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noxx-33i · 1 year ago

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YOU. YOU GET ME. YOU FUCKING GET ME. I have this playlist for when I play phighting cause I developed the hbait of muting the game and listening to Spotify from my Be A Parkour Ninja era and I literally have the entire punk tactics album in it/srs IT IS MOSTLY PUNK TACTICS THEN SOME WHOKILLEDXIX STUFF AND SONGS FROM TMNT THAT'S IT AND I LISTEN TO THAT PLAYLIST RELIGIOUSLY.

I like to think Kill Bill is them singing about Katana cause of the "KILL BILL SAMURAI RUNNIN' RIGHT THROUGH YA!" fjfkkskfkfkskkdk

It's gotten to the point where If you played a random song from that album I could probably guess which song it is. I'VE WOKEN UP WITH THEIR SONGS PLAYING IN MY HEAD WAY TOO MANY FUCKING TIMES THEIR LYRICS AND BEATS LIVE RENT FREE IN MY HEAD AND IN TURN SO DOES RGB TRIO IT'S INSANE.

— absolutely definitely not @spiderwebd (trust trust)

oh my god I USED TO MUTE MY GAMES TOO JUST SO I CAN LISTEN TO MY PLAYLISTS i cant do it on phighting tho... the songs r too good to miss out

WHOKILLEDXIX IS SO BASED!!!!! KILL BILL MENTION??? WITH KATANA RAAGGHHHAH ur so right. ARAHAHHHHHHHHH IM SO GIDDY

#phighting #phighting!#noxxs asks #literally my fave moot now #ong ur so awesoem #AAHEHHEHAHEHEHEHEAHEHE #im smiling like an ididot #THEHEHRHEHEHEHRHEHEHEHHE

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white-manz-whore · 6 years ago

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wednesday july 31st, 2019

A DAY TO FUCKING REMEMBER

I am writing this after my shift. so much went down and nina is probably asleep and so is rosol. I just typed in all caps in the skype group chat because I lost my shit. I am still losing my shit but I have kind of calmed down.

im going to start from the very beginning of the day. i had not seen glasses boi or Brandon so I was sadness as I usually am. I only worked a 6 hour shift (4-11) and it wasn’t until 9 pm that I saw Brandon. I was working self checkout and he was on his break and on his way to the bathroom. I saw him. he saw me. we ignored each other. on his way back he went the long route . going the long route means that he would have to go right in front of me and make it very obvious for me to see him. once again, its the usual, we ignore each other.

an hour later at 10 pm, I come back from my last break. anytime I come back from a break / lunch, I have to go to a Customer service manager and ask them where they need me (what register to go to / self checkout). the manager tells me to go to the electronics center to cover someone’s shift. I've never done that before but I was down because ELECTRONICS BOI. I didn’t know who's shift I would be covering but I was hella hoping it was him. I get there. it was not him.

so im in the electronics center and im just standing at the register. im a little nervous that a customer is going to ask me a technology related question and I won’t know how to answer. its slow, so im just kind of looking around. I see a paper that says “every shift, do some go backs”. idk if y'all have read my other posts but I explain what go backs are. anyways, below that there is something else written in a different pen color and in someone else handwriting. it says “that sucks booty cheeks.” and the o’s in “booty” were drawn to be butt cheeks. when I read that I immediately thought that electronics boi would be someone to write that. that made me smile (:. there's also a pole near the register and I noticed that a photo of a fucking meme was taped up on it. its a cropped up image of the dog crying meme. like so:

once again, I can just picture electronics boi being the one who put that up there (:.

NOW HERES WHERE I FUCKDOSIFNEI;JKNFDI;JFK. okay so I see Brandon pass by with a cart full of stuff. and for once, HE MAKES EYE CONTACT WITH ME. so I smile at him. then I look away. and then a few minutes later i see him again with an empty cart on his way to return to the back room. ONCE AGAIN HE IS ACTUALLY MAKING EYE CONTACT WITH ME SO I SMILE AGAIN. and then I look away. then I look back AND HE’S STILL LOOKIGN AT ME AOIWEJNFAEDN.

a few minutes later he comes back with stuff. I see him from far away and I try to not face him because I couldn’t smile anymore without being awkward. at this point im not facing him, and he says “excuse me”. in this moment I was like “shit what does he want I don’t know the answer to anything” (I thought he was going to ask a work related question”.)

BUT THIS BITCH SAYS “I just wanted to say, I think you're cute”. BITCHA OIFEOJWEHAT THE FUCKASN;DOLF,. WHAGT THE FUCKNALFKDMFX>EWF,BU WHOAI WHAT WHO OO;PO;. HE CAUGHT ME SO OFF GUARD. DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I SAID???? MY FUCKING IDIOT ASSSSSS SAID “um...okay... thanks (:”. BTIHVAO ISDWHY AM I STUPID. WHY AM I STUPKIDL

IT ALL HAPPENED SO FAST. IT ALL HAPPENED IN LIKE THE SPAN OF 7 SECONDS. WHEN HE SAID THAT I THOGUHT, ‘DO I TELL HIM HE’S CUTE?’ (YES I SHOULD HAVE). BUT I COULDN’T FORM WORDS SO I SAID UM OKAY THANKS. THANKS BITHC. WHY DID I DOA SRJHWEL;FJKH THAT LTT..GTAEWJCD. AFTER I SAID THAT HE JUST SMILED AND SLOWLY WALKED AWAY. IM SUCH A FUCKING IDIDOT.

DO YOU KNOW THE KIND OF COURAGE IT TAKES SOMEONE TO SAY THAT. AND I JUST SAID THANKS. AFTER HE LEFT I KEPT REPLAYING IT IN MY HEAD AND I REALIZED WHAT A COMPLETE DUMB ASS I AMMM. IM FUCKING STUPID.

I WAS FLIPPING OUT I WAS PACING AROUND MY HANDS WERE ON MY FACEEEE. AND A CUSTOMER WENT UP TO ME TO ASK IF I WAS OKAY. ASODJKNFWIJE IM STUPIDD BITHC. SHE ALSO HAD A QUESTION AND I ACTUALLY KNEW THE ANSWER ( GO ME ). I WAS ANSWERING HER QUESTION WHEN BRANDON PASSED BY AGAIN AND I HAD MY BACK COMPLETELY TURNED TO HIM BECAUSE I COULDNT FACE HIM AFTER I JUST SAID THAT STUPID SHIT. HE PROBABLY THINKS I HATE HIM. I HATE ME.

AFTER HE LEFT I KEPT HOPING HE WOULD COME BACK. HE DIDN’T )(:OKJO:D. I REALLY DID THAT TO HIM. AFTER HE LEFT, I KEPT THINKING OF ALL THE SHIT I SHOULD HAVE REPLIED WITH. LIKE UM IDK “ I THINK YOURE CUTE TOO”. THATS LITERALLY ALL I HAD TO SAY.

I LATER REALIZED THAT WHEN HE ACTUALLY MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME HE WAS PERHAPS BUILDING UP THE CONFIDENCE TO SAY WHAT HE SAID ????? I FEEL SO BAD

BRO I NEED TO SEE HIM TOMORROW AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IM GOING TO SAY. IM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT I DON’T KNOW WHY I SADI THAT. I SWEAR I THINK HE HATES ME. THAT SHIT ONLY HAPPENS IN THE MOVIES. WHEN HE SAID THAT TO ME I THOUGHT I HEARD HIM WRONG. SO MUCH WAS GOING ON IN MY HEAD AND THATS WHY I ACTED A FOOL.

I REALLY HOPE HE DOESN’T IGNORE ME WHEN I SEE HIM AGAIN. HOENSTLY IF I WAS HIM I WOULD BE EMBARRASSED BUT HE HAS NO REASON TO BE. I HOPE YALL READ ALL OF THIS. I NEED YOUR HELP BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO HIM.

I WAS THINKING SOMETHING ALONG THE LINES OF “BRANDON YOU CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD THE OTHER DAY WHEN YOU SAID THAT. BUT I’VE SEEN YOU AROUND THE STORE A LOT AND I’VE ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT YOURE CUTE” SORRY IM AN IDIOT. SOMEONE COME YELL AT ME

ROSOL LITERALLY WHEN WE WENT TO WALMART ONE TIME I TOLD YOU. I TOLD YOU THAT I WANTED TO DATE BRADNON. THAT IM GOING TO DATE BRANDON. I FINALLY GET THE CHANCE AND I PULL THIS SHIT. WHAT THE FUCK.

I WONDER WHAT HE’S DOING / THINKING RIGHT NOW. I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO STOP THINKING ABOUT IT SINCE IT HAPPENED. I TRULY HATE ME.

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