#im.not crying

[dilf-odo]

IM FREAKING OUT

I had to pause the episode several times to freak out

[pencilgutz]

:(

I just got the entire II movie spoiled for me I'm actually going to cry

Moots don't look at tiktok

[sensitivegoblin]

I need to watch Hazbin Hotel with a dom who will go thru the 5 stages of greif with me😭

[moldbugg]

im gonna shoot /j

HOW DO YALL DRAW THINGS SO CASUALLY 😭

[szaryherbatnik]

Ouch ouch ouch psychic damage from christmas ouch fuck ouch i cant fucking do this anymore ouch

[another-delta-lover]

Sobs cries I cant do this shit no more why do I even bother

[vvventrue]

I love my job btw and what I do but it's so weird dealing with like. What my job entails and then going home and my family and friends outside of the industry not understanding the grief I feel

[olivershmoliver0575]

I dont usually finish my artworks and its very apparent but heres some more starlo

[ruifictiveapproved]

vent. please look away 👍

i know ive said this and i keep saying it but i do think people are getting tired of me ans theyre starting to hate me and realize that being friends with me is wrong and it is it one hundred percent is but i just let myself get attached because i have greed and im so very selfish wsnting peoplr to stay but i know that wont happen and people are already leaving me and ive been alone most of the day rotting away in bed snd i dont know if its more upset than it is comforting because ifeel fucking nothing right now other than pain but when asked to describe i cannot give a clear answer. i need to run away and just leave everyone now before they do it to me, so that way im.not hurt and theyll realize im right then i change my name make new accs and start the process over witj new friends rinse wash and repeat continue doing this until i actually do suceed in killing myself since last night wasnt successful and when i do ill be a distant memory in everyones heads only something they think about on occasion and they look me up find my obituary and say "oh my, rest in peace" and move on with their day. i want that so bad. there is nothint to continue looking forward to. all my dreams will never come true, all my friends will leave, and dying is just simply apart of life. maybe its fate that im supposed to die right now but i think fate is a stupid and silly thing. whatever it is i know im supposed to be dead though because im a bad person and an abuser andni neglect people all the time and i just ruin peoples lives in the end yrt NO ONE LISTENS WHEN I SAY I DO thrn they get upset not even five fucking minutes later crying because of me and its my fault and everyones like "no no its not" but it IS if i talk about my feelings then someone starts crying thst literally makes it my fucking fault sont try to gaslight me into thinking its not my fault. all i do is hurt and all im capable of feeling is hurt andni really shpuld judt kill myself already

[chenlesfavorite]

not related to any smau or anything.. but mona IM.NOT A SOLDIER ANYMORE im crying for the past 20 minutes after mark's last post with the pics he took in latam 😭

STOPP I just saw them rn and omg 🥺🥺

im crying with you bro, lets cry together 😭🙏

[slaughteredbyamane]

CAN PEOPLE STOP COMING IN HERE AND LET ME CRY. IM NOT PATHETIC IM.NOT A LSOEER IM.NOT

[localcanadiancreature62]

AAHAHAHAHHA IM.NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING I WILL LAUGH THROUGH THE PAIN FUCK YOU

Part 3: Forever. For All Time.

PT. 1 | PT. 2 | PT. 3 | PT. 4 | PT. 5 | PT. 6

[bunny-diary]

how im.not supposed to cry when my life is like this. at level 16 im tirwd asf

[bisaster-energy]

crossing lines chapter 20 mood board

[lexa-griffins]

Can you break my heart and make me cry today? I wanna know about the major angst involving Bedwarmer Clarke and Lexa's baby from the poll we did

😈😈😈😈 there are two plot points of angst.

One of them, I won't say much - i will say there were two babies, and now there's only one. They didn't know there were two babies.

For the second point:

They are pretty far off in the pregnancy by now. Lexa has been trying to take it easy but she's still heda and she also has a small toddler to take care of so she does move a whole lot and assists with training and refuses to slow down to much even if Clarke thinks she should.

She's adamant that despite everything she is not at risk during the pregnancy, the midwives have told her she is healthy and should be perfectly fine to go about her business - as so many women do on the ground. Clarke wants to disagree, but the medical training she got on the ark barely touched pregnancy and childbirth and sometimes she really wished her mom was alive to go and ask her for advice but without her all she has is her medical instinct and a sense of doom.

That night, Lexa wakes up like usual, the baby making her go to the bathroom is by now a fairly normal occurrence at eight months. She waddled her way to the bathroom, trying to be quiet with Madi asleep with them in the bed. She's half asleep, not paying much attention to anything until she sees it. Blood, in her underwear.

No. No no no. Not now. Not this time. Not again, please no.

She wakes up Clarke to tell. Lexa feels horribly calm too. Perhaps she already knew it was going to happen, had accepted it long before it happened. When Clarke wakes up at first, she assumes Lexa is in labor but Lexa tells her no, she's spotting and they need to go to the midwife.

Madi half wakes up in the commotion of them asking a guard to watch her, and Lexa only starts to choke up when the little girl calls her over and kisses her tummy because she "wants to say bye bye to her baby sibling". She says it all the time when Lexa leaves in the morning, she doesn't mean anything by it but it feels far too real this time.

When the midwife tells them she cannot be sure and that they will have to wait to see how it progresses, Clarke feels the urge to kick the old woman. What the fuck does she mean they have to way and see?! Thats their baby! If she was in the ark, if if Clarke had managed to help, if her people hadnt been so fucking stupid maybe theyd have their technology and theyd be able to know if the baby inside Lexa is still alive or not, they could just remove the baby instead of waiting to see if her wife will have to give birth to... she cant even think about that.

They go back to the room. Clarke cannot stop pacing as if trting to remember anything that could help them right now. Lexa seems to barely be aware of anything around her, staring ahead, hands in her stomach hoping to feel a movement, a hiccup, something. But the baby is awfully quiet and still, Lexa can barely remember if she felt them move at all through the day and shevstarts to question if there is something she could have done today, yesterday, at all to save their baby. Maybe she could have done everything different. Or maybe she could have done nothing at all because this baby was just a wild fantasy that was never to be.

Madi is asleep next to them. So sweet and small. She's been so excited for a sibling, she already adores Lexa so much and had been so affectionate towards Lexa's bump over the past 3 months (yes, only three. Lexas eight months pregnant, that is not a typo ����). It breaks Lexa's heart even more, having to explain to her where the baby has gone.

At some point, they fall asleep. Neither have cried yet because despite all of their sureness in the end of this dream, neither dare to acknowledge it might be over.

Lexa wakes up with a pain on her side. She groans at it. She does not want to wake, she does not want to face the day knowing she might be less whole by the end of it.

The pain again. She swats at whatever is making it but catches nothing.

And again.

"Nomon."

"Madi baby shh"

"Nomon."

"Hmm"

"Nomon, baby want you to wake up."

"Not yet Madi."

"Baby kicking nomon. Up! Befast!"

[saphienirretable]

im.not crying guys i have a lukas stuck in my eye

Lukas and the dog

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