#iromanticize

[i-romanticize]

Rediscovering the joys of antiquing. Back, when we were young and dating, we’d spend our Saturdays meandering between antique shops, bookstores, and cafés—chasing forgotten treasures and piecing together the memories left behind by strangers.

[saint-tyago]

July 13, 2024

A letter to the 29 yr old me Hi, I see you. Okay? I know you are trying really hard in life and I totally understand. You are trying to catch up with everyone because you feel so left behind and it’s okay. You are so pressured to excel because everybody else at work is excellent. You feel so old yet you’ve barely accomplished anything in life - You are so disappointed with yourself.  Boy you are so tired you don’t even recognize your self anymore. Your work is consuming so much of your life, you spend so much time with people at work you don’t even spend time with yourself nor with your loved ones. You know it is wrong. It feels wrong. Jeff I know you miss your old self.  Yung Jeff na mahilig iromanticize yung buhay niya, yung Jeff na nakakatawa, Yung Jeff na Gustong plaging masaya. Jeff it’s time to recognize that you do not miss Mark. You just miss being happy. You miss genuine happiness not a forced one. You miss yourself because you don’t recognize who you are anymore. Altho right now, I am happy that you now have the things that you once prayed for. Working at BGC, Having an iPhone 11, Having a MacBook Air, Learning and meeting different people. You now have all of these and I am happy for your but I know you are a person who values his freedom, You miss hiking and exploring different places in the Philippines. You don’t like Intramural anymore and you are trying to like it back again because Intramuros once made you genuinely happy.  However I am proud of you for being strong. The job that you have right now is not for everyone and I know what you been through is no joke. Celeste made your life in Ubiquity a living hell. You survived Joan’s betrayal, You survived being the talk of the group, you survived C diff, You survived Covid, You survived Anxiety attacks, you survived sleeping inside the storage room just to get the job done, you survived Joan’s betrayal, You survived working with people who talks behind your back and people who paints a different picture of you to other people. Jeff is you are so strong I hope you recognize that. A lot of things have happened for the past 2 years and I know a lot of things will still happen so please buckle up. It won’t stop whether you stay in Ubiquity or decided to leave. Believe me, all these things are necessary. Whether these are bad experiences or a good one. I know it was necessary. Growth is painful Jeff. The fact that you are struggling, it means that you are growing. Like a seed, it was necessary for a seed to be in the dark and beneath the ground for it to flourish and become a tree. Again. Those “lost” moments that you’ve experienced in Ubiquity and those struggles? Those were necessary in your maturity.  Jeff it’s time to recognize that you are maturing. You are becoming the man that you are called to be. You are definitely better that the man you were 2 yrs ago.

It’s time to recognize that you are maturing. You are becoming the man that you are called to be. You are definitely better that the man you were 2 yrs ago. 

[honey10393]

Day 1 of daily (?) blogging again...

Matapos ko panooring yung spin off ng Bridgerton about the queen, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Para bang buong buhay ko na kasi the past year, nakatutok sa either lovelife or trabaho ko. May time ako kanina para magmeditate, magyoga, magstrecth konti, pero wala. Para bang naubos lahat ng willingness ko alagaan ang sarili ko. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula...ayokong isipin kasi na yung future unemployment ko ang solusyon sa mga problema ko.

Oo, kapag nakapagresign ako, mas may oras na ako para sa sarili ko, sa hobbies ko, sa workout, pero wala akong pera. Sarap sana iromanticize pero nakakatakot yung fact na baka months pa bago ako makahanap ng trabaho...at imbis na mainspire ako, magrorot nanaman ako kasi madedepress ako. Pero okay, let's not say na hindi naman ganon kagrabe.

Pero ang point ko is, I have to start somewhere. Hindi ko dapat hintayin magresign, dapat magstart ako ngayon o bukas.

Ang hirap kasing maging adult, parang kelangan lumabas ka, makipagsocialize, pero dapat healthy ka din kasi hindi ka na bumabata, tapos pati skincare, pero pati career, importante din, pero nasa point ka na rin na wala ka nang paki sa social expectations. Pero hindi ko alam...nakakapressure, nakakapagod, nakakaovewhelm, na gusto mo nalang bumalik sa summer days na kung saan okay lang ang lahat.

[thesleepingnini]

paglabas ko ba ng UP, pwede ko na iromanticize yung campus? hirap kasi pagnasa loob ka at namamatay eh AHHAHHAHA

[poleeeng]

Depende kasi yan sa approach mo. Baka kasi parang inuutusan mo sya or nagdedemand ka talaga na mag-update sya. Sabi ko nga depende yan sa ugali at nakasanayan ng tao. Hindi lahat ganon na pala update. Di lahat ng oras makakapag-update. Sabi ko nga di lang sayo umiikot mundo nya. What if nagwowork? Nag-aaral? Need nya pa ba magpaalam sayo sa ganung bagay? After nyan sa ginagawa nya sigurado naman na babalik sya sayo para kausapin ka. Bigyan mo din sya oras pra sa sarili nya. Magadjust kayo pareho. Kausapin mo ng maayos hanggang magmeet kayo sa gitna, na dapat napagkasunduan nyo na yung set-up na balance para sa inyong dalawa.

“Kasama nya kaibigan nya.”? Hmm kung totoong binigyan mo sya ng time kasama kaibigan nya, para sakin di sya obligado mag-update sayo at kausapin ka from time to time. Kasi kung ganon, edi di mo din binigay yung time nya para sa sarili nya at para sa social life nya. Hindi ka nya nakakalimutan. Ineenjoy nya lang yung “me time” nya.

Lagi mo iisipin na dalawa kayong individuals. Magkaibang tao kayo at may sariling buhay. Keep it in mind na hindi lahat ng bagay na ginagawa nya dapat alam mo. Swear di ka nya nakakalimutan. Hindi talaga kasi lahat kailangan alam mo, di lahat ng kilos nya kailangan nya sabihin sayo. TIP? TRUST HIM. Yun lang. and icommunicate mo yung love language mo sa kanya, pag usapan nyo yung love language ng isat isa. Again gaya ng sabi ko kanina, meet halfway na balanse para sa both parties.

Lahat naman ng babae may moodswings. Ganun din mga lalaki. Wag natin iromanticize yung “toyoin” thing. Hindi kasi cute yon. Okay lang naman maging cold, may times na ganun talaga. Valid yang nararamdaman mo. Pero at the end of the day, importante parin communication.

[shugarecords]

Here's a fun Friday release to check out @h_hawkline's 'I Romanticize' just the right amount of indie pop mixed with @catelebon jangle. Get at it! #hhawkline #catelebon #janglepop #iromanticize

[benefits1986]

420 Taurus Twin Towers Seenzoned SZN

Watching two high and mighty towers crash and burn is both heart-wrenching and awe-spiring. 

Let’s shake things up a bit and ibagsak na natin ang plot twist agad: I keep Taurus people out because I think and feel that I can no longer afford to lose another Taurus. ‘Pag Taurus, ekis. Sorry na, not sorry... love and light na lang be with you. Babu!  However, the past months have tested this Cancer bitch na sobrang ginawa na ang lahat-lahat para ma-veer away sa “weak, soooo weak” points ng Cancer. Let me explain. ‘Di ito about zodiac shaming. Nauso lang ulit ang zodiac to the point na pinasahan pa ako ng isang AI dedicated to it. LOL. ‘Wag ako. Mother dragon is a fan of the zodiac shit kahit until now, I still doubt it. Trust issues na walang pake kahit sa Google search results at studies na peer-reviewed. CHZ. I’m not so basic like that o baka mapilit ko lang, yet again.  Mom always uses this alibi ‘pag may away kami, may ayaw ako, may ayaw siya, at lahat na ng klaseng bagay sa multiverse. I grew up hearing the line: Taurus ako, Cancer ka, with matching her signature shit laugh or ‘pag galit, pangdidilat ng malala. Feeling niya lagi, perfect match kami. Partners in crime. Forever besties. Or whatever na spelling clingy all over. Kaya, again, no shame sa lahat ng mga Taurus. Nanay ko lang po kalaban ko ha? I AM SORRY. Alam mo ‘yung ma-connect lang niya talaga para matawid na naman niya pet project hat on niya. Tapos ako na naman ang taya, always.  Anyway, mom and I... such an interesting combo in this lifetime and even in the next one talaga. Hands down naman doon. Wala akong comeback diyan. But, sinamahan pa ‘to ng isang Taurus Tito na sobrang laking forces sa aking kabataan and until now. Damn. Sana kayanin ko ang deluge of emotions for the first buga of Taurus szn 2023. Lezzgooowww. After all, ‘di naman na nila ako mapapagalitan IRL e. Iniwan na nila ako for good. Mom ko, 2012. Tito ko, 2010. Both of them under 60. Shit. Alam mo ‘yung biglang nawala lahat ng plano ko with them and for them tapos wala na, lasog na ako. Pulbos levels. No erase. Period. So, dito, lalagay ko ‘yung tales plus the ME NOW bits and pieces para fair naman sa aming 3. We all deserve that, right?  Google results, AI and studies aside, ako naman ang mag-deep dive sa lagay ng Cancer me and Taurus towers na ‘to. Ako naman. Tumabi kayong lahat diyan. It’s not a love-hate connection but a really good push and pull kasi nga ‘yung weaknesses nung isa, strengths ng isa. Badly put ‘yan a. ‘Wag nating iromanticize kasi pota, mga Taurus are carino brutal AF. Mga OG na akala mo maka-bash wagas, walang bukas. Syempre, since interactions ko with them started really, really young as a mushy (noon) na Cancer, girl, ayoko na. HAHAHAHA. Pero mom and tito laging may buga. ‘Pag ‘di ako sumasagot, tatanungin ako bakit ayaw ko sumagot. So, need ko talagang sumagot. ‘Pag iiyak ako, talagang ipu-push akong i-reason out bakit ako umiiyak na naman sa simpleng bagay. ‘Pag naman attack mode ako, aba, akala mo naman ‘di nila ako na-train sumagot. Parang laging nakakalost in translation ang mga bagay ‘pag andyan na sila. Ganun. Tapos, ‘yung side-eye emojis saka mga tingin na akala mo may scanning machines sila at perfect sila, staples na ‘yan even before I wake up and eat breakfast. Shet. Such graphic memories, mhie.  **Side Note: Homebody ako noon. Nung nawala mom and tito ko, ayoko sa bahay. Ayoko sa within their perimeter. Pero, ‘pag nasa bahay naman ako, okay ako now. :D Also, ‘pag nasa galaan ako, I really look forward to coming home, ergo, I’m an intentional homebody in WIP.  Clingy levels 100000000000 across the multiverse din ‘tong dalawang ‘to. FUCK. Syempre, Cancer free-spirited na homebody. Eto na nga. Weekdays spent with mom. Weekends on official businesses spent with Tito ‘pag wala akong projects and maduguang homeworks and tasks for my brother. ‘Yung touch nila nakakaabala. Tito ko ‘pag nagda-drive, laging pinipisil ‘yung chubby cheeks ko. ‘Yung gigil siya habang may iniisip siya para sa work niya mostly tapos ako ang alay. Wala ‘tong kahit anong trace ng abuse to be super specific. Pero ‘pag nag-OUCH naman ako, titigil naman siya. HAHAHA. Tapos ulit uli. Hayup. Oks lang naman medyo gigil kaso ‘yung super duper, mhie for a child, solid sakit. :D Mom ko naman ‘pag katabi ko tapos tinotopak, nihahawakan yung meaty part ng neck ko, sa may just above my collar bones. Usually ‘pag nanood ng TV or nagbabasa. ‘Di naman masakit pero for sooooo long like 30 minutes. Pet ba ako talaga? Ganun ba talaga? Dahil Cancer ako? ‘Di ako natutuwa. I find it weird and waste of time kasi nga, ligalig ako. Pero, it seems therapeutic naman sa kanila bilang mga hayok sa goals nila ---mom as a legit stay-at-home mom, tito as a really high and mighty boss sa very cut-throat industry. So, sige, okay. Sana uso na essential oils noon ‘di ba saka massage chairs para pota, makalaro na ako sa labas. HAHAHAHA.  ME NOW: Carino brutal levels 1000000 na rin ako. LOL. Pero may heaps of pa-sweet and maldita undertones  Isa pang shitballs Taurus tale is I always feel never enough. Matatalino at madiskarte ‘tong 2 na ‘to in their own rights. As in. I am dyslexic pero since wala pa namang ganung universe noon, I really feel inadequate in their presence and even in their absence. Very Cancer. SHIT. Hahahaha. Pero etong 2 na ‘to ako na naman ang subject pati predicate. Tito ko usually reads broadsheets while drinking coffee and/or smoking. Tapos may ritual kami na ‘pag may assignment ako or something important, we share a common space. Magbabasa siya ng random headline tapos i-summarize niya tapos tatanong opinyon ko. Alam mo ‘yung oks naman intent pero mhie, bata ako. So, syempre mga ambag ko pabebe pero ‘di siya tumigil hanggang napiga niya mga medyo laban na comments and questions. Mom ko naman, ‘pag may house chores and school works, lagi niya i-ask, anong alternative sa ganitong situation? Pota. ‘Yung tamang sagot nga, hassle na lalo sa math, tapos, alternative, Plan B-Z agad? Anong kasalanan ko? Bakit parang kasalanan ko na the world is full of answers both right and wrong? Pero, dito ako na-train na ‘wag ma-intimidate kahit super dami kong trust issues sa world and lalo sa sarili ko. ‘Di ko talaga ma-explain pero rooted ito sa kanila. Pakshet sila.  ME NOW: Plan A-Z po tayo. Nag-overthink na with a heart. May alternative multiverse na ako. Sila kasi unbothered kaya a lot of times, from afar, akala mo cold sila saka walang pake. Iba naman walang pake sa unbothered. Masyado silang thinking and doing beings. Still working on my trust issues pero I think, I know my worth na now kahit paano. (insert mom and tito’s side-eye emoji IRL here for maximum epek) 

Side Kwento: Nung 17 ako and I really wanted to get mom out of her first hospital and bring her to PGH, sabi ng dad ko, kung gusto ko raw, gawaan ko ng paraan. Syempre, wala naman akong access sa big funds noh. Wala rin akong alam noon except sa nursing background ko sa academe. Soooo, eto na nga. After mega iyak kasi feeling ko attacked ako, I went to my tito. Morning ‘yun tapos kain mode siya ng bahaw + mainit na kanin + sipsip ng mata ng pangat na isda, tapos, I presented my case. HAHAHAHA. In between fat ass tears, sabi niya, so anong gagawin mo? POTA. Heartless but alam ko, he is just pushing me to fight a good fight. Sabi ko, tito, I need funds and logistics to get mom out ASAP. That’s where you come in. I need this. And I know you need and want this, too. He said, OK. May shares pala sila sa hospi na ‘yun at nakatikim sila ng schooling from him plus, ako naman, naghanap ng connections na sobrang layo pero tinawid para malipat mom ko sa PGH. Tito and I settled na we will risk na walang liability ang first hospi just in case madeads si mom along the way. Eto siguro ‘yung first ever kong taya ng walang bukas. Tito assured me mom will make it since matapang siya. LOL. GAGI. Sabi niya sa akin, good job, keep up. HYPE SIYA. HYPE SILA.  ‘Pag nag-away ang 2 Taurus na ‘to, mhie, ako ang naiipit at napipitpit. And that happened talaga. As in. Years after mom somewhat recovered, they had a super major rift. As in ang lala. Core values versus core values. Ganern. Syempre, ayoko nun kasi may sakit mom ko tapos tito is undergoing personal life challenges I won’t disclose na kasi mismong ako, sobrang sama ng loob ko sa kanya noon since core values ko rin ‘yun na-hit niya. I tried my best to present so many cases to both of them. Pero, wala, mhie. Parehas silang may point. Solid na solid kasi ‘tong 2 na ‘to. Parang ride or die nila ‘yung isa’t isa saka ‘di ako at peace na kagulo sila. Wrath levels 100000 po, opo. HAHAHAHA. As a Cancer, caring ako CHAR. Noon. Kaya ayoko kasi na shaken ang relationships ko lalo sa loved ones ko. POTA. WEAK. Etong rift na ‘to even sa deathbed ng tito, sabi ni mom na bakit ko raw pupuntahan pa tito e may pamahiin daw na bawal mag-hilaan. Sobrang beast mode talaga ako kasi ‘di ko na talaga kaya,mhie. Sabi ko sa mom ko, ‘wag siyang magbitaw ng strong statement na ganun to shut me up kasi nakailang visits na siya sa ibang super close relatives namin both super sick, almost dying and dead na. Nastop mom ko. She has trained me well. Don’t try to gaslight me, mother. Never again. Sa moment lang na ‘yun. Wala pang gaslighting na term, ganun na siya, silang 2. HAHAHAHA. So, ‘pag punta ko sa executive wing ng hospi ni tito, I kennat. Akala na naman sugar baby niya ako kasi nagkataon puro mga higher ups pala ang visitors niya that time. ‘Di kasi ako nagpasabi. Basta pumunta na lang ako. Wala rin namang pumigil sa akin. So, in between the hush of the marites na mga mostly men with matching glaring stares, I went to my tito. Naluha lang ako ilang drops of tears. RBF na ako nito kasi adult enough na saka pinatapang na nila ako. He smiled a lopsided smile. Mhie, naiiyak ako RN. Fuck. That moment, I saw him fall flat. He’s been one of my towers and still is, pero crumbling right before my eye. I told him, long time, no see. GAGI. Bitch ko na talaga. He asked me balita. Saka kung bakit ‘di pa rin daw ako nagpapa-mentor under him sa job offer niya since high school. Sabi ko, ayoko siya kawork as a certified sagad sa buto na workaholic. Pero ‘pag gumaling siya, I will reconsider. Tumawa ng kagaguhan tawa pero hirap and sad laugh. He said, makes sense. Sabi ko, anong Plan B niya. Wala raw. FUCK. Naiiyak ako lalo RN pero tatawid ko ito. For the first in forever, wala siyang Plan B. Dead end na raw e, pero, ‘wag ka. He specifically requested for 2 surgeons. HAHAHAH. Hyapppp talaga ‘to noh? Para daw sure na he gets nothing but the best results. ‘Di ko kinaya. While this was taking place, a rep from HR interrupted our bashing catch up. Sabi niya, eto na lang tayo. Hanggang dito, pipirma at piprima tayo ng kabundok na dokumento. My tito. Sooooo fucked up. Sooooo dark. Sooo unforgettable. He then told me na plan niya to retire by 55 kaso things didn’t go as planned. FUCK. Bakit parang yesterday lang ‘to? Because, ngayon ko lang na revisit with intent. Period. Alam mo ‘yung bata pa lang ako pay grade niya Land Cruiser? Ganern. He bought a ranch kasi gusto na lang daw niya ng tahimik na buhay after 55. Flashbacks of our roadtrips poured nung sinabi niya ‘yun. Super tangkad and broad shoulders ng tito ko. Workaholic levels? Wala siyang pake kahit na-windburn siya sa big, big meetings. Kasi siya lang gumagawa nun. He came from a non A-list school ang biggest pilot project (pilot na big noh? taena) is to mass hire 100+ employees na hindi from the Big 4. Eto ‘yung sobrang naging buzz sa industry nila and siya ‘yun. ‘Yung kahit big boss, sumasabak sa lahar na naka-pick up tapos uuwi ng nakangisi kasi natawid niya deadline niya. Shet. Naiiyak ako. HAHAHHA. Pero, not falling ang tears para makafocus ako. I told my tito na ginusto niya rin naman ‘yung situation niya, so, ‘wag siyang mag-drama much. Alam niya that this thing would happen pero tinuloy niya pa rin. Sinagad niya pa rin. He smiled another lopsided smile and asked me, kung tabingi  ba ‘yung face niya. GAGI TALAGA. Sarcasm x dark humor 1000000. He thanked me for the surprise visit and sent warm regards to mom. Hayup talaga silang 2.  Side note: Mashup ako ng tito and mom ko when it comes to sarcasm x dark humor. Minsan nga, ‘pag may bitaw ako, may heavy influences nila both ‘yun. Crazy & good shit kasi nare-realize ko lang after. 

Mom ko naman on her deathbed, sabi sa akin, sana raw mas minahal niya self niya. Sana raw ‘di niya masyadong ni-career pagiging mother dragon. AHAHAHAHA. Sabi ko naman noon, it’s never too late. Tumigil daw ako kasi the end is near. Her end is near. And that she needs me to be at my strongest when she is at her weakest. POTA. Mhie, Cancer ako pero trained ng Taurus so, RN, sobrang feels po tayo dito. Buti na lang safe space ako. HAHAHAHA. Ansakit, mhie. She groomed me because she needs and wants to leave me. Tama ba ‘yun? I mean, yeah, I get it noh? Pero, sana mas marami kaming time. Syempre, negated na naman ako. She told me that I can’t do my thing if she’s panggulo, pangabala. And that she never intended to get in the way of her dream: my dreams. ‘Yan. Too self-giving kasi ang mga potang Taurus na ‘to. Okay pa kayo BP ko? Siguro naman. Sana naman.  ME NOW: Dati, tito ko is my benchmark sa work, sa goal setting. Tito ko kasi may raket noon para sa tuition na taga-bungkal sa roadworks and he was able to soar so high talaga. Walang nakapigil. LOL. Pero life happened. Things changed. I do my best these days to choose to work for me to live a well-lived life. My tito and my mom taught me that. Okay naman talagang isagad mo, pero mag-tira ka para sa sarili mo at lalo sa mga taong mahal mo.  Hindi madali ‘yung mga ME NOW na ‘yan lalo the past months. LOL. As a Cancer like the rest of the zodiacs, we all have red flags. But may be, just may be, collabs with a new Taurus character (storyline pala in WIP na ‘to) will test how much I’ve learned, unlearned and relearned from the past years with the past hurts. As in, super casual mention lang niya na Taurus siya and bakit may Taurus trigger ako. OWAW. Muntik ko na talagang i-no go ‘to. Immature na kung immature pero na-trigger ako kasi ‘di naman na ‘to big deal sa akin. Naging running joke na ‘tong lekat na zodiac na ‘to for me for a really, really long time. Kasi, kahit anong zodiac naman, at the end of the day, nasa tao pa rin ‘yan mismo; just like personality tests na mas malakas ang hatak and validity.  So, eto na tayo, Taurus szn. I would try my friggin’ best to not seenzone incoming Taurus characters. PATAY. HAHAHA. Rationale is that ‘di naman nila kasalanan na maging Taurus BUT I shall proceed with caution. Safe distance pero mhie, clingy beasts po sila by nature talaga. Sayang din kasi ‘yung chances na baka magkaroon ng plot twists turned life-changing story lines, ‘di ba? And now, mas mature na nga ako for roles and B-rolls, too.  Will likely send this to my Taurus incoming collab din para naman aligned din siya. Hahaha. Baka nago-overthink na ‘yun much or baka naman as always, too busy, too little time lang. Bwelo lang ako malala. Baka 2024 ko na share or ‘pag tinopak ako. Sabihin pa nun: Bwahahaha. YEY. Noted with thanks. Tara na!  Sure na ba ako as a moody Cancer? Sure na ba? Abangan.  PL RN: Barely Breathing (Duncan Sheik) ----whhhyyy Spotify? Talagang sobrang spot on mo or is this the universe telling me to... keep up and don’t fuck it up? Abangan din natin ang kahindik-hindik na mga susunod na kabanata.  Okay, back to work. Love, light & shadows, multiverse! ‘Di na naman ako makatulog so distract natin sarili natin para maiba naman. Long weekend naman din after today, so, nageexplain na naman ako. 

[i-romanticize]

It’s wildflower season. #iromanticize #instagood #wildflowers #spring #wildflowersofinstagram #wildflowergarden https://www.instagram.com/p/Cq38tMrLh1u/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[woo-shy]

Super loaded ako ng gawain, feeling ko, kahit sembreak ko naman dapat. Ahaha. Putragis, sana sa next life ko eh nepo baby na ako kase kung hindi lang rin edi wag na lang ako bigyan ng next life. Nakakapagod mabuhay pag hindi ka mayaman at di mo nagagawa mga gusto mong gawin sa buhay. Kahit anong try ko na iromanticize ang buhay ko eh ang hirap hirap talaga. Hay.

[sunb0rn]

epal kasi ng roommate ko pinagtatawanan yung pagttake note ko na first time kong walang kasama for 2 nights dito (yung mga una ksi one night lang)

sabi ko m*m*m*t*y na kase ako kaya im keeping tabs ng rare moments sa buhay ko. 🙄 well, gusto ko lang talaga iromanticize mga bagay na hindi everyday nangyayare sa akin, tska eto halimbawa, dream ko kasi magkaroon ng sariling room. pero tbh there are days na kaka ganito ko or kapag naooverwhelm ako sa mga ganap or feel ko hinahabol ko mangyare mga bagay naiisip ko na din "m*m*m*t*y na ba ako?"

nag celebrate din talaga ako, kumain nga ako fried noodles kasi craving ko yan last week pinagbigyan ko na sarili ko kahit unhealthy eme.

kung di ako nagkakamali, this would be the first time na dalawang gabi ako mag isa dito sa apartment kaya din nag decide ako na next week na magbalik sa gym.

gusto ko lamg muna sulitin.

[thesleepingnini]

Please di talaga maatim ng sikmura ko yung tiktok vid sa twitter. Nakakasuka. Pwede bang wag na natin iromanticize yung ganon. Gusto ko makipagsapukan, nakakasuka talaga. parang kumukulo yung dugo sa buong katawan ko dahil sa mga narelive na trauma pucha.

[world-of-e-nonymous]

[E]ntry #8

Seriously, what do I really want to happen?! I cant continue life with this fucking lifestyle of mine. There is a perfect timing for everything but if I keep on wasting my time, darating kaya sakin yung perfect timing na yun? I sucked at planning, self discipline and control. Kung may gusto kang marating sa buhay mo, aba ella you need to change! You're not getting any younger pero bakit parang paurong yung developments. Nagtatampo ka Ella because you realized na your parents were right?! And you cant admit it, dahil sa pride? Mali yan uy. Grow up! Hindi lahat magaadjust palagi sayo just because you want it. Mahiya ka naman! Life is not all about you. You have to understand and learn that. Matalino ka naman kaya wag kang magbobobohan. Wag kang magbago kung kailan everyone already turned their back against you. Ngayon palang fix yourself kung gusto mong magstay silang lahat sa paligid mo.

Isa pa, trust the process oo. May rason kung bakit ka nasa ganitong sitwasyon ngayon pero huwag mo naman iromanticize at gawing excuse. Kilos-kilos din! Lahat ng mga naging successful, nangarap din yung mga yan but they worked hard para maabot kung anong meron sila. They did something to turn their dreams into reality. WALANG SHORTCUT SA BUHAY, KEEP THAT IN MIND! Sana simula ngayon, make a concrete plan and make sure na tuparin mo yun. Hindi ka na bata at hindi na uso yung mga biglaan at cramming.

Lastly, keep your feet on the ground. Tandaan mo na unworthy ka but the Lord is still there giving you love that you didn't deserve because you are a sinner. Wala kang dapat ipagmalaki kundi Siya lang. Lahat ng mayroon ka sa Kanya lahat yan. Be grateful and huwag madamot. Sana after making this letter, gumaan yung pakiramdam mo and when you had the chance to read it again, better version of yourself ka na. Love love

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I believe that Iromanticize sexual encounters as love.

I believe I only tasted love once and it intoxicated me to the point that when I woke up..The hangover kept me from ever wanting to truely do it again.

I believe I’m confused..

I throw love around so freely that I believe if I “express” it enough it may actually form into a real thing.

I Believe that every encounter I’ve had with a man who believed I was ‘Beautiful” confused me..bewildered me..and just like that it was love.

I believe that I may have built so many walls that climbing is impossible..so I tuck those feelings of passion, true love, compassion and pure bliss behind them with a do not disturb sign placed so boldly that no one dares to get close..

And for those who try..I wish the best of luck..Because there will be a maze..a wall..another maze and right before you get close to the DO NOT DISTURB..Poof I’m gone..Leaving behind your feelings and despiration to get close.

And those I want close...Just before you get close enough to graze your fingers across the amazing structure, I run..Run so far away that chasing me is pointless..I will bury you under ruins of old bones..

Because, you see.. I fear you will get close and the disaster that is myself will be a black hole. A pit you will get lost, be trapped in..I will ruin you as I have myself..I will leave you tired and disappointed.

You will go..Because after all everyone does..

[aiklahori]

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