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Oh my GOD I would have been the cutest little goth baby. You don't understand. From the time I was first learning how to walk I pretended I was Abby from NCIS. LITERALLY. and mom thought 'oh that's so cute' without realizing the POTENTIAL I HAD to be a little GOTH KID. ARE YOU JOKING. she put me in those little plaid shorts and a pink tank top and said 'youll be normal when you grow up' LIKE NO MOM IM REPRESSED. YOU REPRESSED MY GOTHNESS. I WANTED TO BE LIKE ABBY AND YOU TOOK THAT AWAY FROM ME AND NOW I CAN NEVER BE THAT COOL EVER AGAIN.
#now I'm all oOo rioped jeans and making my own alt style because i dont really fit with all the other ones#because my music taste is all over the place#but like#girl you could have started me early on that goth shit#i would have been freaking adorable#if i were allowed to dress the way i wanted to when i was 11 it would be OVER FOR YOU BITCHES#ncis abby#goth#alt#repressed#goth baby#like now im just weird#i had all that potential and now im just weird instead of cool#i do all the goth things#just without the aesthetic#im so angry#parents#homeschooled#ex christian#z's life blogging
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Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.
#katniss everdeen#the hunger games trilogy#the hunger games#primrose everdeen#hunger games#batcavescolony reads the hunger games#suzanne collins#'now it seems i have become someone precious' NOW? GIRL BFFR you're their hunter girl#and this isn't negative just bffr girl#your WHOLE DISTRICT did the three finger salute that you yourself says means admiration thanks and goodbye to someone you love and on top is#old a rarely used. your WHOLE DISTRICT decided in that moment that they needed to bring back this sign of respect for YOU#...................................................................#idk why some people are thinking i mean this as negative i don't she is unreliable but its not intentional. like when Peeta heart stoped in#CF she doesn't know what Finnick is doing at first cus she doesn't know off the top of her head what cpr is. she also thinks Peeta after the#reaping is acting for the cameras. he isnt we dind out later his mom basically told him Katniss was gonna win and he would die. obviously#shes not doing it on purpose shes just for lack of better words uneducated? as in she doesn't know everything shes not omnipotent#so when Plutarch (? second games guy) shows her his mokingjay hiden watch shes like *wtf that's weird?* then the people traveling to#district 13 show her the mockingjay cookie and explains it and she then goes on the difference between his watch and their cookie#and why does eveyone act as if district 12 is as bad as the capital? they CANT help Katniss and Prim in the way you want. they cant give#them food. none of them have any! and im not putting iton Katniss but they hid they needed food so they could stay together. it sounds like#some of you are in this our world mentally of what people do after a loved one dies (brings food constantly checks on them etc) district 12#cant do that. they dont have food and they're all suffering. you cant give someone food when you have none to give. then theirs the fact#that peeta DID help. Peeta buring the bread and tossing some to her then taking a beating from his mom is a HUGE thing in the books.#he used his resources to help her like you all said someone should.#district 12 DID (rip) care about Katniss before the hunger games. why do you think she was allowed to hunt? or how her trades were good#these are the little ways 12 can shows Katniss they love her. but again Katniss doesn't see this and YES its because she had ptsd before the#hunger games as well. i swear some of you make it seem like d12 was all living a life of luxury and glaring down at Katniss.#other things that show Katniss is in hight standing with at least her people of d12 is her dad was known enough through d12 for peeta dad to#comment on his singing along with his commenting on her mom. also her mom is a healer in the community. yeah her parents arnt the top but#of d12 but they are/were definitely high staning in the Seam.
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love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking
#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire#'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem#the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted#also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out#so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has said‚ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my#notifs page cleanish lol#also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3#secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because#of investors bankrolling everything#and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest#however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point#once again. so many murder dollars#so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction#anyways . love yall 💕#origibberish#bigger gibbers
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i'm a little afraid to go to pride this year. many of us are, a little. sitting around our tapas and video games, the silence that hangs over the discord server. it feels different, we say.
we're privileged. the community that came before us laid the groundwork so i could be raised in a different world, and i will never forget their sacrifices and dedication. they gave us this: a pride that feels like community and celebration and joy. i remember the first few times i went to a queer event - i'd been raised so catholic. feeling safe like that, for the first time... it saved my life. i go to pride to celebrate that feeling - my people, laughing. out in the sun, the way we couldn't have been even 25 years ago. that feeling: no wonder we call it "pride."
who am i to be afraid anyway. there are parts of the world where people are doing much better work than i am. but it's just: i felt at home there, you know? and this year feels different. we are waiting on the dam to break. last year, at boston pride, there was a whole gaggle of sign-holders shouting about jesus. you walk around them and try not to let it get to you.
this year, i'm going to DC's pride with my girlfriend. google sends me concerns about if it's safe to exist in trump's america, if World Pride is a bigass target on all of us. every article uses the words "safety concerns" many, many times. three days ago i witnessed a shooting.
even straight people keep telling me - people are weird lately. sometimes we blame it on Covid and sometimes we blame it on the full moon. but i do remember a time before this, right. it's not just that people are more comfortable being rude. it's this strange, outwards violence. a comfort in being cruel.
it's a big hole to fall down anyway. it's not like they're going to do anything to make pride safe, not really. i don't want a police presence as the solution. and what if this is just fearmongering! what if this is just to get us to stop attending our own events! what if everything is actually fine, and i'm just freaked out by the stated intentions of our president!
and what if i'm just listening to things that are being said. what if i'm weighing the shape and size of this america accurately.
my mother calls me. she's been getting the articles too. i assure her i'll be careful, but i put the phone down and stare at it. i'm going to go to pride. other people made it safe for me, it is my duty and my honor to show up for my community. the only thing we've ever had was each other. it was always an act of bravery. being ourselves is brave.
but i am afraid. i lay out my outfit and i kiss my girlfriend. i cut my nails and clean up my undercut. i hold her hand and hang the sunset flag. the sound of this america feels different. like a volcano trembling. i will love her and i will love being queer and i will sing over the noise of it.
but ... still. in the back of my mind. that feeling, like something terrible has been shifted. like somewhere in the night - they remembered we're different.
#spilled ink#warm up#please do not be weird on this#i hate when i express a real fear/etc that is normal to have -- like being scared of violence in trump's america#and ppl immediately are like ''isn't it nice ur afraid this year but u haven't been previously??? imagine being afraid every year''#not the point of this post and also not true just not included in the body of the work. u do not know me personally.#''ur lucky u have a pride'' yes i know this & am aware of it. can still be afraid of violence.#''well i think [misunderstanding of the post]''#this is about feeling the genuine shift politically that has occurred in trumps america wherein extremist ideas are more accepted.#'' WELLLLLLL'' . it's a tumblr post. go to bed.#<- poet who has made the mistake of being honest about her feelings 1 too many times#i just write about stuff i think other people can relate to. and i think i've felt this very loudly#and if u dont relate okay! it wasn't written for u then. it was written to comfort someone else.#anyway. i love u all happy pride. genuinely.#come say hi if u see me#feel free to dm me if ur also at pride i'll tell u what im wearing we can hunt each other down for sport#((just realizing right now in the tags that the shooting probably traumatized me lol))
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Long distance besties. This definitely happened after the third movie (source: trust me bro)
Based on this

#anyways time to yap in the tags 😋☝️#but first ummmm lemme just tag some shit#how to train your dragon#httyd#httyd hiccup#hiccup haddock#hiccup horrendous haddock iii#toothless#httyd toothless#ok i think that its done#anyways this definitely happaned after the dragons left like just trust me bro 🙏🙏🙏🙏#omfg i wanted to make this with hijack as well cause lol. do you get it. they're long distance LOLOLOL#maybe i will make it who knows. is it weird to make the same art trend with different characters??#OH WAIT FORGOT ANOTHER TAG#hicctooth#is this the duo name for them#or is it called#hictooth#doesnt matter. what matters is that theyre literally the definition of platonic soulmates bro#like wtf i love them#sorry for making them look miserable i didnt meant for them to look lile that 😭😭😭😭#omg with that being said#BROOOOOO I AM NOT GONNA DRAW DRAGONS ANYMORE IM DONEEEEE HOW DO YOU DRAW DRAGONS 😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏#anyways first attempt do you like it. SAY YES RIGHT NOW#if you read this much till the end you need to kiss me rn muah muah muah#also say i did a good job at making them look like cookies like#say it rn#okie bye byeeeeee#I FORGOT TO ADD HIS BRAID IM GONNA KMSSSSSS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#omg i failed
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I am.... not.... okay ...
#just finished season 3#poor daryl :(#but damn i love carol and glenn and daryl and michonne and andrea sm#its so weird watching this show again#cause i loved it back then#but i love it so much more now#im not really all that scared watching it like i was the first time#so i think i can enjoy it more cause i know what happens (vaguely)#twd fanart#twd#the walking dead#the walking dead fanart#daryl dixon#glenn rhee#carol peletier
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as someone who has been at the devil's sacrament for too much of my life, I like to play the game "guess the popular ship (without scrolling through tags or ao3)" when im getting to know a new media/fandom. (would recommend, it's equally satisfying to be exactly correct and completely wrong).
that is to say, I'm new to the brilliant Discworld novels, and the fandom didn't strike me as particularly ship-y. which is fine and cool and sometimes the interesting thing is the rarepairs and the platonic dynamics and the world-building!
however. I just finished Guards! Guards! and I'm 100% certain that whatever the hell Vimes and Vetinari have got going on, a significant number of y'all are deeply into it. that's the one.
#emotionally repressed men with a complicated power dynamic and an antagonistic but necessarily collaborative relationship?#that shit is catnip for tumblr i see you#i hope if im wrong that im wrong in an incredibly funny way#like they never interact ever again and in the next book they both get separate even more complicated power dynamic relationships#also i am a huge sybil fan and pterry has thus far done me right with the female characters#so i'm hoping she continues to be weird and badass and relevant#i am now just rambling#i'm just impatient to get through these books#in particular i've heard so much about night watch and i can't wait#anyway hi discworld fans i hope im not committing an egregious offence here#im just having fun#discworld#guards! guards!#city watch#sam vimes#lord vetinari#havelock vetinari#havelock?? he has a first name??#hope thats not a big reveal cause i just got spoiled by tags lmao#anyway y'all have to tell me if i'm right or wrong because i can't look anything up (learned the hard way that's how you get spoiled)#the fun part will be looking at this again when im finished the series
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(the second dream spoiler btw idk)
if it's not for excalibur i would have absolute zero interest in whatever plot that is
#i just wanna draw excalibur the rest is just whatever chaos that was in my head#tbh the plot wouldn't be appealing to me if it's the only thing i'm exposed to when i know about warframe#i mean. i kinda have to know that now. because im making comics out of that and i don't wanna be cancelled for being too ooc#and now i kinda like it#mostly about the operator part because wow transference is so good of an idea#i think i just said something like that about the relic biochip in cyberpunk#i like misplacing consciousness okay#it's a weird sentence i know but this fits a lot of other stuff i'm doing to my ocs#warframe#warframe excalibur#my art
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Ghostknife?????










Do people still ghostknife?????? Im ghostknifing. Personally.
#apologies if some of the memes have already been done-#ghostknife#jrwi#prime defenders#just roll with it#vyncent sol#william wisp#vyncent is aroace and ghostknife is weirdly kind of queerplstonically requited but not really but also kind of to me#theyre a secret third thing#truly#and i love them for that#vyncent my beloved#i want them to have such a devastating rejection scene but then later vyncent is confused why william is so distant now#cause he doesnt really get it but he does wanna be close like they always were#but its different to william#do you get me#it makes me upset and i love them 💕💕💕#they still need a real kiss/confession in s3 because of what s2 ep14 did but i love how weird they are#i just love undefined relationships sigh#if ghostknife becomes fully requitedly canon it should be last episode of the series ever i think thatd be funny#anyway#sorry if the memes are mischaracterized#im rewatching pd rn so my brain is kinda stuck in s1 lowkey#maybe ill be funnier when i get to s2#but like the new life series is coming up so who knows honestly#kinda scared to post this cause it feels like this fandom has a very specific idea of how youre meant to portray the characters??#like not visually but generally#idk#i feel like theres some secret rule im breaking#shrug
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♦️♣️ Heartslabyul ♠️♥️
#twst#twisted wonderland#twst fanart#coughs into hand#hey folks#art block sucks! it really does#i had these finished before that had happened but i was going to do all the cast before it hit#now i just dont want them to rot in my save files forever so#ill post what i have done for em#here they go#riddle rosehearts#ace trappola#cater diamond#deuce spade#trey clover#more yelling from me#i am not the most knowledgable on tarot and i did my best learning as i was going about the assignment process from meanings i could figure#but i wanna hear people talk about em!!#think this is in part mostly me picking apart characters cause i like seeing how they tick#im weird#i get it
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drew some of my fav ody designs! wasnt originally meant to be also replicating the styles but thats sort of just how my brain works. except i didnt copy the lineart styles of anyone here so its DEFINITELY a bit uncanny for a couple of these (LOOKING AT YOU QINNY IM SO SORRY) but whatever
the designs featured here (from left to right) belong to: me, @gigizetz, @neal-illustrator, @irunaki, @bigidiotenergytm, @qinnyanimation, and @foopsie-daisy
#WAUGHHH IM SO NERVOUS TAGGING PEOPLE COOLER THAN ME#HEAD IN HANDS HEAD IN HANDS I NEED TO STOP PANICKING OVER STUFF LIKE THIS#bc like I KNOW THEYRE JUST PEOPLE. I WOULD BE SO HYPE IF SOMEONE DREW MY ODY ID LOVE TO BE TAGGED IN THAT.#BUT WHAT IF I AM SHOT. WITH A GUN. gfrdfvb vfrdedrf#i am a very normal non anxiety having person i swear guys#worst thing i did here was have odys hands very visible for the qinny one. because i didnt realize the way they draw hands is very realisti#BUT THEIR WHOLE STYLE HAS REALLY REALISTIC ANATOMY I SHOULVE KNOWN#irunakis style is SO fun to draw in bc its a lot like some of my older art so its very familiar yk yk i wasnt worrying too much about makin#-things accurate. but i think that accidentally made me too comfortable and so i ended up straying a bit too much#i think a lot of irunaki and qinnys styles specifically is in the lineart. so me using my normal style of lines makes them less recognizabl#anyways. neals odysseus i have shit talked in private (its a good design it just feels uncanny w/ jorges voice to me) but hes really-#-interesting to draw. i wanna do style studies on neal their characters have a very. idk animated feels like the wrong word but like.#something like animated. feeling to them. theyre very distinct in shape i wanna do studies thats it#bigidiotenergy i found this morning while FINALLY looking at cloudysseus art and instantly fell in love w their design#i need to ruffle his hair. hes so silly. absolutely incredible design. but GOD was the style a nightmare#it was too late id already comitted to trying to replicate the styles. but ohhh my god its so far from my own it was so hard#theres so much detail in places i dont normally put any at all#and its like. WAUGH its scary i need to do anatomy studies in general maybe#uhh havent commented on the gigi one. he was really easy to draw though lol. weirdly enough gigis style was close enough to my current one-#-that i didnt have any trouble whatsoever? and i think its the most accurate too but only because of the lineart styles being similar lol#ALSO NOT TO PLAY FAVORITES BUT FOOP ODYSSEUS IS MY FAVORITE#I LOVE HIMMM I LOVE HIS SILLY SHAPES HE LOOKS LIKE A WEIRD CAT KINDA. HE INTRIGUES ME.#my ody feels kinda lame next to all these guys gbfdefgbf#but oh well. hes ingrained into my mind now i cant change him at this point /silly i am actually happy w him but i might make changes#thaats thoughts on all of the odys here. anyways art tags time#doodles#odysseus#epic the musical#OH MY GOD EDIT I FORGOT TO DRAW FOOP ODYS SHOES. HEAD IN HANDS. IM SO SORRY
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you always land on all fours
#umineko#umineko spoilers#ikuko hachijo#ikukos turn for a more serious piece... the old man has reigned for too long#now. INCREDIBLY LONG INCOHERENT TAGS RANT INCOMING FAIR WARNING HAS BEEN GIVEN:#it makes me so so sad how little discussion there is about specifically ikuko because imho she fits so neatly into a lot of the more#overarching Big Themes of the game in a way that i have not ever really seen people take notice of or point out in a meaningful way#like even just off of the top of my head. the significance of names and what it means to go by a name that's Not Yours (she has like 4+)#what it Means to be a witch how it represents a person's deepest insecurities and flaws & how its at its core a coping mechanism#the fact that it takes two to create a universe and trying to do it on your own anyways has the capacity to bring you intense misery#^ (how she's shown to be extremely dismissive of her own work and skill until a collaborator comes into her life and helps/encourages her)#and even the family/patriarchy/misogyny stuff that is so prevalent in the rest of the game comes back around to her. even her Only Friend#(young&stupid atp to be fair) remarks that shes Weird for being unmarried + the little she does say about her past invites the question of#to what extent her self-image stems from her family deeming her a freak outcast & effectively disowning her while celebrating her brothers#and i have lot in my mind about the witch thing specifically because i think her particular situation is very reflective of what umineko's#entire magic system and fantasy facet as a whole is meant to represent for an individual. from what little we see of (what is presumably)#her Real personality she is shown to be deeply self conscious in a way that is JARRINGLY diametrically opposed to both 1.) what we see in#featherine and 2.) what we see when she is acting as a Public Figure. because both of the above are very much purposeful acts that she is#putting on in order to obfuscate her true self. and i have always been very resolute & adamant about not totally equating her to featherine#not only because im very firmly in the camp of “featherine is the avatar of the Pen Name & tohya is part of her too” but also very much b/c#i feel very strongly that the stark differences between the two are very centrally relevant to her character & her psyche. as is the case#with most other witches featherine's personality traits serve to reveal/magnify a lot of ikukos inner workings by playing on her#insecurities/reversing them e.g. ikuko being very quick to downplay her skill/achievements becomes featherine being the COMPLETE opposite#to the point where she barely registers even other witches as living beings rather than just fun touys. BUT even though i do champion the#ikuko/featherine separation so hard i ALSO think it is purposefully relevant that at first glance the line between them seems so blurry#her introduction implying a more nebulous separation between her reality/fantasy counterpart is i think is an intentional move on her part#like it is part of the front she is putting up when acting as the Author. as opposed to Ikuko the person who we (in a way ironically very#similar to the way that the Real Battler is presumably only shown during the boatscene) only very briefly get to see take up screentime#which even on a meta level lines up very well with her apparent underlying nature as a like. extremely private largely reserved/shy person#hit tag limit but if by some miracle anyone is still reading this thank you... please see ikuko with the love she deserves... ok ily byeee
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Guess who has been rewatching iasip...
#it me. i have been rewatching it! (pointing at myself)#macdennis#iasip#macden#dennis reynolds#mac mcdonald#it's always sunny in philadelphia#girl help lol#i always loved the way they love (violently. obsessively. with hatred and desperation)#is iasip comparable to no exit by jean-paul sarte. discuss#sorry its so weird i usually only reference iasip with jokes. now im here. drawing art#they are hard to draw btw. i just dump all of the doodles at once like usual. mayhaps i'll even upload it to the drive
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alien bugs your gs
#i had so much funw ith these............. defintiely want to do more but artfights gotta be priority first#but im really liking thinking about how to design lumith again! its fun figuring out whats standard and then how do i break those rules#life series#mcyt#life series smp#scott smajor#smajor1995#pearlescentmoon#zombiecleo#w1f1 draws#all of the gs are not quiiiite standard in some way :3#cleos got unusually large markings that are kind of just splotches instead of consistent shape markings#scotts got weird ear dangles (those need a better name) and instead of having the streaks like normal it takes up. almost all of his hair.#(lumith natural hair colors sit in a similar range to humans. just they have colored streaks in the same colors as their markings as well)#(but scott is a rare case where its more streaks than normal color but the normal color still shows through a bit at the root. and eyebrows#and pearls got slightly thicker streaks than normal and has two colors instead of one! dark blue and a small touch of light yellow#its nothing in any way that impacts any of their lives. but i like bringing in new variance to lumiths that they didnt really have before#two tones like pearl were kinda a thing i thought of back in likeeeeeeeee late 2020 early 2021? but i didnt do much with that#but pearl felt like something was off if she was only dark blue so i gave her the yellow and it feels right now#lumith
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losing my actual mind rn
i had this interaction in the dropout discord (i am the first and third person). short. simple. i only got the first year bc of a discount + a gift card i had, so i was planning on using this person's suggestion.
then, i got this.
oh my god!! how nice!! how sweet!!! how thoughtful!! i gave them my email and they sent over a subscription, i thanked them profusely. i was very grateful, very touched.
hours and hours later i was still thinking about it and i recalled how, in the email id gotten about it, it said "tao yang sent you a subscription" and id seen that and thought "oh haha like the tao yang" and then moved on
but now, thinking back, i was like.... theres no way, so i googled tao yang.
......
TAO YANG BOUGHT ME A FUCKING ANNUAL DROPOUT SUBSCRIPTION
#tao yang#dropout#dropout.tv#dimension 20#AAAAAAAAAAA#losing my literal actual mind#i think hes so funny#i was already rly grateful and touched and now im just like flustered and starstruck#this is quite literally the most celebrity interaction ive ever had in my life#and i didnt even realize while it was happening#now i want to message him again but i feel like thatd be weird#sam responded to my question once and i still think about it now months latwr#bc THAT had been the most direct celebrity intersection id had#and this was like six levels above that#crazy world we live in#anyway. i have dropout again!!!! yippee!!!!
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Bored af so Bloom redesign let's go!!
#winx club#winx bloom#winx fanart#bloom redesign#ft. my inconsistent artstyle#tumblr absolutely butchered the quality :(#So#forgot this blog existed ngl#the winx reboot's around the corner (i think idk)#and then I got hit with flashbacks (insert guy in battlefield with an absolutely dreadful stare meme)#and the fandom dragged me back kicking and screaming#I have a whole new winx au now help#so many hc's...#anyway fit 1 is how I feel Bloom's aesthetic is and stuff (fit 2 is more tame and true to the series version)#she has the “weird” kid vibes#not in a bad way ofc#like the artsy DIY girlie who has encyclopedic knowledge of everything and anything about fairies#probably has a sketchbook/diary with drawings of her fairysona and bits of random fairy knowledge#anyway im gonna call my new winx au “Winx:Reimagined” (hopefully no one's claimed that title yet...)#istg the amount of worldbuilding I have in my google doc is... well. A lot.#anyways can I just say I always imagined the Specialists being the Mandalorians of Winx? (Just way less cooler n' badass)#my art#Winx:Reimagined#(There will be more)
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