#i think abt this so much that its just normal to me but i'm wondering if this is like... profound enough to write with

[emioliravioli]

have i ever talked about how they're both the princess and her loyal knight? because they are, and they make me insane because of it.

[depresseddepot]

I'm trying to find ways to slowly ease my way into taking walks (debilitating social anxiety) so I was going to download pokemon go again but my phone is too old :(

[libbytwq]

merry christmas!!! (2024)

So, it's Christmas. Normally I never make this type of Christmas special, normally because every year I usually have no one in specific online to be grateful for, aside from my followers. But these past 5 months, my life has truly changed, and i finally have people I want to wish a genuine Merry Christmas to. So here is a gift for those wonderful people.

And thats not all, I'm not just gonna make a cute lil gift and not explain why I love these people!

APPRECIATION GO! 💥

SMG8 // @strange0-0storm -- STORM!! I know we rarely interact, but everytime we do, it's an absolute treat. I love seeing your art, the stuff you make is so awesome and fun to look at, and talking about goofy shit is so much fun. I look up to you a lot and I want to interact with you a lot more. SMG8 was one of the first ever SMG4 OCs I've ever gotten myself familiar with, he's such a silly man and I want to punt him, I love your stuff sm, stay cool 💥

Mango // @its-a-me-mango -- MANGO!! I've always been a massive fan of your art since I was first getting myself familiar with the SMG4 Tumblr community, because of your artstyle and the goofy jokes and silly stuff, but since joining the TSB discord server and interacting with you, I think you are even cooler. Our interactions are so incredibly goofy and I love every single time you appear on VCs. Our sense of humor almost feels like it clicks and everytime we make jokes I be cackling, to the point I sometimes get distracted from what I'm working on... but hey its okay because we're all silly here :3 i love your stuff sm man and i think ur an absolute vibe keep doing that forever and ever

N4 // @bluesbox -- BLUE!! It is so much fun interacting with you about theories and stuff!! And hearing you yap abt N4 lore is so fun and cool.... im INVESTED....... Yappin with you about goofy lil theory stuff is an absolute treat and i love interacting with you sm guh h,, we are the SCHEMERS......

TSB // @tiredsmashbros -- TOMM!! you...... YOU..... I WOULDNT BE FRIENDS WITH ANY OF THESE PEOPLE IF YOU DIDNT EXIST.... i look up to you like crazy and the fact that i can call you a friend is still batshit insane to me....interacting with you and joining your server has in fact changed my life for the better and i am not the same person i was before your 1k birthday party.... you are a huge inspiration to me and your lore is impeccable bUT DUDE I WANT ANSWERS, the TSB lore has me invested and i wanna know whats goin on im gonna..... GSHDJFNF IM GONNA GETTT Y /silly /pos dude your are so crazy awesome i love vibin with you n being silly all the time. qwah puh 💥

Neo // @neo91502 -- NEO!! You were one of the first people i bonded with in the server, and for that i think you are incredibly awesome, i love your art and everything you draw they always look so super cool and awesome and wa h,, i love your stuff sm but man you gotta handle your addiction to tsmg4 and long haired smg4 its gonna be a problem if you cant get it under control /silly YOU ARE SO AWESOME AND FUN I LOVE YAPPING WITH YOU RAAAGH

Hexsy // @nxva-blogz -- NXVA!! sigh..... i GUESS i have to include you.... for the sake of the hexore...... /j /silly you are so crazy and interacting with you is sm fun ill be completely honest. The hexsy lore is so so neat and i love your art sm guh,, I love vibing with you and being silly you are such a goofy ahh individual and you bring a lot of joy hehehehe explodes y

And now, there were a few other people I really wanted to fit on the couch, but couldn't because I burnt tf out. So heres me showing appreciation to those people too!

@knightedmares -- MY TWIN!! KNIGHTMARE KNIGHTMARE KNIGHTMARE!! We have so much in common and we just be vibin everytime you show up. I love your oc Trick sm and i love vibing with you guh

@rmgkyle -- KYLE!!! you feed me everyday and i appreciate it very very much. You are so incredibly goofy and i love RMG from the bottom of my heart and you are so insane but i love that WEE

@mikchi8 -- mikchi you are a menace to the server and i am very scared of you,, but thats ok cuz you are very silly and i love vibin with you /pos

@kittykibbl -- Kitty i LOVE your various AUs a ton and you were one of the first people i interacted with online, from one of the first WOTWs, and i still love your stuff a ton and interacting with you is a lot of fun yippe

Merry Christmas everybody!!

- Lore, libbytwq

[cloverapple]

Thank you for posting! Reading your stuff is a lot of help, and your shifting method is awesome sauce i've been using it for the past two nights (the reasons for why I didn't shift i'm self-aware of and will proceed accordingly, not writing it down here because i feel like it's unneccesarry and don't think you can say much abt it) what I was curious if you could give advice about is: fear of shifting? Don't get me wrong i really want to shift. Been on this journey for years for a reason! And i think soon i'll finally do it, as i've never been as consistent, putting in actual work, as I am and as I do now. Last night, when body was truly asleep and it was just only me, I did my thing trying to shift. And suddenly this weight settled on me, as if the world was too big and too heavy, and i immediately thought "I can't do this" and rolled over with the decision to just simply sleep. Today i talked with a friend about this, and he said it's probably "a fear of shifting, a fear of responsibility", and honestly I agree with this take. Of course I will try again tonight, and will keep doing so until I can push through this feeling and actually shift, but i was wondering if you had a word of advice? Thank you <3

• The way I see the fear of shifting is like: that fear you felt right before the shift wasn’t a failure, it was a sign you were right there.

• Think about it: why would your mind suddenly scream "I can’t do this!" and slam the brakes when you were on the edge of what you’ve been working toward? It’s because, on some level, your subconscious knew shifting was about to happen.

• It accepted it as real, as possible, and that’s exactly when the fear kicked in. That fear isn’t about shifting being impossible, it’s your mind clinging to the familiar, trying to protect you from stepping into something that it's your current reality. Our brains are wired to favor what we know, even if what we know isn’t what we want. It’s like standing at the edge of a cliff with a parachute—you know the parachute will open, but the ground beneath your feet still feels safer.

• So, no, you didn’t fail. Don’t look at that fear as a blockage because it’s not. It’s a precedent to progress, a signpost that you're on the brink of success. Fear is just your mind’s way of saying, "This is real."

To work through it: First, understand that fear is just another form of anxiety—and anxiety, at its core, is the same physiological response as excitement. The only difference is the story you tell yourself about it. When you feel that fear creeping in during the day, don’t shove it down. Let yourself feel it, but flip the script. Visualize the moments you’re genuinely excited for in your DR. Happy, comforting, exciting things that make you want to shift. Feel how easily that fear morphs into anticipation. Emotions are malleable, and once you start associating that tension with excitement instead of dread, you’ll find it easier to move forward.

What you really need to do if fear is your issue, is let go. Stop putting shifting on this towering pedestal. Yes, it’s amazing, but it’s also normal. The more you treat it like this huge, mystical event, the more your mind will see it as something to fear. Shift your perspective. Talk about it like it’s just another part of your day, think of it as routine, affirm it as something natural. Trick your brain into seeing shifting as regular and unexciting, and it’ll stop resisting. Because at the end of the day, shifting isn’t some impossible feat. It’s just you becoming aware of another space you already belong in.

• But let’s go even deeper, to stop that freeze response from hijacking you the next time you’re at the doorway to your shift. We’re going to eliminate the fear before it even has a chance to rise. (yes I'm giving you optional homework because I'm the worst 😁)

The "Normalize Your DR" Exercise

1. Document Your CR Routine. Write down your current daily schedule in your CR. What time you wake up, eat, work, study, relax, everything. Create a schedule.

2. Now create a parallel schedule for your DR. You could do this for the day you're going to wake up in your DR, or next day, depends on what you scripted and feels better for you. What are you doing at each hour? How does your morning routine look? Who do you see? Where are you?

3. Sync CR Time with DR Time. Match your CR schedule to your DR schedule. For every hour in your day, mentally check in with what you’d be doing in your DR at that exact time. This repetitive syncing normalizes your DR in your mind. It becomes part of your routine, not some distant, unreachable dream that your mind fears shifting to.

4. Visualize Throughout the Day. As you go through your CR, take moments to pause and visualize your DR. The more your mind gets used to the idea of being in your DR, the less foreign—and therefore less scary—it becomes.

I hope you can take something from this. Good luck! 💚🩷🫂

[erwinsvow]

ive been rereading ur bitchy reader stuffs n pleek do more of the pope cameo.. HER SAYING DICK APPT WHEN RAFE COMPLAINED ABT HER HAVING POPES NUMBER MADE ME GIGGLE OUT LOUD pretty please give us more of them 🤲

i imagine her being pissed off at rafe so she keeps giving him the cold shoulder and when he asks something she’d just go “maybe i should’ve gone to heywards instead he wont treat me like this 🙄” BUT ITS SO FUNNY KNOWING SHE DOESNT LIKE POGUES !!!!

LMFAOOO THIS IS KILLING ME!! one thing about my readers, their secret pogue crush is always gonna be pope <3

one thing you had in common with rafe—despite the glaring differences that were so hard to ignore—was that you both didn't care much for pogues.

that was putting it lightly, rafe despised them and you just didn't like them. but some were more tolerable than others—for example, the maybank boy who seemed to you the equivalent of a toddler with sticky hands versus pope heyward, who used to tutor in math. you don't know why or how they're friends, just that you like pope enough to be friendly, or rather polite, and you definitely don't like maybank enough to even think about him.

rafe didn't like any of them, and you didn't really care. you weren't in the habit of defending pogues, and certainly not when you were constantly trying to remind sarah to stay away from them, even though she never listened.

but seeing how angry rafe seemed to get at the mere mention was enough to give you some ideas. when you had jokingly—although now you remember you hadn't really ever clarified—said that you had pope's number because of dick appointments, rafe had gotten so angry it had resulted in the best sex of your life.

you were curious to know what else you could get out of it. unfortunately, your curiosity didn't last for very long. rafe pissed you off just as much as you pissed him off, and though these thoughts were often in one ear and out the other for you.

like today. you had been waiting for twenty whole minutes at the club for rafe, who had insisted he would be on time even though you knew he would probably run late since he was coming from barry's—all the way across town.

all he had to do was admit it, and you would have come later, but instead he had told you to show up at noon and that he wasn't going to be late.

normally you would show up at half past and just tell him to fuck off, but if he really was on time you would never hear the end of it. so you showed up on time and waited... and waited.

rafe finally shows up about forty minutes later, and you stare at him with your signature look—eyes rolling back, an i-told-you-so expression with arms crossed. you could make it more withering if you wanted, but right now you just wanted to hear rafe admit he was wrong.

"shut the fuck up," he says, taking a seat the table. your half drunken diet coke has left a ring of condensation, and you move the cup towards you, wondering how you'd become the kind of girl that waits forty minutes for a guy to show up.

"first of all, i didn't even say anything. second of all, you shut the fuck up. i'm the one who was forty-fucking-minutes late."

"it took longer-"

"longer than you thought? yeah, i said that. yesteday."

"well m'here now, so just order."

you huff, scanning the menu and not sure exactly what retort to use. instead you settle for shutting up entirely, not speaking to rafe the entire time. the waitress comes and goes, the food comes and goes, and you look up when rafe speaks but don't say anything back.

rafe thinks you'll give it up once lunch is over, but you grew up in a household where an hour of silent treatment is child's play. so the car ride to tannyhill, throughout the movie you put on and when you walk away to make popcorn, you haven't said a word.

while the movie credits roll, you look down at your phone, waiting for your apology and deciding when to leave if you don't get it.

"are you seriously gonna ignore me the entire day?"

you stare at rafe, not answering. this is your withering look.

"fine, princess. your choice," rafe shrugs. "finally got you to shut up for once."

you take a moment for his words to really hit you. like any other girl in the world, that comment from your boyfriend hurts a little. it even stings. you don't like the words in the air and you can even tell it left a bitter taste in rafe's mouth. he looks like he's just realizing he overstepped a little. then, for the first time since you saw rafe that day, you speak.

"you know, it's a good thing i didn't delete heyward's number from my phone. times like this i realize how handy it can be."

"what the fuck is th-"

"i mean, really, rafe. even these pogues you hate so much would treat me better than you do. i should go call him up now-"

"okay, princess i get it-"

"bet he'd probably fuck me better than-"

"okay, enough. jesus, i get it. m'sorry, okay? can you knock it off now?"

"i'm not knocking anything off. and you can go fuck yourself if you can't apologize for a little thing like being late-"

"i'm sorry, okay? now can you stop talking about pope fuckin' heyward?" you huff, finally a little pleased he apologized.

"thank you. was that so hard?"

"oh shut up-"

"you shut up. and don't be late again. or i'll show you fuckin' heyward-"

"enough!"

[letsmyy]

i have a request!!! you should write a daughter of apollo x leo valdez fic but based on espresso by sabrina carpenter (idk i feel like that song gives children of apollo vibes!) it'd be leo obsessed with the apollo girl (like him being absolutely obsessed with her, having the biggest crush on her possible, he constantly thinks about her, him being an absolute loser bf) and finally getting the courage to ask her out on a date or something like that.

“she’s like a shot of espresso…”

leo valdez x duaghter of apollo!reader

warnings: use of yn! english isn’t my first language so it might be some errors!!

thank you so much for your request, it made me so happy!! idk if what i wrote it’s exactly what you want but i hope you like it 🤕 this is my first timing writing a real fic and I think it really shows lol, but i promise I’ll try to improve in the next one, I’m so sorry if it’s that bad, and this is really short too? omg im really bad at this lol, but anyways, ly anon tell me your opinions (honestly) abt this later, kisses to uuu!! 🫶💗 (btw anon, please request other things I feel like I didn’t did you justice with this one)

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“is it that sweet? I guess so…..”

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Leo was sure he was going crazy.

He always had a pretty big amount of silly crushes on girls, but with you? It was getting way too serious. Of course, you're beautiful, incredibly kind, and too generous for your own good, and you treated him well, but that isn't enough reason to make him lose sleep; at least that's what he thought.

And he was extremely wrong. Being in your presence was the equivalent of being bathed in the sunlight, and gods, he felt like a prisoner who hadn't seen the sun in years.

He's completely obsessed with you; he just needs the courage to verbalize that, but being honest, Leo felt like a coward at the moment.

While being lost in his thoughts (the thoughts being the pretty daughter of Apollo that never leaves his mind), the boy finally falls asleep.

Leo doesn't mind waking up if that means spending the day with the people he loves, so after getting ready for the day, he searches for you.

And he found you, talking with a much younger camper, helping him. You're smiling like it's the best day of your life, and Leo could swear that you're almost glowing.

The boy makes its way to you the same moment you finish talking to the kid, now having your full attention on Hephaestus' son.

"Leo! Good morning!" Your voice to him had the same effect as listening to his favorite music, it made him happy in ways he couldn't explain, even if his life depended on it. 

"Yn! Good morning!" He mimics you, not in a bad way, just a teasing one. You roll your eyes in fake annoyance.

"Sooo, did you sleep well, Valdez?" You ask, seeming really interested in the answer, but he knows that you're like that for everything, being extremely kind.

"Not really, would be better if I dreamed about you," you laugh amusingly.

"You say that every day, y'know?"

"I know, I say because it's true. " You can't help but blush a little. You're used to Leo flirting with you, but it never gets past that, so you just learned to joke back.

"Hilarious, Valdez... fortunately, I slept very well today, and I'm more excited than normal! I think it's because it's so sunny today, that's awesome, was thinking about going to the lake later. I can't waste such a pretty day like this one painting inside my cabin..."

"Unfortunately, I'll be in the bunker today, I have lots of things to do."

"What? No! You're coming with me, you can't waste this wonderful day either!" You grab his hands, walking toward the lake.

Leo could swear he would pass out at that moment. He couldn't even think about denying your offer, he would prefer dying to doing that.

After a few seconds, you guys get to the lake.

"Look how pretty it is! You have to go swimming with me, it’s a need.”

"Look, sunshine, water and fire don't get along so well, so I might skip that one" he says, apologetic. You frown, thinking.

"We don't need to go swimming, we can just talk, i really don't care." You smile lovingly at him.

"I don't want to ruin your day! There are many people that can go with you, you'll find someone better to do that." He's so oblivious that it's getting concerning.

"I want to spend time with you, Valdez. I don't mind if it's swimming or just talking, I want to, you know..be with you."

"Oh." He's acting like a loser, he can't think straight anymore and is blushing like crazy, but who cares?

"Oh?" You tease him, smiling.

"Yeah, we can. Just talk, I'm happy with that. " His smile was so genuine that made your heart melt.

That's when you realize you're still holding his hand, and you don't want to change that. You can feel he notices too.

Something just snapped in his head, now it’s the time, now or never, right?

"Yn? Can I tell you something?" He says it in a quiet tone, and you just nod.

"When I'm around you, it's like constantly drinking a shot of espresso, it's like being bathed in sunlight, you're incredibly energetic and enthusiastic, and i just can't get enough of you, you're my sunrise and daylight....all I'm saying is, gods, I very much love you more than just friends" You're surprised, really surprised, so surprised that you can't even speak for a moment, which just makes Leo even more nervous.

"Please say something...like, anything, a no it's better than silence because it’s less-“ Before he yaps again, you interrupt him:

"I like you too." The boy almost squeals of pure excitement.

"Seriously? Oh gods, oh gods. What?" He's so happy, it's so sincere, so soft, it's amazing, you can feel your heart beating so fast, and you don't even care; seeing him like this because of you is the best feeling you ever felt.

Then you see that one look, meant just for you, it's like time has frozen, and you're both thinking the same thing. Then, like all the stars aligned, you kissed him

[paramountinplace]

Hiya!! I just read your fic abt Mel breaking her arm (it was incredible AIAUDHSHSHD)

and now my brain is thinking up a possible part two based off of a headcanon I distantly remember reading from I think your blog abt Mari(? My memory is so bad so I may have read this on a bother blog or gotten some details confused) getting really antsy and worried whenever people get hurt or sick? And now I’m wondering how that would play out with Mel’s broken arm (and also maybe seeing some of the recovery process that goes along with that injury?)

It’s okay if you don’t have time or whatever, focus on yourself first! Thanks for doing what you do :)

- 💫

Hello! I'm so happy you liked it! My memory is pretty rough too, but I think you're right about that being on my blog xD If not, someone correct me though. Here's a part 2 of that fic exploring some of the stuff you mentioned!

If It Ain't Broke... - pt. 2 (Little!Mel, Little!Mari)

Summary: As seen above! Mari's antsy about Mel's time in the hospital and when she finally gets home, she's got questions.

The moment Van and Tai were out the door with a teary, half-delirious Mel, Mari was running into the kitchen to latch onto Shauna's side.

"Hey, Mar," she murmured, trying to gather her wits. She was still reeling a bit from the chaos that had been realizing something was seriously wrong with Mel's arm. Van had clocked it instantly, almost too fast, now that Shauna was thinking back on it. She wondered how many similar injuries Van must've witnessed or suffered herself to recognize the signs of a broken limb that quickly.

"What's wrong with Mel?" Mari asked. She was trying to sound casual, but there was a shake to her voice that betrayed her anxiety over the situation.

"She's got a bit of an ouchie," Shauna replied. "She's okay, honey. They're gonna take care of it at the hospital."

"She's goin' to the hospital?"

Mari's thumb had made its way into her mouth. Shauna winced as she remembered the effect that doctors appointments and various other trips to the hospital tended to have on Mari.

"Yeah, honey," she murmured. "She's gonna be okay though, I promise. They'll be home before bedtime."

Mari didn't reply, pressing closer to Shauna's side, turning her face into her shirt with another sniffle. Laura Lee came into the kitchen, face softening when she saw Mari clinging to Shauna.

"Mari, I'm gonna give Tai a call soon to check in," she said. "Would you like to talk to her when I do so you can hear what's going on?"

She nodded, pulling away from Shauna a little to grab onto Laura Lee's sleeve.

"Talk to Mel?"

"We'll have to see," Laura Lee replied softly. "Why don't we put on a movie until then?"

They got her set up in front of the television. Nat frowned when she saw Mari and climbed over Lottie to sit by her, offering a hand for Mari to hold, which she accepted without protest.

The rest of the evening was spent in quiet tension. Mari's anxiety was radiating off of her and she was much more subdued than normal. Her phone call with Tai had helped some, but she still came up to Laura Lee or Shauna every so often to ask when they were getting home from the hospital or if Mel was going to have to stay the night or if Van was going to get sick from being in the hospital for so long. Shauna eventually took Mari and sat down with her in front of their shared computer in the study, pulling the girl onto her lap so she could see the screen too.

"We're going to do some research, Mar," she said.

Mari grumbled, leaning back against Shauna's chest.

"That sounds boring."

"I think it's gonna help us out," Shauna continued. "We're going to look up what happens when someone breaks their arm, okay?"

Mari hesitated for a long moment before nodding. She dropped her head against Shauna's shoulder, closing her eyes against the brightness of the computer screen. The soft sound of Shauna typing and clicking around went on for a while before she started speaking again.

"So, Tai told us Mel had some small fractures in her arm. You know what a fracture is, Mar?"

She shrugged noncommittally.

"It can be anything from a little crack to a full break," Shauna explained gently. "Mel has some of the littler ones, but she's still gonna have to get a cast to help heal them."

"So she doesn't move it around?" Mari asked.

"Exactly. The bones should be able to heal themselves because it wasn't too bad of a break and in a couple of months, she'll be able to have her cast off and it'll be all healed up."

"Months?"

Her voice shook a little and Shauna hummed, rubbing a hand over her back.

"Yeah, months. But she's gonna be at home the whole time, kid. She doesn't have to do much different from normal once she's got the cast on. We're just gonna have to be a little more careful with her."

"No touching?" Mari was squinting, obviously thinking hard. It was something she'd asked every time anyone had to go to the hospital. She was trying to connect her experiences with her younger cousin to the current ones, and she remembered very vividly that her touching him had been a concern because him getting a cold or a stomach virus would've been bad.

"You can touch her if she's okay with that," Shauna explained. "It's just her arm we have to be careful with."

Mari nodded, feeling a little bit better about the whole situation. "When is she gonna be home?"

"Actually," Shauna said, leaning back to catch a glimpse of the clock on the wall, "right about now."

They went into the kitchen to wait, Mari hovering nervously by the garage door until Laura Lee came and gently tugged her over to sit at the table. She popped up to her feet again when the door swung open, restrained from running over only by Shauna's hand grabbing the back of her shirt.

Tai entered first, holding a sheaf of papers, and Van with Mel tucked into her side behind her. The blonde was obviously drowsy, blinking against the lights of the kitchen as she scrubbed at her eyes with a closed fist.

"Hey guys," Tai greeted, flopping into a chair next to Shauna.

"Welcome home," Shauna drawled lowly. "Mel, bud, how's the arm?"

Mel held up her new cast for them to see, letting Van stoop to untie her shoes off for her. Shauna let go of Mari's shirt, allowing her to run up to Mel's side. She bent in close, examining the cast.

"Does it hurt?"

Mel nodded. Van was already rummaging around in the cabinets for some painkillers, crushing them up to combine with a cup of juice for her.

"Was it scary?" Mari continued her questioning, bending over the paperwork had discarded on the counter.

"Um, kinda," Mel said hoarsely, accepting the juice Van handed her. She flushed a little at the lid on the cup, but drank it obediently, cuddling back up to the redhead's side when she was done. "They painted my arm."

"Shauna said," Mari replied knowingly.

"We had a little research session," Shauna clarified at Tai's confused look.

They let Mari pepper Mel with a few more questions before Van declared it was time for bed and that they could keep talking about their hospital escapades in the morning.

"Feelin' a little better?" Shauna asked as she guided Mari upstairs behind Mel and Van, waving to Mel as they passed her room. Mari nodded slowly.

"Yeah," she murmured, loose-limbed and pliant as Shauna sat her down on the bed and grabbed a pajama set out of the closet for her.

"Get changed, alright? I'll be back in a second," she instructed, waiting for Mari's nod before she left the room.

She knocked lightly on Mel's door before poking her head in. Van had gotten her changed in record time despite the cast and they were sitting together on the floor while the redhead spoke softly about how Mel was going to have to shower in the morning.

"Plastic bags?" Shauna piped up curiously.

Van glanced up, nodding. Mel patted the spot beside her when she saw Shauna and scooted closer to Van to make room, prompting the other girl to come take a seat on her other side.

"She can't get it wet," Van confirmed.

"Gnarly," Shauna snorted, poking at Mel's side. "You're gonna be stinky."

Mel giggled, wriggling away from her hands and further into Van's side. She seemed to be in an okay mood, if not a little drained from the day.

"Oh, Mel, I remembered I wanted to tell you something," Shauna said. "You did real good taking care of everyone today."

Van nodded emphatically. "Really good. I'm sorry we left so quick, but I'm proud of you, kiddo."

Mel flushed, ducking her head self-consciously. The door creaked again and Mari poked her head through. Van beckoned her over too, and she plopped herself in Shauna's lap, turning so that she could curl up facing Mel, who'd wriggled her way into Van's.

They chatted for a while longer about Mel's arm. Mari was mostly alert to it, but the blonde started to doze almost immediately after she'd found a comfortable position with her new bulky cast. Van detailed the hospital trip to them while Shauna explained the story they'd gotten out of Gen about what had happened to cause Mel to get injured.

"Ah, man," Van breathed as Shauna concluded the explanation. "Has anyone checked on her?"

"I think Tai's with her now, yeah. She was feeling pretty guilty about it, but Laura Lee was handling it while I was with this one," Shauna said, giving Mari a little bounce.

"I'll have to poke my head in at some point," Van murmured, smoothing a hand over Mel's head. "She's gotta sleep with that thing propped up and she moves around so much I'm kinda worried about it."

"You could try what I've done with Jackie," Shauna offered. "Pillows on both sides so she won't wiggle too much and tuck the blanket real tight."

Van nodded. "Duly noted. Thanks."

"Yup."

Mari had nodded off against Shauna's shoulder when they stopped talking about Mel, so they sat there on the floor for a little while longer before standing up with their respective kiddos to tuck them into bed.

Mel fussed a little as Van arranged pillows and teddies around her strategically, but she calmed quickly when her most favorite moose teddy was tucked into her good arm, chin falling against her shoulder.

"Night, Mel," Van whispered.

She left the door open a crack so that she could hear if Mel woke in the night and made her rounds, poking her head in to say goodnight to various others, finally sitting with Tai in their as she finished reading Gen a chapter of her latest book.

"Mel asleep?" Tai asked as she ushered Gen to her feet.

"Out like a light."

"We'll be quiet anyhow, right, hon?"

Gen nodded, eyes big and earnest as she did.

When Tai got back, she fell face-first onto the bed with a groan.

"Long day," she said, muffled by the blankets. Van snorted, falling onto her back beside her.

"That's for sure."

[legs-like-jelly]

UR HEADCANONS FOR GRIMMY AND BULKHEAD ARE SO ADORABLEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I'M GONNA SOB AWHHH

WAITER WAITER, CAN WE HAVE MORE TKL HEADCANONS FOR GRIMMY!? IT MAYBE G1 OR ANY ANIMATED BUT PLS I LOVE MY BAWBYYY

how about the rest of them?

g1:

very VERY big nibbler he LOVES nibbling on his lee it's his fav activity

i have this hc that all versions of grimmy snort when they laugh and i think rid15 PROVED ME RIGHT

doesn't know how to tease, but makes up for it with his nuzzles and little purrs GUYS-- guys.

soft pinches are his second favorite and i feel like he gets cuteness aggression to bad, that's why he spends most of his time nibbling on his lee UUUGHJHHHH.

his favorite spot is either his ankles or the bottom of his pedes and tbh im pulling that from that one rid15 clip @pockysfluffiez posted i will not let that go ever.

cyberverse:

they made him a chilled out scientist in his bot mode and its,,,dgjjjjjdfjjjjjdjjrhehdhd im normal avbout it im defo normal abt it

he has the sweetest snort-laugh....and he gets kinda blushy too when you tease him im so normal im so emphatically normal guys.

his favorite spot is right behind his audial bcs i said so

just as sweet of a ler as he is a lee..

will tell his lee how cute they are while he wrecks them to bits, will say how much he treasures their laugh and how nice it is to see them happy IM LOSING IT-

he's so huge he definitely takes advantage of his size to scoop up smaller bots and just scribble his fingers against their tummy SHAKES THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE!!!

animated:

not very familiar with tickling, but he defo tries his best

he gets VERY jumpy and aggressive when someone tries to tickle him, it's a privilege very few have to be able to wreck tfa grimlock

lots of playful growls and aggressive tummy nuzzles with this guy i feel like

if you DO manage to get him, he'll be very fidgety and swat a lot. beware of him waving his energo-sword....

much like g1 grimmy, he is LOUD when laughing like my autobot in christ you're going to alert the enemy lines if you keep cackling like that

earthspark:

EARTHSPARK OHH EARTHSPARK MY BELOVED EVERYONE PLEASE WATCH EARTHSPARK I WILL SCREAM THIS AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS.

some of these hcs are ones i made up with @an0ma1y-th3d0ma1y

oh my god the ghost tickles with him are so BAD because he'll nuzzle his face into the lee's neck and whisper "om nom nom nom!" ANDD IM GOING GRAZY.

his faaaavorite spot is under his chin I DONT TAKE CRITICISM

like animated grimmy, he loves to growl playfully and his favorite trick to pull it on is JAWBREAKER BCS I SAID SO

he also pretends to kiss his lee's palms just to give them even MORE GHOST TICKLES I HATE HIM I HATE HIM SMASHES EVERYTHING IN SIGHT.

LOVES GIVING PHANTOM NIBBLES TO HIS LEE'S TUMMY TOO!!

god forbid he start's clawing at the lee's tummy or traps them in his arms and purrs as loud as he can to create the most tickly vibrations AARHRHGGGGG.

LOOOOOVES TO TEASE he's NOTORIOUS for it

"I'm not even tickling you yet, what's so funny?" "hmm i wonder if i can dial optimus on this phone here.." AND THEN HE STARTS POKING THE LEES TUMMY and dear primus as motley would say, he gotta die.

gives the best aftermath snuggles sorry i dont make the rules except i do

not as much of a kicker, but he does kick a few times!

will scrunch up his shoulders if you get a really bad spot

CANNOT TAKE ANTICIPATION FOR THE LIFE OF HIM HE WILL BE GIGGLING BEFORE YOU EVEN LOWER YOUR FINGERS..

im insane im insane im losing it(like i havent already) guys i need him to be WRECKED TO OBLIVION RIGHT NOW I NEED JAWBREAKER TO GET HIM BACK FOR ALL THE GHOST TICKLES GRIMLOCK;S GIVEN HIM. LIKE NOW LIKE NOW.

[meruz]

(Sorry in advance if you've been asked this before!) Hello, I was wondering: how do you do pre-orders? I've been considering them for a while, but I'm not sure if they would be more or less complicated than selling merch the regular way lol

HII I HATE DOING PRE-ORDERS but i am currently preparing to do some pre-orders so i guess this is relevant uh lemme bullet point this so i dont get rambly. still going under the cut tho.

on the front end its not any different from regular orders. just set up your online storefront the same as ever. some online point of sale setups have a preorder function/category and some do not but its rly not crazy different from a normal order because functionally you are taking payment for product like that doesnt change. i think expectations are the biggest change on the front end so as long as you make it VERY CLEAR upfront to the customer that this is a preorder and they are going to pay now but get the product much later. its fine. normally this entails like typing the words PRE-ORDER in the product name and description and checkout basically as many places as possible. this is mostly so the customer knows whats up and also so people dont email you angry or sad abt why they havent gotten the order. many things about an online store u just do to minimize emails.

I don't like doing pre-orders because you have to hold on to the customer info for longer (until the pre-order is complete) and compartmentalize it/sort it seprately from your normal orders. and especially if you charge money for stuff like shipping and fulfillment u get all this money that WILL BE USED LATER but until then you CANNOT USE. And i just hate holding other peoples money and just WAITING while it takes months for me to fulfill my side of the bargain. BECAUSE I HATE RESPONSIBILITY!!! AND I HATE KEEPING PEOPLE WAITING!!! but thats just me and my issues. this is what makes pre-orders difficult for me.

idk if this helps but i hope it does... thanks for asking but you guys should really ask someone better i think

[saiintvalentiine]

hey. hey saiint. do you remember your post abt watchers from like, a day ago. how they could take an 'empty' clone and use it as a vessel or whatever. so. two things abt that.

a) the idea of watchers in kww collab Fascinates me deeply and now theres an au in the back of my head where wato becomes a watcher. its fascinating. dont mind me i think about watchers too much okay

b) do you. have you considered voidfies.

this ominous fucker that wato got the mask from. completely void, has the texturing of wifies skin and the omz mask, shows up in a couple of the kww collab videos? have you thought abt them? bcs. idk i think this could be relevant to the idea of watchers or well distant gods or whatever. bcs look !! empty ominous weird guy who is prolly A Wifies is right here !!!!!

JUST THOUGHT IT MIGHT BE A FUN IDEA !!! idk pls ignore this if i said anth wrong lmao

welcome welcome lime !!! all kinds of fun ideas r always welcome in my inbox never worry !!! I luv yapping 💜💙 The post in question for those who don't know: watchers using clonefies as a puppet/vessel!

Oh Voidfies my deeply belothed. Love hate relationship with that wretched thing. What is it. What does it do. Why is it in my house. Wato got the mask from it, but it also seemingly took the mask back as well, and then seemingly did this several times ? As in how was Wato functioning seemingly normally when not in the Evilfies server, normally enough that Ken asks them for the IP and doesn't sense anything wrong with her? Idk if that makes sense. gyaru peace sign this will haunt me forever and that's why all I write is post canon.

There's two ways I'm imagining Voidfies in this au now that we're talking abt it: one is that it is straight up just a puppet/vessel that's even further stripped down, and depending on your take on the Omz mask, the mask is either what helps the watchers control it, or the Omz mask is parasitic in some way and isn't of watcher origins.

Another take on it that I'm really enjoying is the idea that 1, the clones are at least partially made of void magic, and 2 the Omz mask may have started as a watcher tool but something broke/severed it's connection and now it's basically a rogue entity. So what if, in the absence of a proper vessel, the Omz mask. . . picks the other clones for parts, so to speak, and created Voidfies out of the void imbued within them, which I mentioned here just really briefly in the end. It'd be a body that wouldn't fight back or have much sentience, the mask could do whatever. Without it's main source of power, I wonder what the mask does to keep itself alive. . . ?

so many fun thoughts here to think of........... i hope this was interesting ! Dunno if this is where you thought it'd go djfhgkdjhfg

[misarem]

yapping about Kill the Past under the cut cuz im now free from the 25th ward finally

THE SILVER CASE

-it feels cliche to say the first game was my favorite but uhhh haha. knowing suda, The Silver Case probably didn't fully accomplish what it set out to do but to me, it's so self-contained and demonstrates such ownership of a style that mostly came out of necessity that i can't not admire it, and i'm also so fond of my playthrough of it which was so fresh and curious, compared to the other two games which were fun but I was thinking too much abt how it connects to TSC

--also just the way i played this game is so special, i was very committed to the darker aesthetic to the point where I only played past like 10pm for a while, which is funny cuz the opening of the game is straight up paranormal but by the 2nd chapter transmitter loses that edge until debatably lifecut. tokio is also haunted and paranormally but by that point i just started playing normally. it sorta reminds me of paranormasight which starts out so spooky and the curses are very present but a few hours in it sorta reverts to being a pretty normal feeling but still very good detective mystery. at one point a character does an escape room ala zero escape and its funny. but TSC doesn't stray from its initial vibe as much as paranormasight at all.

-i also played the parallel stories of TSC separate from each other rather than alternating, which made placebo such a slog but i almost feel like I appreciated both stories more that way, even though i would have loved to experience how placebo compliments transmitter

--despite not clicking with placebo at first, tokio is like one of my favorite characters this year hes such a fucking Guy. and you experience him so intimately in placebo in a way i can't even describe but is effective by the end.

---theres a bizarre and esoteric mental link in my brain between tokio, ange from umineko and fucking flynn moore from the furry visual novel Echo because of them being like surprise deurotagonists (sp?) that get fucked up from having to search for the truth about the past and how theyre all chained by it. do you think they would put happy colors in my padded cell or would it just be all white.

-I also feel like I came out of TSC a lot clearer than I did FSR or 25W, I'm sure I missed several details at first but the shelter kids stuff and kamui as more of a role and a criminal influence than as a person wasn't that hard to wrap my head around even though I thought the silver eye stuff was so whatever. i kind of wonder if part of the reason i clicked with it faster was because I'm such an mgs2head, and the whole kamui thing is sorta like what the solid snake simulation appears to be at first

-also the mackerel phones video about Kusabi is so good and feels like a must watch for how well researched it is and how accurately it nails the feeling and message of transmitter.

-TSC also uses film window a lot better than 25W and it might be worth researching how the latter being a phone game affects things but i just got off that game

-also would kinda love a translated version of the PSX version someday just to feel how different it is. idk if certain ppl hate the official translation so much maybe they should do it themselves ooooh

-i havent read 4.5 and i meant to do so before 25W to have that context about sumio and sakura and i kindaaa didnt so lol i have to do that eventually.

FLOWER, SUN AND RAIN

-"flower, sun and rain" is like a speech tick to me in the way of like, rupaul on the weakest link immediately defaulting to chaka khan when he doesnt know the answer to a question

-i wish i felt flower, sun and rain the way I felt TSC. i had a decent time with it and even had a good sense of humor about the more obviously tedious parts and the OST, and I get how mundane it's supposed to be, what it's saying about living in peace and the lie of paradise, but it didn't click with me as much. maybe a pitfall was being so attached to TSC when i played, i was probably looking for something i shouldn't have instead of just enjoying the game for what it was altho i didn't hate it or anything.

--ideally this also gets a translation on its original console cuz I like some parts of the PS2 soundtrack and id love to experience all the art assets and music in PS2 quality.

---sorta tangent. i love the opening tracks for all of these games but Anata no Tameni might be my favorite, beyond just being amazing its so dramatic and unlike the rest of the series and it really stands out. the ds opening in comparison might actually be my least favorite because of that lol

-i think that the mondo/kodai revelation is so funny just because it's an idea you'd either keep in the back of your mind or just wave off because of how dumb it seemed but regardless it's constantly staring you in the face. assuming you even played TSC before this

--sumio was never super proper or anything, i don't think, but his personality here compared to TSC is so funny, he can spend 20 years with bottled up rage and fake his way into an incompetent police force without slipping thaaat much but here he has enough small inconveniences to hit a kid over it. kind of an interesting play on like the salient thing about personality and the self being buried and it feels like an early version of like a shiroyabu situation. not the last time i will compare sumio and shiro.

--i also think its funny that the model of sumio mondo looks pretty similar to kodai compared to the key art of mondo and we should explore that one day

-i wanted more out of toriko kusabi, she was a fun diversion and i didn't expect her to be a tokioesque second protag or anything but idk. she was fun when she went against sundance and at the end and her being like a subliminal kinda suggestion to sumio's buried memories of her father i think is cool. in a less meta sense it's also cute that shes working for her dad i wonder if tetsu has to like try not to step on christine everytime he comes home from the bathhouse at like 2am. actually i dont remember what their family situation even is

-speaking of kusabi i think him like being the guardian/ferryman for sumio's journey is so so beautiful and true and i like that he gets to pull him back from the depths the way sumio sorta inadvertently did in parade/kamuidrome.

--its also really funny to me kusabi just disguises as a chubby white guy. it was probably a fatsuit but i feel like kusabi could be like 50lb away from being a bear anyways. its like the grocery store deli scene in bobs burgers.

---i also appreciated parade from transmitter way more playing this and thinking about sumio. when i played parade the first time i loved connecting the dots on everything but then it kinda got buried by kamuidrome and lifecut. and now im such a shooter for sumio kodai. look at me talking about the previous game wooo.

-i think the character designs in this are funny for how little of them you can actually see. everyone loves yayoi and yayoi is such a serve but my other fav is ken. all the punk details are completely lost in the actual game. the models also super undersell stephen carbione's look, cuz in-game he sorta looks like tokio but then you see his key art and its like yea he would look like that.

-tokio was in this game

-i think edo macallister should be a bellhop in every video game with a hotel ever. im going to the other side of the country soon and if the guy behind the desk at the hotel isn't edo i will be severely disappointed.

-i love that its hyenas. i think there should be like tokio morishima as an anthro hyena and he still has his domesticated turtle or at least like hyena sundance or yotaro or something. i think ppl would be quick to anthropomorphize tokio as a literal turtle guy.

-the eleven children stuff is whatever, i do like that theres a bunch of sumios running around but idc for all the other implications and like step and remy and koshimizu and whoever else. is sumio mondo still deaf and mostly relying on lip reading? cuz i dont think that gets brought up again. i mean he wakes up to a phone ringing every morning but i guess those are the clones. if the hearing is referenced early in fsr and i just missed it then that would be very cool. maybe thats why the voices for the characters are abstract and illegible. maybe flower sun and rain is the best game ever.

THE 25TH WARD

-what if we were all protagonists.

-i dont think this game uses film window as well as TSC but i do like the art and how much of it there is in correctness and matchmaker, also the different styles.

-i love yotaro osato sadly hes so funny and fluffy. hes osato in my notes and in normal convo but i want to call him yotaro affectionately. i do love tsuki too hes such a sufferer.

--i think theyre a teeeeny bit like like p4 adachi and dojima if they were both murderous.

-i feel bad for the lady that gets murked immediately in correctness i had a funny voice for her in my head

-shiro and kuro god bless them are funny and parallel sumio and tetsu to me. both sumio and shiro grapple with their criminal power, although sumio goes against the hc unit while shiro attempts to but finds himself back with them at the end, and while kusabi over time softens quite a bit and learns from sumio in a more overt way than kuro being literally the "japanese dirty harry" and not having as much of an arc, they both are compelled enough by their partner to rein them back in. just the surface level so i dont have to write a whole essay in a stream of consciousness type of post

--what even happens to them bc as far as i can tell, shiro just continues to be a tool of the state and kuro maybe? shoots her superior and then the 25th ward blows up.. with them on it? like okay at least tsuki got outta there.

--on the shiroverse timeline. theres conflicting sources on if his immortality is a kamui thing or a sumio mondo thing or something else and thats funny. the sources all being fan wikis and tvtropes because fuck this game that zero people played and negative people have documented.

-i need to like hold myself back from analysing meru as trans because its so clearly done for shock value but it somehow aged really hilariously now with how prevalent trans egirls are. liek theres a strange almost unearned truth to how meru exists online versus irl.

--kind of all of the gay/trans mentions in these games are like this although kusabi you can at least take in sorta good faith?

-i need to think abt what i thought abt tokio here. its increasingly funny how online he is for being a normal dude in the late 90's early 2000s.

--his portrait in yumi is kind of a hear me out but all the cgs of older tokio look crazy. tokio in general looks a mess in this game and its funny. look at him try to be masc

-i mentioned mgs2 above and the 05 chapters of these games are so reminiscent of the s3 plan and the patriots with the frontier etc using the city to collect data and the protags having to figure out where they fit into it. during TSC, i was paying a lot of attention to the story as it related to the advent of technology. it felt really relevant to kamuidrome and all of placebo but mostly ended up as background/context to the story. it was used a lot more here and i really liked it. chat logs are a great framing device in all the routes since they add so much flavor and emphasize the loneliness of life in the 25th ward (semi-related: in both TSC and 25W, the environments are devoid of people in film window, and i think this works way better for 25W than it did for TSC). placebo is yet again a good example of this with tokio only really interfacing with the world through his computer most of the time

--in terms of twists, i might actually like "the city is just a means of data collection ready to be wiped at any moment/it resembles a computer more than an actual city and life there is so impermanent that its hard to tell how real it all is" better than the end point of tsc which was "they were trying to mass process children to find a means of immortality" which i was so whatever on even though the game is trying to be crazy and also say something about like life and aging in society, but in tsc i like "they were mass grooming perfect civilians and inadvertently making them susceptible to crime" as a conclusion a bit more. but i mean 25W also poses so many more questions than it does give answers so.

---despite everything i think it was an interesting idea for suda and masahiro yuki and masahi ooka to create the 25th ward almost as a sandbox to explore more of the ideas of the first game like how the internet affects human connection, communication, sharing of information, and how people are affected by criminal power/kamui. it was a cool idea in the original but i love actually getting to see shiroyabu steadily become more unhinged (death filing), kurumizawas pervasiveness, tsuki and osato coming to grips with their own (esp osato's immense) criminal power, etc. in spite of all of the loose ends and craziness, sometimes you really need a space to work out your ideas and express yourself and i commend grasshopper for doing that so i could have played this on a nokia in 2005. in japan

overall these were video games. very excited to forget everything about them when i fixate on something else. tsc might actually be one of my fav things i played this year. would love more analysis of the 25th ward, theres some essays/interpretations floating around and ghenryperez will get to his video on it eventually. maybe i need to be the change i wish to see but also boo putting effort into writing and analysis sux.

i started sudas works with nmh, then 2 before stopping until i played killer7 a year ago and really liked its style and sense of humor. i think this happens to a lot of people, and then a year after that i started tsc. i wasnt originally that interested in nmh tsa but now that i know theres hello 25th ward characters in it i might have to try. and then nmh3 after that. and then i also wanna play twilight syndrome/moonlight syndrome when that gets a translation because of lunatics. and i also got killer is dead when it was on sale for like 2 bucks. we can enter the greater sudaverse.. together

[justablah56]

Dndads?

DNDADS !!!! I'm assuming you're asking me like . what it is n shit . if not . my b . bcs I am about to give you as big of an infodump as I can without spoiling anything lmao .

anyways hello my dear follower , my beloved dungeons and daddies (not a bdsm podcast) is my favorite thing ever <3 it's usually very loosely a dnd podcast , season three tho switches into the call of cthulhu system .

season one is 69 (nice) episodes about four normal world dads and their sons who all get sucked into faerun , a dnd world basically , through a portal while trying to go to their kids soccer game lmao . they end up losing their kids and basically the whole season is them trying to find their kids and then trying to find a way back home with tons of little side quests and detours that they take along the way . most of it is super comedic and lighthearted and it's also just fucking insane sometimes but it also has a lot of super compelling emotional moments and iughencmd it's so good oh my god .

season two is a continuation of the world created in season one , but now the players are playing as the teenaged grandchildren of their original dad characters , and it's heavily influenced by season one so you can't really listen to it on its own . season two is 50 smthin episodes of these teens basically trying to clean up the world after the things that their parents (aka , the kids from season one , aka , the kiddads) and their grandparents did between seasons to try and fix things and kinda ended up making everything worse cbnsndnsnd and it kinda starts off with the kiddads all going missing and suddenly these teenagers are supposed to be in charge of everything the kiddads were originally doing to fix everything . season two is I think a bit less comedic than season 1 , but it does have like . twice as many of those absolutely fucking insane moments lmao , and it does still have a lot of cool emotional moments and ougjfj it's all so good .

a lot of what I post abt usually has to do with this sort of untold season that happened between seasons with the kiddads . a lot of people are very attached to the kiddads , and to me a lot of it is bcs these are the characters we've known for the longest and we've seen them as kids and we see how the events of the first seasons shaped them into the adults they are in season two and man . it's just so cool . season two gives us a lot of small hints to stuff that happened between seasons , and we get a few flashbacks , but there's a lot of stuff that we don't know , and there's so much speculation abt how things happened and it's a very fun sandbox to play in chwndnsnmxx anyways .

season three started just a bit ago , there's 3 episodes so far . they switched who was the dm and so it's a new universe with no relation to the first two seasons , and could pretty easily be listened to on its own . season three is set at some point in the 1950s , and the four characters don't really have like . a solid thing they can all be described as . there's like . a teacher and a weird wife and a car salesman and a teenager . they're great . but it's these four characters who are all in a bowling league together and they're kinda figuring out that hey weird stuff is happening around here and there's monsters and just a ton of stuff and so far it is absolutely hilarious , I love it dearly <3 every character is just . fucking insane . and the dynamic is great , it's just awesome and I personally am having a blast with it so far

ok anyways . thats dndads lmao . if theres anything more specific you want to know literally pleaaaaase ask me and I will be soooooo excited to tell you cndnmxmdmd I'm completely and utterly obsessed with this podcast , I've listened to it . so many times . I will talk about it any chance I get , it's just great . I love it . and that's not even to mention the wonderful community here on Tumblr !!!! it's a relatively small fandom , so for the most part everyone at least recognizes everyone else , and everyone is just so awesome , ive made so many friends through this fandom , its great

[hiddenbeks]

people i'd like to know better

tagged by @ecofear, thank you!!! 😌🫶

last song: apocalypse please by muse!

favorite color: really into dark emerald green rn

last book read: last book i remember actually finishing was the obelisk gate by n. k. jemisin like... two years ago aha... i'm currently enjoying kellopelisydän by vehka kurjenmiekka!! it's in finnish but the title translates to 'clockwork heart' and it's about these assassins who have had their hearts replaced by a mechanical one that demands they kill at least one person per year and if they fail to do this the heart will kill them... lots of mystery surrounding the hearts and the assassins... and like the setting and its people in general... i really don't wanna say too much bc i believe this book is best enjoyed if you just dive in with minimal knowledge... finnish speaking mutuals check it out 🫵 if u wanna

last movie: mad max fury road was on tv the other day and i watched it... still love it still the most action movie of all time... i've seen it four times now i think

last show: i'm currently juggling between twin peaks and battlestar galactica (2004 remake)! i've never watched twin peaks before but i borrowed the dvd box set from my sib and i've watched 3 episodes so far? i really enjoy the setting and the soundtrack and the mystery and the characters and their secrets and the overall ✨ambiance✨ but the creepy staring man in ep 2 jumpscared me so hard that it has been difficult to continue lol

sweet/savory/spicy: savory mostly

relationship status: single. sigh

last thing i looked up: 'antibiotics hair loss' bc i'm still on antibiotics and i'm losing a lot more hair than normally so i was wondering if it was connected. could be but also could be that it's something else who knows. i'm so tired

current obsession: idk i'm not really intensely obsessed with anything at the moment. but i'm spending lots of time with fields of mistria... and kotor... i'm gonna get the 4th star map soon and i know after that you encounter malak on the leviathan?? so the Reveal is about to happen soon??? i'm nervous... also speaking of kotor i am obsessed with liah actually. i watch battlestar galactica and i go what if liah bsg au 🤔 i think abt the sw prequels and i go what if liah prequel au 🤔 i've never played cyberponk and never will but the other day i went what if liah cyberponk au (liah with mantis blades??!?!?!?!!???!!) 🤔 can't think abt anything without also thinking abt inserting liah in it somehow...

looking forward to: kotor remake :) fields of mistria update later this month :) finding out who wins this season of finland's dancing with the stars... it's gotta be either isaac or linnea. or bess maybe

tagging @yahgrondu @volkihar @nokstella @thelavellans

@pinkfey @pawnguild @bellaralutare no pressure thooooo!

[eurydicees]

okay talk about your favorite parts of haikyuu. top 3 blorbos, favorite arc, and a scene that has you gnashing your teeth going insane every time! go!! (if u want to lol)

ALRIGHT HERE WE GO. when this gets stupid long, remember that you asked.

my top 3 guys!!!!!

OIKAWA. obviously. surprising no one. we all know im decidedly not normal about him. everything about his arc makes me feel emotions off the fucking scale of the human range of feeling. i can't think about him too long or i'll go crazy.

KENMA. oh man oh man oh man oh man. i'm not ok abt anything related to him. its smth about the apathy to the vague interest to the feeling of pushing yourself to the limits and finding a new side of yourself that you didn't know existed, a side of yourself that you really like, that comes out when you let yourself try hard and fail and have fun with that. no matter who wins, no one really dies or respawns. dark doesn't prosper and the world doesn't end. all we do is chase a ball around a court and try to make it hit the floor here but not there. and it was the most fun i've had in my life. man. sometimes it's not about world ending stakes, sometimes it's just about making a ball hit the floor here but not there. it's about the friendship and striving to make each other better and stronger and letting yourself grow alongside them, even when you don't see that you're growing too. it's the connections we make between ourselves and our friends. it's the letting yourself be free and have fun. it's trying so desperately hard and then being emotionally affected by it. i'll make you try hard and then i'll make you say that was frustrating, or that was fun. thank you for teaching me volleyball. ok. shaking and sobbing. i'm like normal about him though.

ATSUMU. more things that don't surprise anyone. just....the setter most dedicated to his spikers, the one who encapsulates love, the one who doesn't care if his personality is palatable to other people because he's confident in what he does, who people may not like but they can't deny him his skill, who helps kita answer the question oikawa and kageyama have been asking the entire manga until this point: it's not about genius or innate talent, it's about the choice to work harder than everyone else and the choice to turn pure passion into ambition into skill. to work a to z instead of 1 to 10, just because it's fun. god. he's so. he's. yeah. okokokokok.

favorite arc!!! -> you're getting another top 3 because i'm insufferable and can't choose one.

oikawa's arc. enough said.

THE DUMPSTER BATTLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! literally throwing things breaking glass shaking the bars of my cage. this entire game is insane. nekoma synchronized attack. tsukkiyama he's a man who walks ahead of me. we are each other's teacher. the foot recieves. you cut off his wings and wonder why you're sad he doesn't fly. the boom jump. kageyama never giving up on hinata. as the demon king toys with the hero, he's thinking: don't you die on me yet. the ball hasn't hit the floor yet. this hurts. this is painful. i don't ever want it to end. ah, the sweat. it was the most fun i've ever had. thank you for teaching me volleyball. sometimes media builds up to a specific point that's the goal of the story, the final boss, the big capital-p Point of the media, and then that big scene is, like, disappointing. i cannot express to you enough much haikyuu does not do that. the dumpster battle ends up even better than it was hyped up to be. i feel insane. god. i should reread-- *self-hired sniper takes me the fuck out before i commit to being insane again*

tsukishimaaaaaaaaa. he may not be my favorite character, but oh my god. his character growth is EVERYTHINGGGGG.

scenes that have me gnashing my teeth going insane every time: another top 3 list

OIKAWA I FORGOT THAT VOLLEYBALL IS FUN!!!!! literally frothing at the mouth rn thinking about those panels. like. that's the whole point of the story. volleyball is fun. and no matter how many times you forget that, it comes back to remind you. when you love something, it stays with you. even when you forget that you love it, even when it turns into work more than love, it will come back to you if you let it. you should work hard, and choosing the harder path sometimes means there will be more difficulties than there will be fun, but--don't forget why you're doing it. go back to square one every now and then, and remember that you loved it, and that's why you're choosing the hard path. and then keep going.

the last point of the inarizaki game. GODDDDDDDD. literally climbing up the fucking walls punching plaster chewing foam thinking about it. the way they do it in the anime is like. fucking crazy. the MUSICCCC. this position. this timing. this angle. its perfection. we don't need the memories. hinata and kageyama's hands. THE BALL REFLECTED IN KITA'S EYES. atsumu and osamu on their knees. I FEEL INSANE.

oh my god the last point of the first aoba johsai game. oikawa's at the rate you evolve, someday you might actually just beat me, tobio. but not today. just watching as they all dive for the ball and it hits the ground. what the fuckkkkkkkkkk. that's CRAZYYYYYYYY. literally lives in my head constantly.

[ibusukiss]

Boueibu Rewatch

Thursday's for the Boys! 11

Happy Kiss! Episodes 4-6

Episode 4

If ep 2 established HK as my favorite season, ep 4 was the cherry on top

i wonder if gora gave nanao the OK to bring a floating tray and tea into the onsen

idk if its a writing thing or a culture thing or what but i feel like i can understand all the monsters' problems in HK, but in s1 and s2 some of them feel completely abstract

UGHHH the plot point of Ichiro worrying abt the time capsule and knowing that nanao would read his letter is so *chef's kiss* they build up to it so well!!!!!!!!!! AAAGHH I LOVE PLOT

ichiro "no youthful passion" bro your character song is called Dash Dash Dash so idk what ur talking about

the funny thing about this season is it only hints at the seitokai being rich, and here it only says that Taiju's family owns a construction company, which isnt the megacorp richboy son vibes i get from s1 seitokai - i always assumed caerula adamas were MUCH richer than edelstein but only bc they made their wealth more explicit in s1? I think by making it implied in this season they made the seitokai's families seem more like blue collar ceo's rather than megacorp ceo's

i will ALWAYS headcanon that Taishi cleaned up his act bc he was trying to act more like Nanao so Ichiro would like him

THIS is what I'm talking about - by trying to write fanservice they have fully surpassed the queerbait IMO and fully just wrote that Ichiro has a crush on Nanao

i assume Kyochan wasnt trying to be sus when he tucked the photo into his pocket but this moment the first time i watched it was very 'HOLY FUCK THEYRE KEEPING SECRETS FROM EACHOTHER OHH THE INTRIGUE OHHH MY GOD" which i suppose is something the seitokai do in this season later!

I just remember when this was coming out feeling so much unbridled joy from how cheesy this season is - it gave me so much serotonin LMAO

Ata as a little kid with his black bob makes me insane - wym he had a slutty black bob as an elementary schooler??????

Serenity you already said this but I must reiterate that it is WILD that Kyoata have eachother's contact info and seem to text often enough that its not strange for Kyotaro to text Ata out of the blue - they deffo arent nearly as estranged as Kinatsu were

Episode 5 (CW: discussion of eating disorders and weight stigma)

We have now entered what I think of as the 4-episode lull of HK where the episodes dont hit as hard - not bad in any sense but theyre just not as iconic as 1-4 or 9-12

*midori gets up on their soapbox*

I have a lot of thoughts about Maasa. I dont normally have such a strong headcanon for a character - but their whole arc feel so strongly to me like the story of a trans person who has a lot of complicated feelings about their body. While that's CLEARLY not what the writers intended it is how I choose to interpret their character bc 1. i have to put my dirty trans hands on everything and 2. to me - Maasa's story is uncomfortable and poorly written otherwise

some context: I have a lot of Complicated Feelings about weight stigma/body image and spend FARRR too much time learning about the science of dieting and eating disorders, so naturally I am gonna take this episode WAY more seriously than intended - youve been warned LOL

While my bar for anime is extremely low, I am pleasantly surprised at how this ep handles talking about weight with the exception of Maasa's diet. It has always looked explicitly like disordered eating - full restriction of fats/sugars is Very extreme and dangerous, and completely goes against the 'as long as you're healthy' sentiment the episode promotes - I take issue with that mindset anyway bc 1. why should only 'healthy' people have bodies that are excused from criticism/ridicule and 2. who gets to decide what 'healthy' looks like? does healthy imply thinness? to some people, yes! But regardless, extremely restrictive diets aren't 'healthy' anyway, so no dice there, HK.

And Ata is right! People do resent those who represent the opposite of their greatest fears! The implication here being that most people's greatest fear is being fat - and therefore bully the guy who will absolutely never be fat. While I dont think anyone should bully anyone about their body, this messaging makes fatness out to be the enemy in a way that I'm not in love with :/ This ep doesn't address the relentless, institutionally-ordained negative messaging that people receive about fat bodies, which definitely fuels the need on a personal level to bite back at those who those messages dont apply to - not an excuse of course, but a much-needed explanation.

It just feels strange that the episode that is saying 'dont bully this guy because his body is a certain way' is also saying 'we support your decision to make everyone in the school fat because it's your greatest fear and youre lashing out at your peers because of it' ? I know, I know, it's not that deep, the writers weren't thinking about this shit.

*midori steps down from their soapbox*

i love the detail of Taishi wiping the steam off his glasses

now i want ramen T_T

Episode 6

Ata's umbrella has always FASCINATED me - bc i think the writers were just making him seem overly-fancy, but it reads gothic lolita??? So is he a prep or a goth??? what does he dress like outside of school??!?!? I must know!!!!!!

Taishi recites fun facts to self-soothe

Umbrella guy is me trying to make conversation at work lmao

It's interesting that Taiju and Maasa are taken aback by Ata talking about not wanting to carry the 'umbrellas of commoners', maybe theres a bit of Furanui's influence in there? and it's not normal for him to think like that?

LMAOOO I forgot about the bit with Nanao distracting umbrella guy, thats such a good bit

Ata 'likes spending time at home' PERFECT for my headcanon that he has social anxiety

Taiju wanting to stay longer bc Ata's not leaving bc he's worried Ata is taking this whole thing too seriously and needs to babysit a bit longer

'its hard to care when it's raining' PERFECT for my headcanon that Kyotaro has depression

I project a lot on these characters if you couldnt tell

[yinyuedijun]

hiiiii i have not read or seen windbreaker my only interactions with it are bc some of my moots r into it now so ive read some fics and i saw tokyo vice on my dash and i was really pulled in by the summary so i read both parts and sincerity and the little prequel piece and oh my god it’s so good. i love the humor, the narrative voice is so witty. suo’s character is so intriguing bc as much as the reader loves and knows him there’s still so much going on that we can only guess at and i felt like that was communicated really well. i enjoyed the fact that sincerity and the prequel let us see their relationship at a different time and how we got to where they are in the present. im really interested in the reader and i felt like u did such a good job of weaving in the comedy to make some of her internal dialogue more lighthearted while still developing her emotional state really well. plus the smut was insane like 11/10 no notes. when the reader said she was excited for pussy inspections >>> like fuck yea me too!!! but anyways i loved the details we learn about her and how her fantasy is have really mundane romantic and vanilla sex. it really speaks to just how fucked up her life has been to the point where her biggest romantic dream is just to have regular sex with the man she loves. like ugh the angst interspersed with the comedy and smut was just chef's kiss. AND THAT ENDING??? WHEN HE THINKS SHE'S ASLEEP. like that did tug at my heartstrings especially when he talked about what their old friends think of him :(( and how if he was a better man he'd let her go. i read another organized crime x civilian fic for a different fandom a few years ago and it ended with the civilian person leaving his partner/his partner letting him go bc the deeper the partner he got into organized crime the more unhinged he became and how his mental state began affecting the civilian. thats a really condensed way of explaining but the events were crazy and it had me crying and screaming every chapter but that's something that ive never seen in other yakuza/gang/organized crime aus so i thought it was really cool to see how that is something that suo thinks about and has to come to terms with now that its been a few years and he can look back at his behavior.

but anyways i really really loved it and im gonna watch/read windbreaker as soon as i can now :)) so thank u for the wonderful fic 🙂‍↕️ and is tokyo vice over? i dont think i saw a completed tag on it on ur masterlist so i wanted to ask if u were leaving the world open

ANONNN I LOVE U SO MUCH TRULY THANK YOU!! 🥹 tokyo vice was an absurd self-indulgent project so I'm so very happy you gave it a shot despite not being into wbk!!! I must confess that it's wildly different from canon LOL but I do adore the canon series nevertheless, and I hope you enjoy it :-) (let us know if you do!!!)

I can't thank you enough for sending such juicy feedback abt tokyo vice, especially about the reader! I did find it somewhat stressful trying to balance the comedy of her narration with the horny and angsty and deranged events of the plot, so I'm glad that you liked that aspect of the fic !!! 🥹 and yeah despite all the comedy, she really is a traumatized meow meow. but it's okay, she can now have the normal sex of her dreams with the love of her life - as long as she can survive 4 months of orgasm denial before their wedding 😭

and LOL I love yandere charas with self-awareness so in general I love writing arcs where they love the reader enough to understand that they should let them go. the plot you're describing is sooooo up my alley and I think suo would absolutely have that thought process if the reader were even remotely mentally normal. unfortunately she is equally insane. I guess that is the tragedy of it for suo - he knows that he can never get better, and he also knows that as long as they are together, she can never get better either. fortunately for him, she could not care less ♥️

I do think tokyo vice is complete, but I do want to finish that sakura wip at some point and also write about suo and mc's sex life after they get together (which is very nasty premaritally and then really vanilla and emotional on their wedding night). I want to finish this kitsune suo pwp first though and finish my ffg commitments too 😭

anyway sorry for yapping so much HAHAH I'm just so happy that you commented on all these aspects of the fic!! thank you for reading and for sending such a wonderful ask 🥺💗