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UGH Masterlists
So my pure 40k part of my masterlist is getting unwieldy now that I've thrown primarchs into the mix so now I've got to make a better looking masterlist for that
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a masterlist for the Husbandry masterlists...
#im slowly working on my stuff#but tiny night lord has been needy lately#eating up all my time#if anyone has suggestions lmk#for how the masterlists should be set up/if I should do something different with them#maybe one day I'll add pretty banners and just personalize them but not today
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*about any given drawing* cranking the saturation slider will fix this
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#itafushi#if u count this 0.7 of a megu as itfs ig#ANYWAY HI SORRY IM LIKE DIES but fear not i am actually lives#between artblock and job and attempting to have a social life im exhausted Always but we persist! she said wracked w anxiety and guilt#capitalism got me BAD this leaving the house stuff and waking up early stuff and going to bed before midnight stuff got hands#im also like. rly anxious posting this i feel like its not Enough of a draws to justify the break bc im like insane#convinced every1 hates me for not posting regularly and wld rather i never post again and other delusions#im working on things i am going so slowly it makes me want to crawl out of my skin but i am working on things!!!#anyway im sorry its just sketchy im sorry my render still looks like an identity crisis pls accept my humble offering#before i crawl back in2 my hole and/or run in2 traffic BYE
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for anyone that doesn't know, i recently started school again! (that's why ive been so mia) so ill be posting class projects whenever i finish them,,, this was a figure drawing assignment :)
you can get a print of this here!
#along with moving and starting school again‚ i had a bunch of family and health stuff thrown my way at the start of this semester‚‚#so im slowly catching up on work from this past month hsbdhdjf#my art#artists on tumblr#art#illustration#uhh i think that's all my original art tags#im really happy with how this piece turned out!!! :D#during critique someone mentioned how this felt like a representation of creative burnout and i was like omg. felt.
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ART pestering MB with riddles
(based on an actual conversation between my best friend and I)
#digital art#artists on tumblr#the murderbot diaries#tmbd fanart#perihelion#tmbd art#?#idek the tags#anyway this is basically the conversation#edited only slightly to make sense in context#id just clocked into work and my friend started throwing RIDDLES at me#like some sort of RIDDLER.#truly my own personal ART whom i hate#also the ‘i swear to FUCK’ reads weird if u domt know its replacing God#whatevarrr#ignore the white void its in btw#i was going to do more and then#Lazy.#as per usual. sigh.#drawing the expressions was fun tho#slowly getting better at art and making comics#yknow its weird ive always said ‘art is all i have’#in reference to drawing being my only skill#the only thing im good at.#but ever since reading tmbd its taken on a new meaning in my head#every time i say it im just reminded of ART and it sounds rlly funny#anyway judge the fonts if u want#i chose stuff that kind of felt right to me#not Perfect but#i tried
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this is them to me
#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#isat#isat fanart#digital art#isat siffrin#isat isabeau#isat mirabelle#mirabelle chevalier#The Horrors are finally over so im gonna slowly work on the stuff in my inbox yippieeee#isamirasif qpr world domination
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Random update sorry everything is taking so long. I've paused Patreon and I'm working on various things, but some people have started to express concern for my safety/living status so just letting you know I am alive!
#between my divorce and moving and the fires closing the webtoon office#its just been a lot!#also im saying divorce even though we werent married#cause after 11 years 'breakup' doesnt quite cover it#he grew up with my family we saw him as a son and a brother so my whole family is very upset#meanwhile his mom pretended to forget my sisters name when she went over there to get me some of my stuff...#extremely upsetting#but it is what it is i am absolutely better off it just suuuuuucks!#got a therapist and shes nice and im like. lmfao. im like halfway through four episodes?#i keep doing lines and then getting overwhelmed an going to work on a different episode#so i am working im just not. finishing stuff...#justifying it in my brain like well this is work that has to get done at some point so as long as im doing SOMETHING#who cares what order it gets done in#so. working on it. im never gonna take on this much work again lmfao i fucked myself over majorly#i want all of these things done still#just gotta let myself do things uh.. one at a time.#not 5 at a time#cause then 5 things are getting done slowly and stressfully#which is just way worse#anyways. yeah im alive don't worry about me#just emotional and busy so im not drawing#delete later
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coming soon on @xinganhao 🎨🎾🐈
#── ᵎᵎ ✦ yapping#[ eek!! so hello!! these are upcomings that are unrelated to stuff i obviously owe ]#[ i.e. the tatbilb winners + svtflix :) ]#[ i'm on a mission to have one mini-series for every member and so far we have vernon ✅ and gyu ✅ ]#[ positively whelmed with all the kind words that have been thrown my way!!! thank u all for being so nice to me :( ]#[ my stories are taking longer time than they used to. but im slowly but surely working thru themmm pls trust that lmao ]#[ i'm excited for what's to come! i hope u are too!! ]#[ and as i always say: i hope you're happier than me today~~~ ]#[ much much love!! see you all soon for an exciting week nxt week hehe ]
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happy timezone my friendz 🌟 ⸜(ˆᗜˆ˵ )⸝ 🌟 !!! i’m here with my lil star shaped pom poms to cheer you on for the day ahead ! i hope you’ve all been keeping well !! please remember to hydrate + unclench your jaws mweheh :3 i missed you guys sm sniffle but i am now back in my active era and ready to annoy the masses >:3 !! LOVE YA ! ♥︎
#i am guzzling down water i feel like P A R C H E D ! so i am extending the lil reminder to you guiseeee :3#the cruise was amaze :( i was worried about germs + stuff but tbh they did a very good job on encouraging hygiene#so yippeee !! i got kissed by the sun and had a heaps of fun ! :3#now a big fan and i hope to go on another one day ଘ(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و !! mootie meet up on a cruise … let’s go ….#i’m working from home today + playing catch up on all my emails cries#but i needed to poke my head in and slowly start to catch up here as well :> !!#i’m working on some zoro + dickie fics YIPPEEEE !!!#i also have 2 law drafts id like to finish soon so i can torment the law loverz <33#what else what else … taps chin !#IDK IM SURE ILL YAP MORE LATER#but for now … ya girlie needs coffee . i’ll get you all a lil treat while im at it :3 ! mwah !#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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trying to be more accepting of the likelihood I am autistic, I feel ive been having this constant back and forth conversation with myself for the past 2 years about it. "you can go to school, be a therapist for people, run errands, win awards, and somehow fit 2 jobs into all of that" and I use that as proof that I am NOT autistic...however, realizing i lose an entire weekend for a trip? distress. fire alarm goes off in the middle of the night and leaves me trembling, crying, and forced to recover? oh boy i wonder why that happened. feeling confused and like i'm constantly missing something when people express themselves in class or in the workplace? hm, it's almost as if I struggle to not take their language literally.
i don't think i've ever been allowed to be "disabled" by whatever neurodivergency and its symptomology, like, ever. god speed any other neurodivergent children of immigrants, but i don't feel allowed to let any cluster of disturbances or schedule changes or social conundrums disable me. I mean, they can affect me privately, where I am forced to stim and cry and process all on my own. But unfortunately i cannot look like the misshapen freak I feel I am, or well, as least not appear so in a socially unacceptable way.
it's funny i carry so much shame. i am unmasking in ways i never thought i could. i am allowing myself to take things literally with people, and I am allowing myself to ask more questions. "what did you mean by that?" "why did you use that word to describe that?" "can you rephrase that?" it's funnier that I am at such a queer and neurodiverse internship; nearly all of the other clinical staff have some sort of diagnosis (usually adhd/ocd/with flavors of trauma), and we all serve a population of the queerest and most neurodiverse students. i feel SO happy when I see a student and they refuse to make eye contact with me, because I take it as an invitation to NOT look them in the eye too! i tell students during our sessions feel free to stim, here's a weighted plushie you can hold, sit where you like, would you like to pace, should I dim the lights? it is even funnier that i am a neurodivergent clinician working with neurodivergent people, and half the time I dont even follow the same advice I give my clients!
i worry about what my life will look like when i've graduated. my master's will say, "hey, this guy is a clinical social worker and is now ready to be your therapist! or caseworker! whatever they have you people do nowadays!" and I don't think i feel ready to enter any workforce. how on earth will i manage my life and wellbeing doing this 40 hours a week? like wtf? ugh.
i dunno. these r just rambles and perhaps im just seeking some sort of comfort from other autistic people, especially because it feels like i have very few autistic people in my life. i know a lot of the validation i seek will be "resolved" if i seek out an official diagnosis, but I don't have time or $ for that. nor do I think I want one for a number of reasons. I should just continue working on my own self-esteem when it comes to most likely being autistic.
oh well
#muerto talks#sorry for long ramble#been having lots of autistic thoughts#been making less eye contct stimming more in class#showing up in what feels comfortable to me#ive also been frustrated becaus realizations r slowly processing and i feel really fucking silly and dumb rn#because im only just now putting up hints together#whatever i think its dumb to make the autistic guy have to pick up all these social cues and hints even tho people wont just say something#but yeah either way im actually feeling really good at my internship#i think my neurotype gives me an advantage in a lot of ways#do i get triggered still like yeah#but it wont him me until well after a session is over#but whatecer#would love to hear from other autistic people who work or go to school n stuff like that
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i have no mouth and i must scream speech but for about insomnia hate hate hate let me tell you how much i have come to hate being awake
#took half an expired tops brand unisom . wheeeee medicine that does nothing and then the next day you're groggy for twelve hours#but i have to do SOMEthing if i don't Try to make myself sleep that's Giving Up and if you Give Up . well#this is the second week in a row that ive failed to sleep on a night leading into the work week and i know most of the external reasons why#like. busy day tomorrow so anxious. haven't given myself a full weekend in a really long time so strung out.#had important stuff to do earlier that didn't happen so dwelling on that. woke up at 9am and wasn't out of bed until ten thirty so like#i got more than adequate sleep last night but this does not make me feel less worried about NOT sleeping TONIGHT#because again. every time i have a night of big insomnia im convinced that it's the beginning of an unending trend#that will make me wind up like my mother who is lucky she gets more than three hours of sleep every couple of weeks#and while she's done this her whole life qnd has adjusted to it (as much as a body can) i just know. based on how insomnia is for me#that i never could. it would be exactly as terrible every time i would never be able to be calm while it was happening#anyway everybody send me your best knockout gas#AND. it's SNOWING. fuck everything i hate it all#tomorrow im gonna be groggy as hell and have to drive to work and back and have to be With It bc we're doing activities and shit#and have to be like the model of library enthusiasm when i barely have that on a good day. and not actually physically groan#every time someone new wants a card because it means i have to interrupt what im doing dor the next fifteen minutes to say a spiel#i know i shouldn't hate that i should be glad we're getting engagement. and i am. i just wish i wasn't the one at the desk#and im not good at keeping that off of my face or being welcoming when i dont feel welcoming#i haven't gotten to do processing at my actual office desk in months. haven't gotten to be Off The Floor#which certainly hasn't helped my overall stress levels. i need to not be socially on so much it's slowly pulling me apart#and then i get home wnd im too tired to do anything and my house also falls apart around me#but if i DON'T have outings i also rot . there's no solution to this problem. not without quitting my job which ill never do#bc in today's market id never get anything half as good as this ever again. and as has been established. this relatively good job#is still not good enough for me not to be emotionally and mentally falling apart
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more icons, Faith/Fate and Falcon (she/her for both)
#my art#robot oc#oc art#im doing these slowly while working on other stuff and its nice#cant wait to get to the ones i have to fix/redo but first go my ocs who dont have one#oh btw i redesigned falcon >w<
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Okay so like
Glisten was a DHMIS OC before Dandy's World was a thing, right?
HC'ing that Glisten's 'teacher' role would've been something along the lines of friendship / fitting in for the gang? Something similar to a mix of the Love episode from the webseries and Jobs and Family from the TV show (Having a community of people who care about you + fitting into an environment or mold or dynamic) - a whole bunch of Yada Yada about 'this stuff makes you likeable and this stuff doesn't!!!' and 'look at all of MY friends, aren't I popular, isn't it fun being liked by people?? Don't you want to fit in with us??'
I'm uh. NOT REALLY GOOD WITH GORE PLACEMENT SO IDK WHERE IT WOULD FIT INTO THE EPISODE IF IT WOULD EXIST?? There's almost always some gore element to the episodes- But yeah basically he is the epitome of toxic friendships / being toxic to yourself by forcing yourself into a little perfect box so that others like you. And then a lot of his Oh Shoot™️ moment that most Teachers seem to have would be breaking down from that 'perfect little box' in front of the main cast.
Anywayyyys. Red Guy is unintentionally the most popular of the bunch, Duck is constantly peeved that people aren't 'respecting' him by being his friend and is trying to steal Red's thunder, and Yellow is just. Barely even trying to fit in the whole time, he mainly wants to do his own thing.
And then that probably gets him sucked into seeing Glisten's REALLY BAD Oh Shoot™️ mental break moment from questioning why and how Yellow is still perfectly happy doing his own thing and just liking his own little group of the ✨️Three Of Us✨️ instead of a huge group of 'friends,' and then questioning why he himself is even doing all of that acting for a group of people in the first place (maybe in the episode his group of 'friends' are the ones who get attached to Red and ditch him? As a show and tell for how these types of people are just. Awful. And they latch onto Red because he's the latest thing that's caught their eyes and Glisten is old news. Just a dusty mirror. And for the rest of the episode after this happens, he's trying to get himself back to being the star of the show and potentially attempting to recruit Yellow to help him do it).
Anyways there's some brainrot for all of us fine Dandy's World / Don't Hug Me I'm Scared fans on this fine Thursday the 12th, because I have been thinking about this non-stop since I found out about this fact.
^ Art from Qwel about what Glisten would've looked like in DHMIS. Put him with the butterfly and the lamp in the Skittles Squad /lh /silly. Would've loved to know what he would've been as a teacher if he'd have stayed on the DHMIS OC route.
#player rambles#dw glisten#glisten the mirror#glisten dandys world#dhmis#dont hug me im scared#hey how do i throw twisted glisten into this somehow.#smth like maybe twisted glisten's cracked face represents his constant façade of 'perfect' failing and he cracks in front of Yellow?#oh hey Twisted Glisten could cause the gore. somehow. im not smart enough for gore.#scheduled post#also would this concept be closer to a webisode or a tv episode.#leaning more towards tv episode because the concept is deeper and longer but like.#if its dumbed down a little and most of the episode of maybe some catchy song from Glisten about how to get people to like you#that just slowly devolves into a cracking mental state where he himself is listening to his own words for the first time#and wondering why the heck he does that#and then just fully cracks and the right amount of gore / gross stuff is shown via a twisted glisten event somehow#yeah i think it could work as a webisode too#just. i like the longer drawn iut plot idea better#*drawn out#also the episode with him is animated / filmed like either a cutesy girly school drama book (webisode) or in just a general school setting#for the tv version#thinking wayyyy too much about this guy. spreading my 'tism about him like a parasite /silly. The worm in my brain y'all#The worm in my brain tells me I should hyperfixate on a sentient mirror for some reason. I do not tell it to pipe down.
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hii i’ve been looking for long well written zonami fics and i was hoping you could recommend the best stuff you’ve read. i don’t mind any site i’ll even take wattpad at this point ;—; there’s waay too little of this pair on ao3 and so many works i’ve seen are abandoned. help a girl out thank youuu 🫶🏼
Oh man, I wish I could tell ya! I haven't had the time to read fanfics lately, so I'm not sure if there are any recent ones I can recommend.
If you're a long-time ZoNami fan, you might've already heard of these two completed M-rated fics by AshaRose on Fanfiction.net:
Mystery Pants
Memory
And there's one completed explicit fic that I've been meaning to read on AO3 by StillPurplePanicking: Dry Spell
If you've already read these, I can only apologize lol - there just aren't too many fics out there for ZoNami, and it's been a long while since I've last read a long and completed ZoNami fic. I want to write more to add to the collection of ZoNami works out there, but it's been tough finding time to work on 'em.
My one attempt at a long fic is still on hiatus, but I'm hoping to jump back into it soon! It's unfortunate, but the ZoNami drought is real 🥲
(A shoutout to @harritudur for feeding us all those goregous ZoNami art during these tough times!)
#I honestly havent read those asharose's fics in years#but i remember them being so good that they are literally the only long fics i can remember lol#im sorry i cant help more!#maybe i can help by writing a bit more today LOL#i do have a spicy one-shot that just needs to be dusted up#maybe I'll clean it up and post it first while i slowly work on Dumb Crush#that fic takes a while for me to write 'cause I gotta reread the source lmao#if you ever find a good fic though#please drop it in my inbox so i can share and read it myself! 😂#dg speaks#zonami#zona#zoro x nami#nami x zoro#my stuff
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Just.
a WOTC spinoff au where Sophist doesn't get banished but Bertrand still joins the rebellion (as/becomes the leader now, maybe for a diff reason like he got suspected instead of sophist for killing his father or something idk-) and Brent is forced to marry Cherie anyways, while he can only watch/help him prepare for his wedding as his best man (around the same time as WOTC, maybe Brent delayed marrying anyone for a few years due to the unstability of the kingdom after Bertrand left and his dad died)
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i might write somewhat of a full version of this as a drabble but i would need to read up on versions of this writing prompt (i need ideas bc motivation for this drabble idea is lowkey low) but GOD the amount of things that would go UNSAID. In this universe, he gently pushes his friend towards the ballroom again, only without a lingering feeling on both of their lips. Because how could he? Right before he was about to get married, and unaware of his true feelings for him too? No, instead, without realizing it, he tears up:
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"Never thought you'd cry at my wedding." — Brent's eyes widened in shock, a look comprised of genuine surprise and concern on his face just as Sophist realized the tears trembling in his waterline. Trying to play it off, he hoped his dear friend would take it as a moment of emotional vulnerability in opposition of what he currently felt.
"Oh, shut up! Am I not allowed to care about you for once? God, you asshole, of course I do! Why wouldn't I? I'm just.. really glad to see you so happy." — He rambled, ripping his glasses off his face with more emotion than he would've liked. Swiping the glassiness of his eyes onto his cheeks, he tried to force a painful smile, but still. He stiffened as Brent gave him something of a somber smile, heart cracking with every second that ticked by. Reasoning and rationality threatened to be swallowed up by his turbulent emotions, even as he gripped his hands together so hard they shook, because why? Why were they put through this? Was it unlucky fate that disdained them, or maybe.. Maybe it was just him. If that was all, then how could he ever be mad or guilty? He didn't deserve this, but he didn't deserve him either, and if Brent truly didn't feel anything for him at all, then he could never ruin his happiest moment. But even still.
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Please, he thought, as he bit his lip so hard he thought it'd bleed, don't walk back to me. Don't give me a reason to make a bad decision.
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"Yeah.." — The room went silent, replaced with wavering smiles and palpable tension. What would he even say at this moment? This was his finality, his never-turning-back.
"Go get em buddy, knock her dead with your dressed up looks!."
"Oh shut up the fuck up." — He laughed once more, but even as he turned around and gripped the door knob, he wanted to stop. Ever fiber of him wanted to turn around, run towards him. Embrace him, kiss him, run away with him; but he couldn't. Not because he didn't want to, but because he simply, couldn't. Too much depended on this marriage. His mother was relying on him, his kingdom was relying on him, Cherie was relying on him. His mother had lost too much, his kingdom had too much to loose, and Cherie was a woman that could bring them the power to end it all; But even still.
Taking a deep breath, he grit and ground his teeth so hard he thought they'd crack. And then, he turned to look back at him once more. And oh, he looked wonderful. His purple brocade vest was embroidered with violet, donning a lacy ruffled cravat as were the cuffs of his sleeves. His pants slim fit and tailored, he looked just like a regular noble, except for his signature mask, which was similarly styled to match his clothing; though his traditional jacket and hat were absconded for the event. Even still, he was perfect, and he wasn't his.
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His eyes lingered just a bit too long, just enough for his hardened heart to crack as his eyes revealed everything he'd wished to hide, unsafe from his best friend's astute observations.
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He swore he saw Sophist's expression change, eyes breaking open into a pool of glassy sorrow, but instead, they closed as he offered Brent an encouraging smile. They squinted back open just slightly but teasingly; a playful gaze that taunted him: "Cold feet, gonna chicken out?" He could practically hear his irritating voice, nagging him in an oh so familiar and lovely way. It helped, as he chuckled and his heart settled just a bit, but even still, he takes a deep breath. He's walking away from what, no, who he loves, but.. as long as he can remain by his side..
It's just enough for him to take the leap forward, as he twists the door knob with a conviction; but even as the light shines on his face and the ballroom explodes with noise, his heart cant help but sink.
#IM SO SORRY FOR BEING INACTIVE YALL ╥﹏╥ /gen#ive just been so busy these past few days and i just lost it all ( ´ ᗣ ` )՞#that being said ive come back to drop more angst for the soul js bc :))#i dont have a reasoning for this writing prompt tbh i legit just thought of it and it flashed through my mind like a lightning bolt tbh-#the formatting of tumblr and writing is still pissing me off so call it another slump but. yeah. i definitely plan to slowly work on my#past drabbles if i can rather than write anything new; just to see if it will help me with what seems to be this constant struggle#i think ive asked too much of myself; y'know? (´ `); /gen /lh#and with any luck; ill get better and rejoin you guys so i can more active n stuff again :) /gen#ive been going thru ppls blogs and i think ive missed quite a bit of drama so i dont know whether to be glad or not..#hope paint is still lurking tho; would be both a shame and another example on injustice if they quit tumblr. /gen /srs#pc rpf#rpf#king of soph#weight of the crown#extra note/tags below ----------------------------------------------->#SWIZARD I WROTE THIS BEFORE I SAW YOUR EYES OPEN DRABBLE AND JUST. OHHH MY GOD.#OUR BRAIN WAVELENGTH IS LITERALLY ALIGNED BUT YOU JUST WROTE THE GOOD ENDING AND I DIDNT AUGHH?!??!#nevermind im deleting all this just so i can ramble abt it all in a seperate post (also bc it got too long :_) /gen)#JUST. RAGHHHHH. I LOVE ANGST CRIES#can you tell ive missed this </3
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waving hello everyone so uh sorry for just kinda up and vanishing for um. months and months and months. i kind of exploded and then died and then lived briefly and then died again. but with the days getting longer and me being brave and being outdoors more (Even Though its starting to get real wintery outside) it feels like im coming to life again AND developing social tendencies for the first time in uhh ummmm. so anyway yeah hi i can almost handle the thought of communicating with other human beings again in the near future, stay tuned
#my drive for art has been slowly slowly slowly creeping up lately as well#latimer and i have been developing so much oc stuff offline (well. in our discord gc (+irl)) im so excited to share it with you all#ive been doing a lot of soul searching and healing and thinking and a better understanding of myself and the world i live in#i think ive grown a lot. i cant wait to see how my friends have grown too#well....once i can handle direct human communication beyond leaving a post with tags on my blog.#i might start gradually reintroduce myself to interacting with others on the site like leaving likes or replies andd so on#im so sorry i havent replied to messages. i promise i am actively working on the courage to respond.#i hope everyone is doing as well as they can in these dark dark times
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Commission for @sihakadan! I had a lot of fun working on this 💖🐄thank you for commissioning me c: Close up under the cut
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#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art#art#jano dibuja#suggestive#tw suggestive#oc#oc art#commission#art commisions#commisions open#ive been working on this for a few months now! im so proud of the final result!!!#the cow's name is Mumu <3 my beloved#tried some new stuff with the background on this one!#still need to learn lot's more#but im *slowly* conquering backgrounds#anyway please commission me to draw your beefy characters#muscles are so fun to render
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