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mothram · 1 year ago

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#diana's music diary #🌗#last night I played terraria again with a friend and my partner...#it was nice...#I've not been playing anything with people lately #or by myself even #no reason for saying it's just something I've noticed #I've mostly just been trying to ride the times where my brain works and I can work on things which has been a good amount lately #anyway today I mostly feel the same as yesterday except more sick...#I got a record I ordered a little while ago too though which is neat..#let's try to manage today...#Youtube

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petricorah · 7 months ago

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usually not a person for pet names but i think sokka started calling zuko ‘babe’ as a joke and it stuck.

#this is a softlaunch defense for my drawing im posting later #idk usually i hate it but for some reason it fit #completely unrelated but i woke up at six am today and put on a blazer bc i have a performance review #but it was already tight and i havent worn it in a bit and now it's Really tight #and that plus performance review plus six am plus mask makes this day TOO MUCH ahhhhshsh #ahahhghhhg this week continues to be so bdhjajdjj #i had a dream that my manager changed the meeting name to 'let corah go' and i was like damn. what a power move #anyway. looking forward to drawing sokka calling zuko babe today #and trying not to think of work and k*sa and election and

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uhbasicallyjustmilex · 23 days ago

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i am almost thirty years old. why must i still be plagued by the perpetual and unshakeable belief that everyone secretly dislikes me

#what’s weird about it is that by this stage in my life i know perfectly well it doesn’t MATTER if everyone likes me #it’s impossible for anyone to be liked by everyone and i don’t even want that??#like i'd far rather be myself and have the people who are right for me like me for who i am #but the recovering people pleaser in me (and let's be real. the cptsd) finds this hard to accept #like whenever someone seems interested in what i have to say or says something nice to me #there’s this little voice in my brain that whispers ‘they're lying and they hate you'#ughhhh #sorry for context: i met a lovely new friend today #and despite the fact we had the nicest time #now that i'm home my brain is trying to convince me i'm inherently unlikeable and they were just being kind to me #i mean that's the context specifically right now but this is also a wide reaching issue that's very present in my life in lots of ways lol #and the more i actually put myself out there in the world as *me* (something i finally feel like i'm actually managing to do)#the harder it gets #i know healing isn't meant to be easy #but fuck. i really wish it was sometimes #i wish this stuff didn't affect so many different aspects of my life #christ sorry this ended up being incredibly long and self-indulgent 😭#sometimes it just helps to vent everything out into the tumblr tags #idk if anyone else relates but if you do i'm sending you a hug 🫶#(also just realising my period is due which may be a factor in why this has got to me so much today lol)#personal #living with cptsd #lulu posts

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perelka-l · 7 months ago

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I saw a prompt on twitter with hunter x butcher ship and I wondered about cannibalism au and i want them to kill and eat ppl together :(((((

#Kieran with a knife is canon for me and Drayton in my heart would adore hunting ppl in forest #What #Trainer kieran #Trainer drayton #Elite four Drayton #Rival Kieran #I know I'm delulu and since nobody cares about what I do might just as well go all out let's goooo woooooo #Also first time I managed to pick up pen after getting super super sick so heck ye #I will try to leave bed today too let's gooo #watch me and my fail art #exchampionshipping #Dragoncheershipping

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whentherewerebicycles · 2 months ago

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#lol well this is a first: redacted apologized to me???#said that she was feeling extremely stressed lately and apologized for making the friday meeting so tense/unpleasant #and said that in the future if things are getting really heated we should say let's take a break / let's revisit this later #which i mean ok. we could also try managing our emotions like adults and not taking out our stress on other people #but i think that's the first time in two years i've heard her be like 'my bad'#then we had a productive meeting and she said good things about my work #SO NOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.#like is it still pregnancy/leave-related discrimination or is this woman just incapable of managing people + managing her own emotions #WHATEVER #it's just whiplash all the time lol #like last week i was like well obviously i have to leave my job #then today i'm like if we could preserve this dynamic i could definitely stay #but that's the TRAP. we CAN'T preserve it bc the second she gets stressed she lashes out again

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mycological-mariner · 4 months ago

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Cool so I get to start training in a forge and welding and steam engine maintenance and fitting on weekends

#it’s.#okay.#it’s still Setting In but. I personally wanna ask the guy why #like ‘hey you SAW my list of medical conditions right? you know about the heart disease and seizures and physical mobility issues RIGHT?#I mean hell yes. I can’t wait bc i can work up to working on ships. people who have historical engineering skills are needed Bad on ships #at least the ones I wanna sail (tall ships my beloveds)#but I do love trains too. a lot. I like knowing How Things Make Other Things Do The Thing. it pleases me #ships and sailing always my first love #but the choo choo…#I got the email today from the manager and I’m way the hell out of town atm BUT!!#hey if I can survive America heat I can survive a welding shop. I think. we’ll see how long I last #tbh I think they said yeah bc they’re so desperate for volunteers and people willing to learn on the job #(it’s basically an internship tbh. unpaid apprenticeship)#so he looked at my medical issues and went ‘well if you die or get maimed. well. we’ll see what happens. you have two hands so that’s good’#no but honestly I am very very VERY excited #it’ll only be one MAYBE two weekends each month and they do have rooms on site for staff and volunteers who travel #(I doubt I’ll need them I know a guy 20 minutes away from the place who’ll let me crash)#so it’s not strenuous or biting into my already busy week #(being on a committee is fun….. *sobs in someone forgot to take minutes at last meeting*#anyways #this story is still developing #FINGERS CROSSED everything goes smoothly #even if I just did a Saturday….#I can work on ships………..#I COULD POSSIBLY GAIN ENOUGH EXPERIENCE TO JUSTIFY VOLUNTEERING ON A SHIP #AAAAH #(I do love a forge though… I can’t WAIT to try blacksmithing… even as an assistant/trainee/‘adaptable helper’)#yes I’m absolutely using ‘adaptable helper’ in this instance because. lol.#OKAY BUT IM SO EXCITED AND SO NERVOUS I REALLY WANT THIS TO GO THROUGH #soon as im back in the country im gonna try and nail down some dates

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adrift-in-thyme · 1 year ago

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Note to self: never again let it slip to an irl person that I write whump

#told two of my classmates today #I’m exhausted so it just kinda slipped out #plus I assumed they’d be at least a little ok about it #given that they’re into fandom stuff #but no #they definitely thought I was some kind of freak #and I wasn’t about to try and defend myself #‘writing this stuff is a kind of therapy for me I promise I’m not sadistic or creepy!’#yeah that would’ve gone over wonderfully #*sighs*#figures that one of the only personal things I shared this whole semester gets this reaction #why do I even try #I never talk about myself #I let everyone else vent and tell me everything #and when I try to open up I screw myself #trin rambles #vent #ignore me I’ll be fine #it’s just a really yucky day today #I’m not in a great place mentally and that did nothing good for me #hopefully sleep will help #…if I manage to get any sleep that is #ugh #delete later

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thefaultinoursprinkles · 2 months ago

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the utter lack of common sense, resourcefulness, and general reading/listening skills might lead you to think that the managers at my company live in cryosleep stasis tubes when they’re not working, but actually the majority of them have multiple children that they haven’t killed through general neglect yet. scientists are working over time to figure out how this is possible.

#my boss tagged me in a bunch of tickets claiming the client wasn’t in the client list. the clients were all under their literally name.#dude I know you didn’t even pretend to try.#then my other boss talking to me in the morning asking me to rush something today beford going on PTO #and 4 hours later saying ‘let’s chat about this tomorrow’ in response to a message in our department chat asking for advice on how to manage #an enterprise hub project of mine.#it’s in my calendar. we literally talked this morning. then she’s like ‘okay well boom time with my asap when you’re back from PTO #FUCK YOU DIR DIE DIE DIE FUCK UOU FUCK IHSJALANDBDIAISKWH

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jrueships · 11 months ago

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guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

#MY MANAGER EMAILED LIKE 2 HOURS B4 I HAD TO GO IN #she finally changed my schedule (1 day) to the night shift today #(i emailed her to be safe just kinda casually reaffirming im going in at the new time & then asking if any other shifts wanted 2 be changed #bcs that sounds great to me whstever option she goes with #she ignored that question & i get a new email from her asking if i completed a training. lets called it DOC #basically a long time ago she said 'i will send you DOC instructions soon' .. a few days pass and i get three 50 paged packets #one is called NAVIGATING DOC #im like oh ok cool that must be the DOC training shes talking abt bcs the other 2 packets were abt various trainings #NAH BRUH. APPARENTLY THE DAY IM SUPPOSED TO GO IN. SHE MESSAGES ME SOME ENTIRELY ALIEN PROGRAM #and is like 'u completed this right? cus if u didnt u cant come in today.'#LIKE?? MAYBE I WOULDA IF U SENT THE SHIT #but it's also like. dam i shouldve emailed prompting her to send what she said she would n clarifying BUT FUCK #WHY DO I GOTTA?? IM NOT THE MANAGER #she literally told me the name of the program rn thru email so i type it in and see like four hour long modules to complete #mind u i aint never even been informed a WHISPER abt this new program. nothings even labeled DOC TRAINING #but my struggle is. was i notified this?? and i just didnt see??? was i supposed to clarify with her what the DOC training was exactly??#the only thing ive heard abt doc training b4 this is 'i need to send u DOC training soon' in EMAIL. so i expected an alert #abt THE DOC TRAINING... in an EMAIL notification. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS #idk man #i dont even care bro like im busy as hell & the work is just to build clinic hours so i dont care abt the money factor #it's just like. can we get this first day jitters thing over with already?? im so over this bro #yaddayadda i emailed her an apology n ill be on that ASAP shit. but i did let her know i am basically justnnow seeing this site #n if there was any email or notif that couldve/tried to inform me of its existence 2 pls let me know / figure out how to find it #so the issue doesnt occur again & i dont have to keep botherinher which im so srry of bcs med is stress n shes just trying to get by #but still bro im a lil miffed bcs she probably thinks im stupid now and now im wondering if i AM #bcs WDYM ONLINE MODULES. AINT NOBODY SAID SH IT EVEN ABT THE EXISTENCE OF THEM!!! i wouldve pressed harder 4 clarification #if i knew it was an ONLINE MODULE i had to look out for on some randomass site i didnt even know the name of until now #instead of the EMAIL UVE BEEN 'COMMUNICATING' WITH ME ON #ARREGHHHHHHHH IM NOT STUPID. I SWEAR IM NOT STUPID FUCCK MY BAKA LIFE

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cranberrymoons · 1 year ago

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#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but #today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh #I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so #anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik #“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was #just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao #I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because #AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him #he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where #I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote #like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow #(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway #but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay #one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half #I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE #I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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pain so bad I woke up 2 hours ago and haven't been able to sleep again and I have work today :(

#i feel. so sick #i think im gonna stop w these meds i cant handle it anymore and its not making anything better #and its been 2 months now thats long enough probably #im so tired its making me stupid i keep crying over everything #being in pain so much makes me feel like a shitty friend & person in general sometimes bc i dont have the mental energy or resources to #be the person i want to be. like not in an anxious way its just so frustrating to not be able to live up to my own standards #and ik the ppl in my life are understanding of that & ive been shown far more empathy than i even deserve and im very grateful for that #but im tired of having to let myself down all the time i dont have endless patience and its just so fucking hard.#and it might perpetually be like this. which is near impossible to come to fucking terms with so im trying not to think abt it #god i dont want to work today. ill see how shit i feel when i get up qnd maybe ill call in sick #ough. wish i didnt feel so alone with this i could rly go for some comfort rn its a shame i cant ask anyone for anything #anyway vent over itll be okay. got a few other pain management strats to try over the next month im not at the end of the line yet #and yeah ill stop taking these meds. hoping i can fall back asleep soon im so shattered man #.vent

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chaoticbooklesbian · 3 months ago

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Having some Complicated Feelings tonight that my brain is too mush to tease apart, love that for me

#pedanticblah #basically my d&d group almost blew up today #and i immediately jumped in to try to work it out reasonably #managed pretty well i think #but it feels really gross too?#like. it's not bad that my first instinct was to help probably?#but being the one to jump in and manage emotions is. fraught #i don't even really think that's what i did here overall #i more. checked in? after? and made sure everyone was ok?#and reached out to the other dm to coordinate better?#like. it was an in game thing from a couple weeks ago #that someone let fester until it boiled over completely #they talked it out with the other person involved and are fine #and the other dm and i are making changes to keep it from happening again #i just feel like i was trying to manage their emotions for them #which i have to do with my dad when he throws tantrums #and that's NOT what happened here AT ALL #but the feeling is the same as when that happens #anyway. i feel really weird. and complicated.#and i know it worked out and everything is fine #but i also feel like i ruined everything #and i should have tried harder and also not tried at all #and mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.#unsafe. unsafe in my body. in my skull.#everything is FINE but my brain is sending ALARM SIGNALS

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goldenpinof · 1 year ago

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#long talk in tags incoming i guess #i don't understand why people keep following me when everything i do is complaining lately #and not about dnp per se. but about how the work is done and how their team *coughs* martyn *coughs* is handling stuff #i'm just looking at all this mess and i can't agree with basically anything #everything goes against my beliefs when it comes to work organisation. customer focus and etc.#and i'm trying SO hard to mildly help for free. and i'm just getting ignored. but that's like.. basic fixing and shit #any decent company would do it and say thank you for noticing and letting us know #but not irl merch lmao #and it all feels and looks like a massive joke #and i'm so so tired to basically pay for existence of this mess #i'm rethinking a lot of tour related decisions i made. and i know the reason i made them was about travelling more than the show itself #so i don't completely regret it #i'm just so tired of being spat in the face (figuratively speaking) over and over again #and tired of no one taking their job seriously ffs #neither martyn nor dnp nor their fucking editors #and i'm doing all that not for attention or whatever. but because I really care for the words to be correct and for the fucking text..#.. to be in the middle. like idc about the credit or WHO i need to ask for it to be fixed. i just want it to be fixed #so it looks good and how it should look #like. it's not that hard to put a little care into the things you do and getting paid for #I don't understand how it became so normalized. how being a bad manager is okay if you work with a fanbase and you're a 'small company'#a small company who has more than enough money to hire people to check things btw. if only anyone cared #i'm just so so tired of caring. because apparently it's not something everyone else does.#and i can let it slide when it comes to dnp. they are not being literally hired to do it. but others..... yeah #today was a moment when i thought 'that's a perfect opportunity to leave. enough.'#but the tour is in 1.5 months and i have tickets so i can't leave lmao #what kind of joke that is? oh and i know i'm fully responsible for this mild breakdown #personal

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mearcatsreturns · 1 year ago

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I’m not back to cooking as much as I’d like to be, but I’ve been doing a meal or two each week. (This is not a huge deal at all during the summer, ie sandwich season.) Anyway, tonight I threw together some stuff to try to make a risotto. Due to what I added and the flavor profile I chose, it’s halfway between risotto and étouffée, but it is delicious.

#I was going to try to do another job app today #but due to my boss being who she is and her sticking her head into shit #(causing me to have to redo several hours’ worth of work)#(I am begging you to if you manage a team of specialists for something you’re not trained to do. let them figure things out)#anyway I’m in overstimulated cat mode where I will hiss at the next sound that is Too Much

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lifeofmarvvel · 4 months ago

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writing a novel that was inspired by me learning about planet 9 is fun because it's totally spec and sci-fi but also writing a novel that was inspired by planet 9 sucks because I literally only have spec to base it on

#b talks #writing #delete later #sometimes it's a blessing sometimes it's a curse #will it have multiple moons? almost definitely!#it will probably have more than i'm currently giving my planet #would they be able to see the sun at all? probably not more than any other star!#we dont know exactly how many miles away it would be though #and don't try and talk about it being in light years #just. ugh #just a little bit. sometimes.#still managed to write 600 words of worldbuilding it out today though #i couldn't bring myself to actually write plot for some reason today #or most of this week let's be real

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spilling-my-guts-to-you-guyss · 4 months ago

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its been some time

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