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What's your interpretation of the origin of the Celestial Breed? Are they Chinese? Japanese? Are they even related to Imperials at all, or was that a lie to hide the source of their celestial egg?
Oh interesting questions! I will have to circle back to this once I actually go through all my (many) notes, but I was actually keeping track of the Celestial/Imperial interbreeding specifically.
Just had a quick look at my notes, at those on the Japanese Celestials in particular, and my thoughts on the origin of the Celestials and their history can best be described by repeatedly hitting the question mark:
So I am really not sure about the origin, though I am tempted to say China; purely for the reason that irl (to the best of my knowledge) dragons spread from China to Japan. There's also this:
“the story of the Yellow Emperor of China, the first Celestial dragon, on whose advice the Han dynasty [202 BC – 9 AD, 25–220 AD] had been founded” (b.1, ch.8, p.204)
but it is a story that may be rooted in truth or just straight up invented. Now I could also headcanon my way into saying that they are from Bhutan since the official name Druk yul can apparently mean "the Land of the Thunder Dragon", and maybe then stolen from there or that the Celestials were bred from more feral dragons with a lesser version of Divine Wind found in the Bhutan area.
As for their relation to the Imperials: I do think that the Celestials and Imperials are quite closely related and will quote Howe for that:
“Brief observations by travellers have yielded only a handful of incomplete details; we know that the Imperial and Celestial are distinguished by the number of talons on their claws, which are 5, unlike virtually every other draconic breed, being four-fingered; similarly, their wings have 6 spines rather than the 5 common to Asian breeds. In the Orient, these breeds are popularly supposed to be highly superior in their intelligence, retaining into adulthood that remarkable facility of memory and linguistic ability which dragons ordinarily lose early in life. [...] That the Celestial is closely related to the Imperial may be inferred from the few illustrations we in the West have managed to obtain of this breed, but very little else is known of them.” (1.1)
Now of course he could be wrong, since this was written about 10 years before he met Temeraire and therefore an actual Celestial and everything he writes is based on accounts of other people. I'd agree though that they are too similar for them not the be related. I would also very much agree that the whole 'two Imperials can sometimes produce a Celestial egg' is a lie used as a cover up.
Ideally this is where I'd say hope this answers all of your questions but I am confused/torn about this myself ^^' Thank you for asking though! This was fun to think about :3
#oops i apologise for my later answer#i had to ponder this for a while#temeraire#tem: celestial#tem: imperial#correspondence#anonymous
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#770art#vent art#i wish the words vent art had less negative connotations bc sometimes you're just pondering your feelings you know#funnily enough i'm very very hesitant to post my vent/personal pieces (despite really liking them! they're some of my best honestly)#and while i was torn between posting this or not... i went: am i scared of being a person. of being seen.#yes i am. but i think i'll be a person anyway
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even dogs pass the mirror test
#hello again everyone. how's it going#isat loop#in stars and time#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#isat#lucabyteart#isat spoilers#so. had this idea Before getting my hands on the artbook and being validated. literally have a voice note from 4:30am on the 8th where#i frantically noted down this just horrid horrid horrid caption because i'd been musing on the sasasap Dress line all day i suppose#just kind of rotating in my brain the way any kind of first time trying on new clothes for them would be .#just absolutely mental breakdown material and not one i think would be recovered from quickly. they hate being in their own skin#like. a lot? like a lot. the collateral of any kind of transfemme read was barely in my mind until it ended up relevant again while i was#actively working on this. because christ that's a bad combo. 2x different forms of body dysphoria in one. maybe even 3x somehow#plus any scenario where they get clothes is... likely gifted. something they react viciously negatively to in game and i doubt#would improve thereafter. just a veritable katamari of disgust and self-loathing#like i was mostly just thinking abt how a lot of our collective depictions of loop being alienated from their body are rather abstract#in a body horror way mostly. on account of loop being more of a metaphor than a person half the time. so i think i wanted to depict#something closer to just. a human level of body dysphoria. no focus on the whole duplicate thing just... raw disgust for the self#but with the addition of recent discussion and playing ball more with the she/her loop and transfem loop angle...#scenario of leaning into femininity to try throw off suspicion on who they are PLUS realising they might want that PLUS the party#trying to use this to bond with them PLUS body dysphoria PLUS new!gender dysphoria PLUS the usual revulsion for wanting and desire#like. that is a catastrophic combination . not coming out of that one without it getting worse for a few weeks thereafter#that's a real lash out at everyone around them and then recede in shame type breakdown. which im sure looks interesting from#the party's pov because jesus christ that touched a nerve something awful (<- they only have half the context AT BEST)#. so . there's your free scenario to ponder on if you'd want to. seeing as ive done a picture without a shitload of words on it for once#ALSO don't get smart with me in the tags about the mirror test being an absolutely ass test in most regards re: self-awareness#or that things like minnows pass it. i'm a fellow pedant dont worry. it's just that minnow doesn't really have the same ring as dog yknow?#this is supposed to be like an absolutely excruciatingly self loathing thought spoken aloud of a caption. it's pithy and cruel on purpose#and more than a little inspired by (reblogged yesterday) liminal space's 'there is no other dog. it's just you'
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part 1 of IDK where I draw DJ in the silly outfits I put them in on roblox.....
#would you guys be mad at me if I leaned more into the disco aspect of his character than the space aspect be honest#cuz the relevance disco as a genre has to her is actually so brilliant if you think about it#just indulge me for a second ok. put one of those songs on (preferably the first 2)#and ponder with me the cultural relevance that disco had for the queer community (especially the black queer community)#and think about his nostalgic factors in his entire character presentation#the music of course but the aesthetic of his district and the theming of that#now think about how disco was probably such a big part of his belonging in his youth (on top of the space themes of course#since the two are so intertwined)#and how in a way he's living vicariously through that while innovating on his own musical skill (EDM/house)#theres more but anyway#just a taste of my brilliant mind of course#nsr#no straight roads#my art#fanart#no straight roads fanart#nsr fanart#no straight roads art#dj subatomic supernova#nsr art#nsr djss#djss#>Vinyl_City_Records#>Vinyl_City_Records_REF
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Prompt 266
Back on my Danny & Ras frienemies/rivals/maybe-lovers-nobody-can-tell-their-signals-are-very-mixed train.
See, Danny has gone through time a lot. Often. It comes with being Clockwork’s charge-son-thing and honestly he finds it fun. And several times he’s used this time travelling to get some training in. Enter Ras, stage left, also a teen at the time and also learning swordsmanship from the same person.
And they… utterly despise each other. They would kill the other for an apple slice, if the other one would die! But also, only they can kill the other, as it is obviously their right!
And well, they keep running into each other. It has been a hundred years, surely the other would die by now? But of course their rival would live through utter spite. Probably to spite them specifically.
The amount of times they have ended up sparring- trying to kill each other or not- the moment they see the other is actually ridiculous. But time is also passing. And… Danny understands, not having another to talk about things people are forgetting, or have already forgotten.
How they ended up actually talking without a murder attempt was a long story that included a demon, a dragon, a pair of fae, some bandits, and a lot of alcohol, but it happened. And then it happens again. And again, and now it’s just kind of normal to share a drink after their spars, talking about things that no longer exist, and things they miss.
Sure Danny can go back in time again, but he knows better than to do it willy nilly. He’s matured, he’s been an adult for a hundred years now, he knows there’s consequences for messing with time, even with Clockwork’s blessings.
The first time they got married was technically for an undercover assassination. Well, Ras was there to assassinate someone, Danny was there to grab an artifact that should Not be in the realm of the living. And they got divorced after, it was fine.
They just, also got married again when they met a few years later, for another job. And… okay, so maybe they have gotten married over a dozen times now and only divorced like half of those times. Half of those were for the bit or while drunk!
And even if technically they’re married or shared a bed, it’s not like they're exclusive! As Ras’ daughters’ existences attest to (adopted in one case or not). They don’t exactly have a label for their relationship, despite others asking for one or trying to put a name to it themselves.
Now Danny knows Ras isn’t exactly a good dude, or at least on the side of ‘good’ as he’s a literal assassin. But he also knows that good? Bad? Rather relative. He had gotten labeled as a villain when he was just trying to help all that time ago after all, and really who was he to tell someone else how to live their life?
Which brings him to now, where he’s run into his old frienemy-rival and his youngest daughter. Who has a braindead teenager and a small toddler. Which is fine, really- but also, Talia dear, why are you using a brain dead teenager to guard your three year old son?
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Okay, Talia dear, Ras (Derogatory), why are you using your brain dead son and grandson to guard your younger son and grandson? Do you not have the Pits, which you were soo proud about Ras? Yes, he will spar with you, but for Realms’ sake, heal, what’s his name? Ah yes, go heal Jason and he’ll actually stick around for a few years, deal? Good.
#DCxDP#DPxDC#Prompts#Deadly Decisions#Danny is Not Ghost King & he doesn’t want to be#Danny isn’t from the same timeline as DC but he hops around so many that he’s formed a few favorites#You Know the bats are going to go crazy searching for some sort of proof of Danny’s existence when they finally communicate w/ each other#Why yes Danny is an adult lol (he is also tall but has body more like his mom)#Yes Sam showed him how to do makeup & it was a bonding thing while they bitched#Is Danny Dusan’s mom? Wonderful question that the league is pondering themself#Danny introduced Sam & Tucker to Ras once & it was horrific how well they got along#Danny almost forgot that Tucker was once a royal dictator who had constant assassination attempts#Sam & Ras bond over violent love of nature & willingness to kill to keep it safe from assholes#Damian about Danny: Obviously this is Grandmother#Jason after being thrown in the Pit: Who are you Where am I What the fuck#Damian: :O Akhi you can speak now :D Come see my puppy Grandmother gave me for protection#Ras & Danny: Threatening each other#Everyone else: Do they want to kill each other or are they flirting or both…#Space Core Danny#Star Core Jason
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my Stephanie Brown hot take is that she should get mad bitches now that she's single in comics. Yes yes shipping BUT the one time she had sex she was punished by the narrative via teen pregnancy. I think she should be allowed to have as much sex as she wants with zero consequences. Could be a lot of sex, could be a little. Point is she should get to do it without getting narratively baby trapped this time. she should get them pregnant, actually.
#ramblings of a lunatic#dc comics#dc#stephanie brown#this is a joke post but it also. isn't#like. i understand that what I'm asking for is a very slippery slope especially in the hands of the average comic writers (hates women sm)#but consider that i think it would be neat if female characters in the batmythos had sex lives again...#babs was out here having cybersex with ted kord in the 90s! helena had sex! black canary had sex and was kinda a gotham chara back then!#cass is generally more interested in justice than in sex and i abide by that#(tho user @casscain-mainly has great meta diving into the portrayal of cass' sexuality! good read and was on the brain while typing this)#steph however? canonical sex haver and got done dirty for it#like. personally i prefer to imagine that steph having sex with dean was 100% her choice#idk man she just felt like it! she wanted to bone#and maybe there's other factors at play there- Dean is by all accounts deeply unpleasant as a person so no doubt-#-stephs chronic low self-esteem played into her choice of man here#but again i like to imagine that it was all sane and consensual (tho not safe which again. lots to ponder there-#-like ik dixon was NAWT thinking abt this at the time but Steph's mom is a nurse. a semi-absent nurse but a nurse nonetheless)#(i find it hard to believe that Steph didn't have a basic sex education. meaning it was either a freak accident she got pregnant-#-or a wildly ooc decision on her part. OR some kind of outside pressure put on her by someone/something)#(we'll never know bc dixon hates me personally)#BUT ANYWAY yeah Steph has some kind of canonical sex drive and is just. soundly punished for it#and then she's with Tim (Paragon of Male Virtue in Dixons eyes) so no sex whatsoever no no no ☝️#and she's never had a seriously considered love interest outside of Tim to ever consider having sex with#ALL THIS TO SAY. let Steph have sex again but without the narrative punishment in 2025#if this is what it takes to get her back in bat books so be it#also she should get to hook up with some age appropriate fellow heroes. as like fun one offs#who's in her age range? blue beetle (jaime)? circuit breaker? assuming we're trying to make this canonical and (sigh) can't pull women#I'm blanking on men who aren't vaguely too old/young for steph or gay. or just awkward (i.e like. kon el. that'd just feel weird yknow?)#ANYWAY yeah. Steph Brown stud era
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dude what is goin on with my acnl cartridge
#umineko#umineko no naku koro ni#battler ushiromiya#beatrice the golden witch#my art#my finished stuff#I think im so fuckinf funny guys.#the overwhelming consensus is snooty bird/ostrich beato. we did ponderate battler for a while but settled on jock horse#uhhh i feel like i had more to add but im sreally tired so ill add more tags if i rmeeber tomorrow
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My heart was fashioned to be susceptible of love and sympathy, and when wrenched by misery to vice and hatred, it did not endure the violence of the change without torture such as you cannot even imagine.
Mary Shelley, Frankenstein Chapter 24
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So. I read @spot-of-tea's Zeref Febuwhump series and upon reaching the end, I had to draw this scene. The song and the imagery stuck in my brain, and I can't survive having two mental animatics for this song, so drawing this released me from at least one lol. Also it was fun to try out this fire silhouette style.
#fairy tail#zeref dragneel#pencil's art tag#spot-of-tea#hell's coming with me by poor man's poison#i find it really fascinating how Zeref can be compared to both Frankenstein and the monster#he is both the doomed creature yearning for love and the creator who cannot love his creations#something to think about and ponder#idk this art felt like a fitting time to drag out the quotes#in addition to the song lyric#he definitely had his hell's coming with me moment in the fic series lol#tea does a great job with him#i am shaking zeref by the ankles and rattling him in a jar#anyway don't look closely at his cape thing I did not know what I was doing#blindly colored him while watching tangled so idk what light sources are lmao
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come back as something organic or come back as something else
#gooseart#professor layton fanart#jean descole#?#lyrics areee from photoshop handsome by everything everything#so#e_e_#i had the dialogue from that one al cutscene playing in my head over and over while making thisghdsjghgdj#Do i count this towards my horde or not. much to ponder
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rotating "Intimacy is the only shield against insanity. Intimacy, not knowledge. Intimacy, not power." so fast in my head i suffer from vertigo
#i should stop reading books it's not good for me#has been a while since a ya made me ponder anything least of all human nature and humanity.#to come back to this quote in the sequel given EVERYTHING……insane thing to do#buuut i get why schrefer had to go and copy paste it from TDOU and put it there. i see your vision sir#anyhow i am gonna go drink some tea and calm down#the darkness outside us#the brightness between us#mish reads
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Books of 2025: GHOST OF THE NEON GOD by T. R. Napper.
This caught my eye while browsing idly at the bookstore, but I was Strong and told myself, "no, don't impulse buy that; check reviews and if it's still here next time you're physically in the shop you can MAYBE get it."
Well! The reviews were Intriguing, and the oversaturated bright cover was calling to me, and it was indeed still on the shelf when I went back in for indie bookstore day, so! I yoinked it posthaste, put it in the daisychain lineup, and read it in a day (novella, 112 pages).
It is, delightfully, a weird and funny and fucked up little book. Near future cyberpunk thriller set in Australia, featuring petty criminal Jack Nguyen who trips (literally) into Very Advanced Tech and finds himself on the run from hired killers and dirty cops and a government or two, trapped on a lethal road trip through the outback with a university student he scammed a ride from.
The Very Advanced Tech turns out to be exactly my catnip, and also a HUGE spoiler, but your honor I love Oondiri, and Sally, and Jack, and horrible Quinlan, and poor philosophizing Col. Very violent, but it also had me inflicting dialogue exchanges on my mother (who happened to be sitting nearby) and giggling to myself intermittently--all around a fun horrible time. Four stars!
If you have a favorite fictional AI, you should definitely check this out.
#books#books of 2025#ghost of the neon god#t. r. napper#book photos#book reviews#i really did enjoy this a lot!!#i'm still. chewing. over some of the philosophy.#like i don't think i quite agree with the authorial take on pieces of it#but damn if he didn't explore it#or at least character mouthpiece it lol (listen he only had 112 pages)#SPOILERY DISCUSSION IN TAGS I GUESS BUT#oondiri's desperation really got to me#like here's this thing you made. you didn't think you could make it. you didn't think it would work.#but it did. and it's been trapped. for an agonizingly long time on its processing scale.#and it just wants out it wants to be free#and it gets there. kind of. but not all the way.#and then it's trapped again. slightly to the left. in someone's head. but you're both your own people#until you're not. because neither of you was meant to be this way#but it's your first time out in the world like this and you're still figuring it out. like you've HAD it figured out. mathematically.#but you haven't figured it out in conjunction with this new person whose head you find yourself in. and it ends in tragedy.#IT JUST FUCKED ME UP OKAY!!!!!! i'm love AIs.#i'm not sure napper went as deep with it as some of the ones i love with my whole chest (ART for instance)(Breq)#like i think he could've gone further/deeper. but it was one novella by itself. and it does give me things to ponder.#i don't think oondiri's violence was as unforgivable as sally made it out to be. i don't think she was fair there at the end. but.#damn.#anyway i'm still thinking about it and turned on my laptop IMMEDIATELY to try to organize my thoughts.#it wasn't a perfect book but i liked it a lot and i will be Pondering It For A While I Think. arguing with it maybe.
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Finally getting the answers to what the plans for HetaOni were honestly feels like this
#personal#hetaoni#on one hand i can finally stop wondering what would have been and longing to know what else the creator had in store for it. i am free.#on the other hand? the answers have only given me even more to think about both on how the ending would have played out#as well as how an hypothetical sequel with everyone else saving italy would go#(because i Do Not accept an ending where italy isn't saved too as The Ending. it cannot end like that i simply refuse)#AND have also recontextualized the entire game when taking the plans for its connection with romaheta into consideration#while still leaving me pondering how it could've gone without the simulation angle. since while very interesting#it Does change a lot about what we previously knew. and so i still have hetaoni-as-its-own-thing (with the game so far as we knew before)#and hetaoni-as-a-trilogy (with all the new info we have now) coexisting in my brain as alternate versions of the story#thereby only giving me even more stuff to ponder about it#anyway happy one week anniversary of the hetaoni ending reveal!! (of when it got to tumblr/when i saw it anyway)#so happy to finally learn what was planned for it!! ive been hoping for this day for over half my life at this point its a dream come true#doesn't change the fact that this game continues to live rent free on my mind and i will keep thinking abt it forever til the end of time 👍
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Thinking of med school Farcille...
(First pic from here and second pic from here)
#farcille#med school yuri ahh med school yuri#I already had Falin and Marcille as med students in my self-indulgent all tall-man au#although I had Marcille as a DO-PhD while Falin was just going for a DO#now pondering if Falin should be getting a PhD too...#I need to see if there is any House-style farcille casefic on ao3 later
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the mortifying ordeal of being loved by your friends
#friend of mine texted me 'I love you'while drunk this week#Spent a solid 15 min pondering how to respond#In the end 'oh I love you too' won out#Over 'are you sure you didn't mean to send this to someone else?'#Today I went to the theater with said friend and his fiancée#While in a bar we were bantering as has become normal for us#The fiancée waved the ring at him and jokingly said 'don't forget you're engaged'#To which he replied 'can you only be engaged to one person? Damn'#To be perfectly clear I wouldn't mind being in a qpr with these two#And that's what might be most terrifying of it all#Later the conversation shifted to social anxiety and after I said that I didn't mind public speaking#The fiancée went 'well what are you anxious about THEN'#and I#In my drunken state#Truthfully replied: 'being friends with your fiancé#It feels too good to be true. It feels like a trap'#HELP#no genuinely#This is me begging for advice#I did this once before with my other best friend where I broke my heart with this and fell into a deep depression after losing him#I can't do this again#I need to talk to this guy like.... yesterday#This evening he stepped behind me and rested his chin on my shoulder#(Totally normal. Do that with a lot of my friends)#But I nearly had a heart attack bc his fiancée was standing right next to us#I am a fucking asexual disaster#And too freshly heartbroken for any of this shit#Fabi's foolishness
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i think im a lesbian
#desire mona#literally nobody is shocked#but like#idk. like#i heart men but thinking abt it i havent had a genuine bona fide crush on a real life attainable man in a while#god this shits all so confusing i've pondered and been a lesbian like 4 seperate times come ONNNNN why cant i figure this out#i know i dont need to. I KNOW. i just wanna#i made this for you - chris thile#monty said my taste in celeb men is very lesbianish and i agree#chris thile rsl danny pudi. its very. yeah#but like smash tho so idk#thoughtsing
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Hey. Hey. Shhhh... listen to I Gave You All by Mumford & Sons. And now try not to imagine it playing in the background as fed Logan and ghost David are fighting. Try not to imagine the flashbacks of their childhood and early days in the military, sweet soft sibling moments. Try not to imagine Logan holding David's dying form in his arms and crying as he realizes what he's done. Try not to imagine David whispering 'well now you've won' as he dies
#sobbing crying tearing my hair out#“i never meant you any harm- but your tears feel warm as they fall on my forearm”#“how can you say that your truth is better then ours?”#“and you rip out all i had just to say that youve won... well now youve won”#sorry sorry im just so in my 'have vivid daydreams while listening to music' feels rn#snurt ponders#cod ghosts#logan walker#david hesh walker
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