#ik ive posted an iceberg tip of mommy issues on here just as personal rants to get it to stop spinning in my head and actually seeing that
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this is no hate to anyone. I have to say this, but being on the phone with your mother doesn't mean she could not have been abusive.
have you never heard of Stockholm syndrome or grooming or manipupation? have you never understood that when you grow up so isolated, you can believe you have the perfect mother because everyone else believes it - even when you're actually being tortured every day. you have nothing to complain about bc you have nothing to compare your own experience to. until after moving far away, after building relationships with people who she doesn't know and can't manipulate.
even when a part of you knows that if you had no dependence whatsoever on your family, that you would cut them off and never look back, it can take years apart from them to finally let yourself consciously accept that, and stop denying how bad everything truly was. it can feel like being trapped in a freeze response for weeks on end.
being on the phone with his mother in the empty dorm means nothing. do I know everything about Geto's life? no. but I know this much, and recurring themes in jjk are cycles of abuse. cult abuse. domestic abuse. a lot of it is iykyk, not spelled out and obvious but it's there. sure, some of our hcs can be wrong? they're hcs??? what did you expect oh my god
#Suguru Geto#hidden inventory movie#am I projecting from my own experience? 100% yes#but bffr a phone call?? when Suguru arrives in the dorm before anyone else?? tf is he supposed to do#it takes 10 years to deconstruct from a cult#by the way. it took me nearly 10 years to finally stop talking to my mom (despite having thoug#since I was in elementary school that I needed to run away or die and never look back. even with nothing to compare my life to). do I know#everything about Geto's life? no. but I know how many smiling phone calls you can have with someone who destroyed you <3#ik ive posted an iceberg tip of mommy issues on here just as personal rants to get it to stop spinning in my head and actually seeing that#written out it looks so unbelievably bad#and it was!! we just#it's all we know. it's the only connection we had.
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