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[asteroid-fruitcup]

vent art (eyestrain warning)

im so lonely save me

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

Man. You read one post about writing advice back in 2022 and suddenly you're on Wikipedia learning the history of fleshlights.

[bokuwadekinaiko]

(advice appreciated + long ass tags)

this sucks this sucks this SUCKS FUCK. ive been hokeschooled / "unschooled" for the entirety of my 8th grade and school is starting again in 2 weeks and i really want and really need to be back in school but idk if im mentally at all ready. opening day would be best to go back obviously but i didn't spend anytime during summer preparing for the routine / fixing my damn sleep schedule but i really need this .

i also know its gonna SUCK because i have severe sensory processing issues (tldr my brain Cannot filter out uncomfortable noises / textures / etc andi go Fucking ballistic and melt/shutdown) and even at home im having multiple daily meltdowns / panic attacks from just the everyday noises / sensations so god forbid what it will be like around 300 teenagers who don't know personal space exists.. i also have a severe anxiety disorder / autism so itll be even MORE fun :-) yaAy (thats not factoring in PDA disorder which is made my dad drop me out anyways because its Fucking Hell trying to go to school with that)

but i want this. i need this . iwant to get an education. i wanr to be around kids my age instead of being forced to be inside all day. i want to have routine and make friends and feel normal. im just scared that because of circumstances out of my control ill never get that

[remitiras]

Finally got to try my new phone!! Just tried sketching something on the notes app while I backed up all my apps on my old phone. I'm so gonna enjoy the s pen. And even though this phone is huge, it's surprisingly not bothering me as much as I expected.

Why didn't I buy this phone a year ago. I wanted a stylus phone for years. Why did I even buy that garbage in the first place XD

Still getting used to the phone and setting it up, like I cannot for the life of me figure out how to mute the keyboard, but I also slept for two hours in the past 24 hours so that probably doesn't help.

[abluehappyface]

Thinking about things that are going to get me called Stupid™

[cy-cyborg]

So, there's a lot I want to say about the paralypics, but every time I try I just... can't articulate what I want to say without it turning into a monster of a post that puts my writing advice posts to shame lol. This includes in response to the anonymous asks I got on the topic btw. So I'm going to try and summarise my thoughts here.

As someone who was working towards the Rio paralympics - who was basically one of the people they were actively training to be the next paralympians and who got to go if their choice first athletes had to drop out, the Olympics and paralympics are a... touchy subject for me. I loved playing. I loved my sport. I loved the people I played with. I loved the people I played against. But the way the public and people in power treats disabled athletes sucks. It Really really sucks. and it hurts to talk about.

The vast, vast majority of us aren't paid. We are expected to train at the same intensity as the Olympians with none of the breaks and none of the support to do so, resulting in injuries that are disabling in and of themselves, while juggling normal jobs. many of the paralympians are also in school or at university as well. both schools and jobs see these elite athletes as dedicated hobbiests at best.

I had a friend who were fired from their job because they were denied time off to compete at the paralypics and well, if i had to choose between the paralympics or stay at a shit job paying minimum wage, I know which one I'd pick, and so she didnt have a job when she came back. I have friends who are still in the closet because their sponsors would drop them if they came out as gay, who ended years-long relationships to keep the funding that allowed them and their teams to compete - funding that just covered the costs of travel by the way. They never saw a cent of it themselves, but it was the difference between us having to pay $50 each for our plane tickets and accommodation and having to pay $2,000Aud + for every away game. I have friends who were supposed to go to Tokeyo but were kicked off the teams weeks before the games because of a rule change that decided they weren't disabled enough anymore, wasting years of work with absolutely no warning. They weren't even given the decency of an appology from the people who made the call. Several went through terrifying mental health spirals over it. It was their life's work, gone. I saw so many friends just give up because their disabilities were "too hard to classify" into the International Paralympic Commity's boxes and who were made to feel they weren't welcome by the system spouting off about its diversity and inclusion and empowerment of disabled people.

And then with all that, the best we can hope for is for the social media teams to turn us into a joke for ableds to laugh at or into inspiration porn to make them feel good about themselves - because at least theyre not us. Because obviously, there are no other options in how to show us/sarcasm.

My phone doesn't even have "paralympics" as a recognised word. I have a Samsung. The company that is currently at the paralympics using them as a marketing opertunity. We aren't even recognised as a word in the phones made by the company that is currently using the paralympics as a marketing opportunity. The phones they're giving the athletes won't even recognise the name of the event that they got it at. If I've spelt it wrong, it's because it autocorrects it every time I try to spell it right, and im dyslexic and can't see the difference until I stare at it for a minute or so.

I just... this isn't even scratching the surface of my thoughts. But I wanted to say at least some of it. It will be the last I'm going to talk about it, at least until the event is over.

[that-starry-freak]

Yknow what? I have to rant about this this has been eating me up for forever. Fuck confessions I'm going to do this here.

I fucking hate old moon

Do I love his sass? Yes. Do I love how Reed plays him most of the time? Yes. Do I love how he interacts with other characters? Yes!

Do I like him as a "person" and for what hes done? Absolutley not. He abused Sun, and when he found out the daycare exploded his first reaction was to be upset because THE STICK HE WOULD ROUTINLY HIT SUN WITH was fucking destroyed. I'm sorry bitch what??? That's disgusting Moon I wish you burned in hell <3

I also absolutely hate that no one saves Nexus

Do I think it was Sun's fault? Absolutely not, he has had way too much shit to deal with. Do I think its Earth's fault? While I think Nexus was absolutely right for calling her out for not being a therapist, she has every right to be upset for him saying he'd kill her. Do I think its the families fault in general? No, Nexus pushed them away and hurt them, they did try.

You know who I do blame? Who should understand Nexus better than anyone? Who even admits partial responsibility for it, and pretty much denies any sort of redemption for Nexus?

Mother fucking Old Moon.

Old moon committed arson. He abused Sun routinely (forcing him to go to dangerous dimensions. Hitting him. Calling him stupid. Having a clear power difference between the two and abusing it). He put his killcode in Sun and is literally the reason Eclipse exists and terrified their family.

But no, Nexus is the one in the wrong. He's the one that will have to do soemthing huge and grovel to be redeemed. Because he threatened the family after having hallucination and literally going insane and mourning his best friend, and feeling like he wasn't good enough and spiraling cause he couldn't bring Solar back, and then joined Dark Sun whos known to be exteemly smart and manipulative. Not Old Moon, who did so much worse. No, he gets to rejoin the family after apologizing and promising to do better (and yes, he is doing better) sure, Sun doesn't forgive him (and im proud of him for admitting that <3 that's very strong of him), but still.

Plus, Nexus is literally the youngest family member. He's a lot younger than Earth and Sun and Moon and Lunar. He isn't Sun's twin, and he isn't Earth's older brother. He is the youngest. And that should be addressed, because that means he is much more immature. He hasn't had all the time to grow up like the rest of them have. Moon has had years to grow as a person. Nexus has had a year.

Anyway, tldr. I dont blame the family for what happened to Nexus, I blame Old Moon

Also sorry for bad spelling or grammar or autocorrect or whatever, I'm not rereading this

ALSO THIS IS NOT FOR DEBATE. I AM RANTING ABOUT MY OPINION, IF YOU DO NOT AGREE, PLEASE JUST SCROLL PAST I DONT HAVE THE ENERGY TO ARGUE. YOU ARE ENTITLED TO YOUR OWN OPINION AND SO AM I ♡♡

[radaedan]

My phases of writing fanfic:

10% of locking in. Burst of inspiration like volcanic ash. Destructive and nurturing at the same time. Words and metaphors flowing so easily, it becomes the river of Shakespearean text 'peak'. The one that whe you take a look back, you said to yourself, "holy shit, I write this?"

30% of "aight, 'manipulate' sounds wrong in this sentence, but 'persuade' doesn't rhyme with the previous sentence... 'seduce'? We're seducing a horse now?", "I've used 'walk' twice man. Googling synonyms we go.", and "WHY DOES THE AUTOCORRECT TURNS 'HIM' TO 'JIM'. WHO'S JIM😭"

60% of Zyox's 'Im blooming' voice OH MY GOD I'M STALLING😍😘🥰🥵🫠😋😙

Btw a call for help for all the Notes on the Holy Sovereign readers. Give me songs that remind you or fit the vibes of the fic, especially with Uenuku and/or Hineila right now. Please, I need to lock the fuck in and upload the chapter you guys must've waited for months😔🙏

[crazylittlejester]

Could you give us more about trans Time? (If that’s okay!)

Love that hc btw, it makes me really happy ^^

hell yes i can!! I love trans Time, trans that man's gender. oot link is like the vibes of transgenderism compressed into one single silly little guy (gender neutral). however people trans oot link's gender is always correct in my mind (i personally hc him to be ftm but i really do love seeing any version of him that's not cis)

im gonna apologize rn for any typos or oddly autocorrected words im dyslexic and my laptop works against me sometimes lmao

anyways not sure what exactly you wanted to know (and feel free to ask more questions!!) but i think this was in reference to my modern au post so!!:

Time was born in the late 70s (since the au takes place in present day and he is a good 25 years older than Twi), so growing up he didn't really see a whole lot of trans people who could've helped him realize he was trans sooner, especially because his childhood was mostly him having an awful time with his physical health and arguing with his father for the chance to go to public school and not be homeschooled like his siblings (he is the youngest of 6) because he didn't get along with all of them and wanted to meet new people

Looking back on it NOW he can recognize he realized he was trans when he was like, 12, but at the time he didn't really know what that was and just cut his hair short and didn't understand why he got so happy when people mistakenly called him a boy

There was a period of time where he was confused and thought he was a lesbian (he is bisexual) and he dated Ruto for like a year in high school but they kinda ended up becoming friends instead (they're STILL friends), and then he dated Sheik, who is a trans man, and the realization hit him like a bus

He graduated high school and then just kinda dipped off the map, he didn't realy have friends (besides Ruto, and MALON considered them friends but he didn't realize she liked him that much) so he didn't really keep in contact with people except for Sheik (he was also doing pretty bad physically at this point in time), but he started socially transitioning around 18 and was able to start medically transitioning around 20. Not all his siblings were super accepting, and he's completely cut contact with one of them, but his sister closest to him in age who was his best friend growing up was his biggest supporter

(this modern au takes place in a modernized Hyrule kingdom loosely based on where I live because obviously where I live is the best idea I have of how modern sociey works since I'm living in it, lmao, but Hyrule kingdom was a little more progressive in the late 90s and while gender affirming care wasn't SUPER easy to access, it WAS accessable. the main issue for Time was transphobia from his oldest brother and the people from his INCREDIBLY tightknit town, because outside of that people didn't know he was trans)

Malon was fully aware he was trans because she met him before HE realized that, so when those two got together he didn't have to worry about telling her or anything. And they WERE going to adopt kids at some point, but then Time's sister died and her husband had passed away too and she'd written in her will that she'd wanted Time to take care of her baby (Twi), because she wanted him to have a wonderful environment growing up and she trusted Time more than their other siblings even though they'd all already settled down and had their own kids and were experienced parents (also to be fair, she didn't expect to die and leave her 13 month old an orphan. it was just an IN the event of her death kinda thing, she very much would've rather been able to raise her kid herself)

Time doesn't really give two fucks about passing, not anymore, he wears what he wants, but most people DO assume he's a cis man because he's decently tall and has a deeper, monotoned voice. Transphobia does still exist in Hyrule Kingdom, though it's not as bad as it was when Time was a kid, and also the city where the boys' apartment in is incredibly LGBTQ+ friendly (not that that means homophobia and transphobia don't exist, it's just a much safer area to be out that other places in the kingdom) so he doesn't ever feel like he has to HIDE being trans. He goes to pride parades sometimes (when he knows he won't get overwhelmed) and he and Malon are definitely that older couple who give out free supportive parent hugs to people who really need it

Legend in this au is also a trans man, and I wouldn't call Wild cis but he's amab and uses he/him pronouns at the moment while he figures things out (he's also perfectly fine with they/them)

[randomerywu]

Can someone please write a Shaunna shipman x female reader fic about.....

the wilderness when she is only half crazy or like she is mean as shit to everyone but the reader and then one day Shaunna loses her shit and lashes out and then the reader tries to calm her and Shaunna swings at the reader, the reader either blocked, dodges or catches the punch and just kinda looks at Shaunna like "are we really doing this rn" or "bsffr" and just calmly shows the reader is stronger then Shaunna and that Shaunna isn't that strong and calmly puts into perspective how powerless Shaunna would be if everyone suddenly stopped listening to her, idonno how it would end, hopefully a good ending, iddono js a female reader who is stronger then everyone except maybe Travis because he is biologicaly stronger, but never says anything because even though her crazy butcher girlfriend does wild shit she still doesn't wanna get in the way and just is calmly supporting her like Shaunna is just like "Im going to fucking kill mari, she said *petty shit* to me" and the reader is just like "ok baby don't stay out too late" and then, shows Shaunna that she could control her if she wanted to but doesn't and Shauna is a mix between threatened turned on and some other shit, I'm thinking a reader with a sleeper build (buff but u can't really see it) and around 5'1 or 5'2, I just think it would be funny if she was shorter by a landslide but not under 5 foot 1. So yeah, iddono prob nsfw id prefure a longer one. Yk a bedtime story.

I JUST WANT A CALM STRONG FEM READER TO MAKE SHAUNA FEEL POWERLESS.

iddono the rest is up to y'all if people see this happen or not or how it's handled all I ask is a wholesome ending, no major angst beyond the cannon shit please

It's almost my birthday gang this would be a fire gift.

Calling all fic writers

I beg thee

IM SO SORRY ABT MISPELLING HER NAME MY AUTOCORRECT KEPT DOIN IT BECAUSE I HAVW A FRIEND NAMED SHAUNNA SO IT NATURALLY CHANGES IT ANS IM TOO TIRED TO IM SO SORRY GANG

[dustybookcover]

vent! pls feel free to ignore idk why im posting this. cw talking about anxiety, low self esteem.

I just had a guitar lesson one on one for the first time (my dad has sat in with me every other time [ik thats childish but idc it's scary ok]) and holy shit sjsjrnrbrjeje im in pain just cringing at how awkward I am I hate guitar lessons but I love guitar too much to quit and my parents would kill me if I did so im stuck for now. God why can't I go to like a beginner guitar group. that's what I did for ukulele and i still hated myself but i hated myself slightly less (tbf I was like 9 so me being shy was cute. now I'm older [autocorrect made older odder and i felt that deep in my bones] so me being shy is just weird). my guitar teacher is always trying to get me to relax but i can't like genuinely i cant even fake it. it's not the doing it in front of him that's making me shy which is what he seems to think it's my inability to talk to adults that aren't my parents. srsly I have a neighbour who I've known since I was like 5 and she's basically family and i still get awkward talking to her one on one 😭 plus the way my teacher teaches just doesn't work for me tbh. he does everything by being like ok watch me do it then suddenly ull magically be able to like no that's not how life works u have to teach me everything individually and i think he caught me looking at the clock while he was playing bc i looked and then he looked immediately after and that's a psychology thing if you check your watch then anyone watching will do it after you bc now they wanna know the time too so i think he hates me now and ahsiekdkdk sorry about this i just have to get it out there if ur reading this um I'm rly sorry ill probably get super embarrassed and delete this soon

[cookieshipshowdown]

Might I propose SpicedChoco as a ship name? That way it's not confused with BurningCacao. And also. spiced chocolates exist and they're really good. Would recommend.

YES. SPICEDCHOCO.

I WAS TRYING TO TYPE BURNINGCHOCO AND IT AUTOCORRECTED CHOCO TO CACAO IM GONNA CRY (not actually).

Anyway what if I went back to my roots and made a dark choco ask blog. with the main ship. being SpicedChoco. <- hasn’t ran an ask blog since 2020

-SpicedChoco Anon

giggling because i have a bspice rp blog that currently doesn't have any posts and is completely open to any and all ships

if you want to find it, uhhhh.... hm. what's a good hint,,,,

loafcrumbs.

that's your hint, you'll likely find my main and a few posts on my other crrp blogs. i'm so cooked the obsession is so bad yalls.

anyways. if you do. *holds out my hand* let's ship cookies together

[qoldenskies]

I need you to know I just binged the entirety of your Canary Continuity series in 4 hours and 20 minutes and I am going to be so sleep deprived tomorrow, but I don't care.

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First few paragraphs in, I was in awe over how well you wrote the character interactions and represented their personalities, and I wanted to share it with literally everyone I know (to be honest, not that many people).

Midway through the first chapter, I was genuinely emotional because of how you did the whole feeling-ignored-and-dismissed thing. As the oldest in a family of eight (six kids, three significantly disabled and two (overlapping) super whiny and aggressive), I very often feel like a "shadow on the wall." Once in the middle of the living room I made up the most absurd story I've ever heard (literally couldn't stop laughing, which looking back on it probably made me look a little insane), and only got their attention near the end. I'll leave a room full of people without saying anything and feel hurt when no one notices. I'll finally get to be alone after a relatively good day and still feel like my lungs are imploding.

All of that to say that I felt so understood with the way you wrote that section of the book. You worded it in a way I never could, and I legitimately almost cried. I actually might have; I don't remember. It's too late for thoughts. I'm also very glad my relationships with my family are not following the trajectory of Caged Lungs. Holy cow.

It got very emotionally intense, but it never felt staged or unnatural. I often find when it gets to that stage of a book, it just doesn't hit right because the author didn't spend enough time building up to it. Here, nothing felt out of the blue, but it still hit hard. You conveyed the emotions so well, and I'm still filled with anxiety almost 30 minutes later.

Anyway, by the time I finished Caged Lungs, I no longer wanted to share it with every single person I know. It now feels like something engraved in my soul, like it would be sacrilegious to try and make someone else understand. If it makes any sense, I'll most definitely be sharing this with random strangers on the internet, but never anyone who knows me in real life.

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Random thoughts 'cause my brain isn't working and I need to sleeeeep~

Brain keeps autocorrecting to Brian. One day I won't catch it.

Specifically on the more lighthearted side though, that little bit about Donnie and Leo cuddling in the chair melted my heart. That's the fluff I live for.

After reading Miner's Eulogy, I'm left hungry. You sucked me in and I have no desire to claw my way back out. I'm just going to be sad for the rest of my life now. I feel like you kind of implied that there'll be more, but I don't trust my reading comprehension right now. Just know that I'll be spying on your blog like that annoying sibling reading over your shoulder.

Also speaking of fluff. What I really want to see (as well as all of their revenge, of course), is some recovery hurt/comfort. Mostly I crave Donnie and Leo. Because twins.

Also your idea of how Leo became the medic is my favourite so far. It's stuck in my brain and it won't leave.

Thanks for giving me yet another fix to scream internally over for months, and for reading my ramblings. I'm going to sleep, and I will probably dream of turtles.

wow there's so much here im not even sure where to start,,, it is always so surprising to hear that my work is so emotionally evocative for so many people, hearing you really resonated with caged lungs emotionally means so much to me and im not even sure how to articulate it!!! i mean its certainly a success on my part because its what i WANTED to do (at least for myself) but still.... waow

im glad i nailed the characterization as well, especially early on!! i really wanted to make a point establishing that i did understand and could establish the way they operated early on so it didnt just feel out of character and sudden when they were twisted into something so hateful, the slow build from what i could make as close to as canon characterization as possible while keeping the tone to how they turned out in the end was something i was very intent on getting right >:3 (especially for donnie, actually... its fun to contrast the earliest few scenes with the final ones because the difference is so jarring, ESPECIALLY in the way donnie acts)

AND DO NOT WORRY THERE'LL BE MORE!!! im doing a multichapter next which will proooobably be the last installment, but i dont have a chapter estimate for it and i know itll DEFINITELY be longer than caged lungs was. idk i'll have little reason to keep writing in the universe after i finish the brunt of recovery but if i think of anything (or get a request particularly good) maybe i'll keep chugging along.

and a lot of people said they want some hurt/comfort with the twins in particular and [staring at the upcoming scene that has leo in it] ouuuuuhhhhh uhhhh hrmmm. there's gonna be some Complications. but it'll happen eventually!!! <3333 this ask made me grin like an idiot reading it tysm

[moldsporr]

FINISHED ACT 3!!! Technically finished last night but I'm scheduling this for the morning

Act 1 reaction here

Act 2 reaction here

Notes I wrote while reading:

“I hope your father keeps you well fed” OH THATS WHY THERE WAS ALL THOSE BAKED GOODS OHHHH

Anyway. How thr fuck did Nanna know this. Did she hoo hoo in life as she does in death

OMG JADE

Is that an onion on ur shirt farmstink

Squeal like a piglet and fertilize some plants

OMG SHE DID IT I LOVE U JADE

Huh. Her room is. Just her friends interests. And their parents interests. Other than the furry I know that's all her. I know

Guns!!! Yayaya!!!!!! Doesn't Jake like guns too

Oh girl. Yoare so otherkin

She's really otherkin my goodness

PROBLEM SL- oh. Sooth

HEY THAT CUE BALL IS PART OF DOC SCRATCH AINT IT. THATS THE THING. THE TH HAL EQUIUS GAMZEE CALIBORN STUFF.

I do wonder what the magic 8 ball is for. If Jade has a bad feeling about it

Slur count: 4

Huh. Okay she has like… VR??

Slur count: 5 but I think Dave can reclaim this one

DAVE FURSONA YOOOO

What are you talking about tho

Omg they're fucking killing the felts…

Dave oh my god you're losing so bad. But yay bro!!! Yay cal!!! I'm so sorry Dave

john you're getting your ass whooped

Oh hello… Is ur name Sentry. Are you buddies with Vagabond

Oh. He's got mummies in his house

What is that thing

Who thr fuck is this. Who is CG

I'm assuming a troll ??? But whomst…

Slur count: 6

THE CAT

oooo what're you up to sentry…

IM GONNA PISS MYSELF I FELT SO BAD FOR DAVE AND THEN THE. I WARNED YOU BRO!!!!

HOLY SHIT JOHN IS GOING CRAZY

Aww yay he's having fun I think

Woah that place sure is purple!!!!

FUCK YEAH GET THEM DAD

???? Who is this clown watching them

Oh your name Isn't sentry. Hi peregrine medication!!!

Autocorrect that's not their name

PM I love you. I love mail

Yo wait PM you know Jade??? What

WHAT THE

IT EXPLODED

Omg rose horse… I know there's a animation of her with the horses. Like the arquiussprite one.

The fuck is in the teapot

AWWWWWWW THATS SO CUTE

Is that a picture of Jade in godtier. They Know….

HELP she napping

Oh. he's dead. Girl…

PM IS ALIVE!!!!!

Awwww baby rose….

Meow

Da fuck

Dad is… boring…? Lies

Jack's fourth wall : ( it was stolen…

IS THIS BETTY CROCKER!!!!

Put the hat on Jack. Put it on

Womp womp

FRUIT GUSHERS YAAAAAA

Awwww he looks so cute in the suit

THE HEINOUS BATTERWITCH

Boy you're so extra

BAHAHAHAH HE JIST WANTED TO DETCH THE BULLET… WHY ARE YOU DANCING W YOUR DEAD GUY…

Oop she napping

OH MY GOD SOMEONE GET ROSE OUT OF THERE

ROBOT?!?!?!?!

Dreambot…

So wait did she already Godtier…

Her room is lesbjan colors I think

Slur count: 7

Twelve… there's twelve Trolls I'm pretty sure

Gamzee Equius Nepeta Karkat Vriska Aradia. Uhh. Tavros. Eridan. Sollux. Uhh… the fish girl… uhhh….

Hi Vodka Mutini

How does John feel about Dave's bro kicking his ass btw. Very casual way of saying it

Oh John : (

VAGABOND IS BACK FUCK YEAH

Gasp… the blue box…

REALSTIC GUN!!! Hi renagade… like the dance

So John's the guy who likes clowns… not his dad…

His dad is so sweet though. he just wants to take care of his son. What has john repressed

OH PROSPIT IVE HEARD THAT!!!

This place sure is yellow

Omg WV has company :3

WV AND PM SHALL MEET!!!!

Take the shot /ref

JOHN!!!! He is also yellow !!!!

Ohhhh he's looking swaggy… Teal is a good color for him

Slur count: 8

WRINKLEFUCKER

NOOOOO DAVE… LIL CAL… THE KATANA… POOR BABY….

Giving him a forehead smooch

OH MY GODD THE JADE SILHOUETTE…

I like this like. “Fuck you timeline let's jump around” type of way thr story is being

Poor Cal….

GA… who are you

“Spread your wings” LIKE WHEN HE BECOMES A BIRD

Hi Dave I love you. I have no idea who you flirted with but you did such a good job you're such a good troll

YAYAY RENAGADE

Yo that box has Jade's dead relative on there…

PM is a girl?? the more u know

BAHAH AR'S A JUDGE… they're making a whole town… mayor, mail carrier, and judge…

INCONCEIVABLE

Butterfly : D

BABY JADE!!!

WHOP

HEY WAIT JACK DONT KILL HIM!!! I LOVE JOHN'S DAD!!!!

Oh my god I love them

That was a cool animation!!!! I have no idea what was going on. But hey I know that song…. Sburbian Jungle…

That sure is a fucked up planet WHAT HOW IS THAT THE END OF ACT 3

Okay so. Does this mean I'm. Halfway done with homestuck. This feels so short. Are the other acts longer

[nerves-nebula]

i think it'd be accurate to say that i type the way I think more so than I type the way I talk (depending on multiple circumstances and if i'm attempting to be eloquent or just shooting the shit) it's true that idiosyncrasies of my speech leach into both speaking and typing because there's overlap in all modes of communication however my speech is often incredibly disorganized, with me failing to remember the correct words to the point of giving up in a frustrated garble of noise. and me rearranging the chronology of words. and me performing so many various errors and spoonerism so as to make my thoughts completely incomprehensible to my conversation partner.

and that simply doesn't happen as much online or even through frantic texts (the latter of which is prone to misguided autocorrects about as much as it's able to let me get my point across.)

I often think about this, because my internal monologue isn't always consistent in its contents or delivery, but i'm almost never as eloquent aloud as i am in my mind. (I believe this is the case with most people, i'm not claiming to be unique) for some reason my mouth can't push out the words in the way i mean them. my vocabulary escapes me the moment i try to speak it aloud. while writing this ive only had to look up one or two of the words here to make sure it was right. the rest came to me naturally, but i know that had I attempted to speak this entire thing aloud it would have been garbled with frantic unattractive pauses here and there and i likely would've given up after confusing one of the longer words for another.

and maybe its only because I have the time to think, and when i speak in daily life its often a blurted frantic attempt to communicate needs, desires, and opinions. whereas here i can ruminate on my thoughts and just mull them over, so there's no need to rush.

sorry wait i'm reading this back now and why did i write this like humbert humbert. fuck. alright boys shut it down, i think im not gonna try to be eloquent when talking about my feelings for a while jesus christ.

[devotioncrater]

im getting fuckign worried at this point.

i keep misreading numbers/words/time, but i dont know i am doing so until after something happens to prove me wrong like some fucked mandela effect. i bring a cup that's in my room to the dishwasher, yet when i return the cup is still on the dresser. i understand what people say to me, yet it's getting harder to communicate verbally. there are times where i can't even text without using autocorrect. i keep dropping things when i hold them and i'm clumsier than usual. whenever the train stops at a station, the houses outside my window as well as the ground all look like they're breathing or moving closer. i keep fucking seeing things that aren't there. i swear to god my hands smell like garlic even though i haven't cooked with garlic in weeks, yet my oma doesn't smell it on me at all. my brain feels fried 80% of the time. i'm seeing signs everywhere that tell me my time alive is almost up, that i'm going to die soon. it's a certain feeling within me; it's an inevitable objective fact. my body feels like it's shutting down. i can't sit still to save my life and my concentration is mostly shot. when i go to places there are minutes where i feel that the buildings belong to a set, that it's not real. it's isolating, i never ever feel normal i don't even feel like a person i feel like Everyone Knows Everyone Talks Everyone Judges there's no privacy no nothing where i am someone i'm not anyone people can smell the rot on me there is something which flashes a red neon stop sign to others and that's why i cannot connect to people i'm worried i say what i think out loud without realizing it because it's happened before everything i do is off and odd and i'm so scared i'm losing my grip on lucidity i'm beginning to have experiences where i cannot remember what i've done in the short term