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⋆°•☁︎°⋆. Closer than ever .⋆°☁︎.𖥔 ݁☾
~ new year ~ maknae line
~ synopsis: It’s New Year’s Eve, frustrated because all your friends ditched you claiming that they are "busy". You have no choice but to stay at home, sulking. But when your brother’s best friend surprisingly offers to take you for fun, unexpected (?) feelings and emotions arise.
~ pairing: brothersbestfriend!enhypen x fem!reader
~ genre: acquaintances to ???, slow burn, fluff ^^, one shot
~ word count: 2173 W (combined)
~ warnings: None!!
~ notes: im a bit (very) late but I loveee the new years tropee. not proofread. ENJOYYYYY <333
Full Masterlist I hyung line
~ Kim Sunoo I You had exactly one plan for New Year’s Eve:
A bath, face masks, a fluffy blanket, and a kdrama binge in peace without disturbance.
You’d even turned your phone on Do Not Disturb.
So when your doorbell rings at 9:00 PM, you shuffle to the door with a towel turban on your head, a sheet mask sliding halfway off your cheek, and your cutest, comfiest pajama set.
You open it, already annoyed.
Sunoo stands there. Holding two iced boba cups.
“Surprise,” he singsongs, fox eyes wide like you should be honored.
You stare. “What the hell?”
He brushes past you like it's his parents' place.
“Okay, first of all,” he says, turning dramatically once he’s in your living room,
“you’re not actually staying home tonight, right? That’s just a cute little joke you made to your group, right?"
You cross your arms. “ No, It wasn’t a joke I'm planning to have a cozy alone time night.”
He gasps.
Like, genuinely gasps.
“Y/N. You can’t be serious.”
“I am. Goodnight, Sunoo.”
You turn, already heading for the hallway.
“Nope!” he says, skipping after you. “Y/N...I already bribed Heeseung with ramyun. He said I could kidnap you. And I will. Pleaseeee.”
“I have a sheet mask on.”
“You look stunning,” he says, deadpan.
Then he grabs your wrist. “C’mon, Y/N. I know you. You hate missing out.”
You hesitate. “Why do you care?”
He falters.
Just for a second.
But it’s enough.
He clears his throat. “Because you deserve fireworks and boba and all the cute moments this stupid night has to offer.”
You stare at him. “You’re-.. amazing.”
“And fabulous.” He holds out a hand. “So? You in?”
You roll your eyes. But your heart’s already giving itself away.
He drags you to a rooftop party that’s half chaos, half Instagram aesthetic.
Lanterns overhead, music playing from a Bluetooth speaker. Fairy lights wrapped around the railing.
Sunoo drags you into every group selfie. Forces you into a dance battle. Smears glitter under your eyes when you aren’t looking.
“This is feels so illegal right now,” you mutter as he adjusts your hair.
“It’s enhancement,” he replies. “Just be grateful your date is this hot.” he says while fixing his hair.
You nearly choke. “Date?”
He goes still.
Then he flashes a grin. “I mean, unofficially. But yes. Obviously. What did you think this was, a sibling errand run?”
Your cheeks burn trying to hide your feelings. You reach for your drink to hide it.
But Sunoo watches you over the rim of his own cup. And for the first time tonight, his smile is slow. Soft.
Almost serious.
Later, when it's quiter, most people have wandered inside for warmth. You and Sunoo sit side by side on the edge of the rooftop, legs dangling, your jacket zipped up to your chin.
He speaks first.
“You know I always act like it’s just fun. Like I’m just here to be the mood maker.”
You glance at him. He’s not smiling now.
“But when I heard you were staying home alone, it kind of made my chest hurt.”
The wind hums. Your heart trips.
“I wasn’t trying to make you feel guilty,” he adds quickly. “I just… I don’t know. I wanted to be the reason you had a good night.”
You reach over and take his hand.
He stills.
“You are,” you whisper.
Then Sunoo turns toward you. And his voice is so small, so full of hope it makes you ache.
“Can I be the reason you start your new year smiling?”
Your lips part. Your pulse is loud in your ears.
You nod. "yes..."
And before you can say anything else, Sunoo leans in.
The kiss is sparkly. Bright. Like soda fizz on your lips. But underneath, it’s something steadier. Something that makes your fingertips curl and your breath catch.
When he pulls back, the countdown echoes from below.
“Ten! Nine! Eight—”
He smiles.
“I’m never letting you miss another New Year’s.”
You grin.
“Good. Because this one is kind of perfect.”
~ Yang Jungwon I You were going to let the year end quietly.
Everyone else had plans. Your brother had vanished hours ago with a quick, distracted, “Be back after midnight.” Your friends were all over your feed, arms looped around each other in selfies, sparklers and laughter lighting up the screen not even bothering to invite you to any of the activities.
But you had tea, a warm blanket, and a romance book that hadn’t been touched since summer. That was enough. Or so you thought.
Until your doorbell rings at 8:37 PM.
You hesitate, frowning. You weren’t expecting anyone.
When you open it, Jungwon is standing there, black scarf tucked up to his nose, dark hair messy from the wind.
Your heart drops into your stomach.
"...What are you doing here?"
He blinks. “Your brother told me you were home.”
You narrow your eyes. “And you thought…what? You’d drop by?”
He shifts awkwardly. “He left his speaker in my car. I came to drop it off but he’s not answering.”
You lean against the doorframe, arms crossed. “So? Give it to me already.”
He nods. But he doesn’t hand it over. He doesn’t move at all.
You raise a brow. “Jungwon?”
He stares at you like you’re the question to a riddle he still doesn’t know how to solve. “Can I come in?”
Your mouth goes dry. “…Why? Jay isnt home yet.”
A pause.
“Because if I leave now, I don’t think I’ll ever get the chance to say it.”
The air crackles.
You look at him. And your chest tightens.
Because the last time you saw Jungwon, he was standing just like this: caught in your doorway in July, the night everything between you shifted and neither of you knew how to handle it.
He’d almost kissed you. You’d almost let him.
Then the spell had broken. And so had the closeness.
You hadn’t spoken since.
You step aside.
He walks in.
You're curled on the floor, across from each other, the speaker untouched beside the door. There’s music playing faintly from your phone now, something ambient and slow.
Jungwon leans back on his hands, staring at the ceiling like he’s waiting for a sign.
Finally, he says, “I thought maybe if I stayed away long enough, it’d go away.”
You don’t need to ask what it is.
“…Did it?” you whisper.
He turns to you slowly.
“No.”
You exhale shakily. Your fingers tighten around your tea mug.
“I hated you for not calling or even checking up on me,” you admit.
“I hated me for freezing that night.”
The silence between you stretches and deepens, until it begins to crack.
He shifts closer. Your knees bump.
“I kept thinking about the way you looked at me then,” he says, voice softer now. “Like you wanted me to be brave.”
You nod. “I did.”
He swallows. “Would it be too late if I was brave now?”
You lift your eyes to his.
The tension in the room is almost unbearable. It’s not loud. It’s quiet, fragile, like glass about to tip off a ledge. And you know—you know—if you say yes, nothing will be the same.
But wasn’t that the whole point of a new year?
You reach for his hand. You don’t say anything.
But you don’t have to.
Because he’s already leaning forward, forehead brushing yours. The fireworks outside begin early, distant and crackling like the sound of breaking ice.
And in the quiet between each boom, he whispers,
“Can I start the year with you?”
And this time, you don’t flinch when he kisses you.
~ Nishimura Riki I You were supposed to be at your cousin’s house.
That was the plan. Movies, food, sparkler photos for Instagram. But then your aunt got the flu, the gathering was canceled, and your brother left early for the New Year’s Eve carnival downtown with his friends.
So here you are.
Alone on the balcony of your apartment in a too-big hoodie and thermal socks, with a half-drunk soda and a heart full of complicated feelings.
The city lights blink lazily below you, quiet in their own way, like they know you’re not in the mood to be comforted.
A rock hits the balcony railing.
You flinch, nearly spilling your drink. You lean forward to see what lunatic is chucking things at your building.
It’s Ni-ki.
Your brother’s youngest friend.
Wearing a bomber jacket, standing in the dark just under the streetlamp, with one gloved hand raised like he’s not entirely sure why he’s here either.
" What the hell, Niki? You could’ve texted," you call down.
"Would you have come?"
You pause.
He smirks. "Exactly."
You sigh.
Then you go back inside, grab your coat, and meet him at the front door.
The walk is quiet for a while. The air is biting, but he brought you hot cocoa in a to-go cup from the shop near the station. It’s too sweet, but you don’t say anything.
"Did you get dragged into this?" you finally ask.
"What, spending New Year’s with you?"
You glance at him. "Yea."
He shakes his head. "I volunteered."
Your stomach does that thing it does whenever Niki says something you don’t know how to process.
"Why? What am i charity?"
"Because," he says, not looking at you, "you looked sad yesterday."
You stop walking.
He keeps going for a few paces before realizing.
When he turns back, your voice is barely above a whisper. "You noticed huh?"
Niki shoves his hands in his pockets. There’s snow in his hair now, catching on the top of his tall figure.
"I always notice."
You can’t speak.
He looks away. "I know I’m not your favorite person. But I thought maybe—"
"You are," you interrupt.
He goes still.
You bite your lip. "You are my favorite person. That’s the problem."
He takes a slow step toward you. "Why is that a problem?"
Because it makes everything harder.
Because you see him laughing with your brother and feel like the ghost in the room. Because he’s always been just out of reach too young, too distant, too unknowable.
But tonight he’s here. And the cold bites less when he’s looking at you like that.
"Come on," he says finally. "I want to show you something."
He takes you to the rooftop of an old parking structure. You protest the entire time up the stairs, but he insists.
When you step out onto the roof, the entire skyline is spread before you. Lanterns drift above the buildings, delicate and glowing, and you can hear the hum of music from blocks away.
"We used to come here when I was in middle school," Ni-ki says. "Before anyone could afford festival tickets. We’d sneak up and watch the fireworks from here."
You look over at him.
His eyes are trained on the sky, like he’s lost in a memory.
"I haven’t brought anyone up here since then."
Your heart thuds.
"Why me?"
He finally looks at you. Snowflakes dance between you.
"Because I wanted this year to end with you."
The tension is sudden and absolute.
You’re standing so close now. Closer than you’ve ever been. The tips of your fingers ache with the urge to reach for him.
He takes a shallow breath. "Can I tell you something?"
You nod.
"I think I like you. Heck maybe im in love with you"
Time stops.
You whisper, "There’s no such thing."
He steps forward. One hand reaches for yours. His fingers are freezing but sure.
"Then can I do something stupid before the year ends?"
You don't answer. You lean in.
His kiss is hesitant, reverent. Like he doesn’t believe this is real. Like if he moves too fast, the dream will shatter.
When you pull away, the first firework cracks above you. You both look up, faces lit by pink and gold.
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ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁
oh im no longer a kid

song 6: kids by current joys
rafe x maybank!reader
summary: the pogues leave you in charge of the store on their dock while they go make a deal with a crazy man over treasure.
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You were sitting at the counter of the little charter shack on the dock, your feet up on the counter as you scrolled through your phone. You were picking which sublime song to play in spirit of being a beach bum today.
Your head was pounding from drinking all night at Rafe's party but you sipped from a pacifico to "soothe" that hangover.
You looked up from your phone seeing a pretty big boat pull up to the dock. You sighed, taking your feet off the counter to stand up.
You sat back down with an eyeroll the moment you saw who was getting off the boat. None other than Rafe and Topper.
Rafe walked up to you with a smile, and Topper looked annoyed with a frown on his face. Rafe walked up to the cash register while Topper stayed a few feet away so you couldn't touch him. As if you'd want to.
You rolled your eyes and looked at Rafe. "What do you two want?" Your voice had a joking tone in it.
"Came to see you." He said with a smirk, Topper rolling his eyes behind him.
"Oh? Yeah seems like you've been trying to see me a lot lately." You took a sip of your beer and placed your phone onto the counter. "You got a crush or something, Mr. Cameron."
Rafe smiled and shrugged his shoulders. "A crush? Never, Mrs. Maybank." His tone was sarcastic, leaning closer on the counter. It sounded like some inside joke they had but you had made it up out of thin air.
"So what are you really here for?" You interrogated, standing up from the chair. "Come to a Top's party with me?" Rafe asked almost timidly.
Topper scrunched his eyebrows, stepping closer. "Are you serious, Rafe? You're letting this pogue come to my party when she put a gun to your throat?"
You scoffed, stepping in before Rafe could even open his mouth. "Oh hell no. I don't even want to come to your fucking party."
Rafe looked between you and Topper before speaking up. "Topper I'm over that, it doesn't matter. Me and her are cool."
You muttered under your breath, "yeah define cool..." Rafe heard you but he just looked at you weird then turned back to Topper.
"If she brings a gun into my house though i'm calling the cops on her." Topper said agreeing reluctantly just because he knew Rafe wasn't giving up on this.
You shook your head. "Yeah don't even worry about that, I'm not coming."
Rafe turned back to you, "C'mon please, when do you get off?" You sighed and checked the time. 6:17pm.
Okay, you'd been there for 8 hours so you'd probably be fine if you left. Plus you didn't have anyone else to drink with since literally everyone left you alone.
"Fine. I can go." You flipped the sign at the front and locked the door to the store and then Rafe helped you onto Topper's boat. He was boasting about how much of a gentleman he was, which made you want to shove him off the boat.
As you were sitting on this rich assholes boat, the rich asshole decided to get smart with you. Topper was driving the boat when he looked dead at you. "My family's gonna take your brothers land."
You let out a harsh laugh, genuinely thinking hes joking. "Yeah right, JJ doesn't let shit stop him." Topper just scowled and continued. "No, the zoning is gonna be changed and you loose your free place to stay."
Rafe looked at Topper, genuinely surprised. "Top what the hell?" He stood up, shaking his head rapidly.
You rolled your eyes at Rafe trying to stand up for you. You stood up walking over to Topper, fully intending to hit him. Then Rafe grabbed your wrist pulling you back because he knew exactly what you were about to do.
You looked back at him, trying to pull yourself out of his grip but he just pulled you back to sit down next to him. You looked at him with a scowl on your face.
"Don't do anything stupid. I'll fix it." Rafe said, patting your back and you slapped his hand away.
He put his hands up, not letting that deter him. He was smiling at you.
You pulled up to the 'party' which looked more like a kook frat party. Beer pong and only around 30 people so it seems relatively exclusive.
Rafe grabbed your hand to help you off the boat and you jumped off the boat without his help. He just followed you into the party like he wasn't even phased by your blatant rejection.
He walked in and straight over to the beer pong, while you went to get a drink from the coolers. You loved rich person alcohol, only thing good about them.
You downed a shot of vodka and picked up a mai tai. You walked over to Rafe who was talking to Topper.
You walked up to them but stopped when you heard what someone behind you said.
"Do you remember Sheriff Peterkin? His dad shot her." You glanced at the girl, then back at Rafe who was now turned around.
He didn't even look at you for a second, angry eyes locking onto the bitch talking shit. "What did you just say?"
He walked closer to the girl, and you didn't stop him yet. "You got something to say? Hey listen--" He was cut off by her boyfriend shoving him back, which meant you probably should stop it there.
You sighed, pulling Rafe back by his wrist as he continued talking about them spewing bullshit "You got something to say, say it to my face. DOES EVERYONE GOT THAT?" He was yelling now, glaring directly at the two shit talkers.
He only now glanced at you and you pulled him back harshly and pulling him outside.
Rafe was angry, that much was obvious. "Fuck! Why did you hold me back?" You just stared at him. "Well you can't bail yourself out of jail, Rafe."
His scowl curled up into a smile as he moved his gaze from the ground to you with a giggle at your joke. "You're funny. It's just-- I don't like when people talk about my dad. I know he did.. some stuff that maybe people wouldn't approve of but so have I. Shit.. I'm turning out exactly like him." You listened to Rafe rambling on about his dad.
"You're not like your dad, Rafe." You said with a shrug, leaning on the wall. "You didn't even know my dad." He countered.
"I've heard things." You said simply. He sighed and nodded, "Yeah."
"Yeah." You said back, still staring right into his soul. He knew exactly what you meant.
"So you know about.. everything." He tried to confirm. "I know you kill--." He immediately put his hand over your mouth to get you to shut up.
"Don't fucking say that out loud." He warned, way too close. "Get off of me before I scream it." You said grabbing his hand, raising your eyebrows and then pushing him back. The push was more soft than when you shoved him down before.
There was a beat of silence before you spoke up.
"I don't blame you." You said simply, sighing as you tried to explain yourself. "I'd have killed anyone if it was JJ."
He nodded, "Yeah obviously." He gestured to himself. "Fuck you." You said with a laugh and he laughed too.
He looked at you, his face turning more serious. "Do you think I'm a bad person for it?" You shook your head almost immediately. "No, you're a product of your environment. So am I."
"Y'know you're actually not that bad for a pogue." He said with a wide grin on his face. "And you're not too bad for kook." You said, smirking up at him.
Maybe you and him weren't nearly as different as you thought you were.
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Rafe dropped you off back at the pogues and you walked in to see them all standing at the table looking at a computer screen.
"Hey, uhm.." JJ said, noticing you as you walked closer.
"What's going on?" You asked confusedly. JJ looked over at you. "We're gonna go look for blackbeard's treasure tomorrow. A lost amulet that apparently fixes curses and removes ghosts." JJ was playing up the story for suspense.
Cleo quickly clarified for him, "Some crazy guy wants us to find a necklace from blackbeard's ship to solve what he thinks is a 300 year old ghost cursing his family."
You nodded, "Right.. what happened to living a normal life instead of searching for treasure?"
Pope spoke up without hesitation. "We need the money." Your conversation with Topper, he was planning to take the land from the pogues.
You nodded and shrugged, "What the hell, whats the worst thing that could happen?"
"Dying." They all said in unison. "Right.." You repeated.
"Well, i'm happy to help. Nothing to loose, right Jay?" You said, glancing at your brother. He nodded wrapping an arm around your shoulders. "Nothing to lose."
John B shook his head, "Nah, this time we have everything to lose." You sighed and tilted your head at him. "Total buzzkill, JB."
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"Imagine still posting fanart a whole year after the game came out" brother what are you talking about
#the fandoms seem ti be moving on so fast what is this#im staying here for a while but what the hell#fandom rant#bg3
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redraw of a piece i did about two years ago!! it's cool to see how much my artstyle has changed since then!
(og under the cut)

#tobsart#artists on tumblr#xornoth#empires smp#empires smp s1#empires s1#empires s1 fanart#empires xornoth#he is like. my favourite guy i have so many headcanons for him.#the reasoning he has an ace pride flag in the newer one is bc. 1: the version from my current tumblr pfp has an ace pride flag#2: i hc him as aroace just bc he has the ace colours and is also my favourite guy so i blasted him with the aroace beam#(ik there's a different flag for that but the ace flag matches his colours ok?) (also sorry joey x xornoth shippers just my hc)#3: it's pride month. you know what that means#(secret 4th reason: i have died for motivation except for like. empires and my characters. and also i can't draw kissing methinks#so fwhimmy or ranchers or my other ships are maybe out of the question alas :pensive:)#anyways im hyped that my artstyle has changed so much#my artstyle looks kinda nicer but also it's just really interesting.#when i first started posting drawings online i was usually drawing like. with my mouse pad or on my phone#which was hell.#so it's so cool to see that combined with like. general art improvement.#i am changing my pfp on my main to this probably#not here tho i love silver too much to replace him with anything other than himself.#i only have like. 3 silver drawings anyways so like. he's probably staying for a while o7
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i think the real reason im reluctant to read tbc is because i dont think i could bear to read a dark forest/starclan possession arc that doesnt give a shit about dovewing or ivypool beyond “oh shes the protags mom i guess… look at how important the dads are tho omg!!!!!”
#im sorry why the hell is tigerheartstar more relevant to tbc than his protagonist starclan puppet wife from what ive seen#and her only relevance is apparently just getting exiled for a bit or something??#like ok i know hes the leader so he has to be relevant but like. dovey should be the main parent here right??#honestly its a good thing the books didnt follow up on fernsong being an uwu stay at home dad#bc if he got more relevance via erin hunter vaguely gesturing ‘’loooook we are progressive yeah sure here is slop#‘’#while ivypool is just kinda There then id be throwing rocks bc thats stupid#‘’oh you dont know that wouldve happened’’ well it happened w violetshine didnt it. i hear more abt trees fuckery than anything abt her#does she literally do anything in tbc bc i literally only heard that she double kills darktail#which. good for her im glad she got that moment!! but like. what else
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can someone nice (!!) please please please adopt me im begging you im requesting you (huge word vomit and vent in tags, pls dont read if u dont want to!! and if you don't want this stuff on this blog PLS lmk!! i dont wanna make anyone uncomfy! )
#tw vent#yes ik i have a vent blog#but idk why i dont wanna go there#ill prolly delete this in a while + if i vent here (which ill try not to) ill always tag it#but if any of yall aren't fine with it pls do lmk!!! ill stop <3#Anyways.#fucking hell i hate this.#dude#i very specifically told them to hurry the fuck up THEY were the ones making us late#i have told them a hundred times the minimum time i jeed to get ready#i told them this morning too that you guys make us late then put it all on me#nad she went like oh no dear dont worry that wont happen#WELL GUESS WHAT BITCH#and like the lecture and huge ass scolding and then cold shouldet ive been getting from BOTH of them before i left for coachinh#im just tired atp#idk its not even that big a deal this happens everyday#i dont know how to feel#idk if im even rly feeling anything atp#its just that i really fucking hate being here#I wanna get the fuck out#but thing is this makes me feel kinda guilty occasionally#for eg a few days ago i was rly sick and she took care of me kinda#and then that made me feel bad for hating her#but then things like this happen and i cant help it and i feel so conflicted#i dont want to stay here i know that for sure but i feel guilty for it#if i speak im being rude and backtalking#if i dont speak im being rude and ignoring#the fuck am i supposed to do????#she always tells me to 'stay silent and just hear it'#and when i do that she keeps shouting again and again and finally i say smth bc although its extremely fucking dumb of me to open my mouth
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hi i am not dead 👍
#i am SO sorry for the sudden long as fuck hiatus. the mental illness + constant stress events combo has been Something#i think im back now i think we're good . if i disappear again someone yell at me#at first i genuinely did just need a break bc the class i was taking required literally every waking moment to not fail#and after a few months of that i was like. very very dead#and i kept telling myself id be fine after that and uh. well!#i wonder if seaonal depression was a factor. never rly considered it but what the hell was that#part of it was also outside circumstances tho. that i have very little power in#and that mixed w my already suffering mental health means that i had zero energy to do literally anytging social#im sorry for all the birthdays ive missed :']#among other things thatve happened#i have been lurking for a good while but tthat was mostly just me liking posts as like a. hello i am here/i see whats going on rn#but i feel better now for the most part#activity might stay on tumblr for now tho. altho i have been wanting to properly set up my bsky#i have not looked at discord since the hiatus started but i know i have dms on there..#and i ahve a few on here#ill get to them when i can :')#as for what ive been up to. besides the mental illnessing#sonic hyperfixation 👍 ive played thru a lot of the games these past months to keep myself sane#not ythe movies. remembered the boycott and also have no interest in them knowing what the ppl who made them stand for#ive actually been working on a silly lil slideshow review thing for the games ive beaten#bc i havent been able to talk to literally anyone except my brother abt them. i NEED to yap or ill die#i have. so many thoughts. games good#the cats have also been a saving grace for me.. oh and the twins have grown a lot since ive last posted abt them#ill share pics of them later :] theyre vv silly. sunny is too per usual
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fucked medical things because im losing my mind i cant tag it all so watch outtttt especially my IS muts ily
insane how that's also assumedly factoring in that i gave them legal permission to bring in a bunch of me/d students who are going to both observe me and also like. touch me. go inside of me. the parts of me they're taking out are going to be studied in a lab because i am an "outlier" (read: Special Freak) but i still have to pay them over $6k for all of this and they know i will because the alternative is Death. why
#dis.txt#buffer tag im screaming aaaaaah#its fucked no matter what but specifically in my case i think i am allowed to be going crazy biting the dry wall and shit mad as hell#literally you should be paying ME for my parts and my time. you are a research hospital. you are research doctors#I AM THE STATISTICALLY RARE GUY YOU RESEARCH YOU BRING AT LEAST 3 PPL IN THE ROOM WHEN I COME IN#but nooooo i gotta pay You. for the honor of being basically assaulted#at least im maybe going to be a number in a paper citation or something that might vaguely help someone#btw when people are like ''you saying this is insulting to what IS ppl go thru medically'' most of us are talking about shit like this#and i'm not allowed to really have emotions about it i just have to get it all financed on a payment plan and then knowingly walk in there#like heyyyy yeah knock me out and then rummage around in there while i am asleep and defenseless! i signed away my legal rights!#please help me not die! god i fucking hate everything#will i be able to get the number down. probably. but it should nt be that fucking high for anyone#im a massive outlier in the sense tht i can isolate and bust my ass on that. but i am blessed by having hassle-able insurance-#and a brain that can do paperwork and phonecalls. but noy everyone can. but i shouldnt have to. none of us should#and if things weren't so fucked i Would just take the cheaper option of traveling but TRAVEL IS FUCKED#so if i leave i need to be able to stay wherever indefinitely and i just don't know anyone who could help with that#its so fucking hard not to just die. im going to go get high as shit fuck the entire medical system here forever and ever and ever amen
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my biggest lifehack for adhd is playing joseph joestars theme on loop loudly in my headphones when i work
#TRUST ME OK#i just finished all my work for today in 1 hour. i have to sit here at my computer for another 7 hours without anything to do now#the logic behind it is you need some music without actual lyrics to think about but the song needs to be kinda loud and energizing#like the music in the middle of a battle#cause it makes ur brain hyped and focused as if youre about to be in a plane crash or some shit#distract the adhd in your brain with that feeling and then the rest of your brain does the work quickly and focused#ta da#yapping#and any song like this works obviously i think boss fight songs from video games are probably ideal for this#but obv i will go for overdrive hehe im biased as hell#i also feel like ive conditioned myself at this point to get into the zone while this plays#...also the song has to loop i feel like the repetitiveness of it is what makes it work i dont think i could switch between a bunch of songs#cause i play “overdrive best part extended 1 hour” from youtube on loop#and i think the fact its repetitive and has no break is what keeps me going and i stay hyperfocused#ill be writing a proffessional email to some big shots assistant while mouthing to myself “coming through coming through coming through now”#hehe
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overstimulating joel until he cums. again.
content: oral (m receiving), joel is 61 and has a hard time keeping up with his much younger girlfriends sex drive, use of daddy, slight dubcon
a/n: this is how im choosing to cope with this scene, okay? i can’t help that he looks hot as fuck.
joel was too worn out to move.
chest heaving, mouth quivering, all he could do was lay there and watch you take from him.
you were such a greedy lil’ thing, one round was never enough. so eager and needy. always wanting more, like you wouldn’t last a day without his cock.
he kept up with you as best as he could for a man his age, making sure to stay in shape so he that maintained his stamina, but it only got him so far.
it was a guilty reminder— he was old. you were young. nothin’ he could change about that. he already ran through the small supply of viagra he was able to get ahold of weeks ago, which left him at your mercy.
even after a long day of patrol he came home and fucked you every night, just like you wanted. what was left of his energy he thrusted deep into your cunt with his seed to prove it, giving you a kiss on the cheek before pulling out and turning onto his back to go to sleep.
it had been a while since you went down on him. he didn’t have much control on when or how often he got hard, so when he was he used those moments inside of you.
except joel didn’t realize how much you missed him in your mouth, so badly that you needed it.
as he rolled off of you to his side of the bed, you noticed how his cock was flushed— coated with your juices and his cum. he was softening but stayed big, thick in girth with graying hairs at the base.
he didn’t have the chance to recover before you had his cock in your hand, sitting on your knees and holding him straight as you licked the shaft.
“baby… what’re y’doin?” he asked timidly, still attempting to control his breaths from cumming just a minute or two prior. you simply responded with a hum, looking up at him through your lashes as you swirled your tongue— tasting yourself on him.
you placed a kiss on his tip, his cock reacting with a throb that pulsed in your grasp. “alright, that’s enough.” he spoke low, a quavering warning for you to stop— but his tone lacked in confidence.
“let me have this, daddy.” as if he had a choice.
you took him into your mouth, lips curling around his cock as you watched his face twist from the sensation.
fucking hell, you were going to be the death of him.
he clenched his jaw, teeth grinding while he tried to hold himself back— hold you back. he pushed at your head, attempting to shove you with what little control he had left, but you didn’t budge. you only went further, inching his cock deeper down your throat. he was forced into submission.
joel was so sensitive that he whined from the mix of pain and pleasure, the line blurring the more you swallowed him. “i don’t have anythin’ left in me, honey... gave you of it already.” he told you slow, his voice trembling.
you moaned in defiance, mouth stuffed full of his length. you brought a free hand to his balls, giving them a gentle squeeze which made him nearly whimper. you pull away, spit dribbling from the corners of your lip. “can feel that you still got some in here, just gotta get it out, daddy. it’ll feel so much better.”
he clenched his jaw, teeth grinding together as you continued to suck him— bobbing at a teasing speed while you massaged the rest of his length at the same time. he twitched his hips, his body defying his words.
it felt so good that it was hurting him. your throat was beginning to burn due to lack of recent experience, but you were determined for it.
“just couldn’t wait, huh? so cock drunk that y’had to use your old man like this, knowin’ im vulnerable?” you nodded, that familiar ache in your core returning.
he was thinking of all the ways to punish you once you were done— ready to spank you until you cried, maybe edge you if he was feeling mean. he would find a way to make you pay.
joel was determined to give you one more load since you went through all of this to get it. he couldn’t disappoint his girl.
he was so numb that he couldn’t even feel himself getting ready to cum, his eyes glossy and in a state of haze at the sight of you drooling on his thighs.
the warm, soft flesh of your cheeks hollowing in on him brought him to his release, spilling hot, creamy ropes on the pad of your tongue. whenever you thought he was done it didn’t stop— drops still leaking out after you finished.
“better lick me dry honey. since you wanted it so damn bad.”
#joel miller#joel miller smut#joel miller drabble#joel miller x y/n#joel miller x you#joel miller one shot#joel miller fic#joel miller x reader#old!joel miller
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also gonna be soooo insane for a minute re:prev post. not me looking at the helsinki gp like 👀 and going hmmmmm 👀
#i MAYBE will be acting so unwise when i finally get my residence permit from an eu country like#girl where's the money. yes you can now go to other countries but money where#also time where too probably........ but it's a future problem#🗒#also i say/think all this but i would feel way too guilty to actually spend money on 'not essential' stuff there lmao#especially since im already feeling guilty abt Still not getting any scholarships or anything#literally . worst person ever award for me for wanting to study abroad in this economy . i suck#but in the long run it will be fineeeee we all gotta escape this hell somehow#sometimes i think abt and like aw maybe it wouldnt be So Bad to stay here huh#but then it feels so overwhelmingly. suffocating#feels wrong to let go of this chance when i have it. but also makes me feel extremely guilty#bc like. what's so special abt me why do i get to do this selfishly asking support from my family#while they're still here and im there and . you know it feels so selfish but i Am always a little selfish#and . i shouldn't think too much abt it#anyway today my friend asked me if i ended up staying there and we were both 30 and she was still here#would i marry her to get her a citizenship too and sjjsjejejrjfuekkskdufuf#yeah i should stop feeling guilty and start feeling thankful that i can try this experience ............#it's tru actually. never thought abt it like that i guess....#still feels like somehow impossible that i Will actually get this experience like lmfao#i should probably sleep
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release

<Caleb x fem!reader>
where both you and Caleb end up doing more than butt heads about his given curfew for you.
genre/warnings: smut, pwp, mutual pinning, mutual obsession & possession, jealous!Caleb breeding kink, multiple orgasms, a lot of cum..., perverted!MC, friends to lovers?, squirting, unprotected sex, morning sex, pure Caleb brain rot, it gets pretty nasty
a/n: Caleb, Caleb, CALEB XIA YIZHOU 😭😭 the way I've been giggling over Caleb while watching his story and going back to my home screen with Sylus looking at me with his arms crossed.... Anyway, enjoy this Caleb brain rot 🥹🩷 I'll do one with Caleb's military air force uniform when I can 😔🫡
I JUST SAW THE NEW BANNER DROP IM NOT OK IF ANYONES WONDERING.
w/c: 3.5K
Effortless. That is what Caleb feels like when his affections come to you. It bubbles and boils over when he thinks he's able to put a lid over it, and it overflows instead. It leaves him so defenseless. Yet, he can't seem to stop. It's the only thing that keeps him going in this hell.
The only thing he feels is the metallic necklace barely weighing on his chest. It almost feels like you're here with him.
And if you are, he wants to keep you here with him. Forever.
His eyes slowly open. His eyes focus on the hologram clock hovering at the side.
You're supposed to be back already.
Caleb contemplated on driving out to find you since he has your location pinging on his phone.
Since when did you have that many friends in Skyhaven? Why doesn't he know about them?
He checks the messages he's sent you, all unread.
Caleb has to remind himself to stop clenching his jaw and biting his tongue.
His stare towards the door grows anxious by the minute. Then he strengthens his resolve and marches towards the door, ready to leave and look for you.
The second he pulls down the door handle, the jingle of the door unlocking from the outside sounds and the door swings open, making you and Caleb jump when he catches you in his arms from bumping into each other.
“Caleb!” You squeal, flustered at the way you completely ran into him. His warmth is radiating over to your skin. “Are you okay? Where were you gonna go?”
You watch a small pout form on his lips. He truly looks like a puppy when he does that, you can't help but think.
“Look for you”, he curtly replies, making sure you've regained your balance before he releases your arms.
You straighten your posture, and sheepishly touch the nape of your neck, immediately avoiding his gaze.
“Ah, right. Well, I got carried away with chatting with my friends and all…”
Caleb crosses his arms. His pout turns into a frown, and his eyebrows are scrunched.
Shit. He looks mad.
You inch closer to him, your fingers grazing over his knuckles.
“I'm sorry, Caleb. Don't be mad okay? I'm home now, safe and sound, in the flesh, aren't I?”
Caleb breathes steadily, keeping his expression the same, but when you take his palm and nuzzle your cheek against it, Caleb feels the anxiety and frustration dissolve. He wants to reprimand you about the curfew, and why he implemented it in the first place. If you’ve stayed missing for a second longer, he would have completely lost it. But the moment his palm nearly touches your lips, it all dissipates, as if it never existed.
Caleb exhales a sigh of defeat, letting it go just this time, alongside the countless times he did.
“Go shower. I left the heater on for you.”
You respond with a cheeky smile that makes something in Caleb’s chest bloom, and he lets you go, watching you disappear into your room.
Caleb hears a knock on his door. He walks over and opens it, watching you coming into view.
“Is there something you need, pipsqueak?”
You squeeze through the crack of the partially opened door and occupy his bed.
“I'm just bored.”
Even though Caleb cocks his eyebrow, he still sprouts his smile, walking over to join you on his bed.
“Not because you're trying to make it up to me for coming back past curfew?”
Shit.
Your smile playfully drops to a pout. “I got carried away yapping with my friends. You know I didn't mean to…”
Caleb crosses his arms again.
“I could tell. My messages were all left unread.”
You curl your fingers to your lips when you realise you've been caught.
Caleb seems upset but you still see the softness beneath.
He sighs.
“I'm doing this for your own good, pipsqueak. I don't like you getting caught up in this.”
Caleb likes to think that it is that way, but he knows that it's more than just that.
“As you can tell–” you’re showing off your body–your arms first then your legs, then your abdomen. But what Caleb didn't expect you to do was lift up your shirt slightly, your skin exposed, and have your shorts hike up your thighs, just to prove your point. “Nothing! You can check me for tracking devices too if you want to.”
Something snaps in him.
“So do you let your friends inspect your body like that?”
He crawls onto the bed, watching the smile slowly drop from your face.
Caleb’s fingers trace your bare skin, drawing goosebumps from how ghostly the touches feel. His fingers slide from the top of your knees, and towards your thighs.
“Do you know how worried I was when you didn't answer my messages?”
You’re about to part your lips to respond, but he cuts you off.
“I was wondering what conversations you were having that you ignored me.”
“Caleb–”
He’s completely trapped you against the headboard of his bed. He's trapped you with his stare.
Caleb inches closer, until he's close enough. His eyes glance down to your lips for a split second before his gaze meets yours again.
Your breath is shaky when he leans in closer.
Then he turns away.
What the fuck?
You watch in disbelief as he pulls away, your breath still caught in your throat from the tension.
Caleb’s signature smile returns and you feel his palm stroke the back of your head.
“You should go back to bed. It's late.”
He turns to open his door for you to leave.
“Maybe I should start coming home later too.”
He pauses in his steps.
“I don't think that's a bright idea, pipsqueak.”
You slide off his bed and walk towards his door.
“Maybe not. But I have brighter ones that consist of escaping your curfew.”
You’re ready to leave the room with your victory, that is, until the door before you completely shuts. You see his shadow tower over you from behind.
You turn to face Caleb, your arms are crossed.
“Didn’t you ask me to go to bed?”
“Changed my mind. I wanna make sure you're thoroughly inspected.”
You’re facing Caleb, back on his bed again. He starts with your face, but he lets his fingers linger around your lips, brushing across your bottom lip. You turn away, and his fingers catch your chin, forcing you to face Caleb.
“No looking away.”
His eyes are devouring every patch of skin that exists on your body. Even though you're clothed, you feel naked when he has his eyes on you this intensely. His fingertips trace back to your lips and he slides it down painfully slowly–past your chin, down your neck, through your sternum, past your stomach, and stops right above the elastic of your shorts.
You want to shift, but you realise you can't–your body suddenly feels weighed down to the bed, and that's when you realise Caleb has you held down with his Evol.
The softness in Caleb’s eyes disappears, and something else replaces it. You watch him tug your shorts off you, and all you can do is watch helplessly.
His kisses tickle from your ankle, and he builds them upwards at an agonising pace, each kiss feeling warmer as he travels up your thigh.
Your heartbeat only accelerates from there, watching Caleb inch closer and closer to your cunt. Your thighs tense up from the sensitivity, the warmth of his lips spreading over your skin when you feel his tongue come in contact with your skin.
“That tickles”, your voice is soft, as if the defiance in your tone before never existed.
Caleb’s lips press against your clothed pussy. Despite the fact that you’re trembling slightly, you've completely soaked your panties, and Caleb is more than happy to soak them even more.
He buries his tongue, wetting the fabric even further. The pleasure draws soft moans, but evidently, it's not enough.
“Caleb… Could you lighten your Evol?” You plead. You want to feel him so bad.
Your body instantly lightens, and you almost think you're gonna fall off the bed.
Something else holds you down this time, and it's Caleb.
He tilts your chin up to have your lips meet his, now his kisses melting off the thoughts in your brain. Warmth burns through your skin. It takes you seconds to realise Caleb is lifting your shirt off you.
The clothing article is the next victim tossed somewhere else on the bed.
You take his cheeks to your palms.
“I really need you now, Caleb.”
The softness returns to his eyes momentarily.
“Are you sure you're okay with this?”
“I'll hop off right now and head straight to bed if you don't”, you huff. Fuck, the anticipation is just clawing through your insides, begging for Caleb to do something.
He playfully scoffs.
“We both know you wouldn't.”
Caleb tugs your panties to the side, and lines himself to your hole.
He thrusts into you in one swift motion, and you feel it all the way in. It knocks your breath out of you. Caleb watches you helplessly gasp for air and adjust to his size. He’s just filled you so full.
He’s still supporting you so you don't fucking pass out. He feels you scratch all over his back from the pressure but he stays still, at least, until you've adjusted.
“Shit. You're so fuckin’ warm for me”, he hisses into your neck, trying his best not to thrust into you. You feel so tight for him, he feels so good just staying there.
He stretches you open for him–your pussy fluttering at the feeling of him filling you up. The pressure slowly fades and you quickly adjust to his size.
Your vision blurs when he thrusts into you from below–the sensation so overwhelming that it's making you tear up.
“So good”, you sigh, struggling to keep your eyes open–almost impossible when his cock is hitting your g-spot over and over again. Sparks burst into your eyelids whenever he hits the spot and it's evident that he knows he’s able to unravel you just like that, so easily.
“Caleb…”, you moan. Caleb’s still fucking you, feeling the way you're just squeezing him, watching the way your fingers have gone clawing his back to his bedsheets, the way your tits are bouncing from fucking you, the way your eyes practically form hearts when he knows he's hit your sensitive spots.
“Faster, please. You feel so fucking good.”
He knows you shouldn't have said that. You're the only person who can rile him up like this. How the hell are you making him break his resolve when he's supposed to be upset with you?
He leans in, practically hovering over you. His fingers cup your cheek and he forces you to meet his violet eyes.
In your fucked out haze, you blink, confused when he slows down. He pulls out completely, and you're about to complain until he rolls your soiled panties off your legs, tossing it to somewhere on the bed.
You gasp when you feel his thumb graze over your wet and throbbing clit.
“I'm gonna make you wonder what the fuck wrong with your body”, Caleb’s voice reaches your ears. His words sends a shiver down your spine.
“Your little pussy is gonna throb every time you think of me.”
That's all the warning he gives before his arms tower over you, holding your wrists down above your head.
He fucks you into an orbit and you're practically helpless–forced to take his thrusts over and over. But fuck, it feels so good. It feels like fucking heaven.
You like how dizzy it makes you feel. You like how he's not stopping, no matter how much tears stream down your face, and how pathetic you sound crying and moaning his name.
“Fuck! Caleb, it's too much–” you whimper, the strange feeling building up in your stomach. It feels like it's about to snap any second.
He acknowledges your words, but he doesn't bother slowing down.
“Didn’t you promise me to be a good girl and take all of it?”
“Caleb–!”
Your voice sounds so heavenly when you call his name.
The fluids fountains out of you, soaking everything near it's vincity–including the both of you. Your orgasm continues to wash over you and more fluids spray out.
Caleb watches you squirm and jolt while you make a mess all over him.
He lets go of your wrists, the slight redness forming onto your skin, and his thumb caresses your bottom lip.
Despite your arms feeling sore from resisting against his hold, you wrap them around his neck, pulling him close to catch his lips. He's taken back for a split second, but he returns the kiss, letting his soft moans drown into your lips while you clench around him.
When you both pull back, it's Caleb’s turn to have his eyes glazed and his cheeks dusted a soft shade of pink.
“y/n, if you keep doin’ that–fuck”, Caleb groans, his fingers closing into a fist against the sheets. His breath is shaky. The euphoria is threatening to spill over–the fact that you're trapping him in like this with you, just the two of you solely existing together right now–he could get high off this feeling. He doesn't need anything else.
“I'm so close. Shit.” You watch the bead of sweat trickle down his temple, down to his cheek, to his chin, and then it disappears into the mess the both of you made below.
Caleb’s voice makes you refocus on him.
His palm presses against your cheek again, his thumb brushing lightly on the corner of your lips.
“You're gonna take all of it like a good girl, yeah?”
You nod, almost too eagerly. Caleb can't help but think that your face after being fucked looks breathtakingly beautiful. It makes him want to hide you further. The world doesn't deserve someone like you.
He crashes his lips with yours, melting into the kiss while he pumps you full with his thick cum–making sure he has himself seated deep inside so nothing spills out. At least, not until he pulls out.
The high slowly descends, and the both of you are left panting, getting lost in each other’s eyes just for that moment before Caleb slowly pulls out.
Caleb then reaches for the glass of water perched on his nightstand to offer you. You take a good few sips of water, and hand it back to Caleb, who takes a couple of sips as well. He notices the way your cheeks are still flushed and that you're blinking more. He plants the empty glass onto the nightstand, ready to carry you to wash up and probably change the sheets after.
In a daze, you notice Caleb’s cum seeping out of your hole in small loads. You wet two fingers and slide them to your pussy–and you push the thick fluids back in, your body jolting in pleasure while you're pretty much fingering your pussy with Caleb’s cum.
Caleb swallows hard while he watches you pleasure yourself. He’s about to say something but you cut him off.
“Your cum keeps leaking out”, you point out, giving him the full view of your cum-soaked pussy. You look up at him with an innocent, poison-soaked gaze–your lashes wet and your thighs trembling from each time you feel his cum leak out of you.
“It’d be such a waste–”, you mutter, shivering one more time when your fingers fuck you again, the room only filled with your voice and the wet squelching sounds from your pussy.
“–if it doesn't stay inside.”
You barely have time to process what happens next. The next thing you knew, Caleb has your hands pinned above your head with one hand, and the other on your cheeks. His legs stop you from closing yours, and you feel his wet thickness hard once more, resting on your pubic bone.
“You know, pipsqueak”, his voice drops an octave lower. His voice is clear, and he makes sure you hear him. “It's okay to just ask for more.” His eyes reflect such a gorgeous shade of wild you've never seen before, and it looks fucking good on him.
No warnings–your cunt is just wet and sopping that Caleb stuffs you to fullness once more–you give up trying to keep your eyelids open, your mind only processing the way he’s fucking so deep into you again and again.
“You know I'll always give it to you.”
The way his fingers are cupping your cheeks stops you from answering. Well, he doesn't need a verbal response, especially not when you’re clenching him so fucking tight when your orgasm hits you for the…how many times was it now?
You feel stings that slowly dull around your shoulders and chest. The bites Caleb’s given you are as red as the ruby on his apple necklace.
The night is drowned with sounds and sensations of both you competing to send each other to the heavens.
What day is it now?
Caleb blinks his heavy eyelids open. He soaks in the atmosphere around him, and it doesn't take him long to realise that you're lying on his arm.
Thankfully, it's not numb. Your hair tickles his cheeks.
He notices the light peeking through his curtains. It's probably daytime.
Caleb presses his lips against the back of your head, while he pulls you closer. He almost jolts when he hears a soft moan coming from you.
For some reason, something feels funny.
He attempts to shift slightly, and realises the predicament–his dick is still hard as fuck, and he’s still nestled so fucking deep in you. Fuck. Did the both of you fall asleep mid-sex? The feeling bleeds into him again.
Are you even awake to realise this?
Caleb bites his inner cheek, the hardness only builds. Shit. Even after all of that, you're still this warm and tight?
He watches your breathing steadily.
He hooks your leg over his arm almost too easily, giving himself easier access to fuck you deeper. Your sleepiness is slowly dissipating, overtaken so fucking quick by the burning desire once more.
His thrusts bear slight friction at first, but somehow that only adds to the pleasure–the rawness, the fact that he's left a mess in you and kept that way, and that he gets to do it all over again in the morning.
“Ca…Caleb..!” You squeal, uselessly fisting the pillows while Caleb rails you from below.
“So perfectly warm for me, y/n”, his morning voice dousing you. He takes advantage to litter more bites to the back of your neck and shoulders, and spoils you with his strained moans when he reflects the way you whimper whenever he hits your sensitive spots.
You sheepishly bury your teary face into the pillows, and Caleb pushes himself impossibly deeper, forcing you to face him when you jolt in surprise. His violet eyes are eating you up. You hear his voice ring in your ears.
“Wanna make you cry more like this. You're so pretty when you cry when I'm splittin’ you open like this.”
More tears stream down your cheeks whenever your g-spot gets abused over and over. Caleb forces you to meet his gaze. His thrusts are slower, but harder.
“Shit, you're really gonna milk me dry, yeah?” Caleb hisses when he feels you flutter around him. Your cum is mixed with his, and drips down his cock, to his balls.
Caleb pulls you tighter, deepening the kiss one last time while he breeds you full over and over for nth time since the last night, devouring your whimpers when the words you muttered to him last night comes into memory. You're so dizzy with pleasure, and Caleb has stolen all of your breaths.
He finally pulls out, his cum endlessly drizzling out of your abused hole, and it almost sets him off again.
Nonetheless, he forces himself to get out of bed so he can get a towel and clean you up.
Another loving kiss he presses onto your temple.
“I'm gonna get a towel, pipsqueak.” His husky whispers send shivers down your body, and the warmth of his touch lingers on your thighs for a lot longer than you realise.
He leaves the bed for the bathroom.
You nuzzle into the pillows Caleb was just lying on, drowning yourself with his scent. The wetness that sticks between your legs–you can't tell if it's your fresh arousal or if it's his cum anymore.
Not that it mattered since steadying your breath when you realised he was still in you when you stirred before him to see what he'd do next, gave you such a big reward.
And you'd do it all over again. You would say things to get under his skin, just to get a rise out of him, just to keep his attention on you, always.
You wanted to keep his strained voice when he called your name, the way he looks at you with so much desperation when he breeds you full, in a bottle and store it for your perverted indulgence.
No one else needs to know that this part of Caleb exists, because he belongs to you.
The dim light catches your attention underneath the thick sheets. You take the device, unlocking the phone with your fingerprint.
6 missed calls.
You swipe them away. You shut off his phone.
He doesn't need to know.
He doesn't need to remember.
At least, not when he's with you.
#love and deepspace#l&ds smut#love and deep space smut#lads caleb#lads#l&ds x reader#l&ds caleb#love and deepspace caleb#lnds caleb#caleb#caleb x reader#caleb love and deepspace#xia yizhou#xia yizhou smut#love and deep space caleb#lnds smut#lnds x reader#loveanddeepspace#love and deep space#love and deepspace sylus#caleb x mc
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Bunny (P13)
Rafe Cameron x Maybank!Reader
summary: Struggling to keep her and JJ’s home afloat, Y/N turns to the only option that guarantees fast cash- stripping at a club on the Cut. But when Rafe Cameron catches her in the act, he sees the perfect opportunity to tighten his grip around her life.
a/n: Sorry for the cliff hanger guys- but here's the next bit and besides its not like I would leave it on a cliff hanger again- or would I..... ? heh
warnings: angst angst angst, violent behaviour, emotional distress, mentions of past trauma, alcohol, sad!rafe and sad!bunny, luke (he deserves a warning)
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The house was quiet and peaceful in a way that felt rare lately. Steam still curled faintly from the cracked bathroom door as Y/N padded barefoot through the hallway, the cotton hem of her oversized t-shirt brushing the tops of her thighs. It clung slightly to the damp warmth of her skin, fresh from the shower, the scent of vanilla soap still lingering on her. The shirt, one of her oldest and most worn-in, read 'There’s no place like the OBX!' in faded, peeling letters. The image of a cartoon sunset beneath the text was barely visible now, rubbed off from years of wear, but it was still her comfort shirt.
The evening had been calm. A rare exhale. She knew it was the right choice, not going to the party, instead choosing to stay at home. No JJ, no Rafe, no tension. Just her alone in the stillness of the house. She yawned softly as she made her way into the kitchen, the tiles cool under her feet. Her hand reached for the cabinet, grabbing a glass, then filled it halfway from the tap, the sound of water the only thing cutting through the silence.
Buzz. Buzz.
Her phone, face-down on the counter buzzed again. She frowned a little, setting the glass down with a small clink and reaching for it. When she turned it over, the lock screen was full, message after message.
Rafe
Rafe : Y/N m s sorry
Rafe : It was a mistake I didn mean iit
Rafe : Im sosorry forgive me
Rafe : Please it was ana ccident
Rafe : drunk an angry it just slipedout
She just stood there, blinking, bare feet rooted to the floor. What? Her thumb hovered over the screen as she scrolled back through the weird messages littering her screen, heart creeping higher into her throat. He hadn’t replied to her at all yesterday left her on read after she asked him the question which had been hanging over both of them for a while now. He'd ignored every message she sent and now this? What the hell was he talking about, it made no sense. Her brows knit as she stared at the screen, glass forgotten on the counter as she held the phone in two hands her thumbs typing out; What are you talk-
BANG
The sound of the front door slamming open ricocheted through the house like a shotgun blast. The walls trembled and the floor vibrated slightly beneath her bare feet. Her whole body jolted—glass on the counter rattling dangerously. Her blood ran cold. She'd not seen her dad in a few days and the possibility of his presence was in her mind, whispered in fear, a lifetime of instinct kicking in. But before panic could really settle, the door slammed shut again, the echo bouncing off every wall like a threat. She turned sharply, heart hammering in her chest and then there he was-
JJ?
Standing in the doorway, chest heaving, shoulders tense and strung tight like he could burst. His face was a mess- nose bloodied, dried and smeared to one side, his lip split, a red flush blooming across his cheek. His blond hair was sticking up in every direction under his crooked cap, disheveled like he’d just been through a war. His clothes hung raggedly on his body almost as though his t-shirt had been stretched out, and he was breathing heavy like he ran the whole way here. His eyes locked onto hers furious, hurt.
Betrayed
He stood there, breath ragged in his chest, eyes locked on her like he didn’t recognise the girl in front of him. Y/N stared back at him, frozen for a moment in the quiet hum of the kitchen. Her phone, still glowing with Rafe’s frantic texts, slipped from her fingers and landed back onto the counter with a soft thud. The sound felt loud in the silence. This was JJ, her kid brother who used to cry when he scraped his knees and she'd bandage them up pressing soft kisses over the bandaids. The boy she taught how to sneak out of the house quietly, her best friend since they were in diapers. Now he looked like someone she didn’t know- bloodied, breathless, and storm-eyed. She took a step around the kitchen island, slow and cautious, like she was approaching a wounded animal. She asked gently, her voice threading with worry, hand outstretched, ready to go to him,
“Are you okay- ”
“-were you pregnant?”
But JJ’s voice sliced through the air before she could take another step and she stopped dead in her tracks. Silence crashed between them. Her hand, still halfway out, dropped to her side like a weight and her stomach churned at the words passing his lips.
“What?”
Her voice was almost inaudible. Caught between panic and confusion, her breath hitched. JJ’s face twisted, all disbelief and frustration, and he took a harsh step forward, his voice louder now.
"Did you fucking get pregnant?"
Y/N blinked, wide-eyed, her lips parting like the words might come—but nothing did. Her body language screamed shock, but inside she was cracking open. Splitting down the middle. Her heart was racing now, mouth suddenly dry. “N-no,” she stammered, voice too quick and certainly too fragile.
“What-? No!”
But JJ wasn’t buying it. He whipped his cap off his head as he raked a hand through his hair, exhaling hard as he turned in a quick, agitated circle, the movement jerky with disbelief. His fingers clenched in his hair before he let them drop and he barked out—
“Don’t LIE to me!”
The words exploded out of JJ like a gunshot, and with it, his hand came down hard crack against the edge of the kitchen table. The slap of skin on wood echoed through the house like a warning sound. Y/N jumped, her breath catching violently in her chest. Her whole body flinched, jerking backward instinctively. Eyes wide, pupils blown and her shoulders curled in slightly, like she'd just taken a hit without being touched. Her heart was pounding so loud in her ears it almost drowned everything else out. She felt cold suddenly, like the warmth of her post-shower calm had been ripped from her body in an instant. The oversized shirt clung to her damp skin, sticking uncomfortably as her breathing turned sharp and uneven “Pregnant?” she echoed, voice airy and brittle. It sounded wrong in the space between them. Like the word didn’t belong to her. Like she was trying to believe she didn’t understand- trying to sell a lie even she couldn’t swallow.
“Who told you this?”
And JJ- he looked like he could rip the whole room apart with his bare hands. She already knew the answer he was going to give her. But she needed to hear it. Needed to pray and cling onto the hope for some other name, any name not—
“Rafe Cameron”
JJ said, voice full of venom. His jaw was clenched so tight it trembled, eyes burning into hers. And then she froze, like a statue carved from ice. Her chest stilled and her hands hung at her sides. There wasn’t a flicker of movement. Rafe? She couldn’t even blink, couldn’t breathe at the sound his name.
He promised
Her fingers curled slightly in toward her palms and she felt like someone had just reached into her chest and squeezed.JJ saw it happen- the way her entire body stiffened, how her lips parted but no sound came. The way her eyes went glassy for just a second.He saw it all and it broke something within him. His voice cracked, a bitter sound ripping from his throat, full of raw betrayal and heartbreak as he whispered,
“Oh my fucking god-”
“-no! No I didn’t get pregnant”
Y/N gasped out, voice cracking like thin glass. She shook her head rapidly, hands lifting uselessly in the air like she could physically push the truth away. But her voice was too high, too shaky. Her eyes were darting everywhere but his, and JJ saw right through her.
“I didn’t—JJ. I-"
“-why are you LYING to me!”
He shouted cutting her off, his voice thundering off the walls as his hands flew into the air in exasperation, then slammed back down at his sides. His eyes were wild, glassy with a cocktail of rage and betrayal.
“Why the are you lying to me?!”
“Jay, please just—”
She rushed, taking a few tentative steps toward him, palms out like she could soothe him with touch alone. Her voice wavered, desperate and pleading. But JJ backed up- away from her. “You didn’t even tell me,” he said bitterly, as if the words physically hurt to say. He let out a strangled scoff, pacing now, stumbling back a step.
“And I’m your brother. I’m your fucking brother Y/N.”
Her eyes welled. Her lips trembled because it was happening. Exactly what she’d feared- her worst nightmare made real in their own kitchen, beneath the harsh light, peeling tiles and abandoned glass of water. “Please,” she whispered again, voice breaking down completely now.
“JJ please—”
But he was already unraveling- crashing out. He paced along the kitchen, dragging a hand down his face, his cap was long abandoned on the kitchen island as he dug his fingers into his hair and tugging like he needed to physically hold himself together. His mouth was hidden behind his hand now, muffling a harsh, trembling breath. He was doing everything he could not to lose it. But then, his hand lashed out and swept everything off the corner of the kitchen island. Bills, letters, receipts, all of it went crashing to the floor in a loud flurry of paper and crumpled envelopes.
“You went to Rafe?”
He yelled, voice splintered and feral as he rounded on her again, pointing now— accusingly. His entire face contorted with disbelief, “You went to Rafe Cameron for help?! The same piece of shit who’s tormented us for years- who’s ruined our lives- what the fuck is wrong with you?!”
His finger stabbed the air in her direction, jaw clenched so tight his teeth could’ve cracked. His breathing was loud, heavy. He looked like he was barely staying inside his own skin and Y/N snapped suddenly,
“Don’t raise your voice at me”
She bit out, her voice cutting sharp and fast, almost instinctive. Her chest was heaving now, flushed with fury and panic. Her hands were curled into fists at her sides as her eyes locked with his, finally locked with his. “You have no fucking idea what I’ve been going through JJ. None of it,” she seethed, her voice shaking just beneath the surface, laced with pain that was months in the making.
“You don’t know how hard it’s been trying to make a decision I never asked for in the first place!”
And just like that, the kitchen went still. The broken silence crackled in the air between them like electricity after a lightning strike- both of them breathing hard, standing in the wreckage of papers, secrets, and everything they haven't said to each other in the past months. JJ’s voice cracked on the question,
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
It wasn’t loud anymore. It wasn’t angry. It just… broke. Like something inside him had split clean down the middle. His arms, once tensed at his sides, dropped uselessly as his shoulders sagged. Like all the fight had drained out of him in one breath. Y/N stood stiff on the other the island opposite him, the space between them feeling wider than the whole room. Her breath hitched as her eyes dropped to the floor, shoulders curling inward like she was bracing for impact.
“JJ, I don’t know, I just—”
“Do you not trust me?”
He asked, suddenly, voice low but guarded. She looked up fast, her eyes wide, lashes still wet. Her lips parted like she was about to speak but forgot how. Like she’d been caught somewhere between guilt and fear. She said, voice tight, chest rising with a shaky inhale,
“That’s not what this is about.”
“Yes. Yes, it is what this is about—”
“I DO trust you!”
She burst out, loud and raw, like she couldn’t hold it in anymore. Her hands shot out as if reaching for something she couldn’t quite grasp. She was breathing fast now, visibly trembling, like the admission had cost her something. JJ stepped forward a half-step, hands curling into frustrated fists at his sides. His jaw clenched hard, eyes narrowed, flickering with that familiar mix of hurt and fury.
“Well you don’t act like it”
He said, bitter, almost defeated. He threw his hands up like he was done trying to understand. “Jesus…” he breathed, taking two slow steps back. Y/N rubbed her face roughly, wiping away a tear with the heel of her palm, her fingers shaky. Her mouth opened- then shut again, her brows drawing together in a helpless knot. JJ let out a breath so heavy it sounded like it hurt. Then his hand dragged through his hair, gripping the back of his neck like he needed to ground himself. He looked her dead in the eye,
“Was it his?”
The question struck her like a slap. She went completely still. “...What?” she whispered, barely audible. The word trembled in her throat, her head jerking slightly like she couldn’t believe he’d actually said it. JJ’s eyes burned, his mouth twisted into something between a grimace and a sneer.
“Was it his, Y/N? Was it Rafe’s?”
Her mouth opened again, but no sound came out. Her legs carried her one step back, like the sheer weight of the question shoved her there. Her arms folded across her chest without her realising it, protective. Defensive.
“How can you even ask me that—”
“What else do you want me to think, huh?” JJ’s voice climbed again, every word sharper than the last, “You won’t fucking tell me anything! You kept this whole thing a secret from me like I’m just some... some nobody—”
“JJ—”
“Was it his?”
He snapped again, louder, like saying it might finally make the pain in his chest make sense. His chest rose and fell, his breathing heavy and erratic. He looked like he was burning up from the inside.
“Was it his, and that’s why you ran to him, why you told him before you told me?”
“Stop-stop it— how dare you even think that—”
“Well you’re sure as hell not giving me a lot of reasons not to!”
The shout ripped from him like a gut punch. He slammed the heel of his palm down on the counter once more as the last word left his mouth, she flinched hard at the sound, instinctively taking a step back like it could steady her pulse.
BANG
The front door slammed against the wall with a hard thud, rattling the frame in its hinges as Luke stumbled inside, the scent of cheap bourbon clinging to him like a second skin. Both their heads whipped toward the entrance to the house, eyes wide. The air in the kitchen turned thick with silence, frozen with tension as JJ's chest heaved and Y/N didn’t move. He blinked blearily at the two of them from the hallway, swaying just slightly, his jaw working unevenly as he tried to focus.
“What’s all this fuckin’ yelling?”
His voice was slurred, low and accusatory, slicing through the thick silence like a rusted blade. Y/N’s body stiffened immediately. She stood there, frozen for half a second, then straightened up like someone had yanked her upright by a string. “Nothing,” she said quickly, her jaw clenched so tight it ached. JJ didn’t say a word. His arms were rigid at his sides, chest still heaving, that same fury boiling behind his eyes.
“Nothing is going on”
Y/N repeated, sharper this time. She wasn’t even fully looking at Luke anymore- her gaze was fixed on JJ, like her words were meant for him just as much, like she was pleading with him. Her voice dropped slightly, nearly trembling:
“Right, JJ? Nothing’s happening here.”
There was a long pause. JJ looked at her- really looked at her- and her eyes silently begged, he knew exactly what she was saying in her mind. Don’t say it- don’t let him find out. JJ’s nostrils flared, his whole body rigid, but his face hardened into stone. Then, slowly, almost in disbelief, he shook his head. His hand dragged over his mouth once more as he took a step back.
He didn’t say a single word.
He just turned, snatching his cap of the kitchen counter and walked toward the door and left- slamming it shut behind him with a bang that made the windows shudder in their frames. Y/N flinched. Her chest caved as she dropped down into one of the wooden kitchen chairs like all the strength had just drained out of her. Her elbows hit the edge of the table, head falling into her hands, shoulders hunched. Behind her, Luke mumbled something unintelligible and stumbled down the hallway. The second he was gone, the dam broke, silent tears dripped through her fingers, landing in dark, wet splotches on the old wooden table beneath her.
bzzz bzzz bzzz
Her phone vibrated on the counter, loud in the quiet house. She turned around slowly, reaching for it her hand trembling as the screen lit up.
Rafe
She stared at it, heartbeat thudding in her throat. Her chest rose and fell unevenly. Her thumb hovered over the screen for a long moment and then a soft, broken sound left her lips. She placed the phone face down on the table, letting it buzz until the sound faded.
Until the silence was all that was left in the four walls of the house.
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The soft clatter of cutlery was the only sound in the back of the restaurant. Y/N stood at the long metal counter, back hunched slightly as she polished a fork with slow, repetitive movements. Her shoulders were pulled up tight- and the faded name tag on her polo was barely clinging on by its safety pin. The white cloth in her hand dragged in steady circles, silver catching the dim light overhead. By the doorway, Sofia leaned one shoulder against the frame. She didn’t say anything at first- just watched her best friend, lips pressed into a thin, uncertain line. Y/N looked like she hadn’t slept a wink. There were shadows under her eyes and a drained stillness in her face. Sofia quietly stepped into the room, picked up another cloth from the drawer, and reached for a fork. Y/N didn’t look up, didn’t say anything, just kept working, kept silent like she had for the past few days. Sofia offered gently,
“Hey”
“Hey”
Y/N murmured back, voice soft but distant, her eyes locked on the fork in her hand like it was the only thing tethering her. Sofia hesitated, cloth in one hand fork in the other, debating how to say what she needed to. Her fingers tightened slightly on the metal.
“I um heard what happened to JJ”
Y/N’s hand paused, just for a second. Just long enough for the silence to crack a little but then she kept polishing.
“Mmhmm”
It was a quiet hum, the kind that meant I heard you, but please don’t ask me to talk about it. Sofia exhaled slowly. She put her fork down, the soft clink echoing in the small room. “Y/N… I haven't seen you for days,” she said, voice quieter now.
“Please talk to me.”
The cloth slipped from Y/N’s fingers. She gently set the fork down beside it, like even letting go of that was too much. Her hand lifted, trembling as she brushed it across her brow- trying to collect herself, to stay composed.
“I don’t know what to do Sof...”
She said, voice breaking mid-sentence. The words hit the air like a wound. Her eyes welled up instantly, lashes soaked before she could even blink. Sofia was already there, wrapping her arms around her in a heartbeat, tugging her in close. Y/N’s chin dropped to her shoulder, her breath hitching in her chest as she pressed her face against Sofia’s polo shirt.
“It’s okay,” Sofia whispered, “It’s okay, I’ve got you.”
But it wasn’t okay.
It wasn’t okay.
Because Y/N felt like she was standing at the centre of a storm, everything torn apart. JJ wouldn’t even look at her. Wouldn’t speak to her. Her baby brother- her heart- had walked out and she hasn't seen him since then. And Rafe? Rafe had broken the one promise he swore to keep. He’d hurt her in a way she didn’t know how to come back from.
“What am I supposed to do?”
Sofia’s arms stayed tight around her for a long moment, like she could shield her from the weight of it all- from the ache, from the choices, from the fear. Then, gently, she pulled back and brushed a tear from Y/N’s cheek with the bottom of her polo which she'd tugged up. She said softly, tugging at her friend’s hand,
“Come here”
Y/N let herself be led, her limbs sluggish and almost reluctant. Sofia guided her to a small wooden stool tucked beneath one of the prep counters in the back room. She sat her down with careful hands, like setting a glass sculpture onto stone. Then she crouched in front of her, folding herself down so they were eye to eye. Her expression was open, gentle, patient. Sofia asked her voice low and kind,
“Can you tell me what’s going on... ?”
Y/N’s teeth sank into her bottom lip. Her eyes dropped to her lap where her hands were clenched into fists on top of her apron. For a moment, the silence between them stretched. Then Y/N gave a slow, exhaled surrender- and she told her.
Everything
She told Sofia about the second job — how she’d been dancing at the strip club for months just to make ends meet. How the money had been good, but the shame had clung to her skin like an old perfume. She told her about Rafe, about the way he’d taunted her, messed with her head, haunted her space like a ghost that never left her alone. And then how that twisted thing between them had shifted after what happened to her in the parking lot. About the parking lot. How she’d gotten pregnant, how she hadn’t meant to involve him but had nowhere else to go. And how, when it counted, Rafe had helped her and it had turned into more. Secret late nights, quiet promises in dark corners, a fragile, forbidden thing which they nurtured in silence. And as a result it had all blown up. JJ had found out, the one person she'd always protected now looked at her like she was someone he didn’t recognise. But even through the storm the rift between her and JJ had brought, all she could think about was Rafe.
Rafe, who said he wouldn’t tell anyone.
Rafe, who would hold her in his car on late nights and whisper sweet nothings in her ear.
Rafe, who promised.
And he broke it.
Sofia didn’t interrupt once. She stayed crouched there, one arm resting on her bent knee, nodding gently as each piece fell from Y/N like shattered glass. Her face remained steady and calm, but her eyes were soft with understanding. With heartbreak for her friend. When the story was done, Y/N swallowed thickly and glanced up at her with wet eyes.
“Please don’t judge me”
She whispered, barely audible. Sofia’s reaction was immediate — a sharp shake of the head. She said, gently but firmly.
“Why would I judge you?”
“I don’t know, I just…” Y/N’s voice cracked. She looked away again, blinking hard. Sofia leaned in a little closer, her brows furrowing with affection.
“Why didn’t you say something, mi corazón?”
“I was just… embarrassed.”
Y/N’s lips wobbled as she gave the smallest shrug and whispered. Without a word, Sofia reached out and laid a steadying hand on Y/N’s knee, grounding her. She spoke her voice laced with quiet conviction.
“You have nothing to be ashamed of”
Y/N’s throat tightened instantly. Her chin dipped, tears slipping down once again. But when Sofia leaned forward and wrapped her into another hug, she folded into it without hesitation- burying her face in her friend’s shoulder, arms clutching around her tightly like she might disappear. “We’ll figure it out, okay?” Sofia whispered against her hair.
“We’ll figure it out together.”
“I love you Sof”
Y/N’s eyes fluttered shut. Her body sagged in relief at the promise — not that anything was fixed, but that she wasn’t alone. Sofia just hugged her tighter.
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Y/N threw back the swinging door to the main bar with her hip, a full tray of used glasses balanced effortlessly in her hand. The low hum of muffled chatter greeted her like a familiar blanket, warm and a little suffocating. Her eyes adjusted to the dimness of the bar's lights as she stepped back behind the counter, dumping the tray beside the industrial sink with a heavy exhale. She hadn’t realised how much she needed that talk with Sofia until now. Something about finally saying it out loud- all of it- had loosened the tightness in her chest. The weight of silence had been unbearable, and now, while the ache still lingered, she could breathe again. Just a little. But there wasn’t time to dwell in her thoughts anyways, not tonight.
The bar was packed, voices raised, chairs scraping against floorboards, orders being placed and the occasional whistle. She adjusted the apron which was tied snug around her waist, as a guy asked from the far end of the bar, adding on the name of his tab.
“Two shots of tequila, lime and salt on the side”
“Of course”
She replied without missing a beat, already grabbing the bottle and reaching for shot glasses. Her hands moved fast- pouring, shaking, stirring. She restocked bottles of liquor without thinking, cracked open a fresh case of beer, wiped condensation from the metal counter and replaced a handful of clean napkins. Someone ordered a mojito and she went to work muddling the mint, crushing ice with a practiced rhythm. It was muscle memory by now- she didn’t have to think, which was exactly what she needed.
No room for thoughts, no room for Rafe, or JJ, or anything else eating her alive from the inside out.
The more she moved, the more she disappeared into the chaos. Her skin gleamed under the bar lights, sweat beading along the back of her neck as she reached overhead to tuck fresh tumblers onto the glass shelf. She barely heard the quiet jazz music anymore, just the beat of urgency thudding in her chest.
“Another whiskey sour”
Someone asked and she reached for the shaker, wipe, pour, shake, serve, repeat, but then something made her glance up and her hand stilled on the bottle. Across the bar, nestled deep into the shadows of the corner lounge area, sat Rafe. Not drinking, not talking.
Just watching her.
He was slouched back in a leather chair like he owned that corner of the room, legs spread comfortably, one arm draped over the armrest. The light barely caught his face, but she didn’t need clarity to know the exact look he was wearing- that familiar unreadable expression, cold eyes fixed solely on her like she was something distant he couldn’t quite reach. Her jaw clenched tight.
The nerve
The audacity?
Y/N quickly looked away, her lips thinning as she focused on the drink in her hands, finishing the sour and passing it across the bar without a second glance. She moved faster now, snatching empty glasses off tables as she passed, ducking into the back cooler for a new bottle of gin, keeping her head down. But every time she looked up- every time- he was still there, still watching. Like a storm cloud on the edge of the horizon, just waiting to roll in, god it made her blood boil.
Her shoulders tensed as she scrubbed a sticky ring off the bar top with more force than necessary. She refused to give him the satisfaction of looking back, refused to let him drag her under again, not tonight. Not while she was trying to hold it together with thin threads and old tape. She poured a round of rum and cokes for a rowdy group at table four, barely registering the guy who tried to flirt with her as she served them. All she could feel was the burn of Rafe’s stare pressing into the side of her face like a brand. The bar area was still pulsing around her, dim lights flickering like fireflies in the low haze, glasses clinking, a muffled jazz beat vibrating through the floorboards but Y/N had started to move on autopilot. Hands quick and precise, wiping down the counters, collecting empty tumblers, taking orders and mixing drinks. She’d just handed off a margarita, salted rim, top-shelf tequila, extra lime, 'the usual', to a woman with long red nails and a tipsy grin when something in her peripheral made her pause.
She looked over and there he was.
Standing just to her left now, not lounging anymore, but leaning forward against the bar- both arms resting casually on the glossy wooden top, the sleeves of his shirt pushed back to his elbows. His expression wasn’t smug, wasn’t cocky like usual. There was no lazy smirk or self-satisfied gleam in his eye. He looked tired, and she could see a faint bruise on his cheekbone. His voice was quieter than normal when he spoke — missing that usual confident drawl.
“Can I get a whiskey on ice?”
Y/N didn’t respond. Not with words anyway, she turned, wordless, and reached for the bottle behind her. Her movements were mechanical and efficient. She pulled out a glass, dropped in the ice, and started pouring slow and steady, never once letting herself really look at him. But she couldn't help it and her eyes flickered up once. Just once. He was already watching her. His gaze was steady, fixed on her with a weight that made her skin prickle. Like he was searching for something in her face, something he couldn’t quite reach, something he knew he might not be allowed to see anymore. Still, she didn’t say a word. Didn’t ask why he was here. Didn’t ask what the hell he thought he was doing. Because truthfully? She didn’t know what she wanted to say to him. There was too much in her mind and it was too loud- much too messy.
Her hand moved on instinct, finishing the pour, and he slid the glass across the bar on a coaster her fingers brushing the condensation as she pushed it toward him. Rafe took it, fingers curling around the glass, but he didn’t drink. He just looked at her, lips pressing into a thin line like he was forcing himself not to say something he might regret. Finally, his voice broke the beat of the music again, soft but edged with something uncertain.
“…are you mad at me?”
Y/N didn’t blink, is he fucking dumb? She didn’t lift her eyes as she answered, her voice flat. Cold. Soaked in disappointment that ran deeper than fury.
“Mad doesn’t even cover it.”
And then she turned, already moving toward the next customer, leaving Rafe standing there, his untouched drink in hand. He didn’t leave, not after that first drink, not after her next round of orders rolled in. Rafe stayed perched on a stool by the bar, watching her every move.
All night.
Eventually he returned to the same leather chair tucked into the farthest corner of the lounge, a space covered just enough in shadow that most people wouldn’t notice him if they were looking. But Y/N did. Every time she turned around, every time she restocked the vodka, every time she handed someone a beer, she felt his eyes.
Waiting.
For what?—she wasn’t sure. A chance to speak to her? Forgiveness? Maybe just a single glance from her in his direction. She didn’t give him that- not once. Not even when her arms began to ache from shaking drinks. Not even when her lower back pinched from bending to stock crates under the bar. She kept moving, kept working, pushing through the ache in her chest and the hot buzz behind her eyes because looking at him, acknowledging him, might just undo her right there behind the bar.
He didn’t make it easy, he stayed there, that untouched whiskey glass still in front of him like he didn’t even have the stomach to drink it. His elbows rested on the armrests of the chair, posture not lazy like usual was but tense. Stiff. Even Sofia noticed. The first time she passed by his corner delivering a round of beers, she glanced his way—and didn’t hide the icy look she shot him. Her brows furrowed in sharp judgment, eyes narrowing as she walked by without breaking her stride. The second time, she muttered something under her breath in Spanish that sounded suspiciously like a curse. The third time, Rafe shifted in his seat, clearly uncomfortable now. He rubbed the back of his neck, avoided looking at her directly. His fingers tapped restlessly against the side of his glass, but he didn’t leave.
Y/N clocked it all from across the room.
How he didn’t even try to defend himself under Sofia’s glare. How he just sat there, letting himself stew in whatever guilt had driven him here in the first place. Despite every ounce of anger boiling in her chest, some part of her- a stupid, bruised part- still wondered why. Why he was there. Why he hadn’t left. Why he did what he did in the first place.
But she didn’t ask, she couldn't.
She just kept pretending she didn’t feel his stare burning a hole through her ribs.
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Y/N shoved her apron deep into her bag, the fabric still damp from the shift. Her locker door clanged shut harder than necessary, echoing through the quiet staff room. Her fingers trembled slightly as she pulled the worn bag closed. Sofia leaned against the frame of the doorway, arms crossed, watching her closely.
“You sure you don’t want me to walk you to your car?” her voice soft, gentle, hesitant, "why don't you just come and stay with me for the night? You know my parents really won’t mi—”
“I’m fine”
Y/N cut her off with a half-hearted smile, already slinging her bag over her shoulder,
“Really- I'll be ok”
Sofia didn’t push. She just nodded, a quiet understanding behind her brown eyes, and reached out to give her friend’s arm a warm rub, reassuring and grounding.
“Text me when you get home”
She spoke out with a soft smile, and then turned returning back to serving, leaving Y/N alone with the dim hum of the locker room lights. Y/N let out a breath as the door swung shut behind her, then turned on her heel and started out, walking the familiar halls of the country club in silence. The floors echoed under her shoes, the once-buzzing energy now dulled down to a few scattered patrons still nursing their drinks at the bar. Her path was straight and certain; out the lobby, across the lot, into her car, and then home to her bedroom where she could finally fall apart all over again but that plan cracked the moment she heard his voice,
“I can’t stand not talking to you”
It stopped her mid-step. She turned, eyes narrowing as her gaze landed on him, standing just a few feet away near the archway that separated the main area from the corridor. His posture was rigid, jaw tight, eyes desperately locked on her like the sight of her physically hurt him.
“Cornering me at work Rafe?” Her voice was sharp, cutting.
“Seriously?”
“Please,” he said quickly, “it was a mistake”
Her laugh was dry and humourless as she took a step back, putting more space between them as she spoke out to him,
“Well I don’t want to fucking see you. Okay?”
She turned sharply on her heel, her shoes hitting against the polished floor as she headed for the door to get as far away as she possibly could from him. He took a step after her calling out her name,
“Y/N—”
“I said I’m done”
She snapped without looking back as her hand moved forward to press against the cool glass of the door but that’s when his hand caught her wrist. Not hard- not even rough. Just a desperate, instinctual reach to stop her from walking away from him but it didn’t matter.
She flinched- visibly.
Her body jolted back, her breath catching in her throat like someone had shoved her against a wall, and she harshly snatched her hand away from him. His hand was off her in an instant, eyes wide with horror.
“Shit- I'm sorry. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to—”
His voice was genuinely shaken, like he'd just realised something too late... it didn't take a genius for him to figure out why she'd reacted that way. They stood there, the air heavy and still. Her chest rising and falling in quiet breaths. Him, frozen in place like if he moved too fast he’d shatter the last piece of her that was still standing in front of him. Y/N finally looked up at him, her voice cracked,
“I trusted you.”
Rafe’s lips parted like he wanted to speak, but the words never came. Just the ache of guilt, swelling like a lump in his throat preventing him from speaking out to her. “Out of everyone on this island,” she said, each syllable slow, deliberate, trembling,
“I trusted you.”
And God, that look in her eyes when she looked away- betrayal, hurt- it gutted him. Because no one had ever trusted him like that before- and he’d thrown it away in a moment of reckless anger which was worthless to him now. She didn’t need to see the look on his face to know it would upset her, but when she looked up to him again it almost stopped her in her tracks. Rafe was still standing there, just a few steps behind where she left him, eyes damp with unshed tears, his lower lip trembling like he was fighting it- like he was barely holding himself together. For a moment, she felt like she couldn’t breathe- but she didn’t have the space to carry his pain on top of hers. So she shook her head, a tiny, bitter movement- more to herself than to him- and turned away. She didn’t wait to see if he’d call out again, she didn’t want to hear anything else come out of his mouth. Y/N pushed through the exit doors into the still, quiet night.
The staff parking lot was nearly empty now. Sofia’s little beat-up car was a few spots over from her own, the manager’s black SUV on the far side but that was it. Empty asphalt, dim overhead lights, and the sound of her own footsteps echoing with every step toward her car. She half-expected him to follow, but he didn’t. Good, she thought to herself he didn’t deserve to. As she approached her car, something caught her eye- a small, white rectangle tucked neatly beneath the wiper blade of her windshield. Her stomach twisted. She glanced around the lot on instinct, but saw no one. Carefully, she plucked the paper from under the wiper. It was a folded-up note card. And when she opened it, two crisp hundred-dollar bills fluttered to the pavement at her feet.
Her heart dropped as her eyes scanned the message.
" Sorry baby x "
She scoffed out loud, bitter and disbelieving, the sound catching in her throat like a laugh soaked in gasoline. She bent down slowly, picked up the bills, her fingers trembling. Was this a joke? Was this what he thought would make things better? Footsteps echoed behind her and she didn’t even need to turn because she knew it was him. Hot rage snapped through her chest like a rubber band and before she could think twice, she whirled around and stormed back toward him, shoes slamming against the pavement. Her fist clutched the note and the cash tightly, nails biting into her palm. He was just a few yards away, hands stuffed in his pockets, walking slowly like he didn’t know what the fuck he was doing- but when she closed the distance between them, he stopped dead in his tracks. Without hesitation, she shoved the paper and bills into his chest shoving him back, her voice shaking from fury.
“I don’t want your fucking money Rafe!”
The bills nearly slipped from his hands as he reached up, fumbling to catch them. His brows furrowed, panicked and hurt.
“I’m just trying to help you—”
“I’m not a FUCKING CHARITY CASE!”
She snapped yelling out at him, voice rising, eyes glinting under the parking lot lights. The words hung between them like a slap and he stared at her like she’d just knocked the wind out of him. She could see it now- the way his mouth opened, then shut again, how he couldn’t look her in the eye, how the words on his tongue died before they ever reached his lips. Because he knew. Deep down, he knew this wasn’t something a couple hundred bucks and a sorry would fix. But still… he reached for her. Not to touch, but to speak- his voice cracked, low.
“Y/N…”
She stepped back.
"Don’t."
Her breath hitched, and she swallowed it down with every ounce of strength she had left. She looked at him, really looked at him- messy hair, tired eyes meeting that wounded expression on his face like he was the one who got hurt- and it made her sick. "You don't get to be upset," she whispered, voice trembling but sharp as glass.
"This is your fault."
She spoke out through gritted teeth and he just shook his head in response and he sighed out, his hand coming out and running over his hair before he could say another word to her, she turned and walked away she refused to listen to hi-
“I love you”
His voice cuts through the space between them- soft and low, but it stopped her in her tracks like a bullet. Y/N froze, completely, her back still to him. Her hand comes up over her face, trembling as she tries to breathe through it, tries to swallow down everything rising in her throat. She feels like her knees are about to give out underneath her, chest heaving with the kind of pressure that builds until it becomes unbearable, the kind that threatens to spill out in hot, angry tears. What the fuck was he doing? Her hand drops slowly to her side, fingers twitching, keys clinking in her grip. She turns, slow and tired and sharp all at once, and lifts her chin just enough to meet his gaze. Her voice is tight, quiet, venom-laced and barely hanging on.
“Don’t say shit like that.”
She takes a step back like his presence burns. He tilts his head slightly, eyes narrowing in confusion.
“Why not?”
“Because—” she starts, then bites the word off, jaw clenching as she shakes her head, like she can just shake him out of her mind.
“Just don’t.”
But Rafe- he stays rooted to the pavement, watching her like she’s sand slipping through his fingers and he's desperate enough to fall to the floor and start picking up each grain individually. “Please,” he says, voice rough with a pleading edge she’s never heard from him.
“Just listen to what I have to say”
She shakes her head again, more frantic this time, her thumb jabbing the car key until she hears a beep, the headlights flashing like a warning. She storms toward the door, her breath hitching in her throat. “Well then talk to me,” Rafe tries again, following her now, steps echoing hers. Desperation claws into his voice.
“Please Y/N- talk to me.”
“I don’t want to talk to you, okay?”
She whirls around so fast he almost walks right into her, and with a sharpness that nearly cuts the air and she snaps, voice cracking in the middle, hand shaking around the keys.
“I don’t want to talk to you- my whole life is crumbling around me, and funnily enough, you seem to be the core of my problems.”
“No, I’m not—”
“Yes you are!”
Y/N yells as she raises her hands in defeat, voice ringing out across the empty parking lot, echoing off metal and asphalt and silence. She’s standing there, chest rising and falling so hard it looks like she might collapse under the weight of it all. Her lip trembles as she stares at him- like he’s the storm and she’s the goddamn wreckage.
“I seem to only be thinking about you!”
She chokes out, the words ragged. Real. They're out of her mouth before she can stop them and when they land, when the truth hangs heavy and cruel between them, her entire expression shifts. Like the world’s been ripped from beneath her feet and she’s the one who did it. Her lips press together, her shoulders sag, and her eyes flicker down like she’s already trying to take it back.
But it’s too late.
Rafe just stares at her, a flicker of pain surging behind his eyes. No smirk, no cocky retort, no smug line like always. Just... stunned- like he’s been punched in the chest. She exhales shakily and reaches for the car door handle, gripping it so tight her knuckles go white. She tries to anchor herself to the cold metal but then his voice cuts through the silence, earnest.
“...I think about you too.”
She squeezes her eyes shut as though to block his voice out.
“All the time I'm thinking about yo-”
“No.”
Her voice is barely a whisper now fractured and frightened.
“Stop.”
“Why?” Rafe asks, his tone is softer this time.
“What are you so afraid of?”
Her fingers tremble where they rest against the door, and she swallows hard, the lump in her throat too big to ignore now. “I can’t-” she croaks, shaking her head like it physically hurts her to speak.
“I can’t do this with you, Rafe. I just can’t.”
“Why?”
His voice is gentle- almost pleading- just a thread of sound in the night air. He steps closer, careful not to touch her, but close enough that she can feel the heat of him lingering like a ghost, like he’s haunting her just like everything else she’s tried to bury. “Y/N,” he says, his tone catching at the edges,
“you know you want to. So why are you running away?”
She doesn’t answer. She just stands there, shaking her head slowly, lips pressed tight like she’s trying to hold herself together with sheer will alone. Because how is she supposed to explain it? How does she say out loud that love feels like a noose around her throat- that she's only ever known the kind that hurts. She hates it- hates that he’s asking the very question she keeps asking herself.
Why is she running?
The answer lodges in her chest, sharp and bitter: because she’s scared. Scared of how much this means, scared of what it could take from her, scared of how much it already has. She’s never really been loved. Not the way people are supposed to be. Not by her father, who only ever saw her as a mirror of everything he hated. Not even- if she’s being honest- by JJ, because JJ has the Pogues he has John B and the others and she… she’s always felt like second place- like an afterthought, even when they swore they were all each other had. So yeah- she’s scared. Because this? What she feels when Rafe looks at her, what stirs deep in her gut when he says her name like a prayer he’s never gonna stop saying, it’s terrifying.
Because she loves him.
She loves him.
More than she even knew she could and that’s what terrifies her the most. Rafe sees the shift. The tear rolling down her cheek and his hands twitch at his sides- because he wants to reach out. Wants to tell her it's okay to be scared. That he’s scared too. But his voice breaks around the weight of it.
“Y/N I lov-”
“Please”
She whispers, eyes glossy as the salt water drips down the skin of her face, her voice raw and strained.
“Just let me go home.”
His jaw tenses hard enough it clicks, the muscle there jumping. His mind screams at him to keep her here, to talk it out until she's in his arm again but instead, he nods, jaw locked tight like he’s holding back something that might rip him in half if he lets it loose. He steps back and she can't meet his eyes. She just slips into her car like she’s done a thousand times, hands shaking as she fumbles with the key, breath stuttering through her chest. The door shuts with a quiet thud that sounds final.
And then- she’s gone. Taillights disappear down the dark road, red glow vanishing into the night. Rafe stands there for a second, not moving, just staring at where her car used to be. His chest rises and falls like he’s been running, but he hasn’t moved at all. His hands lift to his hair, a groan tearing from his throat, guttural and helpless. He paces once, twice in rage and heartbreak and desperation tangling all over each other until he doesn’t even know what to feel anymore.
Because fuck.
He knows that she loves him but he’s scared he’s already lost her anyway.
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The drive home is silent, except for the low hum of the engine and the occasional crunch of gravel beneath her tires. Her hands are loose on the wheel now, posture slumped like all the weight of the night has finally caught up to her. The headlights sweep over the front of her house as she pulls in, illuminating the weather-worn porch, the chipped paint on the steps.
She parks and cuts the engine.
For a moment, she doesn’t move. Just rests her forehead gently against the steering wheel and closes her eyes quiet sniffles filling the car. She lets herself sink into the kind of stillness that feels like sinking into water- quiet, numbing, heavy. She sits there and thinks for a moment, she thinks how she wishes she could just start over. Somewhere far away, somewhere no one knows her name and no one knows what she’s done. Somewhere she could exist without always feeling like she's on the edge of ruin. Like she's constantly holding everything together with nothing but her fingertips and good intentions. Her chest tightens as she breathes out a shaky sigh finally reaching for the door handle.
She steps out into the cool night, her shoes landing softly on the dried grass. The sky is thick and clouded, swallowing the stars whole, no moonlight shining through. As she approaches the porch, she notices just a faint flicker of light through the drawn shutter blinds. Her steps quiet as she doesn’t want to make a sound. Y/N slides her keys into the lock carefully, twisting them with a gentle hand.
Click
The door eases open and she slips inside and shuts it behind her—softly, gently, like maybe if she moves quiet enough, nothing will break but as she turns around and stops cold. Dead in her tracks. Her breath catches in her throat, and her eyes lock onto the living room just a few feet ahead.
Her father is sitting on the couch.
Half his face lit by the dim glow of the table lamp beside him. The other half shrouded in darkness. His shoulders are hunched forward, one hand dangling off his knee, a glass of something clutched loose in his fingers. Whiskey maybe, or vodka, or whatever was cheapest this week. His eyes are open and staring straight at her. It’s like the air’s been sucked out of the house. His expression unreadable beneath the haze of alcohol—and maybe something stronger. She’s still frozen there, heart pounding so loud she can feel it in her throat, her ears, her ribs. Like it’s trying to crawl out of her. But it’s not him that makes her stomach twist into knots and her lungs forget how to breathe. It’s what’s sitting on the table in front of him, laid out neatly on the small coffee table like some sort of offering.
A pair of her stripper heels.
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Hi. This is my first time writing arequest so i dont really know what im doing but i love your husband sukuna series and i wanna ask for a husband sukuna with a shy baby daughter bc your sukuna is 🤌
reluctance — ryomen sukuna x f!reader


a/n: so glad you like my husband!sukuna works <33 hope this one is to your liking as well MWUAH 🫶

“come on, d/n,” you coax gently.
your daughter, barely two years old, shakes her head from behind your legs, her tiny hands clutching the fabric of your kimono as she hides from the imposing figure of her father.
sukuna stands at the doorway, his arms crossed, his usual stern expression in place.
“she’s still hiding?” sukuna raises an eyebrow, his deep voice filling the room, though it isn’t harsh.
you kneel, gently petting your daughter’s head, “she’s shy. you know how she gets when you’re around.”
sukuna exhales slowly. he observes your daughter quietly. wide-eyed but cautious, her tiny fingers tightening their grip on you. your daughter was notably quite soft.
it didn’t help that her father, sukuna, didn’t exactly have the most inviting presence.
“come here,” he says, his tone gruff, holding out a hand.
the little girl hesitates, her bottom lip trembling slightly. you place a reassuring hand on her back and whisper softly, “it’s okay” you smile, “that’s your dad; he won’t hurt you.”
at your words, sukuna looks down at your daughter, his daughter.
she looks up at you, then back at sukuna. with the smallest shuffle, she takes one step toward him then sees him quirk an eyebrow which makes her quickly retreat, still unsure.
sukuna clicks his tongue, while you giggle. your daughter clings harder onto you at the sound of his disapproval.
“she sure is jumpy,” he says, stretched hand moving to rest on his hips, “how the hell is that my daughter?”
“ever studied biology?”
“do not get smart with me,” he warns, but his threats have long lost their effect on you.
the little interaction gives your daughter a sense of familiarity, seeing you talk so easily with him. with some courage finally mustered, your daughter blinks up at sukuna, her small voice barely audible as she mumbles, “papa...?”
sukuna’s sharp gaze relaxes just the faintest bit at the sound of her voice, “yes. I’m right here.”
she stares for another moment, before she toddles over to him. she stumbles and holds desperately onto his legs. she looks up at him, and he gives her no reaction.
your daughter takes that as a good sign, and she looks back at you with sparkly eyes.
“there you go,” you laugh, standing up. “see? not so bad.”
sukuna looks at your daughter, then back at you, “you coddle her too much.”
you fold your arms with a playful smirk, “she’s two. she’s allowed to be coddled a little.”
“she’ll be stronger if she learns early.” sukuna’s voice is firm. she is clinging to him now, a little less hesitant as she begins to tug at his kimono.
she lets out small mumbles as she tries to gain his attention.
"uh-huh, sure," you tease, stepping closer and placing your hand on his forearm, "you’re so tough, honey. maybe we should get her a little curse to toughen her up. would that make you happy?"
he scoffs but doesn’t answer, his attention flicking back to the girl holding onto him. you could see the faintest hint of something in his expression, though it wasn’t something he would ever acknowledge verbally.
for some reason, the scene of his daughter faced with a curse, at least in this age, doesn’t particularly please him.
her eyes are soft. her entire being is. there is no way that she would survive, and knowing his little daughter, she will burst into tears the moment the curse appears. that conclusion makes him think.
he stays silent, before he finally mutters, "never mind. she's fine the way she is.”
you beam at his words and pull his face down to place a kiss on his cheek, “aww, you are going soft, yay!”
“I will kill you,” he sneers, but then he feels his daughter raise her arms. he looks down at her with a scowl, “what do you want, you brat?”
the tone makes her flinch back, but then she tightens her fist and stutters, “u-up!”
“you and your mother are insolent,” he side-eyes you, and you raise your hands in surrender. his eyes flick back to her, “you ordering me around?”
her eyes start to water, but she tries to persevere, “up…?”
your husband groans and bends down to pick her up. the way he gives into her demands is sweet in its own way.
it would make you laugh, if he didn’t pick you up in process which instead makes you gasp. now, both you and your daughter are carried—effortlessly—in his arms.
you smile widely at your husband, while he avoids looking at you. sukuna instead looks at you daughter. he then asks, “are you happy now?”
your daughter stares silently at him, and he stares at her back. in the midst all this staring, your daughter realizes something: her dad has a second face.
her lips start quivering, and she raises her hands to cover her face as she starts bawling and wailing
“ugh, why is she crying now?” your husband groans, irked by the sudden loud noise.
“your face probably scares her.”
“I hate kids.”

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no contact with gojo never really meant no contact. he’d still be at your apartment, waiting for you in his favorite bean bag that you’d bought just for him. you were sure you took his key away during the very first break up. how the hell did he keep getting in?
“satoru..?” you shook your head as soon as you walked in the door. of course he’s here, you should’ve known. if only you’d stayed at shoko’s for the night like you were planning to. the white-haired bastard sat in his usual spot, eyes shut, legs spread, and head leaned back on a pillow. almost as if he was sleeping and you were interrupting him, like he wasn’t the one breaking and entering.
the man perked up from his seat at the sound of your voice, finally you were back. he was waiting here for hours, it even crossed his mind to go track you down. he let out a low chuckle that eventually turned into a fit of laughter.
“you’ve got some nerve y’know?” he took one glance at you before licking his lips and running his hands through his hair. you were driving him crazy, dressed in that tiny little dress that barely covered anything. who knows how many creeps were staring at you while he wasn’t there, staring at what’s his.
“why’re you coming home this late (y/n)?” you scrunched your face at his question, resisting the urge to laugh in his face. no way he was really asking you this?
you shrugged your shoulders while throwing your purse on a random coat rack. “we’re not together anymore.. it doesn’t concern you,”
there he goes again. the burst of laughter, and random claps that went along with it. he made you feel like every word that came out of your mouth was a joke and you hated it. one of the very reasons you both weren’t together now.
he tapped his lap, signaling he wanted you there and now. the look on his face had an edge to it— showing he was clearly done playing games, though that still didn’t make you move an inch.
“nuh uh,” he kissed his teeth when you crossed your arms. “none of that shit. c’mere mama, don’t make me say it again okay?”
you didn’t know why, you didn’t even have time to register it but your body was moving on it’s own. it must’ve recognized the tone of his voice, and you didn’t realize what was happening until it was too late.
rough hands gripped your waist and pushed you down until your chest was hitting his. the two of you sat in silence as you nuzzled your head into his neck, the ink behind his ear catching your attention.
he had your name branded on his skin in a gorgeous red, big enough for all eyes to see. and you had his.. right on the lower part of your back, sitting pretty between your back dermals.
a hand wrapped around your neck and forced you to meet his icy glare. gojo smiled that beautiful smile before leaning to your ear, “ill kill anyone that tries to take you from me. y’know that, yeah?”
you knew better than to ignore him, causing you to give him a small nod. the hand on your neck shifted to your waist, then down to your ass where he ripped that fucking dress straight down the middle.
his thumb ran across the healed ink on your skin, a sense of pride filling him. “never forget what this means (y/n). you’re mine ‘til we both die, it’s too late to back out now.” he trailed off, tracing his name over all parts of your body.
“and get rid of these fuckin’ dresses too. only want you wearin’ them for me.” a chuckle fell from his lips, but you knew he wasn’t joking and you couldn’t help but to laugh along with him.
yeah.. maybe you were just as bad at no contact as him.
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One hell of a team | In-ho x Wife!Reader |

Summary: You will follow your husband anywhere.
Warnings: S2 Spoilers - Violence - Different back story for In-ho - Blood - Death - Use of (Y/N) - Reader gets called "love" -
The Frontman, the man with the most power within the island, to who the guards obey without question.
Was currently trembling under his wife pointed look.
"You want to enter the games?" You asked him, your tone cold and almost jugdmental.
In-ho calmed himself down. It was an idea that stayed with him after the death of the Chairman and even more with how player 456 had insisted the last two years in finding them. He had played before and won, he knew how terrible others could be, he had walked out like a new man, used the money for himself and you. Never really gave much thought on how many lives were lost.
But, for some reason he wanted to go again.
"Im going with you"
His glass of wishky fell onto the floor, the loud crash did nothing to bother you while you ate.
"No, thats not happening. I need you here to control the games and guards" In-ho started trying to get a valid reason to why you defenetly should not come.
"Oh, you need me to? Well I need you here. With me. With our family. How do you think I would do seeing you there ? I still remember how you got when you came back from these the first time"
"That was different" The Frontman said taking a deep breath "I wont be just one more player, it will be like when the Chairman went in"
"That still does not ease my mind" (Y/N) responded "Till death do us a part and follow you anywhere" you recited showing him your weeding ring. "Remember?"
In-ho felt his chest got thight at the sight and the memory of the small yet full of love weeding you two had back when life was more simple.
"Alright, you can come with me. Its not like you would wait for my approval" he responded smiling at the end "But no one must know that we are married, you understand that ?" He added now serious
"Of course, its what makes more sense, we will just casually meet there and see how it plays" You nodded to him "And please, better clean up that glass before someone steps on it"
"On it, love"
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For the most part pretending not to know each other was easier than expected. While you knew the guards knew who you two were you were still a bit scared. Specially during the green and red light, since both of you had got separated and now you were froze in your spot.
"You need to move" In-ho said from behind his arm playing along "Follow me in the next sing, alright? Just take my hand"
"Im scared, im sorry" You said feeling guilty over wanting to be there with him and starting to fail on the first game no less.
"I know, I was too. But im here, just follow me"
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You had to hide your smirk when he pressed the circle to go on with the games, you knew he would do it just to piss off Player 456 and make things more cahotic.
He went with the rest and stood besides you trying himself not to smile at you.
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The first approach to Gi-huns team was tense to say the least. You two had voted circle and even worse In-ho had been the vote that ended the tie.
But with his own charisma and yours you two got to be on his good side.
Till In-ho decided to talk, really you sometimes forgot who sassy he could be.
"And some picked umbrella?" He asked faking suprise when he had seen it on first hand. "Most of them died I assume"
You could see the look on player 456 and decided to be more sensitive
"Hey, dont be like that. Im sure they went in blind and did not know what it was about" You said keeping a safe distance so no one would think you two were together or knew each other before the games.
In-ho was having too much fun.
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That first night they both were in their respective beds. Still keeping their false relationship. However once (Y/N) was sure all were asleep she went towards In-ho who was awake like he knew she would be coming to him.
"Are you alright?" He asked in a whisper, worried that for her this would be too much.
"Im fine, I wanted to see if you were fine"
He nodded not saying a thing but taking her hand.
"Also, I saw you break that fight, really ? When did you even learn to do that ?" This made him smile and hold her hand thighter "Really! I only see you in your office all the time"
"You think I would come in here without knowing how to defend myself or you?"
She smiled at him, blushing in the dark. "No....I just thought all you did was be in your office and give orders"
In-ho rolled his eyes "Just wait till we are out of here, i will show you just how fit im"
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The six legs game was both a chaos and funny. Honeslty you could not help yourself on hugging him and player 456 (who was slowly getting on your soft side) as you saw a team win.
However the shoots that came for these who did not survive were too much. You would swear In-ho gave the guards a cold stare because you would flinch sometimes.
"Hey, dont worry they wont shoot the ones who havent played" Player 456 reassured you with a calm tone
You nodded, knowing that even if you lost they wont shoot you or In-ho. It was still sweet to see him trying to calm you down.
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"Not a word" He said during the night when you two were able to talk again.
"I was not going to say a thing, but you did in on purpose or were you really missing ?"
In-ho closed his eyes knowing you would later get the recording of him missing during the game and use it against him.
"It was all planned" he said trying to sound as convincing as he could.
"Whatever you say Honey"
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The game of making pairs gave you nausea because of the carousel kept spinning around. And the rounds were stress again. The worse part was getting separated from In-ho who find you seeing how two players were dragging you so they could have the number they needed.
You havent see him get that angry in years, his protective self being on as he pulled one from the neck and punched the other one.
He kept punching almost forgetting there was a game you two were supposed to play.
"Leave him we still need two more" You urged only for a guard to shove two confused and scared players besides you and In-ho.
"We got them" He assured getting your hand and going to one room.
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"In-ho!! (Y/N)!!" The worried screams of Gi-hun filled the place as he looked for both of you.
Even if he had promised to try and dont get attached to new players and survive he could not help but feel a connection with both of you.
"Gi-hun!" In-ho's voice called making him look over and see him coming towards the rest with you by hand something that made him curious but decided not to ask.
"Im glad to see you two alright" Gi-hun said seeing just a few bruises on you, and noticing blood on In-ho knuckles.
You catched his eyes and went to explain "He saved me" you told the rest looking at them then at In-ho who was looking back at you "I would have not made it otherwise"
The look of love you two shared was so genuine, some wonder if you two were together but trying to be discrete to protect yourselfs.
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"They will most likely attack us tonight" Gi-hun explained as he showed the fork the guards had left when the food was given.
The idea only assented itself when the men returned from the bathroom, with blood on them.
"And what do you propouse us to do?" In-ho asked all of the Xs were in a circle trying to listen to what Gi-hun had to say.
Gi-hun told the others his plan, honestly you thoguht it was nusts, it wont work. They were far suprassed on numbers but you had to shut yourself up.
You could tell your husband was both amazed by it and even kind of respecting it. Or at least that what he showed to him. He needed Gi-hun's trust after all.
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"Hide well" In-ho said besides you in a low tone "We can trust the guards but till they get here we cant trust the others"
You nodded knowing that very well since this was a typical phase of the game for years.
"We will be safe" You said holding his shoulder. "Do what you have to do, dont worry about me" You tried to make him feel at ease but he could not. The only thing that scared him more than anything were the other players trying to get to you.
"Just hang in there" He responded his forehead against yours.
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The fight was on its hot spot. The players were killing each other without a second thought.
Nothing like living it, even if you have seen this type of thing multiple times. Its was unnerving to see them just going at each others troath. The screams and cries were too much for a moment, the dark did nothing to help.
Thats when you felt it. Someone had dragged you out from under the bed and was now on top of you. You saw the player move their left hand ready to Strike at you. You tried to punch and defend yourself but the person on top was too strong.
A cold scream left your mouth as the fork pierced your shoulder.
You could not help it, the adrenaline and anxiety was getting on you.
"In-ho! In-ho help me please" You screamed for him, your husband the love of your life.
"Shut up, the next one will be your neck" The person said and for a moment you saw it. Dying in here and leaving In-ho.
Till you felt the person being pushed and the screams of them. You blinked trying to make sense.
It was In-ho, he had taken the fork from the player and was now piercing the neck of the player, not even leaving a chance for them to survive.
"GO HIDE NOW!!" In-ho ordered, he being scared himself and angry. He saw red when you were dragged and it was for the brutal grip Gi-hun had on his arm that he did not move faster.
You did as told getting under another bed and making sure no one could reach you.
"You fucking scum! How dare you lay hands on my wife" In-ho almost screamed too angry to see that the player was now dead. All his face and hands where covered in blood.
"Stop it!! They are dead, we need to continue the plan, the lights will be back soon" Gi-hun said taking him and pulling him away from the dead player.
"Get (Y/N), and be ready" Gi-hun told him trying to keep himself calm even when he was close to jump over and save you and In-ho. He wondered if he had hear it right, you were his wife?
In-ho did not waste time, searching for you in the dark till he noticed you. He went quick, pulling yourself out from the bed telling you its was him.
"Shh shh its me, its over dont cry Love" He said trying to make you feel better.
"In-ho?" He nodded and you cried harder "In-ho I was so scared"
"I know love I know, just a bit more alright? It will be over soon. Listen once the guards come in and we follow Gi-huns plan do not come. Someone will come and get you"
"Im going with you, im not leaving you in a bullet fight!"
"You know nothings gonna happen to me, I want you here, safe, alright?"
Finally you accepted.
"I love you In-ho"
"I love you too Love"
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As In-ho had said when the guards got back after the fight one took you, Player 120 tried to protest but was put back in her place by other guard.
"You are under suspect of have been part of the riot. You are now eliminated from the games"
The guard said playing his role, starting to get you out of the room while you screamed following the act.
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"Apologies Madam, orders from the Front Man" The guard said bowing once you two were outside and out of reach from the others players.
Even if you were still breathing hard you nodded. "Dont worry, just take me to him". The guard nodded.
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He knew he was needed in the control room but refused to let you alone like that. He went to your share room, his heart broke at your image, bruises and blood over you. A guard was checking your shoulder but left after he order them to.
Silence fell over both of you as he went to you and hugged you careful not to hurt your shoulder.
He removed his mask to look at you properly.
"Im sorry, I should have never let you come, I should have stopped this sooner" He said with pain in his voice
"Dont blame yourself, I told you I was going in with you. This was not your fault In-ho" You reassured him feeling sad and worried over him.
"I cant not blame myself" He gently passed his hand over your cheeck "You are the best thing in my life and I almost lost you because of my own desires, never again"
You two kissed softly grounding yourselfs. You two were safe and together nothing else matters from now. Only the love and devotion you two had for each other.
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