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emtearzz · 4 months ago

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zoro shenanigans

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icewindandboringhorror · 4 months ago

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(also feel free in the tags to clarify Why you made the choice you made!! :0c)

#polls #tumblr polls #For me I think the top ones would be the House. The Money. or the Friend Group. But I ultimately might would go for the house #JUST becuase it would be my Dream House which means it would already meet mostly all of my specifications #and what I might be looking for. which would save a lot of time searching or customizing/rennovating.#Also because I could use that as a way to leave the US lol.. like .. if I get to choose my dream location.. couldnt I just choose some othe #country?? But I wonder how that works. Can you legally 100% have full ownership of a property in a country yet not be a citizen of that #country?? Would you show up and be like 'erm.. i own this house.. so i shall now live in it' and theyd be like 'uh no. you cant live here #despite owning the house. leave.' ??#So I think the initial process of 1. scraping together funds to actually MOVE myself and my most valuable belongings physically #TO another country. and 2. figuring out how to STAY in that country . might end up being difficult.. BUT. if I could just work that #part of things out then.. dream house?? security for once in my life?? stability?? :0 #Though the $1mil is enticing it's also like.. I feel .. with the way housing prices are now... that's not much???#it's a lot I guess if you plan on like.. investing half the money and staying in an apartment for 5 years while you grow your wealth #or something. but if you're a 'I Need Stability NOW' ready to settle down person who would be most interested in owning a property rather #than nice clothes or a car or whatever other investments you could make then.. eh..?? It seems like unless you're okay with living in #a small town or kind of far away from the city - even some SMALL houses in majorly populated areas in the US will be like #$600.000 - $900.000 or something. like that would be MOST of my money. Which I know you could just pay partially and make #payments on it but idk.. in the option of just outright owning the house it seems like it'd end up being cheaper.#Plus I would want to own it fully asap because I'd be afraid of losing it somehow otherwise. like it being taken for medical bills or #something. which I thought was supposed to be - not IMPOSSIBLE - slightly more complicated legally if you actually have #paid off the house in full. I guess the issue then would be utilities and property tax and such. But I feel like thats overcome-able??#Like I could just stipulate that my Dream House has a little furnished addition or something and then find someone #with money and be like 'Look you can live in this extremely nice area with amazing ameneties and updated everything and ALL you have #to do is give me money to cover the utilities and property tax.'' or something like that. Like the little furnished addition is nicer #than the actual house. they have their own pool and spa and movie room or something and Ill also cook all their meals for them #or whatever (how luxurious it would be depeneds on how high the property tax actually is/how much I would need to entice them into #why it's a good deal for them to pay it for me lol). idk... something like that.. ANYWAY #I asked a few people I know though and one of them answered they'd rather have a romantic partner. the other one said they'd like #to be able to choose someone to die lol.. So I'm curious what people value the most

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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quick megumi style study

#my art #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #fushiguro megumi #jjk fanart #megumi fushiguro #i LOVE trying to 1:1 art styles it's such a fun challenge #and it appeals to me bc i love deception and lying for sport and trying 2 mold all aspects of myself in2 something else #trying to draw like gege felt like trying 2 forge someone's signature and trying 2 draw like the anime felt like going against all instinct #theres NO midtones in the anime shading i was like. is this it. surely this cant b All the shadows i am allowed #cell shading without blended areas feels so wrong 2 me #and the shape of his hair.....he looks so silly......why does he look like that.....#i was fighting the urge to 'fix' it w every bone in my body #rly opened my eyes to just how many favours i do him in my art style #i will happily bear the burden of being megumi's hairbrush good god he needs it #it's not so egregious in gege's style bc it's all so blocky and angular everywhere + the b/w balances out w negative space #w trying 2 replicate gege's style i think my main challenge was finding a good brush dupe to mimic his crosshatching #my current render style is all over the place tbh im not even sure i'm super happy with my own which is kinda embarrassing #i think im in an in between phase that's neither smooth nor rough so i try to lean in2 the messiness to make it look intentional #instead of confused #but overall i think i did rly well in that i like these all ok and i had fun smile :)#maybe ill do th other first years

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ursiday · 3 months ago

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#furry art #lineart #original character #original art #art #catgirl #I have a meeting in an hour I'm nervous about so I drew this instead of thinking about it probably ill advised

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mroddmod · 8 months ago

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magma fiddlestan be upon ye

#gravity falls #fiddlestan #fiddleford mcgucket #stanley pines #stan pines #grunkle stan #gravity falls fanart #fanart #disney #sorry but they're literally a disease to me rn. i'm chronically and fatally ill.#professionally diagnosed btw #anyway posting this by itself because i like the pose fuck you #also i think stan looks pretty hot here so #yk. had to do it to him #mods art #my art #mods draws

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lazylittledragon · 10 months ago

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i need guenhwyvar to be Cat so bad

#dnd #dungeons and dragons #forgotten realms #drizzt do'urden #legend of drizzt #ra salvatore didn’t write about ALL the cups and plates that guen destroyed in blingdenstone but i know the truth #i think all the art i've made exists somewhere between homeland and exile/during exile #bc that's where i am rn and i will not spoil myself #her purrs must be SO loud #enough to cause an earthquake #i love these stupid books so much i'm so ill #she's literally described as his first and closest friend you CANNOT tell me he doesn't give her all the scritches and snuggles she wants

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remcadll · 1 month ago

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Thinking about outsiders 2003 #44-46 again. And just outsiders 2003 in general. Also this post happy pride month

Specifically had this panel in mind, look at them hanging out and displaying terrible trigger discipline <3 Jason is a reliable source :)

#DC Comics #Jason Todd #Dick Grayson #Nightwing #Red Hood #Dickroy #Outsiders 2003 #Roydick #Art by me #I think Jason would pick up on the tension btwn DicknRoy in Outsiders fast and my reasoning for this is #that he clocked when Roy was acting weird about Cheshire when he was teaming up w the Titans in NTT nd it would be funny if he did it again #Roy doesn't appear in this comic bc I drew it when the. yaoi polls. were going on and then nevermind. insane sentence I'm not finishing #My favourite part of these issues aside from Dick and Jason having that dumbass elementary school fight is how childish Jason is #“I'M telling the story NOT YOU 😠 and I wanna tell it THIS WAY!! 🙎💢 and I have a GUN 😤” he's such a brat man 😭#It's the one time where he really is acting n talking like an annoying little brother Dick really just brings the dipshittery out of him #Love it when busts his balls for no reason other than pettiness and the need to be an asshole #Don't just read Outsiders for Red Hood appearance though if anything read it for Judd Winicks mentally ill dialogue and characters #like Dick and Roy of course but also Grace Choi is there don't miss out on her #AND Dick getting so screaming mad at Bruce he's literally spitting in his face that was so beautiful. need that energy back

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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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hey btw if you're in the USA at 2:20 p.m. ET on Wednesday, Oct. 4, they're testing the emergency broadcast system. your phone is probably going to make a really loud noise, even if it's on silent. there's a backup date on the 11th if they need to postpone it.

if you're not in a safe situation and have an extra phone, you should turn that phone completely off beforehand.

additionally, if you're like me, and are easily startled; i recommend treating it like a party. have a countdown or something. be surrounded by your loved ones. take the actions you personally need to take to make yourself safe.

i have already seen mockery towards any person who feels nervous about this. for the record, it completely, completely valid to have "emergency broadcast sounds" be an anxiety trigger. do not let other people make fun of you for that. emergency sounds are legitimately engineered to make us take action; those of us with high levels of anxiety and/or neurodivergence are already pre-disposed to have a Bad Time. sometimes it is best to acknowledge that the situation will be triggering for some, and to prepare for that; rather than just saying "well that's stupid, it's just a test."

"loud scary sound time" isn't like, my favorite thing, but we can at least try to prevent some additional anxiety by preparing for it. maybe get yourself a cake? noise cancelling headphones? the new hozier album? whatever helps. love u, hope you're okay. we are gonna ride it out together.

#watching ppl go from being like ''support neurodivergent ppl~~!"#to being like ''if this is going to give u a panic attack ur fuckken stupid''#like..... gets me #yeah man. i know im going to be triggered by it . in the old fashioned term. it is GOING to give me a panic attack. it's pretty much certai #and i shouldn't have to tell u about what i have survived for you to be okay with that.#you can just trust that i ALSO don't want me to react to it. i'm not gonna be having a FUN time.#dismissing that bc you think it's stupid.... like is the whole problem.#these sounds are workshopped by entire teams of people to get you to pay attention and move quickly.#they arent meant to be fun and exciting.#OBVIOUSLY it's gonna set ppl off.#but yeah there's something so fuckken demeaning about ppl being like. well that trigger isn't valid bc u haven't undergone X #dude i have ptsd bc i was abused as a child. like plain and simple. the fact im 30 and afraid of the dark tells you how bad it was.#i shouldn't have to ask u for permission to be mentally ill.#the reason it's a fucking disorder and not a fucking choice is that I DO NOT CONTROL IT.#like how is it any different from when ppl are like ''oh public speaking isn't that scary'' like FOR YOU #for YOU this isn't scary. now if i could fucking eat my own amygdala...

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a-compass-without-a-needle · 5 months ago

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This is what happened after 3.1 isn't it?

#hsr #phaidei #phaidei nation I humbly offer thee a low quality meme to cope with the doomed yaoi that was going on #phainon #honkai star rail #fellas is it gay for your red coded rival to your blue coded rival to clasp his hands over your own after you stabbed him #due to thinking he was the objective of your revenge quest #pull your sword deeper in and by consequence add to your proximity while smiling and fondly say “Found you.”?#Was it casual when you had an insanely charged and homoerotic scene in the hot baths that had you face down on the ground at his feet?#no but seriously these two have me in a chokehold #what do you MEAN you told him your precise weak spot just in case you became you turned against his cause #and his presumed future EMIYA Archer coded shadow self immediately went precisely for it?#and you KNOW you'll die with a wound in that weak spot in your back and you told him about it anyway #and you tell people to keep an eye on him after you go to meet your fate and then ask him to watch over your people #and he says he'll work hard to learn your language #AND FINALLY #“If there's a chance in the next life you should come visit my library.” WHAT IF I PERISHED ON THE SPOT?!#that's their “See you in the next world.”; their “Do stay alive. I wish you the best of luck.”;#their “I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.”; “You were a wonderful experience. You were everything.” etc etc #they make me ill (positive)#also I find it so funny that as a KevinSu shipper in HI3rd I went into Star Rail expecting for the dynamic to be more coded with Anaxa #only for Phaidei to hit literally all of my points and favorite tropes in a ship and by consequence my head with a steel chair lol #really hope we see Mydei again soon because literally the first thing Phainon does after he's gone is talk about him all the time #he is a professional yearner and I respect him for it (especially since I too miss Mydei as if he's Odysseus going off to war and sea #for 20 years and I'm Penelope waiting at the shores of Ithaca)#also sorry for the low quality screenshot I was literally too invested in the quest to try and take better ones #gotta love how Hoyoverse is always giving the Kaslanas some of the best romances in their games and ESPECIALLY so if they're queer #myphai

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ofnailbatsandaxefives · 2 months ago

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when you realize Gabe is always on the counter because Diana's always on the counter

and then that they're the only two characters ever on the fucking counter

#next to normal #n2n #gabe goodman #diana goodman #jack wolfe #caissie levy #and like they even use the counter as the bed for Diana during the ECT #so like technically it's not 'the counter' at the moment #but still it's something to think about #especially with the fact that during ECT is when we see her lose her memories which include Gabe #and she doesn't get back on the counter til after she starts to remember and see him again #and the fact that the first time she starts to remember and see again leads into I'm Alive (reprise) and Gabe gets on the counter #and stays on it throughout the majority of the next scene only getting off when Dr. Madden tells Diana that she has a chronic illness #like I know Gabe on the counter was like a lil bit people noticed and lol Gabe's on the counter again #but like !holy fuck! it's also actually kind of an important symbolic piece in the actual show #gabe on da counter #diana on da counter #gabe on the counter #diana on the counter

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starssoblue · 3 months ago

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“things were so hard with dad in recent years...how did he go from paparapluie to père? i wish i could face him and understand, but while he was still here i didn't dare try to tell him [any of my feelings] and now...it's too late.” * paparapluie is a pun on the words papa and parapluie (umbrella) since the plush is a frog. père is the french word for 'father.'

#ml spoilers #ml s6 spoilers #miraculous spoilers #ml el toro de piedra #mledit #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #miraculous lb #miraculousedit #adrien agreste #adrienette #adrinette #my edits #fascinated at umbrellas constantly being a motif for protection in this show. the theme is “in the rain” because marinette fell for adrien #in the rain but he offered her an umbrella (an act of kindness and protection from the weather). next to how #adrien's father used a pun about umbrellas as his own nickname when adrien was younger and he was still caring for him as a dad should #but as he got older his father stopped protecting him so the nickname (and also any form of 'papa') fell through in favor of the #cold + formal + distant 'père.' this specific pun between parapluie and papa might also come from the french poem un papa by pierre ruaud #which is a poem about papas serving as protection and a sort of shelter for their children. so ig ml is saying gabriel started this way too #i think the fandom glosses over the complexity of adrien's feelings for his father bc in earlier seasons he defended + made excuses for him #part of this is because he was sheltered + didn't know better but it's also bc he DOES recall a time before his mother's illness grew worse #(some time between age 6 and the werepapas flashback) when he didn't have an absentee father. the show writes gabriel agreste #inconsistently: in earlier seasons he had moments of concern for his son before he became awful all the time. and these on/off moments give #adrien whiplash because he's left doing things like becoming a model for his father (i'm choosing to believe gabriel didn't use the rings #until later bc much of the earlier seasons make no sense if he was controlling adrien) in the hopes that they'll bond only to realize #his father still won't spend time with him even for a meal. s5 has gabriel making him pancakes (the wrong way) and asking about his day #and his friends and interests only for him to become even more controlling and mean. how he let him quit modeling only to create an #AI version of him without his consent and when he said that made him feel uncomfortable gabriel convinced him it was fine bc now he had #more free time! only to still control how he spent that free time. adrien didn't start grappling with these things until s5 #and now he laments the things he never actually got to say about the papa he misses and the father he wished had unconditionally loved him

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merrigel · 2 years ago

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I want it back = I drag its dead weight forward

#artists on tumblr #animation #in stars and time #isat #illustration #in stars and time spoilers #isat spoilers #like for real #anyway I'm still thinking about Siffrin Instarsandtime #shoutout to tumblr user jb-blunk for the words from the caption which inspired this whole deal #literally finished the game and had those words looping (haHA) in my head like 'how do I use this what can I do to match this feeling' LMAO #if you haven't played ISAT well. first of all stop looking don't glean anything from this shhhh- but also GO PLAY IT IT'S EXCELLENT #heavily based off the astronomical clock in Prague! I love that thing so it was really fun to try and make it more ISAT-like #bc the themes are already there yanno!! Stars n' whatnot! And then of course the craft types instead of the astrological signs!#Loop and the King for the sun and the moon!!#can you tell I thought about and planned this one for like. A while. Longer than I usually spend LMAO #so yeah go play it immediately come be absolutely ILL and SICK and PLAGUED about the secret boss with me #fanart #pic

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justvea18 · 4 months ago

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Referenced two guys I saw sitting at the park

Cw suggestive bonus under cut

#modern au #I'm so ill about them #my art #traditional art #cw suggestive #i think but they're making out #patroclus #achilles #patrochilles

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velichorus-k · 11 months ago

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Your god is smiling up at you :)

#I think I was too ambitious with the lighting cause what the hell is going on here #sometimes you just gotta add 3 vague light sources and realize you'll never do that again #stanford pines #bill cipher #gravity falls #gf fanart #art #As opposed to down on you. Aint no way Bill is going to heaven <3 #Anyways I'm so ill about all the new Bill knowledge we've gotten #ill bill haha. I finished this at 12am :thumbsup:

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halflifebutawesome · 1 year ago

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I am a good person. I am a powerful person, I don't believe in evil. I think that evil is an idea created by others to avoid dealing with their own nature. I understand my own nature, good and evil have nothing to do with it.

#this is specifically post canon in a way idk how to articulate and also pertains to super specific headcanons idk how to articulate either.#I'm normal. I'm normal . I'm normal #The implications of Tommy becoming gman didn't do anything to my brain chemistry it's like fine. I'm like. Normal.#[LIE DETECTED]#SORRY . YOU CAN TRY AND ASK ME ABOUT IT BUT ILL PROBABLY JUST. MAKE NOISES AND GESTURE VAUGELY #it's so fucked. It's so fucked up. Oh my god #tommy coolatta #benry #benrey #hlvrai #half life vr ai #half life vr but the ai is self aware #...#tomrey #..........#CAUSE LIKE. OK. its implied gman does Something with Benry at the end of hlvrai. I think he's in some form of stasis like gordon.#do you guys remember. Holly's benry stream. Yeag #BUT LIKE... OKAY.... with Tommy being gman this is again not just some creep keeping anyone in stasis. It's TOMMY.#It's TOMMY and those are his FRIENDS yknow.#Is he protecting benry? Is he protecting everyone else from benry? WHOS TO SAY . who's to say.#I don't knowwwwwwwwwwwww #ouuighhghhh #This could be a companion piece to the Tommy & Gordon one I did months ago. Aoughhh #My art

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lazylittledragon · 4 months ago

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so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess

#ramble #ughhhhhhhhhhhh ok so #i will delete this later bc idk if this person has tumblr and i genuinely mean no ill will i just need an outside opinion #i vented about it on my close friends story already but i need like. a neutral party #i won't say their name but if you're on other socials you probably know who it is #basically for a while i've been getting messages saying 'this person has hacked your art style' or 'is REDACTED your alt account'#and in the beginning there were like. similarities? but nothing i could really claim and also i don't want to accuse someone of theft #like i don't own any stylistic choices or anything. i've used things from other artists i like. honestly it's kind of flattering #and we are actually really friendly in DMs now and we even joke about it. we message eachother any time we get a comment about it #i made a joke literally 2 weeks ago about how we're two different people i swear #but after adding some Very specific things to my art (like the paper texture/hatching/shiny lighting). they also added them #and i gave them the benefit of the doubt bc i don't like to believe anyone has bad intent with stuff like that. and i've done the same obvs #but recently they dropped some tav lore and it was. basically a panel for panel copy of one of my cyra comics down to the HAND PLACEMENT #and obviously i don't own the Bitch Mother trope or anything but it's just. mmmmm it makes me feel weird #idk it just feels like it's gone a bit far now and i'm not sure what to do about it #like you would think after we became moots they would get scared and stop but i think i was too openly trusting and they just kept going #recently someone on THEIR PATREON thought they were me and they weren't even one of mine (which by itself is funny but. y'know)#i don't want to call anyone out or upset anyone bc it only causes more problems but like. i Know. and idk if they should know that i know #maybe i'm just stupid idk i really trusted that it wasn't happening but it is and i don't know how to feel #hONESTLY I'M JUST MAD THAT I CAN'T DO ANY MORE CYRA LORE NOW BC PEOPLE ARE GOING TO ACCUSE **ME**#also PLEASE do not witch hunt this person i want to deal with this as quietly as possible #i really felt like i was in the twilight zone or just being paranoid so i had to ask

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