#it kinda gives me euphoria ngl

[overdramaticbaddie]

So I saw your post about reffering to yourself as kris in your inner monologue and liking it. Just change your name if you wanna

-mod

chat should i do it???

[evil-gender]

transition timeline!

may 2016, age 16:

december 2024, age 24:

[sensitivegoblin]

While therapy went good; I'm still physically and mentally exhausted

so I'm trying to distract myself with makeup and making tiktoks even if it's not perfect✨💕

[newtness532]

why do women's lemon scented hygiene products smell different from men's lemon scented hygiene products?

[vvhitecloud]

holy fuck i just noticed your ask. uhhh i'll try to answer everything here.

i am jealous as hell. if i had my way, i would isolate my loved one because i am also paranoid that someone better than me might come along (impossible) and i will be abandoned. however, i myself am not ready to isolate myself for the sake of anyone else (partly because this would deprive me of the opportunity to gain unique knowledge and experience that could not be imitated by one person alone), so it's only fair that the other person should be able to communicate with someone, right? as long as i have confirmation that i am the most beloved and important in their life and i will not be abandoned. this is what happens to me all the time with this friend — they are damn jealous of me, i am perhaps even more jealous of them, but we do not limit each other's social freedom in any way. i would call them a mix of loved one and chosen one, i guess? considering that for me the differences between these concepts are not particularly clear. you can't command your heart, they were just lucky enough to meet most of my standards (and raise the bar even higher) and give me what i needed and more - this is the "favorite person" part; however, involuntarily comparing them with other people around me, including those whom others might call my "friends", i understand that at least for now only this person deserves the level of love, attention, care, etc. that i give them — this is the "chosen person" part. from my understanding at least!!

as for my apathy, i don't have a clear answer. it's part of my unstable state, not my usual one, so the feelings of depression, apathy, harmony, euphoria, etc. alternate between each other several times a day - with or without reason. at the moment i feel like i'm about to fall into the abyss of inadequacy at any moment, but for now i'm kinda holding on, i guess??

i decided to answer because you should wake up soon. ngl i'm looking forward to it, hehe.

Good morning, anon — I must say I giggled at your first text saying you were looking forward to us talking more when I saw the hour I woke up at, that is what happens when one decides to sleep at 5 am I suppose.

Anyhow, I am understanding from this that your relationship Is mostly based on the trust and knowledge that the two of you cannot and won't replace each others with some other person?

About your state, I suppose that means you have high mood swings which i did kind of expect due to how fast your mood kept changing but,,, I wonder if it also happens when you aren't unstable.

[sonuvablitz]

Without them even knowing my actual gender, my coworkers invented a neutral sounding nickname for me exchanging the -la from my legal name with a -luff (pronounced: loof), which makes me sound like a Pokemon, which I love. My oldest co-worker (in her 60s) even started to call me Luffi, which sounds like the main character of One Peace. She has no clue about anything One Piece, and I myself don't know a lot about it either, but I kinda like it ngl. They're accidentally giving me so much gender euphoria.

[myobsessionsspace]

Fatigue

Kinda Random Thoughts a couple of days after the 'last BTS Live'

Ngl feeling a bit of mental and emotional fatigue.

I think it’s safe to say it’s going around.

The sad thing about social media is no matter how much you try and curate your own bubble with things that make you happy and positive people, it’s hard to maintain. Social media is a representation of everyday offline people. Regular people behind the usernames with their own opinions, experiences, likes and dislikes (celebrities are regular people too, just famous for something or talented and known for it).

Though it’s good for growth and maturity to not just surround yourself with the same opinions and thoughts as yourself, it’s also tiring when you feel the need just be understood. When you can never enjoy things in peace because others need more information, more context, need to pick apart, need to make their side seen, their conclusions/interpretations the decisive one.

Over the years we’ve had SEVERAL Jikook lives, OT7 lives or lives with some of the members as well as Jikook. I, like most of us, LOVE Jikook lives. When watched in its entirety we not only see their ‘moments’ but we see them as regular people, we then can discern the fake from true when we see fake subs, edits etc. What makes Jikook even more interesting and captivating, to me, is when I can see the similarities as well as the exceptions in their interactions with each other and their other members. I found Jikook AFTER I found BTS…

and not only do I love their lives with primarily the two of them, I also love their solo lives, their lives with other members and OT7 lives. All the members are interesting in their own ways and their lives shed light on them and the other members, Jikook included. Watching their lives (though still them putting their best face forward and always aware that they’re being watched by millions) is so much more rewarding than just watching edits, summaries etc from the likes of TikTok, YouTube and other platforms. It’s fun AFTER watching their lives to then see what army have done to have fun with them, such as funny edits, fake FUN subs etc.

**please please please, weverse is free, whenever you have the time, watch the lives there with the subtitles there, though not always the best, it’s better than those who may not translate for altruistic reasons**

It gets me down sometimes the constant need it seems, within fandom culture, to microanalyse every piece of content we get. We have the need to seek out hidden messages, hidden looks, put context behind what is and isn’t said. Give explanation where it isn’t needed and draw conclusions from what isn’t said.

Most of the time it’s cute, fun and ‘harmless’

But sometimes 😪

MANIPULATION, MISINFORMATION & MISTRANSLATION

Without agenda, edits, cuts, slow mo and with context & rightful subtitles - Original Weverse Source

It’s always been this way and sadly seems like it always will be. I like context, I like information, when possible I like to get it from the original source. It’s nice when busy and unable to read whole interviews or watch whole lives, to see little snippets and clips that float around online. But it’s so draining when those little clips and snippets are then used to paint different pictures and narratives depending on the sharer’s biases/intention. When it’s aimed at making members into villains, defaming their characters etc.

It’s rarely the case that the purpose for lives (when there is one) ends up being appreciated solely for that. Just the members wanting to connect with their fans.

mukbangs, karaokes, Legos, q&a’s, tmi’s, messages of thanks, birthday lives, just because lives. All the times they go on live that can be appreciated for just that end up being used as material for hate

Everytime it should be healing to interact with those we are fans of, after the initial wave of euphoria is over, undoubtedly what follows is soo much negative noise, new narratives, more hate etc.

As I said before I try to curate my timelines, who I follow, things I like & comment on etc but sometimes the need to correct misinformation, the need to defend the lies and negativity means I still end up seeing so much of the bad.

REAL (Weverse Original Source)

FAKE!

I know this is a cycle and I have choices and am not being forced to be anywhere.

It’s just one of those days where I want to word vomit on my blog.

I just want to enjoy BTS and Jikook peacefully and positively. Why can’t everyone want to do the same for their faves?? Why is it always so angry and combative and about winners and losers, horrible name calling and malicious lies, insults, nasty images etc. Why campaigns to cause mental anguish to members and their family? To sabotage and try to get members separated or even imprisoned. Why mass report playlists and accounts? Why when more often than not, it changes nothing.

If you don’t like something why spend so much energy on it? The members will still interact with each other, those that have ships & biases remain and Jikook will still be Jikook 💅

I know social media is a representation of the real world and that there are nasty people in the real world, so of course it makes sense that there are nasty people online, it’s just tiring and sucks the fun out.

They won’t stop me enjoying BTS’ music & content, them as individuals and a group nor will they stop me enjoying whatever Jikook chose to share with us,

but everyone once in a while it does mean I get social media fatigue, fandom fatigue and the need for me to do posts like this.

💜

Please use this post to share on the good things you like about the fandom, the group and BTS & Jikook online spaces. Let’s bring the positivity back for ourselves 💪

I hope anyone feeling like me can find what they need to keep on going in the fandom or make the move to take a break 💜

[veren-cos]

Ngl I don't really get much dysphoria, okay? (And to preface this post I'm well aware you can feel euphoria without experiencing dysphoria, and vice versa) but I feel like I was just have a mild constant feeling of dysphoria for the longest time.

I got the urge to give myself a haircut (a very frequent urge) but I never go too short because I was worried it would look like shit on me. Always kinda feeling like I'll never have a masculine enough face to pull it off or some shit.

But I cut it short! I haven't had it short in so long!! And just seeing it like that made me so happy? I was like laughing really hard (I don't even know why. I was on the phone with some friends and they said I sounded psychotic lmao) but I just felt so comfortable!

And it's way to early/late. (4 in the freaking morning!) By the time I finished dying it too. So now I'm very happy, and very sleepy, and very excited how the dye looks with my hair dry in the morning!

[yagamisdiary]

no literally the way u write him i was like 🤭 then i saw the pinterest board and was like YUPPPPP. the way he carries himself is so hot he’s kinda giving fezco from euphoria but hotter. and the way he’s kinda protective of yn and wants to rekindle their friendship 🫠🫠 we should’ve went for him instead of that bitchass anthony.

the scene where he literally pulls up to her house and is like basically begging to hang out with her 😭😭 had me forgetting it was an eren fic for a sec ngl

[evansbby]

If your doing the depraved Ari still: oOKAY FIRST OF ALL LOVE ALL YOUR WRITINGS AND THOUGHTS! HOT AS FUCK AND LOVED THE LACTATION SCENCE TOo! 🤭. oaty back to Ari!! I would just like to say that doesn’t it sound super sweet and cute when saying “I’m an Ari Girl”✨? He’s literally so ahahahah🥵🫦!!! But I definitely want him to be like my hot ass neighbor in an apartment and he lives in front and he’s just so quite and reserved and he just gives me a simple hello with no feeling and doesn’t acknowledge me! And I’m like a love sick puppy with a massive crush but a massive broken heart because I like him a lot! THEN one night I’m sleeping and I feel such a wonderful sensation! And I wake up startled to find Ari giving me kisses on my tummy and hips and pelvis, down to my putthy 🥲( those areas are super sensitive to me😭) his beard adds an extra stimulation and has me twitching and moving my hips! His big hands are leaving marks and bruises! He’s just so hands on feeling me up and saying the most dirty DIRTY DIIIIIIIRTTYYYY things ever! I AND I’m in tears from the euphoria and thinking he hated me but oh no no no ! He whispers the naughtiest things he’s been planning to do to me and then he takes my virginity 😭😭😭🫶🏾!!! he’s so loving but in control at the same time! AND at the end! I start crying because it felt so so so so amazing and also because I think that he’s going to go back ignoring me! So Ari sees this and says “why are you crying sweetheart?” While he scoops me up and places me on his lap facing him and I tell him and cry some more and he calls me his sweet baby ✨and tells me he’s never leaving me while he places his hands on my hips and rocks me over his thick thick dick 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳!!! ( sooo sorry I got carried away. 😭😭!! LOVE YOUR WRITINGS AND ALL YOU DO 😫👏🏾! You’re dialogue in your fics are literally top notch and you do this fandom justice😌)

Why is this low-key so sweet 🥹🥹🥹 bestie you are crushing on Ari hard and it’s kinda pure 😭😭

I can totally imagine Ari being an aloof, polite yet reserved neighbour and you crushing on him sooo hard but you’re so shy and you think you’re not good enough for him 🥲🥲🥲 but then one day you wake up to his soft sweet kisses and his warm hands all over your body and you can’t believe it!!! And AHHHH you’re so inexperienced and a virgin but you try to be brave because what if he doesn’t want to fuck you if he finds out how innocent you really are? But Ari can sense your fear and he’s soooo sweet and loving and tells you how special and perfect you are and how good he’s going to treat you. And he asks you if you’d maybe call him daddy because he likes that 🥹🥹 and you’re like YES YES YES and then he takes your virginity 🥵🥹 and it’s just the best and he’s so amazing and soft and reassuring and sexy and hot and his dick is SOOOO big ajdjsjsjs

Lmfaooo ngl bestie the way you described it really made me picture it like it was a movieeee omg I love Ari he’s so perfect kssjsjsjja

[xxshift4teamcapxx]

Drunk HC for Snowjanus that nobody asked for…

So, let’s just say Sej and Coryo decided to go to one of those parties most likely thrown by Festus or Arachne. Kinda Ooc cuz these mfs are some goody two shoes. But we’re throwing that outta the window.

I dub Sej as the Emotional/Affectionate Drunk.

• Is all fine and dandy at first until those shots kick in. Then, it’s all downhill from there.

• Poor thing has so much bottled up emotion, that once he gets dunk the dam breaks and he can’t stop it.

• He’s cuddly and spitting praise in every direction and doesn’t care who it’s directed at. Even if he doesn’t get along with them while he’s sober, he’s crying and hugging them like their the love of his damn life.

• *while sobbing and sniffing up snot bubbles* “OMG! I LOVE YOUUUUU SO MUUUUCH!!!”

• You’ll most likely find him sitting down and clinging onto someone. Cuz the man can’t go five seconds with bumping into someone and apologizing about it twenty-million times.

• Gets along well with the shroomheads cuz their basically on the same level of intense empathy bombing. Just don’t give him any…plz lord. He can’t handle an ego death in a crowd of people. Mans will start to question the very fabric of reality.

Then there’s Coryo. *sighs* Give me strength. He’s the Sloppy/Blackout Drunk.

• All those preppy manners and traditional beliefs he has goes flying straight out the window once he’s had enough to drink.

• He’s stumbling and cussin like a sailor. Grandma’am would keel over and die if she saw her poor grandson like this.

• “I’m NoT fUcKiN dRuNk!!!” *randomly flipping everybody off*

• You literally have to physically cut him off because once he starts he doesn’t know how to stop. Will drink until he’s passed out on the floor, in the grass, and yes, outside on the steps of the Snow penthouse.

• Has and will be in a bar fight. Yes, it was because of all that shit talking he usually does in his head. Yes, he started it. No, he will not win because he looses all function of his motor skills cuz he doesn’t really drink that often.

• So god damn loud SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!

and a bonus…ME! The Happy/Chaotic Drunk.

• I’m laughing at everyone and everything. Most likely because I’m cross faded and that euphoria be hitting HARD.

• It’s embarrassing but random stripping cuz I get so sweaty and hot.

• You can catch me throwing ass on the dance floor one minute then laying around in the bathroom cuz the tub or the floor tile is cold and feels good against my skin. (Ngl it be feeling so good in the bathroom 10/10 would recommend.)

• “OMG I LOVE THIS SONG!!!” “WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!” “HERE! RECORD THIS!!!”

• Don’t dare me to do a damn thing because I will do it no matter what. ZERO self control.

• Is loud, if not louder then Coryo. Imma say it again SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!

• The gay in me dials up to like…a thousand. Sorry afab’s just wanna have fun loves.

[theha1rarch]

@depictedblue asked: 🍓

( mutuals send me the emoji & i'll compliment u! )

mj! hiya! so like i don't know if you realize this, but you've become a staple to my dash - like across all my blogs - ngl. we gotta be moots on all 'em or it just doesn't feel right. but to actually get into the complimenting, i love your take on cassie so much to be quite honest - while admittedly i've never watched an episode of euphoria in my life i have watched a ton of clips, especially of cassie, & i honestly think you do so excellently with her. & honestly give her the love & care she deserves, because she does deserve it okay? not to mention to mention your graphics! you always have the prettiest things & i'm kinda jealous - jk mostly - but yeah no i adore you & cassie so wholly & i love seeing you on the dash always. <3

[catboyrightsdefender]

that post about fan mail got me scrolling through my inbox and looking at all my 134 unanswered asks and im. feeling so sad now

[theeonlyheartbreaker]

if the show was just jules rue and elliot (as well as like minor characters like fez and lexi) it would be so much better

[j-is-a-cat]

Duuuuude I'm so close to getting a binder, I just gotta wait a few more weeks 🥺🥺🥺 Im hyped

[writingmochi]

Tag your moots with what song do they remind you of?

lissie: oh god... this is gonna be filled with so many people and assigning this will be hard (especially with my currently experimental prog music taste lmao) i’ll try my freaking best!

@kookthief : my time by jungkook (bts). your kook-themed username reminds me of it and i wanted to pick euphoria at first, but i like my rnb songs and i want to promote my time more too hehe. and it's a song about kook growing up and i just had this older-sister-feel from you tbh

@ujunxverse : an alternative-lover queen! ngl the song that reminds me of you is hyper-ballad by björk. it reminds me of you because of how unpredictable you are (in a good way of course), kinda like when i listened to this song for the first time. it goes slow then fast kinda like how you write your story tbh which in return, making it so immersive

@euphor1a : is it weird that you remind me of into the i-land? specifically, the one where enhypen and &team perform together. it has a sense of melancholia in it but is also hopeful at the same time...

@heartandfangs : sober by hyoyeon (snsd)! i first think that i get reminded of you by enhypen songs but you are more than enhypen and i owe you to me and other ppl. i just think of your blog's aesthetic with this song. idk if you like dance/bass type of genre or not, but it just kind of *click* you know

@jeongwins : because of your innie pfp, blueprint by stray kids! it's one of my fav skz songs of all time because of how feel it sounds. thinking of you reminded me of your review on crossroads which is so wholesome and i think this song encapsulates the wholesome-ness too...

@s-ngh8n-main : stereotype by stayc and yes it is because of your sieun and yoon pfps. but, ig it is also from the sound of it that reminds of you and kinda matches your lemon-y vibes <3 hope you have a good time offline!

@boba-beom : thinking of you reminds me of troubled pixies so much and the every breath you take-inspired fic of tyun. so ig throwback songs are what i'm reminded of you of, specifically cloudbusting by kate bush. it sounds dreamy af and tbh... if you can make a beomgyu fic out of this song, i will be forever grateful

@dim-sun : you seem so bright from just a few posts and i think thank you by asahi + haruto (treasure) reminds me so much of you! i had fun watching this live and i hope the optimistic feel of the songs keeps you up with whatever you are doing

@itz-yerin : since your milestone event is based on baek yerin, you really reminded me of k-r&b songs, especially imagination by dean + miso (the fact that this song is not on any streaming service is freaking illegal. i love this song so much). it has an ethereal presence about it, kinda like your blogs tbh... since you prob like my crossroads playlist too, ngl if this song is on spotify, this song will defo be in that playlist

@heart2beom : when i see you like 2000s romcom movies on your blog, 7 things by miley cyrus came into mind! it is unapologetically 2000's dcom soundtrack and probs right up your alley (esp with your f2l agenda that i'm digging.) the whole story of this song could be a fic idea itself so pls if you could make a fic from this song, i will also forever be grateful

@tyunlatte : alex you are a wholesome human being!! you remind me of time of our life by day6! it just gives such a teen adventure type of beat which i associate with you esp with your drawing board and sleepovers! i haven't read your works yet but i just have inkling that it has a somewhat feel like this song

@lovejoshua : fast pace and light a flame by seventeen! both are very jazzy and latin-sounding seventeen songs which reminds of you because of your carat-ness and just because they’re something you might like. tbh maybe it's because they have a sense of maturity to it and you are older than me lol

@junniieesbby : you seem like a very carefree person to me but also confident in the same way(?) ngl while scrolling through your blog and what you wrote on discord, i suddenly had maneater by nelly furtado in mind. my assumptions is that you pretty much ate up things lmao i'm sorry if that is too random >.<

@hanniejie : i really think that you are an embodiment of the sun from how sweet you are. it's gonna be a random choice again but i thought about pocketful of sunshine by natasha bedingfield when being reminded of you. it gives off a sense of encouragement and kind of reminds me of when you send us anon asks that is just words full of encouragement

lissie: this is actually so much fun to make. thanks anon!