#just ranting ignore me

[cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga]

Volatile opinion time!!!!

I find it quite disturbing and a bit infuriating that each time Ive began posting Manga caps that depicts a healthy and cute het relationship, no fighting or lying, a story that actually puts in the effort to show how much these two people truly just adore each other I end up getting a stream of people screaming "why isn't this yuri" or "one of them should be trans that would make this good".

I get wanting more stories that focus on people you can relate to, it's why I love these stories that show a healthy het relationship. Since the standard for het relationships across almost ALL media not just anime and manga are usually glorifying the worst and most toxic relationships you've ever seen as something to aspire to.

Y'all realize how disgusting and insane it would look to see a comment on a Yuri manga cap saying, "why isn't this straight?"

[ravel-ing]

why am i so bad at picking names

I usually get rid of picking a name at the very beginning of character creation, because that way I have the entire writing process to decide if it works or not, and having to pick a different one at the end, for x reasons, is TORTURE! I hate it here, save me

[goddessofuckyou]

The fact that my family and friends are homophobic/transphobic bothers me a lot.

I have to remind my husband quite a bit that I'm kinda gay, and though I'm not a man hearing him diss the lgbtq community is an insult to me as well.

Then to top it all off there are times where I feel like man and would like to present as such but am unable to because I don't want to lose the support of my husband and Mother (my biggest support team).

I'm lucky to have married a man as a pansexual for the simple fact that I've been told I wouldn't be as supported if it were a female as my spouse.

[mintsh33p]

today is such a weird day, work crush friend said he'd much rather blow me while making eye contact, in response to one of our other friends saying someone was flirting at him a lot more than usual recently and it literally melted my brain and my stutter is acting up and I am a lil dizzy from how bright red I turned and I just, I do not know what to say, because it could have been a hehe haha for the bit kind of sentence but it felt like a serious one and I just does that mean my friends have been right and he has been flirting with me for a while now or am I just being optimistic again ugh why must feelings be cloudy and complicated

[mikelogan]

idk if this is an unpopular opinion but as someone who tracks a lot of #_____edit tags rather than the regular fandom tag(s), i get SO irritated when people use the edit tags for things that are not edits. when i go through those tags, i should be seeing gifsets, graphics, and other similar types of posts. not memes and links and shit. idk if i'm the only person who gets annoyed by this lmao but luckily i'm best friends with the block button so 🤷‍♀️

[that-ineffable-devil]

In the past week, I've put in 13 job applications to state jobs in a northern state.

In every single one, when asked why I'm leaving my current job, my answer has been brutally honest: I need to leave Texas.

Do I have other reasons to want to leave my job? Of course! But if the country weren't going through what it is right now, I could stay and put up with that nonsense until I found the perfect new job.

But that's not where we are now. Everything is urgent now. Leaving isn't a desire, it's a necessity for survival.

[okaioh]

When you go to the function and have a shit time but it's okay because home has ice cream ♥️ yay♥️

[zorangezest]

thanks for listening

[crocmoss]

wish asgore (specifically deltarune asgore) fans were more willing to accept the fact that hes a creep. and its ok to like him while still acknowledging that hes a creep. i know it gets played off for comedy a lot but his behavior towards toriel isnt even borderline stalking and harassment, it just Is that. in ch2 he had some plausible deniability but in ch4 he literally waits behind a bush to fucking jumpscare her after church bc he knew he wouldnt get a conversation with her any other way. meaning hes fully aware she wants nothing to do with him anymore.

regardless of if their separation was based on a misunderstanding he still needs to respect her boundaries. theres No reason he couldnt just do his investigating privately and only approach toriel once he gathered sufficient proof--and even then she wouldnt owe him a relationship. URGHH the way people talk about them so differently just makes me mad. asgore is not an innocent family man who only wants what's best for everyone. he cares deeply about his family of course but his actions are invasive and selfish

[stiffyck]

I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

[stealingyourbones]

Never will I stop with the steadfast notion that folks in the DPXDC fandom should interact with at least some form of canon DC media.

There are comics, tv shows, radio dramas both old and new, podcasts, movies, magazines, so much shit that intentionally avoiding the media is simply preventing yourself from spawning new ideas and gaining a new appreciation for a fandom that you’re already in.

The Superman Radio Show has episodes 11 minutes long. A lot of the TV shows don’t have episodes that surpass 30 minutes and most are nearly fully clipped on the official DC YouTube channel. The amount of fan made motion comics is astounding. The amount of fanmade animations is equally as incredible.

[beargregor]

wait i'm curious, what makes you say that gregor doesn't like everyone else (if i read that post right)? just curious since i've never seen anyone else say that

i don't necessarily think gregor dislikes everyone else at lcb but i do think that gregor is an incredibly petty person that isn't nearly as close to the rest of the sinners and even outright dislikes some of them cough cough rodya cough cough which a lot of people just Refuse to see because he's as much of a doormat as he is. there's several examples i could get into to try and prove my point however i'll just focus on what i personally think to be the biggest ones.

additionally, this is going to be kind of long, so i'm adding a read more. read more! read it. sorry for being so wordy. i have several diseases.

Pt1. gregor is the type to try and get along at least decently with everyone, especially if he gets a good first impression from them.

this is less a point in favor of gregor's distance w/ the rest of the sinners and more just a contributing factor to it. once again there's several examples i could point to here but i think the most in your face one happened in canto I with yuri, as several people have pointed out. even before gregor comes clean about growing attached to her as quickly as he did because she reminds him of his sister, we get this interaction.

i'll go ahead and make the disclaimer now that i don't necessarily think gregor is the most reliable of narrators, especially when it comes to his feelings and interactions with most people, but from the way he acts when the topic of yuri comes up (and the way we still see him act even all the way up to c7, nearly a whole year after yuri's death) i don't see reason to question his sentiment here. gregor immediately got that aya and yuri were close, potentially even taking note of their traded belts, and went out of his way to get something nice for yuri despite hardly knowing her.

i feel like a lot of people have forgotten as much, especially since it's been so long since c1, but gregor actually spent a good bit of season 1 doing the exact same thing with the other sinners! gregor reads a connection between him and ishmael pretty quickly despite getting off to a rocky start

mostly because gregor can tell that ishmael is pretty sardonic in a very similar way to him. there's been multiple instances where ishmael and gregor have essentially expressed the same sentiment at different moments, most notably gregor's little argument after ishmael got shot with a decay ampule in c4

and ishmael's response to pilot talking about self-sacrifice in c5

i could go ahead and pull up more examples, but in general pm has gone out of their way to show us that gregor and ishmael are pretty similar, so it makes sense for gregor to assume that they're friends, right?

this will be pushpin 1. keep note of this for Later.

ishmael's only the first sinner we see gregor trying to do this with in s1, we also see him try it out with heathcliff, sinclair, and ryoushuu

he's tried to get along with charon, being one of very few sinners that we've seen actually try to establish a connection with her at all

even rodya, despite my insistence that gregor doesn't like her nearly as much as the fandom thinks he does

all of these seem pretty fine and dandy, right? sure it frequently leans towards self-degradation, micromanaging, and commiseration, but gregor can at least be pretty chummy with most of the sinners, can't he?

Pt2. hell's chicken was more than just comic relief guys please

i'm fully aware that this is quite the hot take, but i think hell's chicken deserves a lot more credit for character writing than the fandom gives it. hell's chicken gave us foreshadowing for several events, such as the donqui bloodfiend reveal

heathcliff's distortion in c6 (as well as hong lu's highly speculated distortion at some point in the future)

and ryoushuu and sinclair's continued connection by making him the odd one out on her team

which, hey! that implies something about gregor's odd one out, don quixote, too, doesn't it? yes. yes it does. that's pushpin 2. keep note of that for later.

speaking of pushpins, hey! that's pushpin 1!

splitting into teams is one of the major events in hell's chicken, and most of the sinner's choices are either motivated by very little, backhanded, or motivated primarily by not wanting to be on the opposite leader's side. i didn't include all of the picks, just because i feel like including most of them already gets this across, but i think gregor took one major thing from this: most of the sinners, when push comes to shove, will only side with gregor when they refuse to or can't take his opponent's side.

now, don't get me wrong, i'm fully aware that this is primarily intended to be comedic relief, but when gregor is being described as having his trust broken by ishmael or nearly crying because no one on his team properly sided with him for him, i feel like it's pretty fair to read into this.

something that i think is pretty important to remember in conjunction with this is that we know that gregor is the type to hold a grudge, both from his general attitude towards the G corp soldiers in c1 as well as his continued distaste for vergilius

even beyond the splitting into teams of hell's chicken, the sinners have given gregor plenty of reasons to feel bitter. i feel like this is something people have noticed but haven't really put a finger on, but it's kind of wild just how often the rest of the sinners make gregor the butt of the joke

and sure, we could argue that a fair few of these aren't really made with any ill intent. quite a bit of it could have been meant as harmless teasing, but with gregor being more sensitive than most, it coming from nearly all sides, and as often as it does? yeah, i think he's prone to taking it a bit personally.

Pt3. yes i do still think gregor was the third most important character in canto VII you guys gotta hear me out okay

of course, all of this leads up to the bit of the story i highlighted, doesn't it? c7? i totally get why people haven't really picked up on all the gregor things i did in it, seeing as they were mostly not *directly* said about him or by him.

personally, i think that gregor's distaste for talking about himself on any serious level and thus leading to him getting sort of "sidelined" narratively (which i take issue with that claim, but still. it's effective for getting what i mean across atm) is supposed to lead players to take a deeper look at the times gregor gets held up to other characters and compare and contrast what's being said about them by the matchup. as i showed earlier with his immediate latching onto ishmael, i think this is something gregor himself is at least partially aware of too.

so, that begs the question, who was gregor compared to in canto VII that makes me think it's one of the most critical pieces in understanding his character?

really, i'd like to avoid getting too lost in the analysis of this canto specifically, since i'd like to do a proper post about this later, but i figure i can bury the lede a little before doing it properly.

c7 features several characters being made to perform in sansón's play, acting out the relevant backstory for this segment of the plot. a lot of these characters have rather direct, degrading reasons for playing the roles they do.

outis, a character with an inflated ego who wants her journey to have a purpose, is made to play an aimlessly wandering villager with a single line.

hong lu and ryoushuu, two characters for whom families and the expectations placed upon them are likely going to play a major role, are made to play bloodfiends.

rodya, a character who resents her lot in life and is constantly shown to be eager to leave her destitution behind her and become someone special, is made to play a helpless villager that's too poor to even offer any money to the hero that saves her.

heathcliff, a character that has spent most of his life getting dehumanized by comparing him to beastly animals, is made to play a literal bear whose sole purpose in the plot is to get beat up and then quickly left by the wayside.

sinclair, a character that has two opposed parties essentially treating him as a macguffin to procure for their side, is made to play the character who was arguably the catalyst for this entire canto, not to mention playing a decently major role in ruina.

our star don quixote is made to play her father, the first kindred, but there's someone by their side the entire time, isn't there? don quixote's dear, steadfastly loyal companion. a character which don quixote has tasked themself with getting to come out of their shell?

hello again, pushpin 2.

gregor has been made to play our unreachable star, sancho. someone had to, of course. you can't really tell a story without it's main character, now can you?

now, i should once again give a disclaimer. i am not trying to say that i think adapting what happens to donqui/sancho in c7 to gregor is the road pm is going to take here, not only would that toe a bit past the line of foreshadowing, but it'd also just amount to rehashing that plotline again, which i don't think would make for a particularly exciting story.

what i DO think is that we can take a lot of the things that are said to either directly be the case for sancho and use them to inform how we see gregor.

and god, does playing sancho have some fucking implications for our favorite ossan archetype.

starting off, the earliest moment we get to see of sancho is quite literally her just waiting for death to take her in a pile of ashes.

which, i should remind everyone, is actually pretty damn close to what happens to gregor's literary counterpart at the end of the metamorphosis. gregor samsa experiences one final breaking point that pushes him over the edge and makes him decide to just wait for starvation to take him.

gregor and sancho both consider themselves to no longer be human, something which sancho goes out of her way to highlight repeatedly throughout the canto and gregor is quick to get defensive on her behalf for when outis starts really tearing into her

sancho spends quite a lot of this story denying herself the joys of community and friendship, despite knowing that, even with the rest of the sinners frequently making jokes at her expense and outright insulting her, they were things that she desperately craved.

and, while this is getting into my "outis is a red herring meant to distract us from gregor's eventual betrayal" theorizing, i also think it's worth noting for this discussion that sancho's fellow kindreds, her family, all seem to be under the impression that she dislikes them and ultimately her departure was an act of betrayal

and that, despite gregor being one of LCB's resident mood makers and attempted conflict de-escalators, one of the sinners that's most prone to making appeals to the bonds they've all forged together, only him and faust remained silent during everyone's speech

so yeah, i think there's quite a lot of little details and hints building up to the reveal that gregor's not quite as fond of everyone as he presents himself to be. i do think a lot of this ultimately comes down to gregor getting in the way of his own happiness, similarly to donqui, particularly because he's been frequently portrayed as something of a self fulfilling prophecy, especially by giving him as many christ allegories as they have by way of priest and garden of thorns. gregor is convinced that the rest of the sinners don't like him because he's not convinced anyone could like him, so he convinces himself that he hates them because why should he care if someone that he hates hates him too?

a lot of this ultimately ties back to my personal interpretation of what happens in the metamorphosis as well as my own theories regarding all the times gregor has made weird callbacks and references to lobcorp and ruina, but yeah. i think about this guy and his deeper characterization a fairly normal amount, i think.

to end this off i'll highlight one of my favorite little "gregor is fucking seething and trying so hard to keep it cool" moments, in the credits CG for c7 we see rodya teasing him by drawing a little horse on his window and actively pointing and laughing at it, which gregor really doesn't seem all too pleased about.

i personally think this ties into the other cruel part of sansón forcing gregor to play rocinante, which is the more literal "he's actually just straight up playing rocinante" side of things. gregor was quite literally made to play something less than human, less than even animal really, as he was reduced to nothing more than the shoes don quixote wore as she got to play the leading role. sansón directly makes jokes about gregor being nothing more than shoes in the play twice, which adds to this reading, i think.

this, imo, really plays into the adaptation of the metamorphosis! i've seen a lot of readings for the book that posit that, despite being the protagonist, gregor samsa can't really be considered the main character due to nearly everything he experiences in it being used to further his family's character development at his expense, which i think fits nicely with limbus gregor seemingly having the most said about him through indirect means by holding him up to other characters. also it's rodya carelessly making fun of His Big Major Insecurities™ again like she did in c1 which i always find fun. rodya i love you but god you're the worst.

[princey-poetry]

The psychology of snape lovers needs to be studied i fear

I don't like snape but you can if you want (none of this is that big of a deal) but the people who act like snape was perfect and all his problems were caused by James just baffle me. Yes the Marauders were bad to Snape, but Snape was not an innocent lil boy who happened to get picked on. He was just as responsible for his actions at that age as they were, if your going to hate James for bullying you have to remember Snape was doing the same thing! It was mutual hatred. Snape was not a helpless baby he was a wizard racist! He continued to be a selfish racist person his whole life and hated on children for no reason. He held grudges about things that happened at 15 till he was almost 40. He only left the deatheaters because they were going to kill lily, he didn't care if they killed James and Harry. He was selfish till he died, his friendship with lily was ruined by him and him alone. James was a rude 15 years old, but he grew as a person. Snape didn't.

[otrtbs]

oh there’s no way in hell i just saw a tiktoker make a .3 second video w the troppiest trope of all time saying “and no u can’t write this” some of yall are insecure AND insane and so so so out of touch

[mintsh33p]

have to vent again it seems it's a lot under the read more so feel free to disregard this post

I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore, I've been homeless for a while year now, government housing assistance has had me in wait-list limbo the entire time, nothing is improving, I've been able to stay with my fiance and his parents on occasion but I'm not entirely welcome there, hell my partner doesn't even love me anymore I'm simply a way for him to get rides wherever he wants to go and a wallet because he knows I'll skip eating or doing things I enjoy to help him get stuff he "needs" and I just what's the point? he doesn't respect me, anytime I mention I feel used and unimportant he says it's not true and he'll fix things but instead just pushes me further away emotionally, I have no where else to go and he knows this so he just doesn't care, so many times I give up my happiness for him and for what? My own family doesn't even reach out to see if I'm ok I only get "hey are you free on XYZ days so and so needs a haircut" or "we need you to come baby sit for your sister because she has work and we just want to get stoned and not be responsible no we won't pay you and no we wont give you a time on how long but be here by 5" its exhausting I'm nothing to people except for what services i can provide im so tired im sick of fighting for survival im sick of being alone, but i cant even give up because the few friends i do still have would never know, they'd probably blame themselves for not doing enough to help, but what can i even ask of them, theyre all struggling on their own I can't be more of a burden on them its not fair so I just keep it bottled up till moments like this happen and I can feel myself unraveling and falling apart and I just don't know, is this just how life is for me? it doesn't feel fair for me to even complain because I know there's so many worse things going on for people in the world maybe I should just push all this hurt down further and keep just dealing with it all

[just-some-trans-nobody]

I just want a grumpy werewolf to look over to me and immediately start wagging his tail. I would melt if that happened.