included

i saw some folks talking on twt about how guilt seems to be a very important factor in his life and i agree. i think a lot of major parts of his character and arcs have been due to guilt over something he did (or didnt even really do, re: the whole goobue rampage situation). it's driven him to work his ass off after louisoix which lead to him getting possessed... but its probably also what motivated him to do better for ryne after being forced to look his fuckups directly in the eye instead of just wallowing about them. but i think, at the same time, he doesnt really seem to, like... actually be proud of himself for a lot of the stuff he's done in order to work off that guilt? the biggest giveaway for that being the line in endwalker on the ragnarok where he talks about his "good deeds" cynically and seems to insist that they were never really that impactful in the first place. that they'll just go to dust when he dies.

in shb, during the ahm areng segment, not only does he talk down on himself in general, but also puts down his attempts to help OG minfilia back in the pre-ARR days... when i'm pretty sure she never even blamed him for the goobue rampage in the first place.

it's all a little bit sad to me, tbh. i've seen some people reason that, because he was only able to escape poverty due to louisoix seeing potential in his thieving skills, he's essentially internalized the idea that he's only really worth keeping around by ANYONE if he's actively being productive, either helping others or trying to fix whatever fuckups he feels he's made. i think that would explain a lot of this

note the "few positive traits" line, which to me comes across as "i was only picked up out of childhood poverty because he thought my skills were useful." though i don't really know how much of that mentality he's managed to work past by post endwalker. he IS able to go off on his own, and mentions that he trusts the scions to keep themselves safe now... but as i ranted about before, the short story points out that he's only really content to rest briefly before he feels obligated again to seek out unrest to try and help, specifically mentioning minfilia again. also, a couple times during the story, notably post ARR after his possession, mid SHB after he's wounded in a fight with sineaters, and post SHB after he passes out due to the weakening soul-body bond, he seems to dislike even having to rest for medical reasons

it's a pretty interesting part of his character to me. idk if the writers specifically had his rigorous upbringing in mind when they wrote these parts of his character, but to me it would make a lot of sense as an explanation for why he's so averse to rest and why he carries so much guilt and why he's so passionate about keeping the folks around him safe. that's kinda been his whole reason for life since he was a kid-- using his skills for the benefit of others. to him, doing anything other than that would be a waste, it seems.

idk. funny guy makes my heart hurt. yes i had all these dialogue screencaps saved and on hand. yes i am a little insane. what of it

[moonlit-escape]

★彡 ˙🌱. ¡! Vylad Mystreet headcanons !!

the second character i fell in love with. how cruel it is that he has fuck all going for him. I'll fix that.

korean and white

pansexual (actually this one is just canon) (cole petty ily)

pisces ♓️

doesn't have like a set label for his gender, and is cool with anything people wanna see him as

will try anything once

will put anything in his mouth

can sleep literally anywhere

i think this man might be the most laid-back, flexible person on the planet.

except towards geese because fuck those things

any time he has slept in a park he has made sure there were no geese around because those fuckers have stolen his stuff before and made him watch as they drowned it

listens to the most underground shit you've never heard and it all slaps (i didnt add this kind of stuff to his playlist though bc i wanted it to. make sense.)

also just listens to underrated music in general (includes just underrated songs from super popular bands)

currently holds an award for being the "funniest man on mystreet" and he didn't even have residency there

kind of has random visions about his friends in his sleep, but he just thinks they're normal dreams and that he misses his friends a lot (oh little does he know.)

used to say the most cryptic shit as a kid and freak his brothers out

being friends with vylad as a kid mustve been the weirdest experience. the kid eats glue, dirt, and moss, befriends frogs, crows, and moths, tells you you've suffered immense turmoil in a past life completely sincerely, and then infodumps about the entire history and process of typewriters for some fuckin reason

im 100% sure all three of the boys have autism and they got it from zianna

while he doesn't really want to connect himself to the ro'meave name (mainly bc of garte), he does love his family to death and sends his mom and brothers post cards every once in a while (when he remembers, mostly)

doesn't really reach out to his family any other way and neither do they. which he understands; communication is a two-way street

tries to stay positive and practice a healthy mindset and self-image, even and especially when he feels his insecurities and sense of self-worth creeping in

knows how to fish with nothing but a shoestring and a good fuckin stick

Loves pickin up good fuckin sticks

also cool rocks

he collects cool rocks from all the places he visits and keeps them in an old jewelry box. he keeps special ones he plans on giving to his friends in the top part of it

always making friends with stray dogs, cats, rats, raccoons, and opossums. someone stop him

has a johnny stein hotel transylvania relationship with his backpack (it literally has everything he owns in it)

knows how to fix and alter clothes

he knows how to do a lotta shit, alright. i don't think you'll find a craftier little guy than vylad ro'meave

except when it comes to fixing a water heater or anything to do with pipes or electrical tbh he hasn't lived in a house in a While

i'm obsessed w the idea that zane had spent so much time and effort trying to get gene to notice him meanwhile vylad enters gene's peripherals for 2.5 seconds and gene's like I Want Him.

poor vylad can't get on zane's better side for shit

owns a few skirts and dresses and high-heeled boots because he can wear whatever he wants

goes to ren faires whenever he can honestly. sometimes as a job!

when his hair gets too long he ties it back into a low ponytail or pigtails until he can get it cut again (doesnt really like having long hair)

wears weird and funky socks

he absolutely has a roblox account

likes to pronounce words wrong on purpose sometimes. mostly by putting emphasis on the wrong syllables

ABSOLUTELY adds extra e's to his words when texting bc thatse good showbiz babey!!

the type of kid where his first word was actually just a full coherent sentence

i'm coming to terms with the fact that he is most definitely a furry (not the type to dress up for it though. he just does artwork)

spent so much of his younger years trying so, so hard to achieve an astounding success to get his father to notice him. feeling like he had to "earn" his place as a ro'meave with him. but, it was a good thing he realized fast that that was never going to happen

because he did achieve some incredible things! he was a perfect child prodigy; on his way to dual enrollment by only his first highschool year

but, he realized, one whole summer with his father home, that all that work to be the perfect son, just like his brothers were, was.. really for nothing, when he saw zane completely break down one night after dinner

so, he dropped the course to dual enrollment entirely, asked to be transferred from o'casis to phoenix drop high, and decided to take more time for himself. figuring out who he is and what he likes. which, is sorta just turning out to be "anything, except the things he doesn't"

but, there's a lot out there still. and, while he still feels like he hasn't entirely found his own sense of self-worth, he's going to keep trying new things and discovering all that he can about himself until he feels whole enough to come home

[theallianceofcelestials]

lucky u I’m not in class right now therefor I can type at u

oh don’t worry, Arcade will make it very clear quite quickly the pup doesn’t have special needs or in distress. That includes growling, biting, clawing, purposeful slapping, or purposefully making the fam uncomfortable by pulling their other 6 arms out in the really fucked up way they usually do. Plus, as much as they are a child, their species is naturally really intelligent even as pups, Arcade would eventually find a way around Eclipse’s code and chillax next to him on the couch normally

Squid is actually what they ate most often, other than snailfish (Yes, snailfish can be pets while others can be dinner) so don’t worry, they are completely okay with squid aslong as it’s relatively soft or chopped up!

Thats gonna be hell of a time to learn, but when they do, Arcade will be the happiest thing in that room. A bunch of curling up and eeping under the blanket. also, Arcade needs no pillows, it’s actually better for their still developing fins to have direct weight on them so they don’t develop to be too weak to be as agile as adult Arcade is.

Flare is going to hate it when Arcade likes him the most because the lack of facial expressions, because a lot of the human facial expressions are not used or signs of dislike. Most positive emotions are expressed through patterns or calls. So, Arcade will be confused less often by Flare and flock to him more.

Fish will eventually get tired of the constant affection, and will get snappy, but until then anything is fine.

Turning them into a pancake would be quite hard, they will instinctively slide away then start viciously attacking whatever foot dare nearly step on them. Shame on the foot.

The fam will also learn quite a lot about Arcade for whenever this wears off, cause the bab don’t know that Adult them hates sharing information about their past incase it’s used against them

the bab will be very confused on why the fam is so surprised to find out they have siblings, since it was never directly said to this SEA fam that Arcade had a pod. For all this fam knows, Arcade could be an unnaturally formed siren (aka sm who drowned in a storm and reformed as a siren, and some sirens can form like this, Arcade Didnt though) that just never found a pod and missed having a family. Since thats how they are portrayed in legends, and all the foundation knows is that they exist and are quite a big danger. Now they just have to be confused until something reminds the bab of a diseased siren they saw and eventually communicates something along the lines of: “is that like the disease (untranslatable parental figure word) told us is going around?” From there I bet they can connect the dots, especially because adult Arcade has been shown to be really susceptible to sickness.

Once they are not pup anymore and realize they told the fam some stuff abt their pod, Arcade will likely either lock themselves in a dark room and not talk to the fam until the two week mark and they need to go back to the deep sea, or the dive into the sea and don’t show their face for atleast a month until one of their deep sea friends bullies them into going back up to atleast to know if the fam uses this information badly

a yes, a giant fish with anxiety, how deliteful

Sunray, how u be?

But he's still a kid, whether they're acting like that or nah. Eclipse knows that's a kid, has seen how an adult is supposed to look like. So it's really just a mess for those two, but he'll probably recognise what the baby is trying to do. So he may try to chill around more, and be uncomfortable, but that's fine. He just hopes this is temporary

By the pillows I meant put extra pillows on top of the weighted blanket to have more weight! It's the poor man's way to make something heavy without that being uncomfortable xd And also, the image of tiny fish being under a blanket which has pillows on top of it is rather adorable

Solar Flare is trying to run meanwhile Arcade is just like "Cool! A normal person! :D"

Killcode would just be staring at this tiny thing trying to maul his foot with such confusion it's unreal. He's just staring, trying to figure out what to do. I believe in baby Arcade tho, you can murder the evil evil feet little critter!

They clash so bad on this. Like the SEA fam is so focused on building strong bonds through touch, as well as other things, that they probably wouldn't really realise without Eclipse what's the problem of Arcade. And then it's just a rather sucky specie difference, because the deep sea siren isn't used to so much touch and doesn't like it, and the celestial SCPs need those. That's gonna be a fun thing to work around

The Arcade lore is safe with them. They're not going to do anything with it, especially because they might realise it wasn't exactly a conscious decision on Arcade's part, seeing as he's a baby right now. So they'd understand why they run away, thinking they're embarrassed, only to get progressively more worried as time goes on and there's no sighting of them. That'd not be fun for them

Hi Rey! :D

I'm fine, bullying Moongleam to do that Hollow Knight stream by telling her the baby (a pumpkin themed plushie we decided shall be Jack) will be sad and cry :) it is working :)

And also curiously staring at her new mermay fic idea, while it also inspired me to think of (another) mermay fic. I have several unfinished work in progresses, don't need a new one, and yet.

Here it is. Already rotting my brain. (:

So doing fine and dandy! :D

How is You, Rey?? ≽^•⩊•^≼

[universeofmuses]

//Hey everyone, not sure if anyone is really looking at my blog anymore. I wanted to just say that I’m ok and doing ok. I’m sure you’ve see that I am having a bit of a hard time with most notably anxiety related to work and depression over the weekend related to being single and alone. This struggle has been difficult to bear, but I’m still marching forward as best as I can despite these feelings taking such deep hold over me and my daily life.

Tonight I saw the documentary about the dark side of the power rangers, and when the topic of Jason David Frank came up it was a bit difficult to watch because of everything that was involved, but then something came to me. We all start life simply, life is simple and the worries and problems of the world are non-existent (if we’re lucky). Though as time goes on life grows more complex and complicated, the worries and problems start to push in. Just the fascination that we start things, school, a job, a hobby, whatever and it starts out simply and then slowly things grow more complicated till you find yourself at a point and wonder how you had gotten there.

This is where I find myself tonight, thinking about a point in my past when I was happy, when things were simple, when things were good and I look at where I am now and wonder how did things evolve to where I am now. One such instance is dating and my depression with it. When I was younger I focused on my studies, made sure to get through school and then went to college and focused on getting through it. I didnt focus on dating anyone, didnt get a girl pregnant because I knew these things could derail me from that. Then when I did want to find someone I found 2 girls (obviously not at the same time) that I had to hide an interest of mine, that I had to change myself a bit to fit around them. Both obviously ended and ended very poorly for me, despite my respect for their needs and wants, not being someone who cheats or anything on someone that I love, though it seems that same respect was never paid back in any sort of way. So that leads me to today, that I dont understand how someone who could have a beautiful woman, a sweet gal, a woman that adores them to no end, and even shares the same interest, that they could cheat on the person they ‘love’, when people like me who would adore that person back and love them to no end cant find love to save their life. Meanwhile my only options are to be with someone who I am not attracted to or take in a number of kids.

The other thing too has just been how complex my life has gotten with work. When I had started this job 10 years ago, it was simple. I go in, do my job, log off. Now things have gotten complex with a manager that is a petty vindictive jerk, a history of a small # of request that had gone astray because of honest to goodness human error despite rare occurrences. And over arching questions of what will happen if I lose my job? What will happen if I cant get another job? What will happen when my parents die? How will I sustain myself? So many complex worries have grown over the past 10 years, and I haven’t the foggiest idea on how to solve or quell them. This fear comes at me every night, drives me to drink every night enough to just calm down enough to allow myself to sleep.

I have issues, but I’m working through them in therapy which is putting a strain on me in other aspects, but I’m trying to make it work. All of this to say that I have issues and I’m trying to work through them as best I can, but a lot of days are really really tough. I do want to write I do miss writing with everyone but it’s just been hard to focus on something other than my anxieties, than my depression. I want to come back I miss it. I dont know if anyone is still interested in writing with me but I am interested in writing. Let me know if you want to keep writing with me.

I hope you all are well and I miss you all and hope to get back to you all with rps and stuff again!

[allurasbian]

your transfem keith posts are so fucking good i feel a kinship with you as an adamant transfem lance enjoyer. please tell me more about keith’s transition and her being trans in general i want to hear it all 🎤🎤🎤

-@alluraaaa

ummm hehe well she's my og tgirl headcanon. paved the way for some other ladies i adore in other shows. i can tell u i've thought she was a girl serious style since season 2 and i watched this show more or less since it airedddddd... tee bee aich hard to say what set me off i think i was very touched by how close she plays things to the chest there's really something there about. like. being a shy girl mistaken for a rude standoffish man by people who don't know her. the way lance sees her. i think the way she maintains distance from allura while clearly admiring her greatly is super dykey and great. the guilt about adoring another girl.

i can't imagine her figuring herself out before 20 imo i think she like noticed there are things she likes about howwww like her clothes fit or her long hair frames her face but she's very very good at just not looking at it directly. TBH ive had like in the back of my mind a very character study style timeloop fic i would lovee to write but DONT go getting your hopes up my partner can attest to how much i am a nuisance with my fanfic ideas that i never follow through on... but like i think there's a tension there also with the fact that i see shiro as a trans man so like she looks up to him and recognizes herself in his transness but can't articulate it but also knows there's a separation there because he has been more sure of himself longer & he's like. an actual man. Like not that the tension is interpersonal i kind of think keith would just if anything feel weirdly guilty for not being what shiro wanted HIMSELF & shiro would be horrified if he knew about that bc he only ever wanted his best friend to feel comfortable as herself. <-ig this is a bit the black paladin thing. the metaphor being he's proud of her for things she can do that she doesn't really want. & it's not that she's not capable it's just that they are different and there's a bit of a miscommunication. btw can you tell im still mad we didnt get black paladin shiro back come onnnn come the fuck onnnnnnn

um i think probably allura's look and affect means a lot to her in ways she can't articulate. like aspirationally. also with being attracted to allura and unwilling to admit it. so this gets also into keith and allura being so alike but allura has something keith can't quite reach because she's not mature enough to articulate what it is. and allura can feel something from keith reflected at her but can't place it. btw allura knows who she is because it's all she has left. um. i think there's something here about "i dont need to know where i come from i know who i am" i think she DOES know who she is you could also say she shelves freaking out about gender because she's like. whatever is bothering me atm isn't making itself clear but i know who is important to me. the closet may be stifling but it feels safe at the same time. not my recommendation but keith is the type of person to put stuff on a shelf unforchieszzz also gay bitches who are repressed always make me craziest

& well i don't have a name im bad at that. i do think her gamer tag would be @/KittyRose. i can see her really having gotten into alt fashion because of the androgyny it allows forrrrr & i like to imagine, like, her perfectly nice straightgirl girlfriend in the past that things just could not work out with because she wanted keith to be her boyfriend and keith wanted to be her girlfriend. &then also that like to an outsider she seems like, maybe a gay boy. so that Also makes everything confusing because she's tried and she just does nottt like men that way. i don't think she'd be super feminine like i said but i think assuming that not feminine means masculine is sillyyy i think she's practical she works with her hands & she likes to occasionally get dressed up. i like her bigass boots. Ok i dont know thanks foryour time.

[frankiefridayyy]

tw vents

ive been feelin kinda ugly lately...

i hardly ever get acne on my face n i have some on my chin n forehead bc i lost my workout headband so my hair gets sweatier now and makes my face get acne

every time i look in the mirror i just look so fat too

i know if i didnt have curves id look so much more like a boy

i want to be healthy

but i dont eat enough even tho i eat what i think is good for three meals a day if i work out any more than i am now i get to an unhealthy weight but if i worked out more id be skinnier but i cant

i thought i grew past this but it turns out that im still doing what people i deeply admire think i should for my body. eat more than usual bc they like thicker thighs. i didnt even realize i didn't like my chest until last year a few months after my abuser left me bc she liked it and so i did too. but i feel so gross now

i just wish i could be healthy and pretty to me but im not

i know most if not all of you will tell me that i am pretty

but i dont think ive ever truly felt pretty to me

i appreciate the compliments of course and they do make me happy

but ive never felt joy from looking at myself

im not sure i will until i get top surgery and lose a lot of weight healthily

i just want to be happy in this flesh prison

i dont even think of this body as mine

i do my best to ignore it

i try not to look in the mirror much

its part of the reason i wear my outfits

the cute clothes help me feel cute even though i never truly do

i think it's part of the reason why i want a partner

when im in love with someone i'll believe most anything they tell me which isnt healthy and im trying to do better but it still happens so i think id believe it if they said i was pretty but then again like i mentioned earlier id just do whatever they thought would be pretty for me

i hate my body

why couldnt i have been one of the naturally skinny trans masc people

im sorry for ranting

im not sure if it even helps me

a not really related thing but i want a partner so badly. i know ive said it a lot but i feel honestly depressed bc of all the unhealthy relationships

i just want a healthy relationship for once

i want someone to love me as much as i love them

that never happens

i need someone i love to actually stay

they never stay

im so heartbroken

but its my fault too

im not sure if i could ever be enough

i try so hard to not hurt the people i love the most

but they're the ones that end up getting the most hurt because of me

what's wrong with me

why cant i have a healthy relationship

i always put everything i can into relationships

they never seem to notice though

its like they expect me to do everything

and they did stuff too

they all put up with me when i messed up

i need someone to love me so much they wont leave unless it's toxic

i just want a health relationship

ive tried so hard

why dont i get one

i want someone to hold me and be able to tell when im sad even if i dont say anything and i want to make someone personalized gifts all the time and they actually appreciate it and i want someone to protect me when i cant do that and i want someone to love me so much

but i dont have that

im scared i never will have someone that loves me like i love them

every relationship that ive had makes me feel unlovable now especially with that person. i put my all into that relationship and she was using me and i didnt even realize

i loved her so much

ive loved every partner ive had so so so much

but i mess up as much as i love them

i dont mean to

i dont understand boundaries and if i do know someone's boundaries it's hard for me to tell if what im doing is okay or not

i just want someone to genuinely romantically love me

is that so much to ask?

[misarem]

yapping about Kill the Past under the cut cuz im now free from the 25th ward finally

THE SILVER CASE

-it feels cliche to say the first game was my favorite but uhhh haha. knowing suda, The Silver Case probably didn't fully accomplish what it set out to do but to me, it's so self-contained and demonstrates such ownership of a style that mostly came out of necessity that i can't not admire it, and i'm also so fond of my playthrough of it which was so fresh and curious, compared to the other two games which were fun but I was thinking too much abt how it connects to TSC

--also just the way i played this game is so special, i was very committed to the darker aesthetic to the point where I only played past like 10pm for a while, which is funny cuz the opening of the game is straight up paranormal but by the 2nd chapter transmitter loses that edge until debatably lifecut. tokio is also haunted and paranormally but by that point i just started playing normally. it sorta reminds me of paranormasight which starts out so spooky and the curses are very present but a few hours in it sorta reverts to being a pretty normal feeling but still very good detective mystery. at one point a character does an escape room ala zero escape and its funny. but TSC doesn't stray from its initial vibe as much as paranormasight at all.

-i also played the parallel stories of TSC separate from each other rather than alternating, which made placebo such a slog but i almost feel like I appreciated both stories more that way, even though i would have loved to experience how placebo compliments transmitter

--despite not clicking with placebo at first, tokio is like one of my favorite characters this year hes such a fucking Guy. and you experience him so intimately in placebo in a way i can't even describe but is effective by the end.

---theres a bizarre and esoteric mental link in my brain between tokio, ange from umineko and fucking flynn moore from the furry visual novel Echo because of them being like surprise deurotagonists (sp?) that get fucked up from having to search for the truth about the past and how theyre all chained by it. do you think they would put happy colors in my padded cell or would it just be all white.

-I also feel like I came out of TSC a lot clearer than I did FSR or 25W, I'm sure I missed several details at first but the shelter kids stuff and kamui as more of a role and a criminal influence than as a person wasn't that hard to wrap my head around even though I thought the silver eye stuff was so whatever. i kind of wonder if part of the reason i clicked with it faster was because I'm such an mgs2head, and the whole kamui thing is sorta like what the solid snake simulation appears to be at first

-also the mackerel phones video about Kusabi is so good and feels like a must watch for how well researched it is and how accurately it nails the feeling and message of transmitter.

-TSC also uses film window a lot better than 25W and it might be worth researching how the latter being a phone game affects things but i just got off that game

-also would kinda love a translated version of the PSX version someday just to feel how different it is. idk if certain ppl hate the official translation so much maybe they should do it themselves ooooh

-i havent read 4.5 and i meant to do so before 25W to have that context about sumio and sakura and i kindaaa didnt so lol i have to do that eventually.

FLOWER, SUN AND RAIN

-"flower, sun and rain" is like a speech tick to me in the way of like, rupaul on the weakest link immediately defaulting to chaka khan when he doesnt know the answer to a question

-i wish i felt flower, sun and rain the way I felt TSC. i had a decent time with it and even had a good sense of humor about the more obviously tedious parts and the OST, and I get how mundane it's supposed to be, what it's saying about living in peace and the lie of paradise, but it didn't click with me as much. maybe a pitfall was being so attached to TSC when i played, i was probably looking for something i shouldn't have instead of just enjoying the game for what it was altho i didn't hate it or anything.

--ideally this also gets a translation on its original console cuz I like some parts of the PS2 soundtrack and id love to experience all the art assets and music in PS2 quality.

---sorta tangent. i love the opening tracks for all of these games but Anata no Tameni might be my favorite, beyond just being amazing its so dramatic and unlike the rest of the series and it really stands out. the ds opening in comparison might actually be my least favorite because of that lol

-i think that the mondo/kodai revelation is so funny just because it's an idea you'd either keep in the back of your mind or just wave off because of how dumb it seemed but regardless it's constantly staring you in the face. assuming you even played TSC before this

--sumio was never super proper or anything, i don't think, but his personality here compared to TSC is so funny, he can spend 20 years with bottled up rage and fake his way into an incompetent police force without slipping thaaat much but here he has enough small inconveniences to hit a kid over it. kind of an interesting play on like the salient thing about personality and the self being buried and it feels like an early version of like a shiroyabu situation. not the last time i will compare sumio and shiro.

--i also think its funny that the model of sumio mondo looks pretty similar to kodai compared to the key art of mondo and we should explore that one day

-i wanted more out of toriko kusabi, she was a fun diversion and i didn't expect her to be a tokioesque second protag or anything but idk. she was fun when she went against sundance and at the end and her being like a subliminal kinda suggestion to sumio's buried memories of her father i think is cool. in a less meta sense it's also cute that shes working for her dad i wonder if tetsu has to like try not to step on christine everytime he comes home from the bathhouse at like 2am. actually i dont remember what their family situation even is

-speaking of kusabi i think him like being the guardian/ferryman for sumio's journey is so so beautiful and true and i like that he gets to pull him back from the depths the way sumio sorta inadvertently did in parade/kamuidrome.

--its also really funny to me kusabi just disguises as a chubby white guy. it was probably a fatsuit but i feel like kusabi could be like 50lb away from being a bear anyways. its like the grocery store deli scene in bobs burgers.

---i also appreciated parade from transmitter way more playing this and thinking about sumio. when i played parade the first time i loved connecting the dots on everything but then it kinda got buried by kamuidrome and lifecut. and now im such a shooter for sumio kodai. look at me talking about the previous game wooo.

-i think the character designs in this are funny for how little of them you can actually see. everyone loves yayoi and yayoi is such a serve but my other fav is ken. all the punk details are completely lost in the actual game. the models also super undersell stephen carbione's look, cuz in-game he sorta looks like tokio but then you see his key art and its like yea he would look like that.

-tokio was in this game

-i think edo macallister should be a bellhop in every video game with a hotel ever. im going to the other side of the country soon and if the guy behind the desk at the hotel isn't edo i will be severely disappointed.

-i love that its hyenas. i think there should be like tokio morishima as an anthro hyena and he still has his domesticated turtle or at least like hyena sundance or yotaro or something. i think ppl would be quick to anthropomorphize tokio as a literal turtle guy.

-the eleven children stuff is whatever, i do like that theres a bunch of sumios running around but idc for all the other implications and like step and remy and koshimizu and whoever else. is sumio mondo still deaf and mostly relying on lip reading? cuz i dont think that gets brought up again. i mean he wakes up to a phone ringing every morning but i guess those are the clones. if the hearing is referenced early in fsr and i just missed it then that would be very cool. maybe thats why the voices for the characters are abstract and illegible. maybe flower sun and rain is the best game ever.

THE 25TH WARD

-what if we were all protagonists.

-i dont think this game uses film window as well as TSC but i do like the art and how much of it there is in correctness and matchmaker, also the different styles.

-i love yotaro osato sadly hes so funny and fluffy. hes osato in my notes and in normal convo but i want to call him yotaro affectionately. i do love tsuki too hes such a sufferer.

--i think theyre a teeeeny bit like like p4 adachi and dojima if they were both murderous.

-i feel bad for the lady that gets murked immediately in correctness i had a funny voice for her in my head

-shiro and kuro god bless them are funny and parallel sumio and tetsu to me. both sumio and shiro grapple with their criminal power, although sumio goes against the hc unit while shiro attempts to but finds himself back with them at the end, and while kusabi over time softens quite a bit and learns from sumio in a more overt way than kuro being literally the "japanese dirty harry" and not having as much of an arc, they both are compelled enough by their partner to rein them back in. just the surface level so i dont have to write a whole essay in a stream of consciousness type of post

--what even happens to them bc as far as i can tell, shiro just continues to be a tool of the state and kuro maybe? shoots her superior and then the 25th ward blows up.. with them on it? like okay at least tsuki got outta there.

--on the shiroverse timeline. theres conflicting sources on if his immortality is a kamui thing or a sumio mondo thing or something else and thats funny. the sources all being fan wikis and tvtropes because fuck this game that zero people played and negative people have documented.

-i need to like hold myself back from analysing meru as trans because its so clearly done for shock value but it somehow aged really hilariously now with how prevalent trans egirls are. liek theres a strange almost unearned truth to how meru exists online versus irl.

--kind of all of the gay/trans mentions in these games are like this although kusabi you can at least take in sorta good faith?

-i need to think abt what i thought abt tokio here. its increasingly funny how online he is for being a normal dude in the late 90's early 2000s.

--his portrait in yumi is kind of a hear me out but all the cgs of older tokio look crazy. tokio in general looks a mess in this game and its funny. look at him try to be masc

-i mentioned mgs2 above and the 05 chapters of these games are so reminiscent of the s3 plan and the patriots with the frontier etc using the city to collect data and the protags having to figure out where they fit into it. during TSC, i was paying a lot of attention to the story as it related to the advent of technology. it felt really relevant to kamuidrome and all of placebo but mostly ended up as background/context to the story. it was used a lot more here and i really liked it. chat logs are a great framing device in all the routes since they add so much flavor and emphasize the loneliness of life in the 25th ward (semi-related: in both TSC and 25W, the environments are devoid of people in film window, and i think this works way better for 25W than it did for TSC). placebo is yet again a good example of this with tokio only really interfacing with the world through his computer most of the time

--in terms of twists, i might actually like "the city is just a means of data collection ready to be wiped at any moment/it resembles a computer more than an actual city and life there is so impermanent that its hard to tell how real it all is" better than the end point of tsc which was "they were trying to mass process children to find a means of immortality" which i was so whatever on even though the game is trying to be crazy and also say something about like life and aging in society, but in tsc i like "they were mass grooming perfect civilians and inadvertently making them susceptible to crime" as a conclusion a bit more. but i mean 25W also poses so many more questions than it does give answers so.

---despite everything i think it was an interesting idea for suda and masahiro yuki and masahi ooka to create the 25th ward almost as a sandbox to explore more of the ideas of the first game like how the internet affects human connection, communication, sharing of information, and how people are affected by criminal power/kamui. it was a cool idea in the original but i love actually getting to see shiroyabu steadily become more unhinged (death filing), kurumizawas pervasiveness, tsuki and osato coming to grips with their own (esp osato's immense) criminal power, etc. in spite of all of the loose ends and craziness, sometimes you really need a space to work out your ideas and express yourself and i commend grasshopper for doing that so i could have played this on a nokia in 2005. in japan

overall these were video games. very excited to forget everything about them when i fixate on something else. tsc might actually be one of my fav things i played this year. would love more analysis of the 25th ward, theres some essays/interpretations floating around and ghenryperez will get to his video on it eventually. maybe i need to be the change i wish to see but also boo putting effort into writing and analysis sux.

i started sudas works with nmh, then 2 before stopping until i played killer7 a year ago and really liked its style and sense of humor. i think this happens to a lot of people, and then a year after that i started tsc. i wasnt originally that interested in nmh tsa but now that i know theres hello 25th ward characters in it i might have to try. and then nmh3 after that. and then i also wanna play twilight syndrome/moonlight syndrome when that gets a translation because of lunatics. and i also got killer is dead when it was on sale for like 2 bucks. we can enter the greater sudaverse.. together

[marsixm]

touch wood bc im always crashing and burning on shit like this but lately ive been somewhat remembering to keep up with a bunch of positive habits ive been trying to stick to for years.

ive noticeably been off my phone, my screen time is way down from last week, and the effects are def being felt. like all the shit where i was always feeling like i had no time, well, actually i do if im not spending a bunch of time distracted by twitter lmao

i know putting it down to one or even two things is too simple but i feel like a bunch of stuff has had a domino effect lately of positive changes adding up. i no longer am hosting people i didnt wanna host at my place, its not unbearably hot outside, im feeling way more secure in my relationships, im feeling confident due to noticeable skill improvements, and all those things are compounding each other and helping me maintain a lot of baseline stuff (mostly cleaning) which is then making me feel even better and able to do more of the stuff i often put off

4 example i finally made an appointment for my next tattoo, finally contacted my apt place about fixing my washer, am actually doing my skin care routine, actually clipping the dogs nails more (tho that ones mostly on him for fighting me lmao), im trying to ease my way back into reading too

a couple changes that are helping are, for one, i changed my morning routine up so i have like 20 minutes before making breakfast to start nursing my cup of coffee while i check my computer, respond to messages, and kinda mentally prep for the day, also instead of having either pure silence im trying to fill with picking out some other youtube video or being on my phone or whatever, im trying to just turn the tv on and let it play american dad (or whatever show ive already seen a million times) which i know sounds like it should be distracting but for me its not, and i really realized that recently that of course it would feel normal to just have the tv running thats literally how i grew up for my entire childhood and adolescence- im also giving myself my specific time for listening to music and time for listening to podcasts, and for podcast-esque yt vids, again everything towards having less mental hangups while trying to get other stuff done, AND im giving myself time to actually catch up on things like podcasts (im up to taz graduation now) which is also handy for not using data in my car, i actually set myself on a 5gb/month plan and this past month i had a whole gigabyte left over! + im amble to stick to the skin care routine better, for example, bc i realized just bc its a before bed skin care routine doesnt mean i have to do it RIGHT BEFORE bed, ie when im fucking sleepy and also dont want my face to feel weird & distracting. like i can do it a couple hours before, even, esp if im not going out. also this is either gonna sound silly or totally reasonable but ever since i got back into elden ring, the feeling its giving me of facing obstacles, getting defeated, but getting back up and trying harder and winning is like genuinely doing so many positive things for my self esteem and brain chemistry right now. also timers! i love timers! having an idea of how long something is taking me, or giving myself a predetermined block of time to do something, or just to nudge me to remind me what i was up to, super helpful

anyway im kinda going thru a transitional period rn bc im improving on a personal level a lot but my social life is kinda whacked out due to communication breakdowns and one of the key people moving states this week, but at the same time im also much more secure in my ability to socialize and bridge gaps and be there for people so its a very mixed bag but im trying to not just survive but thrive right now

[vx2006]

5/7/25

last exam and you guys are still all pissing me off omg just shut the fuck up GHO AWAY OMFL HOLY SHIT

jesus after reading all this shit i just need to take a step away, which, like youll read cause i literally wrote it under this, im already gonna be doing. but yea i just need to like, cool off or something. like i said, heavy and a lot of self reflection is going to be needed this summer. like jesus.

i cant believe i actually passed all my classes, considering i basically dropped one of them for the last WHOLE month of school. didnt show up for weeks or do any of the final projects. think it was a pitty pass but ill take it. and my other class i just wasnt doing the readings, i mean like fuck that bullshit from even before all this, but now it was like i really wasnt doing it, and was just kinda showing up to class. absoluetly no clue what was going on, but again, i passed. then calc, jesus dont even get me started that shit was like- again i feel like i cant say anything that wont under express what was actually going on. like sure i can be like "oh yeah ts was roughh" but like, in no way does that like, like it just makes it sound like it was just, hard, or bad, or something. like nah bitch other shit was going down. even to the fucking hoes i talk to about this stuff yall dont even know what was going on either so dont read this shit and think you know what the fuck was going on as if theyd even ever see this.

whatever. i got my credits and its in the past, i dont need to linger on anything anymore.

this is the last catchup post too btw. so from now on everything ill post (which wont be much since its summer and all ill ever be doing is working and i rarely go out since all my friends are FUCKIOG EHNIGf GFUEI HCUNTS OIABAS BILTCHESLNFEIOHO

anyway- uh. ya, so, uh, end parenthesis) (it makes me mad to put the end parentesis there but i had to put it somewhere and idga OMG IDFAF OMGagrfgjerdd\erjuio) OMG just shut up. im literally UGGHH out literally going crazy keyboard smashing. i just have so much fucking pent up rage in me that just leaks out in spurts at any fucking little inconvinient thought. but LIKE I WAS SAYING, the posts from now on are all going to be in real time, so, yeah.

ok see ya

[patsypsyop]

pleaseee explain the assassins iceberg?

ok this is over a year old. but i might as well explain it. most of it was stuff that happened in 2022 and was (tumblr) fandom based. but most icebergs involve fandom stuff so whatever

also tbc whenever i say "i knew someone who did xyz" please know i was 13/14 and they were older 😭 dont go thinking i support like anything past tier four

2004 bootleg: the broadway 2004 blootleg. the queercateer subtitled version is on youtube and shows up as one of the first videos on youtube if you search for assassins

arthur bremer: shot at george wallace, didnt kill him. he was put there to represent all the other attempted assassins who werent put in the musical

historical inaccuracies: a lot of things are wrong in the music. one that comes to mind is that booth didnt shoot himself in the barn. he was shot by boston corbett

czolgosz mispronunciation: shole-gosh is, according to sondheim, not the actual way of saying it. to my knowledge, the "real" way of saying it is unknown. sondheim said he met a fan who was related to him, who corrected him. he never said the actual pronunciation in that interview, however. 1901 sources all gave their own ways of saying it. kinda still debated how you DO say it 😭

ao3: theres assassins fanfic on there

boothwald: john wilkes booth x lee harvey oswald. the most common ship on ao3/ffnet (and tumblr)

@/incorrectassassinsquotes: popular but now inactive fandom tumblr blog from 2018 with multiple owners. was like the only fandom content before 2022

1990 bootleg: bootleg of the oobc version. someones head blocks the screen tho. also on youtube

assassins based on another musical: ok i think it was a play, but this is whats on wikipedia

composer demos: audio of the original demos on youtube are here. only four songs are played (ballad of guiteau, everybodys got the right, gun song, ballad of booth), but its kinda hard to hear the lyrics. they arent well known

2021 bootleg: only a few from the revival exist (covid + assassins isnt that well know). theres at least one version, but it was nft until late 2022. theres none uploaded on youtube like the 90 and 04 one, you have to trade bootlegs through email/reddit/etc

assassins workshop demo: FULL audio musical demo with a different cast than used in 1990. some songs are different, another national anthem is VERY different where each assassin says their motives while byck monologues before (likely) shooting a gun. again, you have to use bootleg trading sites to get it. i have a copy of it, which i can dm to people who arent strangers.

assassin ocs: 2022 thing. originally was a joke post about "cooper st john" that i cant find. eventually everyone had an assassin oc. one of the later mentioned discords was centered around the ocs. attached is cooper fanart (stereotypical alt kid who shot trump in 2020)

sexual fanart: mainly 2022 im talking about, but it existed before. just the assassins drawn lewdly 😭 most was ironic? idk. attached is an example but there WAS more, just deleted

@\maybe-one-of-its-beams was popular blogger in early 2021 until late 2022. most "consensus" worldbuilding was kinda by him 😭 (by that i mean the "carnival/fair purgatory" belief). was the biggest blog in the 2022 fandom, even people who werent really "in" the fandom knew him at the time

gangara: joke ship made by @/johnadamsnotquincy of charles guiteau and guiseppe zangara. was ironically a "popular" ship in 2022, but wasnt serious (unlike boothwald, which was unironically shipped even before tumblr existed)

mlp crossover art/pmvs: theres a good amount of mlp x assassins content. including a youtube thing and some art on deviantart

john hinckley smut fic: GENUINELY caused drama in 2022 fandom. someone posted a hinckley smut fic in 2022 and it was mentioned in the note that they were on the tumblr side of the fandom (keep in mind theres no other fandom. there wasnt a twitter or tiktok fandom), so everyone was arguing over who posted it. even now, the author never revealed themself 💔 luckily it was deleted a few days later. the reason it was treated unlike the boothwald smut fics from years earlier, was that hinckley was/is ALIVE and the fandom already was against writing porn of real people

ptsilenthill: summer of 2022 there was a post by ptsilenthill that pretty much showed the fandom to the general tumblr population. had THOUSANDS of reblogs before it was nuked off the site (links to the post go nowhere, i think it was because of ptsilenthill being banned instead of the post contents itself). some users were sent hate, and ptsilenthill and beams (the one refered to as 'daddy') got into an argument where ptsilenthill sent cropped porn? for some reason? beams being a minor was one of the main arguments (other person being an adult), and ptsilenthill was in his early 20s 😭 this is known as the "daddy post" and also was a reason the 2022 discord was made

john wilkes booth eating disorder headcanon: a guy in 2019 headcanoned him as anorexic 😭 i think the musical version, but still. this wasnt a big thing, just one or two guys, but its still very funny and shows how weird the fandom was

tumblr roleplay blogs: ALL of them are gone now, but in 2022 there were roleplay blogs of all the assassins, balladeer, and proprietor. literally so much happened. there was an oswald blog that the owner decided to give up on, so I created a lee harvey oswald blog 😭 this was more towards the end though. there was also oc blogs, but oc rp blogs arent crazy

nazi pony: someone had a nazi assassin oc that they mainly kept behind closed doors. so there isnt many tumblr posts about him (op blog is deleted now), but there WERE discord roleplays. KEEP IN MIND I WAS 14 OKAY. OP WAS OLDER THAN ME ☹️ anyways they made him in ponytown 😭

czolgang/assheads: two discord servers. one from 2018, the other from 2022

sexual assassins roleplay with minors: there were sexual (or softcore) roleplays with the assassins between minors (13/14) and adults (17-19), both on the tumblr blogs and in servers #survivorofassheadsserver

[onlyplatonicirl]

    “Gray you’re doing that face again, it looks ridiculous.” Casey pat Gradient on the head and tried to pull down the skeleton’s hoodie, much to the other’s dismay.

     “Hey! What the hell!” Gradient unraveled himself from Casey and began to smack at the human’s arm, earning a series of smacks from Casey himself.

     “Dumbass.” The two of them smacked each other up and buried themselves into each other’s armpits for no particular reason whatsoever. “You’re gonna lose, mate.”

     “No!”

     “Yeah, pretty sure.” Casey pushed Gradient up against the wall, knocking down that one portrait of Error and Ink no one knew the origins of.

     “Hey, hey, hey!” 

     “Come on…”

     Gradient pushed Casey away and gave one smack to his freckled cheek. “Get your squishy ass hands off my hoodie. Christ.” Somehow, the guy had gotten more freckled over the past years, and much to Casey’s adoration, Gradient began to stare at him more with those uneven eyes of his. But he would never actually admit to Grady that he liked him staring at him with his goofy grin all the time.

     “You’re one for staring.”

     “Huh?” Casey snapped out of his daze, realizing he had been staring at the wall randomly. “Whatever. Uh.” Casey put his hands in the pockets of his black suit and tapped his foot. “Uh, did you get all the stuff? Did Ink get the cake and all the wedding shit…”

     “Huh, oh, yeah.” Gradient nodded, thinking about his strange artist father and his… rash. On second thought, maybe he shouldn’t have had Ink handle picking up the cake, and escorting the guests… and literally having everything to do with touching everything. Gradient turned to the side and dragged his hands down his face. “Shit, the rash.” 

     “Rash?” Casey stepped in front of Gradient and stared at him dead in the eye with his bulging brown eyes. “What the hell are you talking about Gray? What rash?” Just then Casey remembered what he had witnessed in the bathroom, spying on an unknowing Ink in the stall while he screamed and scratched at the rash. How could he forget? Casey bit his finger, deep in thought.

     “Gah!” Gradient pulled his color up to his chin, his eyes darting in every direction as he threw his hands in the air. He took a deep breath. “My dad has a rash and I had him cater everything and pick up everything and it itches a lot and he won’t leave it alone and now everyone’s gonna get a rash. But. In my defense, I thought it was better and he wasn’t contagious anymore!” Gradient’s eyes slowly moved up, eventually meeting Casey’s utterly still expression. Casey pressed his lips together and stared at the skeleton. 

      Casey sighed loudly. “You what?” 

     “H-hey I’m sorry! Christ I’m sorry!”

     “Gradient! What the hell!” Casey slapped a palm to his face and groaned. “You let him touch everything with that nasty rash, c’mon, Gray!”

     “Wait… you know about the rash?” Gradient’s eyes perked up and he adjusted his large glasses.

     “Uh.”

     “Casey?”

     “Listen, mate,” Casey’s voice became hushed. “I saw him in the bathroom. I saw the rash. That’s it. Ok? No more talking about it.” 

     “Um, ok. A-are you mad?”

     “I’m pissed.”

     “I didn’t know the rash was that bad!”

     “H-hey, Gray, it’s fine, alright, you didn’t know, calm down. We just gotta tell everyone not to touch the stuff, ok?” Casey pulled Gradient into his warm embrace, picking the small skeleton up a bit so that his legs dangled off the ground.

     “It’s my fault… I’m stupid,” Gradient mumbled.

     “Gray, no more insulting yourself. Alright? It’s your dad’s fault for being so disgusting, y’know? Now shut up idiot.” Casey picked Gradient up further into his arms, as if he was a cat, and smacked his cheek playfully.     

*drops off Grasey and runs away*

OMG?????? INK???????????? WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIM?????????? I DIDNT KNOW SKELETONS CAN GET RASHES OH NOOOOOO THE WEDDING IS GOING TO BE RUINED. I CANT SLEEP OR BREATHE UNTIL I KNOW THAT THEY'RE GONNA BE OK

THANK YOU FOR PART THREE ANON, IM HANGING ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT

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wrote some braindump abt the hawthorne timeline last night cause when you think about it there are a lot of questions and ideas to put in. idek what happened but all of a sudden dahlia became a very interesting character to me (iris too but dahlia is just kinda surprising)

huge mega spoilers for aa3, also large and likely boring so uhh read more

thinking abt dahlia and how weird things are in the beginning of her timeline before things actually start happening and im trying to think of how to fill the gaps. what age were they taken away by their father? isn't it crazy how the family relation is kinda sorta glossed over for all of this?? mia and dahlia are COUSINS, BRO, FUCKING COUSINS AND PEARL IS HER SISTER LIKE!!!!! BITCH!!!!! there's a 4yr age gap between d/i and mia. were misty and morgan somewhat estranged maybe?? we know morgan lived in fey manor, but was that just bc she was maya's caretaker or would she have lived there regardless? did she leave once the master title was given to misty and then moved back in later? mia could be young enough with some leeway for them to have been taken when they were toddlers and have no memories (if they lived in different houses or something).

dahlia thought morgan abandoned them bc they had little/no power but that brings up a question of when can you tell of one's spiritual power? i feel like it makes sense to just say, you can't tell that young, thats just the reasoning dahlia came up with or maybe what her father told her. age here depends on how many memories you want them to have of kurain & morgan, if any--maybe 2-4 y/o so mia would be 8 at most.

how long did iris live with dahlia and their dad? how old were they when their father remarried? i'd kinda put this at around 8-10 years old just as a feeling. how long was iris around until she was taken away? did bikini know her origin? did she speak to morgan? oh god imagine bikini alerting morgan and morgan is either pregnant with pearl or just had her and rejects iris coming back in a cruel twist of fate (i think im using that right? lol) bc although morgan didn't abandon them bc of their lack of spiritual power, she now doesn't want iris back because of it

okay 14 years old now, post fake kidnapping. wiki says valerie found dahlia and took care of her. so dahlia was considered legally dead bc terry was arrested for her murder. i think i forgot valerie forged all the melissa foster documents and just assumed dahlia did those herself or even just didn't have documents?? i mean it says "unable to get her original papers" so i didnt think of valerie making any new ones. and then post/during fawles trial, she's just given her info back? i mean edgeworth knew who she was. nothing really happened?? it was just, yep that stuff was weird but here's ur id back. do u think her dad thought she was dead, did he believe in the story or knew it was fake? do u think he gave a shit??? does dahlia live with valerie afterwards? she was 18 at the time of the fake kidnapping, so 18-22 years old taking care of her (valerie died at 23, dahlia would be 18 when valerie turns 22)? or did she go back home to her dad like "whoopsies" and her dad just does not care i dont even know what happened to the diamond after. i guess the two were able to pawn it and get the money that way rather than from the dad and that's how valerie looked after dahlia?? either they lived together or valerie set up dahlia with a living space and sent her money or she just lived independently with valerie checking in. it feels vaguely like ema like "who took care of this child and where did they live"

the idea of valerie taking care of dahlia and somewhat being that parental figure for her but it's too late for dahlia for that sort of kindness to change her path. she was also probably too close in age so dahlia would be like "whatever bitch" as you can tell dahlia & iris have become very interesting characters to me over the past few days lmfao

wait thinking on it maybe dahlia did know they were cousins. she knew morgan was her mom, she saw the last name fey and mia's magatama, thats not hard to put together

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thats the end of what i wrote lol, i've been trying to write a comic idea out for the past couple days in the evenings abt dahlia and iris and i kept getting into roadblocks, first just the idea of writing and how daunting/hard it is, but then later the timeline and how it'd work and if my ideas for it even fit. so i had an idea for them to talk about their father briefly but then remembered dahlia jumped off the damn bridge & melissa foster and it got me down a rabbit hole. so now i'm either going to rethink that section or just plow through like fuck it and maybe change my idea for the timeline at a later date. who knows if it'll even be made w the pace im going lmfao!!!

i do like that bikini/morgan interaction tho i think i'll try and make that. if anyone reads this at all first of all hi teehee second of all if you want to do that idea literally feel free i wouldnt be upset in the slightest. lil egotistical of me to assume someone would want to tho LOL

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We're moving so i did So Much today to prep my room for staging or whatever, i didnt even get to writing until like. 9:30 or 10, so it's short and sweet today, posted with just over an hour to spare

@taznovembercelebration

Day 12: coworkers au

Lup's just trying to help Magnus out and make a little extra pocket change. Why does shit always have to go sour?

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When Magnus first proposed his idea for a winter time side hustle, Lup didn't think it'd really get off the ground. Who was going to pay to have someone put up their outdoor Candlenights decorations for them? Decorating is half the fun of the season. But she agreed to help when she could.

Turns out, a lot of people will pay for it. They had to introduce a service to just put lights along the eavestroughs. People hate doing that shit, but she and Magnus run like a well oiled machine. Neither of them necessarily need the money, but it's a nice little bonus to end the ear. Plus it gets them outside during the few hours of sunlight. Take that, seasonal depression.

Lup's up on a ladder, adjusting some of the attachments along one part of the house. Magnus is somewhere nearby, fiddling with another string, trying to untie the knot it tied itself into over the past ten months in storage. “We wrap these up nicely, don't we?” He says. “Every year, we bundle them up so we don't have to do this, and every year they're impossible!”

Lup attaches a few extra hooks to the house. “Just give it a good shake, they'll sort themselves out.” She hears the jingling of little lightbulbs clinking against each other, and Magnus exclaims happily. “Told you.” She snaps the string she's working on into the new hooks. “Alright, Mags. Give that a tug.”

Magnus plus his untangled string into the end of hers, and pulls gently on the join. The droops in the string pull taut, and the lights hang perfectly straight down. Lup nods, satisfied.

She's taken two steps down the ladder when her foot slips. She tries to throw her hands out behind her, but she lands hard against the frozen ground. “Holy shit!” Mangus runs over and drops to his knees by her side. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah,” she says unconvincingly, “just waiting for the sky to stop spinning.”

Magnus inhales sharply. “Alright, uh, I'm gonna call 911.”

“You don't have to do that.”

“No, I super do. Because, one, you just fell off a ladder onto dirt that's been frozen solid, without any snow to break your fall, and two,” he pauses, and she can see him cringe, “I, uh, don't think your elbow's supposed to bend like that.”

She cranes her neck up to look, and she really wishes she hadn't. Her arm is laying in a way it really shouldn't be. She drops her head back against the ground. “Why doesn't it hurt?”

“Shock, probably? Just- don't move.”

“Roger.”

By the time the ambulance shows up, it hurts. The paramedics do whatever tests they have to. She wiggles her fingers and toes, she knows her name, where she is, the date, the president, all that good stuff. They stabilise her arm and load her up. Magnus stays behind so he can drive his truck and meet her at the hospital.

Once there, they do some x-rays and it turns out she fucked up her arm real bad. No concussion, thankfully. They set the bone, which hurts like a bitch, but she gets a pink cast out of it.

“I always wanted to break a bone when I was younger,” Magnus says as the nurse wraps Lup's arm in the hot pink material.

The nurse laughs. “That's pretty common.”

“I dreamed of having a red cast. Like, firetruck red. And everybody at school would see my cool red cast and sign it.”

“I'm living my dreams, babe,” Lup says. “Hot pink cast for the win.”

“Hell yeah.” He high fives her good hand.

She looks back at the nurse, “how long do I have to wear this anyway?”

“With the complexity of the break, it could be six to eight weeks."

“Eight weeks?!”

“Maybe more, if an x-ray shows that it's shifted or not healing properly.”

“It didn't feel like kids had casts on for that long in elementary school,” Magnus says.

“Simpler breaks don't need as long.”

“Damn.” She looks at Magnus, “I don't think I'll be going up any ladders any time soon.”

“Yeah, god, please don't.”