#im normal and sane (liar. lying.)

[miraculous-showtime]

my SINCEREST apologies go all the kami no mani mani truthers out there

[novemberdevils]

very lonely. maybe i need to do more with that... how do I stop you from teasing me? But like please spoil more I beg you, jack makes me wants to study him because from my pov-meaning me and therapist friend over analysing everything- it feels that he is lonely in the way that doesn’t simply disappear when you are around loved ones because you spent a lot of time being set aside whether it was by choice or not but it make him cautious to every time he feels safe or at “home” as he will be waiting for the I guess carpet to be swept from underneath him because nothing could last for him you know??, also this is me making you overthink even more but I have no idea if you mentioned it and I somehow I completely overlooked it but did jack come up with any of the other drivers or did he go a completely different route? I feel if he did go a different route it would make his outcastness even more because it would mean no one really understands what he has gone through they only know what jack decides to tell.

Honestly poor carlos for dealing with nicojack because no matter how much he tries to guess what the fuck is going on with them he will never get it right because come on how can he thinks that they are fucking, chocking, and taking pictures of each other after having sex??, somehow being gentle with yourself is always harder and being yourself biggest critic can be really damaging but it’s nearly impossible to be gentle when you feel that you don’t deserve or want that gentleness even when it’s what you actually need, ohh ok thanks for explaining the luke and nico it makes more sense than nico being in his room; but both of them thinking that oh jack must come to his room but then they both find each other but not jack hilarious if you ask me, maybe that will be a scene i write from nico's perspective and put on tumblr actually... PLEASE DO IT 🙏 YOU CANNOT SAY THIS AND NOT DO IT, jack and luke are not even in the same genre of books let alone being on the same page they need a therapist and just talk, don't worry the liar will be revealed in monaco. i've already written the scene I LOVE YOU.

Tbh I don’t want this fic to end so the scene running away and writing itself makes me happy but I don’t think it makes you as happy, I need to know who was lying and why NOW or I might day, Yeah. the creative writing to aviation major pipeline doesn't exist i created it hey high five for going the pipeline that don’t exists mine is from computer science to forensic anthropology, also you being in aviation is insane like that must be some cool degree that you get to have not my forensic anthropology and digging around in dirt, yayy for them unlocking a new space hopefully next it would be buying a house together-too much?-.

But instead of saying anything sane or normal, Jack opens his mouth and says, “I wanna cash in.”

Nico barely looks at him. “What?”

“I want a picture of you like this,” Jack says. It sounds completely ridiculous now that he’s said it all out loud, but— “You owe me. From Imola.”

For a moment, Nico just blinks at him. Then, “Where’s your phone?” HOW DARE YOU!!!! I need more please please please get the chapter out now like this was the perfect snippet because it doesn’t give us anything major except for the pic so we will want to read more and see what lead to this I hate you.

i cannot remember what game this was about but i hope they didn’t fumble!! I too cannot remember what game it was but I remember they didn’t fumble it; it was maybe against the blues?? I have no clue, yeah jack is, as always, on the struggle bus me and him both but he has a nico and I don’t so im judging him for thinking bad, I feel this what makes jack more complex the fact he determines his worth over what he achieved so if he feels he didn’t meet the impossible expectations he set for himself he will not feel worthy of the love he gets, honestly i have also forgotten if jack told anyone about what carlos said in shanghai look I reread a couple of scenes last few days and I believe this was the first time he says carlos was the one who said that to him, and the thing with the quinn nico parallel with the control is that both of them meant it in different situations-nico the sex and quinn with general life- but jack still doesn’t believe either of them even when one proved that he was the one in control he still doesn’t believe that, also please yap about the playlist I need your thoughts about every song.

STOP BEING VAGUELY MEAN!!! You break my heart every time you tease, jack being noo nico is so nice to me he is the best but as soon as nico is in front of me and he doesn’t cater to every whim jack has he becomes the meanest person ever; nico I would say poor you but you were the one who chose to deal with the brattiness that is jack, the draisaitl and nico fight is quite literally everything for me so thanks for including it, unforch i do kind of like mclaren I unfortunately will have to inform you we should stop yapping to each other this is a betrayal I cannot handle or forgive, it’s evil as hell! It hurts as hell but sure you can use evil, omg please commission it I will chip in or give you ideas!!,  (which involved a notebook and a pen, it was getting serious in the campus library) you and me both a coworker of mine was telling me the other day like wow filling out reports even on your break I was not filling out reports.

No like sometimes a fic is so good but then you reach a smut section and it would be just bad smut and then you can’t continue it but yours ranks top three in the best smut I have ever read so you absolutely knocked out of the park, also you writers scare me because what do you mean you have these masterpiece laying around when I can’t even comment without commenting major crimes against the English language??? A round of applause because you 100% deserve it, ha ha. Images. the snippet i posted the other day references the cashing in thing but it arguably brings more questions than answers. point is he cashes in in the next chapter so Soon you will discover yeah I hate you, im glad that asking when the next chapter comes out doesn’t annoy you but please do take care of yourself I might be annoying you about the chapter but please always priority yourself, I can’t believe that we are already have reached Spain like I know there is still so many rounds left but im already experiencing withdrawal symptoms, I will be not so patiently waiting for the chapter!! 2/2

i will never stop teasing re: i am evil. so yeah jack is a very lonely guy. shoutout to the shit from pre-spain i just posted where he’s insistent that nico can’t be his friend because then he’s be his only friend… womp. and i have totally not mentioned it because i am a dumb who didn’t outline this fic lmao but. ? it’s Very much established that he was in karting with nico but nico is older so he went through the cars series faster — jack did come up through the standard f1 ladder (he’s an f3 & f2 champion, and in my head those are consecutive) but i never really specified who on the grid he raced against in those series… mathematically he should’ve come up around the same time as drysdale and holtz so let’s call that canon 😁 neither of them were ever FDA drivers so jack likely gave few fucks about them. also implied that it’s only jamie’s second year in f1 and it is jack’s. fourth. wait have i ever explicitly given the timeline or is it all implicit my bad don’t ask me what team jamie drove for in his rookie season i have no fucking idea. this is what i get for not planning anything

feeder series tangent aside. actually no. jack was too busy still giving a fuck about nico even when he wasn’t directly competing against him because he is a Crazy person. jack doesn’t even know what his f2 teammate is up to lmao like he didn’t care about anything except winning and getting an f1 drive. and did i ever imply that nico skipped f2. i cannot remember how max-coded i made the guy 😭 he won an f3 championship as established in ch5. jack you are a crazy person

carlos is actually fed up to the max even if he doesn’t know Exactly what anything is to be fed up with. he probably assumes some racing conspiracy shit not. crazy sex. the friend thing from the new chapter definitely threw carlos for a loop but he is highkey being a cartoon villain about it 😭 and yeah i love imagining nico coming into jack’s room and luke is just sitting there like wtf are you doing in here. i should write that scene. i know i’ve said i might. and. maybe. probably. there is a likelihood. don’t let me forget about that because literally i always remember i said i was going to write a scene from nico’s pov but i can never remember which scene i said. and it’s that one. so

MY BEAUTIFUL PIPELINE. i keep getting crazy emails and i’m like wtf have i gotten myself into. $25 fine if i don’t wear my id badge when required… like don’t you know i am coming from a major where you sit in a conference room with the worst people in the world and criticize each other. the switch up is insane lowkey

if i ever post a snippet i will post an evil snippet just know that 😈😈😈 now that the chapter is out i hope you liked the scene lol it’s one i’ve had cooking up in my brain for like a month and a half. maybe minus the taking a picture part. but like. the whole Concept of it. sometimes smut scenes can be. emotionally symbolic. is that the term i want? like. yknow. the taking control thing. and then. the spain one. uhh do with that what you will

yayyy glad they didn’t fumble Mystery Game! and so true jack puts a lot a lot of weight on his accomplishments, not to keep yapping about ch5 but in my defense it was like the only thing i looked at yesterday — he fr believes that not at minimum getting on the podium after his shit pit stop is as good as losing. like dawg. calm down. and thank you for the confirmation on the shanghai thing lmao i was pretty sure i had only implied that someone had said something mean to him. at this point, will jack ever refer to carlos as carlos again 😭 he’s been sainz for like ever. and on the control parallel — my beloved — nico does also mean in general life but him choosing to establish that thought during a sex thing was definitely. a choice. but he is very adamant in telling jack that he wants to know what he thinks, he wants jack to say and do what he wants without stopping to be concerned about how it will be received, but jack obviously sucks at that. either way he does not believe he is in control ever at any point in time. and i have admittedly started the unnecessary song analysis google doc so the thoughts are coming!

i will never stop being mean… nico has his reasons. lots of them. Ha. ha ha. and vouch on all the stuff about bad smut ruining a good fic 😭 like i hate to be that guy… but i have sooo many fic opinions oopsies. i’m glad you enjoy the scenes i write though thank you! and i have been writing for years and years and years so i did my time writing god awful smut, i have officially graduated to being. not terrible 😁