#kinda feels like a chore sometimes though 😅

[starrattlerofprydain]

Going through my old data greeting stuff is just making me wanna make new data greeting stuff 🥺

[aticklishpercivalwriter]

Some stuff about me that I've been meaning to get off my chest below the cut (sad stuff in the beginning and happier at the end. If you're worried about the blog, don't worry, I'll still be here but definitely going to be posting much slowly when school starts):

Hey all, so it’s taking me some courage to tell you all this, but I've been struggling for the past few months trying to stay positive. You might be thinking, "What? You always seem happy when you post." And most of the time I am, but sometimes that's just what I want you to think, so you think I have everything under control. More importantly, I didn't want to lose the community I have on here or to make anyone worry. I don't like to talk much about my life here and even irl with other people unless I have to. So, I keep these sad, negative thoughts to myself. Have been for a few years now, actually. But now... they're starting to catch up to me, and last semester was the lowest point of my life. Failure after failure and it hurt. The self-doubt about my abilities and the loneliness. It was painful. It felt like I had lost everything. The only thing keeping me together was texting my irl bestie and you all. That's why I never told any of you... or even my irl bestie. I was scared of losing you all and them. You have expectations from me to deliver great tickle fics. I see the number of notes on my fics, and I'm happy they're increasing as I post. But I get scared, too. As I get better, you will expect as good quality or better, that's what my thinking is. If I deliver something and it flops, I feel like you'll lose interest. I know I can't please everyone, but I feel like I need to. It's ingrained in me to worry about what others think of me. Even with my bestie. Even though we have so much history together, I feel like one screw up by me, and it's over. I'll lose them forever. I have presented the most perfect version of myself over the years, but nobody knew what suffering and fear I carried inside. Now it's affecting me into adulthood and the dream I had to become an engineer became dimmer last semester.

On another note, before I come to a happy ending to this post. Reblogs. I feel bad for not leaving any comments on a tickle work I like. And leaving something small like, "I love this :)" feels too short to me because I was always taught to elaborate on comments and I try to incorporate that online and it felt like a chore or I was trying to hard. I do want to leave a small comment, but I feel that you, as a creator, will think I'm lazy or something or don't mean it. As an author, I actually really like those short comments as much as the long ones. Heck, keyboard smash if you want. That tells me, one, you are flustered from the tickles, two, you’re jealous of the characters being the ler or lee, or three, it's funny to me to see your reactions. To me, that means I did my job right as the writer because I also feel similar emotions like that too from my writing 😅. I sidetracked, didn't I, oops. So, about me commenting on others' work, I feel awkward commenting but if I start reblogging a lot of stuff without commenting, I feel bad and kinda look like a weirdo to creators and to you all who follow me getting a bunch of notifications and not wanting to see the stuff I reblog. I also have self-doubt when reading other tickle fics, too, like they are better than mine, and I go into a spiral, and yeah. I know we all have unique styles, but I can't help compare myself to someone else's ruler. There I go worrying again, huh? It's just in my nature, and idk how to get rid of it.

Lastly, yes, there is some happiness and solace I found thanks to my irl bestie. To keep it short, I hung out with him a few days ago (we only see each other after every semester), got the courage to tell him everything that's been bothering me, we talked about it and I learned some stuff I didn't even now about him (he's always happy and joyful when I see him so it was a surprise), had a new goal for myself to work with him in the future (he's becoming an engineer too) it should keep me motivated to strive to be better in school, got tickled by his dogs (I've never been tickled before believe it or not and let me tell you, it's an amazing, giddy feeling trying to fruitlessly defend yourself from a dog's licks but failing miserably. And then catching your breath when you think the dogs had their fun only for them to just start licking you affectionately again. It's even worse if your best friend took a few pictures of you and you look absolutely lame and stupid 😭. But it was fun!), got to tickle him too and he tickled me back (looks like we're both shy lers 🙃, he's not in the tk community btw but he knows my love for tickling), and yeah I've never been happier in my entire life. I have a new goal and motivation and even got some inspiration and drive to write some tickles!

So, that's what's going on behind the scenes in my world and I really want to get back more into tickling and start reblogging and liking more stuff because there is a lot of good stuff I've been missing out just at a glance.

I still have to do my 2024 year in review and Scara's birthday fic along with some wip stuff that I might not finish in time. Plus, showcase to all of you Aether and his lovers house in my Serenitea Pot. Not to mention school starting again on the 21st 😩.

To close, I want to thank all of you who have supported me ever since I started this blog. I can't thank you enough for liking, reblogging, commenting, and appreciating my work. I'm going to be less active on here once school starts, as in I won't post my own fics, but I'll be reblogging and doing short posts whenever I'm on the app and feel like it. I'll still be here, and I'll do my best in school for myself and for all of you.

And special thanks:

@chibimochii You were the first one that liked my first fic/post [that post is gone though :( ] and I really love your art. Part of why I wanted to start this blog in the first place :) I'm proud to have earned your follow as well!

@kusuguricafe Thank you for booping me during that one event. It helped me get out of my shell a little and feel more comfortable posting here :)

@otomiyaa Thank you for being one of the first tickle blogs I saw when I signed up on Tumblr. You are a huge inspiration. I know I mentioned that already before, but another mention doesn't hurt ;)

@wertzunge Thank you for your comment on My Honey, My Bee. There was something with that interaction that just resonated with me and made me want to write more :)

@vaporized-dimsum Thank you for getting me into SethoScara! I wouldn't have been able to write for them without you :)

Thank you, everyone, for reading this far ❤️

-Perz

~Risus Amoris~

[yourpalmickeymouse]

Hi there, Mickey! I'm Abby. Typing this to you with five meat fingers, ungloved (probably quite unusual to what you're accustomed with).

I've got a few questions if you don't mind. I don't do this very often so I'm a tad nervous, which brings me to my first question. Would you consider yourself an extrovert, introvert, or ambivert? You kinda strike me as an extroverted fella, but I was curious since sometimes we put on a personas different from how we actually feel. And do you ever feel a socially anxious, at least in certain situations? I know I do quite often, sometimes over things most people aren't. I tend to withdraw from social settings out of fear of making a fool of myself.

And, say, what sorta music do you like? I'm a jazz person myself, namely 20s and 30s subgeneres, like swing, big band, and dixieland!

And um, last question and a really weird one too, but does the name "Walt Disney" ring any bells? Like, a weird subconscious feeling in your gut that you somehow know him and can even picture him in your head and you have a connection to him even though you've never met him in your entire life?

Not to give you an existential crisis, or anything, just wonderin'!

Sincerely, Abby!

Hiya Abby,

I'm typin' this to you with four meat fingers, gloved (somethin' I'm learnin' is apparently unusual here, ha ha 😆).

But to answer your first question. Hm... I do think you're right in that I'm an extroverted fella. Minnie always teases me 'bout how quickly I make friends. She says I could leave the house for 10 minutes and come back with 10 new pals, ha ha 😅. I think that even happened once. Though honestly, I just really love meetin' people and gettin' to hear their stories. I also just really like goin' out and livin' life either with my group of friends or with the new ones I make. There are so many people in the world and so much adventure, it's hard to not wanna go out there and see it all.

But at the same time... I really really need my alone time. While I do like to go out a lot, there are days where I just wanna do nothin' but be at home all day, all by myself, and build airplane models or watch TV all day. I feel like if I skip out on those moments too much, I'll go crazy. So, I guess it really depends on my mood. So maybe ambivert, though definitely leanin' towards extrovert.

As for bein' socially anxious, I dunno if I feel exactly like you do, but I for sure can relate to not wantin' to make a fool of myself. I feel like I have a lotta eyes on me now, most likely due to my job, and I hafta be extremely careful 'bout everythin' I say and do 😓. I mean I always try to, but it feels a lot more intense now. It's nice that people see me as a role model and even a hero, I just wish all these growin' and growin' expectations didn't feel like carryin' a tall pile of fine china that will all break the second I trip. Somethin' I'm learnin' is that ya can't please everyone and ya gotta have faith that the people who really care 'bout ya, won't rush to quick judgments over mistakes or awkwardness. Also, it helps to know that you're not alone in feelin' this way. Just as much as you're tryin' to look your best, everyone else is doin' the exact same thing. Some just may hide it better than others 😉. Just as much as you would be gracious to another person actin' a l'il weird, you should be gracious to yourself.

Now for your next question... Gosh, this is gonna be a hard one to answer since I love all sorts of music. Jazz, Swing, Big Band, and Dixieland are all fantastic styles of music. You have great taste 😊. I know I like to listen to those when I'm in a dancin' mood or when I'm doin' my chores... which quickly turns into dancin' 🕺, ha ha. As for my favorite... That's a bit of a toughie. But I guess if I have to choose... Ya know what I'm gonna have to join ya on Swing, Jazz, and Big Band. I have a ton of that on my music playlist. Though I'll have to add Classic Rock and Rock & Roll to that list. Oh! And Show Tunes! I love me some Show Tunes!

As for your final question... That is a bit of a weird question. Walt Disney, huh?

Hm... Hmmm... Hmmmmm...

Ya know it's weird. I don't think I ever heard that name before and yet...

That name feels so familar.

Even more than familiar. It's as you said. I do feel a very strong connection to it. Like it's at the core of my soul. Why does this name feel so weird? Hold on... How would you know that I would feel this way 'bout this name? Do you know why I feel so connected to it? I would really like to know. For some reason, you guys sure know a lotta 'bout me and somehow even know feelings or dreams that I've never told anyone 'bout. It's really weird.

I'll try to not go into an existential crisis... but some answers would be nice.

Um... Well... Either way. Thanks for the questions, Abby. I hope to see ya 'round!

- M.M.

I really need to look into this.

[jamiewintons]

hii!! I love your writing so much!! 😭💕 I hope you're still doing matchups or else this is awkward lmao

Name/Pronouns: Alicia, she/her

Personality: So friends have always described me as an agent of chaos which surprises me cos I'm always like isn't this just normal?? I've also been told I'm very "all or nothing". I tend to be either super high energy wanting to do anything and everything, super talkative etc, or I'm exhausted and lowkey ghosting everyone cos I was sleeping all day lmao. I like making people laugh and don't mind looking dumb/doing something super dangerous to do so. I can be antagonistic sometimes cos I like riling people up for fun haha, sometimes I feel bad afterwards though so I'll say "I'm joking!!" if I get worried it came off as mean. I'm also pretty good at giving advice, I've been told I'm "wise for my age" but I'm an eternal child in my opinion 😅

Appearance: I'm 5'4", but I have really long legs for my height so its hard to buy trousers 😭. I have wavy/curly dark brown hair that goes down to my mid-back that's blonde at the ends from when I used to bleach my hair. My eyes are hazel, I smile and laugh a lot even in normal conversations so my face is like :D constantly. My style is just... comfort lmao, I want to figure out a cute style but I don't really have one!! I mostly wear A LOT of sweaters cos I'm ALWAYS cold and jeans with converse, I don't really like wearing skirts/dresses that much, I try to still dress cute-ish though with like sweaters with hearts on them or stuff like that. Oh and I always carry my yellow kanken backpack because whenever I carry a purse I set it down and forget it lmao

Likes: anything colorful!! coffee!! spicy food, hanging out with friends, chocolate, memes, cute things, going out at 3am to a 24hour diner

Dislikes: cleaning, doing any kind of boring chore really like laundry etc, routine, appointments, being told I can't do something

Any hobbies/interests: Cooking, sleeping, cuddling, going to try new restaurants/food/recipes, watching tv/movie marathons, learning languages, camping/road trips, video games, drawing

What I'm looking for: I want someone who can match my energy but also is there for me if that makes sense? 😅 In my previous relationships I felt like I always had to take care of them and be a mom/therapist/personal chef, and I felt like I couldnt be vulnerable or say/do stupid things like I wanted to because I always had to fill those roles for them so I'd like a relationship where I can just be myself. I tend to make fun of someone if I like them so ideally someone who can look past that and not get offended. Also someone who's fine with me being really clingy or is just as clingy as I am, if I'm in a relationship I lowkey wanna be around them 24/7 and its kinda problematic 😭. I can't really think of anything I'd avoid just that they're not boring lmao

A random fact about yourself: my favorite sesame street character is Big Bird cos he's yellow and floofy 💛

I pair you with...

Chris Pitt-Goddard!

If there's someone that is the exact opposite of "boring", that someone is Chris Pitt-Goddard. To me, the two of you sound quite similar with your chaotic, "all-or-nothing" energy, and I think you would make a really fun couple! If you're feeling super energetic, Chris is right there with you, but if you're tired and want to sleep all day, he's happy to just cuddle with you.

Chris definitely wouldn't mind you making fun of him in an affectionate way, in fact, I think he'd find it very attractive. He'd make fun of you right back in a flirty manner, but he's never outright mean (to you at least). He'd also love that you don't mind making a fool of yourself, and he would think that you're hilarious.

If you're clingy, Chris loves that, because he's super clingy too! He'll want to be around you all the time and he'll be glad that you feel the same way. He'll probably want the two of you to be together 24/7 even when it's inconvenient for other people.

The only problem you'll have is figuring out who will do the household chores.

Want to be matched with a Baynton Boy? Check out all of the information here!

[cuteniarose]

MIDORI HEADCANONS PLEASE-

AND THEIR LIFE WITH THEIR PARENTS PLEASE!

Sorry I left this sitting for like a month 😅 And sure thing! Spirits know I love talking about her and Suiren

(I actually already covered quite a lot of Mingzan as parents in this post so this one will mostly be about Midori)

(Also none of it is structured or organised properly because I felt guilty over taking so long to write it)

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Doing chores is her go-to method to dealing with stress. Whenever Suiren was away on missions Midori would scrub the whole house clean and cook enough food to feed a small army (she hands most of it out afterwards). The monotonous movements help her take her mind off things troubling her

On a similar note, she often hums or sings while working. It keeps her mind from wandering

Actually really great at cooking, considering she is self taught

On the other hand, her earthbending isn’t... great. Like, she’s not awful, but she’s far from mastery.

Not a lavabender, but could become one under the right circumstances/would’ve been one if Ghazan had time to teach her

Has rather thick and unruly hair that takes her ages to brush through - Ghazan used to style it into two pigtails every morning and Midori never let anyone else do it. It was a special thing between her and her dad.

She likes kids and spending time with them, and would not be opposed to having one or two of her own in the future

She’s bisexual, but never had an ���oh’ moment, she just always kinda knew

Gets the BIGGEST crush on Opal once they eventually meet, but at the early stages had a lot of inner conflict over it because Opal’s mother, you know... (allegedly) offed P’Li

(No you don’t get it it’s the irony of Midori and Opal having a thing for each other when Midori’s mum literally held an icicle to Opal’s throat)

Was really clingy as a child and still loves giving and receiving hugs as an adult

Touch/physical affection is her love language

As a toddler, she really wanted another sibling because she was tired of being the youngest, which is probably why she gets along so well with the airbending kids

Much less vocal about her political beliefs than Suiren, but agrees with the Red Lotus ideology

If she had a theme song, it would be ‘Ordinary’ by Joriah Kwamé

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(I actually am gonna section off the more angsty stuff so this is your warning for discussions of child abuse and neglect, mental issues, and general trauma)

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Midori struggles with severe abandonment issues. When she was younger, she often had dreams about getting her parents back, only to lose them again as soon as she woke up. She lives in near constant fear of Suiren dying on her missions and being left all alone in the world.

Terrified of falling for Opal. It’s only natural - apart from Suiren, she’s lost everyone she’s ever loved. Where’s the guarantee that she won’t get hurt again?

Similarly to Suiren, Midori has learned to fake a smile at times when she knows it will put her sister at ease. She doesn’t want to trouble Suiren further as the older sister already has a lot on her plate

She’s not exactly scared of her Aunt Haya (Ghazan’s older sister), but is unnerved by her to say the least. Suiren shielded her from the worst but Midori’s self esteem took some major hits as she was growing up, leaving her extremely unsure of herself.

Loves Suiren to pieces, of course she does, but sometimes she cannot help but feel overshadowed by her sister. Suiren’s pretty, smart, confident, and Midori can’t see any of those traits in herself (though come on, she’s a Mingzan kid, of course she’s pretty). Everyone knows her as just “Suiren’s kind and gentle little sister” and she has a desperate need to break out of that mould, but she’s doesn’t know how to do it without sacrificing key parts of herself and her personality.

She is extremely disconnected from her maternal family and heritage. In my headcanon, Ming-Hua is from the Swamp, and often brought Suiren there starting at age 5. She promised to take Midori too, but never got to see her fifth birthday. Once Suiren, now a little older, started going on her own, she offered to take Midori, but the younger sister declined every time. Aside from the place generally unnerving her, as an earthbender she felt that she wouldn’t be welcome in the tribe, that she was too Gaoling for the Swamp.

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Rather short, I know, but if you want me to elaborate on any of these just send me an ask, I promise not to forget about it for a month again!

[marksollinger]

(holds out my hands) 18, please ?

18. what is a line/scene you’re really proud of? give us the dvd commentary for that scene.

it's hard to choose one, especially since most the scenes i'm currently proud of have yet to be published 😅 i've also deleted a lot of my past fics (literally all of them from pre-2020) which i feel a little bad about. but i also didn't want to share them anymore due to Lots of insecurities about the quality of my writing and my tastes in general 😔 and some of them were permanently deleted 🥴 i constantly have to stop indulging the temptation to burn everything down and start over lol...

as promised, though, i will provide a scene... i will actually provide two, just because the stuff i currently have posted is quite old and needs updating because i take so fucking long to finish new chapters 🙃 i can also use this as an opportunity to leak some things, heehe...

(excerpts and commentary below the cut because it's long and i want to save as many of my followers’ dashboards as possible lmao)

questions for fic writers

Before she came to rationalize the things he’d done as violently untenable acts of misplaced protection, the best hope she once had to separate herself from her father’s blood-stained legacy was to outshine her schoolmates as much and as often as possible. Julia Montag would give her foster mother something else to talk about with the neighbors and the bridge-players and the parents of her peers; she’d get fantastic grades, run cross-country, read the most books, and do all of her chores without even needing to be asked. Yes, that Julia Montag. She’d go see the therapists and counselors and she’d show every adult in her life how marvelously well-adjusted she’d become. — For Future Reference (The Magnus Archives)

so, just as a little disclaimer, i changed julia and robert's family name from "montauk" to "montag" because it's german & plenty of british people share this name, it has strong ties to a pre-existing famous work of genre-fiction (fahrenheit 451), sounds virtually fucking identical to their original surname, and is not the literal name of an indigenous tribe. it may not be the name of an author, in line with the conventions jonny followed for melanie, tim, martin, sasha, etc... and it may be from speculative fiction rather than horror but. close enough.

i have been working on this oneshot for almost a year, now, only because i am extremely unmotivated and was honestly waiting for the end of tma to come for... whatever reason... i'm nervous about diverging from canon when i write for things with large fandoms, especially ones with fans as opinionated as tma's 💀 but i loved julia. i loved her so much. i wanted to give her something. anything. and i wanted to write a conversation that was kinda-sorta hinted at in-canon, in mag 111, inspired by lines that got tangled in my mind each time i relistened to it:

julia: it’s not a… trevor doesn’t like using the book. i don’t either. makes me feel off. dead should stay dead. archivist: s-so… i mean, why keep it around? trevor: ‘cause sometimes talking to the dead can stop you joining ‘em. come on, julia...

and i simply could not stop thinking about the history of them using the book? gerry's possible conversations with julia? there's a lot that was implied that i can't help but dive into. and so i decided i'd do that with this fic. i share a lot with julia and i'm still trying to find a proper balance between canon and self-projection that i can live with but i'm getting there. slowly, but. still getting there. that said, i promise i will actually be publishing this at some point soon...

alright. next one:

“Don’t think I’m not wise to your tricks,” one of them, a woman whose profile Caroline could narrowly see over the ridge of her broad shoulders, said with a playful tone in her voice that made the grin on her lips nearly impossible not to hear. “I won that wager. You’re paying the tab.” — The Seven States of Matter, Ch. 2, "Confluent Forces" (Archive 81)

so these are vic's first words in tssom 🥰 i have more or less created an oc and slapped the name 'vic' onto her, because that's how much i love the idea of her, and how i could make her a really fun character. i am... unfortunately Not going to be writing a whole ass character meta here because i seriously have 4 chapters that outline the backstory i have assigned to her? and i don't want to spoil anything too prematurely. but i love her so much and she is a joy to write so far.

in conclusion, i am noticing that i tend to enjoy & be the most proud of writing characterization moments? which makes sense, i think. these two in particular are canon characters i'd always wanted to know more about. because i love them. writing vic has given me the chance to project a bunch and manufacture an entire character from just a name and a handful of facts (both explicit and implied). i fucking love doing that kind of thing.

[tomsmusictaste]

I can just tell you’re tired of the music recommendations but when there’s so many fire bans, you probably haven’t heard I need to share this. Forever ends here they are from Australia and even have a song with the lead singer of yours truly so I have a feeling you could get down with them.

honestly,, yeah, a little 😅 not that it's bad that folks are passionate about their underrated favs or whatnot, far from it, but sometimes I get so many at once that A) No one sticks out above any other and even if I like them they all kinda blur and fade from memory and B) having to check them all out can end up feeling kinda more like a chore, rather than discovering new music for the joy of it

But still, I'll give their song with Yours Truly a go and tell ya what I think!

Oh, hello it's Aussie Mayday Parade 😂 ngl, I wasn't expecting a piano ballad, vibing though. Oh damn, it's no surprise but Mik's vocals are on point.

Checked out a few of their other songs too for good measure, v nice oldschool ATL vibes coming through too! For sure, I can definitely get down with these guys

Cheers for the rec!

[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. honey nut cheerio lefty eyebag 😅

The view is okay. It was nice when it was snowing really hard. And what's great was that it wasn't that cold outside. Aw well maybe when you get back to Oklahoma, there will be snow on the ground.

Ooh pulled pork nachos.. what kinds of toppings do you put on your nachos? Can you taco bout it..🤣🤣🤣 in queso wanna know what to make for nacho nights 🤣🤣 but I don't want to be jalapeño business about it... hahahaha ok ok. I'm done with the puns for now.

Haha I can't tell you my secrets! Think of the pasta-bilities if people knew the meal to my heart 😅

Oh I like when my partner does it. It's just too ticklish for me too. But what's worst is that if they go up to my ear, then I'm out. My whole body is gone. I've melted.

So I just finished reading it, and I instantly thought of Wanda being their first love. My heart broke when she left R because of the guilt. But I just want to know though, why does R keep killing to cope? I understand that they were protecting the people they love, but then why kill more people? And are the people innocent or have they done something shitty?

I've watch too many criminal minds, law and order and CSI. It's always the whys that intrigues me.

You still working on part 4?

-CuriousGeorge

hello hello corn-punn!

sorry for the late reply.. i got busy with chores. i had a lot to do.. tomorrow i have to start packing up a bit by abit. Yeah i hope the same for the snow when i get back.

omg! hahahahahah. daaang! calling u corn-punn was the right decision that i made. lol. i'm not kidding, u made me laugh n smile because those whole paragraph of puns were sooo funny! thank you!

Tell me more puns if u have it, will u? hahaha. pretty please? :D

oh my god! pasta-bilities? good one! good one! lol. okay, well i guess u can tell me someday. :) whats ur favorite pasta.

here is the nachos that i had.

well, if people knew ur favorite pasta that goes to ur heart, imagine the chances for u to find ur mrs. right. :)

haha well it doesnt sound like something worst. it's one of the best (at least for me). i like it when they go up to my ears too. especially when u can hear their soft breathing or little / soft sound they make. haha.

i wanted the part 2 of TMW to be more about the emotions from both Nat n R. yeah, of course i gotta put Wanda in the fic. she is my favorite. :D i love the maximoff twins (but the aaron johson pietro).

well, i wrote R killing to cope just to show more that she is basicly fucked up. just like R said to Nat, that anybody has potential to be a monster, they just need the right push. So in my imagination, it's kinda like Love in You series if i'm not wrong, R is actually compulsive and it takes only 1 kill to make her do it again n again whenever she is emotional. I imagine R is angry n maybe deep down after she accidentally killed Wanda's dad she felt good about it. so she killed more n more until she doesnt feel bad about her victims n get used to it. I hope this answer doesnt confuse u n i hope it makes sense.

So R is fucked up in mind, compulsive and obsessive n she never really get some love even from her parents. So when she loves someone, she would literally do anything for them. that's what i have in mind about R.

I imagined sometimes R kills someone innocent but mostly someone who annoys her.

no worries,i totally understand. I am the same. I love watching movies like that. i love watching serial killer documentary because i want to know the why's. :D

next question? but i think u r asleep now.

Cheerio!