#idk how to explain properly. many such cases though

[canismajors]

the problem w hoyos storywriting is that whatever themes they try to establish will never be actually followed through with or explored properly making it feel just really shallow & weak

[bisexualmaedhros]

transfem furries hornyposting online about the relatively niche/"out there" things they're into have inadvertently helped me accept myself more than the body positivity movement of the 2010s ever did

[imissgamebreakersarc]

Dutch Duo is so fascinating. They both have two characters, one on Lifesteal and one one on The Realm, and their characters on The Realm parallel the other on Lifesteal. Let me explain.

To me, LS!Clown and Tr!Pangi have a lot of unnoticed parallels, both of them being pretty damn powerful (though not the most powerful, examples being Sneeg and Tr!Clown above Tr!Pangi and BFB above LS!Clown) on their respective server, with a select few people they care about (or just one with Clown cough cough branzy) and just about everyone else being irrelevant to them, aside from the people they hate, who generally have a pretty tough time. Clown is a little more selective with who he trusts, but that’s pretty easily explained by being on Lifesteal and general paranoia. They’re both violent and unashamed of that. They’re not afraid to play dirty, whether it’s based off honour a whole damn exploit, or getting paid 500$ to empeach your teammate *PMC*.

When considering their counterparts (LS!Pangi and Tr!Clown), they too are surprisingly similar to each other. They both still care about specific individuals, such as Derap and Zam for LS!Pangi or Ros and [idk I don’t watch yellow I just know rospierce] for Tr!Clown. But they never really harbour hate towards any specific individuals. The only two times Tr!Clown ever seemed properly upset was after Pili killed Ros twice. He didn’t even seem upset during the fight itself, more like he was fulfilling a duty. The other instance is Owen but do I even have to explain this one? As for LS!Pangi, he was upset like, after Empire Duo breakups? And like after Mapicc kept killing him? And literally nothing else off the top of my head. They don’t kill for no reason either. While you can argue LS!Pangi doesn’t kill or fight on Lifesteal so people feel safe at his recordings (since he’s the only person making chill ass videos on that server), you have to acknowledge that aside from his hunger games event, he has no proper kills this season (source being the Lifesteal wiki) unless you’re counting Jepexx, which he didn’t get the heart from (and lowkey bro had it coming 😭). While I’m not sure how many kills Tr!Clown has, the only ones I remember are when people were hurting those he cared about, specifically Ros. They’re both quite based on rules and grind for what they need instead of fighting for it. A lot of the time, their actions are completely intertwined and associated with one of the few people they care about (Empire Duo, Cringe Duo, LoSA, etc.) and never only them, partially because of how much of their character revolves around others. They both get the chance to be different from what is typically assumed of lifestealers. They are selfless and not quite pacifists, but they’re pretty damn close for Lifesteal.

One of the reasons I’m a big fan of Lifesteal cannibal headcannons is because of how accurately it portrays their nature in a way others can understand. They are violent, selfish and unpredictable, killing on a whim with behaviour that would come off as insane on more casual SMP’s or ones based on storytelling like The Realm. However peaceful you are when you join the server, everyone is eventually corrupted by it. And no matter how well you hide or push away the corruption, it always comes out somewhere. In LS!Pangi’s case, his violence has been entirely oppressed due to his efforts of keeping people comfortable during his recordings, and that violence ends up coming out on The Realm, where thanks to the power of “out of character” and the fact he barely hosts realm recordings leads to him being able to kill more freely. Meanwhile, Clown has no need to fight on the realm, since he does nothing but whenever he actually logs on LS. Lifestealers are always in one of two states, those being “I care about you and I will protect you with all my power” and “I literally dgaf fucking die”, and it’s never been more clear with these two.

In conclusion, Dutch Duo is fucking awesome and I need more of them. Thank you.

PS: It’s kind of ironic that Clown and Parrot are Parallel duo, since at this point it might be Clown and Pangi.

(Sorry if the Tr!’s and LS!’s makes this hard or obnoxious to read it’s so annoying but I have to distinguish argh)

[yourlocalcrackedsimp]

Idk if I wanna do a platonic one or not but I'll leave it up to you! Also I haven't played the games so sorry if somethings are off, I have watched summaries of it though! Also this doesn't go over the game, it's just where I want this to start because timelines and such

Also this is my first time doing headcannons along with writing for devil may cry so sorry if there's something weird here

And yes, this is Danny phantom inspired. Do not judge

proof reading rn

HeadCannons!:

-You first found out about devils, unsurprisingly, through you usual exorcists.

-What you thought would be a normal job for you (scare off some ghosts, accidentally destroy one or two things)

-Somehow that turned into you meeting Dante (since he was hired by someone else in the area as they assumed the 'ghost' you were dealing with was a demon) and dealing with a (surprisingly) strong demon.

-You Initially thought it was a higher-ranked ghost, but no, he explained to you it was an actual demon and that you should probably flee since he assumed you were a con artist

-Oh how wrong he was

-After bickering back and forth for a few minutes in front of the demon about whether or not you were an actual exorcist or not, you were able to prove yourself to be an actual exorcist

-How? Simple.

-The demon attacked and while Dante evaded and subsequently dragged you with him too as you prevent you from being hurt, you aimed a fingergun at the demon and next thing you know, their head was blown off and their body sealed, effectively dealing with them quickly and in one move with a simple but powerful 'energy' bullet

-the wouldn't call that an exorcism though

-safe to say, he bugged and annoyed you with so he asked many questions

-after answering some of his questions, you left to go properly deal with the demon. But since he was was a devil hunter and this was his current commission, he tagged along just to see how you work

-in actuality, you were just going to an empty field to unseal the demon and then kill it because this is something you're certainly not going to send back to the otherside

-once you freed it, you had an idea

-with that in mind, you turned to Dante and gestured for him to deal with it

-and he does in his usual way albeit, with a small compliant about your unorthodox way of dealing with the demon

-i mean why walk somewhere else when you can deal with it right there

-And that was how you two first met

-over time, and with more people mistaking ghosts and demons as the same thing, you two ran into each other quite often until you two were together on every mission because somehow demons were able to consume the souls of the dead to gain more power

-somehow

-this all eventually led to you two just joining businesses since at this point, you guys were friends (sort of) and colleagues at this point

-with that however, you largely stayed at the office while he went out to complete the missions

-why did you stay behind? To clean the place along with organise the logs and commissions

-basically, you kept the place running.

-along with that, you also took more simpler ones so that there was at least another form of income coming in

-whenever he went out to deal with demons and sometimes, subsequently ghosts, you just gave him a piece of paper with weird runes on it to stick on the ghost so he could drag it back to you to deal with

-After the first few times this happened, leading to the office being unfortunately,somewhat destroyed, you eventually let him in on another ability you had.

-you could open portals anywhere you wanted so long as you knew the area

-with this ability, you now toss the ghost somewhere and deal with it later or now depending on the case

-on the rare occasion you do go with him on missions, you both learn more each others abilities

-like how one time, he ended up getting stabbed straight through his chest and instead of dying, he fucking walked it off like it was a normal Tuesday

-safe to say, you gave him a very long lecture afterwords about being extra careful, even if he has op regeneration abilities

-and vice versa, he learnt that you were a great defense because after him being pierced through his chest, you've opted to always have a shield around him when you're there so his safer along with being the medic between you two

-even if he could heal and walk it off, he still thought it was a sweet thing

-back in the office, you were definitely becoming a world class chef with how often you had to cook healthy meals for him

-one time there was pizza in the fridge and you had just finished making food, and instead of going for your home cooked meal, he went for the pizza.

-safe to say that his hands were immediately with a spatula, like a child being scolded, and had a decent meal shoved into his hands instead

-and whenever he did have pizza, you constantly reminded him to put the box in a bin. If not, his on chore duty for a month and his banned from pizza in that time

-plus, he had to train with you. Which is arguably worse than hell itself

-miserable times

That's all, send in requests if you want something!

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[chemicalkatz]

why I accept bisexual kaiden

and you should too !

Outside of the fact nobody deserves hate for who they love- I understand that many may view this revelation of his as “too sudden” or how it’s (sadly) lost on others narratives simply because they play the opposite sex.

But to me it makes sense, and let me explain why.

Now I believe that it is up to player interpretation to decide whether or not Kaiden has always been bi or M!Shephard helped him realize this. Kaiden has always showed an interest in women, the most notable being Rahna, who he met at BAat

and this is general information any shephard can learn. Proving that there is no gender lock on someone who made him into the person he is. (Unlike Anders in DA2)

(ie. Anders had a former male love interest who he does not disclose to a romanced female Hawke, but does so to a romanced Male Hawke)

He never explicitly stated he didn’t show an interest in men- however he can get disturbed(?) by the idea of a bisexual F!Shephard which I believe stems from paranoia that she could leave him for Liara.

(I find this whole thing stupid, especially given the rumors he was always intended to be bi. I just like to void this as a “dw guys we’re not woke” coming from inside the closet moment from bioware.)

But honestly the tension between a paragon M!Shephard and Kaiden speaks absolute volumes to me. People say that they never got queer vibes from shephard to which I say that is the dumbest thing ever. YOU are Shephard- his/her sexuality is up to your interpretation- even if you don’t explicitly reject Liara by going “sorry I’m not into women!” as M!Shep (though I confess I used the same sex mod so I DID get this option sorry console players)

But anyways, if you don’t think he was always bisexual- he had 2 years to ponder Shepherds death- 2 years to consider “hey maybe I liked this guy?” and then seeing him working for who you considered the enemy? an absolute gut punch. plus you don’t even properly make up until ME3. Him not confessing to you until after makes sense he’s literally having an inner turmoil wondering if the man he might love is still working for the enemy. (albeit he’s was being crazy unfair to shephard)

PLUS the reapers were literally destroying earth in ME3 (like we all saw what happened to London…) and the Normandy crew were going to fight in a war they weren’t even sure they were going to SURVIVE. If the prospect that you are most likely going to die doesn’t convince you to hash out your issues so you can die with no regrets- idk what will.

Now, to discuss the whole “But he doesn’t tell a romanced Female!Shepherd he’s bisexual!” - this answer is basically up to the player interpretation as mentioned previously.

In the case that Kaiden realizes his sexuality through a M!Shepherd he simply just never acknowledges his sexuality. He knows he likes women, that’s cool, he knows he likes Fem!Shepherd- also cool. He only has his eyes on a female shep if they had gotten together ME1. (or even later idk I never romanced him with Fem!shep in ME3) He has no reason to seek out other romantic connections outside of the doctor in-between ME2 whose gender I (believe/don’t remember) was undisclosed. (and also as an attempt to get over fem!shep or even m!shep if you agree with my previous theory)

It’s not unusual to go for what you like and even if he doesn’t realize he’s bisexual he fully could later in the future, but he definitely only struck me as an “everyone is unattractive to me except my partner” type of guy so I don’t see him seeing a guy on the street and thinking he’s hot, but that’s just my headcanon.

On the flip-side he discovered his bisexuality some time between ME2 - ME3, (because again the doctor’s gender could be a man) , He doesn’t have the need to bring it up. Hell, even with Male shepherd he never outwardly comes out as anything to him. He only talks about how he wants a romantic relationship with M!shep not properly coming out saying “I’m bisexual”. Sexuality mostly comes into play when it comes to pursing the same sex, as in order to like a man as a man you have to be some kind of queer (ie. gay, pansexual, bisexual, etc.)

In a straight relationship there’s not that necessity behind it, especially with a pre-established f!shep and Kaiden. He doesn’t need to tell her about his attraction to guys because he only wants her. There is no proper reason for him to come out unless what they’re talking about actively involves that, or he feels it’s necessary to bring up. otherwise f!shep perceiving him as straight is fine- He’s not actively trying to deceive her and even if he did talk about his bisexuality it would change nothing he would still love a fem!Shepherd as much as he would a Male!Shepherd. It’s a video game.

Genuinely a Kaiden x M!shep feels a lot like two men who have spent most of their life fighting for others- whether it’s for humanity, the citadel, or both. They both lost each other for a time (ie. Shepherd’s death / Kaiden trying to emotionally isolate himself from Shepherd post ME2 - pre ME3) Their time is almost up in their eyes and they understand they’ve spent too much time on other things that they deserve this happiness.

Anyways queer video game characters matter!

Thanks for coming to my TED talk

( this was a tangent I made in notes app back in march and I feel the need to show it… )

[ihavevisions]

NURU HAS SIBLINGS ?

also what do yong n nurus siblings think abt them disappearing on a road trip w criminals 😭 or is this like . normal tangledverse behaviour idk 🧍‍♀️

SHE DOESSSS— I mean, kinda, this is another case of vat7k shenanigans where we have to find a way to fit this thang into the canon universe. Like I told you, the seven kingdoms weren’t all that explored in tts ++ the 7k au was conceptualised BEFORE we knew what the seven kingdoms were. We only heard of them vaguely and only really got to know them in season three, anyways, HERE THEY AREEE, she’s got two sisters <33

We usually. Ignore the ginger though, probably because of the reasons I told you about (and holy fuck, she’s even lighter than the queen and the other princess too, kms, I hate this show /hj). But yeah!! She does!! Kinda.

I was going on too much of a lore dump on my answer for the second part and frankly uhhh losing the fuck-I-forgot-the-word— getting off track. So. Anyways.

With Nuru, her sister thinks she’s absolutely insane for going on this journey, not only because of Kotoan traditions and the way the court works (Nuru and her sister need to be both alive and well for the kingdom to prosper, essentially, it’s a whole thing; Koto is very big on their religion?? Cult?? To the stars?? Anyways, whole thing) but also because NOBODY trusts Corona with ANYTHING and there’s a mf there that’s from Corona and another one that’s from Ingvarr. So. It doesn’t look great. They definitely argue about it, above all Nuru argued with their mother in FRONT of the guys so she’s definitely not in a very nice place right now but Nuru’s the single most stubborn girl in the planet and if her mother sends any other Kotoan on this journey she’s throwing a fit (also the point that the royal family is trying to keep the fact that this whole meteor situation is out of their control as a secret, so) because the whole point is to protect their people, ma’am. With the way their kingdom works though, they can’t get apart on bad terms so they have to swallow up their pride before Nuru leaves. They definitely wanted to get on each other’s throats about but this whole thing but they have to keep up an Image, so.

With the whole criminal thing, Hugo is sketchy as fuck but he’s an anonymous threat in Ingvarr, he doesn’t have a wanted post and nobody knows who he is actually so it’s easier for him to hide and attempt to pass for a normal guy. With Varian… ehhh, I’m thinking about but I think with Corona’s brand new thing of reforming criminals and thugs there might be a bit of?? Propaganda?? Going on there, I don’t know how to explain it properly but specifically the Coronian press is doing a huge work of trying to clean up the images of their reformed criminals, they take back wanted posters, yadda yadda. (I have to keep Rapunzel in mind while thinking about this, it’s insane, how is she even a child of that kingdom.) Anyways, Corona’s Most Wanted are pretty unhappy with this whole thing, Varian is literally a bitch at most of the royal events he’s dragged into and RUNS AWAY from his job the second he turns eighteen, so.

↑ I do believe there’s been some work into ““““hiding”””” Varian’s crimes since in most 7k works Yong and Nuru don’t?? Know?? SOMEHOW Nuru never knows which is insane, but alright. I also think it might’ve been something that the fandom came up with, Varian is called “The Alchemist” a lot when it comes to Who commuted the crimes, so I think they might’ve uhhh been on this whole work to separate The Alchemist from Royal Engineer Varian of Old Corona.

Now to my sweetest little boy (/lie) Yonggggg!!! He’s to me what we call a “temporão”, which means a child that’s born many years after their sibling before them, so there’s already this disconnect between Yong and his siblings who are much older than him, also his parents are the most tired couple on Earth, they’re trying their best but holy shit. I do think that Yong’s siblings never like how much their parents pushed him to so many different mentors (“passed around from hand to hand like a bowl of fruit”, remember? Also the first three were there for more personal reasons than anything and the latter ones are only there for the money and aren’t that mindful of him), but. Y’know.

They definitely tried to help sometimes, given how their parents are I think some of them were often at their family’s home to try and make some things easier. Also them just?? Letting their son be out travelling with this random Coronian son of a bitch?? I have to think more about why in the ever-loving fuck they let that happen, I think that most of all Varian advertised his thesis and it being easier to help in his. Man, my brain isn’t braining, anyways, the final end goal would be Corona because it’d be easier to work there and Varian’s stupid naive ass thought the journey might’ve been easier, the main character syndrome haver.

And even though Bayangor and Ingvarr are years light ahead of Corona (Kingdom of Innovation and Kingdom of Industrialisation, respectively), Varian HAS been able to get Corona going on the Industrial Revolution, like, clearly >>>>ONE OF<<<<< the brightest minds of Tangledverse’s 19th century, so. Gotta give him some credit where credit is due. Also Yong likes him (Yong hasn’t liked any of his mentors in a long while) and maybe, maybe the reason why no one has been able to “fix” Yong thus far is because they needed to expand their horizons.

At the end of the day the final word is with their parents, even if Yong’s siblings would rather he DOESN’T go live for God-knows-how-long withy his random guy (smth smth Ancient Greece), but then again Yong has been having the worst time of his life ever since last year’s events so maybe some fresh air and change of ambient will do him good (please please please please do him some good).

Anyways, rant over

[mystic-lumber]

Hii! This a lizard therapy ask. I feel like a fraud sometimes. I fully identify with the animals I do and I truly see myself in them. I am them. But sometimes idk it feels like bc I don’t know all the terms and idk how exactly to explain it im being fake. I feel my therianthropy in the same way I feel my transness. My soul is that of my theriotypes, no matter what body i was born in even im a different life I will always be my theriotypes. But im also a polytherian so it just makes me feel like a fraud bc it would make sense if I was a past life therian I just had multiple past lives but thats not the way I feel my therianthropy. And its just so hard to explain to people and I know I don’t owe an explanation to anyone but I feel like ifnI can’t even properly explain why im like this then I shouldn’t identify as it. I love being a therian and ive been so much happier since I’ve embraced it but some times it makes me feel alone like no one can relate to me :p Thanks for reading

I understand you completely. You feel like you don’t fit into the mold of what a therian should be, even if you feel you fit most of the criteria.

You feel like you’re faking your identity because you’re unable to explain things properly. I get this, I’ve been there <3 It’s difficult in the beginning but, as I’ve spent time in the therian community, I’ve grown to understand myself so much better.

No matter what you think, this community will accept and help you understand your mind and your connection to your kintypes.

Maybe you have had multiple lives with multiple creatures, maybe each of them fit into different boxes. It’s the case for many, where they have some kintypes that fit into the ‘reincarnation’ box, some that fit into the ‘spiritual’ box, some that fit into the ‘just feelings’ box.

Though it may be normal, it may not be easy to accept or understand at first and that’s okay <3

Remember; if you are worried that you’re faking something, then you aren’t, that’s not how it works. To fake something is to do it deliberately. For you, it may be anxiety or uncertainty, and that’s 100% valid ^^

[skrunksthatwunk]

yknow i forgot how prominent age as a theme is within the dark tournament semifinals. like they really emphasize it a lot in the leadup to toguro and genkai's confrontation and the reveal of their past. makintaro doesn't really contribute to this much (regeneration of the body as a theme? focus on a quick, bloody death in young age? idk), nor does kuromomotaro (changing forms in response to moves is a form of learning incorporated into the body (i.e. muscle memory), and that's something that can happen with age + experience, but it's not the clearest connection), but the other three fighters hit on that theme very consistently.

uraurashima's idunn box causes weakness through youth, and in the case of kurama showing the power that his age and past demonic life give him. in a way, kurama is older as shuichi than as yoko, though the appearances and demeanors of each contrast this. reliving his youth briefly makes kurama stronger, but more cruel. he softened with age, with becoming a human child. it's goofy basically.

and then one of shishiwakamaru's first moves was to reveal genkai's identity, and her age is the key sticking point. she is unable to be the same masked fighter the audience saw during the dr ichigaki fight because she is an old woman, and the "other" masked fighter was not. her weakness and her age are associated here, both as a form of ageism and as an acknowledgement of the simple truth that bodies get weaker as they age. so we're brought to the core conflict between her and toguro, in the latter running from aging to keep himself safe from sudden, tragic loss. that sudden loss in one's prime can be seen in toguro's students, in makintaro, even in kuwabara, as his youthful ignorance and bravado is what leads to him getting teleported out of the ring twice (head in my hands. c'mon kuwabara). shishi is also struck down in youth by genkai reflecting his power, by using his (youthful) strength against him. shishi hitting on her in the end because she's young and beautiful reinforces the shallowness of his value system. shishi wants to be a star (notably not a legend, but something more ephemeral). he calls kuwabara ugly and he calls genkai ugly and he's defeated by the life experience (bygone youth) of genkai. he sees her for her young, legendary self and wants her. but only if she stayed young forever. he resembles toguro in this, to some extent (toguro wanted her strength and survival, shishi wanted her beauty).

the fight with suzuki is also fairly obvious. the barbs kuwabara and suzuki-as-onji exchange are largely age-based, much like shishi and genkai's. kuwabara once again loses due to his impatience and thoughtlessness. when suzuki fights genkai, he says he disguised himself as an old man because he finds age revolting, and he hoped it would fuel his rage to immerse himself in it. suzuki is a master of disguise. he is a faker. his pretend-age is also pretend-wisdom and pretend-experience. he is also shallow, self-centered, and arrogant. he overlaps with shishi in a lot of respects, so i'll try to explain the differences i see. shishi wants to achieve stardom, something brief and glamorous; suzuki wants to achieve immortality by being preserved through retellings of his exploits. suzuki wants to be remembered in his youth, but not quite as he was, so the people's imaginations will elevate him to perfection. shishi wants to be celebrated for what he did in the present, for present attention and glory; suzuki wants to be remembered post-mortem. again, suzuki's all about image, while shishi's image is a tool to get him fame-bought luxury. genkai wins by goading suzuki into using only his physical strength, something he hasn't honed properly, and something she has. genkai beats shishi by using his youth and power against him, as guided by her many years of experience as a fighter, and looks briefly like she's in the middle of those fighting years because of it. genkai beats suzuki by using his laziness and pride against him, by taking advantage of his lack of physical training and self improvement and goading him into not using his crutch in the form of flashy trinkets or techniques.

it's these fights that lead up to genkai and toguro's encounter before the finals, and which happen during genkai's final test for yusuke. she's passing the torch to him and getting substantially weaker for it because she's already getting weaker due to age. she says he's able to do more with the same chunk of condensed power because of his youth. she's passing the product of decades of intense spiritual and bodily training on to yusuke as part of his graduation. it's a coming of age. yusuke's growing up (like keiko said on the sidelines during the shishi/suzuki fights, like yusuke said before his test or the semifinals began).

idk what i'm trying to say here exactly but my point is you can't get away from the theme of aging and what people will do to avoid it, and how people squander their youths or fail because of them. toguro ran from that fight and he's looking to yusuke, a young fighter with as much of genkai's experience, wisdom, and skill (all products of age) as he could carry loaded into him, to punish him for that choice, and to end his indefinite youth. loss and death are horrible, but to run from them is cowardly. to run towards them is foolish. and as yusuke and his friends are always running towards death, it seems their opponents are always running from them. and in the middle of it all genkai stands still. waiting.

anyway this round's really interesting bc everyone's kinda comedically cheeks but it's really important for pitching the themes the finals, pre-finals, and aftermath're gonna knock out of the park. genkai's prominence 1) increases attachment to her 2) drives home her drop in power after passing the spirit wave orb on to yusuke and 3) shows how capable she is without it. this means that 1) we're gonna feel the loss of her much harder, and that's coming up next. 2) we fear for her much more than we otherwise would when she faces off against toguro, and understand it as her knowingly marching to her death. 3) she's not so weak that we think there's nothing she can do. she's still impressive in this state, which makes it suck so much harder when toguro absolutely bodies her like she's nothing. it makes the audience feel like she's helpless, much like fawn-legged pre-tourny yusuke was helpless (and during-tourny yusuke tbh). 4) haha bonus but it makes us think well, maybe if she hadn't given up the orb she could've managed. and that's the kind of thinking genkai's trying to get yusuke to reject. chasing power for fear of death and loss is gonna lead you to do some awful shit, and she doesn't want that for him. it raises the question genkai begs us to answer her way, no matter how tempting toguro's response may be. it puts us in yusuke's shoes. yeah thumbs up

anyway idk if any of this makes sense and im not editing it so like. have this

sweet sweet dark tourny content

[mip-dev-center]

MIP Interactive Scenario 2: The Personality Donor Process (Explanation)

[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3] [Part 4] [Part 5] [Interactives Masterpost]

The Second "Interactive Experience" I created centered around the idea of participants creating their own MIP Unit. This one's a bit more grounded, and I made it to explore / showcase the process of commissioning a MIP Unit and the ensuing Personality Transfer Process. (Though this particular case is somewhat atypical, being rushed both in-universe and out-of-it.) This Scenario is dubiously canon; perhaps you could call it an explored alternate timeline or AU. Unlike the last one, it pretty consistently features one specific Narrator. Additionally, there are longer stretches of dialogue without supplementary images, so I might repeat a few.

⚠️ This Scenario contains heavy spoilers, though it was initially used as a means to reveal said spoilers to certain people. It's a narrative experience, so it's better than a summary, at least. But maybe there'll be a better execution later? Read at your own risk, I guess. (also specific details are subject to change in the future)

Furthermore, I'd say this scenario is heavier on the sensitive content, and perhaps even frightening at later parts. If you're sensitive to distorted perceptions of reality, you may want to take caution. Review the content warnings if you're unsure.

Similar to the Last Scenario, I'm going to Link the parts here. more explanatory ramblings under the cut.

other notes:

- This Scenario is prettyyyyy much just one Narrator, though the formatting doesn't convey that. It's difficult to convey certain specific nuances surrounding the Narration without my trusty discord bots in a manner that isn't obtrusive. The Narration is a combination of My messages and a bot titled "NarratorCTG". So, there's an implication of characterization carried by their words, though they're more focused on doing their job properly in this rendition. Um. I don't how to explain that, haha. But they're the monospaced font narrator in the first interactive. In this one, they narrated practically everything, so the changes are more stylistic than anything? Narration that overtly belongs to them is still chat, but more ambiguous narration is in regular text...

- The choices in this scenario are generally less readily apparent, but there was still a good deal of input from the Participating Chat. They came up with all of 44's memories, and they came up with some other one liners and actions throughout. I think I must've moved the polls into the chat, or something. tbh I think it's fine having less obvious choice transitions because this one is more ... "immersive?"

- This scenario was initially gated in a separate spoiler category in the server, with its own accompanying chat. for various reasons i do not feel like moving that chat back over so sorry. lol. But this detail is relevant later on because the character this chat created is tied to those specific participants. ok cool.

The related character's existence is... dubiously canon. They're kind of a joke character, and it's difficult to do much coherently with them, though I do believe they could make for some interesting stories/concepts. Maybe one day, I'll figure out some way to use 44 for something other than memes. They can be like the protagonist in Hatoful Boyfriend...

- Also because so many people control them, there have been various (messy) attempts to integrate that aspect into their character somehow... idk. again it's difficult to manage them lol. (because they're a Group OC with such a large Group) but hey maybe someday! maybe they're like an extremely customizable self-insert. This doesn't matter I can ignore this until it's relevant again ummm,mmm. who gaf

- The spoilers aren't all explicitly explained

[lucky-draws]

scholarly article: maria silent hill.

uhhmm i feel like ive got a lot of maria thoughts that have been floating in my head for ages and they need to escape captivity. this isn't structured analysis though this is just me trying to explain why i like her in a rambling and disorganised manner. (and sort of hoping it might help me to do some art or something.)

the obvious thing that makes maria such an interesting character is that she's not Real...she's the product of james' imagination (at least, that's one interpretation..) ...she's an idea, a symbolism, a hallucination, a ghost, whatever. but in born from a wish, you get to play as her, you get to hear her thoughts, you experience her and she feels as "real" as any other playable character, and it's like. its just so so good, because she's a self-aware unalive girl and there's so much to explore regarding her sense of self, and her sense of identity. like.

she has no past, no memories. or does she? does she have mary's memories, or tastes, or habits, or was she "born" as a blank slate? there's so many different ways to think of her, but in the case of her being a product of james' mind as a kind of idealised version of mary/expression of his sexual repression, i like to think that some of james' desires manifest in her, like maybe she has this kind of restless energy, a restless hunger/desire that she can't really control or finds it hard to suppress. idk its hard to articulate. ( listen to sister of night by depeche mode if you like because that is a song that makes me think hoh....this is maria ! )

and the whole thing of her knowing that she only exists in james mind/because of james. she tries to cling on to him, tries to convince him that "i'm always here for you, james!" because she knows that as a figment of his imagination, if he decides he doesn't want her anymore, she will just cease to exist. james is her "creator" basically. she's at his mercy.which is a horrible and tasty dynamic. and i just enjoy the whole thing of can she break free of him; can she break free of her connection to him, to mary, can she develop thoughts and feelings and desires that are entirely her own. could she become a "real" person. does she want to? she knows she's a ghost; but when she decides not to kill herself, is that out of a desire to live or resignation to the fact that she can't die? she's an incredibly lonely character.

(also if you've ever seen tarkovskys solaris or read the book maybe you will understand me when i compare her to the character of hari i.e. an apparition/hallucination who possibly becomes/believes she becomes real. idk. unalive girls who become alive even though its sort of not possible. i just enjoy them. )

i also have a very specific sort of canon-divergence flavour of idea related to the rebirth ending and in a sort of maria x mary way; my vague imagining is that james succeeds in bringing mary back to life, through the ancient Powers of the town or whatever. but there's a catch, so to speak; maybe the town demands that for a life to be reborn, a life has to be taken, and so james um. conveniently for shipping purposes. dies. but mary lives, and so does maria, because the mysterious and tricky town considers her to be inseperable from mary/kind of the same person, so they both end up alive and in silent hill. which opens up so many issues like. how does maria come to terms with looking at someone who is her copy (and vice versa.).

does mary even want to be alive? maybe she isn't "properly" alive; maybe she's just a ghost like maria. maybe james isn't really dead; maybe they're both existing as products of both his imagination and the town's influence; either way, now there's two unalive girls in an empty, monster-filled town. and it's like do they hate each other are they just sad ghosts together do they have gay sex sometimes we just dont know. i wanted/still kind of want to write fic about this idea in some form or other but so far i just haven't really managed to find time or braincells but maybe i still can at some point.

of course, there are other ways of interpreting maria; i've seen the theory that actually, she's the product of mary's desires; she's who mary wants to be, an idealised mary who isn't sick. and maybe she felt some kind of repression or opression being with james. and it certainly fits the "born from a wish" title very well; a wish to be healthy, a wish to be free. who knows. that idea is equally tasty and fascinating, really, but i only have room in my tiny mind for one interpretation so im kind of just leaning for now towards her being born from james' mind intstead . so uhm.

conclusion: she's just so so fascinating to me and she rotates in the back of my mind 24/7. i love sh2 and i looove born from a wish its sooo interesting to be able to play as someone like maria.

also she's sexy .

the end.

[starjxsung]

HAI STAR I AM BACK FROM EUROPE !!! I got home like two hours ago :3 feels SO good to be back in my own room in my own bed - showered, have laundry going, AND I UNBOXED MY LIMITED EDITION ATE ALBUM I BOUGHT IN COPENHAGEN (posted a pic on tumblr if ya wanna check it out hehe) ... work and school emails can wait until tmrw... RAHHH it's been so long lemme go through your last few responses to my messages since last time I responded Summer if FLYINGGG wahhh I can't believe I start school in a month! I've seen bits and pieces of what you've said about ATEEZ and Lolla and they both sound RAHHHHH I'm so glad you had fun and meet up with your older sister (for ATEEZ) (though the sunburn does NOT sound fun) and I'm glad you were able to stay safe (?) and be responsible and help that girl out (at Lolla) As for South Africa guy... So basically once I went on the trip we didn't talk cause he was on his trip and I was on mine but I did send him a long ass message about what was going on in my brain (after confirming that he would be okay and welcoming to that sort of messages since we couldn't talk it out at the time) and explaining to him how hurt I really was? but like in a respectful and calm manner. Idk it was longggggg mostly cause I over(?)think or like have many thoughts because while I did want to explain that I was hurt, I also wanted to make it clear that I saw where he was coming from and wasn't telling him to hurt him or make him feel bad if that makes sense. Anyways, seeing as I JUST got back and he just got back a few days ago (with covid nonetheless), we have yet to talk about it and he has yet to respond to my long ass message. (also for background info in case I forgot to tell you, yes we did end up talking about where our relationship is a little bit ago before this whole ghosting thing happened and bascially we ended up with "committed relationship w/o lables" because apparently I have baggage (anxiety) attached to the term "girlfriend" from my last relationship LOL hahaha but yeah so basically agreeing to be "committed" and then this happening kinda just made it feel a lot worse aslkjdf) anyways what im left with now is feelings of residual hurt, uncertainty, and genuninely questioning how comfy I am in this relationship now... but I shall wait until we actually properly talk about it hahaha... also... did you actually raw dog your flights... how do you do that omg I will like do that for periods of time but usually I have music going for most of it... (today during my flight from Amsterdam (layover) to where I live I watched one of my fav comfort movies three times in a row (it's Zootopia LMAO)) Europe Trip stuff: my fave part was def the guided, all inclusive tour we did of Norway country side form Voss to Bergen - it was hiking, biking, and kayaking! I died physically (i mean like one of the days was 61 km of biking... and we were doing stuff for 6 days) BUT EVERYTHING WAS SO PRETTY AND THE WEATHER WORKED OUT AMAZINGLY usually its rainy and dreary and cloudy (like where I live - honestly norway looks like exactly where I live) but it was SUNNY the WHOLE time!! I got to swim in the fjords and go fishing (I LOVE fishing...) and just take in all the nature as I hiked and biked etc... and my younger brothers and I made some friends with another family on the tour (there were four other families in total) - this family had three boys - two 17 y/o twins and a 14 y/o - they were so much fun tbh LOL the 14 y/o was very mature tho (maybe more than his brothers tbh) I thought he was like 17 when I first met him and thought his brothers were like 20 LMAO they're all tall- anyways, the 14 y/o, he thought I was like 15 when we first met (I think he developed a crush on me ngl by the end of the tour lol) anyways ya it was fun !!! sorry for the LONGGG life update... HOW ARE YOU DOING STARRR

ily always 💕🫶💖 🌱

RAHHHHHH MY ANGELLLLL I’VE MISSED YOU SOOOOO MUCH IM SO SORRY FOR NOT BEING ON HERE IN A MILLION YEARS I swear time has just moved so weird ever since lolla I still feel like I came back yesterday????? WTAF…… ANYWAYS!!! EUROPE!!!!! AND SCHOOL!!!!! HOW WAS EUROPE and how is school going (I’m assuming you started again???) I hope it’s going so well!!!!! I’ve been crazy busy at work it’s insane, I swear the work is just nonnnnnstop it’s making me want to die 😭 what’s crazy is that I started this blog bc I always had so much free time and now I can barely stay online bc I always have some shit going on at work it’s so frustrating RAHHHH

Ugh. I can’t believe all the confusion??? With South Africa guy????? First of all I totally understand your hesitation for an “official title” bc shitty relationships will definitely do that to you 🧍‍♀️but his communication fr seems so spotty 😭 anyways I’m assuming he responded to the message by now (I’d be scared if he didn’t????) but I hope there’s some form of resolution there? I mean he sounds like a catch and I’m so glad you guys get along well and seem to have mutual feelings for each other but it really sucks when that’s the case and then it just quickly turns into a guy completely wasting your time 😕 waiting for more updates but I just don’t want you to end up getting hurt by all of this!! I’ll beat his ass frfr

AHHHH THAT SOUNDS LIKE SO MUCH FUN I would’ve been dying from all the physical activity too I don’t blame you LMAO 😭 I’m so glad you met so many cool people (and even had someone develop a lil crushy crush on you HAHAHA) but that sounds amazing!!! Also how was the kpop store there??? I hope it was everything you dreamt of AAAAA it’s so much fun to find kpop stuff in places away from home 😭 I haven’t been to a kpop store in months now but I’m aiming to go this Thursday for a FAT shopping trip. Will keep u posted 😋🤞

ANYWAYS I AM GOOD I’ve just been crazy busy and I feel really bad that I’ve been so bad about being on here ???!,!.!.!.! Also working thru Kinktober and my eyes are burning out of my skull from all my screen time but. WORTH IT……

I love you so so so much I need a million more updates so I know all’s still well with you! Sending all my love as USUALLLLL 💓💓💓💓🫶👼

[apatheticchocobar]

one day before

this feels like one of my lowest points ever

i have stopped giving a shit about acads: didnt submit a major assignment, missed so many classes, did badly in quizzes, and most importantly btp is just not going anywhere

i'm not going anywhere or doing anything

no exercise, no proper diet. just eat shitty processed food, and rot in your bed daydreaming about what all i could have done

i finally did book an appointment with a psychiatrist atleast. tomorrow 7:30 pm.

being an ismp mentor has benefitted me as well, hearing a mentee talking about therapy and convincing her to keep going no matter what anyone says was advice even i desperately needed. needing therapy does not mean you're weak

don't know how tomorrow will go though, last time i tried this it went horribly. basically she said i wouldn't have even passed school if there was any issue.

the tests she conducted showed that i had very low levels of dopamine and that is the cause of adhd right? but she didn't listen to anything i said and just told me to stop overthinking it too much

and she basically confirmed everything my parents already believed. so i don't think they would believe me again or want to spend any more money on this

this one (1) 30 min session has costed 2000/-

and if she prescribes any tests or for more sessions, idk how i will manage this

but of course, this is all in the future. first i'm really worried about what her response would be like. i hope she is understanding and actually listens to me. (found her on adhd india reddit)

i don't have any reports to show her, just things i read on the internet. but it can' be a coincidence that so many things match.... right?

i just want to feel normal, not that i know what that's supposed to feel like but it's definitely not this

of course, even in the best case scenario, if she completely understands my situation and symptoms and diagnoses me, i's not like everything will be magically fixed. it would still require a lot of work, difficult work to make changes. i just hope to get a direction and find sustainable ways of making the changes

another thing i'm sad about (or maybe it's because my period just started): there was this interiit tech problem statement about llm's and its very similar to what i did in my internship. i applied for it but i didn't have a resume (because i'm lazy and had no motivation to make one after ppo but i really should make it). anyway i asked the organising guy about it and he said its fine as long as i explain what all i know properly. but i wasn't selected. and that's fine there might be better people with more experience though i did have very relevant experience. but the lead for this ps is this r friend. and they way she said i wasn't selected gave me the vibe that she had a hand in it. maybe i'm just overthinking. obviously i don't expect her to take me just because we're friends but for some reason i feel like it's the opposite way

but yeah anyway, all the best to me, hope things go uphill from here

[acacia-shade]

probably could call us a hybrid system but idk, it's not a label we've ever properly picked us for a couple reasons that don't matter here. We're mostly answering just for our experiences that are on the more singlet end here.

I'm going to be honest one of the reasons I don't really tell people in my life about my system stuff is I never know how to describe my own experience that well, especially to someone who doesn't know what plurality is to begin with. I don't really like a bunch of the common metaphors people use for myself but I don't really have anything better either so I just don't explain at all. I can describe a bunch of other stuff about ourselves but what and how we are as a whole just escapes me.

Yeah we do. we've got a bunch of differences between the lot of us but most of those differences are small, and it's not that many differences each I guess? it's like. one might like a different name more, another might like different pronouns, another might feel a bit older, but all the rest of the details about each of those guys are roughly the same, you know? There aren't actually a bunch of hard lines but it's like if you look as a gradient with one end that's red, and one that's blue. It's kind of hard to say when it stops being red exactly but there is a section that is clearly not red, and vice versa for blue.

I guess we do. A lot of it is existing in the same place but we do interact some. I'm not going to say anything else about it because the more I think about this, the more I have a hard time deciding who "counts" as part of the more median-y singlet-y bit and who doesn't. Communication abilities and levels differ between everyone here, not just the parts relevant to this.

Yes, that's actually how we know that most parts (relevant to this) exist at all. We notice some difference and go "oh, I'm a thing, ok then". We don't notice a lot of switches fast because it just feels like becoming a bit different, often in was that aren't immediately noticeable. Just like moving down that gradient we mentioned before.

The less median-y guys we have have more significant differences from the median-y folks, and generally have a greater capacity for like existing independently I guess. Like median-y folks exist around one(-ish) identity, and if we try and work them out seperate from the greater whole they just don't really make sense. Like, trying to understand one stroke on a painting doesn't really make sense because it's got other strokes under it and on top of it and to either side, and mixed in with it and it was never meant to exist alone. Alone it's not a picture of anything. More seperate parts are more like whole paintings. they don't (generally) rely on other parts to exist, and even if they're a bit messy or unfinished you can probably at least work out what the painting is supposed to be of. As I kind of mentioned before there are some parts that are kind of hard to classify though because they kind of have traits of being more and less independent simultaneously, or they fluctuate a bit.

our headspace is just a place we imagine when we want to interact in a more "physical" way when multiple folks are in/near front together. parts that aren't near front don't exist there. more median-y parts typically present in the roughly consistent form they tend to share. as in like. as one singular guy even if there are a couple of them hanging around. we can appear separately but in those cases eyes are always averted because it just feels really weird to see. even if we communicate or "physically" interact a bit, looking feels wrong in a way I can't fully describe. something about looking at a copy of yourself but also something about being perceived when you don't know how you're supposed to look, or aren't supposed to be perceived like that at all.

It's really hard to say. We have long since given up trying to work out if a certain identity or two are more like kin shifts or seperate guys. we prefer the kin shift explanation because we like having the identities and don't want to "loose them" if that makes sense? I do think some folks are more connected to them or less connected to them but it's something we avoid thinking about too hard.

Hello, I have some questions for the medians on Tumblr. This is specifically for medians who lean closer to the singlet side of the spectrum than the multiple side. Feel free to answer as many or as little of these questions as you want, I just would like to hear more experiences. (I tried to make the wording be inclusive as possible, but let me know if something is wrong.)

In your own words, how would you describe yourself/selves? As in, if you had to give some kind of metaphor to someone who does not understand medianhood, plurality, etcetera at all, how would you do so?

Do you distinguish yourself/selves at all? Like, are there any lines between one or the other? Such as having different names or different pronouns; or even something like you all like/use the same name(s) or pronoun(s), but some of you prefer one name/pronoun slightly more than the others?

Do you have any communication with each other? Or, is it more like you're simply existing in the same body with each other, like how two co-workers can be aware of each other but never really talk?

Can you/yourself/selves switch or front? What does it feel like, and how does it work? Or can you not switch/front?

If you are/in a chimera/hybrid system (have both multiple and median headmates), can you distinguish between multiple and median members? How so?

(Sort of a continuation of the above) again, if you are/in a chimera/hybrid system, and if you have a headspace of any sort, are there any differences between median and multiple headmates there?

If you/yourself/selves are also another type of alterhuman, does that have any influence? Do certain selves feel more of a connection to a certain alterhuman identity more than others, or are you all equally connected to that identity?

[minkkumaz]

ahhh omii procrastination has gone too far for me T_T

havent been doing too well in AP psychology so i need to do some extra credit thats due by tomorrow,, but at the same time i have a foreign language exam to study for.. my world history teachers just incapable of properly teaching us so i have worksheets to do aswell.

agh my history teachers just so frustrating. she doesnt know how to print properly so 100% of the time the documents she hands out to us have missing words and blurred out text. then she expects us to just somehow figure it out.. shes super unreasonable and just wont teach us. everyday is a new document and assignment, she just doesnt teach.. i have like no grade in her class because she never lets us know when to turn in work,, and when i asked her about it she got so sassy w me talkin about, “idk if i can accept this..” like just say ur too lazy to do ur job ☹️☹️

whewww… anyways thinking about comfort w the loml woonhak. ☺️💭💭

(woonhak the type of guy to study harder for his lovers exams rather than his own so he could help them out.)

-🍉

awww my sweet melon :(

i can definitely relate to such a hard work overload. im not sure what grade you're in and you don't have to tell me! but it's so weird for me because i'm a sophmore and last year was much easier in comparison!

i'm an extreme overachiever, so if i don't have straight a's i lowkey freak. and my stupid euro class is breaking down that standard i have for myself because her class is so hard.

my teacher does teach, but she skips so much of the stuff and expects us to retain it all by reading the textbook. except i learn much better when i am explained thoroughly. on top of that, she assigns so many tests?? i have one tomorrow and i have FOUR next week which is genuinely bringing me physical pain.

i'm so sorry though your teacher sounds awful:( that always happens when teachers copy down documents that were made online, and that they didn't create themselves. so sometimes i get blurry stuff too. your case sounds much worse though! the teacher needs a reality check bc wtf does she mean do it yourself? my dear melon doesn't deserve that >:T

you definitely deserve some woonhak comfort wahh :( we both need some comfort cause school is killin us (i am on my knees begging god to bless tumblr with some 8turn writers because i swear only i write for yungyu and he fixes my day in 2 seconds)

(also you are so right that idea is so cute wtf)

[alyjojo]

The Person On Your Mind in September 🫏 2023 - Scorpio

Whole of their energy towards Scorpio: 4 Wands

You two seem to have a twisted game of passion, love, obsession, codependency, possible sexual deviancy or outside parties involved in this too, substances, addictions, lies, manipulation, I mean pick a thing and it’s possible here. They are someone FIERY 🔥 which you find exciting. You could live together, have before, or plan to. Could be getting engaged or already are. There are a lot of sexy messages back and forth between you whenever you’re away from each other. 2 Cups shows that there is genuine love between you. Among a lot of other feelings. Could be a soulmate, I’m getting no one does it for you like this person.

Feelings: The Fool

They are the more hesitant of the two of you, you’re probably all in, let’s do this. They are going to jump into a new cycle with you, because they love you, but they have waited or put it off for some time while waiting for to get their head to be clearer on some things. Their messages show spirituality is not the way with them, they are spiritually asleep, but that doesn’t make them not totally aware either, they’re clueing in to things in this relationship that aren’t healthy for either of you. So they want these things addressed, and handled properly, before they make a move, but they also definitely want a future with you.

Intentions: Judgement rev

No repeats. They may also shirk accountability and try to blame you for everything, which your messages are like nope, try again. Turn that finger around and point it at yourself dear. There has been outside influences and many levels of control, lust, obsession, addictions, the best and worst of Devil energy. Confronting shadow sides and immaturity in both of you are probably a major life lesson in this connection…it’s going to be hard to explain that to them, not being the sort to like this kind of stuff. You could try psychology/behavioral science, same lessons just a different method.

They want to be with you, and love you. They just don’t want a repeat of 9 Swords, anxiety, sleepless nights, fear, worry, along with trickery, manipulation, other people making things confusing, control, however toxicity plays out between you.

Actions: The Devil & Justice

Justice makes this Devil slightly not as toxic, because the goal is on fairness, but maybe they like the threesome thing, control games or substances possibly with 9 Cups here too. IDK you tell me. Jk, don’t tell me 😅 Some of it stays, they like some levels of Devil because it feeds their fun or something. The worst or most hurtful parts of this have to go though, and they’re willing to work with you on what stays and goes in this connection. They may be kind of cheeky with you and not clearly state things to like…”lie by omission”, when it comes to 9 Cups, pleasures, substances, things they buy or enjoy to a level of irritating or extravagance to you. Make sure you’re on top of your game with this one, I’m sure you’re already aware they’re always up to something. I just don’t get that something being hurtful, there’s no hurt here. Unhealthy, imbalanced, overindulgent…sure. Secretive, possibly. Illegal even, maybe? You do you. Further clarification of “will you two reunite or will this get better” and there’s all love and romance in these cards. YES. Parties, celebrations, reunions, possible engagements, and a new cycle in love. This person keeps you on your toes for sure.

Messages:

Their side:

- My money is my LIFE

- Spiritually Dead Inside ☠️

- Co-dependence

Your side:

- Obsessed with YOU 😳

- STATUS 😎

- Blaming You 💯

Possible signs:

Heavy Gemini/Aries, Aquarius, Cancer, Pisces & Capricorn

If you’re dealing with:

5 Cups shows you missing people, feeling sad, disappointed, a bit lonely or regretting how some things are turning out. In some cases, others are feeling this way towards you. There could be a lot of focus on what was, and what’s been lost because of xyz, and wishing things could have been different.

Aries - something that needed to end for your own good, they could be narcissistic or you don’t have aligned values, they don’t want things that are “stable”, they want FUN 🔥 If that describes this person…be careful

Taurus - either you’ve shaken up their entire world or something else is, they could see you as the unstable one, holding back from you for the time being, or switch it

Gemini - taking time weighing their…no options, they don’t actually have a choice, they’ll figure it out

Cancer - feels you’re an emotional manipulator, they’re being nice & hearing you out, but they’re onto you. Or switch it.

Leo - immature behavior and emotions makes this much harder than it needs to be

Virgo - fine on their own, done with this

Libra - very much in love, a possible soulmate ❤️‍🔥

Scorpio - both of you are helping out the other one and trying to keep things balanced, a very good & helpful connection

Sagittarius - has nothing to hide, or say to you, or switch it

Capricorn - not doing whatever they initially said, but not saying anything about that either…good luck reading their mind 😷

Aquarius - bossing up at work, taking charge of a situation and giving it their all

Pisces - needs money, could be in debt or dealing with something in particular that’s too much for them to handle right now

[merrymorningofmay]

Uncommon OC Questions: 1, 8, 38, 40, D and E for the jsamn trio please (if that's not too many xD)

omg omg omg thank you so much!!!! no such thing as too many i love talking hgghghdfhdk

1: What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

john uskglass: can go uncannily still for hours on end when he's doing magic, like "you have to check if he's breathing" still, but absolutely starts fidgeting and losing temper after a minute in a "nothing to do" situation (or just leaves altogether, he's the king, duh)

william of lanchester: is actually pretty patient, can go couple hours of sitting in place like a normal person if he has to; the downside is if you leave him like this for too long he'll start overthinking and give himself brain damage

thomas of dundale: goes very still and quiet whenever he senses danger and can remain like this for a while, but otherwise will start pacing around/nudging people/being silly after like 10 minutes max

8: What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child

john: "STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP" / (by thomas) "hide!"

william: "stop slouching" / "speak louder"

thomas: "stop crying" / "be like your brother"

38: What memory do they revisit the most often?

john: not the one to reminisce i imagine, but i think upon his return to england he would initially be baffled by small displays of like. kindness? basic decency? on the part of humans and replay those moments in his head later. idk if the gentleman with the thistle-down hair is a representative case but i got the vibe that jsamn fairies generally are quite self-centered and don't care for others beyond their own benefit/entertainment (which would make faerie a pretty cutthroat place for a literal child, and also explain why trust and betrayal were such sensitive subjects for john in his adulthood), so i think it would take young john some time to grasp that sometimes people (ahem thomas and william ahem) are just nice to him/one another because they're capable of sympathy

william: nostalgic af!!! thomas was born in france in my hc, so that makes william the one person in their trio to actually feel emotionally attached to england as his home. i don't think there would be one definitive memory for him, but he totally would hold his childhood memories dear (esp the bittersweet ones, what with higher mortality rates in medieval times + the north still being quite a scarred place, i imagine, emotionally if not economically. i mean, the gap between 1111 and the harrying is just a few years longer than the gap between me and chornobyl)

thomas: probably avoids thinking about his pre-faerie childhood too often, though i like to think that he used to have a dog and loved it a lot. and then he avoids thinking about his time in faerie too bc there's just a lot of unpleasant stuff there. there must've been some exchange between teen thomas and baby john in faerie that solidified their friendship, maybe john using magic to protect him or telling thomas something his family never would have, like "why do you care so much what others think", something along those lines

40: How sensitive are they to their own flaws?

john: what "flaws" (ok actually i like to think that deep down he's aware that his family backstory is pretty shaky and is himself not 100% certain that it's true, but decides to stick with it nonetheless bc he's stubborn. i hc that part of the reason he took john uskglass sr.'s full name rather than keeping just the "uskglass" part and choosing his own first name is to kind of assert to himself as much as to everyone else that yes, he belongs in the human world, he's claiming the place of this other human dude who totally belonged here, see! but i also believe this anxiety is like, half-realized and he never actually properly thinks about it. he's perfect and the strongest and the smartest and goated with the sauce etc.)

william: VERY but it's mostly the flaws he's convinced himself that he has, not necessarily anything that bothers other people. his solution is to sulk about it in secret forever

thomas: eh. he's aware of them and doesn't think much of himself in general but he's mostly "it is what it is" about it. (i think a sensitive topic for him would be having nothing to call his own; i hc that he's not too keen about magic after all those years in faerie and that he cut ties with his family after they failed to accept him back, so somewhere across those 300 years he'd try to find his own Thing kind of sokka-style, but that's more of a predicament than a flaw)

D: Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?

yea i'm pretty much sticking with the first things that came to mind. like, things we know about william essentially boil down to 1 magician (= scholar); 2 can fill in for a king if need be; 3 has a moral compass but ultimately chooses fealty over it, so i just imagined a basic classic "introverted knight" type of dude, tall, dark, serious, nice beard, all that. thomas is kind of a contrast to him: younger, leaner, energetic, and a redhead for added fun; and john is. well. i'm a simple woman okay if i see a character i can bishounenify, i will xD

E: Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?

WELL john is a hard no, william is the one i'm projecting onto the most so i guess?? but we wouldn't necessarily hang out much; i think i'd have fun being around thomas but i doubt he'd find my company very interesting. that's all assuming i have something to talk about with medieval noblemen x)

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