#is hasty and doesnt like being alone

[erisluna35ocblog]

This is a little hard cause I do have a pokemon au but my gyms for them are less strict on elements and focuses more on tactics or stats.

Keagan: Specializes mostly in fire types with some grass and flying for coverage. Signature mon is either Arcanine or Houndoom. Takes advantage of sunny day tactics, overwhelming opponents with speed and offense. Very unstoppable force themed.

Fiona: Mainly specializes in ice and steel, but her gym is more themed for defense and uses every means to boost it. Snow to boost her ice types, steel types who are bulky in general, and all of them being some kind of dual type for coverage. Her signature mon however, is an Alolan Sandslash with Slush Rush, making use of its speed.

Natalia: Water and Poison type specialist. Between all the toxic, toxic spikes, aqua rings and hp steal moves like draining kiss and giga drain, her main tactic is passive hp draining while outliving opponents. Moves like mean look or whirlpool keep her opponents from switching out. Her signature mon is Mareanie, with the ability Merciless.

Shizuke: Grass and Fighting types are his specialty. Signature mon is Whimsicott, who keeps his team set up with Prankster. Much like Natalia, he takes advantage of status ailments, but his is more on sleep or paralysis to give himself more turns instead of poisoning away their health. He also makes use of moves like counter, reversal and retalliate, to keep ahead of his enemies despite losing HP.

Damien: Doesn't seem to have a real specialty as his pokemon ranges from Ground, Rock, Normal and Steel types. He focuses on big bulky pokemon like Fiona, but with sandstorm instead of snow as his favored weather. I see him as more of an early game gym leader who largley holds back to give newbies a learning experience.

Zephyr: Electric, Bug and Flying specialist. His team messes around with switch ins using baton pass and u-turn and volt switch. He has his pokemon sabotage their stats with moves like Charm, Screech, String Shot, or Superfang. All his pokemon have high speed stats. Works best in double battles. His signature mon is Pachirisu.

Blair: Psychic, Dark and Ghost specialist with Espeon as her signature mon. Fights dirty using moves and abilities to punish set ups. Status ailments? Her Espeon has synchronize. Lower her stats? Defiant or Competetive. Boost yourself? Psych up or Punishment. She's a pain in the butt to fight. Trying to gain an advantage against her is futile, best to fight her straight up.

Blake: Also a Psychic, Dark and Ghost specialist with Umbreon as his signature mon. Contrast to his sister, he fights to endure. He will Haze away your set ups. Will-o-wisp down your attacks and HP. Messes with you using Parting Shot. If his pokemon die, they get the last laugh with Grudge or Memento. And when he's down to his last mon, he has a Supreme Overlord Kingambit sitting in the back at max stats.

If your OC was a pokemon gym leader, what type would they specialize in?

[jimmyscanongf]

In the Christmas spirit I bestow upon you a Jimmy self ship hc: you give him a present for Christmas and he’s absolutely floored. Not because like he didn’t want to get you a gift; but bc he’s just so used to this time of year being shitty he didn’t even think about the usual traditions.

like, thank goodness you hinted at it before Christmas Day. Like saying you’re so excited to give him his gift or something. And like, Jimmy rushes out on Christmas Eve to get something, *anything* for you. And he’s cursing himself out the entire time because this is stupid and why is he even doing this but. It’s important. It’s the sentiment of the thing, yknow?

so he awkwardly gives you a little gift hehe

I LOVE YOUUUUUUY OXY <33333 AHHHHHHHHH i bet the wrapping’s all janky and hasty too. man does not know what he’s doing (he should have just gotten a gift bag but its even cuter that he tried wrapping it)

he for real wasnt expecting anything but to sit alone in his cold ass apartment feeling like shit for christmas like he usually does. and he doesnt have lots of extra money just lying around. scrambling trying to find something last minute. i think he ends up with something pretty safe and utilitarian, like a mug or something. but it’s like, a nice mug. and he at least knows enough to pick one thats aesthetically pleasing to me.

he’d be pretty happy to see it become my go to first choice mug

[leticia-helena]

Is it true that all twin flames and starseeds choose to incarnate in toxic dysfunctional families in order to heal generational trauma?

Yes.

Most of them are born in heavy generational traumatic families.

Like for example: The DF is born in a narcissistic co dependent family where feelings or love is not at all a topic. No one ever discusses about emotional issues. The work like machines and function in low vibes. The conversations mostly revolve around disrespecting the other family members, not leaving narcissistic personalities out of fear of being left alone (co dependency), operating all the time with fear and insecurity when the actual potential is much higher than working under or for someone else, Talking bad about other family members, marrying spouses who are not capable of running a family etc etc, blaming others for their miserable decisions.

I believe that most DM’s are well supported by their families which makes me believe that they are the golden child of the family which is narcissistic while the DF’s are the scapegoats.

Dfs are heavily controlled by their families but they rebel and Dm’s succumb to the pressure.

The df’s main male figure in their life is anxious avoidant and they always escape from doing their duties towards DF’s while DM’s family are anxiously attached to him and his puts a lot of pressure on him to keep up their reputation etc etc.. so he doesnt take risky decisions. Dm’s main female figure accepts all bad behaviors from him. And so, there is entitlement.

Due to anxious avoidant behavior of the DM’s, They have a tendency to self harm with substance abuse, sex, parting etc in an excessive manner. They get into relationships which are unhealthy for them or Which harm on a long term. They make impulsive hasty decisions. Due to their self harm tendencies, They also tend to have many long term diseases.. which they need to heal and rejuvenate to raise to a higher vibration. This is why they are a matrix twinflame. They learn through 3D earthly situations and scenarios. The main forms of issues with DM’s is guilt, shame and suppressing their emotions and feeling overwhelmed when loved without conditions.

On the other hand, The df’s are harmed by others and their lack of self love and self confidence gets them into an abusive pattern of thinking, being and living their life. The df’s cannot see the positives in many situations. I also feel the amygdala is kind of damaged because of the narcissistic abuse they faced?(not sure).. So they have to recover and heal their cells and their emotional health. So, you see the DF’s ENERGY is damaged.. Due to the energy damage, They also develop long term diseases but not as much as the DM’s . Df’s generally do not or cannot hold friendships or relationships because of multiple mental illnesses they suffer from. And these are not from only this lifetime but from atleast 5 to 8 lifetimes before. Co-dependency is heavy on DF’s side. Main emotions are betrayal, unhealthy attachment, oversharing, victimized and hatred towards people.

The DM’s feminine side is damaged because of distorted masculine and feminine brainwash and society condition as they believe that DM doesnt know how to lead his life. So, as a result, they dont trust their own intuition and in turn do not trust the intuition of the divine feminine and Thats why they deny that they are a twinflame.

The DF’s Masculine side is damaged because of Narcissistic and judgmental people who criticized and never emotionally supported the DF. As a result, the masculine energy of the DF is too active, and she tends to make decisions which are not good for her. Working way too hard to achieve results just to please her caregivers and seek validation.

There is so much more.. When people are damaged from within, they tend to look outside of themselves for a lot of validation. And toxic families feed off of each other on validation.

Imagine the kind of transformation that is needed to purge these things.

Personally, although not yet fully healed, My whole life, i have finished karma in many places i worked in. Like immediately after i left that work place and after i spoke my truth, The management would change and People would have a better working environment. I also, changed a lot of things in my own family.. Like teaching my sisters to follow their heart and do what they want in life than listen to others and follow the crowd.

All this wasn’t easy..

Note: some negative people coming here to tell me that mu experiences are false and that I am not a twinflame blah blah blah. Well.. Your intuition and your clairvoyance is so mulled that you can't see who is genuine and who isn't. So you need a lot of healing and with your attitude, no one can help because you need to trust and surrender to heal which obviously is not present.

You will get triggered with answers because it isn't helping you in “getting the kind of validation” you seek. And I will not change my answers. (:

The final step in becoming whole is holding compassion, love and acceptance to yourself and functioning with gratitude everyday, which in turn reflects outside of you. Also knowing that, Everyone else around you who is not on your level of understanding have their own lessons to learn and that you can only provide perspective and experience. Holding space for those people who are not on your level of consciousness and yet being detached and carrying on with life without waiting around. ALL of this is done with compassion and humility, But not always.

So, anyone who has not reached this level is still healing and is in low vibes.

Answer by Hema Sundari on Quora

[swagging-back-to]

some short info on the upcoming fix it /au fics im doing for vld and klance.

these are not free to use, please do not use these as prompts (at least until after ive published, thank you <3)

ancient ancestry; during a planetside mission Lance's armor is compromised, leading to him taking in a large amount of the planets atmosphere and having a bad reaction.

when he wakes up from the pod he discovers he's been turned to a full altean, with coran explaining the atmosphere has properties that activates ancient and dormant sequences of dna.

keith, who lance had been trying to save from injury qhen he himself got hurt, is a lot more hovery as lance acclimates on a cot and has the situation debriefed. and eventually, coran dismisses everyone *but* keith, lance, and allura--who seems fidgety

coran, a bit uncomfortably, explains that lance would be experiencing numerous changes in strength, senses, behavior, interests, with the addition of going through a sort of alien puberty.

keith, who has gone through all of this first hand with being galra, stays by lances side to help him feel less alone and for... deeper reasonings.

coran explains the puberty wont just be acne and growth spurts, but because lance changed to an altean so late in his life, he'd missed the age of the first estrus cycle and the pin could drop at any second. coran explains how alteans have one official mate for life and that they are one of, if not the most feared intelligent species because of how protective they get over their chosen mates. he then explains galrans *also* only have one mate and their protective nature is the reason the galran empire strongly discourages mating bonds--it gave soldiers reason to rebel.

the boys end up spending lots more time together, their relationship already having been closer just before the incident, so they figured 'it was bound to happen eventually, we should choose to get together while we're conscious instead of having the first time be hasty." theyve both chosen eachother consciously and biologically, even if they havent consumated that bond.

on another mission gone bad, lance went into the fight feeling sicker than a dog, making rookie mistakes and having a hard time concentrating. it caused keith to make a rash decision, save lance from injury and get him far away from the fight--even if it left keith wide open on all angles.

this is where things start to diverge depending on which storyline i want to do.

keith gets captured by the galra before lance or anyone has the chance to go back for him. lance even in the right state of mind would have been hysterical, let alone on the cusp of his first heat. he works endlessly, lashing out at the team anytime he detected less than satisfactory levels of effort, but eventually they find where keith is held. lance rushes ahead of the group, of course, and doesnt ait for backup before he storms the cruiser. total devastation ensues, lance tearing through actual walls to get to keith.

or alternatively, lance and keith both get captured and tortured together. a runty galran hybrid and a long lost altean--both of whom paladins of voltron and both of them dedicated mates. it's a feast of torture potential. though, with alteans having been 'extinct' for so long, modern galrans dont know the true extent of their capabilities or their drive--and they suffer for it greatly. at first lance is too out of it to really fight back, especially once the torture starts. but once the galrans start hurting keith just to taunt him, he pulls on the restraints in protest only to realize they bent like putty. again, the devastation is brutal.

for a fluffy smutty oneshot, keith gets a minor injury while saving lance but they both make it out okay--only for lance to immediately go into heat.

[sailorhyunjinz]

Do you write yandere? If so, can I request skz yandere headcanons on how they would react when S/O rejects them because she doesn't wanna deal with whole drama that would come with dating an idol?

i mean kinda?? i have a seungmin yandere fic in my drafts sooo BUT YEAH

oh also, requests are not open but im just gonna do this one cause headcanons are kinda fun BUT REQUESTS ARE CLOSED <33

also why is the felix one so short-

Warnings; yandere!skz, rejection, k-dnapping, slight gaslightning or like manipulation, restraints, threats, aggression, mentions of masturbation, stockholm syndrome

Chan

nobody rejects him. nobody.

you two were friends from school and you were sooo happy when chan made it as an idol, finally persuing the dream he had been yapping on about for years. 

but in the midst of that he realized that he had feelings for you, he missed you all the time, just wanting to hang out with you and maybe explore the things he had on his mind. so,, he decided to confess when you guys were at a cafe.

“look y/n,,, there’s something I wanna tell you” he started to which you tilted your head

“nooo,,, are you guys going on a tour again,,, i wil miss you sooo much channie” you said with a pout but the boy shook his head.

“i like you y/n” 

your mouth stood agape, this was not what you expected and truthfully,,, not what you wanted. 

“chan,,, y-you know thats not possible” you said with a frown, looking at him straight ahead.

“of course it is,,, why wouldn’t it be? w-what are you trying to say y/n?!” his voice started growing louder, you looking around in order to see that people werent turning their heads towards your table. 

Minho

you have made a big big mistake my friend- 

wont even hesitate to keep you hostage in his basement LIKE IM NOT JOKING-

might just tie you up and like,,, not even do anything to you, just talk to you and admire you, maybe tracing your facial features and cuddle closer on the cold floor

just wants to keep you as a pet or smth and you are scared out of your mind cause you cant move cause of the restraints, you cant speak because you have silvertape across your lips that he only removes to feed you but if you start screaming you wont get any so you deicde to just stay calm and quiet before someone saves you and play along. 

i mean you do,,, kinda fall for him but you know you cant,, but you cant help but to fall for him and miss him whenever he’s out on schedule things

he always returns to you and you get so happy when you see the little crevice of light from outside when he opened the basement door

whenever he lies next to you, you put your head against his shoulder and take in his scent the best you can

he told you everyday that he would let you go if you agreed to date him but you shook your head,, maybe cause you liked being his prey. 

Changbin

he’s more of the threatening type of yandere,,, like,, not that he’s violent but if you try to block his number he will create new ones and keep on sending you messages about how you have betrayed him and how he wished that you loved him back and all that,,,,

you guys often meet because you go to the same college and are students in the same department sooo,,,, avoiding him is pretty impossible 

he stares a lot at you,,, you guys have a couple of classes together and he just stares the entire time, his eyes are just filled with revenge, he somehow wants you make you his, own you but he doesnt know how yet, for now he can just look.

watch this fucking message conversation just be this;

[why did you talk to him during class?]

[you could have just asked me]

[nobody loves you like i do. no one y/n]

you are never getting rid of him basically,,

he’s gonna get to you first ;))

Hyunjin

i feel like he goes more to the stalking route than the kidnapping and drugging and whatnot- 

ok,,, you rejected him,,, but that doesnt mean you’re getting rid of him.

ohmygod what if he turns into a peeping tom- cause he obviously knows where you live. 

like yall were not even that close?? he just saw you backstage at one of the concerts and thought you looked good so he decided to go up to, you werent an idol so no problem he thought.

but he gets a bit too,, hasty with his decisions and often falls for people randomly and so when he politely greeted you and gave you his number you simply shook your head, explaining that this wouldn’t be possible since you worked in the same industry and you needed to stay clear out of any scandals in order to keep your job. 

no was not answer in Hyunjins mind. 

luckily he managed to catch your full name by flickering through some papers in an office and also saw your full adress there, knowing exactly what he was going to do on his free time. 

Jisung

if im being completely honest,,, i have no idea-

like,,, he gives me kinda pervy yandere vibes,,,

what if youre like his ex before he became an idol and now he wants to get back together with you-

oh,,, he masturbates to your pictures-

i feel like he always thinks about you, wondering what you like and wants to write songs about you but he doesnt do much-

but when he finds out that you have been hired by the same company as him to work as a like,,, economics accountant thingy he is all of a sudden vEEERY interested-

always asking the manager of when the group will have meetings with the accounting team,,, although they had nothing to do with them-

he just wanted to be in a conference room with you (and think pervy things about you in your tight office skirt and white blouse)

you went to the toilet on day and you saw him lurking around the same floor,,, WHICH ONCE AGAIN WAS NOT CONNECTED TO THE GROUP AT ALL- 

and idk,,, probably sneaks in with you and locks the door before you even react that theres someone else in the toilet- 

i feel like he’s pretty mild,,, but when he’s alone with you he is aggressive broooo

probably pins you to the wall and threatens you or smth along those lines,,,,,

(writing this is what my life has become to-)

Felix

“what do you think you’re doing?”

you turn around again, you had just thought of just leaving with a vague answer to his question but he was not having it. 

“answer.” 

his words sounded cold, his dark voice making an entrace, the exact one you’ve heard on many of the songs you listened to.

“felix,,, you have to understand,,, u-um,, if we date theres gonna be some issues” you said but he just stared at you with cocky eyebrows and a dark gaze, running his tongue on the inside of his cheek.

“do you think i care? would i ask you if i cared?” he said to which you shook your head automatically, what more could you do?

“you get until tomorrow to think and if i don’t get the answer i want well,,, we’ll see what i’ll do to you.”

Seungmin

he plots shit behind your back yk?

he’s more of the sneaky type of yanderes (oop spoiler to a fic heh)

like he makes this like fucking year long plan where the objective of the mission is to make you obssessed with him-

he starts kinda subtely,,, first its going to the same gym as you and like,,, knowing where you placed your stuff

and then he starts putting small notes like under your waterbottle when you went to grab something that say like “i think youre cute, call me” and then his number

you obviously dont react,,, because why the fuck would you contact a stranger at the gym 

BUT THEN you realize that its him, its mf kim seungmin. yo,,,, u didnt know he went to this gym,,, that was not,,, the best-

of course you got a bit interested,,, you wanted to know how he was off camera,,, like just in his everyday life and i meeean,,, he was attractive but obviously you should stay away bc,,, he’s a celebrity but seungmin didnt want to stay away

he notes somehow started to get more aggressive,,, suddenly being like “why are you ignoring me?” and such,,,

and one night you were left alone in the gym with him,,, it was sooo quiet, only the sounds of your strained breaths as you lifted a dumbell

here where the plan came to play ;))

Jeongin

he’s obsessed with you and you are not going anywhere, even if you rejected him. 

he’s more clingy?? LIKE HE WILL NOT LEAVE YOU

ok sure,, he falls more into the stalking category too,,, 

also veeeery much a obssessed kinda yandere,,, like his mind is not thinking about how to like capture you,,, more about how to make you soooo comfortable and fool you into loving him despite the circumstances?

i just imagine that you work in a cafe and jeongin often meets you there when he buys coffee and you are already in awe when you see fucking yang jeongin enter the coffee shop on your shift but you were even more excited when he leaves his phone number on a napkin and slides it over the counter before leaving. 

you thought about it,,, contemplating multiple times but,,, you decided it would be best not to since well,,, safety purposes 

but he would visit you and every day his face got more and more perplexed cause he wondered why you didnt call

mf would not leave you alone, he would even wait outside the coffee shop until you finished your shift and walk you home,,, so now he knew where you lived- 

and then do the same thing over and over again until you talked to him.

does. not. give. up. 

[wickedpact]

your regularly scheduled ttt Thots

first main thought: sad. sad sad sad. poor achilles

second main thought: i was thinking abt this as i went to sleep but the difference in 'what an author wants to communicate with a piece of media' and 'what an audience wishes to take from a piece of media' are two different things that ive never thought of much before.

i mean when i read ttt issues, what i want is Lore. i want to learn about the characters, i want to see what makes them tick, i want to learn about their relationships with each other and see how they grow over the years. but thats not necessarily what the authors want to explore with their stories-- like, the nicky story tells you actually very little about nicky as a person or nicky and joe's relationship (at least it doesnt tell you anything we dont already know), and thats not really seemingly the point of the story itself.

but anyways.

ACHILLLESSSSSS

i was honestly expecting smth very different from this one, primarily bc the blurb mentioned andy 'returning' after leaving achilles and i thought that meant her returning to the squad. and bc booker became immortal around the time andy was with achilles, i thought this story would be about them meeting and the obvious clash they would have over andy mourning her relationship (that ended due to her immortality, that she had to let go of due to her immortality) and booker refusing to end his relationships bc he doesnt have the experience there that andy had.

but 'returning' meant returning to her and achilles' house and her finding out how she died, which. rip. i just kind of assumed he died of old age.

AND IT SUCKS bc she left specifically so he wouldnt get hurt, and all she ended up rlly doing is leaving him to die violently alone

i was kind of upset we didnt rlly learned much abt their relationship (what did andy love abt achilles? what did he love abt her? what did they spend their days doing after they retired?) i did love the little bits showing how the two were different, especially in regards to how his life as a runaway slave affected him (and didnt affect andy)

something something andy's immortality granted her the confidence to set aside her weapons so thoroughly for so long, while achilles' past as a slave and respective mortality didnt allow him to be so hasty

but anyways the fact that andy wanted peace so bad-- i mean, like ive said before, we kind of see some of the worst of andy (well, maybe not the worst worst of her) even within the movie. but regardless of how much andy is tired of humanity's shit and how much she likes to swing her axe, she's still a person who wants peace and quiet and safety at the end of the day like anyone else.

its one of a million things i like abt andy. she can be a vengeful god and a doting mother and a thousands-year-long mourning daughter and a tired mercenary & on top of all of those Layers(TM) she can be Just A Person Who Wants Peace. her multitudes are wild to think abt sometimes, how many lives she's led

'but the older she gets the harder she finds conjuring their love in her memory when she comes here. all thats left is the hate and rage that destroyed this place. and that will last forever' 😭

tbh this issue is kind of a monument to how much the immortals lose to bigotry & hatred

and speaking of, the nicky one was alright. like i said you dont really... . learn much abt nicky or joeandnicky. i mean

1. nicky misses joe when hes gone. shocker

2. nicky kills violent racists. double shocker

3. all the violence and hatred nicky witnesses over this period bothers him. huge shocker!

i mean nothing it goes over is a surprise and (unpopular opinion here) im not usually a fan of shmoopy romantic stuff. joe's speech is a huge exception to me and i think its bc the speech is Romance With A Point. that speech isnt just a bunch of flowery sentiments, but it actually tells the viewer quite a bit about joe and nicky's relationship.

(i remember in one of luca's interviews he mentioned that, while reading the tog script, he wondered what a 900 year long relationship would be like, but the answer to his question was pretty much all in the van speech.)

also i think ive mentioned this before, but i tend not to like joenicky fics where joe or nicky have a Big Speech for the other bc pretty much all other romantic sentiment pales in comparison to the van speech for me. and nicky's letter in this story is the same way for me. you can read the whole thing here if you want (the rest of the dialogue within this story is mostly just confederates being racist and nicky being like 'thats nice' before he kills them lmao)

i dunno the whole thing is like. im so sad and lonely. and im killing a bunch of people and that sucks. and im so lonely. and sad. did i mention i was killing people. the sun is mocking me. these clouds symbolize the storm in my heart. im so lonely. and also sad.

i dunno, it didnt unzip me. tho i like how the wine was spiked with that sweet 'joe as the sun' symbolism, love that for us

its also kind of ironically Another TTT Story dealing with 'nicky is killing a bunch of people and hes having a crisis over it'. ive said before, im not a big fan of nicky angst personally + the fact that there isnt much here to actually learn abt nicky + the fact i wasnt huge for nicky's Poetic Liberties + the lack of a solo joe to match this solo nicky kind of made me 'eh' abt it. it wasnt poorly written or anything! i just wasnt ham for it

like with the other ones (moon landing one for instance) even when there was stuff i wasnt huge for, there was other stuff i liked, like most of us didnt care for the depiction of joe and nicky's argument in that story, but the stuff with andy and joe arguing about the moon was cute, and the stuff with nicky and Booker's Relationship Advice was cute. but for this one it was mostly just the letter. and i wasnt huge for the letter, haha

also. mutton chop man

god did this to me bc i bitched too much abut the goatee. he saw my weakness and punished me for it

BUT HOLY FUCK DID YALL SEE THE SHAKESPEARE SONNET QUOTE IN THERE???? ? SONNET 43 BABEY EVERY DAY WE GROW CLOSER TO GODS LIGHT

[killthe-illusionarydreams]

Us Against The World

Pairing- Fred Weasley x Slytherin reader

Background : You and Fred had a rocky relationship. What started off as years of playful rivalry ended up with the two of you together, however, the relationship is kept a secret from everyone as you’re aware that if anyone ever found out about you being with a blood traitor- your parents would not take it lightly. So fearing the consequences that may happen to your loved, no one may know.

but recently there had been too many incidents where he found himself getting lost in your presence and simply not caring.

Part 1/?

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“You’re drooling again Freddiekins” George hums in his ear, momentarily distracting his brother from the gorgeous girl he was fixated on and making him plant his hand in the soup in front of him

“Shut up” Fred grumbled and pushed George away from his ear before magically removing the stain from his robe

“Didnt she throw a bludger at you at practice last week? Why are you still all weird and …drool-y?” Lee asked, sitting down infront of the boy, Ron snorted at the memory.

Harry looked up from his plate “Yeah! She doesnt even play quidditch yanno- just threw it at him during practice-“ he shoved a spoonful of cereal before quoting her “-cos “he was being a git.” He quoted her

Overhearing the conversation, Hermione scoffed “Not like he didnt deserve it” she turned the page in her book “You’re very well aware that she doesnt take lightly to you being a complete arse about them.” referring to the house of serpents.

Fred groaned out of frustration “I didnt mean her, just the bloody Slytherin team, not my fault they were cheating.” The look on his face held one of regret “I- I did apologise you know, shes just still being mean about it.”

“Bloody hell shes got you wrapped all around her finger doesnt she” George nudged his twin, it was more of a statement than question “never thought I’d see the day you’d pine for a Slytherin, let alone Y/N. Y’know you cant be with her.”

Oh if only they knew the times theyd spent together. When they laughed, when she’d stare lovingly into his golden eyes and feel the world changing around her, feel herself getting lost in his presence. If only they knew how much Fred would be willing to give up for the love of his life. For the chance of a happy future, for the chance to never have to hide themselves away anymore. Dear merlin he would endure a thousant curses his way just to see the girl smile one more time.

“Shes scary” Ron piped up “the way she can look at you-“ he shivered. “Scary.” But those looks were exactly what attracted Fred to you in the first place, the way your eyes would twinkle and you’d smirk when retorting to his teases, when you’d fight him with those sharp witted comments and laugh at his idiotic jokes that he was well aware you probably didnt care about. The way you carried yourself with elegance yet danger, Fred wanted danger and Y/N all but screamed that.

He’d been too distracted by the constant teasing to notice her getting up from the Slytherin table & head to her common room.

“Weasley” you smirked lowly & nodded while passing the Gryffindor table, eyes momentarily fixated on Fred who’s heart was beating a little to fast to realise who you were addressing. With the confused reaction of their little Gryffindor clan Y/N laughed lightly at the scene she caused, and left the dining hall without a second glance. Leaving them to pester Fred at how on earth he got you not to spew a rude remark at him. Who in turn only swatted them away & made a hasty exit to follow the girl.

As Fred made his way after you, from the left a strong hand suddenly grabbed the ginger by his scarlet tie, yanking him into the vacant classroom, causing the boy to almost stumble over his own feet at the force of the hijack. Soon enough he was engulfed by a deep, all too familiar kiss, the girls hands roaming over his body and in his hair. The eagerness making him chuckle a bit

“Excited to see me eh love?” He asked in between kisses

“Clearly not as exited as you” you retorted

“You know this really isn’t appropriate darling, yanking me by my tie? could cause severe damage to me, what if I was decapitated? Who would you kiss then?”

You pulled away and studied the boy, before teasingly replying “Hmm probably Adrian, dont you think we’d be a right match” sarcasm dripping from your voice.

Fred tensed up, and rolled his eyes “yeah, he seems a little too keen on you if i do say so myself” his demenor suddenly shifting.

“Not jelous are we Weasley?” You smirk at his reaction, the fact that the ginger boy was jealous stirred something in you, something primal. Letting out a soft giggle you step back from him, Fred trying not to pay attention to how much he just wanted you to be close to him again “Adrian’s a friend, nothing more. No need to get your panties in a bunch”

Fred laughed, a fake bitter laugh that you were not fond of “are you sure he’s aware of that?”

You rolled your eyes and sighed, placing a hand on his cheek and stroking it gently you stared into his eyes- trying to let him know the turmoil that was going on in your heart “I dont care if he’s aware of it or not, hes not the one I want Fred. You are. You must know that by now.”

With a small sigh he closed his eyes and put his head ontop of yours while embracing you. Of course he knew that, he’d be a bloody idiot not to, but circumstances are difficult to manage when your secret girlfriends family are well known supporters of You-Know-Who who despise blood traitors as much as muggleborns. “I know love, I just-“ he sighs “I just want everyone to know.”

Oh and how badly you wanted it, more than anything in the world did you want to walk side by side with the auburn haired man, to kiss him on the eyes of others, to spend every waking moment in his presence- but you couldnt.

“Fred...” you let out a deep sign before looking back up at him “No one can know. You’re aware of that right? Not even your friends, not even George”

Fred felt shit keeping such a big part of his life from his twin, he felt incomplete, like a fraud.

“Fred?” Your voice grew strained, scared, waiting impatiently for an answer “Its only a few more months till we can be free okay? Its out last year, once its over I wont be living with my parents- although you can barely call what I do there now living” you winced at the thought. In the summer you barely stayed at your house, you had a small flat rented for the two months of holidays as to avoid all the constant marriage proposals and death eater recruitment interventions your mother had lined up for you. You despised every single one of them, and hated their views on muggleborns even more. Something you got repremanded often by the people that called themselves parents.

The ginger boy nodded slowly, knowing that this was for his safety, for his families, but more importantly Y/N, if it were up to him he’d announce their love to the world but he knew that it was too dangerous under the circumstances, especially since the return on You-Know-Who. “They think I just fancy you, like a silly little crush. Its fine, no one knows about us, we barely exchange loving looks outside private doors anyway.”

“Good.” You kissed his nose to which he let out a happy little sigh to. Deciding to lighten the mood you say “No surprise them thinking you have a crush on me, we all know im hard to resist anyway” you wiggled your brows

His head popped up, suddenly having a big grin on his face “I could never resist you my love.” he kissed you “But you know, you’re really mean to me, it pains my poor little soul.” He lets out, throwing the sarcasm back at you. Referring to all the fake rivalry that was just for show.

You laugh softly, a sound Fred could listen to endlessly “It’s all to keep up the facade darling, I have a reputation to uphold.” Of course you both knew that you were joking, but with one last longing kiss you bid adeau and left for your common room.

It was already dark outside, you had spent too much time in the great hall so your precious time with Fred had to be cut short. As you enter the all too familiar Slytherin common room, you were greeted by a familiar sight of tired students working on their essays. Mostly in silence bar from the low hum of the record players music. It was nice. Familiar.

Unlike the common stereotype that Slytherin was the most evil house, you were well aware that it held the dearest & best people you would ever know. Yes, many driven in the wrong direction by their superiors, but that blame can not be put on children in toxic households. Most Slytherins pride themselves on being bold & having solid views- views that over the years change when realisation hits that muggleborns are not at fault. That their parents’ views are outdated & preposterous. It filled you with joy that even if others thought the house clad in green and silver was evil, you knew that if given the chance most of those kids would defy their parents in a heartbeat.

“Y/L/N” your head shot up from the book you were reading, your eyes met with Malfoy. He had just entered the common room, hair discheveled & robes out of place. An unusual sight for the usually well put together boy.

Your eyes narrowed at him “Malfoy?” You didnt hate the boy, more like despised the sole fact he existed. You had not noticed that the two of you were the only ones in the room now “what do you want blondie, i have better things to do than chat with you about how your father is licking voldemorts arse.”

His nostrils flared and the boy marched over to you, anger exuded from his pores “I would watch it if I were you Y/L/N”

You rolled your eyes and looked back to your Transfigurations book, unbothered by the facade Malfoy was putting on. “Or what? Your daddy’s gonna hex me? Im terrified” letting out a laugh mockingly

You hadnt noticed the glint in his eyes after the anger subdued, but if you had youd realise that no good would come out of this “I’d be more worried about what yours would do to that pesant Weasley.”

You froze. Heart beating faster. It felt like it would just jump right out and fall on the table for everyone to see. You wanted to punch him, to hurt him for insulting your boyfriend. But no, as a Slytherin you knew that what you show to others they can use against you. So before the blond could notice your sudden shift in demenor, you carelessly flip the page in your book.

“Im afraid I dont know what your talking about Malfoy, but if I were you I would keep my mouth shut about ghastly rumours like that.” You close the book and begin to head to your dorm realising you cant even be in the presenceof the little rat. Before turning back around and staring him right in the eyes “or I’ll have no option but to use the crusiatus curse on you & peel the death eater mark off your arm for everyone to see. Dont think you’d want that now would you.”

You left him there, stunned and at a loss for words. Mouth opening and closing like a fish. He didnt even know how you managed to find out that he was a Death Eater, and in all honesty he didnt want to find out if you were being serious about the curse. Or how serious.

As soon as the door behind you shut, you let out a sigh of relief and with a small ‘thud’ you dropped ypur bag to the floor. “Shit” mumbling you paced around your room, “shit shit shit” progressively getting louder and more agitated. There was no way Malfoy knew about you & Fred, he had to be speculating, he just wanted to see your reaction right? Thats it. Thats all it was. You tried to convince yourself to no avail. “Oh no” the visible panic in your voice made your own heart drop. If Malfoy knew about you and Fred then surely he’d tell his parents, who in turn would tell yours. Oh no. Oh no indeed.

Y/N spent the next hour agonising over the interaction she just had. Over what she would do, over what she could do. Surely the threat she made was good enough. Surely malfoy would keep his trap shut if he knew what was best for him. Surely her & Fred were safe.

Y/N hoped that at least Fred would be.

[shyrose57]

Part 2 with da angst

2: Young Ranbob did not understand at all what was going on, infact he refused to believe he ever had anything to do with the sabotages, it was only when Dream took over completely and gave Ranbob enough of his mind to know what he was doing, did he finally accept it. He tried and tried to break Dreams control and get control of his body back, but nothing he did ever really worked, and the more he tried Dream eventually began to punish him, forcing him to stop. He felt aboustely awful, like a failure, a murder, and just a shitty person during all of this. His journal shows basically all of his mental decline, it went from normal, him recording special things during the day, to semi-normal, him expression concern and fear over the sabotages and killings (with some out of place words or sentences here and there appearing half way through, showing Dreams presence), to recordings from someone with obvious mental distress (misspelled words, extreme fear, showing fear of himself, hasty writings and drawings, very obviously out of place sentences (their neater than the rest and written differently, written by Dream), and meaningless words and sentences, obviously trying to say something but not knowing how too), all they way to flipping entries of when Ranbob is in control (sadness, despair, hasitly done, regret, and just heavy sentences) to when Dream is in control (Neat writing, stating "facts", showing a level of glee). Ranbob does still have it, he actually still uses it to record what happens in the groups and how far he's come. To the Gladiators its more of a "Hey I found this thing, lets read this thing." "No let's not read the thing." "Im going to ignore you and read it anyway.". The pictures are from the current ruined state of the City of Mizu, and pictures showing Ranbob at the fishermens house, struggling to walk and even eat on his own, though a few are from before Dream ever got a hold of Ranbob. 

3: The way you just said "Causally drops some trauma on them, huh?" And "Traumatized gremlins" made me laugh so much. Its so accurate and made me just think of the brothers vibing toghere before I just pop in and drop tons of trauma on them before dipping. "Ah, damn, the opponent stared me in my chest." "WHY ARE YOU SO CALM ABOUT THIS!? YOUR BLEEDING OUT!" "Oh im used to this. Trust me I'll survive...probably." "RAN I SWEAR!". And "Ranbob when did you last eat?" "Uhhh, 2 days ago I think." "..." "D-did I eat too soon? I dont have to eat for another day or two max-" "Ranbob shut up and eat." "B-but-" "If you dont eat I'll tell Benjamin." "OK ok I'll eat."  Ran thinks its normal to get stabbed often, while Ranbob thinks its normal to only eat every 2 or 3 days, and to not sleep for a long time. There is one particular hunter that's been hunting him the longest, they go by Raq and are the most determined to get Ran, though they don't plan on killing him, but rather kidnapping him and exploting him for pearls. It was a bit hard at first, Ran kept having to leave to wander around the City for a bit, though he eventually successfully got accustomed to staying in one place, though he does sometimes wish he could travel again. 

4: A bit of everything, him getting violent and trying to run at first. But after that it fades more into what resembles a depressive state, with him refusing to move and crying while being lost in his head. He requires space to move around but be monitored in the first state, while for the second he needs constant comfort and physical contact. The aftermath was the fishermen and Jackie staying close to Ranbob for the next 2 days, while Grievous and Watson try to find Ran after he stormed off in anger and disbelief. Ran does know what a relapse means, but during the time he believes Ranbobs relapse might be something else (like his facade faulting maybe).

5: Not long at all, while Ran is carrying Jackie and Cletus makes fun of them as Ranbob is following him, Jackie quickly points out how Ranbob is like a lost puppy, and the same thing is basically happening to the two of them, but showed different ways. (The brothers making sure their family is safe by sticking close to them).

6: By the time they travel to Subbin, Ranbob has gained like 80 pounds and is a way more healthy weight and looks much more healthier than when the fishermen first found him. 

7: Their usually either getting materials, looking around the area/exploring, being taught things by someone, or sleeping. Charles was the one who revived the nickname! He called him that when trying different tactics to calm him down from a nightmare, Ranbob immediately froze and after a while started to cry, Charles panicked but Ranbob quickly comforted him, saying he just hasn't heard Bobby used in such a long time and brings back both incredibly happy and incredibly sad memories. And with permission, Charles starts using it more. Ran also freezes when hearing it, immediately going ridged and almost ripping a map he has in his hands, when asked by Grievous what was wrong, he just growled out nothing and moved on. Though he does mull over it later, conflicting emotions running all over him. 

8: Helping separate Ran and Ranbob was already big for the gladiators. As most people would just watch with glee. Then when they get time to talk and make the connection between Ran and Ranbob, they decide to make a exception and willingly put in effort to bond with the other group. Also them just naturally connecting made the bonding and trust easy between the groups. 

9: They do both! They keep some books, pictures, and other stuff, but sell others as relics. Ranbob mostly disapproves of them selling the items, but also knows it'll probably be best to sell them, and have them either spread the story of Mizu as a warning, or have the story of Mizu destroyed by assumptions and twisting of the story. 

10: I'm thinking maybe a Wilbur decendent is inhabiting a certain town, and when the groups stop in for a break, Wilbur decendant  houses them and listens to their story, and tries to help?

11: They mostly just find them, they either find them in book stores or ruined towns and cities (maybe I can put The Masquerade tale in here somewhere), a wide range of people, from scholars to plain history nerds, to books from during the time of the SMP itself to books written by seemingly no one. Ranbob finds some himself, mostly when exploring with the group. I think I misworded this! Dream is the one who compared Ranbobs journal to Ranboos memory book! Ranbob knows of Ranboos memory book but he himself doesn't see the connection. Ran feels all of the above. He is extremely ashamed and disappointed in himself for hurting his brother, he hugs him tightly and apologizes non-stop, promising to make it all up to him, and while he asks for forgiveness he also says he doesnt expect for his brother to forgive him. Once he finally sees Dream for real though he's the first one to blindly attack and try to kill em. Though he doesnt succeed. 

12: No one expect the brothers where outside in the rain when they fought. So no one knew of what was happening. Its only when Ran finally joined them, but alone, did they get scared and alarmed. And when Ran admits they got into a fight and Ranbob ran off, the fishermen immediately start yelling at Ran and run off to find Ranbob, screaming his name into the deafening thunder. Grievous follows them but Watson and Jackie hang back a bit, Jackie just looks at Ran with a heartbroken expression, tears in his eyes, and asks, with his voice shaking and laced with sadness, "Why can't you at least try to accept him, you dont have to like or forgive him, but why can't you just let him heal?" "Jackie..you dont know what's he done-" "I do know! And I'm willing to help him change and recover! You can't and your his brother! What kind of family member are you?" Ran tries to respond but Jackie just chokes and shakes his head at him, running off to follow the others. Watson then speaks up, simply saying "Mate, your doing more than hurting Ranbob at this point." Before running off to follow and join the others. Ran feels horrible, even before being confronted he so badly wanted to chase after Ranbob, but was to scared too and he constantly was trying to reassure himself that he did the right thing, but no matter what, he couldn't convince himself that was the truth. And after the confrontation, Ran is taking what was said to heart and also considering running away, leaving the group behind and sparing them of all the pain he believes he causes, believing that he's just as bad a family member as Ranbob was. But he doesnt, because he feels like he absolutely needs to talk to his brother and everyone else. 

2: Oh god. Poor Ranbob. He really went through it. It does make me wonder, did anyone notice something was up? His mentor? Parents? Friends? Speaking off, what was his relationship with them all? From what I know, he seemed to be under a lot of pressure, so how did that effect things, and how did Dream’s presence change that? And uh, gladiators reactions to reading the diary? Also, did they get caught reading it, or? And how did everyone in general react to the pictures? The fishermen may have taken the latter, but how did they feel about seeing Ranbob before Dream came into the picture?

3: I tell it like it is, glad to hear it’s made you laugh though. And uh, oh boy. On one hand, I definitely shouldn’t laugh at stabbing and possible starvation. One the other. Ran’s reaction. Ranbob being threatened with Benjamin. Is he often threatened with Benjamin? What exactly happens if Benjamin is told? Will Raq be causing future problems? Is Ran happy to be on the road again?

4: That sucks. Did the gladiators witness it first hand, or did the fishermen kind of realize what was happening and split off for a bit? Reactions to either seeing or hearing this happen?

5: Ranbob’s reaction to this? Heck, all of the fishermen’s reactions?

6: As he should. If he ever starts looking even slightly thin again, Benjamin needs to jump into immediate action! Also, give him a blanket and warm drink, please? Please, he needs it, they all do. 

7: So not too bad, that’s good. Charles was the one, huh? Interesting. Does Ranbob like having it back? And conflicting emotions, hmm? What would those emotions be? Does anyone ever notice the nickname makes him mad? 

8: So the gladiators consider that their big approval? Why’s that? Like obviously, they helped break it up, but was it something particular? Did they get between the two? Jump into the arena? What?

9: A warning of Mizu...there’s something awfully tragic about that. 

10: Sounds interesting! In what way would they be able to help? 

11: Scattered about, hm? So Ranbob knows about Ranboo’s memory book? Did Dream tell him, or did Mizu have a copy, or? And yay, Ranbob finally gets a hug! Most wonderful! Sad Ran doesn’t succeed in murder, but meh. Always next time, I suppose.

12: You...you were really going for my heart when you wrote this, weren’t you? Um, first of all, ouch. Second of all, also ouch. That’s all I’ve got for you right now. Just, ouch, Anon. Ouch.

[zukkatrash]

atla pirate au

(soley based on me misreading a diff post and now wanting to see mai in a keira knightly getup) (also everything i know abt pirates is based on the pirates of the caribbean, treasure planet and black sails and hasty 2 am googling) (also also big fucking shoutout to @s-suki for helping me with this)

the gaang's ship - aka The Avatar

yue is captain!!! (@s-suki ur brain is huge and i luv u) so from what i know being a captain is a looot abt politics and u know our girl yue is good at that, not to mention how much her crew loves her bc she gives everything for them

sokka is navigator, one look at the stars and he knows where they are instantly, he charts a course in record time, captains have in fact fought over him but he is nothing but loyal to his captain!!!

aang spends at least half his time in the sails, as lookout and keeping knots secure(? idk shit abt sailing haha) he’s also the fastest one they got, no matter if he’s running, swimming or paddling a small boat

suki is the best fighter they have bc of course she is (also theres no misogyny in this bc i said so) grown men shit themselves when they see her / also shes boatswain (the boatswain was in charge of a ship's anchors, cordage, colors, deck crew and the ship's boats, and would also be in charge of the rigging while the ship was in dock)

toph! makes! bombs! also if u give her a gun that u found thats been underwater for three months and u give her like 2 hours, not only is it completely functional afterwards but it somehow works better than before?

katara is quartermaster and shes def like 30% of how yue keeps her crew in line

haru is ship cook (i know this has zero connection to canon but have you considered boi soft and warm like bread)

teo is the ships carpenter (highest ranking if they got more than one)

jet is a fighter obvs, also him and sokka do NOT get along but yue has this real icy stare that makes them both shut up immediately

smellerbee is dating toph and yue is not opposed to their relationship but does make sure theyre not around eachother too much when explosives are also near bc those 2 def get up to some wild shit

longshot is obvs the best shot they have and is the other lookout

appa is a parrot and he spends all of his time being adorable

momo is still a lemur and just steals so much shit

on to the firenation

ozai rules over a whole ass port/island or smth idk but like all the pirates have to deal with his fucking bullshit

zhao is his 2nd in command and yue at some point guts him 😊

azula is of course captain of her ship and she rules with an iron fist

mai is first mate (making any possible future betrayals that much worse)

ty lee is ship medic and just constantly gets underestimated in fights and wins like right away

zukos life motto on azulas ship is 'i hate it here' bc his job is basically everything nobody else wants to do (until! he is no longer on the ship. does he get pushed off the ship to drown? does he leave in the night with all the valuables he can carry and a map of a great prize? idk, YOU DECIDE)

more thoughts on zuko:

i dont think he’d join the gaang right away after he’s no longer with the fire nation but would first like half-die on some island (even if he didn’t get kicked off, i just imagine he’d do smth drastic like think he can sail a ship without getting lost just bc he’s spent a lot of time on a ship but like, honey no, navigation isnt as easy as it looks) bc zuko alone u kno

iroh is still his uncle in this, but zuko doesnt know that, so he thinks he’s just this weird hermit guy that finds him and takes him in

zuko is like "what does he want? what his secret agenda? how will this guy use this against me?" and iroh is just like "boy! eat something but also are u like okay? u want some cryptic advice thats consisting of 60 ocean metaphors?"

iroh does tell him hes his uncle tho and that he left when zuko was really young and he wasnt the only one who ran from that house that day...

URSA IS ALIVE!

she had been banished by ozai and threatened with zukos murder if she had stayed, ozai wouldve killed her but he knew he couldnt take her in a straight fight and if she had been the type you could assassinate they wouldntve ever gotten together anyway

now shes vibing with iroh and lu ten, because yes lu ten is alive (listen if there is any feasable way of my boi to be alive he is!!!)

also they’re def supporting everyone who opposes ozai as asafely as they can on whatever weird remote island theyre at

once zuko joins the crew of the avatar, sokka laughs like straight five minutes abt zuko thinking he could navigate his stolen boat after not even learning how to properly read a map, not to mention everything else that goes into navigating and zuko is like "fuck u" and sokka is like "lets show u how to read a map so this doesnt happen again" still with tears of laughter in his eyes, and maybe later when hes been on the crew for longer and maybe saved sokkas life in a fight, sokka teaches him abt the stars too and cue zuko pining after the way too beautiful guy trying to explain constellations but zuko just keeps getting lost in his eyes and being hyper aware of how close sokkas arm is when he points out specific stars

the reason zuko joins them in the first place is bc the avatar is the only crew that could protect him against azula and ozai and they’re the only ones willing/able to go up against the fire nation

also katara is the first to see zuko after he parted with the fn and she like immediately has a sword to his throat and boi just fucking faints

maybe jee is also a captain in this bc i really like it when the wani shows up in fanfics and maybe they’re not on good terms with ozai but they’re flying under the radar bc its just a small ship and they do bring in their percentage so maybe zuko joins his crew before he goes to find the gaang?

now some general thoughts:

the dai lee is the chinese navy out to get them all

miyuki is one of their highest ranking officers and gives the pirates a run for their money, but weirdly never goes to chase the Avatar

hakoda is also a captain but he’s working under ozai to take the operation down from the inside (also yes of course his husband bato is also there with him ^^)

kue is absolutely some weird hermit guy

once again big thanks to @s-suki for helping me with this check out their blog theyre great! (theyre on break rn tho but dont let that deter u!!)

if anyone wants to add to this PLEASE do!!! also if anyone draws or writes smth for this please please please tag me bc i would love to see it!! (also i will love u forever ♡)

[thesaunatest]

MY HUGE THEORY ON EL’S PLOTLINE IN S4

before you guys even start, YES I know that 99.9% of what I say is going to be wrong but this is literally just for fun.

its march 1986, middle of the school year and el HATES school

when we left her she was barely literate and had just started getting accostomed to speaking full sentences, NOWHERE NEAR a 9th grade level, so shes struggling in her classes to say the least

on top of that, she barely knows how to socialize with other people, so shes evidently getting picked on

with joyce and jonathan both working to keep the family afloat, will and el get left alone alot

but outside of the party, they socially have nothing in common

in fact, will is adapting to the new town a whole lot better than el. he fit right in with all the creative kids he met in class, but el didnt mesh with that crowd

anyway, our girl is sturggling

the only time she really has fun is when she visits hawkins, or when someone from the party visits them

which leads us to spring break

mike obviously comes to visit, and el doesnt want them to waste a single second so she begs mike and will to come explore the town with her

at this point joyce is already in her detective mode, hatching a rescue plan for hopper so she doesnt notice theyre gone

and jonathan is battling the heartbreak of nancy ghosting him when she was supposed to come visit

so the trio goes off on an adventure without anyone noticing.......... or so they think

because brenner is back, and he knows el is with the byers, but he cant go and snatch her because he doesnt have the resources all the way in california

in fact, he doesnt have the resources at all. his numbers experiment is seen as a catastrophic failure that lead to the deaths of hundreds of lab employees

the only way for him to redeem himself in the community, and gain his funding back is to present his peers with proof that the project can work, so he needs to get one of his numbers back

el is the only one he can track down, but he doesnt think he can do it himself. if she saw him, she could just kill him with her powers, he assumes because he doesnt know she lost them

so who does he employ to get el back to hawkins? lonnie byers

its almost too easy. it doesnt take much to bribe lonnie, and hey, its not like its his kid. so lonnie accepts the bribe, and goes all the way out to california to find el

he shows up at the byers house..... only to find it completely deserted. so he waits

and the trio finds him there after their day out (why are you here? what do you want? where are mom and jonathan?)

and lonnie, being as crafty as he is, comes up with a good excuse on the fly (hes craftier than i am because i genuinely have no idea what he would say)

anyway, he gets them in his car and on their way back to hawkins

jonathan shows up after theyve already left, and is too stoned tired to think anything of the empty house

and joyce is already halfway to russia

will knows his father. he knows that his father doesnt give a shit about him, the family, or anything about hawkins. he knows that his father wouldnt get involved in anything unless he had something to gain. so hes wraking his brain

maybe.... lonnie pulls over to take a suspicious phone call? maybe will figures out an inconsistency in his story? either way, the gang is onto lonnie and figures that they gotta get away from him and get back to joyce and jonathan

they tuck and roll out of the car. idk. all that matters is that they get out of there

as theyre rolling out of the car, el bonks her head a little and has a quick flashback to her time in the lab

since her intuition is always spot on, she takes this as a cue the breener is back and lonnie is working for him

she tells the boys it isnt safe to go back to california or hawkins, so they come up w an alternative plan, somewhere neither brenner nor lonnie would think to look for them

and while theyre on the road, they stop at a diner to eat (dont ask me where they got the money) and we get will leaving an emotional voicemail home, probably sobbing to jonathan about how much he means to will, which gives el an idea

because who has the resources to help her, as well as a desire for vengeance on brenner? kali

el uses her superb hitchiking skills to get them to chicago

maybe she just has some hints of her powers left, but it isnt too hard for el to find kali

she explains everything thats happened, and lets kali know that if she want revenge, the opportunity is hers

unfortunately, lonnie was hot on their trail, and called for reinforcements

theyre ambushed by the few employees brenner has working for him. initially, everyone is hiding, assisted by kali’s powers

but el knows they arent leaving empty handed, and would rather get taken away then have kali’s freedom taken from her

so el reveals herself, followed by mike because he wont leave her, followed by will because he wont leave mike

all three get taken away, back to hawkins lab, but now kali is even more motivated to bring down the lab once and for all

so kali and her gang get to hawkins, almost simultaniously with jonathan, who has been looking for his family in a frenzy since the morning he woke up to find eveyone gone, without even a note or a phone call, as well as argyle, who came along for the ride

the video store is being used as home base this season, so thats the first place they go, where they find steve, shortstaffed and not knowing whats going on because the whole team ditched him

they catch him up to speed on how EVERYONES GONE and steve catches them up to speed on how EVERYONE IS GETTING MURDERED

meanwhile, brenner has three predicaments

1) no matter what he does to el, what kind of torture he inflicts, she isnt using her powers because she doesnt have them. she tells him this several times. he refuses to believe it

2) lonnie byers is demanding his payment, which he didnt recieve because the deal was that he bring el to them, and he couldnt even do that

3) he has to find a way to dispose of mike and will, who he had no intention of bringing into the lab but theyre here and they know everything

and this is the moment where mike screws up by letting them know that people know theyre in the lab and people know about all the experiments and any second now, someones gonna come banging that door down to save us. nancy, jonathan, steve, robin max, lucas, dustin, kali-

and the second mike says her name he knows he screwed up

brenner decides in that moment that all he can do is round up everyone involved and get rid of them. conveniently, the string of murders occurring will serve as a good cover for what happened to them

and this is the part where joyce, murray, and hopper get back to hawkins

this is also the part where nancy and robin and the gang get back to hawkins

so nancy and robin immediately go to the video store armed with all the new information they learned from victor creel

..... and are met with jonathan, argyle, kali, and steve in pandemonium

they close the store for the day, and get ready to storm the lab

they realize that they need something from the school, so they head there to pick it up

and soon after arriving, theyre met with the all to familiar hawkins lab vans

they make a hasty escape, taking out some of the goons but they need to find a way to get the rest off their trail

they head for the woods, hoping to hide out in the cabin

meanwhile, the russia crew has taken the mostly demolished cabin as their haven to recover from whatever injuries they sustained

theyre all running through the woods, but they realize the people from the lab are closing in on them

and then nancy and jonathan pass a very familiar tree

they use whatever weapon they have on them to break through the bark, and head into the upside down

the lab people keep going into the woods, eventually finding hopper’s cabin

epic showdown between the russia crew and the lab people, joyce, murray and hopper win, they realize the lab is back, immediately head there realizing theyre gonna have to rescue someone

nancy and robin use the info they learned from victor creel to keep the gang alive in the upside down, max, argyle and eddie are freaking out because omg we’re in another dimention, we get some big reveal about the truth about the upside down and the gang makes their way out and head to the lab

and while this is all happening,we get some super emotional monologue between brenner and el (ala-the last 10 minutes of the truman show) and brenner realizes that el isnt going to be the naieve superweapn she used to be, and decides the best thing he can do with el is give her the standard punishment, time in the closet

and being in the closet triggers all sorts of flashbacks and emotions (mbb’s opportunity to show off her acting chops for an emmy)

joyce and hopper bust into the lab like they did in season 1, but this time they dont get caught

they decide to split up to cover more ground, and hopper finds el in the closet

and around the same time joyce finds mike and will and gets them out of there

here comes the REAL emotional performance

hopper sees her, we get a teary eyed “el!” “dad!”, and then hopper gets pulled away from el by lab workers

exactly the same way terry did

we’re watching this happen from el’s perspective, with a heart-wrenching “noooooooooo” from el, accompanied by cuts to every time el has had to be separated from someone she cares about (terry, the s1 ending, billy dying, her leaving kali in s2, saying goodbye to everyone on moving day, her being separated from mike and will when they got to the lab) accompanied by some terribly sad 80s song, then back to the present moment, she reaches her hand out and boom, the guards go flying. her powers are back

except she doesnt have control of them the way she did before, and now shes bringing the whole building down

her and hopper race to the the first floor, and meet joyce and the boys, they get out of the building at the very last second, and the whole thing collapses.

eventually they find the other group, the whole team is now together, they go and take down the big bad from the upside down, joyce almost KILLS lonnie

nancy and robin drop a huge bombshell that has to do with hawkins/the upside down, specifically pertaining to el, which they pieced together after talking to victor creel

we get a massive cliffhanger, season 5 starts like 10 minutes after the ending of season 4

[probably-writing-x]

Forever

Guzmán x Reader

Request by anon: Hi! I love your writing so much! Would you be able to write a Guzman angst sort of based on the song forever by chvrches from the third season where the reader and him got into a big fight over a topic that was super important to reader and then as they both mature they sort of start yearning for the other, regretting everything that happened and they have a big convo where the emotions come to the surface and it’s where the “i regret the night i told you i would hate you til forever” comes in.

Gif is not my own

Requests are open 🤍

Hating someone was an odd feeling, especially when you’d once loved them. It wasn’t the type of hate that you felt for something that everybody hated, or the hate you’d dismissively say you had for the rude customer at work, nothing like that. It was this odd, deepest feeling that you almost had to force yourself into sticking to. Like it was a social construct that you couldn’t defy. An expectation based on previous actions that couldn’t just ease over time. You constantly had to remind yourself of the reason why you’d hated them in the first place and supposedly that gave you reason to hate them now. But that couldn’t always be the case. And in the case of you and Guzmán, you don’t think you’d ever felt that feeling properly - you’d just tried to convince yourself that you did.

Now, it was over two years since you’d split up with Guzmán. Since then, a lot had happened. A LOT. You’d watched him fall into the hands of Lu, a little quicker than you’d have expected him to move on. You’d seen him grow into a completely different person, or so you’d assumed. See him lose his sister and his friendship group come crumbling along with it. And, eventually, start to reach more and more complications come up in his relationship with Lu.

That night, the one where it all ended, would always be one you’d never forget.

“Are you taking the piss Guzmán? I wanted you there for one fucking day! One day! Is that really so hard?” You shove at his chest even if it doesn’t knock him an inch.

“something came up, okay? I don’t know how many times it needs to be said!”

“Something came up? I was sat in court watching a jury decide my father’s future and you’re telling me something came up? You’re an asshole Guzmán. You’re a real fucking asshole.”

“What do you want me to say? I’ve apologised haven’t I?”

“A sorry doesnt cut it. It never will. You’re acting like this relationship is some sort of difficulty for you. It shouldn’t be. You should want to be there for me when I need you. I shouldn’t be calling you five minutes before we go in just so I can check one last time if you have any heart left in you and you’ll actually be there for me,” You shake your head, tears threatening their arrival as they brew behind your eyes, “What is it? Is all of this just too much for you? Am I too much for you?”

He remains silent.

“I’ll never forgive you for this Guzmán, the one time I needed you, really fucking needed you - and you couldn’t even do that,” You purse your lips as they tremble.

“Don’t say that (Y/n)... come on, I messed up.”

“Yeah, you’re right, you really did,” You scoff, clicking your tongue as you regain some confidence, “And when I was sat in that court today, watching my Dad be wrongly convicted of a crime he never committed, there was still nobody I hated more than you.”

“Babe, please... don’t say that...” Guzmán winces, reaching out for you with no avail.

“I’ll never forget that feeling Guzmán. Ever.”

For a while, you’d savoured that feeling of that night. Like it was the final piece of feeling that you had of your relationship with that boy. The boy you’d convinced yourself to love constantly and so deeply even at such a young age.

In the past two years, you’d been through your own version of pain - just as Guzmán had. You’d separated so far from each other that it felt like you’d be talking to a stranger if the two of you ever found yourself back together again. You’d spent months proving your fathers innocence until he’d finally been released and it hurt even more when you didn’t have someone to lean on during that whole process. Even in ending your relationship, Guzmán had never really released that hold he had on you - and he never would do. You’d still always think of him, care for him, love him.

It made you question whether you’d been to hasty in your actions that night. Had you jumped the gun on giving up on him so easily? How much would be different if you’d have held your tongue and let it slide as an honest mistake? No, it meant a lot to you that day and it still should do now. Your own questioning wouldn’t change that.

But damn, that boy had the power to make you question it.

- - - - - -

It had been two years since Guzmán had last properly spoken to you. Two years since he’d seen you laugh at something he’d said, or hit him jokingly when he made rude comments in public. Two years since he’d held your hand and placed kisses on your knuckles. Two years since he’d made the worst mistake of his life and let you slip away.

He’d replayed that night over and over, relentlessly questioning how he could ever be so stupid. He should’ve been there. He should’ve held your hand and kept you close beside him, let you cry into him when you watched the worst day of your life unfold. How could he have ever let you go through that alone? In the last two years, Guzmán had grown immensely. He’d become a different person. And in that growth, he’d learnt more and more of what he should’ve done when he had the chance. With that growth, came a deep-set regret that he could never shake.

It wasn’t as simple as just asking you to forgive him for what he’d done. Like he could just explain his side of things and make that into enough to prove that he deserved a second chance. It was two years too late for any of that, and he could never blame you for not seeing his side of things. Sure, he did have an explanation for that day - but you’d always think you were right. And he knew that what you were going through back then was enough to mean his explanation was never going to be enough. He should’ve been there, despite any possible excuse.

He’d tried back then and it hadn’t been successful. That’s when he’d expected that he’d never get a second chance.

“Come on (Y/n) open the door!” He knocks loudly against the wood once again, resting his forehead against the surface, “Please.”

You had already mentally scolded your Mum for opening the front door to him, but you were relieved that you had a lock on your bedroom door and at least could keep one physical barrier between you. Lord knows you didn’t have the strength to keep up any of your own barriers between him and you.

“It’s been a week babe, are you seriously not going to say a word to me anymore?” He used the nickname so flippantly, so naturally.

“We both made it clear where we stand,” You reply coldly, wrapping your arms around yourself even if he couldn’t see your vulnerability.

“That doesn’t mean we can’t fix this,” He hits his hand on the door again but it’s not aggressive, it’s losing hope.

“Yes it does Guzmán,” You state, taking in a shaky breath as you walk closer to the door until you’re leaning your forehead against it. You wanted to be close to him, despite the door being shut between you.

“No, no. Answer me one question and that will prove it,” He reminds you, “Did you mean what you said?”

You close your eyes as a tear slips between them, dropping to the carpet under your feet.

“Come on (Y/n). Did you mean it when you said you hated me?”

He’s pleading with you and himself for the answer to be no. With every fibre of his body he is hoping that you could never possibly have that feeling for him. Please.

Your lack of response is answer enough. Enough of an answer to shatter his heart into a thousand pieces as he turns against the door and slumps against it, slowly sliding down until he’s on the ground.

You can’t hear him sob but you can feel it in you as you do the same.

Both of you realising more and more that this wasn’t a fixable argument.

- - - - - -

“Shit, I’m sorry,” You mumble to yourself as you stumble into another person in the corridor, bending down to help them pick up what you’d just caused them to drop.

You were already late for the interview you’d been waiting for and this clearly wasn’t a good start. You’d got yourself lost in the building and were starting to think that, at this point, you’d shown up at the wrong place.

“Excuse me, do you know where-“ You start to ask somebody walking past you before you realise they’re on the phone and most certainly don’t want to be talking to you.

You sigh and turn to be met with a sight that, really, is the most unexpected thing to see in this moment.

Only metres from you, with the hints of a warm smile on his lips, stands Guzmán. The boy you’d managed to not say two words to in two years, and now found yourself face to face with.

“Seems you haven’t changed,” He comments, words he didn’t expect to be the first that he said to you.

“You’d be surprised,” You scoff, surprising yourself with those being your first words, “Are you here for the job interview?”

“Something like that,” He smirks, “And I’m guessing you are too.”

“Yeah,” You look down at your feet and swallow the lump in your throat.

Eventually, the silence becomes so deafening and you decide instead to take a seat on the chairs around the waiting area.

“I didn’t expect to see you at a place like this,” Guzmán comments, taking the seat two away from you, “This doesn’t really seem like your scene.”

“And being more than two feet away from Lu doesn’t seem like your scene either - but here we are.”

It’s a harsh response. But you didn’t want the small talk.

He looks down and smirks a little, “Touché.”

There’s a low volume of music playing through the corporate office block and you realise more and more that he’s right in saying this isn’t the place for you. Not one person seemed capable of smiling, and they all seemed to scold each other like they’d grown into hating every piece of existence within these walls. Maybe you didn’t want this interview. The music, however, seemed like your one slice of hope for distraction with Guzmán sat only a metre away.

That is until it turns to one specific song. One from a night you’d probably rather forget. The time you’d first got properly drunk and realised that drunk (Y/n) seemed to have a hatred for clothes and a strong liking for pools. Yeah, that was an interesting night.

Guzmán can’t help but smile down at his feet as the memory floods back to him too. The night he’d had to throw you over his shoulder and carry you out of a house party before you broke another vase and it would become impossible for him to cover it up again.

“Stop smiling,” You state quickly, “I don’t need to relive that night again.”

He laughs and you find it impossible to not chuckle a little too, that night had always been a joke between the two of you.

You don’t look at each other but it’s the most you’ve shared in a long time - laughing together at a common memory.

More and more people filter in for their interviews and you become increasingly certain that you didn’t even want the job, let alone the interview beforehand.

“Do you want to get out of here?” Guzmán asks from beside you, leaning over the chair that separated you so that he can ask quietly.

You eye him for a moment and question every instinct you have before you eventually settle on saying, “Definitely.”

You soon find yourself walking through the corridors in an attempt to find your way out, eventually getting through to some sort of grounds area where you’re surrounded by overly fake plants and turf instead of real grass. The lyrics from that song keep playing over and over in your head, resurfacing a wealth of memories with them.

“I know you won’t believe me,” Guzmán starts, “But I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately.”

“Oh no, of course I believe you!” You laugh, “Things with Lu aren’t looking good, and you’re not the type of person to want to be alone.”

“It’s not like that,” He rolls his eyes, “But it’s good to know you stuck to your promise of hating me.”

You glance at him momentarily, it was like you hadn’t ever intended to speak those words. They were all just part of this facade you created to convince yourself that you did still, in fact, hate him. Just playing the game, right?

“A lot’s happened recently, (Y/n). With Marina, everything at school, my father, everything - I’ve realised more and more how shitty it is to go through a bad time,” He explains, “I guess I never really understood why you needed me so much on that day in court - you could handle it yourself, and I wouldn’t have changed the outcome.”

“Guzmán don’t use this as a reason to list why I shouldn’t have been pissed at you-“

“No, no,” He stops in front of you so he’s facing you directly, “What I’m trying to say is that I never really asked why you needed me so much - but I get it now. Because in everything that’s happened, I realised that the one person I needed... was you. And not to make the situation better or to solve the problems or anything, but just for you to be there.”

You look down at your feet and take in a deep breath, “I don’t know what you want me to say Guzmán. That was two years ago.”

“Right. Two years where I’ve realised more and more that I had an answer to that question. One that I should’ve answered when you first asked,” Guzmán explains, “You asked me if this was too much for me, if you were too much for me. Instinctively, I would say no. Why wouldn’t the answer be no?”

You look back up to him because it seems like these are words that he’s been waiting to speak for forever.

“But of course it’s yes. You’re not too much in what you ask for, what you expect. You’re too much in how good you are for me. You’re too kind, patient, supportive- and I didn’t realise the extent of that until I didn’t have it.”

His hands reach for yours and he holds onto them with so much hope that you start to believe it too for just a moment. In those eyes, in that soft grip, you’re starting to see the blurring of your past and the rewriting of your future. You snap out of it too quickly than your heart would’ve liked you to.

“Guzmán,” You push away from him, stepping past to get him out of sight, “What do I say to that?”

“What do you mean?” He sighs, “We’ve had two years to realise how much has changed and how we’ll never find anyone as perfect for each other as we are. Isn’t that enough?”

You turn around and take in his full appearance. Looking at every piece of him that had grown and matured so much in the past twenty four months. Those broken pieces that life had caused and the parts of him that had just about started to heal. And the heaviest wash of regret sits atop your shoulders, heavy enough to knock you down. You’d told this boy that you hated him. That you always would. And that was a regret you’d held ever since.

“I just need you to ask yourself if you think we can recover from what happened that night. But I’m going to ask you one thing I asked you a week after, now two years after - did you mean it when you said you hated me? That you’d always hate me?”

You let out a shaky breath, “I’ll always regret the night I told you I’d hate you forever.”

In those words, it’s like Guzmán is tearing down every piece of every barrier that had built up between you two. He strides toward you and his instant instinct would be to kiss those lips that he’d been waiting to kiss for years. But this connection was deeper than that. And when his arms wrap tightly around you and he engulfs you in that same scent from way back when, he expresses much more than a kiss ever could.

“Seems you haven’t changed,” He mumbles into your shoulder, referencing his words from earlier as he smirks against your skin.

You pull back and cup one side of his jaw in your hand, “You’d be surprised.”

He chuckles and dips his head to finally press that kiss to you, strong and certain.

Yeah, surprised was one word for whatever he was feeling. And he’d savour that mix of emotions for as long as he could, letting it erase away all of the pain.

[spaceysp]

Whats ur opinions on the crimson arc so far? do you like how its going? any theories in what would happen next? im sorry if its a lot, i just miss your rambling

oooo thank you so much for the ask! its so nice that you actually like my rambling qwq youre too kind!

and YES, the egg arc, i havent really talked about it since the red skeppy arc, but i have been (mostly) keeping up! i am a true unabashed bbh apologist, its so fascinating how persuasive he can be, he manages to keep me rooting for him despite all logical conclusions pointing to the egg actually not being all that great for the smp. i love the way he revealed that he was under the influence of the egg, and that he implied that he gave in to the crimson after skeppy showed no signs of getting better. honestly, my biggest gripe is how the small red skeppy segment played out, there was a perfect opportunity to loop techno into the arc while also not directly facing him with the egg, skeppy becoming another refuge in his cabin like ranboo, and techno trying to figure out whats wrong with him. also, the bathwater solution was... a little confusing, but honestly, i dont blame either of them for red skeppy devolving into an almost comedic side-arc, skeppy doesnt seem to really enjoy that kind of roleplay and bad clearly got too emotional when dealing with those topics, so im glad they changed it up for the sake of their own comfort. 

and while i love the arc and how its going, one of my biggest flaws is being overly-critical, so i cant help but be a bit hesitant when it doesnt go the way i think it should. again, totally a me problem, because honestly, its going great even without heading in the direction i thought it should. i love how they bring in lesser focused on “side characters” to the story, giving them development and time to shine, in contrast to how as soon as tommy and tubbo got involved herds of people were ready to call out the arc. in any sci-fi universe, though i enjoy some ridiculous and far-out concepts, at its base i most appreciate it being realistic enough to, in a certain universe or fantasy, it could be real. i like the alien aspects to still follow a set amount of rules, rules that cant be broken without completely skewing the original idea. most of the “rules” for the egg go as follows, you either like it or hate it, it turns blue things red, and red things white, enough time with the egg will convert you into liking it, obsidian and holy water can slow its spread. now, i, like a few others, suspect some of these rules, like the holy water, of being over-exaggerated to bring an advantage to the eggpire, but i think the rest of them are pretty solid and shown in the canon. so, my problem with tommys involvement is that he directly contradicts one of the rules, like every other overpowered mary sue protagonist. i know bad probably wrote this in and there will be an explanation or plot point or whatever, but it still irks me, especially when hes also threatening to break another rule, that the egg cant convert him into liking it. this is obviously setting him up to be the “main character” or “hero” but i honestly hope he just leaves it alone. he wont even take the threat seriously, and there are many better alternatives like puffy or awesam. i know most people are hoping for puffy as the main hero, and it would make sense! she follows all the rules, while also finding ways around the eggpire and trying to stop them. 

overall, i love the way they use the environment to their advantage in storytelling, i love how its not another basic man v man conflict that, in the end, depends on how stacked you are and your pvp skills. i love that theres mystery in how the egg even appeared, and how different people are used in the story. some things feel a little hasty, but only small things. not to mention bads incorporation of fanart. its really great and people should be giving it the appreciation it deserves, deffo one of the best plots on the server. again, tysm for the ask, i went on a LONG time about this oops.

[chasing-ukiyo]

as i get older,

 i kind of just take a step back and look at what has become of this world and its people. i also take a look at myself and realize how much i've changed since a decade ago.

i've still got ways to go but i know the importance of self-development as a muslim and how Allah always wants us to be better and strive for better. i actually think i've been an introvert all my life bc when i think about it, looking back at all the situations i was in, i always preferred smaller group things rather than large groups and i would always feel more at peace when i was alone or with just one or two people.

well, since i became muslim, things haven't changed in that regard. i love being in small groups preferably one to two people MAX. but it doesnt really work that way here, lol.

it's all about big groups and gatherings. the more the merrier. i can't really deal with that and it's so overwhelming, to say the least. i often wonder how anyone from here can ever have alone time to reflect upon themselves. like the word introspects doesn't exist here even though in Islam, the prophet pbuh did a lot of self-reflection and encouraged Muslims do the same...

well, all i can say is Alhamdulillah Allah has allowed me to be an introvert who values quiet time and being alone. people don't make lots of noise but that they ARE noise. noise in every way possible. honestly, the people of the cave were really blessed to live far far far away from the people for that long period of time..

while socializing is natural for a human's wellbeing, i think too much of it definitely brings more harm than good. especially now that the world is only full of quantity and no quality humans.

i mean, it's nice, though. to sometimes experience the culture of the place you are visiting or living in. it opens your eyes to many things and also makes you grateful for a LOT of things.. especially makes you grateful for the things you are given from Allah ... sometimes we take things for granted and until we are in another country or it's taken away from us, we then realize the true value of something...how cliche..but such is the human being... hasty, ungrateful and feeling entitled.

i need some tea.

[strawberryspeachy]

I just hit a major paradox

I wanna take a depression pill. I dont cause they make me tired but im always tired anyhow

I wanna take it now to stop this pain from being rejected to make me think with a clear mind

But if i took it i wouldnt know whats my own delusions - just say what you want to say because what you think is happening is happening cause youre always right about bad stuff and the bad is coming so just say it and get it out with while he might still respond to why he doesnt like you

But then that would be mixed with my depression pill high of - i feel fine and nothing should stop me and what will he will be so just say something so he can leave and not dampen you anymore

With me fighting of

No no dont be hasty you dont actually know whats going on so just wait

Yea maybe youre right me. That is the healthy thing to do

Thats not you thats you thinking about regular peoples lives which you dont have

See look this is why your miserable cause you always jump to conclusions

No i dont ive waited for months in the past with the same result. My whole life has been the same result

Ok. Youre right. We should just accept soliture. Get on with it. Either hes the one and doesnt matter your freak out if he wasnt doing it. Feels bad for being a dick and trys with me. Or hes gone and we can begin this life of solitude

I dont want to be alone. Why does everyone leave me. I have to know. Maybe hell tell me. I gotta know whats wrong with me

No this is the crazy you talking. Stop

No its the pill trying to fuck with

Its both. But they both agree that you should do it

Is there any part of me that doesnt agree

The one sliver of rational me who only get a say when im not the one involved: i dont agree! Wait and see

Dude i listened to you like three times before and we waited for almost a year one time. And i dont have a year

Rational me: yea... youre right.. that didnt work out well and we shoulda just stopped it early when we knew

Some other me: but what if hes different!!

All mes laugh in unison

Some other me: come on! Theres gotta be some guy whose actually good!!

All mes: no no. No

Rational me: damn. Now i realize how stupid i sound. JUST TELL HIM OFFF! The asshole!

Physical me already typing: does what i have written sound good?

All other mes: wow. Thats. NOT ENOUGH!! YOU ONLY HAVE ONE SHOT TO WRITE WHAT YOU FEEL BEFORE HE STOPS READING - GO ALL IN!!

Yea... so...

Thats my brain

[musubiki]

Got any hcs for white? Her starter, her journey, etc? And like. Fws hcs?? 👀👀👀

K HERE WE GO MY SECOND FAVORITE GIRL EVER(this is gonna be long bc. i like them too)

➞

white chose tepig as her starter. this is actually a GREAT match because Gus is really rash and hasty and stubborn fist fighter just like her

white has never lost a battle. that was her goal it was never really to become champion or anything (she didnt care for all the responsibility that came with it) her goal was to be undefeated. which did not bode well for cheren, who wanted to be champion, and lost every battle against her

“well this is discouraging”

she really loves bianca!!! and cheren!!!!! she has the least patience and sense out of the three. cheren has to keep her grounded so she doesnt do weird shit

white is physically the strongest out of the protags. its mysterious. she als o has the best hair 

when she first meets N he is. a creep. im sorry. even i see it like that when you first meet him hes weird. when she first hears the team plasma speech in the first town, shes like boiling already. why would anyone listen to the knights of the round table?! this is weird. she kicks N’s ass first battle.

her problem from here on out and throughout the journey is that. she was the opposite of N. she thought that everyone treated their pokemon nicely and no one could ever hurt a pokemon. she learned she was wrong fairly quickly, and tried to fix and embrace reality instead of N, who tried to change the world all at once.

this is why shes the hero of truth and hes the hero of ideals. 

i dont have a lot of solid hc interactions between them (mostly bc i havent played in a while jfklas i abandoned my boy) but throughout their journey they. actually talk. and argue. and they both equally learn things from each other. and despite him being kinda weird (she thinks) shes actually kinda concerned for him

he makes her think about things she wouldnt otherwise. not just the fate of pokemon but about the future and the whole world. because of him she actually has this moment, where she has all of her current team out. and she realises that she is, like what he says and just makes her pokemon fight. of course and loves and cares for them, and she just. asks them real solemly like. “Do you guys even want to fight? Like do you even like being here?” 

and she already decided that if any of them didn’t want to be there, she would let them go.

luckily, her whole team is full of pokemon just like her and they enjoy the fights, and the adventure, and spending time with her, and shes thrilled. after this she asks pokemon she catches that she wants to keep if they wanna stay with her

i love N a lot ok. whenever N talks to white she always says something that surprises him and makes him look at the world differently. eventually he finds himself actually seeking her out and deliberatly looking for chances to run into her. he gains a lot of respect for her. whenever he talks to her he takes his hat off and nervoulsy kinda. holds it in his hands and shes kinda “?”

when she first finds out hes king. of team plasma. shes pissed. shes ready to TIP TH DAMN CART THING IN THE FERRISHWEEL AND HAVE A FIGHT RIGHT THERE. HES TELLING HER TO CALM DOWN AND SHES LIKE HOW DID YOU EXPECT ME TO REACT??????????????

shes angry bc hes the king of this. horrible orginization. and as far as shes seen all they do is steal and abuse pokemon. the next few times she talks to him he tells her that theyre nothing like that, and that they only look after pokemon

this is actually true. some of the grunts fully believe in the true cause. but most of them follow ghetsis. and N has no idea that his grunts are actually abusing and stealing (i keep thinking about the dreamyard because that scene was what the fuck????a re you doing????)

she begins to realize this. that he has no idea. and that he actually believes in this cause. and as she gets to know him she realises he is. the purest person. and he has no idea. and she feels kinda bad bc she was kinda mean to him before, but hes still plasma so shes confused about how she should treat him because he always treats her and her pokemon pretty nicely. 

N is actually a very nice and gentle soul. he’ll put up a fight for sure, but especially towards white hes the sgtwytwytws weetest thing im sorry i have a soft spot for him. lowkey he wants her approval.

if youve ever seen miraculous ladybug, i imagine N to be kind of like adrien(without the chat side to him) like hes just. nice. and gentle and. cute.

i hc that they have way more interactions than the game gives you

the best thing theyve ever had together was this celebration in Iccirus city (similar to like…the 4th of july kinda thing..) and whites pretty alone. cherena and bianca are off doing Arceus knows what and shes like. alone. and she finds N outside the city with some pokemon. 

so she goes and talks to him. questions why hes out here all alone in like, the cold. shouldnt you be with your family or something? its a holiday. and she caught him off gaurd and he immedatly like stands up and hes kinda happy to see her. he doesnt question why but hes. happy. when shes around. 

he tells her his father never really cared for these kinds of celebrations anyway, and that he usually spends these kinds of days alone. he doesnt think this is a big deal but whites kinda,.. lonely too. so she proposes “Listen, no one should be alone today. And I don’t really have anyone to hang out with either, so what do you say we just, forget about the sworn enemies thing for the night and go have some fun or something” 

and hes. surprised. here she goes again. always saying something new and pleasent and hes. like beaming hes so cutnhejfje so he agrees. 

and this turns into. a pretty great night for them both actually. like they actually get along great when theyre not arguing about the future of unova. they play a lot of booth games and. 

hdj white loses at one of those ball tossing games(she usually loses and then harasses the booth guy with “Booo its rigged” but she just likes to have fun) and N. is determined. he fuckin. calculates wind direction and all this weird shit and gets. a record high score and shes like how the fuck did you do that. he smiles and answers its all in the wrist. 

he gets her some stuffed animal thing. shes like this is the best day ever shes thrilled. they go and get food and like by the end of the night theyre actually. like friends. and she didnt think this would happen but she actually likes hanging out with him. at some point she wins a seashell necklace that she wears for the timeskip outfit

so theyre sitting there at the edge of the festival whatever eating caramel popcorn and ice cream and hot dogs laughing and telling stories about weird people theyve met and crazy things theyve done.

and they talk about his family. and why hes with plasma in the first place. and where her parents are. and why they believe in the things that they say and do. it turns out theyre both orphans. the only difference between them is that hes alone

at some point (i forget how this comes up) he asks white if theyre friends. she pauses for a while because she doesnt know how to answer it. yes, she thinks, when she’s with him like this. when she forgets that hes leading a region-wide organization aiming to seperate people and pokemon. but she settles with a yes, and jokingly adds that if they were destined to be mortal enemies they could hang out more, and he smiles

she spots a pair of plasma grunts, looks like theyre doing some shady things, but her head flashes back to the conversations shes had with N. he doesnt know what his grunts do. so she tells him to stay there and she’ll be back. hes kind of confused and worried, so he follows her from a distance.

she follows the grunts into a cave/grotto/area. yep, here they are abusing some poor purrloins or something, trying to get something that ghetsis claims he needs. she has her stountland right beside her and angrily questions what they think theyre doing. 

when they snarkily and confidently answer that they do whatever they want, she asks why theyre even a part of team plasma at all if theyre gonna treat pokemon like this. she tells them to go join team rocket if theyre looking for business like that. N is outside listening to all of this

they say something like “You think this about money?” and she asks what else and they answer “This is about power. We don’t give a damn about freeing pokemon for justice! When all the pokemon are gone plasma will reign supreme!!” 

she clutches her pokeball. shes pissed. not just because, these fuckers got issues, but because they are deliberatly. disobeying N, and everything he stands for. so she tells them to get out of there before they end up regretting it. they laugh and tell her they dont even listen to their own King, why would they listen to her.

(white is a huge badass by the way. shes the more hardcore and probably coolest protag)

then N steps in and they. fall silent. and they are terrified. the stutter and stammer about how it was all a misunderstanding, and it wasnt their fault, and they didnt mean it, and every excuse they could come up with but N. is kind of like leaf in this sense because he is. angry. but his anger comes off cold and heartless and man he is cool.

so they, because they know theyre screwed already, decide that they wont take this shit anymore and challenge them to a fight. figure if they manage to beat N, maybe they could rule plasma instead. (this is my excuse to get N and White to double battle) and they rock. theyre the perfect tag team. truely the two sides of the same coin

when theyre defeated. N forces them to release their pokemon and they run away, never to show their faces to plasma again. They stand there in silence for a while, and N asks “Why did you tell me not to stay there?”

shes quiet for a while before answering “Because…you believe in what you do” and “I didn’t want you to see the worst of what was going on.” 

he thanks her for her concern, and tells her not to think like that, because now he finally sees what shes been trying to tell him about plasma, and maybe he can do something about it now that he knows. ignorance is never bliss, he adds, and she knows hes right. she just didnt want him to be hurt, she thinks

she asks what hes going to do, and he answers he’d try to weed out whatever corruption was in plasma. he hopes what the grunts say wasnt true, and that this was just a small mutiny, not rooting from the very top.

FYI SHES NOT SUPPORTING PLASMA at this point she still hates plasmas ass for doing what they do, but shes seen now the way some trainers treat their pokemon (in and out of plasma) and she thinks that if this cause was done right, it would help the world a lot

unfortunaly N is a fool lol and wants to liberate ALLLL THE DAMN POKEMON. 

ofc after this. ghetsis goes and. poisons his mind again with how shes a fool and shes trying to manipulate you and why would you doubt your own father. and right after this N. becomes the hero of ideals and they become worse enemies than theyve ever been. she becomes the hero of truth and he smiles because suddenly. everything makes sense. why hes always so happy to be around her. why it feels like she completes him despite all their differences and he. loves her he just doesnt know it 

and she knows for a fact that ghetsis is behind all of this but because N is the king, she has to go through him first. 

and she really cares for N. she actually ends up realising after he leaves that yeah, she pretty much loved him. and she hates his ass for leaving. so she goes to chase him down because cheesy as it is, these two are literally soulmates. they both acknowledge that meeting and growing with the other has made them better and stronger people and white refuses to let that go.

(i love their story and dynamic)

i dont have a set reuniting scene for them yet, the only one i have is.,.,. a part of that other story im lowkey working on..,.,. but she slaps him thats for sure LOL. hes like a puppy hes so happy to see her again hes like “White!!” and shes. PISSED. she has tears in her eyes and CATCH THESE HANDS. leaf and green are probably there and theyre like WHOA WHAT

green actually relates to white bc of this bc yeah, i waited for like 3 years for the love of my life too

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3AM Drive - Thru (JJK x You x The8/Minghao)// Chapter 11

MASTERLIST

"I want you back Y/N," he walked closer and took both of her hands in his. "I know I dont deserve to say that to you. But I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. Please give me just one more chance. I promise I will spend the rest of my life showing you how you should be love and treated. I will do anything you ask me to. Just please give me a chance to try,"

"Song Y/N, in case you still dont know, I love you,"

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"All my life, all I know is how to love him. I never thought I would know how to do anything else. Until I met you Minghao. I think I'm finally ready to learn something new..."

Y/N covered her face with her pillow and screamed. Hoping the pillow would help to muffle the sound.

She cant believe she said that to Minghao. Great, he's probably freaked out now! Right after she said that, Minghao just give her a tight hug, asks her to go get some rest and went off, saying he needs to see someone.

The first thought that comes to Y/N's head is maybe he already has a girlfriend that he didnt tell her about. Maybe he really just thinks of her as only a best friend. Maybe now he doesn't want to be close to her anymore.

Just the thought of not having Minghao as close to her as before brought tears to her eyes. She doesnt care if he doesn't feel the same way, if the thoughts of liking her just a little more than friends had never even cross his mind, all she wants now is to turn back time and wish she didn't open her stupid mouth.

After hours of rolling around, trying to fall asleep, Y/N knows its no use. She wiped her tears that never stop flowing, bundled herself up in a oversized fuzzy sweater and heads out. Maybe the night air can help ease her mind enough for her to feel sleepy.

The moment she stepped on the sidewalk, Minghao is standing right in front of her, smiling, holding brown paperbags filled with fries and chicken nuggets.

His smile dissappeared the moment he saw how red and puffy her eyes are, indicating that she's been crying. The bags are immediately dropped to the ground as he rush over to her before she can turn away.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for making you cry," Minghao hugged Y/N tightly from the back and turned her to face him. "Please dont cry because of me. Someone like me is not worth to be cried over someone like you,"

Y/N starts to sob even louder. What is he saying? He is the most important person in her life. To her, he's worth more that life itself.

"I'm sorry for saying what I said. Please just forget it ever happen. Please dont leave me Minghao. Can we please just go back to how we use to be and forget everything that I said? As long as you are still in my life, I dont care if you dont feel the same way," Y/N cried. She doesn't care about her not so friendly feelings being out in the open anymore.

Minghao pulls her close to his chest and smile into her hair when he realize what she's crying about. Aish, stupid girl. Did she really thinks he left because of her confession?

The truth it, the moment Y/N said what she said, Minghao felt his heart is going to burst and his jaw breaking for wanting to smile so widely. But he knows before he can say anything, he needs to see his friend and hears his side of the story. So he instead asks Y/N to sleep since its already late and went to meet Jungkook.

He loves Y/N too much to take advantage of her vulnerable state. He wants Y/N to be with him because she really wants to, not because she's too used to being around him that she thinks she's in love with him.He wants her to really think about her feelings.

He meant what he said to Jungkook. His priority is for Y/N to be happy, it doesn't matter with who she's happy with. As much as he just wants to grab her, kiss her and make her his when she confessed, he knows he cant be hasty and let Y/N really sort out her feelings until she's sure that its him that she really wants.

"Y/N... I'm not going anywhere. I promised you didn't I? I promise you that I will always be here for you," he finally said to her. "You dont know how happy I am to hear you say that to me...but," Y/N cocks her head, nervously biting her lips.

"But, I want you to be sure that you really want to be with me. Because I dont think I will allow you to ever get away once you are mine,"

"Minghao, I know what I'm feeling, and its you!"

"Y/N... Jungkook is your first real love, you can never truly ever get over your first real love. And now that he's back in your life, I need you to really sort out you feelings. And once you figured it out and the answer is still me, I will be waiting for you, always," he smiles warmly at her. "In the meantime, I will always be by your side. Dont you worry, I'm not going anywhere,"

"But, Minghao-"

Minghao places a finger on her lips, hushing her.

"Song Y/N, in case you still didn't know, I love you,"

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The days that follows after that night are filled with rainbows and sunshine for Y/N.

Minghao loves me. He actually said he loves me!

Those are the only thoughts that seems to be playing in her mind. Their relationship remains the same as before. Minghao still firmly believes that Y/N needs time to sort out her feelings. Y/N, on the contrary, is trying everything she can to show that she's already sure of her feelings and she just want them to be together already. Since Seventeen's next comeback is coming very soon, their time together was cut short due to Minghao's practice and recording sessions. Lazy days watching movies together were turned into extra early breakfast session or super late movie nights. However, Minghao never fails to replace the missing time together with extra long phone and video calls and frequent daily texts.

His way of showing that he cares does nothing other than makes the flutter in Y/N's heart growing.

Y/N's days are brighter everyday, except for the days when Jungkook's variety show is filming.

Y/N did a great job of avoiding him on days she knows they have the recording at her studio. She will purposely schedule outside meetings or other shoots to keep her busy and away.

She and Jungkook haven't spoken to each other ever since he kissed her. And she's really hoping not to ever speak to him again. Jungkook, on the other hand, tried everything to find and talk to her, but to no avail.

Until today.

A major problem had occured regarding the shoot, and since it involves two of the currently biggest idol groups, its natural that Y/N herself has to get involve in order to solve whatever mess that happened.

Jungkook seized the chance and immediately caught up with her when she's trying to quietly escape after finishing the meeting.

"Y/N, wait please,"

Y/N stopped in her tracks. Her back facing him, contemplating wether she should try and run or face the situation like an adult. Minghao came into her mind and she knows in order for her to get a fresh new start with him, she needs to settle whatever this is with Jungkook.

So, she take a deep breath and turn around. She gestured for him to enter her office and close the door after he slowly follows.

"What do you have to say Jungkook?"

"Look, I know you are avoiding me,"

"You are right. I am avoiding you," Y/N honestly answered. She is done playing games with Jungkook.

"Okay. I deserved that," he sigh. "Look Y/N... I wont say I'm sorry for kissing you, because it felt right to me. But I am sorry for making you angry," he took a step closer. "Y/N, I meant what I said. I love you. I've never ever stop. Minji was a mistake. Asking for a break was a mistake, God, making you cry is the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life,"

Y/N just look at him, emotionless.

"Where are you going with this Jungkook?"

"I want you back Y/N," he walked closer and took both of her hands in his. "I know I dont deserve to say that to you. But I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. Please give me just one more chance. I promise I will spend the rest of my life showing you how you should be love and treated. I will do anything you ask me too. Just please give me a chance to try,"

Y/N closes her eyes and sigh. She slowly release her hands from his. Those are the words that she had always wanted to hear from him, the love of her life... only its 2 years too late.

"Jungkook..." he looked up at the sound of his name. "Seeing you with Minji that first day broke me into pieces. At that very moment I realized that your excuse of being an idol to break up with me is just that, an excuse. I realized that you are not too busy for a relationship, you are too busy for me. Its not a relationship that you are afraid of distracting you, its me. I realized that if you really had love me, you would at least try to work it with me before you call it quits. You are willing to try it with Minji, but not with me. Why? Why not with me?

I asked myself that question for months Jungkook. I finally figure out that you probably dont love me enough to give me a chance. I feel worthless. I feel like I'm still not enough for someone who I gave everything to. I have nothing left to give you and I start to see all the things that Minji has and I dont. Things that makes you choose her and not me.

You left me alone in my darkest state, in the moment when I need you the most. Loving you is all that I used to know, and I used to think that I will never ever know anything else. But I have grown up now Jungkook, and I realized, there's so much more that I can learn.

Our story has ended the moment you get up and left me crying at that cafe. You already wrote the last chapter of our story. And I know that now. You can try to get me back, you can do whatever you want, I wont stop you. You know that I will always love you Jungkook, but I wont ever let myself be in love with you again,"

By the end of what Y/N is saying, Jungkook is drowning with tears. He didn't know that he had hurt the one person he loves that much. Y/N used to mean everything to him, and she still does. He wanted to deny, to explain to her that no, she's not worthless. That Minji is nothing compared to her. That she deserve all the nice things in the world and he is the stupid guy who let someone so precious. But action speaks louder than words. Everything has been done 2 years ago, and there's nothing he can say now that will unbreak Y/N's heart.

"I'm sorry Y/N. I'm so so sorry. If I could turn back time I would, and I would have never let your precious heart break," he sniffle. "I know this is a lot to ask. I know I dont even deserve this much, but can we be try to be friends? For real this time, I promise," he raised his hand to indicate that he's swearing. "Let's get to know each other again,"

Y/N chuckle through her watery eyes.

"I dont think I can handle the thought of not having you in my life at all Y/N,"

"Of course Jungkook. After all, we were best friends first," she smiles. "Hi, I'm Song Y/N," while holding out her hand. Jungkook give a small chuckle.

"And I'm Jeon Jungkook. It's nice to meet you. I hope we can be great friends," he continues. Although he's hoping to reconcile their relationship, he knows he should atleast be grateful that Y/N is still willing to be in his life.

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"Hey Y/N, want to go grab a bite? I'll buy you your chicken nuggets and fries," he smiles. "Just like the old times..."

She's sad, angry, tired, betrayed, hungry, cold, heart broken... and standing right in front of her is the man who's giving her the oh so familiar bunny smile that sends her a warm feeling.

"Why not Jungkook. Just like the old times,"