#i wanna cry when i think about them...

[courtana]

AEPHORUL & RESH'AN Sea of Stars (2023) dev. Sabotage Studio

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

When I wrote about this part during the book club, I talked about how this romance made me feel hopeful and brought me so much joy. And watching this part of the series, I had the advantage of knowing how it all ends, and yet, the way this romance is built, it's almost as if I was expecting a different ending. Cause I felt the same sense of joy watching these two people come together, and I'm sure a small part of my brain was hanging on to the idea that it would be different this time. As if somehow this Young and this Gyu-ho were completely different people and so their story would have a different ending. Foolish, I know, but it's a testament to this show, that I got to be so enamoured with this romance knowing the pain that would follow.

I remember being a wreck when I finished this part of the novel. I felt Young was being so much more honest about himself that he had ever been in previous chapters. But this time I was overwhelmed. The reason of course being, Gyu-ho. There he was. A full person. Not just a recollection of moments told to us by Young, in his words. I could see his smile, the way he looked at Young, the way he slept, the way he brought so much light into Young's life, the way he tried just so damn hard to break through the wall Young had built around himself.

And for a while, he found a way in. Young allowed himself to be open, to be vulnerable with this person. Showing him parts of himself he didn't allow others to see. And what a beautifully normal romance this was. And we were allowed to see all parts too.

I have no doubt Young loved Gyu-ho fully. And if only he loved himself a small fraction of that, anything would've been possible. He doesn't believe he deserves this kind of happiness, and wouldn't even think of fighting for it. 'I'd been too greedy' - Young says when he realizes he won't be able to go to China because of Kylie. Like a sign from the universe, saying, that's enough. As if he'd been living in some alternate reality where he was allowed a small moment of happiness but now reality comes crashing in. And he simply sighs. Like it was somehow expected. So he doesn't fight it. He simply accepts it and does what he needs to do. Don't get me wrong. I'm not condemning him. Nor am I judging the way he chose to handle all of this. I understand it all. But, I wish he was kinder to himself. I wish he could see himself through Gyu-ho's eyes just for a second. And maybe believe that they could find a way.

[thefirstimagifabricator]

thinking abt how yjh is the embodied expression of hsy’s love for kdj and just. sjshnds yhk hours (it’s always yhk hours)

[trislosherfan25]

I would burn down the fucking world for trans girls. Deadass.

[gelarshiesprofruitboarder]

tgese pictures haunt me every day what the fuck was this for theres no reason for this to behappening im so scared

[rainghoulgf]

Actually I don't think I've ever asked about your Raindrop HCs. (I loved your whole Terzomega/Alpha stuff holy shit). You a fan of mean Rain? Gimme the gossssss.

oh my god. thank you.

i have a lot less "set" storyline for them bc i basically just love any possible dynamic they have going on- ill eat up pretty much anything with them in it and i think it's fun to play around w the fandom standard sometimes! but i do think the baseline i work with is a sort of rivals-to-lovers type deal, where dew was still reeling from the loss of ifrit+zeph+terzo and his transition and lashes out at rain because of it. that's pretty well agreed upon but i like to think of rain as keeping his distance in return, maybe trying to reach out once or twice before giving up, and things don't really change until dew sorts his shit out and tries to reach out/make amends.

i loooove the almost competitive vibe they have in some prequelle videos so i like to think at that point they kept up the rivalry but it's good natured and teasing, and that's probably when they started actually Doing stuff together. ill admit i don't really have a thought for when/how exactly the Soulmateism sunk in, but by impera they're definitely a Duo, Two of Them, Do Not Separate type deal, and the rest... is history ;)

but to answer the second part of ur question: yeah i do like mean rain. a lot. what gave it away?

To Me, the two of them switch around and kind of take turns with.. basically everything, but rain's in charge just a little bit more. (dew genuinely loves both bratting and the reprieve of subspace, but deep down a part of him also thinks he owes it to rain for how he treated him when he was first summoned. they're working on it.) rain can definitely get intense, too- he fucking loves making dew cry, and he knows exactly how to do it. he's also got a bit of a thing for pain- he likes the thrill of it, seeing what these forms can do, whether he's receiving or giving it.

on the other hand, it's important to dew to have a tangible sense of power/control sometimes, given his whole... deal, and that works well for them, too. rain is, of course, a massive slut who loves being degraded, used, and fucked stupid. dew is more than happy to toss him around and take what he wants when the situation calls for it.

i think they have an interesting back-and-forth with feminization in particular, too. they're both fairly androgynous, and rain absolutely leans into his pretty boy reputation. he's got makeup for special occasions (read: when he feels like it), a few skirts, and a chunk of his closet devoted to lingerie- one of his favorite things to do is take dew apart while he's all dressed up nice and pretty. dew's got some more complicated feelings about it, and he'll put up a fight for show, but whether rain holding him up by his hair and calling him good girl makes his stomach twist with shame or arousal (it's both) doesn't matter, because there's no other feeling like it

and of course, they are both very, very wet. another thing i switch between a lot is which of them has what anatomy- it really just depends on what scene/kink im throwing at them dkjgaldkjlk. the both of them are soaking through whatever's between them either way- rain's gets especially ruined. if dew's got a dick, it's a small one, and they both know he knows how to use it to make rain see stars, but it's so much fun to belittle the desperate leaky thing. if he's got a cunt, he's fantasized about rain putting his hand inside it (or maybe he already has!)

i also think dew desperately wants to knock rain up (who wouldn't), so if he has a pussy, how perfect- it's made for him, they fit together so well, see how tightly it's clinging to his little knot. if not, it doesn't stop him- he'll spew the same filth and they'll both spill over it either way. (rain switches it up on him sometimes, tells dew he'll fuck him till it takes, and dew turns to absolute mush- doesn't know how to feel or what to think, turns bright red, cums in between sobs.) if he's got a tentacle, though..... Well. that's a whole other post in and of itself !

other misc thoughts via list bc jesus christ this is long:

rain's got a thing for choking (obviously) since it's such a rare sensation for him

everybody touches rain's gills one way or another but dew's the only one who knows how to play with them since he used to have his own ;)

dew loves rain's tentacle and she loves dew; rain's not above blaming some of his own desperation on her ("fuck, she misses you, droplet, can't wait to get inside-" as he's already pushing in)

(only slightly related but) i like to think rain's first time topside was either with mountain or aether bc yes, theyre hot and genuinely nice and helpful, but also to piss off dew lol

[pigeons-den]

Vent time

My dad made my mom cry yesterday and he doesn't even know and he hasn't apologized for being an asshole and now every moment they're in the same room it's like there's this huge elephant in the room but I don't even think my dad realizes there's tension cause he just can't get his head out of his ass. And I don't even think he's gonna apologize. I just hope my mom doesn't end up apologizing cause he's the one who just. First forgot about her and then basically told her he doesn't show his love 'that way' when really maybe he just doesn't show his love in any pleasant way at all. I'm so mad at him. I wanna cry. I want everything to be gone and my mom to be okay.

[nemotakeit]

i think that if we dig all the way down to the roots of tøp's musical theme, it all comes down to that constant internal conflict between desperately wanting to be seen and desperately wanting to stay hidden. we can see how they've been making gradual progress in "managing the tension" but it's still there on Clancy. dare i say it's the central theme of the lore as well.. the reason the character & the era Clancy feels so rebellious is because he's actively fighting to Be Seen. the oscillation continues, but a subversive variable has emerged.

[nerdylibertarian928]

Hot take: You shouldn't get in trouble for having bad grades if you're doing your assignments and participating in class but are struggling in school even though you are trying your best. However, if your bad grades are caused by you being on your phone in class instead of paying attention in class and not doing your assignments, you 100% deserve to get in trouble for having bad grades.

[mylove-thresher]

I am going to shoot myself in the head

[francy-sketches]

hotd twitter is turning me into a reddit atheist istg

[indigodawns]

hello <3 does anyone have any last-minute tips for idk . enjoying a (taemin!!!!!!!) concert when you have autism + adhd? HSJSJSJS

[eightspringdays]

You know what has always seemed funny to me is that Mello has some kind of relation with fire (the explosion and then the fire in his death), and at the same time, his real name is the same one of the arcangel known for having a flaming sword (even tho never stated in the bible but he's represented with one in almost everywhere for interesting reasons but no one gives a shit about that)

which i totally think is a stretch of my part because based on platinum end, ohba's vision of religion is almost the equivalent to the opinion of a 15 yo edgy incel that likes reddit too much

but still funny to me. it's also funny considering the name literally means "who is like god?" because, technically speaking, michael will never be like god, he's the protector and fighter. his name is almost the statement "no one will be like god" which I think is funny considering that the one who tried to be like god was cast out to hell, like u know, the good-looking angel that in some depictions is actually a very manipulative entity that convinces some angels to get into his side and fight with him and was defeated by this said arcangel

that's very funny to me

[gemharvest]

I think I need to accept I'm having some kind of episode. Not because it makes anything better, but like. Idk I keep feeling bad that I am having Moments but I'm just not getting any better. I can Not Feel It for a good period of time but them something snaps and it just takes me over. I feel like The Calm is the exception to my rule of misery rn.

[rainbowbeanstyles]

Maaan, I haven't really properly coped with Liam's passing, I see many of you listening to music, sharing pics, gifs, videos, reading fics and. I can't do that at all. How the hell do you do it

[jazz-the-writer]

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Guyyyyysssss stop it. \(//∇//)\

Please I don’t need Chan finding me. I’m so down bad for his son Lee Felix. Like I don’t need them judging me on my fics 😖 I already know they’d have the restraining order paper work submitted.

Also I just wanted to say more text babbles to come on my undying love and unhealthy obsession with Lee Felix and Skz….. I never claimed to be a sane woman.

…..if you wanna know…..there was this fan meeting video I saw of Lix dancing in a Demon Slayer corp. uniform and guys I want a Demon Slayer Lix fic now 😫 but I suck at writing fics like that so if I do I’ll probably show you guys some drafts but keep it locked up on Patreon. I’m too embarrassed to post that shit publicly…. If there is ever a draft or notes I promise you I’ll post it in a fic ramble or skz text babbles……

Who tf am I talking to man ???!??😫no ONE SHOULD BE READING THIS