#is that starkergia using epithets???????

[starkergia]

*that one cynthia erivo gif* the idea of starker who are best friends and fuck every now and then. nothing serious, no compromise, no afterthought. they just suck one another sometimes and it's great.

they don't really know how it started but it just did.

they were at this bar once and just began to make out. it wasn't the first time. tony looked so hot with all of his bracelets and that expensive watch. and yeah maybe peter isn't legally allowed drink because he's 19 but who cares. and the younger of them, with his wet puppy face and nerdy talks. gosh, how could any of them ever resist each other?

so they frot in some random deserted alley at (what they assume) 01:00.

or when they're next to a lake for whatever reason. there were other people with them but they decided to go to the lake, just the two of them, alone. some best friends bonding time. and of course they had to skinny dip! i mean, just do it while you're at it, right? but of course they end up fucking at the riverbank. it's almost cinematographic, too. it was twilight, still bright enough for them to stop mid intercourse and just... stare at each other. Sure the the rocks are uncomfortable and the dirt is sticking to tony's back, but it's something so surreal, what they're feeling.

And it's confusing peter. a lot. what's this? just platonic love? but that's not what people describe it being like, right? this deep connection they have.

but it can't be romantic love either. this deep connection they share, it's just that. not tilting towards anything. it isn't inclined to skipped heart beats and tinkling eyes. It's simple, it's happiness when someone mentions tony and countless plans made but none executed. it's playfully fighting and insulting each other and drunk babbles send through text. it's mocking each other and having a spicier discussion than normal, thus not talking to each other for a few hours. it's hanging out every once a week but going crazy if they say more than a consecutive week together. it's making out but no pecks or smelling necks.

but it's good. it's so good. and he isn't sad or upset that they aren't loving each other or dating. he thinks it'd ruin everything they have. and he wouldn't have this with anyone else, he wouldn't be able to trust anyone as much as he trusts tony.

it's so much. it's complex. it's unique and different and so... theirs. but peter has such a hard time recognizing this. he's 19 for fuck's sake, how will a teen figure out what is going on in their heads when even the 40 yr old can't put it together himself?

and it's hard for them to communicate but they try. they share their feelings. not under the moonlight but in the aftermath of a party one of tony friend's threw, although they somehow ended up in tony's stupidly gigantic living room.

and funnily enough, one of the smartest men USA's ever seen can't rightfully put his words together. he fumbles and stumbles, silence extended for a minute or so. tony stark's trains of thoughts are malfunctioning because of a kid who couldn't look directly into his eyes just a few years ago.

and it's endearing. peter doesn't feel the urge to jump onto tony and terrorize him with countless kisses. he kind of wants to make fun of him to break the weird atmosphere. he knows he shouldn't, and he won't okay?

they end up naked, eyes filled with tears from laughter because of some stupid science pun peter made.

and that's them.