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holy-fricken-moly · 5 months ago

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I've been doing sketchbook tour videos to keep my sanity/keep me busy (Likely to get uploaded on YouTube for funsies).

I FINALLY got to the sketchbook with all of my current OCs and there were genuine tears in my eyes when I grabbed my newest book to show what Tyler (this character) looks like now. 🧍‍♂️

I twink-deathed an 18 year old.

#my art #🧎‍♂️#its because I put him through hell #in the old sketches his dad also looked like a twink 💀#genuine tears #every day I thank god that I moved his story to the 1980s and NOT the present day #it fixed him tbh

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cheaploafs · 6 months ago

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no fights are ever won without sacrifice

#art tag #ivy laidir #lucanis dellamorte #rookanis #datv spoilers #im tagging it just in case but like you know #ANYWAY. have i told you guys about the solas silverhand of my veilguard fic . how he can see Ivy’s memories and witness the world around #them as they travel. witness it all.. because i honestly thought tjat would have happened . yeah. it makes this 10 times worse in my brain #like oh!!! oh he has used my love against me oh no #the speechbubbles are empty but they range from ‘im sorrys’ to ‘i love yous’ to ivy finally calling lucanis vhenan because they never #thought to call anyone it again after what their ex put them through . isn’t it fun ….. isn’t it so cool #i think ivy blacked out and just sat with *him* for a while. didn’t really hear varric for a bit . just let every tear out from losing #everyone they cared for. the people they promised to protect and bring home safe. the world is on this poor guys shoulders my gooddddddd #the MOMENT ivy gets up from this its like Hell for 90% of the way. the regret prison in my mind is So much Worse #but anyways <3 enjoy this wip i had sitting for like several weeks. i might do lucanis…….. might. a strong might.

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cocoa-rococo · 4 months ago

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so sherlock holmes: the awakened is definitely full of some scary things, but i think the thing that fully cemented it for me -- and honestly has stuck with me more than any other part of the game -- wasn't even the climax, or even the actual lovecraftian horrors themselves.

it's fairly early on, after sherlock was in r'lyeh, experienced The Horrors for the first time, and hallucinated the body speaking to him.

it's when john arrives at the room and approaches him, and that terrified, hoarse, please-god-someone-help-me gasp of "watson...?!" sherlock says as he's curling in on himself, rocking back and forth. he honestly sounds like a child who doesn't understand what's going on and is about to start sobbing.

even afterwards, when watson is understandably worried about him, sherlock tries to wave him off, stammering that he's fine and it was a trick, even when he's very obviously shaken.

like. holy shit. alex jordan you NAILED that "someone hold me PLEASE i'm going to fall apart" desperation and fear of someone who just went through hell, but also, it's absolutely gutting for a player to hear a character normally so impersonal so suddenly frightened, because he literally cannot explain why this is happening.

#sherlock holmes the awakened #frogwares holmes #frogwares sherlock #sherlock holmes #this game does eldritch horror really REALLY well actually #it's not 'oooh ugly monster'#it's 'how the hell do i go back to being myself after learning this is a real thing that exists'#the second part that stuck with me is sherlock confronting rochester on top of the lighthouse and admitting that it's true #and his desperation of 'i need to KNOW' when he's standing in the path of the wave #this game puts him through the absolute wringer #not to mention the whole segment of him getting killed in r'lyeh with the axes to progress forward #and one of the things he calls out as he DIES is watson's name #like #this man has MAYBE known watson for one year and is already clinging to him like a lifeline because he has /no one else/#like. geez.#frogwares doesn't pull its punches with their protagonists #then again this is the same company that made the sinking city. so. i'm not surprised

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rinofwater · 3 days ago

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So outside of the bond quest events and main story, the characters in Azuma get pretty shallow characterization, huh?

#guardians of azuma #goa #goa spoilers #idk if it counts as spoilers but better safe than sorry lol #i didn't notice it as much when i still had main story stuff to get through but damn interacting with these characters day-to-day is boring #and like every game like this is going to reach a point eventually where you run out of new stuff and it's the same lines over and over #that's the nature of being constructs of humans who couldn't create infinite conversation possibilities after all #but that's not the problem happening here #the daily conversations are at the level of idle small talk at best #the hangout feature (which couldve been real nice) does nothing to put these characters in context (especially not for the low-level hangou #just a five second silent cutscene and an 'i liked this/i hated this'#great you wanna elaborate on that? no?#i ask you about your family and i dont get to learn more about your family or your aversion to the topic?#why even bother then? if thats the feature that means we dont get interesting chats then i wish they'd have just dropped it #and dont even get me started on the fun facts on everyone's profiles #this stuff would've formed the basis for the daily convos in other games but now it's just a little blurb #that you might get a little more context on through events if you're lucky #like murasame's apparently scared of birds? that's sure never come up outside of his character profile from what ive seen #and with ulalaka so intent looking out for him and her having her little bird there was certainly opportunities to at least mention it #even if it's not a little skit maybe a line like 'yeah i tried to get him to slow down but he went running when he saw plenty :('#or however normally cool calm collected murasame actually reacts to birds but now i just have to guess because its not in context #a small detail to get hung up on as an example maybe but small details like that are what make the convos in other games more entertaining #like jones has 4-5 daily conversations on why he hates tomato juice but is trying to aversion therapy himself anyway in 4 #that's way more interesting than reading a little fun fact #it's just wasted potential and that's disappointing #like the game is trying to rush you through to the dating/marriage phase and discounting the value of the little everyday buildups #hell i started dating kaguya and at the bare minimum i would think she would get some more romantic lines mixed in to the normal list #but nope she's still saying the exact same things she was before i started dating her but with one extra line in there to summarize one of #her character events (not adding any interesting comment on the event just summarizing it)#if i just wanted a dating sim i would go play a dating sim

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viridian-house · 1 month ago

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remembering the time I asked my ex to please make some distance between himself & my bestie because of remarks he'd made to me about her body and his response was to get home, sit on the sofa and fold his hands, and look at me and say "since you're thinking I'm cheating on you, I can only assume this means you're projecting your own guilt onto me and you're the one cheating. I'd like to look through your phone now."

and guess who ended up being the one cheating 🥲

#he has Problems™️ with me labeling him as a cheater with my friends and family which. uhhhh. yes im aware that was an attempt to isolate me #and control the narrative so no one views him as a scumbag. but like. maybe dont do scumbag shit??#and in addition he says 'were we together when i developed feelings for her?' and forced me to say either Yes or No when. um!#its not a Yes/No type of question. we were working under the goal of making our relationship work. it's a nuanced situation where i did feel #emotionally stepped out on. and in any case he breaks up with me and immediately begins staying the night at her apt so literally what even #is the difference at that point?#we had a Grown Person relationship we have a mortgage we own our cars i supported him through hardships and we were planning on marriage #and its like. for him to have been in the headspace at ALL to develop feelings for another person is so hurtful. i can understand physical #i wouldn't excuse it but i can understand it. but falling in love? when i was a damned good partner to you?#sorry y'all i just. ummm. feel so trapped and afraid. i cannot believe the level of trauma his lack of empathy/compassion in the breakup has #put within me. it feels like no matter how much effort i put into trying to heal....nothing in my heart budges. the damage to my self esteem #is so profound that i honestly cant even picture the scope of it.#all the steps i took in therapy and things i did to lower my stress last year feel so useless against the fact that the man i thought id be #with for the rest of my life chose someone else over sticking it out with me. he chose the easier option. and i cannot fucking move on #anyway sorry for tag rambling i literally. feel so much guilt around venting to friends because of how he reacts to it #and because he snooped through my phone POST BREAKUP and i never know when he'll do it again #this is hell. how can this be the same man who said he wants to be friends with me?#personal

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passports-pls · 2 years ago

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Lets say by some freak chance someone was thinking abt making an ask blog for a certain Ryo Aoki 👀 would ya'll be interested in that? I mean come onnn who could say no to that smug lil face

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza #ryo aoki #masato arakawa #you KNOW I have to partake in the ask blog renaissance #i want to put him through hell #its what he deserves #my art #because of chibi aoki propaganda

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thinkingaboutfilm11 · 4 months ago

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You guys are collectively hyping me up too much.

My emails broke this week and sent copy/doubled emails to Tony. The stars are aligning.

I must give him my number

#(scared)#doing research online and read a post saying brasilians are super forward and there is not the embarassment in being rejected l #like there is in the west #(especially england where i have been brought up to believe i should be embarrassed about everything)#but still #hes such a good teacher #genuinely hes a linguistics fucking genious who speaks like 5 languages for FUN?#and i do not want to loose him as a teacher #because in the four months ive been learning with him instead of the last three teachers i went through #ive got nothing but high marks and made leaps of progress and confidence #also #how would anything come of it #he lives 6000 miles away #i do have the money (not really but thats what credit cards are for) to go see him #but what after that #?#the question is #am i willing to put my learning on the line for a whatsapp numver #but maybe its not that deep #maybe hell say sure and we’ll exchange numbers and thats it #MAYBE HES GAY #WHAT THEN #sigh #mental illness #nobody is reading these tags i know that #tony

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liquidstar · 1 year ago

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a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

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theladyfae · 9 months ago

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i think human nature/family of blood is a really good two parter in how it manages to show how full of shit ten is 🫶

#look . i LOVE ten . esp whatevers going on w him in s3 he's horrible and i like that #but just !! martha :(#its so incredibly unfair to martha he doesnt unleash his wrath on the Family he chooses to hide instead and okay yeah fair #and sure u can say the tardis chose the setting and time period for them to hide in but like #did that not filter in to his calculations he went through all that turned himself human put his friendship with martha to the test in #the worst way possible. knowing she wouldn't let herself leave him even if he was Abhorrent towards her (and he was) because #of her duty to the universe and beyond and whatever . to blend in and keep the Family off their tails #and she's put in a demeaning position and degraded and even he doesn't seem to care much for her but she still hangs on #and then in the end its like its all for naught. all that pain and suffering martha went through being the only one w her wits about her #he had the capacity to deal w the threat the whole time he had the ability to dole out a horrible punishment he could definitely #have dealt with them a different way than that too .#and instead in his quest to be the bigger person he ends up putting martha through the horrors and then #does the same with the Family anyway ! i dont think he can ever tell her how harshly he dealt with them #surely this isnt an original thought im just thinking Way too much about blue moon by niki #he Does care more about being good than being good to her specifically !! and its so upsetting theyre so volatile i miss them #its more complicated than that sure but at the same time. it sort of isnt .#anyway martha jones my love my life u deserved at least a billion apologies alongside the thanks like god . whats wrong w him #oh and also he wants to move on without properly talking about it . act as if it never happened #like girl be fucking considerate for ONCE she just went through a personal hell for you !!! how insanely lonely she must of been #i dont believe martha ever let him just brush past it w no acknowledgement like yes i think she definitely didnt want to discuss the #accidental confession but i Do think she would sit him down to finally get him to Accept he cant just take her wherever in the past #if he's not ready to look out for her . its a vital conversation i think they need to have otherwise martha would just walk out there #not even love could make her stay through that its been established already she has the strength to try walk away #and also to try and but through his bullshit and demand answers . and here more than ever she deserves his acknowledgement and he Knows it

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pielove123clan · 3 months ago

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My head's being mean to me again. Big oof.

#vent #The overthinkerrr #Why do i have to keep acting like i I don't care that my mom is quieter? Man #Because i know she'll take advantage of me if I show too much weakness. That's how she operates. I genuinely did not like her company #Im not just jumping back into another trip away from home with her. She can't handle being alone. I was legitimatly thinking of killing her #I dont want to be in a physical space with only her. I just politly told her im working on my driving i cant go with her #Yeah i broke her feelings and she'll be all lone in the trip. That's not my problem but not like I dont pitty her.#Shes the one who convinced herself being alone in life is the worst thing ever. She's going to come up with saying I dont love her again.#Yeah thats true I really don't. Doesn't mean I don't try to care for her but i don't love her. Its not the got ya she thinks it is.#So yeah I do feel bad but I have my reasons. I litterally punched her the moment we stepped foot in the Philippines because of how she was #Treating me in an already stressful situation. Why would I want to be in a trip with her again?#Hell no I don't think for a second what Im doing is right but it means nothing either way. Its all about leverage and power with my mom.#My dad is fine. I can't complain about him. Hes doing his best and hes just trying to get me through college and life before he dies.#Its in the culture to fear not having a partner. Their marrage isn't really offical. They can tell me whatever they want ive doubted their #“love” forever ago. What am i going to do when my dad hits the bucket.#Ill be stuck dealing with my mother. I know shes also doing her best but its not enough for me. Like what I do isn't quite enough for her.#I swear I don't hate my mom. I dont like seeing her sad not because i dont want to see her sad. Its suvival because if shes happy their not #Arguing or shes less likely to try and put it out on me. I really see she's improved but at the same time its only cause im older.#Have I still been a younger child she would continue to berate me instead of trying to be sneaky jokey sort of mean girl type stuff.#Im glad all her classess occupy her. She would be restless otherwise.#Edit: and another thing. She just keeps getting into my head.

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august-anon · 1 month ago

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me: i should really edit that fic,,,,

my brain: no. justice league unlimited marathon.

#august rambles #i have finished s2 of justice league unlimited i can breathe again DSJFHDSJH though i wonder if s3 will also put me through stress #maybe i will watch something else though. take a break from it #maybe christopher reeves superman i havent watched those yet. i wanna watch them before the new superman in a couple months #use it to eradicate snyderverse being my only live action superman experience KJDHFKJHSFK #guys can i tell you a secret. top secret. i despise the dceu/snyderverse. im so happy its gone. it was so bad #because of the snyderverse being the only direct superman media i knew most of my life i thought i didnt like superman like At All #until last year when i watched superman the animated series and i was like “wtf superman Fucks i am obsessed with him” sdkjfhsdjf #dont even get me STARTED on snyderverse batman oh my freaking god its pure trash. get him the hell away from me. sorry besties jskdfhjsdfh #david corenswet as superman looks like he's gonna be AMAZING though. the trailer that came out wednesday took me out #i had goosebumps and teary eyes we're so back baby. the suit is god awful ugly but. like i am so optimistically hopeful for the story rn #the switch in voice from clark kent to superman “ms lane” OH MY GODDDDDDDDD #AND THE COLORS ARE BACK!!! WE HAVE COLOR AGAIN!!!!!! ITS SO COLORFUL AND ALIVE!!! james gunn dont let me down i wont forgive you #i know christopher reeves is the Most Beloved live action superman though so i wanna see those movies before july maybe i do that now lol

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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i HAVE to keep the daigo plush locked away lest i squeeze it every five minutes to alleviate the cuteness aggression i feel whenever i see it

#snap chats #being without my computer charger has been maddening #that makes me sound terminally online and its because i am. its also cause all i ever wanna do is draw :((#AND I ESP WANNA WORK ON MY COMMS NOOOOO FUCK #i mean i was at least able to read through yakuza’s bias vol 2… so theres that…#MY SCHOOL STORE DIDNT HAVE LAPTOP CHARGERS i had to order one… hopefully it gets here Overnight like i asked….. if not ill kill #anyway. daigo plushie so cute :((((((((((((((((#mine cute too but theres just something especially squeezeable about daigo #alas.. thats what the aoki plush’ll be for. my personal stress toy ☠️☠️☠️☠️#lowkey i wish i also got ichi but then i remenbee they made him pale as all hell and Yeah Im Not Putting Money To That #THE SMALLEST BIT OF A TAN I BEG YOU RGG WHY IS HE SO PALE IT DONT LOOK RIIIIGHT :((((#anyway.. i have my last class in half an hour… lemme drink this tea…#also Lowkey obsessed with my outfit today.. its that butterfly shirt + gold accessories since theyre monarch butterflies #tho Lowkey 2x the black and yellow remind me of the watase blokes from gaiden…… wack…..#ok bye its tea time #help one of my roommates just came home and she just announces like. ‘man those edibles were. OUGH’#calling my dad to pick me up nooo im a lame straight edge dont talk about drugs around me ill scream and cry LMAO #ok im done byebye lemme drink this good god

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magikfish · 1 year ago

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albus potter listens to stranger in the alps and thinks it’s written for him… jump cut to him ugly sobbing in his room and harry walking in because he thinks something’s wrong (albus still can’t cast a silencing spell to save his life)… albus horror movie screams at him to get out… smoke signals playing in the background…

#albus severus potter #genuinely truly i think this boy puts his father through hell (its okay because it’s funny)#oh albus screams at him to keep up the ruse that he’s a metallica fan btw #if you bring up any other musician to albus he stares at you like you’ve gravely offended him. you actually might have.

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glass-trash-bab · 2 years ago

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I always get the urge to post on tumblr when I'm feeling crazy. Most of the time, it's from lack of sleep.

#hi ive been hit with the urge to post. wonder why (sarcastic)#also im currently in a dnd campaign run by Geeky and its my favorite thing ever rn and i really wanna talk about it #i have a little bunny boy fighter named Hopkins and hes such a little problem child i really need to tone him down vshdsjsb #and he has 2 equally chaotic dads who im also rotating around in my head. their names are Genji and Toby and i love love love them #Genji is a wizard and Toby is an artificer #i think its funny how theyre both spell casters when i made Hopkins explicitly Not a spell caster vshssjssk #they all travel around Geekys beautiful homebrew world doing all this history work because theyre big nerds #and i guess Genji and Toby managed to die? question mark? idk theyre at like magic heaven. or hell idk #at least that's what's implied. and i think thats cool #ask me more about my bunny family please #OH MY GOD I JUST HAD THE BEST IDEA #i could customize calico critters to by my little bunny family 🥺#i have to put that on my long growing list of projects i want to do eventually #first i have to get through septictober. then i'll do my silly little ideas #i should post my art of my little bunny family sometime too

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dallonwrites · 2 years ago

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at first i was writing a lot of grief stuff to process my own which is still the case but at this point it's mostly the grief has been here for so long and is not going away so and i'm tired so i might as well have fun with it

#putting off going outside to do the things i need to do rn....griefblogging time #like im playing a competition with myself for what's the weirdest and most entertaining take on grief i can write and i always win #stopping myself from doing a tag essay on how i see grief like bestie that's for the substack #im not tired of it as in i want my grief to go away because its here forever and you knowww #grief is the product of love etc etc etc #i dont mind it being there but all the Symptoms of it like fatigue and brain fog are getting ANNOYINGGGG #i wrote something like this before i fell asleep about how beau thinks his grief is dull but it's his lol #most of our grief is actually very different...like he wants to feel haunted but is unnerved by the moments #that feel like he is #whereas i experience what i believe are signs from my mom and im like YAYYYYY HI MOM HIIIIII :3 #beau wants signs but then he gets what could be seen as signs and it kind of just ruins his day #but it also ruins his day if he doesn't get any #idk im putting him through it for the sake of the plot #im soo excited to play with the haunting aspect of the book because its not a literal supernatural haunting but also. its close #wrote hell instead of well at first thats symbolic of something

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catcatb0y · 5 months ago

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I ran out of tag... (It's mostly like two things that end up becoming annoyingly intertwined the more the series goes on). He was only powerful when it was convenient to the power scaling, which led to him being constantly put in otherwise intensely traumatizing victim situations solely to spur the main character into saving him no matter the cost. Which normally would have only furthered his unrealistic inferiority complex (and also his fear of weakness as well as distaste for weak people given how many people VICTIM BLAMED HIM, which you'd think would only confirm his fucking bias??) which OOPS was made into a... realistic inferiority complex?? Somehow solely to show that the MC somehow managed to grow past the underdog he never fucking was, and since the fans adored this, that became his only character! Yeah, somehow THAT was his big character growth...

He went from a complex, morally grey character to UwU empty ship fodder, and the fans of the series ate it up SO much that one of the main villains (one of the only people who genuinely acknowledged the strength and horrible treatment of my silly guy) telling him 'You're useless actually, I just want to kill you to make that other kid sad lol-' is seen as his PEAK. That. That's his peak. That's the "good ol days" the shipdom romantacizes. A villain poking at his weakness and deepest insecurity is somehow the canonizing moment of the ship (and it doesn't even happen, MC gets mad at his best friend's death for three seconds and then effortlessly kicks the villain's ass, as like the shittiest cherry on top) < it only gets worse from there!

I was also a shipper back in the day, and, in hindsight, I really should have seen the whole shitshow coming, but unfortunately I went on to dedicate six years to this hyperfixation that continues to haunt me three years after I attempted to quit the fandom cold turkey. It didn't even work.

reblog this with one canon thing you dislike / think is flawed about your blorbo and/or the way they were written

#the sheer inconsistency of the writing #deadass the story relied SO much on Tell Not Show that one of the STRONGEST main characters (in the MC's age range at LEAST)#is constantly and continuously victimized #and this is supposed to be his 'character growth'#but because him constantly being put in victim situations ties him to the main character everybody cheers and makes him into ship fodder #the SERIES in its finale made him into ship fodder but ofc it's a damn anime so gay people can't ACTUALLY exist #so his entire character- being the ONLY one that had growth being one of the most HARDWORKING and DEDICATED mfs on the cast-#ended up being absolutelt nothing.#at thr end of the day his BIGGEST FEAR FROM DAY ONE was just randomly canonized and his 'growth' turned into...#accepting the inferiority complex he had built up for himself based on absolutely NOTHING #to the point where ONE OF THE GODDAMNED VILLAINS tells him his only worth is his closeness to the MC and would you GUESS #people. fucking. cheered.#like there are soooo many things I could rant about this guy #first of all constantly being stuck as a victim doesn't actually make you sympathetic?? and it was almost ALWAYS at the negligence of the #adults around him. He was an ASSHOLE yeah but he was a TEENAGER who learned everything from the adults around him #only for those very same fuckers to turn around and verbally and PHYSICALLY berate or degrade him for upholding the values THEY INSTILED #second-ish the fact that he's contextually one of the strongest main characters in the entire series yet he CONSTANTLY gets nerfed #and forced into otherwise incredibly traumatic situations that would have HINDERED HIS PRE-EXISTING GROWTH- and it's all to make the #'underdog MC' shine and get the glory of saving the dude who HATES HIM. JUST LEAVE HIM ALONE MAN. THAT IS WHAT HE IS ASKING.#MC isn't even treated like an underdog either. He gets things SO effortlessly it makes you wonder why the hell everyone else even works #the series is RELIANT on his victimization. but it ties him into a ship he doesn't want to be in so people eat it up #then despite EVERYTHING he's been through HE UNDERGOES SEVERE CHARACTER GROWTH #he COMES TO TERMS with his tendency of lashing out and apologizes to the MC for treating him poorly due to his made up inferiority complex #and from then on it's just treated like a Canon Fact he is and always was inferior to this guy who put in. almost none of the actual work.#at the VERY least the series from the MC'a perspective shows the fact that he heavily idolized and looked up to my boy #but then the shift in perspective and suddenly every interaction with them is fucking 'he's ahead of me like he always has been'#buddy his fucking battle tactic is throwing himself into a lion's den and sheepishly laughing when he comes back burtally maimed. what.#what was once OBVIOUS BIAS became somehow OBJECTIVE FACT in order to half fucking traumabond this kid to someone who made him feel like shit #and that's not to say his actions towards said kid were excuseable- he was a bully and an asshole! Both things the MC just elects to ignore?#but at the end of the day the MC made him a WORSE person and he KNEW that and was trying to ESCAPE from it. He should have been allowed to.

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