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it's that time of the year where i post about the ocs from my secondary story before launching them back into the void for several months
#art tag#6139#oc: vanna#this took THREE drawings the other two were just too stiff (this isn't the Greatest but way better than before)#but i really wanted to color this fit so i just angrily sketched out a third picture which finally worked#the story doesn't really have a plot just some vague ideas for the characters#because i always forget about it for a few months and then come back to it Extremely Briefly#it is set in the modern day#well..maybe pre-pandemic...maybe like 2018 or something#uhm since they were vaguely inspired by scooby doo in the original iteration though i could put it in the late '60s if i get tired of it#though it was specifically inspired by 13 ghosts of scooby doo + the reluctant werewolf movie#so...that would still be the '80s. what's wrong with me#the original draft was like a few shorter stories of the characters getting involved in various hijinx#but it's not really like a cartoon there's overarching themes and stuff? recurring stuff like that?#none of this is about vanna specifically.#she's not the group daphne she's actually the group googie (from reluctant werewolf)#so she is the girlfriend of casey (not-shaggy) (named for casey kasem)#but she like...does more stuff than googie does. and also doesn't immediately vanish lol#also!#because of that she's kind of an outsider#like...casey and vic (not-daphne) dealt with some wacky ghost stuff at their summer job in high school#working for not-vincent-van-ghoul#who needs a new name i don't like their old name...#but also like they were friends with the other two (noah/not-fred and lola/not-velma) in high school#but vanna went to a different town so she doesn't know them until the start of the story#she only sort of knows not-vvg and calls them up b/c casey's turnign into a werewolf and she doesn't know waht to do..#also her older brother's an evil wizard. possibly.#he was actually inspired by bram from music of the vampire so he fuckin SUCKS! lmao#i do have to start making characters not based off scooby doo but instead i just keep making ones based off of more obscure characters#well bram is probably less obscure than googie + had cameos in other movies. music of the vampire is more modern than reluctant werewolf.
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Quick doodle of ec-4o!Dust wearing this fun hat w/ bunny ears I got my hands on the other day!
#spotatalk#hiiii#ec-4o.verse#ec-4o!dust#i was gonna do a tag rant about irl stuff but on second thought it's too tmi lol#so!! hi to my pals!! sorry I've not been super responsive! being back home w/ my parents from uni is always draining#and I'm in this weird in-between of Adult but Still Their Baby which makes my days very self-contained and my afternoons very...#uh. draining lol. (<- my parents love to consult me w/ their emotional grievances. which they've always done. now they just don't like the#way I respond anymore lmao-)#so it's a strange balancing act and makes me a lot less likely to reach out to people 😅#i'll be back for actual chats soon I'm sure! just needed to put this *somewhere* lol#(looking at Ancha and Owl w/ my big ol eyes)#oh and also my school is being very incompetent with helping me get paid for my summer work/commissions I did for a dei project so#that's also whimsy I'm dealing with 😅#OKAY I'M DONE#anyways hope y'all are well! i'm just calling this like. a weird mini-hiatus of sorts#(<- usually lasts a few days at best lmao-)
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and ok! maybe i hate answering the sex life questions like girllll its lacking 😩😵💫 ‘nothing but your hand’ and a vibrator is not cutting it but ughhhhhh everything sucks and i’m back in my hometown like who’s even gay here. 😐🫤but lets not linger on that! ok but also i dont wanna talk about drinking or drugs either. ive been trying to work out more a little bit i took i nice long walk today and have been trying to do some richard simmons workouts its so like. ok come on movement! 😻 my body deserves to feel good… sleep is never gonna be a strong point but in my defense i’m not trying to limit the screen time that much and i love to sleep and nap during the day. cause im inexplicably exhausted all the time …. and well i don’t like to lie to the doctor like they need to know what’s going on 🙄 and yes i stopped taking that new medication cause it sucked badly
#but then it’s like just the fault of my habits that things r not great like functionally in my life right now#like well some of it is but a lot of it is just poor coping#with pre existing problems. like fr you have to believe me. and yes im 23 and feel awful pretty much all the time#like every day is a game of okay how can we get through this day like alive#some r better though it was sunny and gorgeous and warm but beautifully windy ugh just wonderful out#and i went for a walk around my old grade school and stuff. that shit is nuts they have swings now. and no little baseball field#things are the same but so different… my old music teacher is dead :( the plants are in bloom#abby talks#ughhhhhhhhhhhhg. and my parents are making me NUTS!!!! my whole family!!!!! they’re complicit!!!! i can’t do this i’m not strong enough…#but then a part of me is so like. desperate to cling to this/these moments in case they’re some of my last um. like Better ones. which#sounds horrible but if i’m going to have any hope to do the things i want to achieve with my life i have to get out no matter what. and idk.#i feel like there’s a giant hole inside me like lowkey gaping…. and i just sort of want to like be tethered to something and have something#even slightly solid and stable in life that would be so epic…#and i know i have to be brave and i have to make the changes to help me get to where i need to be but also we’re lowkey bot gonna make it#overall like as a species… you know#i feel paralyzed and just so tired and Yet we persist Kind of. 😕
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hey if i actually started developing my video game idea would you guys be interested if i posted about it on here
#personal#i'm balls deep in the early design phase i already have the gameplay figured out#working on a layout of the whole building with andy so i can get screenshots as references for what i need to draw for it#like again the programming is gonna be so hard and i will get so stuck on that WHSKGJFDGKDFK but i do really want to like#at LEAST get some sort of a demo running... blockout set up and all that. because it's just point and click and i CAN do that#i've done it in google slides before so how hard can it be to put that shit in unity instead#saving progress and whatnot with a working game manager will be a hurdle. and some of the puzzles are a bit intricate#but especially the simpler stuff like needing a key to open a door and all that. i've done that before i can just copy paste code#if i can get a demo to work i can pitch the idea to people... maybe go back to school and see if a teacher can help get me a team
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Someone just asked me how to annotate GCSE art books and I got a 9 in mine when I did it, so I thought I'd make a post about it :)
All art:
1: How does it link to your theme? Why did you choose this subject/photo/artist? This one is so important because it creates cohesion throughout the whole project. It feels so dumb to do but trust me you just have to spell it out. Be as specific as you can to each piece!
Example: I am doing the theme "Icons" so I did a study of the Mona Lisa, because she is arguably the most iconic and famous art piece in the world.
Example 2: I am doing the theme "Angles" so I chose to do a study of this picture of a statue, because the light creates dramatic shadows and highlights the angles of the face.
2: What media did you choose and why? Talk about colours (bright/dull)/texture (smooth/rough (especially for 3D art))/detail/control (or lack thereof)/etc.
Example: I used acrylic because it very bright and pigmented, and I could get more control for fine details than I could with watercolours.
3: Did you have any difficulties when making this piece? How did you overcome them? Was this piece successful? I'll admit this one isn't as important. The point of the question isn't so much about specifically problems you had, but rather to just get you talking about the process of making the piece and anything notable that happened.
Example: This piece has a lot of extremely light and dark areas, so I highlighted them with a different colour on the original picture so that I could see them better.
Example 2: I think that the highlights looked a bit cartoonish to start, so I made them more creme so that they were more subtle.
Artist studies:
Name of artist
Talk about the artist/the piece (not required but doesn't hurt grade): Era/century, style (if it has a name: hyperrealism/abstract/art nouveau/minimalist/pop art/etc), common details in each of their pieces (colours, patterns, subjects, etc), any other details you've noticed (if you have pictures of their other art you can annotate them to point out the details if you want)
In addition to 2, add what media the artist used in the original
Compare this artist/piece to your other artist study if there are any stark similarities/differences
1, 2, 3
Observational studies:
1, 2, 3
Talk about any links these studies have to your artists (if there are any), as well as the theme
Inspiration page:
Clearly state that these are your own photographs
Only 1 is needed for this page
Where were the photos taken? What are they of? (talk about the subjects of the photos)
#mostly just making this post so I can screenshot it and put it on Pinterest later lol#I tried to make this very colourful because I know that school kids are more likely to pay attention to important bits that way#Also I haven't done compositions/final piece stuff but I'll add that if this gets any sort of interest#Also also examples for the studies. I can't tell if this is helpful at all or not so I don't want to put too much time into it#art gcse#I googled some of this year's themes for the first bit btw I thought it might be helpful if I used real themes rather than just making it u#I don't think anyone who follows me will need or care about this but that's ok. This is for the pinterest girlies who are freaking out abou#their gcses right now<3
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#Feeling down for no real reason#So this is me reminding myself that God had given me a day!#He answered my prayers that some stuff would go well#And I got to hang out with people which was fun#And I have lots of energy unexpectedly so I’m going to go to my brother’s sports game#I asked for prayer about that earlier today actually#Cause it’s rough choosing whether or not to go when I really need to be working on grad school things#But hey God is good and I can both go and work a little today!#anyway the sad thing is probably mainly my hormones#But also one of my new friends asked for prayer about being really sad but she wasn’t able or willing to talk more about it?#So I’m sad for her but also worried#And obviously the solution is just to pray for her so I’m gonna do that and trust it to God#And the other thing (which feels too silly to share) is that lowkey one of my other new friends hinted that my crush might like someone?#She wasn’t hinting to me but to someone else while I was also in the room but only sort of part of the conversation#Plus she doesn’t know I like him#And like I don’t t have a serious crush on him or know him super well even#But still :(#It’s sad girl hours#Cause I do kinda like him and I have been interested for a while#How do I feel peaceful about being single?#And other questions I’m waiting for God to answer for me lol#Anyway!!!#I’m going to read a little of my book on the trinity and relax now that my real job is done#And then I’m going to do grad school stuff#And then I’m gonna go to my brother’s game#And then I’m going to go home
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feeling dire
#definitely mostly pms but also other things . SCARED!!!#lots of stuff happening to create Perfect circumstances for me to have a very bad time#and generally. i am FAR more prone to depression than anxiety but atm i am a ball of nerves#meds on back order. Scary!!! makes me feel like i need to ration my current supply (i rly don’t)#SCHOOL. RLY SCARY. didn’t go to class today. So many assignedments to work on and they just keep piling up!!#need to meet w my prof abt research. SCARY!! bc i have been slacking like crazy 🫠#and the biggest anxiety inducer. Money!!! which is DUMB!!!! bc objectively i don’t need to worry!!!!!!!#but unexpected thangs are in motion so i am having to pay > $700 more than anticipated a month#which again. this is manageable. Not ideal but given my jobs i can handle it#i just wasn’t expecting it and now feel very out of sorts#since i was a little kid ive had this weird truly unreasonable and irrational anxiety abt money#and this is unfortunately triggering a lot of that again#which is bad bc it makes everything else spiral. ex. need to save -> buying less groceries/policing what i eat -> ed relapse#just feeling very very stupid and upset 🥴#pers
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there's a certain quality the harmonies of like... early to mid 2000s alt rock has. which i am obsessed with... like i wanna do that. i NEED to figure out how to write harmonies that sound like that
#ari opinion hour#i sort of understand it but not necessarily well enough to do it on command#i think i sort of achieved the sound of it with my blaseball winter exchange song i did for snow but specifically only in the very last bit#like only with the 'im not alive anymore' part#(which sidenote i wish id had the second half faster + w more drive but its not like that was like a full recording which i could do)#i think i just need my music to have more teeth in general cause it scratches an itch that i think i must have developed due to some aspect#of music school. its probably my dissatisfaction with the attitudes in the classical world#<- which understand i say that in the same way that like my jazz prof does. the classical world doesnt have enough teeth nor enough#understanding of the way in which music is like. another art. and art needs to be able to have teeth and use elements normally regarded as#''undesirable'' on purpose because art is there to make you feel emotions and not just the positive ones and not just sadness or anger in#terms of the negative ones#art is there to make u feel ALL extant emotions and that includes boredom disgust fear jealousy pity cowardice apathy overwhelmedness etc#also the classical world i find often forgets what the word ''play'' means#i am of the opinion that perfection is a waste of time if i wanted perfect i'd ask a computer to do it for me. i want real#anyway. i forgot what this post was even about lol point is i need to figure out how to write harmonies that have that soaring quality that#like. you can hear it in like helena by mcr and wake me up by evanescence and stuff. and frankly most of the songs on three cheers for swee#revenge which i am listening to now for the first time. i need to learn more about this stuff maybe ill listen to the evanescence album tha#song is from next.#or something i should really be working on my essay but theres no way i wont have it done in time which is good i think i just mostly have#to worry about sources and stuff but even that should be relatively easy i think
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I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away
#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd#ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding.#i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way#when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee#but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo#and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards#not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony#my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like#marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there#i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my#parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL)#but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school#nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is#same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL#i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not.#i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds#but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice#i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring#that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases#and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason#you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident#im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like#i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS#i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3#i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔
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some important calvin and hobbes facts in case you haven't read the original comic strip in a long time or only absorbed stuff on it from memes and out of context bits on here:
Calvin's last name has never been given, and neither has any of his parent's names. This was actually why his uncle Max only showed up for a brief storyline; the creator of the comic, Bill Watterson, ultimately felt that while it was fine to have him as someone for his parents to talk to, it felt far too awkward to never have Max refer to them by name and he never made a return appearance.
The general tone of the comic is fairly light-hearted, with a big emphasis on goofy slapstick comedy contrasted by clever wordplay and often surprising adult-centered jokes that'll hit you like a slap. A big part of the comedy is, as Watterson put it (paraphrased) "It's really funny to me when people express deeply stupid ideas with really fancy terminology." One notable example you might have seen is that one bit where Calvin asks his mom for money to buy a Satan-worshiping rock album and his mom replies that there's nothing genuine about them and they're just putting on the attitude for shock value, and comisserates with Calvin as he deplores that mainstream nihilism can't be trusted. He concludes that childhood is disillusioning.
There is a LOT of criticism of the extreme materialism and selfish mentality of the late 80s, when the comic was initially written. This may go a long way to explain how its aged so well; much of what it criticizes resonates well with people today.
Bill Watterson views comic strips a legitimate form of artwork, and repeatedly fought to have more space to draw more beautiful and artistic backgrounds, which was a very hard fight and unpopular even with other comic strip artists. He eventually did win some compromises and a lot of Calvin And Hobbes' artwork shows it, with the use of space to indicate time as well as a sharp contrast between the often plain environments of mundane life contrasted by the wildly beautiful imagery of Calvin's imagination (which often sports realistic depictions in an art shift of sorts).
Hobbes is explicitly not an imaginary friend, by word of Watterson himself. We don't know WHAT he is exactly, and Hobbes is apparently unaware of the strange nature of his reality; people look at him and only see an ordinary stuffed tiger plushie, but he has a tangible effect on the world that would be physically impossible for Calvin to do on his own. He's apparently been around for a while, and was apparently around when Calvin was a young baby.
On that note; Hobbes has implicitly killed (notably treated as both a gag and also with the vibe of 'he's a tiger, duh') and while he doesn't do it again on-screen, he doesn't have any moral issues about it. Calvin claims that he's never had trouble bringing Hobbes to school because the last time he did, Hobbes killed and ate a bully named Tommy Chestnut and simply comments that it was gross and he needed a bath. Calvin's tried to repeat this again, but Hobbes was grossed out at the thought having to eat a kid raw and not being allowed to use an oven first, or complaining that children are too fattening.
Hobbes became gradually less human-like in body language and more like an actual cat in both body language and behavior; this was due to Watterson drawing more inspiration from his cat, who also inspired a lot of Hobbes' running gags, such as pouncing on Calvin when he got home. Several years into the syndication of the strip, Watterson's cat passed away, and he did a tribute to her with a comic strip of the two of them agreeing to try to dream together so they can keep playing when they have to sleep; Watterson's commentary (if I recall right), remarks on his cat: "We can see each other again in dreams."
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ive been feeling a constant sense of dread since last week
#some stuff irl has been making me really scared even though it’s kind of sorted out#i still do not feel safe and i don’t think i fully will until like mid june#there is nothing i can do about this and it’s like fine i just have to wait it out#final projects and everything is also not helping#i have two classes i Need to pass to graduate and both are flooding me with work currently#i know ill be able to get it done but still sooo stressed#and things have gotten better but jesus christ i have to talk about what’s been happening to a group of people on tuesday#one of my best friends will be there so that’ll help but oh my god i just want this school year to be done#being vague about this bc im kind of scared i can get help if i need it do not worry#vent
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i don't wanna lose this with you a spiderman gojo fic
pairing ⸺ spiderman!gojo x reader
summary ⸺ an amalgation of misunderstandings and stress lead to a very big fight between you and satoru, but you certainly don't expect the way he wins you back.
warnings ⸺ college au, spiderman!au, angst, hurt/comfort, i warn you reader might infurate you, but she's just a woman in stem :(, tooth rotting fluff bc he's a loser for his gf, not edited sue me
playlist ⸺ quantum rizzics
a/n you'll probably need to read the first installation (nsfw, so mdni) to understand this one :3
general masterlist | spiderman!gojo m. list
you've blocked gojo on all platforms.
you don't really remember what caused the "break up" (you didn't really break up). maybe it's the fact that you've been stressed about grad school admissions, your dorm's floor was covered in his boxers, and he's never been able to visit you pre-3am these days. somehow, the city's criminals are determined to keep your boyfriend away from you, and maybe it was your pms, or maybe it was truly just because satoru is annoying. regardless, it's when you guys have plans that's not an impromptu healing-gojo's-wounds-in-your-dorm-at-3am sesh and you're waiting at the coffee shop that you explode.
because he was supposed to arrive ten minutes ago, and when you move to go to the bathroom, you see him. through the window, his white hair is never not noticeable, and who you see next to him makes you falter.
he's standing next to a girl with blue tinted silver hair that you recognize as mei mei, and she's gripping his upper arm as she smiles while looking at his face, his lips with such fuck me eyes that you could tell they were having some sort of intimate conversation.
and if it were an ideal day, you would know that it's all a misunderstanding, you would know your boyfriend is someone you trust. but, again, the cards were stacked against you, and the only things that go through your mind all make your eyes all glossy. he's late to the one date that you planned because you and him were finally free at the same time and you've been busy because you've been desperately applying for internships because unlike your boyfriend you don't have a plethora of papers and coding experience and you've been getting four hours of sleep on average this week and ugh you've heard a rumor that satoru used to hook up with her and fuck now your tampon is poking at you in the wrong way—
great. now tears are fully streaming down your cheeks. in public.
as you rush to the table where your stuff is your vision is so blurry that you also almost fall flat on your face as you stumble over the legs of chairs and tables. blurting out a ensemble of choked up sorry's and excuse me's you hurriedly gather your laptop and notebooks in your backpack and book it for the exit.
the biting cold stings at your face, but you nevertheless determinedly move in the opposite direction of where satoru and mei mei are situated, praying your boyfriend doesn't recognize you. however, it seems that the heavens are working against you because you hear a yelled "baby?"
you don't look back because you know a new set of tears will leave your eyes, and with it being finals season, you're not very hydrated to being with. but you hear footsteps running towards you and fuck your boyfriend's long ass legs because he quickly catches up to you. then, he grabs your hands, attempting to stop you from running away and face him.
"baby," he breathes, baby blue eyes looking into yours as he moves to kiss your forehead. you stay silent, pinning your gaze to the ground while shivering. "where are you going? aren't we supposed to hang out right now?"
look, you and gojo have a good relationship. but recently, things have gotten...strenuous lately. you guys haven't been communicating, and it might not help that half of your calorie intake was from energy drinks. or perhaps what lead you to say what you said next was driven entirely by the brain eating mold on your unwashed dishes, but dumb excuses aside, you sneer. "shouldn't you be busy doing that with mei mei, instead?"
a small part of you--the part that knows you shouldn't be like this--feels relief that hurt doesn't immediately flash across his eyes, only confusion. but lack of sleep has not only stripped away at your sanity but also your people pleasing and overthinking tendencies, leaving you only as a girl frustrated, even irrationally angry, with her boyfriend. so you only avert your gaze when he dumbfoundedly asks, "what?"
"what do you mean, "what?"" you scoff, wrenching your hand from his grasp. "you were ten minutes late to our meet-up, gojo." it is at your use of his last name, instead of your sweet my love, that the hurt you've been looking for flashes across his eyes. he moves to speak but you cut him off, no longer wishing to be here with him. "if you're so busy talking to bitches you hooked up with before, why did you even bother saying yes to hanging out with me?"
he looks at you in confusion, eyes quickly flitting back and forth across you. then, slowly, as if he's still processing the weight of your accusations, he says, "i don't exactly know what you're referring to, but let's calm down---"
and you see red.
"calm down?" you snap, voice sharp and icy, just like the wind stinging your cheeks. "did you seriously just tell me to calm down? you were late again, gojo, and i find you chatting it up with her?" you practically spit the word, arms crossing as a flimsy defense against both the cold and the ache building in your chest.
satoru blinks, his confusion genuine, but you’re too far gone to care. "wait—mei mei? is this about mei mei? she's not—"
"don’t you dare finish that sentence," you cut him off, your voice rising as your blood boils hotter. "i don't want to hear how she's just a friend, or how it's not what it looks like. i’m so tired of hearing the same bullshit excuses."
"baby, you're jumping to conclusions—"
"and you’re jumping at the chance to look like an idiot in public," you snap, your hands trembling now, either from the cold or your rising fury. "god, what do you even say to her? let me guess, you go around telling girls you're spider-man to get into their pants, huh? bet that works like a charm."
the accusation hits like a slap, and for the first time, satoru looks genuinely stunned, his mouth falling open slightly. "what the hell are you even saying right now?"
"am i wrong?" you let out a bitter laugh, one that echoes in the frosty air. "you’re late to the one date i actually planned, and i see you with her, all cozy, like i’m not even waiting for you. like i don’t even matter."
his eyebrows knit together, frustration mixing with something softer. "you seriously think i’d—"
"i don’t know what to think anymore, satoru!" the words burst out of you, your voice cracking as hot tears well in your eyes. "all i know is that i can’t keep feeling like this. like i’m some afterthought while you’re out doing—whatever it is you do. swinging through the city or flirting with your exes or—" you choke on the words, wiping at your cheeks furiously as the tears spill over. "just forget it. i’m done."
"wait." his voice is quieter now, more desperate as he steps toward you, his hand reaching out. "baby, come on, we can talk about this—"
"no," you say firmly, jerking your hand away before he can grab it. "i’m blocking you. on everything." then, mockingly, "you can figure out how to save the world without me."
his eyes widen, his mouth opening like he’s about to plead or argue, but you don’t wait for him to speak. you turn on your heel and storm away, the cold wind biting at your skin as the lump in your throat grows heavier.
you don’t look back. not when he calls your name, not when you hear his footsteps falter. you just keep walking.
it’s 3 a.m., and you don’t know if you exist.
well, you do, but after how light you feel after you’ve cried a disgusting amount, you just lie down on your floor staring at the ceiling and contemplating the meaning of life. or more specifically, the meaning of your life, which right now feels like it’s revolving around nothing but stress and a breakup you don’t even fully understand.
you wouldn’t be having these problems if you were a childless cat lady.
but alas, you’re just a college student. in the few days where you haven’t seen satoru, you’ve finished all your finals—miraculously, considering the fragile state of your emotional wellbeing—and now you’re finally on break in your dorm. you’re supposed to go back home in two days, but the thought of packing feels like trying to climb a mountain barefoot. you can’t summon the energy to do anything except wallow in your self-pity and selfishness, letting it wrap around you like a weighted blanket that’s somehow comforting and suffocating all at once.
you’d like to say this is rock bottom, but truthfully, it’s worse than that. because rock bottom implies a kind of finality—a place to push off from. this? this feels more like you’re sinking in quicksand, the weight of everything dragging you further down.
in your stress and impulsiveness, you’ve managed to kill your entire grind for internships. deadlines have slipped past while you spent hours doom-scrolling job boards and second-guessing every application. the ambitious, career-focused version of yourself feels like a stranger now, buried under the weight of your own doubts and insecurities. and on top of that, you may have potentially lost the love of your life.
it’s laughable, really, how thoroughly you’ve managed to self-destruct in such a short time. the worst part? you can’t even bring yourself to check your socials. if you unblock him and see there aren’t any messages, you think your heart might shatter completely. which, if you’re being honest, isn’t exactly fair to him. you’re the one who had the meltdown. you’re the one who blocked him on everything. he probably doesn’t even know what he did wrong because you didn’t even communicate anything.
your stomach twists at the thought, guilt mingling with the ever-present ache of missing him. he was supposed to be the one person who made everything feel a little less impossible, and now you’ve pushed him away.
there has got to be a taylor swift song for this.
so you make your way to your spotify account to listen to afterglow, putting in your airpods while somberly looking at the ceiling once again as the lyrics fill your ears. tears well up as soon as the lyrics start
i blew things out of proportion, now you're blue⸻
tears well up before you can stop them, hot and heavy as they trail down your cheeks. god, you’re a mess. and yet, as much as you hate it, you can’t seem to stop the flood of thoughts that follow.
you miss him. you miss the way he made you laugh even when you were on the verge of tears, the way his ridiculous confidence somehow made you feel like everything would work out. you miss how he’d stay up late just to facetime you when you were overwhelmed with schoolwork, how he always seemed to know exactly when you needed him most.
and now? now you’ve gone and ruined it. maybe he’s angry, maybe he’s hurt, or worse—maybe he’s just done with you entirely.
the thought makes your chest ache, your breaths coming in shallow and uneven as the lyrics hit their crescendo.
i need to say, hey, it’s all me, in my head—
then, suddenly the song changes. you frown as you hear early 2010's pop blast through your ears.
i threw a wish in the well, don't ask me i'll never tell⸻
why the fuck is call me maybe playing?
annoyed and rubbing at your eyes, you move the change it back to, now, the sad girl hours playlist spotify curated for your and assume your dead fish position on the floor once again.
however, it seems as if your spotify is genuinely tweaking, like it's realized it’s gotten your attention. when call me maybe starts playing again, you groan out loud and move your phone. but before you have a chance to switch the song again, it seems to switch.
baby by justin bieber.
call me, blondie.
i love you, i'm sorry, gracie abrams.
letstalkaboutit, aminé.
i don't understand but i luv you, seventeen.
please please please, sabrina carpenter.
and then, once more, as if to really drive the point home: call me maybe, carly rae jepsen.
again, it's 3am, and you're stuck in a surreal mix of grief and confusion, staring at your phone as your spotify queue seems to have gained sentience. each song feels like a pleading nudge, an unmistakable pattern forming, and your blood runs cold when you remember one very important fact.
you share a spotify account with satoru.
"carly rae jepsen," you mutter under your breath, a mix of exasperation and fondness bubbling up despite yourself. he's hijacking your queue. right in the middle of your emo songs.
you sit up abruptly, tossing your airpods onto the bed, and hover over the call button on your phone. there’s a split second of hesitation—your pride battling with your longing—before you give in and press it.
the line rings twice before his voice comes through, breathless, like he’s been pacing. "baby?"
the sound of his voice sends a fresh wave of emotion crashing over you, sharp and raw like an open wound. the sound of his voice makes your stomach twist uncomfortably, equal parts relief and guilt. "satoru," you say, barely above a whisper. "why are you messing with our spotify?"
"why am i messing with our spotify?" he echoes, his tone incredulous. "why did you block me on literally everything? what was i supposed to do—send you a letter by carrier pigeon?"
you wince at the edge in his voice, your earlier anger wilting under the weight of his hurt. "i… i don’t know," you admit, the words tumbling out before you can catch them. "i was upset, and i wasn’t thinking straight. i shouldn’t have done that."
"yeah, you shouldn’t have," he says, still sounding a little indignant, though there’s something softer beneath it now. "do you know how many songs i had to go through to make my point? do you know how hard it was to resist the urge to rickroll you instead?" then, there’s a pause on his end, the line suddenly feeling too quiet. then he sighs, his voice softening into something that feels too much like an apology. "i didn’t know what else to do. i hate not talking to you. i hate knowing i made you upset, even if i don’t entirely understand why."
you close your eyes, the lump in your throat returning with a vengeance. the silence stretches between you, thick and unbearable, until you finally break it. "i’m sorry," you whisper, the words slipping out before you can stop them. "i shouldn’t have blown up at you like that.” and now that the dam has been broken, it all comes rushing out as you start choking up. “i’ve just been so stressed, and i’ve been missing you and then i saw you with her and then got irrationally angry when i really should’ve trusted you and oh my god i’m like a possessive tradwife husband that doesn’t let you leave the farm i’m sorry and i didn’t even communicate before i blew up at you like that—”
"hey. hey, hey, it’s okay," he says immediately, his tone filled with an earnestness that makes your chest tighten. "i know things have been hard for you. i should’ve been better, too. more present. i hate that you’ve been feeling like this while i’ve been...doing spider-man things." then, he lets out a dramatic sigh, the kind that’s equal parts exasperation and playfulness. "but wasn’t fair,” and you can hear a whine in his voice, “you blocked me and then ghosted me like i’m some kind of random tinder match. do you have any idea how insane i felt when i couldn’t even check to see if you were okay? i thought you hated me."
your breath catches at his words, guilt twisting like a knife in your chest. "i don’t hate you," you say quickly, the words spilling out in a rush. "i could never hate you. i was just… stupid, and emotional, and i didn’t know how to handle everything piling up. i’m so, so sorry, satoru."
there’s a pause, and when he speaks again, his voice is quieter, a little more vulnerable. "then why did you say those things? about mei mei, and… and me using the spider-man thing to get into girls’ pants."
you bite your lip, the memory of your harsh words making your throat tighten. "i didn’t mean any of it," you whisper. "i was just lashing out, and i know it wasn’t fair to you. i know you’d never do something like that, and i trust you, satoru. i just… i let my insecurities get the better of me."
"wait," he interrupts, his voice laced with amusement that shouldn’t make your heart ache the way it does. "you actually think i’d use the spider-man thing as a pickup line? that’s...wow. that’s genius. i should write that down."
"satoru!" you exclaim, half-laughing, half-crying, your emotions unraveling all over again. "i’m being serious!"
"i know, i know," he says, but you can hear the smile in his voice, warm and teasing. "and i’m being serious, too. i’d never do that to you. mei mei’s just...she tripped in front of me, i was just helping her up. i didn’t even realize how it must’ve looked, but i’ve never done anything with her. you’re it for me, okay? always."
you sniffle, wiping at your cheeks as your heart swells and aches all at once. "you mean that?"
"of course i do," he says, his voice soft and sincere in a way that makes your breath hitch. "i love you, even when you block me on everything and make me resort to spotify warfare." he sighs again, but this time it’s softer, the warmth in his voice breaking through his remaining irritation. "i’m not mad. i mean, i was mad, but mostly i was just upset. you really hurt my feelings, you know?"
the lump in your throat grows, your guilt threatening to choke you. "i know," you say, your voice cracking. "i’m so sorry, satoru. i’ll make it up to you, i promise."
"oh, you will make it up to me," he says, the teasing edge returning to his tone. "i want a week of boyfriend privileges—no complaining when i steal your fries, no making fun of my movie picks, and you’re buying me snacks for at least three of those days."
a small smile tugs at your lips despite the tears still clinging to your lashes. "deal," you say softly.
there’s a pause on his end, and then his voice comes through the line, quieter but no less sincere. "you really mean it? you’re not still mad at me?"
"i’m not mad," you say, your voice thick with emotion. "i was never really mad at you, satoru. i was mad at everything else, and i took it out on you. but i’m not mad anymore. i just… i miss you."
"i miss you too," he says, and the raw honesty in his voice---the subtle way it chokes up, as if he had been crying and missing you too---makes your chest ache. "so, can i come over? or are you going to make me keep hijacking your playlists to get your attention?"
you laugh softly, the sound tinged with relief. "just come over already, you dummy. and bring snacks. good ones."
"done," he says, his grin audible through the phone. "i’ll be there in twenty. and for the record, you owe me at least a whole playlist dedicated to how amazing i am and you sucking the absolute soul out of my dick---."
"don’t push your luck," you reply, but there’s no heat in your words, only warmth (and you’re absolutely going to suck his soul out of his cock). regardless, for the first time in days, the tightness in your chest starts to ease, replaced by something lighter, something whole.
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"you what?"
ᥫ᭡Theodore Nott x F!Readerᥫ᭡
summary: accidentally drinking a lust potion, you asked your best friend Theo for help.
warning: smut, cursing, unprotected sex, size kink maybe? cream pie.
word count: 2.4k
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“You what?” Theo’s eyes widened, you wanted him to do what? He wasn’t sure if this was a dream or not but if it was he didn’t want to wake up
Earlier that day , you had accidentally drank a lust potion.
How, you might ask?
Well the boys (Enzo/ Mattheo) thought it would be funny to prank Draco by giving him a lust potion as payback for pranking them earlier that week
At lunch the 2 boys were there first, taking their usual spots they slip the potion to a bottle of Draco's favorite drink and placing it on the spot were Draco usually sits
One by one the group gets to the table ,leaving you and Draco left.
Soon both of you walk in, but you seem to be in a rush
“Sorry guys I can’t stay and chat, I have to get back to studying, i’m just here to get some food to eat while studying” grabbing random things and the only drink you see left, you quickly stuff it in your purse
“Wait y/n!” Enzo saying frantically, giving Matt a worried look
You look up at Enzo as you start to zip up your bag. “Yeah?”
“We were actually saving that for Draco, um- were having practice later and that’s his favorite”
“Omg I’m so sorry! Here-“ as your opening you bag Draco comes behind you , going to sit down
“I actually got my own drink, y/n can have it” Dracos says while pulling out his drink from his bag,
Enzo’s and Mattheos’s eye widen.
“I- um, but we got it for you” Matt says with a bit of a shaky voice
“Its fine, I don’t need it” as he waves his drink showing the 2 boys
“But-“
“Omg thank you Draco, I really have to go now guys see you later” you say as you're walking away before the boys have a chance to take away the drink.
Both Enzo and Matt try to call you back but you’re already gone, both freaking out inside. praying you don't find out what they did.
While studying in your dorm you couldn’t focus for more than 10 seconds. Thinking you might just be tired from all the studying you took a break. Getting up from your desk you head towards your bed. Laying in your bed you start to space out
At first it was all innocent thoughts, school, weekend plans but then they started to shift The only thing you could think of was pleasure. Thinking of a certain boy made your cunt throb, making your body hot
Your hand slowly creeps down to your shorts. Slowly playing with yourself imagining it was Theo’s fingers rubbing circles on your clit.
“Oh god Theo” you moaned
but no matter how good it felt you couldn’t reach your climax. You were so needy and nothing was working. The rising heat from your body only made things more uncomfortable.
“God what is wrong with me, and why is it so hot” getting up from your bed you walk towards your desk, trying to find your drink, in hopes of it cooling you down . You picked up the bottle and before you can finish the drink you saw something written on the bottom of the bottle
“Payback- Enzo and Mattheo”
Your eyes widened with confusion.
What?
Then you remembered how the drink was meant for Draco.
everything started to make sense
This is why you were like this
You couldn’t even be mad at them, Your mind was clouded with the urge to get any satisfaction you could. all you wanted was any sort of pleasure but nothing was good enough. it started to get painful and a sudden thought popped in your head. Theo
he’d help right? He was really the only one you can go to.
Your heart was racing at just the thought of Theo agreeing to help you out, being best friends all these years you had developed a crush on him, of course you never acted on it because you didn’t want to ruin your friendship
Pacing back and forth your room, you finally decide to ask him for help. Nervously picking up your phone, you open Theo’s contact.
“Theo?”
“Hey Bella, what’s up?”
The nickname itself making you get butterflies.
“Um- I need a favor, can you come over?”
“Of course, i'll be over in a few”
“Okay see you” hanging up the phone, your thoughts begin to consume you
What if he says no?
What if he laughs at your face and runs off
What if…
What if he says yes…
Before you can continue, there was a knock on your door. That must be him. Slowly walking to your door, palms sweaty, you turn your door knob
“Hey, what did you need help with?” Theo goes in to give you a hug
Hugging him back, your nose is infused with his cologne
God why does he always smell so good
He lets go and looks at you closely, he moves a strain of hair behind your ear to have a better look at you. His eyebrows frown, noticing your face is flustered and incredibly warm.
“Are you okay? Your face is warm” resting his hand on your cheek
“Yeah, um actually funny story-“ Quickly leading him to sit on the edge of your bed, holding his hands as you begin to explain
“Please just hear me out. I know it's odd ,but I have no one to go to,- just please-“ falling to your knees, begging.
“Hey hey, breathe. You know I'm here if you need anything. Now tell me, what’s up?” Theo's eyes looking at you with worry.
“Please I- I need you to fuck me” you blur out
That was the last thing Theo thought would come out of your mouth.
You wanted him to what???
He was speechless, absolutely at a loss of words. jaw wide open
“Please, I'm sorry for asking you for this, I know it’s a lot and we’re best friends. But please I can’t take it anymore. I accidentally drank something that wasn’t meant to me and it had this effect on me. I’ve tried everything but nothing is working. I need your help please” your face heating up from embarrassment . I mean you only ever had the biggest crush on your best friend for years, but what you didn’t know was that so did Theo.
Theo had dreamt of the day he got to be with you.
How’d he spend hours pleasuring himself of the thought of you under him, on top of him and how good you’d take him in your mouth. God, was he hard the second you asked him to help you out.
How could he say no?
Without another thought he picked you up from the floor. Sitting down back on your bed while you straddled his lap.
Looking into your eyes, moving a piece of your hair behind your ear, resting his hand on your cheek, he leaded in.
Your soft lips on his, both whimpering into the intense kiss. Licking your bottom lip asking for access. You gladly gave it to him.
Slowly rocking your hips on his clothed boner, trying to find any friction to satisfy you.
Slowly laying you down your bed, taking off your clothes until you were left in nothing but your matching black lace set.
“Don’t worry Bella, i’ll take good care of you” Theo whispers as he starts to leave a trail of kisses down your body
“Theo please~” you pleaded, needing to feel something, anything.
“poor thing, you’ve must of been so uncomfortable for such a long time, don’t worry i’m here now”
He stopped to look at your lying body, face all flustered, messy hair.
“God you’re so beautiful” he wasn’t lying, he’d always thought you were the most beautiful person he’d ever seen. Always jealous of your ex boyfriends because they got to be with you. But now it was his turn and he was going to give you the best you’d ever gotten, he was going to ruin every other guy you’ve been with.
Slowly pulling your panties off, dick throbbing at the sight of your wet glistening pussy. Trying to ignore his throbbing cock and focus on you, he gives you a sweet smile.
“You're soaking wet, so ready for me” leaving little kisses around your pussy, teasing. finally burying his face between your legs, painfully slow licks as he takes it in, savoring every moment.
As soon as you felt his tongue, you became a whimpering mess.
“Theo~ oh my god yes” moving your hand to his hair, giving it a little tug.
Theo couldn’t hold it in anymore, he started to devour you. eating you out as if he’d never get this opportunity ever again
“You taste so fucken good” he groaned against your dripping core. The vibrations sending you waves of pleasure
“More please, Theo! oh my god~” it felt so good, his tongue making you feel things you’ve never felt before with anyone else
“So polite, even when your so needy” Theo smirked as he sees how much of a mess you were for him
He starts so pump one of his fingering into you while eating you out. Soon enough you felt the feeling you were craving for
“M-so close, fuck Theo i’m so close”
He stops what he’s doing, getting up grasping on his zipper and undoing the button. Tugging his jeans and boxers off.
“Theo? Why’d you stop? I was so close” you looked at him with teary eyes. you were so close, god why did he stop
“Sorry princess, I wanna be in you, want you cum on my cock” godddd was he hot
His cock strung out his pants hitting his stomach , you were lost for words. In no world was Theodore Nott small, he was big- huge even. you’ve never taken anything close to his size.
Theo noticed your starring
“Like what you see?” A smile tugged the corner of his lips
“Don’t worry you can take it, I know you can”
You nodded at his works
He lined himself up to your pussy, tracing himself up and down, teasing you.
“You have no idea how long i've been wanting to do this for”
“Fuck ,Theo please, please fuck me” you whined
“Anything for you, love”
he slowly pushed himself into you. You both let out a loud moan.
“fuck, your so tight” Theo was out of breath.
You felt so good around him that he never wanted this moment to end.
“fuck Theo your big” you said panting
“You think you can take more?”
More???
“There’s more??” Looking at Theo with a disbelief face
He chuckled “i’m only have way”
“Don’t worry you can handle it, can’t you baby?”
“Mhm- yes yes, I can take it”
Pushing the reset of himself into you. bottoming you out. heavily breathing, getting comfortable with the feeling of him stretching you out.
“good girl ,You’re doing so well for me, are you ready?”
“Yes! fuck-please move, please” you begged
Brining your legs above his shoulders and laying them there. Gripping your ankles to keep you steady as he started to thrust into you. Both a moaning mess
“Fuck fuck fuckkk, Theo-” your eyes roll back, arching your back.
“You feel so good Bella, oh god-“ panting
“Your squeezing me tight- fuck”
One of his hands moving to your waist. fucking you harder now, unable to stop. His cock was so fucking good, hitting your g-spot every time.
“Fuck Theo just like that, don’t stop, don’t stop please!” Your hands holding onto your bed sheets as he rocks his hips.
“You like that huh? You like it when your best friend is pounding into you, god you look so beautiful, taking all of me like a good girl” he groans while leaving kisses on your ankle.
Your walls clenching at his words
He groaned again as he felt your cunt throb at his praise.
“Oh you like being called a good girl don’t you?” letting go of your ankle to grip your jaw to make you look at him.
“Who's a good girl are you?” Theo says as he speeds up his thrusts
Looking at him with half lidded eyes “Yours, all yours!!~“ you moan
“That’s right all mine, no one can ever make you feel this good, isn’t that right love?”
“Mhm only you, ah~ i'm so close”
“Cum for me baby, come all over my cock”
You were absolute bliss, god you’ve never seen fucked this good, yeah you’ve had other hookups but nothing can compared to this, to Theo
You moaned loudly, shutting your eyes as you reached your orgasm “im- im cumming!!” Your body shaking from the overwhelming feeling
The way your walls clenched from cumming made Theo on the verge of spilling. He continues to thrust into you through your first orgasm. He didn’t expect you make such a mess all over his dick, your cum spilling out of you as he thrusts into you
You felt Theo twitch inside of you, knowing he’s close you moved his hand from your waist to your breasts.
“Mmm so soft…” Theo whispered. leaning down, putting his tongue on your nipple, swirling it around. “Mmm Theo that feels good” throwing your head back from a little act. Theo was soon approaching his climax.
“Fuckk- can I cum inside of you? please oh god I can’t hold it anymore, please? Fuck-” Theo begged as he tried to hold it in, waiting for you response
“Yes!! fuck Theo cum inside me” you practically screamed as you felt you stomach tighten.
He let out a loud moan as he spilled his cum inside of you. You screamed as you felt his warm cum spilling in you, triggering your second orgasm.
Theo’s thrusts became sloppy, riding out both your highs. He pulled out and laid beside you. Dizzy and breathless, taking a moment to catch your breath. Finally when you both got steady, you look up at Theo
“Thank you Theo, really”
“No need to thank me Bella, you can come to me for anything anytime” smiling at you.
crawling onto his lap you whispered into his ear “stay the night? I don’t think the drink has worn off just yet~”
This was going to be a long night for Theo.
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i love finding out how big this world is. my girlfriend has only visited boston a handful of times, but i grew up here. i told her we'd be going to do the tourist traps in salem, and she said - which salem?
to be fair to her, there are a lot of other states that have a town named "salem." and i think there's some evidence that the witch trials actually happened in what is now called Danvers. but the thing is - she thought "salem" was like, a made-up thing. there wasn't actually a salem, massachusetts - like there isn't a gotham city.
they don't talk about it that much where she grew up, is the thing! and this made me laugh. a week ago she was talking about her hometown and said something akin to "well the museum's kinda like the one in richmond," and i had to explain i still had no frame of reference for what the hell this museum was like.
i love finding out what knowledge i take for granted. i used to live with 5 other women. 3 of them were from south korea. they had to take, like, a solid fifteen minutes to explain their birthday system to my gay math-blind ass, laughing as they did.
that same month, our roommate from denmark taught me the danish word for wreath by accident - she'd been talking about decorations, used krans, and i'd been able to figure it out through context. i just picked it up and kept talking. our entire house used krans as the word. she came home and slammed the door one evening, mock-angry, shouting: you motherfuckers! it's a - a wreath!
and how often do you use certain words, anyway! i am cuban, so i was raised with certain spanish words sort of sprinkled in there; but never how you'd think. in middle school i asked someone to pass me the recogedor - in a completely american accent, like i was speaking english. i hadn't registered it as a spanish word. i mean, how often in school do you actually use the word "dustpan" - i'd only ever heard it in the context of cleaning my house.
there are places that you grew up that you, just, like, know. that you assume everyone knows. there are things and people and "common knowledge" that you have that, just, like. doesn't exist for me. i don't know what you call your public transportation system, but in boston we call it "the T". our train cards are called charlie cards because of a song where a father accidentally abandons his family, which was written because our system of transportation. in boston, most people would snort and say everyone knows that, kid.
i think you and i should go on a long walk - it's getting dark early these days and we need any sun we can manage. tell me about the first time you saw snow. tell me about the stuff everyone knows about your home. tell me about the cities "everyone's been to," about the food "everyone's already tried." who knows. maybe it will feel nice to you - watching someone learn about it for the very first time.
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Mark was pissed when you got a date for the first time. MDNI. mark grayson & f! reader
Being friends since childhood, he grew up as your gatekeeper—no one could play with you on the playground turned into no one could ask you out to the school dance turned into no one could date you, period. His excuse? No one was good enough for you. He was your best friend, after all.
Mark already buys you stuff (as friends), takes you out to eat (cuz he was a good friend), and listens whenever you want to yap (he was just a nice guy!). And in his humble opinion, he was tall. His mom always says he's handsome. And he was ripped! Why would you need anyone else if he hit all the boxes?
That was all a cover up for the fact that he wanted you. He's loved you since he can remember, of course he envisions the rest of his life by your side. This was his way of keeping you to himself until he had the balls to jeopardize your friendship for the chance at something more. But, of course…
"The one time I'm not around and everyone shoots their shot with you?" Mark groaned into your pillow.
"Put some clothes on." You threw a shirt his way, feeling uneasy that he was just laying there in his hero suit. "Anyone can walk in here."
He rolled his eyes, snatching the shirt from the air as you tossed it. He slipped it over his suit while getting off the bed. He walked closer, stubbornly hovering behind you as you flitted around the room getting ready for your big date.
"Mark!" you laughed, pushing him away with your arm. "Can you back up?"
He ignored you, playfully dropping his weight onto you despite his ominous tone. "I'm serious, Y/n. Are you seriously going out alone with him? At night? In his car? Alone?"
"The whole point of a date is that I'm not alone." You rolled your eyes, grabbing your chosen dress for the night and heading into the bathroom. Mark stood in the doorway, a retort on his tongue. You cut him off, looking at him with exasperation. "What, are you gonna follow me into the bathroom, too?"
He scowled, grabbing the door and slamming it shut himself. His annoyance only grew when he heard your amused giggle on the other side.
He knew he had responsibilities as Invincible. He loves everything about being a hero.... except the fact that he's spending so much time away from his loved ones. It was worse that you were a pretty girl in university—there were all sorts of bad characters that would try their luck with you. He wouldn't even be there to protect you.
He clasped his hands behind his neck, pacing in circles as if this was a life or death matter (he's dramatic).
He peeked over his elbow when he heard the bathroom door crack open.
"Okay, option one." You stepped out in a cute little black dress. Too little for his liking, but whatever. "What d'you think?"
"It's alright." He wanted to fall to his knees in front of you and worship you, peel that stupid dress off slow enough to get at you for putting it on in the first place for someone that wasn't him.
You frowned. "Alright? I need gorgeous."
You had that down, he wanted to say, even without the dumb dress.
You retreated to the bathroom, slipping into your second option and revealing it. Mark wished he'd gone with the first one because this one was worse because it was so much better. Where the fuck were you getting these dresses?
He twisted his face in disgust as you gave a little spin. "No."
You faced him, brows creasing and lips in a pout. His heart squeezed at the sight. He didn't want to be so mean. You were so pretty; he could stare at you all day regardless of what you had on, but in this moment he couldn't help it.
"No?" You sighed, sneaking glances at yourself in the mirror.
Go back to the first one go back to the first one—
"Well, it'll have to do."
Fuck.
You had the audacity to stand in front of him with your back turned. "Zip me up?"
He inhaled, muttering under his breath as he grabbed the zipper from where it sat half-way and tugged it up... maybe rougher than warranted.
"Mark—!" you squeaked as you stumbled forward under his forceful hands.
"I'm telling you, this isn't a good idea." Mark grumbled, purposely taking a while to drag the zipper on its track just to feel your skin, dragging his fingers up the expanse of your back.
"Be gentle—"
"All guys want the same thing." He snapped, sharply zipping it the full way and immediately walking away.
"Why'd you even come over if you're just gonna bitch?" You adjusted the hem of your dress, glaring at him over your shoulder. "You're so angry for no reason."
"There is a reason!" He exclaimed, a hand on his hip as if prepping to lecture you. "You're going out with someone you met on a dating app at fuckin' 9 in the night looking really good. What if you get kidnapped? Or if he has bad intentions? What if he's driving you somewhere you don't wanna go?"
With each concern your frown deepened. He had to steel himself against your adorable sulking, turning away as he continued.
"What if he wants to kiss you, or touch you, or—or sleep with you?!" Mark's voice lowered as if the notion of anyone fucking you was unimaginable. "Have you even had sex yet?"
You looked at him weirdly and he thought he fucked up when you turned from him.
"No. But that's kind of the point for this date." You shot back, touching up your makeup in the mirror.
His jaw dropped, gaping at you. "No." The thought alone made his skin crawl.
You laughed. "You're so funny! When did you become so responsible? We always talked about having fun in university."
"Not that kind of fun."
You shrugged. "Whatever. And don't think I missed that 'I look good.'" You smiled smugly, poking his chest triumphantly and his face flushed, his train of thought stuttering.
"As far as I'm concerned, we're both trying to get some and you're upset I beat you to it." You giggled and he wanted to wipe that patronizing smile off your face.
"...You wouldn't know what to do." He muttered, going for a low blow. He was feeling petty. Nothing he said or did was discouraging you, but he knew you better than you knew yourself. A little provocation was all he needed.
You narrowed your eyes, crossing your arms over your chest. "Yes, I would."
He grinned slowly. He knew you like the back of his hand. "No, you wouldn't."
"Yes, I would."
"Mmm. Don't think so." He mirrored your stance, stepping closer and looking down at you from the slope his nose.
"Cuz you're so experienced?"
"Right."
"Experienced with who, exactly?"
His smirk faltered for a split second, covering it up by running his hand over his face and turning it back on you. “Jealous?"
"You’re the one acting jealous." You rolled your eyes. "Why don't you tell me all your secrets? Since you know so much. I'll use them with my date."
Mark's smile was devoid of emotion. He just stared. He stared for a long, long time. He squinted at you like you just said something unthinkable—in a way, you did.
If he wasn't pissed before, he was now.
"How about I show you?"
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Mark was a nice guy. Nice enough to remember that you were a hands-on learner. That's why he had your legs spread, dress bunched up at your hips, taking his sweet sweet time pumping his fingers in and out of you. His eyes flickered to your face when he intentionally curled them.
His pupils blew wide when he watched your head drop back against the bed, his breath hitching when a feathery whine joining the soft squelch of his fingers buried in your soaked heat.
"Yeah," he laughed lowly, his face hot. "who's bitching now?"
"Shut up," you hissed from beneath him, but it was hard to take anything serious when you were putty in his hands.
"I'm never shutting up about this." He promised, all else fading into the background when he glanced down and saw your slick coating his hand, staining the sleeves of his suit. "Wow."
"Shut up." you gasped, heat snaking up you neck. Wow?
"Fine." Mark mumbled, blush burning at his cheeks. He pulled his fingers from you, pushing your knees apart when you tried to close them. He was impatient, but his chest shook with each heartbeat; his nervous energy was overwhelming his senses, second only to the primal desire to please you.
You squeaked when he yanked you higher up the bed, propping you up against the pillows before lying on his stomach. You snapped your legs shut, much to Mark's disappointment.
"What?" he breathed, eyebrows furrowed. "Did I—"
"No, it's just... this is so embarrassing." You mumbled, curling into yourself. Mark ran his calloused hands up and down your skin.
"What is?" Mark used his strength to pry your legs open again, giving you puppy eyes from his spot between your thighs. "You're so beautiful."
"Mark..." Where was this coming from? You had so many questions, but your mushy brain translated them to, "...we're friends."
"Not anymore," He pouted, ducking to nuzzle into the fat of your inner thigh. "I don't want to be friends anymore."
You blinked down at him, chest rising and falling with each breath as your brain tried to catch up with your body. The Mark you’d known was long gone. In his place was someone who looked at you like you hung the stars, and suddenly everything between you felt terrifyingly real.
"I wanna be the one to take you out instead," he continued, rubbing slow circles into your thighs. "I want to be the one to pick you up from class and walk you to lectures. Go on dates, sleep over, you know. Everything. I want all of it."
You stared, wide-eyed. He smiled, but it was lopsided and vulnerable.
"I’ve loved you forever," he admitted, brushing his nose against your leg. "I didn’t know how to say it without ruining what we had. I wasn't bitching for no reason."
"I know that now." You smiled.
"Ditch your date."
"Oh, I already planned on it."
Mark didn't want to be friends anymore. You didn't either. The rest of the night was spent making up for lost time.
something lazy. sorry for my absence guys :)
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my live reaction to me slowly losing the energy to be online because Hah. undiagnosed depression 👍
#like i just dont have the energy to start conversations man idk what to tell you#if you need me ill be starting hopelessly at my tmnt google doc and my school homework and the DARE stuff i need to sort out for college#im so tired man#might just kms lol <- im part joking#ill be able to talk with my therapist again in january + i (hopefully) have a thing organised with my irl buddies so. yeah
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