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Kaori Sakamoto: Poison » 2024 Grand Prix Final

[crimsonmonsoon]

Slowly going to indoctrinate y'all into transformers by posting what I've been making for the past month and a half... slowly...

This was a collab I did with my roommate! She drew Megatron, I of course did Optimus (though I guess in this context it's D-16 and Orion Pax???). MY ART IMPROVED DRASTICALLY AFTER THIS, this was just the first transformer I drew and I rapidly got WAY BETTER JUST BEAR WITH ME OKAY?!

[hotasfahrenheit]

if you still love him...

....come back.

[The Ex-Morning, 01.01, 4/4 and 1/4]

[egophiliac]

i don't think u need to worry about poppy ikemen anymore, new ride kamens character is kr kamui who is our lord and savior dan kuroto

DAN THE DANGEROUS ZOMBIE MAN!!!!!! I was SO excited when I saw the reveal, he is absolutely the funniest possible character choice hands-down. oh my god. I'm so glad he made it into this game.

also Kamui just looks incredible. instant favorite. this is the kind of man I can picture standing naked on a cliffside and screaming at everyone about his imminent ascension towards godhood. he is the incarnation of that one iconic Gina Linetti scene.

[achillean-knight]

Screaming and crying bc these were so fuckin' fun to draw bro

[lochallthedoors]

The Times, 8 October 2017

[delinquentkru]

am i insane for thinking that collins and robby kinda give carol hathaway and doug ross if you squint

[zivazivc]

Sorry if this has already been asked before but why did the band break up? And did they break up on decent terms? Do they still talk to each other sometime?

It has been asked before, I just never answered jshfbdjcbh I'm still piecing everything together and stuff is changing or getting tweaked all the time, so I'm always super hesitant about answering these types of questions, afraid that people will take whatever I say as the final answer. So basically what I'm going to answer now will already contradict what I told some people already. And maybe in the future the story might go a little differently too (although I'm pretty satisfied with the current events)

Uhhh, get ready for a long info dump. I didn't expect I'd write this much...

Floyd basically stayed with the band for 8 years (from 14 till 22) and got pretty messed up in the process. The rest of the guys are all quite older than him so I guess I could say they were more responsible, or at least had a better understanding of their own limits (also they grew up in this kind of environment or grew up aware of it, while Floyd was oblivious and naive about all of it) and while they do get drunk and do drugs often, none of them are really dependent on them. They are also pretty good judges of character and know how to avoid trouble. Floyd on the other hand drove in with no breaks and constantly got himself in trouble that the rest (mostly Les) had to drag him out of. He also developed bipolar during this time (in my story Floyd constantly fluctuates between being saturated and being desaturated because of this) and his manic and depressive episodes started getting out of hand after his teenage years. (None of them are aware it's a mental disorder that's making him act so out of character.)

Floyd was becoming miserable because of this and all of his problems pilling up, and started blaming Les for the way he was. Les never argued this which only fueled Floyd to blame him more. In the end he was getting so frustrated and irritable that Floyd constantly tried starting arguments with him, even putting him down and getting aggressive at times because Les gets very unresponsive and closed off during personal conversations (guy is a giant onion of suppressed trauma that Floyd is hellbent on peeling open).

Eventually there was one fight too many, terrible things were said, some objects flew through the air, and Floyd walked out (or Hed kicked him out, I haven't decided yet) with the promise of going home and never seeing them again.

So, yeah, it was very messy and Floyd was the primary asshole, even though he's not really to blame either...

But Floyd didn't make it home (was too scared to sneak through Bergen Town to get to the tree (i don't think i can judge him for that either)) and he just returned to the reckless lifestyle, this time without anyone being there to keep him safe. So if he was messed up before, this is the time period where he got absolutely fucked up. This is also when he got heavily addicted to sour worms. And when he chronically slept around (half the time just to get offered free worms or have somewhere to sleep, other times because he was having manic episodes and was feeling hypersexual). (This is also potentially the period when he had the two eggs with that techno troll, but I'm still thinking if I want that to be canon to the story or not.) During this time he also grew to become very anxious and his self-confidence went to shit when he was being himself.

Then after about three years of that, he bumped into Les at some party. He wanted to dodge him out of shame but Les grabbed his arm and manhandled him outside to talk. Floyd felt like shit about the way they had split up and tried apologizing for all the stuff he had said and done to Les, but Les wasn't having any of that because he wasn't angry at Floyd, he was just worried about him. Les is also insanely empathetic like Floyd, and he knew that Floyd never really meant any of it, and that he was just looking for an outlet when he was hurting. Also he does think he is to blame for the way Floyd ended up.

Les wanted to know why he didn't go home like he had said (because that was the only reason Les had even let him walk out in the first place). A few exchanged words later and Floyd broke down telling him all the awful things he'd done, and Les promised to help him, feeling insanely guilty. Floyd wondered if he was allowed back in the band but Les made it clear that the band wasn't good for him and that he was never taking him back. Instead Les helped him go though rehab. I don't think trolls have those institutions (or at least not many are aware of them or how they work (I'm sorry but I refuse to believe the Trolls world has internet and cellphones, Mountrageons can keep that for themselves lol)), so it was more or less just Les finding Floyd a job and his own place to stay in the middle of bumfuck nowhere where he had no option but to detox, and constantly checking up on him to make sure he was doing okay. During this time they grew pretty close again. Or maybe the better term would be that Les slowly started putting his walls down again.

Hed needed a while to warm up to Floyd again. He's almost as protective of Les as Les is of him, and he resented Floyd for the way he had treated him.

Flea is pretty phlegmatic when it comes to any sort of arguing or drama. He was casual about seeing Floyd again, they were never super close anyway.

And Liv, she left the band when she and Hed broke up (haven't decided if that happened before or after Floyd left), so Floyd didn't get to see her again after bumping into Les at the party. And I haven't thought yet if they'd ever meet again somewhere later in life. But if they did, I think they'd both be happy to see each other.

Anyway...

Floyd managed to detox and successfully kept the job for about a year, but then he became manic again and messed it all up. After that he returned to his nomadic lifestyle, but he never fell as hard as those three years again. In my story Floyd's life is a constant cycle of getting his life together and fucking it up and booking to the next place. And he and Les are trapped in a never-ending cat and mouse game where they're both trying to fix each other.

So, uh, Les and Floyd are still very close and see each other somewhat often...

(sometimes monthly, sometimes yearly)

Yeah...

I am so fucking obsessed with them I'm gonna hurl. Please take this song before I combust:

[dragonsspire]

I think what makes me so uncomfortable with some loudly ex-mormon folks is that I already know all of this because I was there. It feels like, rather than what I do sometimes, coming to grips with my experiences and how it impacts/ed me in my life and what I want to do about it now; they are just...sharing about any random thing without allowing for neutrality. Every. Single. Thing. Has to be some spooky cult shit even when it's just normal community or church stuff.

Like, I just saw some girl's videos on why there are so many mormon musicians. She was like music is tied to status in the mormon church in the most judgemental way possible lol and yes it is. It totally is, but you know what else? Weekly communal singing is an expected part of many worship services around the world and across multiple religions. Mormons are good at music because we sing together for around 2 hours a week for the first 12 years of our lives and then about 1.5 hours a week for the rest of our lives. You will get good at anything if you do it for an hour once a week for 25+ years. That doesn't even include choir, which is always volunteer and is always somewhat terrible because music culture, like just about everything else in mormonism (hello volunteer organization), is not based on skill, it is based in commitment.

It's just "music is tied to status in the mormon church" is such a judgemental way to put "as a community mormons value music and every member devotes time to the practice of it every week as part of worship services. When someone is either particularly skilled or particularly brave and performs in front of the congregation everyone then comes up to them after words and says oh you did a wonderful job! I hope you sing again sometime :) and humans are wired to thrive on positive feedback so that person will likely perform music again which becomes a positive feedback loop."

That's how communities work mate. I said yes to praying at an interfaith event once and then I did and everyone liked my (totally normal for me) prayer so much they keep asking me to do it again. Now I'm the Prayer Guy who is always ready to drop a Good Prayer because that's my community niche all of a sudden.

Not everything is so sinister. There are things that Suck So Bad about mormonism, but people don't talk about those things as often because they're not really uniquely bad or uniquely mormon and they don't make good content.

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

harry, as venus by botticelli

the birth of harry finally come to life, thanks to the incredible visions depicted in de amore ex tempore, a fic by @persephoneflouwers that has me dreaming like i haven't in a while. thank you <3

[butchmasky]

rewrite doods

[cult-of-the-eye]

"WE USED TO BE"

[wisteriagoesvroom]

carlandoscar enthusiasts. come to the admin office please. i desperately need to speak with all of you

[choking-on-roses]

*rests chin on hand* tell me more about how you, as a man, don't like this tv show made by women for women exploring deeply ingrained societal issues and traumas women face because the female lead *checks notes* is annoying sometimes

[purplecelestial-buddy]

New year, new me, new pinned post..?

Hi! I'm Aster, and if you were to ask a fun fact about me I would say that:

✧ My name has to do with a flower named after its star shape🪻⭐ (although tbh I don't see it but who am I to deny anyone their right to relate to stars)

✧ The most famous Aster I can think of is Ari Aster ( a movie director) , coincidentally I was a film student in far away past. I have a beret and projects I directed and all lol.

✧ Aster reminds me of Asterion, the minotaur from the labyrinth myth. ←As seen by the way my brain works, I'm one of those mythology obssessed people.

Additionally, and perhaps the most important but not particularly fun fact is that I love art in all it's ways, shapes and forms. In fact, my favorite question to ask people is:

What narrative has changed your live?

🤨🫵

In my particular case, I've been affected by:

✧Full metal alchemist

✧Hirano to Kagiura and, to a lesser extent, Sasaki to Miyano

✧Given (not so much the sequel, I still have complex feelings about that one)

✧Deas poets society

And probably many more that I'm forgetting rn.

Believe me, brain empty but also brain perpetually full with references, which means that I never shut up.

So yeah, if you can take my constant yapping about Hirano Taiga we could be friends and probably get along lol.

5th? I think, fun fact of the day: I have the most predictable taste ever due to being really consistent when it comes to the themes enjoy in narratives.

It's particularly noticeable in my favorite movies which are all about the delights and demise one experiences when pursuing the arts

Despite the consistency I'm also quite contradictory cuz I think the coolest design decision you can take is making the character a redhead. However, through my life my favs have always been blonds. Kudos to you if you recognize the 3 of them lol.

This is the closest we'll get to a face reveal lol.

[sapphyreblayze]

The J'onnMax toxic yaoi in Booster Gold 2007 #9 was crazy. Love loses 💔