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it’s me and these 2 cookies against the world
#💌#see i could go eat BUT im so fucking tired i think i would enter a food coma#speaking of being tired guys all nighters are not for the fucking weak#i’m gonna blame it on most of my assignments being writing based instead of memorization based though#bc i can write something over and over again and remember it just fine obv cos that doesn’t take much brain power#but i’m trying to work on an essay and like. girl. nothing about me is coherent#so i have decided to CHILL for tonight so like#expect your dashes to be spammed and your ao3 inboxes flooded#i think i’ve deserved it (contrary to popular belief. like ik i’ve been on here a lot lmaoo but i promise i am doing Things)#i just have three more hours to go
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...okay, one more, because Epel's white rabbit outfit is SENDING me. everyone in this event looks like a decadent little pastry and I want to eat them all.
(credit: lace stock)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#white rabbit festival#for the record i left off some of the bows#canonically he is even fancier#deuce might be the ssr but epel is the frilly little cupcake#genuinely have not been this excited for an event in a while#and that's not a knock on other events i am just SO excited for froufrou bunny frocks#chances are good they're just going to walk around for three hours and talk about. like. the gross national income or whatever#but as long as they do it while dressed like cakes i am happy#sorry if this looks bad photoshop decided to explode and corrupt my files and i lost over an hour of work on it#so i refuse to look at it any more#posting purely to spite photoshop at this point
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*slaps Drayton's ass* this boy can fit so much Plasma trauma behind that smile!!!!
#elite four drayton#Trainer Kieran#Rival Kieran#Pokemon#pokemon scarlet and violet#Anyway#Yeeeaaaah#I like to think he went through whole plasma frigate going on freezing thing :)))#And that Fucked Him Up#Something something exposure therapy#Maybe!!!!!#I just like the idea...#Watch me and my fail art#I blacked out fot three hours and also I wanted to try and paint more comic stuff and it was fun#I must try to do more painty comics#Once I finish what I have on plate lol
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#I am literally going insane!#gif three is giving. practicing a presentation or pitch. or statement. specter ross era. they're a team!!!!#and mike's like. analysing but also. the touch so familiar gentle 🥹🥺#and GIF FOUR. I HAVE STARED AT THIS FOR HOURS NOW?#happiest they've ever been because they're! in! a relationship! now! open close comfy loose happy happy happy themmmmm them them#they're just??? they're literally each others. couldn't be more compatible. more simpatico. with any other.#they invented being in love. no one will ever be it like they are#anyway thank you t-mobile for my monthly put-them-in-situations + remove-the-context + brainstorm-it-from-there -athon 🙏#suits#suits tv#suits usa#marvey#harvey specter#mike ross#gabriel macht#patrick j adams#harvey x mike#mike x harvey#tmobile#t mobile#t-mobile#late to the party on this one lol but I am turning up the music! marvey party never stops
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yesterday was the 15th anniversary of me officially being in the fandom!
here's to fifteen years of forcing people to read my kuroshit 😌
#kuroshitsuji#also on a slightly more interesting note#I was supposed to be home from Japan on January 3rd but literally just returned a few hours ago#while waiting for our original flight to board I nearly passed out and had to be taken to the clinic for an IV#(it was a mixture of stress / exhaustion / dehydration / period arriving a full week early for some reason??)#my sister stayed in the country with me and a long string of bad luck kept us there until Tuesday#we've been traveling for over 24 hours. not counting the cancellation of our Monday flight home. yes it has been a total nightmare!#I felt pretty weak for a while so it was good to have extra time to rest#but I'm so lucky my job is really low maintenance and that my sister's boss is nice because we both had to miss three days of work#and I'm glad I can work from home because the time change is going to take a while to reacclimate towards#anyway. what a relief to be home at last! I missed my cat so much
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You talk a lot about Donnie's triggers when it comes to Raph and Leo, but what about Mikey? Is there anything specifically related to him that would freak Donnie out?
mikey gets brought up the least because he's the least physically imposing, and he very rarely got violent. his abuse was almost solely psychological, at least in the beginning, whereas raph was mostly verbal and leo was a mix of,, uh. everything lol (note that even before he smacked him, even before the closet, he was mentioned to be throwing things at him). most of mikey's abuse was caused by leo except for that one incident in the kitchen, so donnie tends to see leo as more of a threat than he does mikey when he's in a bad headspace. when mikey's alone, he doesn't think he's going to be hurt UNLESS he seriously seems to upset or anger him. (i think if donnie ever hurts mikey during an episode, he's going to take it a lot worse than if it were raph and leo. partially because he's smaller and younger, but also because of. right after the closet. yeah)
i actually think most of the things specifically about mikey were addressed in cw, though, because they were more emotional things-- the fear of being talked about when he wasn't around, for example. all of the food insecurity stems from him, too. leo was a nasty evil gaslighter but mikey was the one that just outright lied constantly, mostly in an effort to "protect donnie's feelings" (or at least to look like he was) and that's a big reason he finds that so uncomfortable. of course he's going to correlate hiding things to actually protect his feelings with talking behind his back.
#ask#canary continuity#cw abuse#mikey is actually so awful about the lying in cl im surprised it isnt brought up much here#i think the faux-empathy is nastier than if he'd just been outright cruel#he'd laugh along when leo bullied him and acted awful and then turn around and hide the depths of how involved he actually was#constantly told donnie it was okay. even hugged him pretty soon before the closet. lead him along and then crushed him#and i do think its fascinating because you gotta wonder about how much of that was like .... actually him#mikey was kind of at war with himself. with raph he fell so easily into it because it twisted a pre-existing mindset#he'd fight against it but only when it veered into territory that was too cruel for him to justify to himself#but with mikey i think he knew better than anyone else that something was WRONG#hell. after donnie pushed him and lashed out i do think he WAS actually upset. four days and he still didnt expect him to be mad#''it was just three hours'' was a lie because he was trying to save his own skin. because there WAS a small part of him that hated the idea#-of donnie being upset with him#it's unseen but i think them going on and on about donnie ''hitting'' mikey was a big reason he shifted from then on#every moment of clarity he had was just smothered by leo and raph feeding into the curse and telling him he had the right to be mad#idk inevitably mikey's greatest downfall is that he was careless and unfocused and a little selfish#he cared about what was *fun.* and when reality hit him that he might be acting bad he wanted nothing more than to be reassured#that he wasnt. he might have come to that conclusion on his own but raph and leo definitely made it worse#god damn donnie trying to be reassuring and considerate actually fucked him up so bad with mikey that's messed up :(#mikey didnt think donnie was capable of fighting back and that's why he turned so quickly when he actually did. Yikes#because like if he wasn't fighting back then surely it wasnt THAT bad... it was just play....
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....and if I said I wanted Johnny and Kerry in the messiest divorce arc since Paul McCartney and John Lennon.. what then...
#SORRY i was listening to how do u sleep by lennon and i may not like that guy BUT my GOD#he knows how to write a break up song huh....#and im not even personally into bandom like that BUT FR WAS SOMETHING GOING ON THERE BC YALL#no reason to drag out the messiest breakup of the last century like this.....#like i want these two throwing shots at each other in interviews and i want them writing whole rock ballads of a diss track#i want them being petty as fuck towards each other in the public eye post samurai when theyre pissed off at each other#then acting all buddy buddy when on stage chemistry just absolutely oozing between each other#and then off stage want them at each others throats letting their resentments known the minute their off stage#i want it to be a whole will they wont they on off messy ass situationship the tabloids can barely keep up with#as they watch that slow break in real time the degradation of their relationship all the way up until the op....#IM SORRY I DONT WANT THEM TO SUFFER but... its just how they're wired its not MY fault#(i want u to guess whos who...)#(THERES PARALLELS TOO OKAY especially since lennon was considered the more popular beatle that#and how do u sleep is typically regarded as the better track#and lennon in the song devalues the FUCK out of the contributions McCartney made to the band#like how kerry felt sidelined/overshadowed by johnny. like how i KNOW johnny was constantly devaluing his and everybody else's contributions#due to 'not fitting the vision' or some shit like that he'd use to justify it#(LENNON ALSO CALLS HIM PRETTY LMFAO while aslo using it as a way to talk down on him SO IM JUST SAYING))#((also in too many people (mccartneys response) has lyrics like 'you took your lucky break and broke it into two what can be done for you'#and I KNOW SAMURAI DIDNT NECESSARILY BREAK UP BC OF THEM AND THERE WAS A LOT OF FACTORS#BUT U CANT TELL ME KERRY AND JOHNNY'S RELATIONSHIP DIDNT INFLUENCE IT TOO))#(((GOD LISTEN I HAVE A VISION AND IM SEEING IT OKAY#idk if their break up was on the levels of breaking pop culture news like the beatles nor can i b sure to compare samurai to the beatles#...but you know who tf would? YOU KNOW WHO WOULD THINK HES LIKE FUCKING LENNON? HAD A BIG FUCKING HEAD LIKE LENNON??? IM JUST SAYING)))#((((please ignore all the typos and grammatical errors man i KNOW I USED THE WRONG THEYRE but its 3 am and ive had like#its 3 am when im typing this and also running on like three hours of sleep in the last 24 hours 😭))))#silverdyne#johnny silverhand#kerry eurodyne#ult speaking
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everyone: oh you're so lucky you get to stay home all the time!
me, chronically ill: ah. yeah. haha. lucky. i get to stay home. i don't get the fun parts of that though! i can't partake in my hobbies for more than an hour every two to three days :) i do get to watch a lot of tv though! oh you think that gets boring after a few hours? haha. yeah it fucking does. imagine that being the only thing you can do and then tell me how lucky i am
#cfs/me#fibromyalgia#chronic illness#functional neurological disorder#chronic pain#wrote 1k words in two sessions (15 min each) and then dared to take a full hour to start painting the back patch of my battle vest yterday#body didn't like that! it's also raining today so not only is the arm i painted with excruciatingly painful but so is the rest of my body!#staying home is so so so so so so fun haha isn't it when you literally can't do anything to alleviate the boredom!#i can't do shit i love all day every day. stay home for a week doing nothing and then tell me how lucky i am.#having a really rough day. yesterday was good so apparently i can't have more than one good day a week.#i also have to keep taking language classes if my residency gets sorted to receive aid even though we're moving#so what little i have to put towards things i enjoy i now have to divide towards class work too.#i've cried three times today i'm just so fucking tired and sad and it's so unfair i can't even do the stuff that brings me joy#brain so fried today i couldn't listen to music with my new headphones i've lived in for almost week. i'm that fucking spent today.#isn't that fun isn't it so fun to deal with this rather than going to work#god#i'd give fucking anything to not be like this i just want to not have to figure out what to spend my energy on#and i don't want to have to sacrifice the time i could put towards things that bring me joy#this is not living. for three years it's been oh i can do this when i get better or i could do that when i get better#doesn't seem like i'm getting better any time soon and in the meantime i can't even do things that make me happy.
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So, how do I tell my family that going out every day makes me feel bad, exhausted and burnt out?
#I've been out four days in a row now and I'm exhausted I just want to be alone for the next two weeks#I'm constantly shivering since two days#My head aches like crazy#And I feel like extremely anxious (thank u very much anxiety I hate u)#I hate this#I don't wanna but I have to#ranting is supposed to be healthy i believe so i'll do just that#rambling#ranting#Ughhhh#One more thing is I didn't know we'd go out today and then my mother comes in and says yeah well go out in three hours#For me to feel comfortable with going out (which I absolutely hate) is when I know a week beforehand or at least like two days or sth
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hi, here's a little vijinx - another love (tom odell) edit (feat. caitvi)
#ray talks about.💫#vijinx#my edits.💫#I'm sorry cait you will always be the other woman to me#this is my first time editing something like this so it's not that good#but I think it turned out alright#behind the scenes extra: I'll let u know this is taking forever to upload (my descend into madness starts here)#I feel like the guy from the guy who didn't like musicals#“please god I just want a BLACK COFFEE”#but instead of a black coffee all I want is for this thing to upload#it's almost been two hours#it's not even two minutes long dude c'mon#it's been more than two hours now please#I think I cooked too close to the sun#pleaseeeee#it's been three hours#AAAAAAAAAA#on another looove#another love#all my tears have been used up#four hours now#yikes#do I just give up?#do I try tomorrow?#is this just real life?#is this just fantasy?#I give up#I'll try again tomorrow#it's day two let's go! I have a good feeling about today#OMG FINALLY IT UPLOADED YIPPEE
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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21 question assignment about calculating electron energy levels due tonight

#it's not even hard i'm just so over it#my eyes are glazing over every time i try to get started#wednesdays are dreadfully busy i have about 2 free hours for homework and i couldn't get more than three problems done#off to lab i go
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Any Rewind updates coming soon? 👀
If I was a very lucky person. I'd say we might see one as soon as this Friday.
But then. It may not be a very good chapter, and it may actually be a part one of a chapter.
But if it is finished, and edited, and the people want the not-very-good chapter...
Then perhaps. Perhaps we will have one on Friday.
Kindly,
The Void
#apologies for the formal speech#it just gets me sometimes#I have been writing more#I think I did decide to break up this chapter I'm working on into a part one and a part two#so really I just have to finish writing a scene. Wait a few hours for it to simmer. Come back and edit.#and then I can post it#I might have to go back and re-edit it after I post it#but.#it'll be a chapter.#After so many months...#I wouldn't bank on anything.#but perhaps.#perhaps one.#soon.#and if I am lucky#I will have the next chapter after that done by next week. Because I have finally figured out the plot.#and after that is a finished chapter I can polish up and post.#and by then I will have had three whole chapters up and loaded.#imagine that.#I might even have the one after that done. But let's not jinx that.#ask#rewind series#bbc merlin#hope this answered! thanks for asking#sorry I got to it like many months late. or weeks. I don't know how to tell time anymore. :')
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Ok, drop your favourite characters and ships from the Three Musketeers, queen. <3
the answer is pretty simple actually <3
Aramis is my babygirl, my murder kitten, my favourite little princess, my rotten soldier, my sweet cheese... truly one of the characters of all time. to me. and he ages like fine wine - the older, the more cruel and ruthless and cunning and evil he gets, the better.
im a die-hard Athos/Aramis truther 🙏 i also adore the whole thing Aramis and Madame de Chevreuse have going on, especially their fucked up little divorce in the last book, it's insane and i'm obsessed with it. I do also think Aramis and d'Artagnan are long overdue for some quality hatesex sesh! and none of these are mutually exclusive, the opposite actually. basically i live for and breathe the entire d'Artagnan/Athos/Aramis/Marie drama. it's everything to me <333
#im also a huge fan of the weird psychosexual relationship he has with fouquet in the last book... did they fuck? idk! idc!#i think it would actually be more fucked up if they didnt so im gonna go with that lol#now i know its not a popular opinion but i dont buy the fan favourite porthos/aramis ship AT ALL im sorryyyyy#i just feel like aramis's relationship to athos is so so important to his character and it gets overlooked a lot#because of the easy schematic d'art/athos & aramis/porthos division. but it just doesnt really work for me#now i could talk about the relationship between aramis and d'artagnan for hours but i think one of the most important things#is that they both need to be absolutely psychosexually obsessed with athos and they both need to clock the other immediately.#i also think the aramis and porthos relationship is also very very important even if it's not romantic in nature#i actually think the ending they get hits harder if it isn't (and the ending with athos hits more if it is.#i will never be normal about their last scene together. it was written specifically to haunt me.)#BUT ALSO! i do like to think that they all fucked. i mean come on. dumas knew what he was doing.#as for other fav characters i have a strong love-hate relationship with d'artagnan lol#mordaunt and milady ofc 🙏 they should have been allowed to fucking kill them all <33#but aside from aramis my fav is actually marie aka mme de chevreuse. we dont get a lot of her in person but she's a fascinating character#especially being a woman in a dumas story. she's special. to me <33333 i still think she should have been allowed#to get aramis's head at the end. her salome swag would be INSANE 💖💅✨#the three musketeers#^^girl who said the answer is short and simple#oh i also adore constance!!! at the beginning ofc before dumas nerfs her into little more than tragic love interest for d'artagnan :(#montalais and malicorne too ofc 🙏 het couple of all time. to me.
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I am in literal physical pain you guys, between being sick and then the weather I haven't been running in a WEEK I am slowly going insane.
#ha. funny thing they never tell you about being a runner. ha.#is that. if you can't go running for an extended period.#and by extended period I mean more than three days.#you go crazy. ha.#I'm not joking I am sooo stir crazy rn y'all have no IDEA#Im going to have to do like over an hour of cardio today to get the same 'hit' that running for even just twenty minutes does#and it still isn't the same </3#running is just sooo addictive once you fall in love with it ack#truly no feeling quite the same#only plus side of this weather is that its forced me to go all in on weightlifting#which is awesome because YOU GUYSSSS I'm so jacked now yippie!!#like my muscles aren't as well defined as my brothers#but they're LARGER and im STRONGER than he is#HAHAHAAAAAAAAAa#so yay being tough#but still no runninggggg wahhhhhhhhhhh#sadddddddddd#someone invite me over for a sleepover and lets do a 10k together it'll be great#sunkissedliterarylightofchrist#random#running
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experimenting. tommy torini my beloved
#can you tell i draw more with lines than colours yet or should i make it more obvious#also Hi this is me giving permission for unsolicited advice#soliced advice?#idk anymore i'm tired. i just finished playing like three hours of Catan#anyway. i'm liking where this is going it's just the value map i'm unused to#but i got alcohol markers recently and the value map skill would prolly transfer to those and i have limited sketchbook space right now#i'm rambling. whoops#aaaand post#my art#no id
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