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♡ ˙ ben barnes , he / him , thirty - seven / 𝐒𝐀𝐌 𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 has been displaced ! originally from 𝚂𝚄𝙿𝙴𝚁𝙽𝙰𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙰𝙻 , he / they has found themselves in new york city , without their memories . they’re currently working as a lawyer & tend to come across as EMPATHETIC, SELFLESS , but also STUBBORN & UNORTHODOX . we’ll see if their 𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒃𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒔 𝒇𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒖𝒈𝒆𝒔 & 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒅 𝒕𝒐𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒚 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒔 , 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒅𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒅 𝒍𝒊𝒑𝒔 , & 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒏 𝒇𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒍 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒖𝒎𝒏 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒔 personality will be their downfall or their saving grace in these streets . / link , 24 , they / them , est .

𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐂𝐊 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐒 .

full name : samuel william “sam” winchester . aliases : sammy . lucifer’s perfect vessel . the boy with the demon blood . the boy king of hell . abomination . moose . age : thirty seven . gender & pronouns : demi guy , he / they . sexual & romantic orientation : bisexual / biromantic . species : human ( demon blood induced physic ) . star sign : taurus . identifying marks : a long scar over his left palm . fantastic hair .

𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 .

i am just . linking his wiki .

the gist of it all is : sam’s father trained both him & his older brother dean to hunt the supernatural because of his revenge fueled obsession to find the demon that killed their mother . though they do eventually kill the demon , that’s hardly the end for their story as the brothers find that themselves as pawns in the grand scheme of things as the apocalypse begins to set into place . by refusing to play the roles fate seemed desperate to give them they managed to stop the end of the world , only to have another worldly threat looming after it . & another . & another . the two of them stop apocalypse after apocalypse with the help of their angel best friend , castiel , until they realize they’ve been simply characters in a story written by the creator of all things : god . wanting to control their own lives , the two take down god himself so they can , finally , have full free will over their lives .

𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐘𝐎𝐑𝐊 .

son of john & mary winchester . grew up a native new yorker with his older brother dean winchester .

has since childhood suffered from chronic nightmares which causes him to be quite the insomniac . he was taken to a specialist as a child & has been seeing one since . though he has medication , he’s not always the best at keeping up with it .

sam hates his dad ! the man was obsessive & unkind to he & dean but where dean always vouched for the man & silently obeyed ( if only to keep the peace ) sam couldn’t stand his father & the dictator control he seemed to want on their lives . sam would lash out & got into many fights with him .

sam saw dean as a primary caretaker of himself over their father .

he tried to run away on more than one occasion while growing up , staying away from his home for a day up to a full two weeks . however , guilt for leaving dean would always bring him back .

at age 17 , sam was accepted to college in california & he finally ran away for good . while his father & dean were gone , sam hurried to pack away anything he deemed necessary into his car & he took off across country without so much as a goodbye note .

the first year or two at college sam kept no connection with his family , having no want to talk to his father & terrified that his brother hated him for what he’d done , but eventually he managed to call dean . though it was a rocky reconnection at first , sam eventually made an effort to call dean a handful of times in a year . in the meantime , he would also send post cards from california .

sam got a full ride to standford & graduated as one of the top students of his class .

after his graduation , nine years after his big run away , sam returned to new york in hopes to start a practice where he intended to specalize in family law in hopes of helping kids like himself get out of bad situations .

nearly ten years later , winchester family law is a fairly respected practice in the city . he’s no big name lawyer , but he’s doing fairly well for himself .

though he has reconnected with dean , sam hasn’t even bothered to visit his father in the near ten years he’s returned . the only reason he’s possibly seen the man at all is because of the fact dean lives with him .

is aware his father is sick but also simply is trying to ignore any complicated feelings on the matter by drowning it out in the hate he has for his father . even if he’s on his death bed , sam refuses to forgive the man .

and his refusal to forgive him is only going to worsen if / when his memories come back .

𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 .

uh he / they sam rights . bi sam rights . i think sam had a girlfriend at the start of college but a boyfriend sometime at the end . we stan .

i think spn stopped caring about sam much after season like . 8 . and stopped giving him personality so . late series canon things i’m going to include into how i play sam will be with a grain of salt . some of it i’ll be honest i’m just going to flat out ignore . like forgiving his dad ? let sam be bitter , cowards . let him hate more than one thing . because he does also hate lucifer .

i do think it’s hilarious that he’s a health nut bc this man has exactly none of his priorities in order . will draw demonic sigils in his own blood then turn around to get a quinoa smoothie bowl to “stay healthy :)”

first worst thing spn deiced to do with sam’s character is get rid of his sick as fuck demonic physic powers . and with really no reason too ? so that’s a big thing i’m ignoring .

sam is most relaxed , in my opinion , when he’s being off the charts weird . like when sam is being a freak i think it’s good for him .

i’ll add more to this later i really gotta go to bed tho .