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So I know you all know news about the YOI Movie being cancelled. It's really disappointing but I am not surprised. At the same time it kinda just hits hard. All that work people put into the show.
It really made an impact on me in 2016 where I was in dark place. Yoi was a light in that darkness for me and a little bit of happiness to have. I even got to watch it with a friend and it was so much fun. It also helped my creativity with making amvs. Looking back I was making YOI amvs like fire but it drove my inspiration like no other show I did for vs in the past.
I know many of us are disappointed about the confimation of this news. But regardless Yuri On Ice will always have a special place in my heart and I will never forget it. We as fans can keep creating and be inspired by YOI.
I'm not good with words, but who knows what the future holds. The characters, music, themes and story will always remain. And of course I'll make sure nobody forgets Makkachin. Bless that doggo!
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I see your post about OCPD + STPD König. Consider: SZPD Ghost and NPD Graves.
I love showing my love for characters by hitting them with the personality disorder beam
cant comment much on Graves because i dont think about him but SZPD Ghost is interesting
warning: mcd, death
Would kinda match his behaviour, like he's detached and muted but is not disloyal, doesn't outwardly crave a close bond over a multitude of factors (hurts to let someone in only for them to leave the second he gets attached), he tolerates it however if someone breach it slowly. Limit on physical contact, another masked guy so there's a barrier there between himself and everything else.
He's always processing emotions differently, or at all really. Most of the things and events are easy to bury under layers of habit and duty. It's hard to feel them, it's just easier to...dissect, interpret, clinically examine emotions than to experience. Easier to detect and recognize patterns; how a smile works, what warmth is (tilt of a head, tilt too much to the left then it's anger etc).
Easier to see it in a distance, than to let any of it reach and settle inside him, whether he wants to acknowledge it or not.
Maybe that's why in mw3 he's just there, you know the scene I'm talking about.
Kneeling beside Johnny, palm pressed against his chest.
Maybe he's waiting, watching, listening for that pattern and familiar rhythm he's came to memorized, the rise and fall clocked precisely at 1.2 seconds between each breath, waiting for his hand to swat his left wrist away with a cough.
But it doesn't happen, there's nothing.
Even though Ghost bloody knows (intellectually and clinically) that it's over, there's no pulse no movement no breath, the bullets gone through there's red staining his pants, there's also a large part of Ghost that just can't know it.
Can't process it, not all the way. But he also can't file it neatly away to the back of his head like everything else.
So maybe that's why he remained there even if the timer goes down and the bomb went off.
He can't let go, can't know how to leave, when to leave, when to accept.
#idk if this is making any sense#it's hard to put into words#and it's hard trying to link pd related issues and tie it to characters since i dont major in topics like this#but it is interesting as a concept to study it#tried to uhhhh make it more realistic?#idk#part of me is also projecting into this when it comes to feeling emotions#suppression and acceptance that sort of things#when I write Raven i wrote something like that for her as well#heavy practice on compartmentalization where each emotions are boxed away neatly#complete (not entirely) separation of thoughts and feelings - to survive and work#ask reponse#also again im not a major in this so dont take my words for it with pesonality disorder stuff - always refer to trusted sources yall#cw: mcd
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girl who definitely doesn't have a TF kink: haha why did they make the Switch 2 announcement so sexy?? Like we all think it's sexy how the Switch moves around and expands. I mean we all know it's hot to imagine your body shifted around as it slowly grows mechanical, so it's just. it's like that y'know. haha
#it's hard to put into words#how embarassing it is#that this is legitimately what confirmed I have a TF kink#what a world#transformation kink#yeah
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Sometimes I think I grieve the fact that I'll probably never have sex.
Let me explain.
I am aroace, sex-repulsed and I've never had sex before. I do enjoy erotic content, discussions and jokes about sex with people.
And I think I really like sex as a concept. Like I'm really thrilled by the idea of sharing intimacy with someone in such a close way. I have nsfw scenarios with characters in my head that would probably shock most people who know me. I think there's something beautiful about the potential of sex if done safely, respectfully and consensually.
I could experience that if I wanted to, despite not experiencing sexual attraction. But that's the thing, it's not about will. Sex as a concept sounds great, but as soon as I imagine what it could feel like I get really icky. I don't think I could handle the sensory impact of skin on skin, of sweat, the smell, the fear of doing something wrong or hurting the other, the fact that I have to be vulnerable and a million other things. I have my own solo sexual life but doing it with someone else is a line I'll probably never cross.
The thing is, I wish I could be able to genuinely want to cross that line. A lot of people make it sound great, a lot of people make it sound awful, either way I kind of wish I knew what it'd feel like. But I don't want to actually do the thing. I don't think I can.
And I don't want to hear words of comfort like "don't worry you're not missing out on anything" or "you can be perfectly happy without having sex ever", because I know that.
I know that. But I still grieve somehow because I know I'll never have sex with someone else.
So if you're reading this, ace or not, I just want you to know that you're allowed to be sex-negative/sex-repulsed and still grieve the sexual intimacy you'll never have.
You're allowed to want and not want at the same time.
(Same goes with romantic feelings or relationships I think.)
Anyways, if you're reading this I love you. <3
#noarambles#asexual#aromantic#rant about sex#missing something you'll never have#i'm lucky to have partners who completely understand and respect it#some of them are on the ace spectrum some aren't#but I never really discussed that specific feeling with them I think#it's hard to put into words
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I will always be haunted by the sadness of realizing that someone you love passed away before you even knew them. You existed alongside them in the same era, under the same sky, by the same ocean, and yet your paths didn't intersect. The realization that they were there but are not anymore. Now, it's just you and the essence they left behind, and that's all there is — just you and their essence.
#Steve Roden#lowercase#contemporary art#his work is one o the most important things that has happened to me#and I don't mean it in the obsessive way#I mean it in a genuine “I love you way”#it's hard to put into words#yearning#platonic#I might write a story about this feeling one day
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don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#sorry it's even scribblier than usual :') hopefully my chickenscratch is legible#anyway come here and join me in the corner where we go to be embarrassing about anime characters#just. between riddle and trey's dreams i've been thinking a lot about how#trey knew this kid for like two months when he was nine and then never really got over him or how their friendship ended#which. honestly. understandable given the circumstances#and then when they finally met again riddle acted like they'd never met before and neither he nor trey ever intended trey to be his vice#but every time riddle talks about his childhood post-incident it's basically#'oh yeah i constantly thought about trey and che'nya and fantasized about still being friends with them! this is fine and normal'#(there's a bit in one of his birthday cards where he talks about crossword puzzles and shit man that one got me)#idk. i can't put this into words very well#just...the implications that riddle was actively resisting trey's friendship#(presumably because it ended SUPER badly last time and he's learned that if he shows he wants something it gets taken away from him)#and trey had to work REALLY hard to just to get to the point they were at by the time canon starts#that was progress somehow#y'all can call him boring all you want but trey's defining feature really is that he keeps being like#'everything's fine :) this isn't a big deal :) i don't care that much'#(trey on the inside: THIS IS THE BIGGEST DEAL THAT I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT AND I WILL NEVER LET IT GO)#anyway i continue to be absolutely murdered by the timing of riddlepunzel directly after this#riddle's line about not wanting to keep standing in front of a door that's never going to open...#hey. hey silly gacha game about anime disney boys.#you are not actually allowed to do this to me#oh shit oh damn i'm out of tags and i haven't even talked about cater yet. NO BUT I HAVE LOTS OF FEELINGS THERE TOO --#(i am crushed under a falling safe looney tunes style)
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i don't have it in me right now to write up an entire analysis of queen's dialogue, even though i'd really like to, but one thing i've noticed while going over it for personal purposes is that queen doesn't actually use mematic language all too frequently? instead, queen primarily speaks in a more general pastiche of the manner associated with online chatting, preceded or followed up occasionally by a more grandiose dialect that suits her queenly airs. you see this peppered all over her introductory scene;
and occasionally, even within the same line of dialogue;
it's a neat little bit of character work that keeps her from feeling too dated, working both as a nod to online chatting and as a way to demonstrate what sort of person she is. (not to mention, it's a recipe for a lot of really good comedic timing.)
#ooc#queen#deltarune#it's hard to put into words exactly what but her bluntness is very. she doesn't really consider her words too carefully often due to her#loftiness? but that isn't out of excessive sadism... she's got that spoiled but well-meaning rich character air about#her. very fitting for her as a pastiche of the ojou-sama archetype and villainess archetype#she likes to tease too of course as pictured above but that's also very within the realm of villainessing#she gets her lmao and lol in too but it's kept on the downlow if that makes sense#she's important to me....
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some ahnk moporkian bullshit (mostly moist and the truth)




#some of these are verrry old oops#i just couldnt figure out what to put them with to do a skatch dump#also i was struggling hard tying to figure out a moist design#its all very fun and games to look like any other bitch but how do i draw that#also the fit#i wanna play around with designs more#get rlly into the idea that no one normal would wear that#like its very ober the top even if you forget that its golden#and overly fancy?#also angel and wing motifs of courrrrrrse#also some of my first sketches were done while i was working on my lupin animatic assignement and so he looks very anime lmaoo#o yeah also the bursar is here hello bursar#im so delighted when i read seemingly unconnected books that have connected cameos#anyways pterry keeps trowing cool vampire characters at me and i eat it up every time#my art#art#artists on tumblr#character design#discworld#discworld fanart#moist von lipwig#adora belle dearheart#the bursar#william de worde#sacharissa cripslock#otto chriek#going postal#the truth#gnu terry pratchett
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In your college au, what’s a fun fact about frisk you haven’t mentioned before?
frisk can drive but gets around on a bike most of the time because other members of their family needs the car all the time. and they sure like to get around. whenever theyve got free time (which is usually the night bc their days are filled with club activities or other social events- and because of this they migjt have accidentally spawned a couple urban legends about a creature that prowls at night) theyve got this habit where they run around the city to look at people or nooks and crannies nobody knows about, like a secret spot tucked away behind some buildings where stray animals gather.
what im saying is that theyre like an rpg protagonist
#that college friends au#ask#im ngl i do feel guilty i (so far) have wrote abt frisk a lot less#its because in my mind they feel like a black box to me. like another real person whose thoughts are their own#i think its bc i base a lot of them on the passion and love of real players and the people in the UTDR community#which is why theyre so chaotic and act like a game protag#someone who joins every club and develops their friendship with every possible person#because they love and crave to know about everything their life has to offer#this doesnt mean they think theyre as important as a main character or treat their life as a game#its more like#they live everyday like tomorrow will never come#their existence is without words. they show their character through the curious and slightly erratic movements of your player avatar#but i do want to try to write and develop them more. i have a lot of thoughts#its just hard to put them onto paper.
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Jason travels to an alternate universe where Bruce only cares about being Batman. He took in each of his kids to serve the mission, not be his children.
Now, faced with alternate versions of his family, Jason has to grapple with the fact that his Bruce does care, that he is his father. Because the man in front of him now, trying to send him home, isn’t even close.
#batman#jason todd#bruce wayne#redhood#batfam#batfamily#this bruce went one of two ways 1) running his kids into the ground and they’re basically unrecognizable to jason or 2) worked them so hard#they couldn’t take it and left the business entirely and he’s completely alone except the JL which doesn’t like him but he is necessary#sure crime is down but bruce’s crusade is just that an actual crusade because he treats his sons like soldiers and everything comes second#to the mission. i don’t even know if damian exists in this universe because the idea of bruce having romantic relationships is laughable#although here he might be more closely aligned to talia because they’re both mission oriented and having a legal heir for their literal#legacy might appeal to him idk. just that jason shows up and it’s like his brothers have military ranks instead of names. none of them have#real jobs or even friends because they eat sleep work live at the manor and would never leave the batcave if it weren’t for public#appearances. it’s insane to see dick without his personality or tim who really does act like a robot and not a person. i don’t know if steph#cass and duke would stick around for this (or alfred for that matter i’m 50/50)#but when jason does get back everyone is shocked that he sticks around the cave and manor for a couple weeks checking in on everyone and#making the effort to do things unrelated to mask business. he has to write a report about the incident and he struggles to even put into#words how wrong it felt. his arguments with bruce also skew slightly because he can’t claim bruce doesn’t care in general just that he#doesn’t care about him or express it enough or in the right way. a far cry from the usual spiel and bruce is concerned so they talk it out
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Maybe we never had a chance.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#a-yuan#Ultimately...despite how hard we try to reach people - sometimes it just is not possible.#Sometimes all you can do is wish that things could have been different. You pen a note with all the things you want to say -#and then you let it go. The words stay unsent and unspoken. You just watch the rift between you grow until you're too far away to try again#It is a sad end! It is two people who want to be closer but do not have the right capacity to do anything but shut doors.#Worse yet; it's two people who feel it is not their place to try and impose anything more.#It takes so long to heal from endings like that. You never get enough closure when there is still a faint hope of 'another day'.#It's a false amicability. It's closing a door and telling yourself that at least the windows are unlocked.#WWX will keep up his friendliness as a way to hold LWJ at a distance. LWJ can only try to help so many times.#Speaking of tragedies of trying to help; Let's talk about the addiction metaphors in this episode.#WWX tells LWJ in fairly straightforward terms that he does not *want* do be doing ghost cultivation.#What he wants is to protect people - by any means necessary. If he had another option he would take it.#The path WWX 'chose' is one that is deeply mired in external shame and taboo. He jokes about it but it clearly doesn't feel great.#And I put 'chose' in quotes because just like many who find them selves in bad situations - the choice is an illusion.#He's adamant that this is 'his' choice. That he is in control.#Better to be villainized that endure the terrifying reality that you lack any ability to have choice anymore.#If he had the choice - truly had the choice - he would not be doing this.#You can't help those who don't want to be helped. So of course all LWJ can do is watch from the side. Offer a hand when he can.#This life was a tragedy and the countdown to it all blowing up started a long time ago...
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How to use your status as a walking brick wall to your advantage
Bonus:
#madness combat#2bhank#this is the probably sweetest ill ever draw 2bhank because to me they are#Hard to put to words but it makes me want to rip the flesh off my torso like a t shirt while wailing#anyways#myart
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drew some of my fav ody designs! wasnt originally meant to be also replicating the styles but thats sort of just how my brain works. except i didnt copy the lineart styles of anyone here so its DEFINITELY a bit uncanny for a couple of these (LOOKING AT YOU QINNY IM SO SORRY) but whatever
the designs featured here (from left to right) belong to: me, @gigizetz, @neal-illustrator, @irunaki, @bigidiotenergytm, @qinnyanimation, and @foopsie-daisy
#WAUGHHH IM SO NERVOUS TAGGING PEOPLE COOLER THAN ME#HEAD IN HANDS HEAD IN HANDS I NEED TO STOP PANICKING OVER STUFF LIKE THIS#bc like I KNOW THEYRE JUST PEOPLE. I WOULD BE SO HYPE IF SOMEONE DREW MY ODY ID LOVE TO BE TAGGED IN THAT.#BUT WHAT IF I AM SHOT. WITH A GUN. gfrdfvb vfrdedrf#i am a very normal non anxiety having person i swear guys#worst thing i did here was have odys hands very visible for the qinny one. because i didnt realize the way they draw hands is very realisti#BUT THEIR WHOLE STYLE HAS REALLY REALISTIC ANATOMY I SHOULVE KNOWN#irunakis style is SO fun to draw in bc its a lot like some of my older art so its very familiar yk yk i wasnt worrying too much about makin#-things accurate. but i think that accidentally made me too comfortable and so i ended up straying a bit too much#i think a lot of irunaki and qinnys styles specifically is in the lineart. so me using my normal style of lines makes them less recognizabl#anyways. neals odysseus i have shit talked in private (its a good design it just feels uncanny w/ jorges voice to me) but hes really-#-interesting to draw. i wanna do style studies on neal their characters have a very. idk animated feels like the wrong word but like.#something like animated. feeling to them. theyre very distinct in shape i wanna do studies thats it#bigidiotenergy i found this morning while FINALLY looking at cloudysseus art and instantly fell in love w their design#i need to ruffle his hair. hes so silly. absolutely incredible design. but GOD was the style a nightmare#it was too late id already comitted to trying to replicate the styles. but ohhh my god its so far from my own it was so hard#theres so much detail in places i dont normally put any at all#and its like. WAUGH its scary i need to do anatomy studies in general maybe#uhh havent commented on the gigi one. he was really easy to draw though lol. weirdly enough gigis style was close enough to my current one-#-that i didnt have any trouble whatsoever? and i think its the most accurate too but only because of the lineart styles being similar lol#ALSO NOT TO PLAY FAVORITES BUT FOOP ODYSSEUS IS MY FAVORITE#I LOVE HIMMM I LOVE HIS SILLY SHAPES HE LOOKS LIKE A WEIRD CAT KINDA. HE INTRIGUES ME.#my ody feels kinda lame next to all these guys gbfdefgbf#but oh well. hes ingrained into my mind now i cant change him at this point /silly i am actually happy w him but i might make changes#thaats thoughts on all of the odys here. anyways art tags time#doodles#odysseus#epic the musical#OH MY GOD EDIT I FORGOT TO DRAW FOOP ODYS SHOES. HEAD IN HANDS. IM SO SORRY
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No face
#been thinking how to express this art#its hard to put in words how i feel thats why i draw#but its just how u lose the feeling of being urself and u grab for dear life to hold on to you to say u are fine all its like it was in the#past same old u#nothingbizzare art#artist on tumblr#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#heaven official's blessing#xie lian#tgcf fanart#fanarts#digital art
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Do you have any tips for drawing cat expressions?
Oooh, yippeee yippee yippee! Yes i do!
bonus doodle under cut
#a lot of my thoughts about this are hard to put into words exactly? it’s mostly an intuitive process for me#which probably means that that’s on Me to study More because if i had greater expertise in the subject I’d probably be able to explain it#better and teach it better to other people#or idk. maybe some artistic aspects are better taught visually and other subjects like color theory and panel composition are built easier#to describe in words. who knows. not me. i need to go to art school#sometimes art isn’t the specific. more mathematical techniques that you teach#and more a perspective that you shift to look at something differently#aphidasks#art#my art#clangen#wc clangen#im also still experimenting with Sparkspeckle’s design#im not quite satisfied with it yet. i need to experiment a lot more with different hairstyles and study a lot more#we workin on it 👍
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Do you think Astarion eats Dorian out while he's on his period
can't you people just ask me how my day went
#ramble#for legal reasons: this is a joke i cannot put into words how hard i laughed at this#somehow i feel. unqualified to answer
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