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Rockstar Rodrick Heffley x Midwest Goth Au. Headcanons/Storyline

Author’s Note: This has been slightly proofread but will still contain mistakes. I also decided to give Midwest Goth’s character the name Trish/Tish,because it felt silly not to name her.

Content Warning:Angst Mentions of substance abuse,medication,hallucinations,depressive and manic episodes,and pregnancy.

Backstory

•After graduation, Löded Diper disbanded. However, Rodrick and Ben still wanted to make music and decided to form a new band,but wanting to rebrand it a bit more mature this time. 

•With the little money they have,they began traveling,mostly hitchhiking. Rodrick insisted that they have to visit the bigger cities to make connections in the music and alternative scenes. Within a year and a half, they found the rest of their bandmates through parties, aftershows, and gigs.

•As the band gained local attention in England, Rodrick met Tish.

•Tish had left her small Texas town at 16, unable to stand the small town life any longer. She moved to England,where she was mostly couch surfing, organizing gigs for friends to be able to pay for her groceries and weed,and occasionally selling her photography on the street,though it rarely brought in money.

•Her best friend was Ben’s ex, which is how she met Rodrick.

•One night, Rodrick played a gig Tish had organized. She owed Ben a favor and promised to manage the event. Backstage at the afterparty,Tish ran into Rodrick,who was already a bit tipsy.

•Rodrick, a touchy, sleepy, emotional drunk, they spent the night drinking and lounging on a couch. He bombarded her with questions, though she wasn’t interested in him at all which caused the convo to be pretty one sided. 

•She told Rodrick she’s lived here in england since she’s sixteen and that she isnt actually british but just picks up accents quickly,that she’s crashing at friends’ places, organizing gigs for pocket money,and doing photography.

•Tish’s goal wasn’t stability,she was content with her current lifestyle. Though she had dreams,wanting to do theater design and costume work,she downplayed them as unrealistic in front of others,in front of Rodrick too that night. 

•Rodrick was immediately head over heels in that moment. She wasn’t like Heather Hills or his high school girlfriends,he usually went for girly, popular, and hard to get. Tish was awkward,seemingly nervous,and seemingly a bit lazy. Rodrick found her mannerisms and attitude magnetic. 

•So he offered her a deal,if she could get the band gigs and publicity,she could become their stylist. She agreed,the band gained more attention,booking small gigs,magazine shootings and so on. 

•Rodrick loved watching her boss people around as their manager,while Tish was drawn to his stage presence and how he could change the mood of a whole crowd so effortlessly. 

•They started living together, switching between friends’s couches after getting kicked out every other week.Their relationship developing to friends with benefits, though it was clear romantic feelings were involved on both sides. They didn’t label it,but they knew they were both taken now,completely obsessing over one another,not spending time away from eachother for months,always mentioning the other one in every conversation,Rodrick getting her goat lambchop tattooed on his rib.

•Two years after meeting, Rodrick proposed. It was casual but not in an unthoughtful way,he thought about what she’d find authentic and intimate.They got fast food and slushies,like every sunday as his band was at their apartment decorating the living room,with fairy lights and white rose petals and balloons. 

•Susan helped him pick a ring, she was worried he’d choose something too rustic. It was a ring with a small diamond, engraved with "Not for riches but for love",that he ended up choosing. 

•Tish said yes immediately,not that it wasnt thought through well enough,she knew she wanted Rodrick in her life for as long as humanly possible,and that was all she needed to know. 

They spent the whole night planning,not getting any sleep,deciding on a forest wedding for October next following year, three months after Rodricks tour would end. 

Tour Life

•Rodrick was thrilled and the band finally had a budget for stage outfits and makeup when the tour started.Tish decorated their bunk bed with glow in the dark stars,stickers,and photos.Technically they didn’t need to squeeze into one bunk bed,they had a spare one but Rodrick likes physical touch to fall asleep and Tish finds comfort in knowing he’s close on eventful days. 

•However tour slowly became more draining.Constant traveling,press,studio sessions,and performances wore them down quickly. 

•There were rare hotel stays,where they’d cuddle,eat fast food, play board games, and fall asleep to audiobooks but that was it. 

•As the pressure kept building,it got more rocky. Rodrick took his frustration out on Tish, blaming her for bad concerts,saying that she wasn’t creative enough and that the concerts were only so horrible because she didnt add anything to the stage performance and presence with her ideas.Giving her the silent treatment after each concert for hours on end as he went to get high. 

•Tish’s mental health went down hill from there on. She rotated between manic and depressive episodes,which even Rodrick noticed,it was hard to miss,as she’d go from cracking jokes,doing enough work for a month,no sleep and excessive talking (even for her) to barely getting out of bed,hallucinations,and even disorientation. 

•Rodrick called Tish‘s dad,who didnt know how to help at all and then he immediately called Susan who let him pour his heart out for probably the first time ever. 

•Susan told him that Tish needs him to at least pretend he’s stable but that they both need help individually,not depending on one another. 

•Rodrick offered to get a private therapist,having weekly appointments as long as they were on tour at least and considering getting medical help.Tish was skeptical at first but Rodrick told her he needed her to try for him, if she couldn’t bring herself to do it for herself then she’d need to do it for him. She then agreed. 

•Rodrick began journaling this time finally writing for himself instead of needing material for a song,he also started doodling which drew his attention to graffiti art,finding an art from that wasnt connected to work and that he could just cope with. •Tish, however felt like she was stuck in time.Each time she’d work on something her inner monologue had been her and Rodrick‘s screaming matches,feeling too insecure to show him what she was working on,showing the other band members and crew staff instead. 

•She was already a self conscious person,Rodrick being the only family she had with having split parents and a cold dad who would’ve desperately wanted a son (which was easy to tell),she needed a bit of time to understand that Rodrick and her relationship couldn’t always be excessive partying and full time. 

•Rodrick realized he needed to listen and support her more,asking her more questions,showing acts of service,learning to listen. 

•Tish slowly realized that it’s not Rodrick’s responsibility to magically guess everything she’s feeling and that she needs to communicate and set boundaries if something is bothering her. 

•After tour they moved back to london,into their flat,the first days finally feeling peaceful and quiet,and this time the routine and stable environment didnt bother them at all.

At least that was Rodricks point of view. 

•What he didn’t know was that Tish sat in the tiny bathroom of the tour bus a few days prior staring at two lines on the pregnancy test in her hand as she dissociated.