#just without the supernatural stuff

[i-promise-i-am-not-on-drugs]

PEOPLE, my mom just told me that she started to see a therapist today! And she'll see them again once a week for some time!! I'm so proud of her!!! :)

[actuallyrandompersondaily]

"Hey," Eddie said, dropping down beside him on the couch.

"…Hey," Buck replied. His voice was flat, he knew, but he couldn't quite manage anything else right now.

"You holding up okay?"

A moment passed, then two, before Buck sighed.

"As well as I can."

"So, no," Eddie replied. "You know you don't have to lie to me, Buck."

Buck sagged at that, curving his body in slightly towards Eddie.

"Would anyone be okay after that?"

One of Eddie's arms came up to drape around Buck's back, and he tried to coax Buck even closer.

"Probably not," he admitted, brushing a kiss against Buck's forehead. "You know Bobby would let you knock off early if you asked to. You could go see Chris, remind yourself he's okay."

Buck hummed a disagreeing noise.

"I— I wouldn't be good for him. Right now. And I wanted to stay around you."

Eddie frowned at that, reaching a hand out to gently lift Buck's chin so they were eye to eye.

"You're coming home with me tonight," he declared, frown deepening when Buck tried to protest. "You shouldn't be alone right now and you know it, baby. Our kid is strong, he knows some days are harder than others."

Another few moments passed, Buck's wide and slightly wet eyes locked with Eddie's own.

"Okay?" Eddie eventually asked, eyebrow raised, and Buck swallowed, nodding his head.

"Okay," he whispered, leaning in to brush a gentle kiss on Eddie's lips. "I— Okay."

[jadegr8]

every. fucking. time.

[raddestrose]

I was wondering why Zoro felt so familiar and was reminded of the first character I ever said “He’s so me” about: Dean Winchester

[incesthemes]

there's a somewhat subtle but notable development i've noticed in sam between seasons 1 and 2, in that he becomes much more willing to lie to the people he's trying to help—he starts finding lies a practical necessity and the truth about the supernatural as something to avoid in polite society.

in bugs, sam urges matt to tell his father about the curse, make him understand the severity, while dean instructs him to lie his ass off so his father will get the hell out of the house. this episode favors dean here: larry obviously doesn't buy the curse story, and it's proven to sam that the truth can in fact be more harmful than a lie.

then by salvation, sam seems to have integrated into himself that lying is necessary: when he proposes that they tell monica and her husband the truth, that a demon is coming for their baby, it's a joke. dean registers this joke with a sardonic grin and sam instantly agrees this is a Bad Idea. he's learned from his mistakes.

the development across season 1 is, here, that lying is necessary for them to do their job. people don't believe in supernatural phenomena, at least not insofar as it pertains to themselves, and they'd sooner get arrested than do any actual saving of the day.

case in point.

all this to say i think roadkill is an interesting episode. much of the conflict between sam and dean centers around what information to disseminate to molly, what she should know and what she shouldn't. they go back and forth trying to figure this out, often unprepared for her questions and hiding the truth in obfuscations and white lies. neither of them are so cruel as to tell her anything blatantly false, but neither of them are willing to tell her the full, unadorned truth.

sam has learned his lesson: he keeps everything he tells her in the realm of plausible deniability, refracted through layers of half-truths that don't actually tell molly anything about her situation. even though he is the one who outright proposes that they tell her the truth, he is the one who, surprisingly, ends up telling her the least.

instead dean is the one who offers up the most blatant truths throughout most of the episode. in this sequence, sam even resists the truth, still convinced that obfuscation is what will further their goals most. the truth will make people think they're crazy, it'll get in the way of doing their job. he's not wrong, either:

and until the end of the episode, he continues to bury the full truth and speaks in roundabout ways to keep it from her.

many such examples.

anyway, what i also find interesting about this is that while sam commits to this lesson he learned in season 1, dean is rather forthcoming about the truth. clearly he doesn't like the idea of telling molly what's going on, but he's still quite often the one to offer up a plain, truthful explanation over sam's much nicer obfuscations. which is a little strange, considering he is the one who typically pressures sam into lying and constantly reminds him of the value in lies. not that dean has never cut the crap and offered up the truth—there are plenty of episodes where he does just that—but since a major conflict of this episode centers around this point of contention and since dean has already expressed his unwillingness to tell molly the truth, i can't help but raise an eyebrow.

what this episode also does, however, is parallel molly and sam. similar to maggie in playthings, molly is a monster by circumstance, lonely and afraid. she functions as an allegory for sam as his destiny develops and his fears about his impending doom heighten, and when sam speaks to her he is also speaking to himself, about himself.

ultimately, i think this indicates a development on dean's part, as well. after croatoan and hunted, dean has no more secrets to keep from sam, and he's chosen him as his codependent life partner. more or less, he's "taking responsibility for himself" by abandoning his duty and devoting himself entirely to sam. and sam values the truth: he's resistant to lying to civilians about the supernatural and only reluctantly gives up after a full season of grappling with it, and when it comes to his brother one of the first demands he makes of dean in season 2 is that they no longer keep secrets from each other (it's their major point of conflict between 2x02 and 2x04, after all). it's easily deduced that this stems from his life of exclusion, and it's understandable that sam wouldn't want dean to keep secrets from him now that they've evolved their relationship into codependency. and now that dean has abandoned his duty for sam, dean can eschew the life of secrets and exclusion he's been both knowingly and unknowingly implicit in up until now.

so if molly is sam, then dean telling molly the truth seems to indicate an olive branch of sorts. it's an indication that even if he doesn't want to, dean will tell sam the truth—he's fully committed to the relationship, especially after born under a bad sign where he reasserts his commitment to sam above all else. i think it's a nice symbolic gesture to indicate his character growth. the honeymoon phase that takes place between hunted and what is and what should never be do a lot to explore how their relationship can grow in weirdly positive ways that we really don't see again until like—god, like season 10, and their only barrier to bliss for this stretch of time is sam's all-encompassing existential angst trying to pull them apart (unsuccessfully so, until all hell breaks loose).

but all that said, i think the way truths and lies are explored in roadkill are indicators not only of their own personal developments, but also their developments with each other. molly functions as the conduit through which sam is explored—both dean's relationship to sam and sam's relationship to himself. she reveals what sam fears and what sam values, and she showcases how time has passed for sam and dean and what that time has done for them. sam has learned the necessity of a lie, but he keeps his lies as close to the truth as possible, laced in obfuscation and omission. dean has learned the value of the truth, at least when it comes to his brother, and even if he knows it's dangerous and stupid to tell the truth he will put himself out there anyway, for sam's sake.

i don't know. i think it's interesting.

[phoenixborn]

𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝓵𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽. 𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐥𝐚𝐰, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝖘𝖈𝖆𝖗 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐢𝐝𝐞!

𝕽𝖆𝖎𝖘𝖊 ꪗ𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖍𝖔𝖗𝖓𝖘.

𝐑𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬 // 𝐊𝐩𝐝𝐡 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐨 + 𝐦𝐨𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐧

+𝟏𝟖 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 (𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐮𝐧 & 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 +𝟐𝟏), 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐤𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐊𝐩𝐨𝐩 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐠𝐥𝐨𝐛𝐚𝐥 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐦/𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤. 𝐂𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐲 & 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐈𝐧𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐨 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐧, 𝐀𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐧 & 𝐌𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐫, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐧𝐨 𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐚 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐲𝐞𝐭.

𝐌𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩, 𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞, 𝐎𝐂 & 𝐜𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐥𝐲!

𝕰𝖝𝖕𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌: embodiment of Rock n Roll, unity in diversity, unapologetic talents, rebellion against the industry norms & capitalism, unbreakable friendship, vocal stunts bordering on impossible, jagged & jaded yet endlessly kind, vicious ambition, not knowing what giving up means, spotlight is its own drug, being saved by the power and connection of music

♡ / ↻ 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐫𝐮𝐦𝐬 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭

𝓤𝓷𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼���𝓮𝓭 𝓫𝔂 𝓙𝓪𝓼𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓮

[psychiatricwarfare]

told my mom im rewatching supernatural and that i had forgotten just how good it is in the beginning and she goes "how could you forget? you were obsessed with it. you had it everywhere. all those symbols all over the place and those flannels i had to buy" like okay yes true but to be fair it's a really fucking good show

[zygon-commander]

I’m tired of stories where losing your soul = losing empathy or morality, and then that causes you to be evil. I want a story where losing your soul = losing the “you” part of yourself: your personal identity and sense of distinction from others. That’s what I imagine when I imagine a soul, not some kind of internal moral compass. And then characters can act “evil” or just unlike themselves because the “I can’t hurt others because that would make me a bad person” feeling is gone. You no longer feel like a person so you don’t hold yourself to the standards of one, and you aren’t invested in your personal code. Maybe you don’t even think of it as hurting people because there’s no distinction between you and someone else

[ananke-xiii]

You know Sam Winchester is trying to connect with you when he gives you something belonging to one of your (dead) loved ones.

He gives John's journal to both Henry and Mary (!!!) and Kelly's pendrive to Jack.

It's the old Sympathy vs Empathy debate.

Sam definitely lacks empathy but he can show sympathy. And no, I don't think the first is necessarily better than the latter, altough I do think that both things taken to their extremes can lead to disconnection with other people.

And yeah, there are things that Sam can't do in the sense that he lacks the skills to do these things. Like sitting down in front of someone and ask them "talk to me" like Dean does when he sees Cas struggling in s8. Instead, he goes and gives them something. When in s13 he tries to cheer Dean up with booze, food and strippers it's not because he doesn't know Dean but rather he doesn't know what to do with Dean. As in he literally doesn't have the tools to deal with grieving people. It's exactly the same stuff that happens with the victims of the MOTW episodes.

So if these are just skills they can be learnt, right? Well, I think yes and no. I mean, there are too many things to take into account that I find it difficult to just sum them up in few generic sentences. However, what I would like to say is that lacking empathy skills doesn't make a character bad or unfeeling or uncaring. It's just what it is.

On the other hand, I personally feel for this type of characters (and ofc people in real life) because I can see them struggling and constantly failing (which most of the times they're not even aware of) at making meaningful connections.

So yeah, Sam Winchester trying to connect by proxy with people always gets me.

[mike-haters-dni]

ok but how come she's never Terry's daughter huh? How come she's never Jane Ives

[porto-rosso]

brother where is the charles appreciation

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

ok what level of "Dean Kinnie" is this

figuring out (all crossover nonsense aside) how to fix the finale, mostly, kinda.... except for Cas. Not knowing what to do.

Randomly coming upon an OBSCURE OLD ENGLISH TEXT that offers some actual hope, and going through way too much to find a translation, taking out an inter-library loan to get your hands on it.

...and then before you can even get that paperwork in, watching some spn trivia/theory videos and randomly finding a magic amulet that was used one time in a Monster-Of-The-Week episode several years ago, an episode that was pretty famously crappy/nonsense... and recognizing it as being the exact spell component you need.

And then like, getting an actual rush of happiness/hope from ANY of this.

[kaluawoo]

Tbf there was one movie where a ridiculous amount of marketing was "HEY THERE IS A GAY CHARACTER IN THIS!"

Only for it to be a 20 second scene where some unnamed unimportant guy mentioned his husband or something. Disney's dozen First Gay Character Queerbait style.

Other than that the post is right though.

People accusing the MCU of queerbaiting has always seemed off base to me because queerbaiting implies a level of emotional character interaction that the MCU has overall staunchly refused to feature. Nobody is even friends 

[mangled-by-disuse]

really want to write lotr fanfic for the first time in years

still do not have the books to refer to

life is suffering

[ananke-xiii]

cas practising (en/forced) exo-/endo-cannibalism will always be important to me.

[artnassertia]

What if John and Dean had decided to leave Sam at Stanford because they were slowly starting to learn more about who he was and what angels and demons had planned for him. What if John had recently died, and Dean had been trying to figure it out on his own, to root out any danger that could threaten his little brother, but the more he dived into it, the more he realized that it wasn't that easy to figure it out. What if he had been going crazy with loneliness, staying up at night worrying about Sam, getting hooked on cheap alcohol and fighting the urge to drive over to his brother right now and put him in even more danger. What if he had finally driven over to Sam's place in the middle of the night, had barely talked him to went to his car, but as soon as they got in the Impala, instead of explaining what's going on, he had silently hugged him. What if he held Sam in his arms for dozens of minutes, finally inhaled his scent, felt his warmth, listened to his irritation. Dean hadn't yet realized how dependent on Sam he really was, but they were family. He still had a family, and he wouldn't lose it again. Even if he had to turn the world upside down. What's then.

There isn’t enough age-gap older brother Dean within the wincest community. I’m talking 30-35 when he picks Sam up from Stanford….

and absolutely wrecks that kid in the backseat that night they reunite because GOTDAYUM.

idk. Do you see my vision? Am I cooking with fire?