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happyk44 · 27 minutes ago
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[Text ID: 1. All the love in the world is useless when there is total lack of understanding."
2. "if you love me, you don't love me in a way i understand."
3. YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN MORE OF A DOG PERSON
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Change is not good for me. I unravel like a ball of yarn at the rearrangement of furniture,
at an irregularity in the texture of my canned chicken pâté, at you leaving.
I place the carcass of a bird at your feet. I love you but not in a way you understand. /end ID]
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— Franz Kafka // Richard Siken
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starsinthesky5 · 3 days ago
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you are in love V pt 2 // JOE BURROW
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✰ description: this upcoming week will be monumental for you and joe. both of you have a chance to get to the top of the mountain in your respective careers, and for the first time, you are by each other's side through it all, and the whole world is watching
✰ universe: you are in love masterlist
✰ previous parts ➜ you are in love V pt 1 ➜ you are in love: big reputations pt 1
✰ a/n: this took SO long but i really like how it turned out 🥹 i hope you enjoy it as much as i did :) as always ily all and thank you for being here
warnings: language, annoying paparazzi and people with big mouths, smut SMUT SMUT. god this belongs in horny jail, MDNI. m. reciving oral, fem. recviving oral, unprotected p in v, a smidge of dom joe and sub reader, the usual...kind of ;) wc: 39.9 k music in no particular order: songbird - fleetwood mac (wink wink wink), cornelia street - taylor swift, earned it - the weeknd, never let me go - florence + the machine, dress - taylor swift, slow hands - niall horan, till forever falls apart - ashe, finneas, to love - suki waterhouse (this one!!!!), PDA - backstreet boys or the unreleased frank ocean version, can't take my eyes off you - frank valli 
✰ taglist: (ask to be added): @joeyfranchise @joeyb1989 @joeyburrrow @softburrow @burrowbarbie @yelenasbraid @lovelyburrow @majestic87 @grittysbiggestfan @definitelynotdomanique @burrowswomen @lilfreakjez @fourburrow @ladyluvduv
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The scent of freshly baked beignets drifted through the hotel suite, every corner holding space for the delectable aroma of the powdery southern delight you had been dreaming indulging in since you touched down in the big easy. The fragrance filled your nostrils, each inhale of the sugary treat allowing your body to ease up against the plush pillows you were sprawled out on, aimlessly scrolling through your phone, hoping that the clock would somehow magically skip to 6 p.m. To your left, the nightstand looked like a shrine to your night out. Perched on the edge were two empty daiquiri to-go vessels from Voodoo Chicken and Daiquiris—the place you and Joe had stumbled into late last night after the GQ fashion show. You opted for mardi gras mambo, a mix of fruity melons and tequila, whereas Joe’s droopy eyes were instantly caught by blue bayou—pineapple and coconut blended with vodka, gin, rum, and blue curacao. 
God, you both got so unbelievably drunk last night. Which explained the silver and black masquerade mask tossed beside them, a last-minute buy from a corner souvenir shop you’d dragged him into with a pout and too much charm for him to resist. Purple and green beads you were handed by a laughing local on Bourbon Street sat tangled next to a half-eaten pack of Skittles—ones you told him not to get because he’d never finish them. A brand-new LSU hat (as if your closet wasn’t already flooded with them, not even counting Joe’s collection) lay half-crushed under the clutter. And, of course, his stash of fruity edible gummies, never too far from reach.
Then, somewhere on the plush floor of the suite lay your green dress from last night, Joe’s black jeans, and a lacy lilac lingerie set—carefully chosen, less carefully discarded.
Remnants of a night well spent. 
You’d been counting down the minutes until the clock struck six, the golden hour when Joe would finally return to you, fresh from a whirlwind of press, interviews, and NFL Honors obligations. The whole week had been a blur of tailored outfits and flashing cameras, and while you loved seeing him in his element, today you’d opted for solitude. A self-care day, wrapped in soft robes and scented oils, letting the noise of the outside world melt away with each slow breath and every powdered beignet.
Earlier in the week, the two of you had managed to steal a few rare moments of one-on-one time from Joe’s packed schedule. Mornings were slow and quiet, starting with café au lait, and obviously, those powdered delights at Café du Monde, where you’d sit tucked into a corner table, the hum of jazz musicians drifting in from Jackson Square just a block away. The two of you people-watched as the French Quarter came alive, from street artists sketching portraits to local musicians playing old brass tunes that made you sway in your seat. You always teased him for how the powdered sugar clung to his nose and stubble like snow, and he’d pretend to pout until you leaned in and kissed it away. You snapped a picture of him once mid-bite, powdered sugar dusting his black hoodie and the sweetest, messiest grin on his face. It was one of your favorites. 
The sidewalks shimmered just a little from the morning rain, horse-drawn carriages trotted past on Decatur Street, and somewhere in the distance, a church bell rang at the top of the hour, reminding you both that time was still passing even if it felt like the rest of the world had slowed just for you. You wandered through the Garden District in the afternoons, walking hand-in-hand beneath the canopy of moss-draped oaks and pointing out the pastel-painted houses you claimed you’d buy one day “just for the vibe,”. You dragged him into voodoo shops and vintage bookstores, lingering over handmade candles and old jazz records, buying a tiny ceramic gator just because it made you laugh. He pretended to complain but carried the bags without fussing, even as you insisted on posing next to every hand-painted mural or old street sign you passed.
Every time you walked past a shop or bar that had an old LSU poster plastered on the wall, a familiar one from his college glory days, you’d gasp like it was brand new. “Oh my god, wait…is that you?” you’d say, finger pointing toward a sun-faded photo of him mid-throw in his yellow & purple number nine jersey. Sometimes the shop owners would recognize him, give him a nod, or ask for a picture. But more often than not, you were the one making a scene, eyes wide with mock surprise.
“You’re not funny,” he’d mumble, cheeks pink with bashfulness as he tried to tug you along before he drew a crowd.
“You’re kind of a big deal around here, Joseph,” you’d tease, looping your arm through his. “I’m just proud of my Tiger,”.
You made a reservation at Commander’s Palace one night, where the two of you split turtle soup and sipped sazeracs under glowing chandeliers. Another evening, you sat along the banks of the Mississippi with your feet dangling off the edge of the Moonwalk, sharing bites of fried shrimp po’boys and feeding stray fries to the pigeons. He took a blurry disposable-camera photo of you there, wind in your hair, city behind you—one you swore you’d frame because of how it seemed to capture you in your most natural state, like you were just another girl in the crescent city.  
And tonight? Tonight was another special night for you both. Just the two of you, slipping back into your bubble with a reservation at Lilette waiting—a quiet table, dim lights, your favorite black dress, and the man you’d been missing all afternoon. The thought alone made your stomach flutter. You could already see it, the way his hand was resting low on your back as you walked in, his body loosened by the end of dinner because of one too many glasses of wine, his eyes holding the kind of depth and glint that made you fall deeper in love with him. 
You nearly dozed off waiting for him, the warmth of the suite and the break of the late afternoon casting a sleepy haze over your limbs. But instead of giving in, you fought to keep your blood moving, thumb lazily scrolling through Twitter for a little pick-me-up. You had made it a habit to not scroll on social media for too long, especially since you kept your distance from it for over 5 months for a reason, but you couldn’t help the nagging urge to check in with your fans, take a peek at what they were saying about you. Nobody was around to stop you either, and it didn’t take long before you were buried in it, knee deep in comment sections, since just a few days ago you’d dropped the kind of news that made the internet spiral like never before—no warning, no countdown clock, just a groundbreaking performance at the Grammys and a simple post announcing your most special project to date. And ever since that night, your mentions, your inboxes, your notifications…they had been a wild place. A collage of capital letters, snake emojis, and old lyrics quoted like scripture. Oh, and you couldn't forget the fan theories that made you laugh out loud because of their hilariously bad interpretations.
For example, ‘but daddy i love him’ is 1000% about her ex. you know, the one everyone warned her about? the one with the red flags she tried to bleach white? it’s giving ‘i can fix him’ energy…in minor key. she’s defending the indefensible, pleading her case like she’s on trial for loving him. it’s also a reference to the little mermaid, the scene where ariel says it to her father, after he forbids her from being with prince eric.
“They seriously think I’d write a song trying to justify the 4 years of hell I went through?” you questioned, brows furrowing at the mere thought of writing anything remotely pleasant about that loser. This theory couldn’t have been more far-fetched, and the only part that was surprisingly accurate, given how ridiculous it all sounded, was how it is a reference to that scene from The Little Mermaid, aka your favorite Disney movie. That was a well-known fact by your most devoted fans, especially since you went as Ariel for Billie Eilish’s Halloween party a few years ago when you lived in LA full-time.
They had it all wrong, this song wasn’t about your ex; it was about Joe. 
It was about the quiet rebellion you were going through, an ode to your newfound confidence that allowed you to break free from the rusted shackles the industry—and some fans—had placed around your wrists. It was a candid response to the late-night phone calls from your management, the ones laced with caution and PR language.
“Think about your image. Think about the optics of dating a high-profile athlete. Don’t throw away your redemption arc for someone who won’t even slow down to make space for you privately, let alone publicly,”.
But they didn’t know Joe. No. Not like you did.
It was about the pin-drop silence from people you once trusted, friends who ghosted when you told them about Joe, who reappeared only to offer thinly veiled concern once it was clear this wasn’t just a fling. The kind of concern that sounded more like judgment. Like disappointment masked as care. It was about the eventual media frenzy that would follow when you went public, how you could already feel it coming, how it loomed like a storm cloud no matter how tightly you clung to the sunshine he gave you. 
You couldn’t forget the eventual slut-shaming headlines either, misogyny dressed up as concern, written by men with fragile egos and louder keyboards than common sense. Men who had never known what it was like to have their every move dissected, who believed dragging your name through the mud somehow earned them credibility. The “she moved on too fast” narrative that would cling to you like smoke, impossible to shake, even though your ex had emotionally and physically checked out long before the relationship ended. But the truth never mattered as much as the spectacle. It was always easier, cleaner, simpler for the man. 
You could hear the smug, pitying whispers—he’ll break her heart, just like the last one. Said with such certainty, like heartbreak was a script you were destined to repeat in every lifetime. And for a little bit, you feared they might be right. That maybe you were hard to love. Too complicated. Too visible. 
But then…there was Joe. 
Quiet, steady Joe, who never once made you question your worth or your place in his world. The only ones who made you question your worth were them; at this point, you’d had enough of it. You’d rather burn your whole life to the ground than sit through one more second of their relentless bitching and moaning. They always thought they knew better, like they owned you, like you owed it to them to live your life on their terms. But no. You never had, and you never would. Not for them. Not for all those vipers dressed in empath’s clothing.
It was about the dissection of your body language, your lyrics, and your tone of voice during interviews. About the persistent analysis of your facial expressions, as if joy, peace, and love couldn’t possibly be real on a woman like you, not after everything. It was about how they couldn’t stand to see you break free from the good girl image they’d boxed you into your entire career. The persona they’d built their expectations around. They didn’t like that you stepped out of the frame. That you’d found someone, really found someone, outside the fairytale nightmare they had written for you.
They didn’t like that you chose him.
Because choosing him meant choosing yourself. Your instincts. Your intuition. Your right to be happy in a way that made no sense to anyone else but you.
The song was a defense. Not of a mistake, but of a decision. A gut feeling. A man. It was about the sideways glances and complacent little warnings. “Are you sure? He has so much on his plate, he doesn’t give the vibe he’s looking for someone serious. These football players don’t have any part of themselves unoccupied to give to their partner. They always take from them, and when they’re bored, discard them like an old gum wrapper. They only care about themselves. Joe is probably no different,”.
But they couldn’t be more wrong about him. Joe, your Joe, didn’t deserve to be stereotyped like this. Not when his actions showed you he was more than the typical 
He brought you soup when you were sick, still warm from the little spot all the way by the banks that you loved, because nothing else ever quite hit the same. He’d sit beside you with a spoon in one hand and a thermometer in the other, gently brushing your hair back like it was instinct, like he was made to take care of you. He watched Pride and Prejudice without a single eye-roll, eyes flicking over to you during your favorite parts just to watch you smile. He started quoting Darcy with that playful little smirk, like he knew exactly what he was doing to your heart. He pressed kisses to your temple before meetings, before games, before you left for a trip, before you had to pull yourself out of the safe, sleepy cocoon of his arms. And whenever your anxiety started creeping in—when the noise in your head got a little too loud—he noticed. Always. Without you ever having to say a word. He’d pull you into his chest or lace your fingers with his, grounding you with the gentlest touch. He let you squeeze his hand tight, white-knuckle tight, when things got overwhelming. Never once flinched. Never told you to ease up. Never let go.
He carried your bags through airports when you were too tired to keep your head up. Left little notes in your luggage when you had to leave Cincinnati. He rubbed the knots from your shoulders after a long day, bought your favorite granola bars in bulk so you’d never run out, and stood in the bathroom holding your plush headband like a crown whenever it was face mask night. He learned your rhythms. He paid attention—not because he had to, but because he wanted to. Because loving you, in all your softness and strength, was the most natural thing in the world to him.
And that’s what the song was about. 
Just love. The quiet kind. The kind that stays, because the right person always stays despite all the chaos and revelry. The kind of love you used to dream about as a little girl, when the world still felt wide and full of magic. Not the kind that roared or demanded attention, but the kind that unfolded slowly, like a favorite song or a sunrise. Reckless in its honesty, but in a way that made you feel safe. Weightless, like breathing fresh air after holding it for too long. Love that didn’t ask you to shrink or bend. Love that let you take up space. It was love that met you where you were. That knew the bruises you carried and didn’t flinch. The kind that held your hand in silence when the noise got too loud, that made the ordinary feel extraordinary—morning smoothie, a quiet drive, someone saving you the last bite. It was steady. warm. It didn’t chase validation, it just was.
And it was that kind of love that made you stand taller, steadier. That made you say, I know who I am, I know who he is. I’m not asking for your approval anymore. I just don’t care. Because with him, you didn’t need to care. And you, being you, felt it coming long before it ever arrived. The shift in public tone. The think pieces, the discourse, the warnings laced in mock concern. That’s why you wrote ‘but daddy i love him’. You weren’t naive, you were aware. You saw the curve in the road miles ahead and adjusted your grip on the wheel, swerving gently but intentionally, protecting the two of you from wrecking the car you’d spent so long building—bolt by bolt, mile by mile. You weren’t about to let anyone else take the wheel, let alone crash it for you.
As you continued scrolling, you saw screenshots of old headlines that made you flinch; some harsh, some haunting. There were grainy clips from your early tour days, footage of you spinning under stage lights with a fire in your eyes that had dimmed for a while but never fully gone out. Fans were posting slowed-down audio of songs you hadn’t touched in years, overlaying them with teary captions and edits stitched together like love letters. They were celebrating your comeback by reliving each moment from your past, showing you how far you’d come, how you had grown into yourself with each strum of your signature black guitar.
“Once, she was the girl who stood still, clutching the microphone with both hands because she was scared someone would take it from her. Now, she’s the woman who commands the stage with a fire in her eyes that only existed in myths, striding across the floor like she owns every inch…because she does.”
Everywhere you looked, people were piecing together the breadcrumbs, decoding every glance, every lyric snippet, every cryptic Instagram caption like it was part of some master map guiding them into your next era. They weren’t just listening; they were dissecting. Reading between the lines. Drawing red strings between song titles and moments you thought had gone unnoticed. Some were already applauding the direction you seemed to be taking with the new album, how it wasn’t just another breakup record or a tell-all, but something deeper. A reflection of how the past year had really felt. You were surprised by some of their theories, especially considering all they had to go on was a tracklist and a single poem. But that was the thing about your fans, they were frighteningly good at pulling truth from shadows, finding meaning in even the quietest gestures. Even when you didn’t mean to say much…they heard everything.
“She could’ve taken the full revenge route and made this album all about him, like her last one, but with more anger than poetry, make it about everything he did to her, about everything the world did to her. But she isn’t. Because she’s healing. She’s choosing to use this opportunity to show the world she’s not that girl anymore. She’s madly in love with someone who’s given her what she spent years chasing across so many different worlds, and now, she doesn’t even want to look back. Yeah, she’s calling them out. But more importantly…she’s letting go and appreciating what’s right in front of her.”
You lingered on that one; it sat with you in the deepest part of your heart. It felt true, truer than any of the dissertations or fan theories thrown around. This album hadn’t been forged in rage. It hadn’t clawed its way out of the ashes of revenge. Sure, there were shades of that, the bite in your lyrics, those edges sharpened by memory. The kind of lines that made people pause and wonder who exactly you were aiming at. But underneath it all, it wasn’t about settling scores.
It was silk after years of sandpaper, a little more velvet, a little less poison. And woven into every chorus, tucked inside each bridge, was something you’d spent so long believing you didn’t deserve—real, steady love, which Joe had inspired. Not just by showing up in the way you used to write about in your most hopeful verses, but by loving you without conditions, without expectations. Loving you when you were unsure, still falling apart at the seams. When your confidence was cracked and your spirit was still gluing itself back together. And somewhere along the way, you realized he wasn’t the exception. 
He was the reward, and you were going to make sure everyone was aware of that. 
You were still smiling, that fan comment replaying in your head like one of your melodies, when the lock to the hotel suite clicked open. Your eyes flicked to the time, “He’s early,” you murmured, surprise blooming into anticipation, your pulse jumping in your throat. The excitement spread through you like wildfire, hot, fast, and unstoppable.
Without thinking, you tossed your phone to the side, the tweet still glowing on the screen, and padded across the plush carpet. The door creaked just as you reached it, and then he was there. Slightly flushed from the New Orleans heat, his shirt sleeves rolled to his elbows, giving that rushed kind of handsome he didn’t even try to be. His hair was a little damp at the temples, tousled in that way you loved, like he’d run a hand through it a dozen times thinking about you on the ride over.
“Hey, bab—,” he started, but you didn’t let him finish. You grabbed a fistful of his shirt and pulled him in hard, kissing him like you’d been starving for it, and maybe you had. His breath hitched, arms coming around you in a flash, palms spreading across your back like he needed to feel every inch of you just to breathe right.
His hands moved lower, fingers curling beneath the hem of your shirt, then down until they were cupping your ass, squeezing gently, pushing you further into him. Your body molded to his like muscle memory, your kiss deepening with every passing second, all tongue and heat and unspoken sweet nothings. When you finally broke apart, it was only for air; your lips swollen, his chest rising fast beneath your hands. He chased your mouth instinctively, forehead dropping to yours once he realized he wasn’t getting any more, breath mingling in the tight space between you. “What was that for?” he asked, his voice having that adorable kind of softness that it always had when he spoke to you, the corners of his mouth tilted in a breathless smile.
You looked up at him, heart still hammering. “Can’t a girl smooch her boyfriend like it’s the last thing she’ll ever get to do? I missed my soon-to-be MVP,” you said, fingers brushing along his jawline, just beneath that familiar dimple. Joe let out a low laugh, forehead still pressed to yours, hands never leaving your body. “I missed you, too,” he murmured. “But damn…if that’s the welcome I get, I might start coming early every time,”.
You smirked, already leaning in again. “Yeah? Maybe you should,” you mumbled as you kissed him…slower this time. Deeper. Like you had time. Like the world could wait. Like he needed this, needed you, to quench something he hadn’t even realized had been building up in his chest all day. The kind of kiss that felt like the start of a storm and the calm that followed it. Your hands slid up, framing his face, your thumbs brushing the warm skin just beneath his cheekbones. You tilted his face up slightly and pulled back—not far, just enough to look at him, to breathe.
He didn’t let you go easily.
A soft groan escaped his throat, and he chased your mouth with his own again, eyes fluttering open in quiet protest, his hands still heavy on your hips. “Hey,” you whispered, your smile forming again, soft and teasing. “Dinner,” you reminded him, “You should shower,”. 
Joe sighed like you’d just told him Christmas was canceled, but he pressed one last kiss to your lips before finally stepping back. “You’re lucky that I’m all sweaty because if I weren’t, I’d take you straight to bed and have you limping before dinner,” he muttered as he peeled off his emotional support satchel and slipped off his shoes. 
You trailed him with your eyes, unable to help the way they wandered as your stomach fluttered at his words. The white shirt he was wearing was snug across his shoulders, his sleeves still rolled up just enough to show his forearms, the veins in his hands prominent as he worked the buttons of his jeans open. He looked good. A little sun-kissed from the NOLA sun, lips coated with your shimmery lip gloss, jaw sharp as ever, and brow still slightly furrowed from how much he hadn’t wanted to pull away from you. “How was everything today?” you asked, trying to sound casual even as your eyes undressed him in the most filthy way possible, piece by piece. 
“Busy,” he said. “Back-to-back interviews. A lot of talk about the season. Offseason plans. Everyone wants to know how I’m feeling, what I’m doing, what I think about next year, some stuff about Ja’marr, Tee, Trey, and Mike’s contracts,”. You leaned against the arm of the couch, smiling at how he likely used these interviews as an opportunity to stick up for his guys and piss off the FO. “And? What’d you tell them? About your offseason plans?”. 
“That I’m excited for the break. To train, reset. To spend time with you,” he smiled a little as he finally slipped his jeans off, his voice turning softer. “Told them I finally get a real off-season. Not just physically, free from injury rehab, but mentally too. It’s different when you’ve got something—someone—worth slowing down for. I won’t find myself thinking about ball, watching old tapes, or training more than I should this year because I have something else, something better to focus on,”. 
Your chest tightened at that. You didn’t say anything, just gave him a look, one that said everything he already knew. “Someone worth slowing down for,” you repeated to yourself in your head. 
They said he wouldn’t do it, that he was incapable of making space for you in his already large, chaotic life, which is why this relationship was a bad idea. They said that trying to make a home in his world would be like planting flowers in a storm—beautiful, but ultimately useless. They told you his life was already too big, too loud, too fast. A freight train with no brakes. A stadium always at full capacity. There wouldn’t be space for someone like you, someone who needed quiet corners and small moments. Someone who wanted more than highlight reels and halftime glances.  
But they were wrong. Because he did. He slowed down.
Not all at once, not with a dramatic screech or fireworks, but gradually, intentionally. Like dusk creeping in over a city skyline. Like turning the volume down on the noise, just to hear your voice better. He carved out space for you in a life that wasn’t built for stillness, rearranged the furniture in his soul to make sure you had room to stay.  
And that? That wasn’t a sacrifice. That was his love for you, elemental, bone-deep, and star-bound. The kind of devotion etched not in fleeting time but in the eternal, a sacred tether spun from quiet understanding and infinite heart.
He disappeared into the bathroom a second later, and the sound of the shower starting up echoed faintly through the suite. You weren’t planning to follow. Not at first. But you’d barely sat down before your mind started to wander, back to the way his hands had gripped your waist, the way his hot mouth had moved against yours, how easily he melted under your touch. You heard the glass door slide open, the sharp hiss of the water hitting the tile following suit. 
That’s when your curiosity got the better of you.
You tiptoed toward the bathroom, the open door giving you a perfect view through the fogging glass. He stood under the spray, head tipped back beneath the water, steam curling off his shoulders. The muscles in his back flexed as he reached for the soap, every movement fluid and unhurried. He was relaxed in a way that made you ache—bare, beautiful, completely unaware of the way he was driving you insane. You bit your lip, watching his hands trail down his chest, over his abs, down….oh. Your breath hitched, and just like that, the heat in your core surged. 
He’d been working so hard lately, the fruits of his labor visible in his protruding biceps and broad shoulders, a result of training sessions with barely a day off, even in the thick of your offseason ventures. He’d been in and out of planes, hopping time zones like they were practice drills, flying to the Grammys with you, and before that, you’d spent time in France, and still somehow he was managing to stay locked in with his routine without complaints or refusal. You watched him stretch himself thin trying to be everything, QB1, boyfriend, travel companion, your safe place. Always carrying the weight so effortlessly, even when you could see the strain tucked into the corners of his crinkling eyes, the tightness of his jaw, the quiet-tired way he moved when he thought you weren’t looking. And still, he made time for you. Made space. Leaned in when he could’ve leaned away. He never let the chaos swallow either of you whole.
“He does so much for me…for us. Maybe I should do a little something for him to show how much I appreciate it,” you murmured to yourself, a slow smile tugging at your lips, the thought blooming as naturally as the coffee he’d brought you that morning—just the way you liked it, still hot, with a sticky note on the lid that said don’t forget how loved you are.
You knew the smarter choice, the more logical one, was to wait until after dinner. To be patient. To let the night play out the way you’d planned: a slow meal, a glass of wine or two, laughter spilling between bites, both of you melting into that sweet, familiar rhythm you loved so much. No time constraints. No rush. Just you and him, lazy and tipsy and touching each other like the rest of the world didn’t exist.
But then he walked out of the shower like that, and suddenly, all your resolve crumbled.
He was fresh from the steam, skin warm and flushed from the hot water, a towel slung low on his hips like it was barely holding on. His chest rose and fell with slow, even breaths, but each drop of water that slid down the hard planes of his body felt like a dare. Your eyes followed the trail as it dipped into the deep V at his hips, and your mouth actually watered. His hair was damp, pushed back with nothing but his fingers, a few rogue strands falling loose in the kind of way that should’ve been illegal. He looked undone and effortless all at once, so painfully beautiful and so unaware of what he was doing to you just by existing.
You didn’t stand a chance. There was no way you’d be able to sit through dinner making polite conversation and pretending like you weren’t burning for him. Not when your thighs were already pressing together, not when your mind was clouded with one single thought. Your head twisted to look back at the digital clock perched on the TV table, a slight damper on your excitement when you realized there really wasn’t enough time for you to go all the way with him.
But that didn’t mean you couldn’t treat him…did it? Give him something that was just for him? Pleasure wrapped in reverence. The kind of touch that asked for nothing in return, that simply said thank you. Going down on him, letting him feel everything through you—your hands, your mouth, the way you looked up at him like he was the only thing that mattered. Watching him come undone beneath your heat, to remind him that he didn’t always have to hold it all together. “It’s been a minute since I did that,” you murmured to yourself, your gaze dragged over him slowly, greedily, taking in every inch of him. Fresh from the shower, steam still clinging to his skin, dripping and golden like some Roman God sculpted in candlelight. 
You pushed off the door and moved toward him like it was instinct, each step leaving behind a trail of fire as your eyes locked on him, like a hunter circling her prey. You watched as he reached for his fresh shirt, but you were already there. You stopped him with a hand on his chest, “Don’t,” you said softly, eyes dropping from his eyes to his lips, then back to his blues. “You’ve been working all week. Interviews, appearances, media, honors prep. You’ve been so…on. And don’t even get me started on how you handled everything with the Grammys and the aftermath. All the interview requests, slightly annoying questions, comments, messages, and how you’ve made sure that I’ve been okay through all the chaos,”.
He smiled like he always did, but you could see a hint of drowsiness in his eyes, heard the sluggish drag in his voice when he said, “...It’s my job, princess,”.
You shook your head, “It’s more than that, Joe. You’ve been carrying everything, going far beyond your usual threshold,” your eyes flicked up to his, full of heat and something deeper—gratitude. “Hustling. Smiling when you’re drained. Talking about the offseason break and training when you haven’t even had a second to rest…to slow down,” your hand slid down the broad plane of his chest, fingers grazing the faint ridges of muscle. You traced a slow, teasing path, past the flutter of his stomach as he breathed, until you reached the edge of the towel sitting dangerously low around his hips. “You’ve been showing up for me in ways I didn’t even know I needed,” you whispered. “Keeping snacks in your little satchel because I forget to eat in the middle of zoom meetings and fittings,” you giggled, the mention of his emotional support bag making him crack a grin. “...Making sure I drink enough water so I don’t pass out from the heat or from overworking myself, sending me videos of people praising my performance last weekend every hour so I never forget the feeling because you knew how much I missed it,”. 
He blinked, Adam’s apple bobbing in tandem, and you could see the emotion threatening to well up behind the lust in his eyes. He didn’t say anything, he didn’t need to because he always knew how much you appreciated the little things he did for you, even if you didn’t constantly voice it. “So now,” you continued, voice velvet-soft as you leaned in, lips brushing against his skin, “It’s my turn to show up for you,”. You let the towel fall, his eyes widening as you whispered, “Let me take care of you, baby. You’ve earned it,”.
Joe hissed in a breath as you dropped to your knees, hands moving the towel aside to the space beside you in one smooth motion. He let out a sharp breath as his cock sprang free, already heavy, the sight of you kneeling in front of him enough to coax a low groan from deep in his chest. He was gorgeous like this—cock thick, flushed at the tip, veins tracing up the sides, already twitching with anticipation. He was already gone before you even touched him, the hazy, dark look in his eyes making you spiral. “You’ve been so good,” you said, pressing a kiss to his hip, then lower. “So patient. So damn focused. Let me make you feel good,”.
You looked up at him with doe eyes, flashing him that innocent little grin as if you weren’t about to ruin him in the best way, and you could’ve sworn you saw his eyes actually darken, his jaw clench just a little more. You wrapped one hand around his base, stroking him once, twice, just to hear the way his breath hitched—before licking a long, slow stripe up the underside, tongue flattening as you reached the head. You gave the tip a teasing kiss, then took him into your mouth, slow and steady, moaning around him at the weight and taste of him. 
His hand instinctively threaded into your hair, but he didn’t guide…he just held, fingers flexing every time you did something that made his hips jerk. You took him in, inch by inch, lips stretching around his girth until he hit the back of your throat. You gagged slightly, spit already pooling around your lips, but you didn’t stop. You eased back, sucked him in again, slow and filthy. “Fuck Y/N,” he groaned, voice breaking as you continued to work him in every way you knew he loved. You bobbed your head gradually, your tongue swirling around the head each time you came up, lips wet and slick from pre-cum and saliva. The mess made you ache. You wanted him to see it—how much you wanted him, how much you loved making him fall apart. “God, baby…,” he grunted, hips twitching as you took him deeper, throat relaxing as he slid in further, lips stretching wide around him. “You’re…shit…you’re gonna make me lose it,”.
You pulled off just long enough to pant against the base of him, your hand still working him in firm, wet strokes. “Good. That’s the point,” you laughed. At first you worked him slowly—unhurried, sensual, letting every suck and slurp echo in the quiet of the suite bathroom. But soon, the pace quickened. You were drooling now, spit trickling from your chin faster than before each time you pulled away, coating his cock in a glossy sheen as you sucked and licked and twisted your hand in rhythm with every moan and gasp he let out. You made it filthy, just the way you knew he liked it. The sounds, your wet mouth, the soft pop every time you came up for air, his ragged breathing, the choked curse when you swallowed him whole again, filled the room. His thighs trembled beneath your hands, trembling with restraint, like he was holding himself back from fucking into your mouth. You could feel him getting close, twitching in your mouth, his grip on your hair tightening.
But then you moaned around him—loudly, with need—and he bucked without meaning to, the head of his cock hitting the back of your throat. You took it like a pro, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes, spit pooling on your tits and the sight nearly made him pull you up and fuck you right then and there. 
“Jesus Christ,” he rasped, head thrown back against the wall, his chest heaving as the pleasure coursed through his system. “You’re so fucking good at this, Y/N. You like it don’t you? Mouth full of my cock, makin’ me feel so good,”.
You hummed in agreement, the low vibration of it pulling a strangled curse from his lips. His fingers tightened in your hair, desperate now, hips bucking once, twice, until his whole body locked up, every muscle twisted tight as the pleasure surged through him in a wave he couldn’t hold back. His voice broke on a moan, deep and unguarded, his head tipping back hard against the wall again as you felt ropes of his release coat your throat. “That's it,” he whimpered. “That's my girl. So good for me, angel,” His words came out in pieces, like he was unraveling with each syllable, the praise falling out of him without a second thought—like he couldn’t not say it, like his body needed you to hear it just as much as he needed to say it.
You swallowed every drop, savoring the taste of him like the last bite of your favorite dessert. You only pulled back when you felt his muscles relax under your fingertips, and he let out a breathless, choked sound—his body slack from the rush, his chest rising and falling like he’d just run a mile. You licked him clean with one final drag of your tongue, as if you were sealing a promise between you. When you finally lifted your eyes, your lips were swollen and glistening, cheeks flushed from the slight ego boost you were getting by making him fall apart like this. Joe was staring down at you with wide, glassy eyes—like he couldn't believe you were real, like you’d just shifted the planets or something. “Baby, I…fuck. That was..,” he murmured, voice rough and thick with pleasure. His hand reached down to brush your cheek, tender in the aftermath of his orgasm.
You let out a quiet laugh, pushing yourself up to your feet, smoothing your palms down your thighs in one fluid motion. “You deserved it, Joey,” you whispered, pressing a kiss to the corner of his jaw. “I meant it,”.
He didn’t wait even a second to touch you again. His hands found your waist, pulling you flush against him like he couldn’t bear to let go just yet. His lips ghosted over yours, not quite kissing, just breathing you in. “You sure we have to go to dinner?” he asked, words dragging out with each breath.
You smiled against his mouth, smug and breathless. “Reservations are in thirty. We both gotta freshen up a bit. Better hustle, future MVP,”. 
He groaned in response, letting his forehead drop to your shoulder, his grip on your hips tightening for a beat like he was weighing whether to cancel it all just to take you back to bed like he wanted to all along. You playfully rolled your eyes, your fingers moving from his chest up to his damp hair. You threaded them through the strands and tugged gently, guiding his head to the side so you could press your lips just beneath his ear, “Be good at dinner,” you whispered, the promise laced in every breath, “And we’ll pick up right where we left off. Sound fair?”.
The way he sighed—deep, quiet, and desperate—told you he’d behave…but only barely. You’d been with him long enough to know that this man could never behave around you. Seriously, it was like a lightbulb turned on inside of him after the first time you had sex. 
“...Deal,” he said reluctantly, brushing one last lingering kiss to your cheek before finally moving the two of you away from the wall. His hand found yours, fingers lacing together like he couldn’t stand to not be touching you for even a second. “But first—,” he said, tugging you gently toward the vanity with a knowing smirk, “Clean up. Can’t have my girlfriend walkin’ out there with smudged lipstick and…other evidence all over her chest. Wouldn’t wanna give anyone the wrong impression, right?” he smirked. 
You let out a breathy laugh, heart still pounding from what just happened, “Oh, that we’re perpetually horny, like to fuck, and lack basic human decency? Nooo, totally don’t wanna give anyone that…obivous…er, impression,”. 
He barked out a short, sharp laugh, the sound echoing brightly off the marble countertop. His cheeks even pinked slightly, like he wasn’t immune to your teasing even now. With a roll of his eyes, he grabbed a fresh towel off the counter and handed it to you, followed immediately by your favorite moisturizer—the one he pretended to complain about every time you traveled together, calling it “highway robbery in a bottle,” but still, somehow, always remembered to toss in your bag if you forgot. You took them both, fingers brushing his as you did, your throat tightening a little at the familiar, unspoken tenderness of it. 
“He makes it so easy to love him,” you thought to yourself.
His gaze then dropped to your chest, still marked by the sheen of his pearly release. “God, you’re so beautiful when you’re like this,” he muttered, almost to himself, eyes dark and worshipful as they swept over you. And you knew exactly what he meant when he said that. It wasn’t the marks, it wasn’t the smeared lipstick or the chaos of your clothes barely hanging on your frame.
It was the way you looked at him.
Bare. Soft. Entirely his.
Something about that realization, how much of yourself you gave him without even meaning to, nearly knocked him flat.
You dabbed at your skin, glancing up at him in the mirror, catching the way he was watching you like he wanted to take you right back to the wall again. “You’re not making this very easy for yourself, are you?” you teased, smoothing the moisturizer across your collarbones. He grinned, a low, dangerous thing, and stepped in close behind you, sliding his arms around your waist, molding his chest to your back like he couldn’t stand the distance a second longer. His lips brushed your shoulder, feather-light, sending another shiver down your spine. “You’re the one who said I had to be good,” he murmured against your skin
You tilted your head slightly, giving him just a little more access, savoring the way his nose nuzzled into the curve of your neck like he couldn't help himself. You smirked, “But, you didn’t say I had to make it easy,”. 
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An hour later — Lilette 
After freshening up, fixing your hair, reapplying lipstick, and coaxing Joe into putting on what you had picked out for him versus the boring green shirt and jeans he had orginally set out, you both slipped into the backseat of a sleek black Uber, the tinted windows casting a soft glow over your still-warm cheeks. The car floated through the dimly lit streets of New Orleans, finding its way back toward the Garden District, where your dinner reservation waited. The restaurant, a French gem hidden behind a towering oak, in pictures, looked more like a secret than a business—its flickering lanterns and cream colored walls whispering promises of quiet romance and good wine.
Somewhere on the drive to the restaurant, you felt yourself succumb to the growing silence around you, which normally you’d find comfort in since you were with Joe. That silence would be filled with soft touches, chaste kisses, and listening to the sound of each other’s heartbeats; a peaceful time for you two to decompress and seek comfort in just existing in the same space for a little bit. But this time, the silence wasn’t between the two of you…it was just, around you for some reason. And it was far from peaceful, it felt…chilling. Unsettling, even. “I hope nobody notices us,” you murmured without realizing, staring out of the car window as you passed houses and buildings that looked like they were still trapped in the 18th century. 
Although you were comfortable being seen with Joe, hand in hand, camera flashes and all, that didn’t mean you always wanted to be noticed. Not like this, and especially not tonight. The past week had been an endless stream of small talk and smiling through growing exhaustion, of posed photos and forced energy. And even though you’d handled it all with grace, you could feel your social battery draining out faster than you’d expected. What you craved now wasn’t the spotlight. It was something simpler. A quiet table for two. Hands brushing beneath candlelight. A meal without interruption. A night where you didn’t have to be anyone but his. Where he didn’t have to be anyone but yours.
It wasn’t just the press, the constant performance, the smiles you had to flash at the right place and time. It was everything. The returning noise ever since the Grammys happened. The eyes—they were once again on you. On both of you, now. The expectations were high since you were back, with a new attitude, and a promising piece of work you were so confident about. It all made you feel tired in that quiet, bone-deep way that didn’t always show itself. The kind of tired that came from being everything to everyone, everywhere, all the time. You thought you’d broken free from that habit during your time away from the limelight, but deep down, you felt as if it was still there. Still managing to take over even if you did everything in your power to wash it away, and it sucked. 
Joe saw the apprehension in your body—the way your arms were crossed at your chest as if you were trying to shield yourself from a chill only you could feel, how your head was titled towards him against the headrest but your eyes were looking away, as if you couldn’t let him see the feeling that was swirling through your irises. He could hear the heaviness in your voice; he could tell something had shifted, like a song changing keys mid-melody. And it made his jaw tighten. Because he didn’t like it when something pulled you away from him like this—when the light dimmed behind your eyes and he wasn’t sure what shadow had caused it.
You didn’t mean to shrink away from him, really. This wasn’t about him. But when you’d finally had space to breathe in the back of a car, no screens, no comments to read over, it hit you just how loud everything had been lately; how much you already missed the version of your life where it was just the two of you in your own bubble.
“Hey,” he said softly as his hand found your thigh, reminding you that he was right there. He scooted closer, knees crashing gently together, his presence trying to pull you back into the moment. “You okay?” he asked, his eyes searching yours, concern already written across his brows.
You paused. Your lips parted, but no words came right away. You didn’t want to lie, not to him. So you turned your face back toward the window, watching the lights blur past. “I…I don’t know,” you whispered. “I think I’m just…tired. Not like sleepy-tired. Just...tired in my heart. It’s like I can feel the weight of everyone watching us. Waiting for something to go wrong. It’s only been a few days since everything but I just feel…nervous. I don’t know,”. 
You reached out and traced a faint path on the glass, your breath fogging it up. “I keep thinking about how safe it felt when we were still just ours. When we could kiss without wondering who saw, laugh without worrying who’d twist it into something ugly. It was quieter then. We were quieter. And now—,” you turned back to him, your voice trembling. “I’m scared it’s all gonna get too loud. That the noise will get in and chip away at what we built. That we’ll start folding under the pressure without even realizing it. That we’ll wake up one day and not recognize this...us,”. Your voice cracked on that last word, because that fear was so real you couldn’t even verbalize it properly. And don’t get it twisted, he never made you doubt your relationship, your love, this partnership between you both. But you couldn’t help but feel guilty, feel scared to drag him into your side of the world after building and nurturing your relationship in the safety of his world.
Joe didn’t speak immediately, and part of you braced for empty comfort out of habit—reassurances without roots, because that’s how it went in your last relationship, since you had the same fear back then, too. But when he finally did, his voice was quiet, steady, and so full of love it made your throat tighten. “Then we shut the windows, baby,” he said, thumb brushing slow circles over your knee. “We don’t let the noise in. They can shout and post and whisper all they want. But they don’t know what we have. They only think they do,”.
He reached for your hand, entwining your fingers like it was second nature, like he couldn’t imagine a world where your hands weren’t meant to fit. “We built this thing slowly, knowing all the risks and bullshit that came along with it. We built it together, with real intentions, emotions, and love. And I know how precious it is, because I watched you open your heart to me piece by piece. And I’ll fight to protect that every day, to protect you every day. I swear to you, I won’t let them take away our quiet. I won’t let them twist what we have into something it’s not,” he paused, eyes soft and steadily looking into yours. 
“My knight in shining armor, always,” you thought, physically holding yourself back from stuffing your face into his chest and crying from happiness because you knew he hated it when you cried. Especially over him. No, not because he, as a man, didn’t know how to deal with a woman’s plethora of overflowing emotions, but because he hated to see you in pain. He didn’t like to see you cry over him specifically, because according to Joe, “A woman should rather kill a man before she cries over one, and yeah. Even when the man is me. Never give a guy the satisfaction of seeing you at your most vulnerable state because you never know when they’ll use it against you,”.
You literally jumped his bones right then and there, because it was one of the most emotionally intelligent things a man had ever said to you (and the hottest thing he’s ever said…but that’s a thought for another day)—and he was right. Completely. But still, you’d never hide your tears from Joe. Not because you didn’t believe him, but because he had never, and would never, be one of those men. He’d never weaponize your softness. He’d catch your tears with the same care he caught your heart, with steady hands and unwavering admiration.
“Hey,” he said softly, giving your hand a gentle squeeze to bring you back to him. “You don’t have to carry all this by yourself, okay? I’m here now. And I’m not just here when it’s easy or convenient. I’m here when it’s hard. When it’s heavy,” he leaned in a little, like he needed you to really hear him. “That’s what we are. We hold each other up. No matter what. Doesn’t matter how bad it gets, we don’t break,”. His voice stayed steady, but his eyes were full of that quiet intensity only he could manage. “I know it’s a lot right now, especially after things have been calm for a while. And everything he put you through publicly and privately still eats away at you absentmindedly, but you’re doing good. Better than you think,” he brushed his thumb over your wrist, his touch light but heavy enough for his words to sink into your bones. “I’m proud of you, baby. So proud,”.
Your throat closed, almost as if a sob were about to come out, but you didn’t cry. Not quite. Instead, you breathed in deep, letting the warmth of his words fill the hollow places inside you. You leaned into him, pressing your forehead to his soft cheek, letting your hand rest over his heart. “I just want to keep us safe,” you murmured, barely audible. “I don’t want to lose this, I don’t want it to ever end. I’d never walk down this road again if something happened,”.
Without wasting a single second, you heard him say, “You won’t,” as he tilted your chin until your eyes met. “You won’t. This is ours, and no one gets to take it unless we hand it to them, and I’m not handing over a damn thing. I can handle this, no matter what they say. You…you, the strongest woman I know, the most talented and charismatic person that’s ever walked into my life, and the easiest person to love, can handle this,”. He then smirked softly, the kind of smirk that tugged at one corner of his mouth and made you want to melt into him. “We’re that couple, babe. Don’t forget. The hot one. The talented one. Everyone either wants to be us or be in this relationship with us…The sexiest, most talented, most enviable couple in the past decade,” he nudged your knee playfully with his. “They can take pictures, write whatever headline they want. Let ‘em. We look good from every angle,”.
You shot him a look, half flattered and half amused. “Oh, I didn’t realize we’d reached elite status. I thought you just said that just to say it a couple of days ago,”.
He grinned, “Babe, we’ve been at that status. You just haven’t been reading the press. I quoted them just now with the ‘sexiest, most talented, and most enviable’ line,”.
You rolled your eyes, but your growing smile gave away how he was slowly shifting your focus onto something more positive. “I try not to go too hard on it, especially not when they call me a fame-hungry distraction,”.
Aaaanddd, there it is. You couldn’t get that label out of your head no matter how hard you tried. Even Joe’s boyish charisma was no match for the monsters lurking in the deepest shadows of your mind.  
Joe’s gaze softened, his expression flickering with that quiet, wise empathy he had only for you—the kind that said I see you, even when you try to hide. He heard the way you tried to gloss over the pain in your voice, the way you wrapped a raw insecurity in casualness, hoping it would pass and be overlooked. But nothing about you ever escaped him. He’d spent months—patient months—gently pulling you away from the wreckage left by the people who’d made you question your worth. He’d seen what that label had done to you. How it twisted its way into your reflection, into the way you talked about yourself, how it made you flinch from your own ambition. Like you were too much, too loud, too big, too bright for anyone to hold on to. And Joe hated that. Hated the way it made you feel small. Because all he saw when he looked at you was someone who carried galaxies in her heart. Someone who’d been forced to learn how to hold herself together with shaking hands, and still managed to shine.
He wanted to be the place where you didn’t have to do that anymore.
He leaned in, brushing his thumb gently across your cheek, like he was trying to memorize the feel of your skin beneath his touch. His voice dropped to an intimate whisper in the stillness between you. “You’re not a distraction,” he said, firm and unwavering. “You’re the reason I can focus. The reason I still love all of this. Football, the pressure, the spotlight. You know I hated this more than anything, all of the prying eyes and unwanted attention. But when you came around, you helped me find comfort in it, helped me put up that boundary so I could protect the things I loved, but also be the guy everyone needed me to be. And now it all means something because I get to come home to you at the end of it,” his hand slid behind your neck, cradling it like he was holding something fragile. “We get to come home to each other,”. 
“You keep me stable,” he said softly, his hand still warm against your neck. “When everything feels like it’s spinning too fast, you’re the one thing that brings me back to center. You calm the chaos. You remind me who I am when the noise gets too loud. And when I start forgetting how far I’ve come, how much I’ve grown…you’re the one who celebrates me like I’ve already accomplished everything I needed to,”. 
His thumb traced the edge of your jaw like it was instinct, like it soothed him just as much. His eyes stayed locked on yours, clear and steady, holding your attention like it was the most important thing in the world. “You’ve got the biggest heart I’ve ever known, Y/N. And anyone lucky enough to really see you? They don’t forget you. They can’t. You leave a mark on people—in the way you love, in the way you show up for everyone even when it’s hard,” he said, and you swallowed, blinking back those tears again, but he kept going. “You taught me how to balance all of this, how to hold on to what’s ours while the world watches my every move. Remember, I taught you how to stop giving a damn about what strangers think. How to do whatever makes you happy and know when and how to tell everyone else to fuck off. You don’t owe them anything. Not your peace, not your softness, not a single part of you. Not unless you want to,”.
His hand drifted to your chest, fingers resting lightly over your heart before they slid down to your hand again. “They don’t own you. They don’t get to own you. And they sure as hell can’t touch you, not when I’m standing right here,” he said, bringing it up at the end of his sentence to press a soft kiss to your knuckles. 
You could’ve sworn your heart physically squeezed in your chest. It always did when he spoke to you like that, so soft and sure of everything, like every word he said was already stitched into your soul. It had been months of this exact magic; his quiet reassurances, his sweet talk that never felt rehearsed. His words were always carefully thought out, no matter who he spoke to, the media, his parents, or even his teammates. But with you, he just talked freely and never once had he ever slipped up or said something he wasn’t supposed to. And maybe that was because this was the most natural thing for him…you were the most natural thing for him. 
Every time he reminded you of who you were—who he saw when he looked at you—it pieced you back together in ways you didn’t even realize. 
You felt your shoulders begin to drop, your breath deepen, comfort sweeping over your body as it always did when you were in his arms. Your eyes burned, too, but in the best kind of way. “And if the cameras show up tonight…,” he said, his tone shifting, soft affection giving way to a teasing tone as he gave you a slow once-over, “They’ll just be lucky to get a shot of my girl lookin’ like that,” his hand skimmed down your arm, fingers brushing your wrist as he grinned. “Honestly? We should charge them for content. Give ‘em a little smolder, maybe a kiss on the cheek, hell, I’ll dip you if that’s what they want,”.
You laughed, the sound bubbling up from your chest like sunshine. “You’re ridiculous,”.
“I’m ridiculously in love with you,” he said without missing a beat, pressing a kiss to your flushed cheek. “And I don’t care who sees it. Or who doesn’t see it,”.
Even as your smile widened, it was impossible to fight that feeling in your chest. It blossomed against your will, like a stubborn little sunbeam cracking through a cloudy day. The tension that had once curled tightly around your lungs was now slipping away, melting into the peaceful fervency that always came when he looked at you like that, like you were his favorite thing he’d ever seen. Joe leaned in, grin crooked and smug, breath fanning against your lips in the way only he could pull off without being annoying. “I love you, Stargirl,” he said, and finished it with a wink so perfectly timed you had to laugh through the kiss you pressed to his lips.
It was soft at first—thank you stitched into the shape of your mouth. You leaned in closer, fingers brushing the back of his neck where his hair curled slightly against your touch. He always smelled so good…so Joe, his scent calming you in ways you never thought were possible. Your nails scraped lightly against his skin, and you felt the subtle shift in his breath, the way his whole body leaned instinctively into your affection.
“Thank you for doing this,” you whispered, and it wasn’t just for this moment; it was for all of them. For every time he found you lost in the middle of a storm, only you could feel. For every time he carved out space for you to be vulnerable, never rushing you, never judging you. For all the ways he held you, like it was the most natural thing in the world, like loving you was as easy and important as breathing.
“Always and forever,” he murmured, and that felt more like a vow than just words because of the way he said it. Like something he’d already promised a hundred times and would keep a thousand more without question. “I’m in this for the long haul, princess. Nothing out there, none of the noise, the cameras, the speculation, none of it touches what we are. Not now, when they’re just barely seeing the edges of us. Not later, when I put a ring on your finger and give you my name, like I’ve known I would from the start. And not when we’re years in, worn-in and settled, when life gets real and hard and messy. I’ll still choose you every damn time,”.
He looked at you like there was no version of the future where he didn’t. Like this love wasn’t some fleeting thing, but a home he’d built in his chest just for you. He was reminding you that his love wasn’t conditional, not like the “love” you’d received in the past was. That no matter how loud the chaos got, out there in the world or in your own mind, he’d be there, shielding you from the worst of it without hesitation. Just like he always had.
Your forehead pressed gently to his, your breath catching as your lips brushed against his. He so casually had just touched on the topic of engagement and marriage, and although it wasn’t the first time it had come up in these 9 months, it still made your heart stop just like it did the first time. You didn’t say anything right away. You couldn’t. The moment was too tender, too full. But inside, you felt electric—like you could run laps around the city barefoot, just to burn off the joy buzzing under your skin at the idea of being his, completely his, till forever falls apart. “I love you too,” you breathed, the words slipping out like a truth too big to hold back.
He grinned against your mouth, his hands cradling your face, “That’s fantastic because for a second there, I was worried you were gonna give into the bullshit,” he whispered, brushing a kiss to your cheek, your jaw, your lips. “I’m not going anywhere, sweetheart. Not now. Not ever. I’m not going to lose you…not when I’ve finally got you. You’re never going to have to walk down this road alone again,”.
And there it was. 
Reassurance that the right person always stays. 
He would always stay. No matter what curveball was thrown at you, what headline was written about your relationship, through all the extra chaos you brought to his quiet bubble. He’d always stand by your side, because he chose this. 
He chose you. 
Before you even realized it, the car turned onto Magazine Street, and the familiar stretch of colorful storefronts rolled past your window. Just ahead, snuggled behind the sweeping branches of that old oak tree, you spotted the soft glow of Lilette. The warm amber light spilled out onto the sidewalk, flickering across the bistro tables where a few people lingered with wine glasses in hand and soft laughter on their lips. As the car slowed, Joe’s eyes were already on you. He leaned in, pressing one last kiss to your lips—slow, certain, soothing. The kind of kiss that steadied you, that said “We’re okay. We’re solid,”. Then, without saying a word, he pulled away and stepped out into the soft New Orleans night.
You watched as he straightened up under the streetlight’s golden glow, the sharp line of his shoulders and jawline catching the light just right. Then he turned to you, smile tugging at the corner of his mouth, and extended his hand back toward you. “C’mon, pretty girl,” he said, that teasing grin still playing on his lips. “Let me take you to dinner,”.
You looked at him for a beat longer, at the way his hair curled at the ends, falling over his forehead and giving him that look that would make your knees buckle, at the warmth in his eyes, at the hand that had steadied you more times than you could count. And then you took it, stepping into the night with him.
Joe laced your fingers together immediately, pulling you close as you walked toward the front steps of the restaurant. The air was warm, heavy with the scent of jasmine and the faint kick of something buttery drifting from the kitchen. A breeze blew through your hair, but you hardly noticed—not with him beside you, not with the soft press of his thumb tracing soothing circles into the back of your hand. As you climbed the short set of stairs, you heard it. Faint gasps and whispered voices cutting through the stillness of the evening.
“Oh my god. Is that them? Joe and Y/N?”. 
“Shhh, shh—don’t be weird!”.
“How fast do you think Gridback is going to show up?”.
“...She looks a little pale, don’t you think?”.
“Wait until I tell Janet about this,”.
“I wonder if something happened, she looks uncomfortable,”. 
“Girl, please. She’s probably on cloud 9. Like literally. She’s had number 9 wrapped around her finger for god knows how long. I’m sure she’s fine,”.
“I heard that she cheated on her ex with Joe, which is why she went M.I.A. Can’t handle the heat, then don’t get in the kitchen. What a slut. All for her to eventually get cheated on again because well…she’s with a pro athlete and we all know how that story goes,”. 
The whispers curled around you like smoke, impossible to ignore, but before you could comprehend the sinking feeling in your stomach, feel the poison seeping into your skin, Joe’s grip on your hand tightened. As much as he’d like to step back down the stairs and rip them a new one, he knew you didn’t need defending right now. You just needed quiet, you needed him. So, without breaking his stride, he moved his other hand to the small of your back, fingers grazing just below the hem of your dress. His palm landed low, dangerously close to your ass, and the unexpected boldness of it made you giggle.
It wasn’t loud, but it was real. The kind of laugh that slipped past your lips without warning, breathy, soft, cracked open at the edges by surprise and affection. The kind that only surfaced when the world tried to shake you, and he, just by placing his hand exactly where he knew it would, pulled you back, reminded you that you were still tethered. Still his. Still safe. It wasn’t just the touch, it was the intention behind it. The way his fingers pressed warm and steady against your spine, possessive, almost defiant. As if to say, Let them talk. You’re mine and I’m yours. Not in the loud, reckless way. In the quiet, certain way that meant more.
Your heart, which only seconds ago had curled in on itself from the sting of strangers’ scrutiny, now flourished like it recognized the warmth of sunlight again. “That was on purpose,” you whispered, breath catching with the smile playing at your lips as he held the door open for both of you.
He smirked, guiding you inside with a subtle nudge of his hand. “Yeah, well. You looked like you needed a little distraction,”.
You playfully rolled your eyes as the door shut behind you, firmly cutting off the crowd's chatter, “He reads me like his favorite book. He knows me too well,”. 
The host greeted you with a polite smile and a flicker of recognition in her eyes, but Joe leaned in, murmuring your name for the reservation like this was any other night, avoiding any and all opportunities for more attention to be drawn to you. He was acting like you were just any other couple. Like you weren’t being watched. Like there weren’t eyes trailing the sweep of your dress and the curve of his hand.
To anyone watching, he looked like a man out to dinner with his girl. Nothing more. No flash, no spectacle. Just the brush of his hand against the small of your back and the gentle way he stood slightly in front of you, shielding, without making it obvious. That was Joe’s gift. He had this way of taking things that should’ve felt overwhelming—the scrutiny, the whispers, the anxiety of being seen—and shrinking them down until they were something soft and manageable. He made the extraordinary feel ordinary. Not in a dull or dismissive way, but in a reassuring one. Like this—you and him—was the most natural thing in the world.
As you followed the host past clinking glasses and candlelit tables, Joe leaned toward your ear and whispered lowly, “You know they saw us, right?”.
You drew in a long, steady breath, then tilted your head up to meet his eyes. “Yeah,” you murmured, the corners of your mouth curling into a slow smile, crimson lips soft and sure. “But a wise man once told me to do what makes me happy…and to tell everyone else to fuck off,”. Your voice was calm, even a little amused, as you gave a subtle nod, eyes flicking toward a nearby table where a few diners had clearly put the pieces together. They weren’t being discreet about it either, all wide eyes and hushed tones as they whispered behind wine glasses. But you held their gaze for a moment, then turned back to him with an unbothered shrug.
“So that’s what I’m doing,” you added, quieter now, but firmer somehow. “I simply don’t care,”.
And for once, you meant it. Completely.
His chest swelled with pride, knowing that he was the wise man you were referring to. He pulled your joined hands up, quickly kissing your knuckles so lightly while locking eyes with you, “Hm, damn right you don’t,” he smiled.
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Dinner started off easy, like it always did when it was just the two of you. Joe looked unfairly good in a short-sleeved navy button-up, wrists adorned with his signature rubber bracelets, the reputation one standing out proudly amongst the rest, hair still slightly damp from earlier. The tension from the car ride had settled, but he kept checking in on you in subtle, quiet ways—his thumb brushing your hand, the occasional gentle nudge beneath the table, his gaze flicking to your face between sips of wine to catch any hint of tension. 
He had taken a seat beside you because that had always been the unspoken rule. No sitting across from each other, no unnecessary distance. Sitting shoulder to shoulder allowed him to keep a hand on your knee, steal kisses between courses, and lean in close when the noise around you got too loud because Joe would rather die than miss a single thing you said to him. So, as always, he slid his chair right next to yours without hesitation, knees bumping, arm draped comfortably along the back of your seat. His fingers found their familiar rhythm, weaving gently through your hair as you scrolled through the menu, eyes scanning appetizers you probably weren’t going to order. 
It wasn’t until you looked up, ready to ask if he wanted to split something, that you caught the way his brows were slightly furrowed, his head tilted just so. There was a curious little smile pulling at the corner of his mouth, like he’d just discovered something he wasn’t quite sure he should say out loud. “Your hair…it’s curling,” he murmured, tilting his head slightly as he wrapped one of the loose waves around his finger. “I didn’t realize you curled it today,”.
You blinked, caught off guard by his observation. “I didn’t do anything to it,” you said, head leaning back from confusion. 
His brows crinkled again as he kept toying with the strand, his touch lingering. “So you’re telling me this is just…happening? I know your hair and it’s never this wavy on its own unless you used some products. It didn’t even rain today,”.
You shrugged, but the flush on your cheeks betrayed you, heating under the way he was looking at you and the featherlight touch still toying with your hair. “I guess it’s just doing its thing,”.
His grin spread slowly, the kind that always came with an ulterior motive. You could see it in the way his eyes sparkled and his lips curved, like he was about to say something he absolutely shouldn’t, and was going to enjoy every second of it. That smirk alone made your stomach somersault, made your thighs press together instinctively—even though you were seated. He leaned in, closing the already small space between you, his tone of voice carrying a whiff of flirtatious energy. His gaze flicked from your lips to your eyes, then back again, lingering there with a look that made your skin prickle. “You know what they say about hair curling on its own, right?”.
You narrowed your eyes, trying to fight the smile already twitching at your lips. “No, but I have a feeling you’re about to say something incredibly stupid,”. He didn’t flinch after you said that, didn’t even back down. Just inched closer until his knee pressed into yours, his thumb brushing soft circles over your thigh under the table. “It means you’re in love,” he whispered, lips grazing your cheek. “Like…really, deeply, madly in love,”.
You looked at him like he had two heads, a skeptical laugh escaping before you could stop it. Heat bloomed across your cheeks and spread all the way to your chest, but you tried to play it cool. Joe had come up with some pretty wild theories before—he was as much a dreamer as he was a football player, with his head sometimes halfway in space documentaries and black holes—but this? “This isn’t one of your little science facts, is it?” you teased, eyes narrowing playfully. “Because that’s not a real thing, Joe. I’m sure it must just be from when you were in the shower earlier and the steam made it frizz,”.
He pressed a slow kiss to the side of your neck, his lips lingering against your perfumed skin just long enough for your breath to hitch. “Babe,” he murmured, voice full of mock offense, “It’s the curly hair theory. Duh...”.
You blinked, confused but already smiling as you tilted your head to glance at him. “The what now?”
Joe pulled back just enough to meet your eyes, a playful scoff escaping his mouth as he gave you that look—the one that made it impossible to think straight. “As a certified lover girl, you should really know this,” he teased, his fingers still casually toying with the ends of your hair. “It’s a thing. When a girl’s really in love, like, secure, soft, safe kind of love, she starts embracing her natural hair around her man. It gets curlier too,”.
You tried to roll your eyes, tried to act like it was the dumbest thing you’d ever heard, but something about the way he said it…like it was a known fact, like it made perfect sense…like you were supposed to know this because even he knew this, made your heart ache in the softest way. You looked down for a second, trying to hide the giddy look in your eyes. “That’s not real,” you mumbled, lips twitching despite yourself.
Joe grinned triumphantly, “Tell that to the curls, sweetheart. ‘Cause I know that isn’t from me being all up on you after you gave me that five-star, gold-medal worthy head earlier,”.
Your jaw dropped. For a second, all you could do was stare at him, wide-eyed in disbelief, cheeks flushing as you darted a glance around to make sure no one had actually heard that. He looked entirely unbothered—relaxed, cocky even—like he hadn’t just said something absolutely reckless in public.
You narrowed your eyes at him, voice low but loaded. “You’re on thin ice, Burrow,”.
And he only smirked deeper, like he lived for this game.
His brows lifted in confusion, “Me?” he asked, all innocently and as if he wasn’t the sole reason for causing the goosebumps to rise across your bare thigh. 
“Mhm,” you said as you leaned in close, lips brushing the shell of his ear. “You promised you’d behave tonight…and that doesn’t sound like behaving to me. Remember, if you don’t, you’re not getting anything when we get back to the hotel,”.
Joe let out an amused hum, his hand tightening on your thigh as he leaned back to look at you, his expression shameless. He had that signature bedroom eyes look: half-lidded eyes, that lazy smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth, the kind of look that could melt steel if it lingered too long. Ugh. Bedroom eyes, full force too. God help any poor girl who ever accidentally locked eyes with him like this—because one glance, and her panties would be on the floor. 
“That’s a bold threat to make when you’ve been the one flirting with me ever since I came back,” he mumbled. 
You gave him your sweetest, most innocent smile, the kind that always drove him a little crazy, batting your lashes like you weren’t doing exactly what he was accusing you of. Those slow, smoldering glances you’d been tossing his way since the moment you stepped inside, the subtle drag of your fingertips across his thigh under the table, the way your teeth had just barely caught your glossed bottom lip more than once? Oh, you knew what you were doing. “Just trying to keep you focused and locked in,” you purred, your voice all sugar and silk as you leaned in slightly, eyes glinting with mischief.
He chuckled softly, his lips brushing gently against your cheek, leaving a trail of warmth that sent a shiver down your spine. Then, his voice dropped to a low, husky murmur, barely more than a breath against your skin. “Well, now all I’m thinking about is dessert. And I don’t mean the kind on the menu, princess,”.
Your eyes widened in surprise, and you playfully slapped his chest, half warning, half teasing. But instead of pulling away, he smiled wider, his hand sliding slowly up your thigh, fingertips tracing a slow, deliberate path that made every nerve in your body ignite with anticipation. “Better be good, 9,” you whispered, voice thick with both challenge and something more vulnerable beneath. 
Joe leaned in closer, the subtle scrape of his jawline brushing your cheek as his breath ghosted over the shell of your ear. “I’ll be good, baby,” he murmured, voice thick with promise, low and slow like velvet sliding across skin. “Just…maybe not in the way you’re thinking,”.
His words settled in your stomach like heat, blooming out to every inch of your body as your thighs instinctively pressed together. Then he eased back, just far enough to meet your gaze with that infuriatingly calm, knowing expression, his eyes molten and heavy-lidded, the barest hint of a smirk playing at the corner of his mouth. Without breaking eye contact, he reached for his wine glass, fingers wrapping around the stem with casual grace. He lifted it slowly, as if he knew you were watching every movement. The rich, golden liquid shimmered as it tilted toward his lips, and he took a slow, languid sip, lips parting just enough to let a droplet escape.
It caught the light, sliding from the corner of his mouth to his jaw before disappearing beneath the curve of his throat. Your breath caught, sharp and audible, and your eyes snapped back up to meet his—only to find him already watching you, that damn smirk deepening. Your pulse roared in your ears. You couldn’t even pretend to hide the way your body reacted to him; you didn’t want to. 
“I’m so fucked when we get back to the room,” you whispered, almost to yourself.
Joe’s smile turned positively sinful. “Yeah,” he said, voice a promise wrapped in smoke. “You are,”.
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The minutes passed faster than you could imagine as conversation flowed between the two of you like second nature, each topic slipping easily into the next. Joe was lounging comfortably in his chair, that relaxed, easy posture he only really wore around you. One of his arms was still stretched along the back of yours, fingers absentmindedly playing with the delicate strap of your dress, just enough to make your skin hum with awareness.  The other cradled his glass of Chardonnay mixed with Sprite—his signature, slightly offbeat favorite—his thumb tapping lightly against the stem in rhythm with his thoughts. 
Something about the hand around your chair, fingers playing with your straps, felt possessive, and you couldn’t tell if that was just in your head or his true intention behind it. Since this was a public restaurant, you had many other diners walk past your booth, some whispering to each other as they pretended not to stare at you, some men looking at you a little too…closely with wide eyes and crooked grins, and some sweet fans saying things like “We’re rooting for you both!” as they walked past to definitely use the bathroom and not just to get a peek at America’s newest obsession. Sometimes you felt like a zoo animal on display for everyone to ogle at, but Joe…Joe always made you feel normal in those moments where you’d become self-conscious and overly aware of what was happening around you. Whether it was his touch speaking volumes for him, or sometimes his words when he felt like they’d make more of an impact, he just knew how to handle you without making it worse, making you feel like you weren’t the monster lurching towards everyone’s favorite city or some shiny trophy caught under a spotlight. 
Just a few minutes ago, while you were talking about your summer plans—a week-long Florida stay, the Hamptons during July 4th for your album release party & the anniversary of the day you met a year ago, and some trips across Europe, your ears had caught wind of conversation these two women were having in the diagonal from you 
“Joe could do so much better than her. I mean, why would he go for someone like her when he could easily pull a supermodel with bigger boobs and a smaller ego,” the red-lipped brunette purred to her blonde friend, twirling her straw in her drink like she was stirring up something sweet.
“Your guess is just as good as mine,” the blonde giggled, her laugh high and hollow as she flipped her hair off her shoulder. “Y/N is so full of herself. She always thinks everything’s about her, like she’s the only girl in America to have been cheated on, the only girl with a difficult past and tough shit to work through,”.
“And her music?” the brunette sneered, her ruby lips pulling into a mocking grin. “Cringe. Joe probably blasts Gunna right after listening to the sad girl shit she calls art—just to make sure his ears don’t start bleeding,”.
“I can’t even blame her ex for cheating on her,” the blonde tittered, pressing her fingers to her lips like she was sharing something scandalous. “I mean…look at her. She’s so bland and forgettable. Who really gave a fuck when she went M.I.A. for those few months? The world kept spinning,”.
“Ha, exactly,” the brunette agreed with a sharp laugh. She reached for her drink, eyes glittering with petty delight. “It’s only a matter of time before she finds Joe nose deep in some Instagram bitch. And only a matter of time before she writes another trashy song about it and makes it her entire personality for a year. Someone please tell her that the only reason she’s still relevant is because she fucked, dated, and was cheated on by the son of the CEO of her former record label and is currently Joe Burrow’s flavor of the year,”.
You felt your skin crawl with a cold, prickling unease that started at the base of your neck and spilled all the way down your arms. It was the kind of feeling that made you want to tug your dress tighter around you, to sink back into the booth cushions until you disappeared completely. Their words slid over you like oil, slick and sour, clinging in places you wished they wouldn’t. Your stomach twisted, hot and embarrassed, even though you’d done nothing but exist—sit here, plan summer trips with the man you loved, dream out loud about anniversaries and albums. Now all of it felt tainted by the ugliness of their laughter, by the smug, conspiratorial way they leaned in close to share their cruelty, like it was a secret too delicious to keep.
Joe overheard every word; there was no missing it. His jaw had tightened almost imperceptibly, the muscle there ticking with the kind of silent fury that would’ve scared anyone else if they’d bothered to look his way. But he didn’t give them the satisfaction of reacting, didn’t so much as flick a glance toward their table. Instead, he focused all of it, his anger, his protectiveness, his stubborn, tender heart, on you.
“LSU feels like a lifetime ago,” he murmured, eyes lifted toward the ornate ceiling above you, unfocused, like he was reading memories written there only he could see. A small, almost boyish smile curved his lips, wistful and so achingly sweet it cut through the bitterness in your chest. “But sometimes…I swear I can still smell the turf when I’m back in Louisiana. That thick, sticky air, the sound of the crowd, that weird pregame mix of nerves and calm…it all comes rushing back,”.
You watched him quietly, his voice reaching you like a lifeline tossed across deep water, steady and warm, pulling you out of the cold swirl of thoughts that had been dragging you under since that overheard conversation. Your own drink sat forgotten in your hand as you focused on him, struck by the way he held onto those memories—not just the big, obvious ones, but the textures, the scents, the heartbeat of it all. He didn’t talk about the glory or the spotlight. He talked about how it felt. How it lived in him still. And maybe that’s why you loved him so much—because nothing was ever surface-level with Joe. Not the way he played, not the way he remembered, and definitely not the way he loved.
You knew exactly what he was doing, too. How his voice dipped into old stories, how his thumb kept circling that soft patch of skin on your wrist, he was pulling you out of your own head with gentle hands, leading you somewhere safer without ever pointing out you needed saving. It was seamless with him, instinctive, like breathing.
“He must’ve seen the LSU flag hanging outside the house across the street. Great way for him to pivot since he obviously picked up on what was bothering me,” you smiled to yourself before you looked up at him from behind your wine glass, eyes shining with quiet curiosity. “What was it really like?” you asked, pausing to tilt your head, searching his face for any reaction to your question. “Not the cameras, media attention, or hype video packages, just...the real stuff. What it felt like to be you back then,”. You’d heard the stories, read the headlines, seen the viral clips of him in purple and gold lighting up the field, but you hadn’t been there. You didn’t know what the weight of it all felt like on his shoulders, what the quiet in the locker room was like before a game, or how it felt to be twenty-something and carrying an entire city’s hopes on his back. 
And he knew that’s what you were really asking. Not about stats or trophies, or the adrenaline that’d course through his veins when he stepped into Death Valley, but about what lived behind his eyes during those years.​​ The wood creaked just faintly beneath him as he shifted in his chair, but his gaze had drifted past the flickering candle on the table, past the soft clinking of silverware and the quiet hum of conversation in the restaurant, to the window behind you. His eyes weren’t really looking outside at the flag. They were somewhere else entirely, glossy and faraway, like he could see the past playing out in high definition on the darkened street. The corner of his mouth twitched, not quite into a smile, and his fingers—those long, calloused ones that had thrown a thousand perfect spirals—absently traced small, slow circles against your wrist. Keeping himself in the present, not allowing his mind to wander back into the past too much.
“It was…,” he started, voice dipping into something low and rough, like gravel under tires. “A lot,”. Your eyes stayed on him, lips parting, your whole body leaning forward almost without realizing it, like you didn’t want to miss a single word.
“I mean, I loved it. I really did,” he let out a breath of a laugh, not quite amused. “I was living for it, the noise, the lights, the way Tiger Stadium felt like it was alive, had its own pulse and heartbeat every time I ran out of the tunnel. Like it breathed with us, win after win. There’s nothing like it. You can feel it in your chest. It made everything else disappear,” he paused for a moment, his jaw tightening as his eyes dropped to the table. He shook his head slightly, like trying to sift through memories that were heavier than he wanted to admit. “But the pressure…,” his voice thinned. “God, the pressure. It was like carrying the weight of a whole state, a whole legacy, and barely being old enough to rent a car. You start to feel like your whole existence is measured in completions and fourth-quarter comebacks. And no matter how good you are…there’s always the fear. That it’s not gonna be enough. That one bad game, one injury, one wrong step, and everything disappears. And then…who are you?”.
You blinked, the emotion in his words crashing into you like a wave, filling your chest with something tight and aching. He’d never opened up like this before about his past, not like this. And it hurt in the most beautiful way, to see the pieces he usually kept tucked behind calm smiles and stoic post-game interviews.
“I remember this one night,” he continued, quieter now. “We’d just won big against Auburn. Everyone was out drinking, partying, living it up. And I couldn’t sleep. It was like all that energy, all that adrenaline, it didn’t know where to go. So I grabbed my helmet and went back to the practice field. Sat on the turf by myself. No lights. Just me and the silence. That was the only silence that I thought I could get,”.
His hand stilled on your wrist as he looked at you again, really looked at you. “I was sitting there with my shoes unlaced and my helmet in my lap, just…staring. Wondering how long it would last. If I could really keep it all together. If all of it would actually pay off, and I’d get to live out my dreams. If I’d ever feel peace again, like real peace. If I had something more than football to look forward to. Or if I was just gonna keep chasing wins until it all caught up to me,”.
Your throat tightened as you tried to swallow around the lump forming there, but you couldn’t look away. You could practically see him there—young, alone, scared, even if he didn’t look it. Just a boy with the hunger for greatness pressing down on him. You honestly could relate to him, because you’d felt the same way when you were first trying to gain your footing in the industry years ago. You had nobody to lean on, nobody to confide in about your fears and dreams; all that was there was the curious eyes of the fans and people waiting to see you fall flat on your face. The only thought in your mind at the time was whether this was all worth it in the end, would you get everything you wanted? Would you find something to hold on to? Would you find something that was completely yours? Would you find…love? Was there someone in this world who’d be able to love you and see past the baggage you carried?
Would you achieve…greatness?
“It didn’t really get quiet until I met you,” he said, snapping you out of your thoughts. His voice was soft. Matter-of-fact. Like it was the most obvious truth he could offer.
Your breath caught mid-inhale, frozen by the significance of those words. Your chest ached as the emotion crashed in strong waves you could barely keep at bay. “I mean it,” he said, his thumb resuming its gentle motion on your skin. “I spent years thinking I had to be that version of me all the time. The guy with answers. With presence. The one who could walk into any room and command it without blinking. I had to be ‘Joe Burrow’ every second of every single day because if I wasn’t, then everyone crumbled. But, what if I needed to crumble? Nobody thinks about what it’s like to be at the top, nobody ever thinks about how it feels to be the one under that constant spotlight, whether it’s your professional life or private life. But then you showed up, and then suddenly I didn’t have to be all that. I could just…be Joe. I could be soft. Messy. Tired. I could breathe again. I could dodge the spotlight just a little bit and run away with you,”
Wait.
“Nobody really heard from me those few months during the end of last off-season, and I was doing better than I ever was. Because of you,”.
Oh my god.
“Using my own lyrics…the ones I wrote about him…on me? Jesus take the wheel, he literally can’t get any more perfect,” you smiled as the back of your eyes burned with emotion. You reached for his hand in his lap, threading your fingers through his like muscle memory. The same way he’d always held you when you felt overwhelmed. Now you were doing it for him, comforting him just like he’d done a hundred times before. “And I think if I had you back then…,” he trailed off, voice turning quiet, almost boyish in its vulnerability. “Everything would’ve felt easier. Lighter. Like I could’ve enjoyed everything just a little more, and so when I came into the league, I wouldn’t feel the need to be on lockdown all the time with everything. So you wouldn’t have had to put in overtime the last 9 months to get me to loosen up like I used to,”.
You held his hand tighter, wanting to say something back to him, but your voice barely came out because you didn’t know if it would be a sob or a normal sentence, but when it did, it was wrapped in warmth and pride. “...I- I think you had to go through all of that to get here. To be the version of you I get now. If I had you back then, we both would be different. Sometimes you need to go through the tough shit, the things that make you want to give it all up, feel the feelings that keep you up till 3 a.m, just so that you can be who you are now. Besides, you know I am extremely down bad for your LSU era, but he’s not the man I fell for. You are. In all your hermit crab, anti-social, glory,”.
He nodded slowly, his eyes never leaving yours as you saw the gears behind his eyes turn like he was processing what you were saying. “Then I’m glad I made it through,” he confessed, and when he leaned in, pressing a kiss to the back of your hand like a soft thank you, you didn’t stop the tears that pooled at the corners of your eyes. Because you were proud of him. And you were so, so in love with the man who had walked through fire and still had enough tenderness left to love you like this.
He glanced back out the window again, and a little grin tugged at the corner of his mouth. “We should go back sometime, to Baton Rouge,”.
Your brows lifted in surprise, your heart fluttering at the idea of visiting his alma mater with him for the first time. You’d never been to LSU or Baton Rouge before, and the idea of your first time being with Joe? That sends flutters all throughout your body. “That would be so fun. I’d love that,” you glanced down for a second, lips quirking into an excited grin, but then falling once you felt a gust of reality wash over you. “But we don’t have time, Joe. Not this week. The Honors are tomorrow. We fly out the morning after so we can make it back in time for your Body Armor shoot. And, I don’t know if we can just…drop in like that,”.
He leaned in, still grinning like he was already ten steps ahead of you. “Baby, I’m Joe Burrow,” he winked, tongue poking out slightly between his teeth. “They love me down there and always have time for me. I’ve been meaning to go back anyway, I just never knew when the right time was. And don’t worry about Body Armor, I can get that moved too,”.
You laughed, shaking your head at how he’d thought of everything…like he’d been thinking about this the entire time you were here. “You are so full of it, Joe. You sound like such a Hollywood diva right now. Next thing you know, you’ll start carrying 3 different phones and having a butler travel everywhere with us,” you rolled your eyes, a soft chuckle coming from him in return. 
“Let me take you, Y/N. After the Honors, we’ll sneak down there. Just you and me. We won’t tell any friends or family, won’t make a big deal out of it. We’ll just…slow down and be normal people like we were when it was just us in Cincy. I want to show you everything, baby. The fields, the locker rooms, where I used to eat after practice, all the shitty college bars, my old apartment, and obviously Mike…,”.
Your ears perked up at the mention of LSU’s beloved mascot, “Oh my god, do you think can we break him out for a day? Let him get some fresh air outside of the habitat. Poor baby probably needs some reconnecting with real nature time,” you cooed, imagining how awful it would be to be trapped in that space for the rest of your life. 
“Whatever you want, sweetheart,” he smiled, leaning forward to press a kiss to your cheek before continuing. “But also, I want you to see where I used to sit and think about what my life would be like if I chose Cincinnati instead of LSU or just stayed with Ohio State. I want you to see all the pieces that made me. Because you’re the only one who’s ever made me feel like I’m more than just all that,”.
Your eyes went wide with emotion, caught somewhere between laughter and tears. You knew you didn’t have the time. You knew it was last-minute. But suddenly… none of that mattered. What mattered was you and him, together in the Louisiana heat, driving slow with the windows down, the thick, humid air curling through your fingers as you reached for him. What mattered was you passing Tiger Stadium—Death Valley—its towering shadow stretching over the street like a monument to every Saturday night that had changed his life. What mattered was him pointing out where the student section used to roar his name, where he’d once sprinted out of the tunnel with everything to prove.
You could already feel it, what it would mean to walk those grounds beside him, to see where he trained, where he bled and grew and dreamed. You wanted to see it all, not just for him, but for you. For the boy he had been. For the man you loved now.
You blinked at him, your heart thudding so hard it echoed in your ears, louder than the clatter of dishes or the low hum of conversations around you. The golden light from the candles on the table flickered across his face, catching in the edges of his smile, highlighting the soft crinkles that framed his sea glass blue eyes, and gentling the sharp line of his jaw. It made him look almost unreal, like something out of a sun-drenched memory you’d dreamed up just to keep yourself afloat. You could feel the emotion rising in your chest, warm and thick like honey, filling every hollow place inside you until it was nearly impossible to hold back. It pressed at your throat, curled around your ribs, made your breath catch in a way that was somehow both fragile and full.
“Okay,” you breathed, the word slipping out on a trembling exhale, delicate and yet heavy with everything you couldn’t quite say. “Let’s go,”.
He didn’t move at first. Just stared at you, eyes locked on yours like he was still trying to absorb what you’d just said. Like the significance of it—what it meant, what it changed—was still sinking in. His brows lifted slightly, his lips parting just barely, like he wanted to say something but couldn’t quite find the words. You were just about to ask if he was alright when he finally leaned in, hands reaching for your face with a kind of ease that made your breath catch.
His fingers curled gently around your jaw, his thumbs brushing the edge of your cheekbone. You could feel how warm his hands were, how stable, like they were made to hold you. When his mouth met yours, it wasn’t rushed or hungry. It was slow, so, so soft, full of emotion, too heavy for words. His lips moved with aching tenderness, molding to yours in a kiss that felt like both a question and a promise. His breath hitched softly when you kissed him back, your hands tangling in the soft hair at the nape of his neck, pulling him closer. The kiss deepened gradually, not out of desperation but intimacy, each movement drawn from the months you'd spent building trust, connection, and home. There was something almost worshipful in the way he held you, like you were more valuable than every championship or achievement to his name, utterly irreplaceable.
His mouth slanted over yours again, slower this time, savoring, like he was kissing not just the version of you in front of him, but every version he’d loved over the last nine months. The one who made pancakes in his kitchen in nothing but his old t-shirt. The one who sang to him with a soft rasp in her voice when she thought he was asleep. The one who held his hand in crowded airports and quiet hotel rooms alike. 
All of you.
Maybe that’s why it hit so deep, why it made your eyes sting behind closed lids—because just minutes ago, there were strangers in a booth nearby tearing you apart with careless laughter, reducing you to your scars, your heartbreak, your supposed shortcomings. Questioning how someone like him could ever want someone like you. But here he was, holding you like you were the only thing that had ever mattered, kissing you like he was trying to memorize your very soul. With every slow brush of his lips, he wordlessly answered them, proved them wrong without even knowing it. And deep down, in that molten space where your love for him lived, you knew that was all you’d ever need.
And as his kiss softened into something gentler, just a whisper of lips now, barely there, Joe rested his forehead against yours. His breath mingled with yours in the stillness between you, and you could feel it, as clear as if he’d shouted it from the rooftops; the intensity of everything he felt for you. The care. The devotion. The vow was stitched into every lingering touch of his hands on your skin. “I love you,” he whispered, so quietly it felt like a prayer. Like he was giving the words to you and only you, tucking them into your chest where no one else could touch them.
A soft smile lifted your lips as you leaned into him. “I know,” you whispered. “I love you, too,”.
His nose brushed against yours, and for a second, he just held you there, like he couldn’t stand to let the moment pass. Then, his voice found its way back to you. “Let’s keep doing this forever, yeah?”.
Your breath caught, and for a second, you couldn’t speak. Because he wasn’t just talking about this one moment. He was talking about the whole of it. Everything that made your love what it was.
This meant quiet dinners in your favorite hidden places, just the two of you curled into a booth in the corner, the candlelight flickering between you. It meant half-finished glasses of wine and soft laughter, the kind that made you ache with how safe it felt. It meant his hand resting on your knee beneath the table, your fingers trailing lazy shapes over his as you talked about nothing and everything. It meant brushing your lips over his between courses, trading kisses like secrets, like something holy.
It meant continuing to be exactly who you were, two people who had built something fragile and strong all at once, something no one else could understand because it didn’t belong to anyone else. It meant choosing each other every single day, even when the noise outside was too loud, even when the headlines turned cruel. It meant refusing to let the world twist what you had into anything less than what it was. 
It meant protecting your love, not by hiding it, but by honoring it. Making time for it. Holding on to the quiet parts, the soft parts, the parts that only made sense when it was just you and him. The sleepy mornings, the hand squeezes from across the room, the way he always looked at you like you were still the only thing he could see—even after nine months, even after all the chaos.
“Forever,” you whispered, the word catching in your throat as you glanced down at your wrist.
The bracelet he gave you in Cannes a few months ago still shimmered there, warm against your skin, the gold infinity symbol nestled between your initials. A tiny thing. But it meant everything. A promise made, a promise kept. A future you’d build together, no matter what came next.
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By the time dessert arrived, an impossibly rich chocolate ganache tart topped with a perfect swirl of Chantilly cream, you were already giggling like you’d never giggled before in your life, that bright, breathless kind of laughter that bubbled up from somewhere deep, chasing away every heavy thing that had tried to settle on your shoulders tonight. The blonde and brunette from earlier are not even a ghost in your mind. Your fork paused midair as you tried not to choke on laughter as the mood between you had shifted into something golden and glowy, the last of the candlelight flickering lazily across the white linen tablecloth. It felt like you were wrapped in a memory you’d revisit over and over again. It was soft and sweet, as unforgettable as the taste of the tart on your tongue.
You were retelling the oyster incident from earlier that week, your voice breathless with amusement. Joe had been so confident, absurdly so, convinced he could out-shuck the old man at the French Market oyster stall. “It’s all about grip and leverage,” he’d declared like he was lining up for fourth-and-goal, rolling his sleeves up with all the bravado of someone who’d clearly never held an oyster knife in his life. You’d stood beside him with your arms crossed, watching the trainwreck unfold with barely concealed glee.
Naturally, within seconds, he’d fumbled the knife, nearly sliced his thumb, and sent an uncracked oyster sailing straight into his lap. The vendor had howled with laughter, slapping Joe on the back like a grandson who’d just made his first pot of piping gumbo. “Stick to football, son,” he’d said between chuckles, “Or at least wear a glove next time. Those hands are money,”.
Now, seated beside him, you could barely get through the story without falling into more giggles, nearly choking on a bite of tart as you dabbed at your lips with a napkin. “You were so overconfident,” you teased, eyes shining, your skin warm from laughter—and maybe from the second…or third glass of wine, too.
Joe grinned, tipping his head back in surrender. “I had the technique,” he said, still attempting to defend himself. “The oysters just didn’t respect me,”.
You snorted, “They saw right through you. Just like the beignet guy did when he told you powdered sugar wasn’t a seasoning,”.
He groaned, dragging a hand down his face. “I’ll never live that down, will I?”.
“Not a chance,” you said, your laughter tapering off slowly. And for a moment, neither of you spoke. Just the quiet clink of glasses, the faint murmur of the remaining diners, and the heat spreading through his eyes. Outside, the buzz of the Garden District faded into the background, muffled by thick windows and the intimate hush of the restaurant’s corner booth. You glanced down at your joined hands, his thumb moving in a slow, reassuring arc over your knuckles. It was one of those moments that stretched out timelessly, suspended in quiet knowing. A kind of stillness you’d only ever found with him, where nothing needed to be said because everything already had been. His presence was its own kind of safety net, a reminder that whatever came next, you’d face it together.
You knew you couldn’t stay in the bubble forever. The real world was always going to find a way in, crack through the silence that even special memories and wine couldn’t prevent. But Joe…Joe was already two steps ahead of you. He always was. He knew how your mind worked, how the edges of your peace frayed in public spaces, how the anxiety of being seen pressed down on you like the Louisiana humidity. That was why he kept tracing those soft circles into your hand. That was why he held the silence instead of filling it. Because he knew. Because he was steadying you before you even realized you needed it.
But as you both stood to leave, smoothing your clothes and thanking the server with a practiced nod and smile, the moment shattered.
It started with one flash.
Then another.
Bright, sudden bursts of light through the restaurant’s front window, stark against the warm amber tones of the interior. Camera shutters clicking like distant thunder. Someone outside called his name, followed by the telltale scramble of feet and the metallic rustle of equipment.
Your hand tensed in his.
Joe didn’t flinch—he never did—but his jaw tightened almost unnoticeably. The familiar itch of being watched, recorded, and followed settled over you both like a wet coat. Heavy and cold. And just like that, the quiet magic of the evening dissolved into something else entirely.
By the time you stepped out of the gated patio, there were nearly a dozen paparazzi waiting along the sidewalk, some perched behind hedges, others lining the curb, cameras aimed and already clicking furiously. The bursts of light were disorienting, strobing in your viewpoint like fireworks. Someone yelled your name. Then Joe’s again. Then together. Another voice cut through the chaos,
“Are you two engaged?!”.
You flinched. Where did that come from? You don’t have any rings on.
“Joe, what about the trade rumors, are they real?”.
It was a bad season…Joe doesn’t give up like that. What are they talking about?
“Is it true she’s pregnant?”.
Your eyes widened. What the fuck? 
“Look over here! Just one smile, come on!”.
You’d rather step in front of a moving train.
“How long have you two been together…really? Clear up the timeline”.
Not your business.
“Is it true you’ve been living together in secret? Pretty fast for a new couple? Unless there was overlap with your ex!”.
You barely caught the words because they were muffled beneath the racket, but they hit you harder than anything else. “W…what?” you mumbled, voice cracking under your breath. That question wasn’t just invasive, it was a knife twisting in a wound you thought had started to heal. Overlap? Seriously? After everything…the heartbreak you bled into every lyric of that album, the nights spent raw and sleepless replaying every betrayal, every lie told like it was second nature, the manipulation and gaslighting that left you questioning your own reality. Was that not enough to convince them you were the one who got blindsided? The doubt, the cruelty you thought they’d forgotten, it stung worse than the flashing cameras and shouting voices combined. 
You could feel your skin crawling with heat…and not the good kind. The crowd was too close. The sidewalk felt narrow, the space tightening with every step. It almost felt like you couldn’t breathe for a second, like with each flash their grip on your throat became tighter…and tighter…and tighter, until…
“Eyes on me,” he murmured, ducking his head down so his lips were at your ear, like it was just the two of you inside the restaurant again.
You blinked up at him, heart hammering in your chest, blood rushing in your ears.
Joe moved without hesitation, every instinct sharp and protective. His hand came down firmly on the small of your back, guiding you forward with steady pressure, as if to remind you silently that he was there, a shield against the storm. He angled his body deliberately, creating a barrier between you and the flashing cameras, his presence like a wall you could lean into. His other hand found yours, fingers curling around yours with quiet assurance, keeping you tethered to him even as the world spun wildly out of control. You felt the heat of his palm against your skin, the subtle pulse of his heartbeat, the silent promise that no matter how loud the chaos, you weren’t facing it alone.
“They’re not getting you like this,” he shook his head, eyes flicking over the swarm ahead, calculating—the left side was more crowded, right had a clearer path to the car. “Just keep walking. I’ve got you,”.
When someone lunged forward to snap a closer photo, Joe stepped in front of you completely, moving with intuition and precision. His entire frame squared off like a wall, broad shoulders and calm fury cutting between you and the flashing chaos. “...Back…the hell…up,” he said, each word laced with unshakable intensity, carrying that unmistakable edge, the one you’d only heard on game days. 
His football voice.
Your heart skipped a beat. That voice—his football voice—cut through the noise like a sharp blade. It was commanding and cold, the kind of voice that made people stop in their tracks and reevaluate every decision they’d ever made. You’d heard it on the field, in tense moments when the game was on the line, but rarely outside that world. And never directed at strangers. Joe wasn’t the type to lose his cool or be disrespectful, even under pressure. But this wasn’t just frustration. This was something deeper, protective, primal. He wasn’t lashing out. He was drawing a line in the sand.
And part of you, even in the middle of the chaos, felt a rush of something hot in your chest. He wasn’t just defending you, he was claiming you. Shielding you. Fulfilling that unspoken promise he’d made so many times before, no one touches what’s his. It wasn’t about the paparazzi. It was about you. And in that moment, even through the adrenaline and tension, you knew. He would always put himself between you and the world.
Without thinking, your fingers clutched his tighter, a quiet plea beneath the surface. But he didn’t flinch. He just gave your hand a firm squeeze in return, steady and a failed attempt to calm you, and kept his eyes locked on the man with the camera like he was daring him to breathe wrong. You weren’t sure why part of you thought the contact would soften him. You knew better. Joe didn’t play when it came to you.
And that look in his eyes? It was lethal. Cold steel wrapped in fire. His jaw was set, his expression carved from silent rage, but it was his eyes that did the talking, those usually soft, sea-glass irises now intense and unreadable, glittering with a kind of dangerous calm. It wasn’t rage, not exactly. It was control. Calculated. Unforgiving. The look of someone who would burn the whole world down without raising his voice if it meant keeping you safe.
There was no bluff in him. No room for doubt. The line had been crossed, and Joe was the wall they’d slammed into.
He wasn’t fucking around.
And God help anyone who forgot that.
A dozen cameras fired in continuous rapid bursts, shutters clicking like machine guns, hungry to capture the tension in Joe’s jaw, the way his body shifted ever so slightly in front of yours.. Someone in the crowd called out, loud and baiting for a reaction, “Come on, Joe! Thought you used to be cool with the media. What’s the big deal now? You hiding something?”.
You almost laughed at that. Cool with the media? In what universe had Joe Burrow ever been cool with the media? He didn’t even flinch at that comment. Didn’t look their way. Didn’t give them a single word. His silence was louder than anything he could’ve said because, at that moment, the only thing that mattered to him was you, not whatever narrative they were going to spin from this stupid situation tonight.
Joe opened the car door with one arm, holding it firmly while the other stayed wrapped around your waist, guiding you in. His hand curled protectively at your hip, blocking every camera angle that might catch your face. He didn’t rush you, didn’t snap at you to move faster. Just made sure you were in safely and completely before closing the door behind you with quiet finality. The moment it shut, it was like the world went quiet again—like someone threw a thick wool blanket over the chaos outside. A thick wool blanket you so desperately needed. The shrieking voices, the flashes, the clatter of footsteps and shutters, it all dulled, distant now behind the tinted glass. 
Through the window, you watched Joe move with that same stoic assertiveness he had on display earlier before the whole football voice debacle. He didn’t sprint, didn’t even look flustered. Just moved around the car in calm, calculated steps, all control and subtle force. A man on a mission. Joe Cool. His jaw was tight, clenched in a way that made your heart squeeze. You could see it then, beneath the calm, he was angry. Not just annoyed or bothered. Angry. Because they’d come too close. Because they’d made you flinch. Because protecting you wasn’t a choice—it was the most important thing to him and this was the first time he’d witnessed them physically cross the line with you.
It wasn’t the first time you’d dealt with paparazzi like this. The flashes, the shouting, the way they pressed in, hungry for a reaction, for something to catch that could be turned into a headline. You’d been through it before, way too many times to count on two hands. But back then, it was different. When you were with your ex, you learned to carry the weight, the fear of being pushed into the deep in with no flotation device, alone. He never stepped up to protect you when you were visibly uncomfortable with the attention. Never reached out to shield you from the storm, never even bothered to hold your hand, which was the bare minimum in these situations. You remembered the cold ache in your chest as you fended off their invasive lenses with nothing but your own strength, swallowing the panic that threatened to rise, pretending you were okay when inside you felt like you were breaking.
But tonight with Joe, everything felt different. His hand gripped yours with a newfound intensity, like he was the only steady thing in the whirlwind, and he was determined not to let you drift. His body was close, all around you, behind you as you stepped through the crush of flashing cameras, beside you in the car now, a quiet wall of warmth and strength that seemed to shield you without even trying. You could feel the protectiveness radiating off of him, not just in the way he touched you, but in every subtle shift of his body, every careful glance. And his voice—god, his voice—it wasn’t loud, but it didn’t need to be. There was a weight behind every word, something grounded and unshakable. Each syllable landed with purpose, sinking deep into your chest like ballast, pressing back against the storm in your head. There was no uncertainty in him. No trace of hesitation. Just a fierce, unflinching conviction that calmed your nerves before they could spiral. It made the world feel quieter. Safer. Like maybe, for once, you didn’t have to face it all alone.
You didn’t have to face it alone, but it came at the cost of his comfort. And that was what killed you.
Because you knew how much Joe hated that kind of attention, too. You’d seen the way his shoulders tensed when lights burst too close, the way his breath shortened just slightly, like he was bracing for something. He never said a word about it, always tried to mask it with calm, practiced indifference—but you knew him. You knew the signs. You felt it in the way his hand gripped yours more tightly, in the way his body went still like he was drawing an invisible line around you both.
And yet, he’d stepped into the chaos without blinking. Put himself between you and the noise, the heat, the vultures. Not for show. Not for the cameras. Just for you. Because some part of him—some deep, unshakable part—couldn’t not.
That hit you hard. A direct blow to the chest. Because it wasn’t just protective, it was visceral. Like he was always meant to do this, born to do this, to be this man for you. He didn’t do it out of obligation. He did it because keeping you safe was his safe. Because shielding you made him feel at peace.
And that...that was something you weren’t used to.
Not with men. Not with the press. Not when the worst of it came barrelling toward you, all teeth and spotlight and twisting headlines. You’d gotten used to fending for yourself. Bracing alone. Smiling through the sting.
Lights, camera, bitch, smile, even when you wanna die. That was your motto. 
And when it happened before—when the noise came and your ex stood beside you—you’d been left to weather it alone, shrinking behind dark sunglasses while he walked a step ahead, pretending it wasn’t happening.
But this was different.
The heat of Joe’s hands on your skin, the steady pressure of his thumb brushing over your knuckles, it all pulled you back from the edge. Back from that old fear you’d carried like armor. You let yourself lean into him, just a little, let the rigidity in your spine soften as his warmth settled into your skin.
Because this was new. This was safe. He made you feel so safe. 
This man—this quiet, guarded, soft-spoken man—was stepping into the fire not only to shield you, but because in some strange, unexpected way, you made it feel survivable for him too. So you let your body ease up against the seat cushion a little more, heart slowing its beating, and in that stillness—the space between what the world thought they knew and what only the two of you did—you let yourself believe something you hadn’t dared to before. 
Maybe you didn’t have to be strong alone anymore.
Maybe neither of you did.
The sound of the door slamming shut again snapped you out of your thoughts. You tilted your head towards the noise and watched as his large frame slid into the seat beside you. Before even glancing at the road ahead, he turned toward you. “You okay?” he asked, the heavy tone he used just mere seconds ago completely gone. Now, it was back to the way it always was with you, pillowy softness, true sincerity, like he was scanning for the smallest signs of hurt. It wasn’t just the words either, he was asking with his eyes, his touch, the way his hand reached for yours like he needed to feel if you were truly alright. 
You took a slow, steadying breath before nodding, your voice quieter than you intended. “I’m okay…I think. Thanks for that. I know…,” your eyes flicked to his, “...I know dealing with cameras and strangers prying into your life like that goes against everything you try to avoid. Guess I’m still a magnet for them,” you tried to laugh, but it got caught in your throat, weighed down by something heavier than embarrassment. The guilt was a quiet, persistent thrum beneath your skin. It crept in like fog, blurring the edges of your gratitude with something colder. You hadn’t meant to drag him into this part of your world. The truth was, he wouldn’t be dealing with any of this if it weren’t for you. Joe Burrow going out to dinner alone in New Orleans? Maybe a few fans asking for a picture. Maybe a blurry phone photo from across the room. 
That was it.
But with you on his arm, the narrative changed. Suddenly, there were headlines and flashes, questions shouted over one another, people reaching, grabbing, speculating.
“This is because of me,” you said, the words falling before you could stop them. “If I wasn’t- if we weren’t…together, you wouldn’t be dealing with any of this. I hate that I’m the reason they’re all in your face like that. Especially this week, when it’s all supposed to be about y- you,” your voice faltered at the end, quiet and uneven, thick with guilt. “Fuck, am I making this about me again? Were those girls right?” you thought as you stared down at your lap, fingers curling into the fabric of your dress, twisting it mindlessly as the ache behind your ribs swelled. The dress still smelled faintly like the restaurant—like wine and candle wax and early summer air—but even that familiar comfort couldn’t anchor you now. 
His soft voice cut through the sinking feeling in your chest, “You come first,”.
You looked up.
“Always,” he said, his tone unwavering. “I don’t give a damn what they say or how they twist it. Let ‘em talk. Let ‘em turn it into whatever the hell they want. I can take it. No big deal,”. His jaw was still tight, locked with restraint, but his eyes—his sweet ocean blue eyes—held none of the same hardness. They stayed soft on you, melting some of that internal ice inch by inch. “I just needed them to know,” he went on. “They don’t get to come near you like that. Ever. Not when I’m here,”.
The car hummed beneath you as it pulled from the curb, the driver silent behind the wheel, giving you space like he understood the tension in the cabin. Outside, camera flashes still bloomed like artificial lightning, burning white in the dark, but each one faded more quickly than the last, swallowed by the city lights and distance. You let out another slow breath, this one a little shaky, voice brittle. “I- I didn’t expect it to hit me like that. I thought I was used to it,” you said, eyes unfocused as you stared down at your lap, where your fingers lay still. “I mean…I’ve lived with this kind of attention for years. I know the drill. Cameras. Speculation. People thinking they’re entitled to your whole life just because they recognize your face,” you shook your head slightly, as if trying to shake off the memory, the way their voices had risen in a messy chorus outside the restaurant, overlapping with flashes and footsteps and the loud thrum of your own heartbeat.
“But something about tonight…,” your voice cracked just slightly, but you kept going, your words soft but razor-sharp where they pressed into old wounds. “The way they shouted at us—like I was something to be exposed, not someone real to be known—it got under my skin again. Like I was doing something wrong just by being next to you,”.
You swallowed hard, the heat of embarrassment and anger curling in your belly like smoke from a fire you thought you’d already put out. “And the things they were saying? An engagement? A baby? Trade rumors? Overlap? Where the hell did that even come from?” you gave a small, humorless laugh, shaking your head. “It was like they weren’t even looking at us…just baiting us, throwing shit at the wall to see what would stick. They could’ve asked about my album, or the Grammys last week, or hell, even focused on you and the honors tomorrow night. But no. Let’s scream ‘Baby Burrow!’ outside a restaurant like that’s going to get them a Pulitzer,”.
There was a beat of quiet, and then Joe let out a breath through his nose, part disbelief, part amusement. His lips twitched like he was trying not to laugh. “Baby Burrow and trade rumors in the same sentence,” he muttered, shaking his head. “Didn’t think I’d ever hear that combo screamed at me over the sound of camera shutters. That’s a new one,”.
You snorted, “It’s giving ‘late-night conspiracy theory documentary,’ you know? Completely bizarre with no links whatsoever. Next thing they’ll be yelling is that we faked a breakup to boost album sales and secretly bought a castle in the Swiss Alps to raise a baby goat commune,”.
Joe bit back a grin, eyes twinkling as he fought the laugh building in his throat. “Goat commune?” he echoed.
You nodded solemnly. “Goat commune. With matching linen robes. You wear a flower crown. I churn butter,”.
He leaned closer, “You’re actually terrifying,”.
“I try,” you winked. “And just wait until they say that we’re alien royalty who got married on the moon,”.
His smile twitched for a second at the mention of his favorite subject, aliens and space, and he leaned in slightly, voice dropping into a warm tease. “If we ever do get married on the moon, I’m wearing one of those full Buzz Lightyear suits. I expect you to coordinate,”.
“Matching helmets, or it’s off,” you shot back, your voice lighter now, a wry smile tugging at your lips.
He grinned, but that playful glint softened as his gaze settled back on you, serious now. His hand slid back into yours without hesitation, his thumb running slow circles over the back like he was trying to ease the ache out of your bones. “They don’t know what they’re talking about,” he said, “They just shout what they think’ll get a reaction. It’s noise. It’s all just…noise. But you? You’re not noise. You’re not something to be exposed, Y/N. You’re someone to be loved. Millions and millions of people love you. They’ve loved you through it all, through all the shit you never thought you’d come back from. Through the moments you were sure would make people turn away. But they didn’t. They don’t. They see you. I see you,”.
Your breath caught, throat tightening as his eyes searched yours. “There’s always gonna be someone out there spewing bullshit,” he continued, jaw clenching faintly. “For clicks, for attention, for the hell of it. Some asshole behind a camera or a keyboard just waiting to twist whatever they can into a headline. But they don’t matter. Not when the people who actually see you have already made up their minds. Not when I know exactly who you are,”.
You blinked against the sudden sting behind your eyes, breath catching as his words threaded their way into those raw, weathered places inside you—the ones worn down by years of scrutiny and shouted questions and flashing lights. The ones that still tensed at the idea of being seen too clearly, too much, too wrong. You’d built armor over the years, learned how to smile without flinching, how to deflect, how to hold yourself together under the lens. But Joe’s words, his presence, peeled all of that back so gently it didn’t even hurt, just left you exposed in a way that felt safe instead of scary. Like you weren’t being studied, or judged, or cornered. Like you were simply being held.
And as he angled his body closer, everything outside the car seemed to blur and fade. The flashbulbs. The yelling. The noise. All of it dissolved into nothing more than a memory already retreating into the rearview mirror. Here, inside this quiet moment with him, you weren’t some story to be written. You weren’t a headline, a scandal, or a symbol. You were just…you.
In his arms, with his voice steady in your ear and his fingers anchored around yours, you didn’t feel like a spectacle.
You felt at home.
“Yeah,” you say, not quite a whisper, not quite a breath—just a quiet truth loosed from the cage of your ribs. It slips out as your head folds into the space between his shoulder and his neck, where it’s warm and dim and safe. Where you can hear his pulse like a metronome, steady and permanent, like it’s always known you.
His arm tightens around you just slightly, fingers find their way around your hip, like this is the only place they’ve ever belonged. You don’t look at him when you speak again, you don’t have to.
“You do. You always know who I am,”.
It’s not dramatic. It’s not loud. It’s not something that’ll go viral tomorrow.
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The elevator ride up to your suite was quiet, not awkward, not tense, but dense with a comfortable kind of peace that blocked out anything bitter. It pressed in around you, filled with everything left unsaid, his unwavering protectiveness, the adrenaline still humming in your blood, the sheer disbelief that any of it had just happened. The doors slid shut with a soft mechanical sigh, cocooning you in low gold light and polished silence. You didn’t speak, nor did he. But his presence behind you was loud in its own way; solid, anchoring, a furnace of heat radiating off his body in steady waves that curled against your back and shoulders, holding you together when your mind started to drift too far. You could feel the fire beneath his skin, the fury he rarely let anyone see. It only ever surfaced during high-energy moments on the field or when something threatened someone he loved. And tonight, that someone was you. He didn’t have to say a word. You knew. You felt it.
You also knew your phone was probably buzzing relentlessly in your clutch by now, Jen’s name lighting up the screen over and over. Which was exactly why you’d flipped on Do Not Disturb the second the car door shut behind you. You couldn’t handle the frenzy just yet, the photos, the warped headlines, the speculation they’d spin from a single freeze-frame. Not when your skin still felt tight and overstimulated from the flashing lights. Not when your heart hadn’t quite settled in your chest.
His fingers never left yours. Every few seconds, he gave a subtle squeeze, like he needed the reassurance that you were there. That nothing had taken you from him or this beautiful night you were having before shit went sideways outside the resteraunt. When the elevator doors finally opened, Joe's head turned sharply, scanning the hallway with a predator's awareness. Jaw tense, eyes scanning hard as he made sure nobody was around to disrupt the peace. Then, he slid a hand to your lower back, not just guiding you but shielding you, keeping your body close to his as he walked you to the suite. You leaned into him automatically, drawing strength from the tension in his frame, from the way he stayed coiled around you like a barrier.
Once the door shut behind you, the silence felt deafening. No chaos. No shouts. No camera flashes. Just the distant echo of jazz from the streetcar tracks two blocks down, the low buzz of the HVAC, and your heartbeats. 
“Sit,” he said lowly, breaking the silence and motioning to the chair next to the coffee table. The word threaded through the quiet like a steel cable, gentle but immovable. There was no opening for argument, not after everything that had just happened. Not when you were still shaking, even if you were trying to hide it. His gaze dropped to your mouth, lingering there. He watched the slight quiver of your bottom lip, the one you thought you’d gotten under control. But of course, he noticed. Of course, he saw right through it, just like he always did. You’d made it through the car ride, made it through the storm of cameras and shouting, but under it all, you were still rattled. Still fragile in a way that made his whole body go cold again, even now.
“I’m okay, Joe…,” you tried to say, the words barely scraping their way past your lips. It was more reflex than honesty; you were so used to hiding your pain from everyone. Your hand moved on instinct, threading through tangled strands of your hair, snagging in knots you hadn't even registered until now. The motion was shaky, betraying the truth you hadn’t admitted yet. Your voice was too soft, too weak, like you were trying to convince both of you.
Joe didn’t respond right away. He didn’t need to. Two quiet strides and he was there, standing directly in front of you, a calm presence wrapped around something burning. “I know you want me to believe that,” he murmured, eyes searching yours. “But I need to see it. For myself,”.
Before you could answer, his hands were already on your face, cool against the feverish warmth blooming across your skin. His touch was sure, familiar in a way that quickly calmed you, but tender enough to unravel every defense you still had left. His thumbs traced softly beneath your eyes—not because you were crying, but because he was checking for the tears that hadn’t yet spilled. The way he held your jaw, cupping it with such aching gentleness, made your breath hitch. It was like he thought you might break if he wasn’t careful. “You held it together out there, sweetheart,” he murmured, his voice roughened by restraint, every syllable dragging with quiet urgency. “You did everything right. But your hands? They were shaking the whole time. I felt it. And I know that look you had, you go quiet when you’re on the verge of falling apart,”.
Your gaze dropped to the floor as shame crept into your mind despite the tenderness in his voice. Maybe because you felt exposed. Maybe because he saw the things you tried to hide. Your mouth parted, but your throat tightened around every word, leaving you silent. When you did finally speak, your voice barely existed. “I just…I know everything you said in the car was right, but…I froze, Joe. I didn’t know what to do. It felt like they were everywhere. Like they were on top of me. I thought things would be different, that I would be different…I wasn’t scared, not really, I just—,”.
“You didn’t know where to put it,” he said, gently finishing the thought for you. “That panic. That pressure. That helplessness. I know exactly what that feels like,”.
Of course, he knew. 
Joe knew that feeling better than almost anyone. He’d lived it—played through it. That gnawing weight in your chest, the breath that caught before a snap, the way the world narrowed, and the noise around you swelled until it all felt like too much. He first felt it in 2020, when his rookie season came to a screeching halt against Washington. One moment he was standing tall in the pocket, the next he was on the turf; his ACL torn, the future he’d worked so hard for suddenly up in the air. That was his first taste of helplessness. Of being benched by something beyond his control.
Then came Super Bowl LVI, standing under those lights in front of millions, watching seconds tick off the clock in disbelief as the Rams sealed the game. The loss didn’t hit like a punch; it hit like a slow, sharp bleed. That ache didn’t go away when the confetti fell, not even when it wasn’t their colors.
And lately? He’d learned to live with that pressure. It came with the territory—prime-time games, fourth-quarter comebacks, showdowns with the Ravens, the Chiefs, whoever had their shot that week. He carried it all, the importance of their expectations, the city’s hope, the responsibility of leading an entire franchise. He carried it so well, you’d never know the panic still sometimes tried to claw its way in.
But he never let it take over. He never let it win.
There was no self-pity in his voice, not even a hint of dramatics. Just shared understanding. A recognition forged from experience, the way soldiers recognize each other after battle. “You don’t have to carry it alone anymore,” he continued, his tone softening with every syllable. “Let me carry it with you. All of it. Please. Can you do that for me?”. 
Then he kissed your forehead, and not a light, passing press of lips, but something more deliberate. Like he was pressing every ounce of his love for you into your skin. “You don’t always have to know what to do,” he said as he pulled away. “You just have to let me take care of it. That’s my job now, yours is to be safe, to let yourself be taken care of. To not have to deal with it all alone, like he made you, like they all made you. I promise you that I can handle it, and I know I’ve said that like a dozen times today, but I mean it. Just be mine,”.
The last three words landed like a benediction, whispered against the tender air between you. Like a promise he had no intention of ever breaking.
Your breath hitched, and for once, you had nothing to say back to him. You couldn’t speak, couldn’t trust your voice not to crack open. So you nodded and hoped he understood all the things you couldn’t say.
You saw it happen in real time, the tension in his brow eased, his jaw unclenched, and something unspoken passed over his face, like a wave pulling him under. He tilted his head, slowly and with practiced ease, and your spine lit up in quiet anticipation, heat blooming in your lower belly. It was a look you knew too well, the kind of look that came with no warning but always meant gravity.
Your breath caught as your lashes lowered. Not out of performance, not out of habit, but because somewhere deep in your chest, something softened too.
Then…he kissed you.
Not like a man trying to be seen. Not for the audience, or the cameras, or whatever headline was already being drafted in the chaos outside. He kissed you like you were the only thing keeping him to that moment. Like if he kissed you just right, he could erase the tremor in your hands, the fatigue behind your eyes, the way your smile hadn’t quite reached your soul lately. It wasn’t hurried. It wasn’t polished. It was raw, and open, and full of all the things he didn’t know how to say out loud.
It felt like shelter. Like a hand over your heart saying, I’ve got you. I’ve. Got. You. I’m not letting go.
His lips were soft, but purposeful. Coaxing and reassuring you like he wasn’t in a rush to prove anything except that he wasn’t going anywhere. His tongue traced along yours with calculated ease, as if reacquainting itself with something sacred. One hand moved to the back of your neck, softly holding you there. The other slid down the slope of your shoulder, brushed across your collarbone, and settled at your waist, twisting gently. The tension in your body melted, little by little. You felt it uncoil in your shoulders, your spine, your clenched hands. All the places you hadn’t realized were locked down with fear and fatigue. Before you met Joe, you had been holding yourself together for so long that you were beginning to forget what it felt like to let someone else hold you. But over these past few months, Joe, piece by piece, day by day, was teaching you it all over again. What it felt like to be seen, heard, and loved in even the most minuscule ways. 
He didn’t stutter, didn’t jump even when he felt the walls cave in just a smidge. When your arms wound around him and your breath hitched, he pulled you in tighter, kissed you deeper. Like he was building something around you. A fortress of touch. A haven of presence. And in that moment, in the silence between your panic and his promise, there were no flashing lights. No distant shouting. No threats waiting beyond the hotel walls.
There was only the truth he kept trying to show you, in every kiss, every word, every steady touch. You weren’t alone. Not anymore. Not with him. And maybe, for the first time in a very long time, you believed it. Really believed it. The thought slipped in quietly and slowly, like warmth beneath your ribs. So gently, you didn’t even notice at first that your hands had stopped trembling. That your breathing had evened out. That, for a moment, everything outside of this room ceased to exist. 
“How did I ever function without this?” the thought came unbidden, tender and awestruck. “How did I ever survive before him?”.
Something about the way he handled you just now made you ache in a different way. Not from fear, not from panic. From want. From the heat curling in your stomach again like earlier, soft yet insistent. From the way he looked at you, like you were a blessing. He hadn’t even touched you like that again yet, not since before you left for dinner. But still, your thighs shifted together, pressing tight. Because the way he showed up for you, not just during intimate moments, but in moments like this, turned you on more than anything else ever had. 
When he finally pulled back, the world didn’t crash in. It just narrowed to him, and the way he was looking at you now. When he noticed your gaze, when his lips tugged into the ghost of a smile and he whispered, “What’re you thinking about, pretty girl?” you knew he could feel it too. His eyes roamed lower, dropping to the delicate straps of your dress where they kissed your shoulders, the fabric slightly askew from the rush of earlier. Something in his expression shifted—still soft, but edged with something darker. Hungrier. “You wore this for me?” he asked, voice gone hoarse, laced with something unspoken as he eyed the lace black straps underneath the dress straps.
You felt the air leave your lungs in a shaky breath, your chest rising against the sudden heat winding through you. You nodded slowly, eyes lowering as you remembered you’d slipped this on before you left earlier. “I told you if you behaved tonight…,”.
The corner of his mouth twitched first, then that soft, husky chuckle rolled out of him. The kind of laugh that made your stomach do a backflip. “Baby,” he said, his voice a rasp that set your skin ablaze, “I tried so fucking hard. You looked so goddamn stunning tonight, and I swear…every time I looked at you, I was five seconds away from losing it,”. He leaned in then, his breath warm against your cheek, lips brushing just beside your ear. “You…you have no idea what you do to me, princess,”.
“Yeah. I’m fucked,” you instantly thought to yourself, a cheeky smile rising on your face. Maybe it was the adrenaline still fading from your veins, or the way he’d stood so unflinching in front of the chaos, shielding you with everything he had. Or maybe it was just him, in this light, in this moment, looking at you like that. Like this was what he’d fought through it all for. Either way, the shift in the air was undeniable. He was still your safe place, but now the way he watched you made it clear. You were his weakness. And right now, you were the only thing he wanted.
“Was I good, Y/N?” he smirked, his heated gaze sweeping up and down your body. He knew what he was doing, saying it like that, looking at you like that. Like he’d already cracked you open from the moment you batted your eyelashes at him earlier at dinner, but was making you say it out loud for the world to hear.
You grabbed his wrist, fingers splaying across the back of his hand, pulling it to your lip so you could drop a soft kiss to his knuckles. “You were so good, Joey,” you mumbled, “So strong,” a kiss placed on his knuckles again before you let go and wrapped your arms around his neck, “So protective,” a kiss placed on the sweet spot, his hands sliding from your hips down to your ass, “So intimidating,” a kiss placed on his jawline. At the same time, he sucked in a breath, hands tightening their hold on your flesh, “So sexy,” and a final kiss placed on his ear after you whispered that.
“Baby, please,” he breathed, voice frayed and slowly becoming softer, his forehead dropping to your shoulder like the weight of all his restraint had finally collapsed. You felt him tremble, every muscle drawn tight, every breath a struggle not to lose control.
Your fingers slipped into his hair, tender but purposeful, tugging at the ends to bring his face back up to yours. His eyes found yours—stormy, wrecked, needing—and you didn’t flinch. You held him there. You let him see you. Then you leaned in, your lips brushing his in a kiss that lingered like a promise. “Take it,” you whispered against his mouth. “Whatever you need, Joe. Have all of me. I’m yours…completely,”.
And that did it.
He didn’t respond with words, just a sharp breath through his nose, a muttered curse against your cheek, and then he pulled back enough to shrug his shirt over his head. The fabric dragged across his skin in one clean sweep, baring the lines of his shoulders and the ripple of his chest and abs beneath the warm glow of the room. His hands went to his belt next, and when the leather slid free with that low, biting snap, something inside you tightened and flipped. You bit your lip as the heat blooming in your stomach started to spread throughout every inch of your body. God, he looked unreal like this. Eyes dark with lust, cheeks flushed from the kiss, and panting, fully panting because he needed to feel you again; all lean muscle and want and yours. Every inch of skin he revealed made you forget how to breathe.
And he saw it…how your breath hitched, how your fingers shifted slightly to grip your hip to make sure you didn’t fall over from seeing him like this. His lips curved into something between a smirk and a growl, that deep, knowing sound he only made when he knew exactly how worked up you were. “You like watching me lose control, don’t you?” he murmured, voice thick with heat as he stepped closer, belt still hanging loose from one hand before he dropped it. “Gets you off knowing I’d rip the world apart for you,”.
He wasn’t wrong, and he could see it written all over your face.
He didn’t rush this, not even a little. His fingers easily found the zipper at the small of your back, reaching for the tiny metal tag like instinct, almost as instinctual as his fingers finding a football. He dragged it down at an agonizing pace, his knuckles grazing your spine. The anticipation tightened around you like a wire. The dress slipped from your shoulders, sliding to your waist, before you let it fall completely, pooling at your feet with a soft rustle. Cool air kissed your bare skin, but it was nothing compared to the fire in his gaze. His breath hitched sharply when he took in the black lace hugging your curves—sheer, barely-there fabric clinging to your body like a lover’s hands.
“Fuck,” he breathed, the words barely audible, like they’d clawed their way out of his throat. “You’re fucking unreal,”.
His hands found your hips and gripped, hard enough to make your breath hitch, like he needed something to hold onto or he’d completely come undone right then and there. His fingers splayed over your skin, possessive and burning hot through the thin fabric of your black set. Each step he took toward the bed was unhurried, intentional, twisted with restraint that was quickly fading at the edges. Every inch of his body thrummed with tension, the kind that made your pulse race with anticipation.
Your knees hit the mattress, and you went willingly, letting him guide you back as the air crackled around you. His mouth crashed into yours again—urgent, greedy, dragging a moan from deep in your chest. His teeth caught your bottom lip just hard enough to sting before he soothed it with his tongue, then his kisses trailed lower. Down your jaw. Your neck. Across the delicate lines of your collarbone, each one wetter, hungrier than the last. He couldn’t seem to get close enough, “Lie back,” he rasped, his voice dense and commanding. You didn’t even think, just obeyed. Your head hit the pillow with a soft rustle, silk sheets cool against your flushed skin, and fuck, you were already soaked. A hot throb between your thighs pulsed with need, desperate for more of him—his mouth, his hands, him. All of him.
He knelt between your legs and just looked at you, that heavy-lidded gaze drinking you in like he’d never seen anything so decadent. His hands started at your ankles, rough palms trailing up the curve of your calves with excruciating slowness. His thumbs dragged along the inside of your knees, and when he reached your thighs, his grip tightened. Wide, steady, spreading you open like a gift he was about to unwrap. “Jesus fuck,” he muttered, voice tight, nearly guttural as his thumbs hooked into your panties and dragged them down your legs inch by inch. “Look at you. Already dripping for me,”.
The moment they were off, he tossed them carelessly aside, then leaned in and pressed an open-mouthed kiss to the inside of your thigh. His tongue flicked, teased, sucked until your back arched and your breath broke in a gasp. “Joe…please…,”.
“Patience,” he murmured against your skin, his voice low and dark and far too calm for the way you were trembling. “I want to taste every fucking second of this,”.
A second later, a thick, calculated lick from your entrance to your clit had your body jerking off the bed. You cried out, one hand flying to the sheets, the other to his hair, fingers sinking in as you tried to ground yourself. His groan rumbled against you like thunder—fuck, he was loud when he got needy—and the sound shot straight through you. He wrapped his lips around your clit and sucked, firm and rhythmic, tongue flicking just enough to drive you insane. “Oh, fuck…Joe,” you moaned, already a withering mess underneath his touch.
He didn’t let up as his grip on your hips tightened, burying his face between your thighs, tongue moving in filthy, endless strokes. He licked, sucked, devoured you like it was his life’s purpose. Like he’d crawl inside you if you let him. “Stay still,” he smirked, pulling back just far enough to speak, his lips slick and glistening. “Let me have you. Just like this. Let me feel how much you need me,”.
You tried, you tried, but your hips kept chasing him, seeking the friction, the fullness, the overwhelming pressure that only he could give. He rewarded your lack of control with a low, wrecked moan and shoved his tongue deep, fucking into you with long, steady strokes that had you clenching around him. Both hands grabbed for his hair, attaching themselves to the only solid thing in the world—him—as your climax began to build, rising fast and brutal and dizzying. The sounds in the room were obscene; the wet, greedy noises of him eating you out, the hitch in your breath, the raw sound of his name breaking on your lips.
“I can’t…I’m gonna– Joe!”.
He latched onto your clit again, sucking hard, tongue circling just right, and your orgasm shattered through you. It was white-hot and endless, your body spasming as your thighs clamped around his head and your voice broke on a scream. You came undone for him, shaking, twitching, unraveling under his addictive touch.
But he didn’t stop. He kept going, licking you through every aftershock, tongue slow and soft now, as if he couldn’t bear to stop tasting you. His stubble scraped softly against your oversensitive skin, and you whimpered, half-delirious, hips twitching. “Ah, Joe…you’re so– ,”.
When he finally pulled away, he looked wrecked. Hair wild, face soaked with your sweet arousal, lips swollen and gleaming. His pupils were blown wide, his breath ragged, and his expression… fuck, it was pure possession. “You’re such a fucking mess for me,” he rasped, leaning forward to kiss the inside of your thigh again, slow and soft. “Look at you. Just from my mouth,”.
His thumb stroked your still-quivering leg, but his eyes stayed dark, hungry. Because this was only the beginning. You reached for him, desperate, every nerve ending strung tight and aching. “Need you,” you gasped, voice wrecked and pleading. “Please, Joe. I need you inside me. I need to feel you in me. I need it so bad,”.
He kissed his way up your body, belly trembling under his mouth, your breasts arching into his touch as he paused to suck one nipple deep into his mouth, then the other, tonguing and teasing until you were moaning, fingers threading through his messy hair. By the time he reached your lips, you were already shaking again. He kissed you with the same hunger he’d devoured you with—deep, messy, tongue thrusting into your mouth so you could taste yourself on him, sweet and sharp and unmistakably yours.
“Baby,” he rasped against your lips, voice thick and wrecked with want. “You taste so good, so fucking sweet. I could spend the rest of my life right here, tasting you, making you cum over and over,”.
Your head fell back against the pillow, a breathless, broken laugh spilling from your throat. “God, Joey…you drive me insane,” you whispered, hips rolling up into his, searching for anything to soothe the growing ache between your thighs. “Feels so good when you touch me like that,”.
He grinned as his cock was heavy and hard against your thigh, flushed a deep shade of red and glistening at the tip with pre-cum. It twitched sharply when you whimpered into his mouth, the sound alone enough to make him throb against your skin. You could feel the heat of it radiating into your thigh, an impossible promise you ached to take. Your breath caught at the sheer weight of him, the way the silky skin stretched over steel, the pulsing ridge of veins that made your stomach flutter in anticipation.
One of his hands slid between your bodies, calloused fingers dragging a line down your waist, your hip, until they wrapped possessively around the base of his cock. He stroked himself once, slow, purposeful, letting you feel the movement of it against your leg. You looked down and watched, transfixed, as his hand glided up the length, thumb swiping through the bead of pre-cum before dragging it down again, slicking himself with it.
Then he guided the thick head to your entrance, the blunt tip nudging through your folds, already drenched. He pressed forward just enough to catch, to part you slightly, then slid back, dragging up and down until he bumped your clit and made your hips jerk.
He teased you mercilessly, dragging the flushed head through your slickness, back and forth, coating himself in your arousal. Every now and then, he pressed in shallowly, no more than an inch, before pulling out again with a wet sound that made your breath hitch and your core clench hard. The head of his cock dragged over your entrance again, slipping lower, tapping against your pooling arousal, then up. The tension wound tighter and tighter inside you, your body aching with every pass, desperate for the stretch you knew was coming. The sound of it—the wet glide of cock on cunt, your shaky breathing, his heavy groans—made the moment unbearably erotic.
“Beg,” he rasped, voice thick with lust, breath hot at your ear. He held himself steady, barely moving, the tip of his cock resting right at your entrance like a threat. “You want it so bad, baby…fucking beg for it. Tell me how much you need my cock,”.
Oh? 
So he was in that mood tonight?
“Please,” you breathed, hands fisting in the sheets, whole body arching with the desire for him to touch you. “Please, Joe. I need you to fuck me. Fuck me so deep I feel you in my stomach. Please, baby…I need it. I need you to ruin me. Make me yours. Make me feel good,”.
“I need to cleanse my mouth with bleach,” you thought to yourself in that moment.
With a smirk, he lined himself up and drove into you, inch by punishing inch, slow but unstoppable, “That’s it, baby,” he whispered. You felt every thick ridge of him drag along your walls, the stretch so intense it made you sob. Your body resisted at first, tight and trembling, but then gave way, yielding to him, wrapping around him like it was meant to. The burn was sharp, electric, searing you open in the most delicious way. “Fuck,” he groaned, voice wrecked, guttural and dark. “You’re so tight. Jesus, baby...you feel like fucking heaven. Like this pussy was made for me,”. He didn’t stop until he bottomed out, hips snug against yours, cock buried to the hilt. The sensation hit you all at once, full, stuffed so deep you could barely breathe. Your nails dug into his muscular shoulders, and he held himself still, letting you adjust, feeling every twitch of your cunt squeeze around him. Then he pulled back and slammed forward, hard.
The sound was obscene, sharp slaps of skin on skin, wet and feral, a rhythm that echoed off the walls like a filthy song only the two of you knew. Better than any song you could’ve ever written, to be honest. Your mouth fell open in a silent scream, eyes rolling back, and your head snapped back against the pillows as he started to pound into you. Not just hard, but deep—each measured thrust expertly angled, perfectly brutal, sending electric shocks of pleasure ricocheting up your spine. 
The bed rocked faintly beneath you with every punishing thrust, the headboard banging a frantic rhythm against the wall that threatened to become its own heartbeat. Each slam of his hips jolted the mattress, sending ripples up through your spine, your body arching helplessly under the force of it. You could hear the sheets twisting, the springs protesting, the whole frame groaning in time with your desperate cries. His cock drove so deep, so unrelentingly thick inside you, it felt like he was splitting you open, every inch dragging against your slick, swollen walls, making your vision blur with stars.
“Joey,” you sobbed his name, voice breaking around the syllables, legs twitching where they clutched around his waist. The bed rocked harder, shoving you up toward the headboard with every powerful drive of his hips, the wood creaking beneath you like it might snap under the strain.
Still, he didn’t stop, didn’t even think of stopping. He just wrapped a hand around your thigh, holding you open, holding you there, like he couldn’t bear to be anywhere else. And you took it all, your body clenching and singing his name, trembling to pieces under the man who owned your heart and was determined to leave his mark on your body just as deeply.
He was utterly dazed, could barely even breathe, caught in the staggering sight of you spread out beneath him. The way your body twisted and shook for him, soft curves trembling with each desperate thrust, the perfect bounce of your tits every time he drove in deep, the slick heat of you gripping him like you never wanted to let go—it was enough to tear the air right from his lungs. His eyes roamed greedily over every inch of you, drinking in the flushed glow of your skin, the delicate lines of your throat when you threw your head back, the pretty little belly he loved to kiss and press his hand against when he fucked you slow. He’d never craved anyone like this. Never wanted anyone else, not when you existed like this, so stunning, so wholly his. Watching you come undone under him, knowing he was the only one who could pull those sounds from your throat, who could make you fall apart this way, it made his cock throb inside you, made his chest ache with a possessive, helpless love. There was no one else. There would never be anyone else. Just you, his beautiful girl, forever.
“Fuck, baby, look at you,” he groaned, fucking into you with possesive heat. “So beautiful… so fuckin’ perfect for me. This pussy’s fucking mine. You hear me?”. 
“Yours,” you gasped, desperate, locking eyes with him, your mind fully clouded by lust but still present enough to be surprised at how he was going about this tonight. “I’m yours, Joe. No one else. Just you. Always…you,”.
He sat back on his knees and dragged your hips with him, the new angle devastating. Every thrust now slammed into the spot that made stars explode behind your eyes. You looked down and cried out, “Oh fuck,”. There, in your lower belly, you could see him. The outline of his cock bulging beneath your skin, pressing up from inside with every deep thrust. “Look at that,” he hissed, palm flattening over your stomach, pressing down just enough to feel the shape of himself. “That’s me. Deep inside you. You feel that, baby? That’s how far I am, you like that?”.
Your body convulsed, your cunt clenching so tight around him he hissed through his teeth. “You’re perfect,” you choked out. “So fucking big. So perfect. You fill me up so good, Joe. No one’s ever…ever made me feel like this, baby,”.
He rushed forward and kissed you, soft and messy, tongue claiming your mouth as his thrusts grew wild, relentless. “Say it again,” he mumbled into your lips, needing to hear that praise over and over until he couldn’t fucking think anymore. There was nothing better than hearing you fall apart because of him, seeing his beautiful, strong, sexy girl lose her mind over his cock. 
“Only you,” you sobbed. “Only you, Joe,”.
Your hands scrabbled at his shoulders as you fell back into the pillows, hips chasing every desperate push of his. The pressure was a white-hot coil inside you, wound so tight it felt like it might snap at any second. “Joe…fuck. I’m so close, please…I need to cum,” you whimpered, your voice breaking into a pleading gasp as his hand slid down to grip your thigh, hauling you impossibly closer.
“Yeah?” he rasped, his breath hot against your cheek.. His hips ground into you, deeper now, slower for just a torturous moment as if he wanted to carve every inch of himself into your body, to memorize how you felt wrapped so tight around him. His hand slipped beneath your knee, pushing your leg up higher against your chest so he could sink even deeper, the new angle making your vision spark white at the edges. “Gonna cum for me, pretty girl?” he murmured, the words ragged as he pressed his forehead to yours, eyes locked on the way yours fluttered and threatened to roll back. “Gonna let go? Let me feel how much you fuckin’ need me?”.
His thumb traced down to your throat, applying the gentlest pressure that had you keening beneath him, your hips jerking up to meet every demanding thrust. The filthy squelch of your bodies filled the dim, heated room, punctuated by your whimpers and his rough groans. You could only nod, broken and breathless, every inch of you coiled tight, ready to snap for him—and only him.
A few seconds later, your head fell to the side, a soft whimper slipping out as your eyes fluttered shut, your body completely at his mercy now, “Yes, yes. Joe…please,”.
His thumb found your clit, circling fast and rough, the pressure calibrated to your edge, and your whole body seized up as the orgasm burst inside you. “Fuck, yeah…that’s it, Y/N. Cum for me, angel,” he groaned as it hit like a shockwave, raw, electric, earth-shattering. You screamed faintly, voice cracking with the force of it, eyes clenched tight as every muscle locked, then trembled violently. Your pussy clamped down around his cock like a vice, milking him with greedy, pulsing pressure that had him grunting deep, low in his chest like it was being ripped from his soul. “Oh my god…Joe- Joe!” you sobbed, your voice breaking on his name like it was the only word you still knew.
“Fuck…baby, fuck,” he moaned, barely holding on, hips jolting forward in one last brutal thrust before he came undone. He whimpered through gritted teeth, his whole body going taut above you as thick, hot ropes of cum surged into you. It poured from him in heavy pulses, coating your walls, spilling deep and hot until it couldn’t hold anymore—until it leaked out around the thick base of his cock, even as he kept fucking into you, grinding in tight circles like he could press it deeper. Bury it inside you. Brand you from the inside out. You could feel it, every throb, every sticky rush. The way your walls clung to him, refusing to let go. The heat of it, the waves of pleasure crashing over your limp body, the mess. It was so much, obscene and overwhelming and perfect. You whimpered, nails raking down his back as your legs wrapped tighter around his waist, holding him there, holding him in. Because it still wasn’t enough. Not even close.
He stayed buried deep, chest pressed to yours, arms crushing you to him. “You’re beautiful, you know that?” he whispered, breath ragged. “Fucking unbelievable, Y/N,”.
Your fingers slid between your thighs, gathering the slick mess starting to leak out of you. You brought it up and showed him, your voice trembling. “Clean up on aisle 9,” you chuckled. “Made a bit of a mess, don’t you think?”.
His gaze dropped to your fingers, and something in him twitched. Pride, lust, love, all tangled into one sweet thing in his chest. A slow grin spread across his face as he leaned down and kissed your jaw, then lower, letting his lips trail softly over the curve of your throat. “Good,” he rasped. “That’s exactly what I meant to do,”. Then his hands came up to cradle your face, thumbs sweeping tenderly beneath your eyes, tracing over the delicate curve of your cheekbones like he needed to memorize the way your skin warmed under his touch.
His palms held you with a gentleness that made your chest ache, like you were something precious, fragile in the best way, worthy of being handled with infinite care. He pressed a soft, lingering kiss to your forehead first, a touch so gentle it felt almost like a sigh against your skin. Then the tip of your nose, a playful graze that still somehow left your heart stumbling. Next came your temples, each side kissed with a reverence that made your lashes flutter, followed by your cheeks, where his lips lingered in tender pauses that seemed to pour all his quiet devotion straight into you.
They were feather-light kisses, but they landed heavy with meaning, more worship than routine, each one a vow unspoken. His mouth moved with such soft, deliberate care, it was clear this had nothing to do with the heat you’d shared moments before. This was about love, about intention, about showing you exactly where you belonged. And in that peace, with his breath mingling with yours and his hands holding you so sweetly, it felt beautifully, impossibly easy to believe that belonging was right here, nestled safely in the curve of his hands and the tender press of his lips. “You did so good for me,” he whispered, the words pressing against your skin with every kiss. “So sweet. So beautiful. You were perfect, angel,”.
You melted under him, overwhelmed by the affection of it all. “You always take care of me,” you whispered, threading your fingers through his damp hair, voice thick with emotion. “Thank you, Joey,”. 
Whether it was shielding you from the blinding glare of paparazzi flashbulbs as you slipped out the back of a venue or cradling you in the aftermath of a night that left you trembling and thoroughly undone, marked in ways only the two of you would ever truly comprehend, he was always watching over you. Not out of obligation or habit, but out of something deeper, something respectful and instinctual that felt like devotion etched into his very bones.
It wasn’t a loud, boastful kind of protection but a quiet, special one, threaded through every small but significant gesture, the way he’d subtly place himself between you and a crowd without thinking, the way his body curled around yours in sleep as though even unconscious he couldn’t bear the thought of you unguarded, the way his voice softened when your mind began to drift toward chaos.
In every moment that left you feeling exposed, whether raw with emotion, bruised by the world, or blissed-out and boneless from the weight of his love, he showed you without fail, without pause, that you were safe in his presence, because protecting you wasn’t just something he did; it was who he became when he loved you, and he loved you so completely that choosing you never felt like a decision but a certainty he carried in every breath.
His mouth found the corner of yours in a soft press, “I love you, beautiful,” he said. “You’ve spent enough time cleaning up your wounds by yourself, stitching your scars back up in secret. But I’m here for you now. And I’m never letting anything near you that doesn’t treat you like the way I treat you,”.
The way he treats you. 
Like you weren’t something shameful to be exposed, but someone to be loved.
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“Joe! Joe! Over here!”.
The shouts cut through the thick New Orleans air like sirens, loud and relentless. 
Flash.
“Here we go again,” you murmured under your breath, barely audible over the rising swell of voices. Your eyes scanned the crowd outside The Saenger Theater, every corner lit up by camera strobes, reporters jockeying for position like sharks scenting blood.
“Can I get an autograph, Joe?!”.
He didn’t flinch, just tightened his grip on your hand, steady and firm, the silent reassurance of a man who wasn’t letting go. With his other hand, he offered a polite wave to the fans crowding behind the barricade, but his body stayed angled toward yours like he was shielding you from the noise.
“Y/N! You look gorgeous!”.
The compliment made your cheeks flush, but it was drowned out almost instantly by more shouts, more lights, more chaos. Still, it lingered with you, warm and fizzy in your chest.
You knew exactly what you looked like tonight, precisely the effect you’d crafted when you slipped into this dress. The black sheer panels clung like a second skin, delicate but daring, kissed all over with red and silver sequins that caught the light in glittering cascades every time you moved. It was the kind of gown that seemed to breathe with you, sparkling with each subtle shift of your hips, every breath expanding the fine fabric across your ribs. Your strappy heels clicked smartly against the pavement, a crisp, confident music that trailed behind you, echoing off the stone walls and mingling with the hum of traffic. Even the night air seemed to pay attention, cool and fragrant, slipping beneath the slit of your dress to brush against your thighs, making your skin pebble and your heartbeat trip.
Joe hadn’t been able to take his eyes off you since the moment you came out of the car. His gaze had traveled over you in long, unhurried sweeps, dark lashes hooded, lips parted like he might say something but forgot the words. It was more than hunger—it was awe, thick and sweet, etched into the lines of his face. And you couldn’t keep your eyes off him either, not for a second. 
He looked devastatingly handsome tonight. Midnight-black tailored suit, sharp lapels hugging his broad shoulders, and the best part? He was shirtless underneath. The only things adorning his body were his two diamond chains, both of which had dangled in your face quite a few times, which is why you were nearly frozen for a solid minute when you saw him come out of the closet. 
So. Many. Flashbacks. 
And then there was that chain. Not the one around his neck…but the one in his pocket. 
The chain nestled in his left pocket wasn’t just jewelry. It was colorful and delicate, each charm a miniature planet in a perfect little orbit—Mercury, Venus, Earth...the whole solar system, and right in the middle, between Mars and Jupiter, was something unmistakable to the human eye. A tiny gold star etched with a singular letter. Your initial. A single, shimmering charm that didn’t belong in any solar system but his. It really was impossible to miss if you looked closely enough, and Joe wanted you to look. He didn’t bother tucking it away or muting the shine. No, he wore it boldly, letting the chain dangle with each stride, catching the light in rhythmic glints as if begging every camera lens to zoom in. This wasn’t just a detail in his outfit—it was a declaration. The whole world had its eyes on him tonight, and he made sure they knew exactly who resided at the heart of his solar system.
You remembered the exact moment you saw it, hours earlier, the two of you tucked into the quiet before the storm, the car idling at the curb while he adjusted the fall of his jacket. A shimmer caught your eye, delicate and deliberate, and then you saw it. Your breath hitched. 
“Wait…is that–?” your voice faltered as your eyes landed on the small golden charm nestled between miniature planets. 
Joe shrugged like it was nothing, but the way his ears turned pink told you otherwise. “Figured every universe should have a star named after you,” he said with a half-smile, that boyish smile that made you spiral. “Mine already does,”.
He said it so plainly, so offhanded, like it wasn’t the most romantic thing anyone had ever done. Like he wasn’t standing there on one of the most public nights of his career with a piece of you swinging against his thigh, daring the world to notice. Like he hadn’t quite literally turned his love for you into something cosmic.
And it mirrored your own devotion too perfectly to be a coincidence. Just last week, you’d stepped onto the Grammy carpet wearing a thigh chain so subtle, barley hidden, it had only flashed once though—a brief glint through the slit of your gown. That gold and black J engraved just for him, seen by most, was a whisper of a promise only Joe was meant to catch. And now here he was, answering you with his own, louder, prouder, publicly claimed.
You hadn’t even known he’d thought about it, much less had it made so quickly. But that was the magic of Joe. It wasn’t about grand reveals, it was about meaning, about sincerity, about appreciating the most intimate parts of your love in places only you two would understand.
Tonight, he wore you like a fixed star. Not a footnote in the story of his life. Not an accessory. But the axis. The chain swayed with a soft rhythm as he walked beside you, glinting under the street lights. And when he looked your way, eyes full of quiet devotion, the kind that calmed every nerve in your body, you felt it again. That tether. That undeniable pull. You were his center, just as surely as he’d always been yours. And in that moment, you weren’t just proud to orbit a man like him—you were honored to be the galaxy he chose to build around.
His knuckles brushed your bare back now as he helped you up the steps, fingers grazing the fabric of your dress, his touch sending shivers down your spine even in this moment where you both were just trying to thug it out and make it into the venue. His gaze dipped lower for a moment, drinking you in. And then it came back to your face with that look, the one that always made you weak. But this wasn’t about you. Not tonight.
You tried to keep your face composed, your posture graceful beneath the blinding onslaught of flashes and Joe’s poorly timed bedroom eyes, but you felt the shift before you even looked at him. Joe’s grip had tightened again, not in reassurance this time, but in tension. His jaw was locked, his eyes darting too quickly, glancing at the eager smiles of fans, the flashing lights of their cameras, and how they were slowly pushing up against the barricades. He even became hyperaware of how his suit was clinging to his skin, making him itchy in places where he shouldn’t be itchy, wanting nothing more than to claw it off his body in that moment. 
He was spiraling.
And no one else would know. Not the fans screaming his name, not the cameras capturing his every movement, not the handlers waving him down the carpet like this was just another Sunday on the field. But you knew. You always knew. You stepped in closer, your shoulder brushing against his chest, calming him with your presence, the way he’d done for you just the night before. This wasn’t a stadium, this wasn’t a locker room, this most definitely wasn’t a football game. This was a pressure he couldn’t control, and it gnawed at him.
“Smile!” someone yelled.
He didn’t. Not fully. Not like he usually did. 
So you leaned up, lips ghosting against the edge of his jaw, and whispered softly, “You’re okay, J. I’m right here,”.
He turned to you like he was a compass needle and you were true north, a magnetic force tugging on his body as soon as he heard your sweet voice, eyes briefly flicking down to your face. His fingers curled more firmly around yours as you reached your free hand to smooth the lapel of his suit jacket—half fix, half comfort. “This is your night,” you told him quietly. “You earned this, baby. Just take a deep breath and let them see you,”. 
You weren’t letting go of him for anything, your grip shrinking around him as the sounds of the crowd around you only became louder. You couldn’t let go of him, not now. Not when you were the only one here for him. Robin and Jimmy were supposed to be right behind you, had planned to fly in from Athens early this morning. But a last-minute issue with his cousin’s baby had derailed the whole thing. One missed connection turned into two, and now they were stuck overnight in Atlanta. Joe had nodded stoically when he got the call, jaw clenched, eyes unreadable, shoulders set in that too-still way that meant he was trying not to let it get to him. Said it was fine. Said he’d see them back in Ohio.
But it wasn’t fine. Not really.
He tried everything. Within minutes of hanging up, he was already on the phone trying to charter them a jet. You’d overheard him pacing the suite, voice clipped and low, rattling off numbers and weather reports like he was running a two-minute drill. But even that didn’t work. A massive storm system had grounded everything in the region; private, commercial, it didn’t matter. No one was getting out.
When he came back into the room, he didn’t say a word. Just sat on the edge of the bed with his elbows on his knees, staring at the floor like he could will it to change.
You’d crossed the room without a sound, slipping between his knees and cupping his face in your hands until he finally looked up at you. He didn’t speak, didn’t try to fake a smile or play it off, and you could tell he was upset by the way his eyes were drooping. He just rested his forehead against your sternum, breathing you in like you were the only thing about this week that he felt comfortable with, the only thing that didn’t make him feel the overwhelming urge to stick his head in the dirt. Because tonight, they wouldn’t be there, and no matter how many reporters shouted his name, no matter how many lights flashed when he stepped into that theater, part of him would still be that little kid from Athens, wanting his Mom and Dad in the front row to see him win big. 
He had a strong chance of winning MVP this year, despite the poor season the Bengals had. His personal accomplishments this past season, spirit as a locker room leader, and impact on and off the field had garnered enough attention for him to be a serious candidate, and if he really did win, he wanted them to be there. They had always been there. For every one of his biggest moments, from Little League Football awards to The Heisman Ceremony, all the way to Super Bowl LVI (regardless of the bitter outcome). They had never not been there, and that tugged at his heart a little, and you knew that. So you stayed. Close. Solid. Present. The one thing tonight he didn’t have to worry about losing, because in the back of his mind, Joe was certain that he was going home empty-handed tonight, he never ever expected to win in these situations. But he had made peace with that a long time ago, knew that he wouldn’t ever be taken seriously in these situations unless the Bengals had a phenomenal season as a whole, even if he had a season for the history books. However, since you walked into this life, he realized he didn’t need these trophies to remind him of his worth. Not when you already did without any conditions, every minute of every day you spent together. Somehow, that mattered more than he could admit.
You leaned in again, “You look amazing, tonight. Very put together and handsome,” you murmured just loud enough for him to hear, hoping to lighten the energy around him. 
His mouth twitched, but his eyes didn’t lift from the steps, making sure your heel didn’t get caught in a ridge, “You think so?”.
“I know so,” you said, threading your fingers through his where they hung between you. “And they’d be so proud if they were here. And I know it’s not the same, but I’m here. You’re not alone in this,”.
After that sentence, he looked at you, really looked. His pupils wide under the sharp gleam of the flashing lights, his gaze searching your face like he needed to memorize it. Then he nodded, subtle but sure, and squared his shoulders as the entrance to the Saenger came into view, “Thank you…for being here. For doing this with me,” he said, smiling faintly. You could feel the shift in him, and although the nerves didn’t disappear, they folded around the quiet certainty of your presence. Just like they had the night before, when it had been your heart unraveling, your voice breaking, your hands shaking. And Joe had held you through it. Wordlessly. Fiercely.
Now it was your turn to hold him through the noise. Which you would, every step of the way.
You turned to him, manicured fingertips brushing over the curve of his wrist, and said softly, “I’d do this with you in every lifetime,”. Your gaze dropped to the star charm resting against his thigh along with the other planets in the Solar System, and something in you shifted—a realization that felt both ancient, like you’d felt this for him before in another lifetime, and entirely new, like you were learning it all over again. Your eyes found his again, steady and shining as bright as that charm. “In every universe,” you whispered, and he smiled, the kind of smile he gave only to you, the one that said he believed it too.
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The flashes of the cameras were relentless inside, exploding in rapid succession, strobing across the velvet carpet like a storm of artificial stars. It felt like stepping into a tidal wave of light and sound, voices crashing over each other as dozens of photographers yelled your names from every angle, their cameras capturing every flicker of a smile, every brush of contact.
“Fantastic!”
“Look this way!”
“Power couple of the year!”
But none of it seemed to register beyond the hum in your ears. Joe’s hand had found you the moment you stepped into the spotlight, and it hadn’t left since. It slid with deliberate ease from the curve of your hip, trailing the seam of your dress with the barest pressure, and settled firmly at the small of your back before dipping lower. His palm landed on the swell of your ass, a particuly risque move by the former Mr. No PDA, but it was possessive and warm, keeping him from panicking because of the chaos around you. It was a touch that said more than words ever could, even through the layers of sheer and beading, you could feel the heat of his skin seeping into yours. There was a solemnity in the way he held you, an unspoken promise wrapped in the press of his body and the quiet ferocity of his touch. The crowd could roar, the cameras could flash, but Joe’s hand never wavered, and you never once let each other feel alone.
You looked around as the carpet pulsed with a kind of cinematic energy—electric, anticipatory, shimmering with stars and polished shoes. It felt like stepping into a dreamscape made of velvet ropes and polished decor. Familiar faces flitted by in quick succession, Jayden Daniels, all charisma and ease, flashing a megawatt smile as he posed; Ja’marr in a sharp black suit, laughing easily with his girlfriend who looked like she'd stepped out of a fashion editorial; Josh Allen and Hailee Steinfeld, tucked into each other in the soft glow near the ropes, sharing quiet laughter and looking as adorable as ever. The camaraderie hummed around you like a soundtrack, easy, elevated, uniquely theirs and yet somehow yours too, despite this being Joe’s world.
He guided you forward with the same effortless poise he carried on the field, hand steady at your waist like he held a football, body angled like he was sculpted to fit and protect yours, just like he would when protecting the ball from gigantic defensive players driven by adrenaline. When the first camera flash burst, he pulled you in like a reflex, slotting you against him like a puzzle piece sliding into place. His scent—Cypryss, Grapevine, and Amber, a fragrant mix from the Cologne you’d gifted him, and something warm and clean that you could only describe as Joe—rose up between you, an intoxicating spell numbing your senses and making you more feral for him than usual. 
He leaned in close, his lips brushing your ear with a teasing murmur, something about the shouting being more intense than a fourth-quarter blitz. His voice was warm honey over gravel, and it curled through you. Despite the sizzling energy between you both, you didn’t miss a beat. Your smile stayed poised for the cameras, but your words were designed to make him squirm, because if he was going to make you like this with just his touch and scent, you could play that game too. “Touch me like that again and we’re finding the nearest storage closet. I don’t care who’s watching,”.
Joe’s laugh escaped before he could swallow it, quiet and ragged, like you’d punched the air out of him. That smile, the one that crinkled his eyes and dimpled his cheek, lit his whole face. He dipped his head, brushing his nose along your cheekbone, his lips grazing your skin with a touch so natural it made your knees soften.
“You’re gonna get us arrested,” he muttered, voice raspy with amusement and something else that simmered just below his skin. “Don’t think the league or Jen is too fond of public indecency charges, baby,”.
You turned your head just enough for your lips to barely graze the corner of his jaw, the movement so small and subtle that the cameras likely didn’t catch it, but the effect on him was instant. You felt the inhale he dragged in, sharp and shaky, as if he needed to cool himself down before he melted right there under the glare of red carpet lights and the hum of flashing bulbs.
“Then stop touching me like you want to get dragged into that kind of headline,” you murmured sweetly, your voice pure sugar with an edge of heat. Your smile never faltered, still picture-perfect for the cameras, and your hands stayed demurely placed, still and elegant. But your words? They made Joe shift beside you, made his grip on your waist tighten like a reflex he couldn’t fight off. His eyes flicked to yours, wild for just a second, like he was imagining it—what it would be like to slip away, get caught up in a moment, lipstick all over his face, to press you up against a backstage wall until you were whimpering out his name and falling apart under his touch, to forget for a moment that anyone else existed. 
But then he blinked, and just like that, the smirk was back, laced with all the mischief and all the restraint you knew it cost him. “You’re evil,” he whispered, but the way his thumb brushed against your hip gave him away completely. He leaned in again, lips barely grazing your temple, “But if I so much as kiss your neck right now, we’re making headlines in five different outlets about how I can’t keep my hands off you,”.
“Good,” you whispered back. “Let them see how loved I am,”.
And he laughed again, the kind of laugh that made photographers stop mid-shout just to snap the moment. The kind that didn’t need posing. The kind that drove fangirls mad because he just looked so cute. The kind that made everyone watching fall a little in love with you both. You tilted your head, letting the motion pass for a casual pose, but your mouth found the shell of his ear again, softer this time. “That solar system chain you’re wearing tonight? Still thinking about it. You made me the center of your universe, Burrow. That’s not something I forget,”.
Joe exhaled sharply through his nose, the kind of breath that carried both tension and release, like he was forcing the world to fall away for just a second. The paparazzi loved it, of course, they always did. The way your bodies fit like a whispered secret, the curve of your smile caught mid-laugh against the solemn set of his jaw. You leaned into him like instinct, and he answered in style, dipping his head to ghost a kiss along the top of your shoulder, then the delicate line of your jaw. It was fleeting, so intimate and definitely caught on camera. And he didn’t give a damn.
Not tonight.
No reporters were hurling questions about injuries or rehab windows, no pundits dissecting completion percentages or looming contracts. Tonight, they were shouting his name for something softer, something simpler, because he looked incandescent. Because he looked at peace in the best way.  
Because he looked in love.
Not guarded. Not composed for the cameras. But utterly, irrevocably gone, his whole face unspooling with affection every time he glanced your way. Joe Burrow looked so head over heels in a way that made even the most seasoned photographers fumble for focus. It was all anyone could buzz about, all anyone could feel humming through the ropes and polished floors, not the games, not the stats—but the way his gaze softened when it landed on you. And the woman on his arm? The one smiling up at him like she knew exactly what he was worth and cherished every piece of him? She wore the same glow. She moved like his mirror, reflecting all that love and light right back. Like they were tuned to the same frequency. And maybe they were. Because the two of you weren’t just walking the carpet. You were floating. Together.
The world didn’t know the private moments, the ones untouched by camera flashes or filtered captions. They didn’t see the way he carved out time—no matter how packed his schedule—to sit in your studio and just listen, really listen, while you sang like you were born for it. How he’d close his eyes and lean back, letting your voice wash over him like a balm. They didn’t hear the way you soothed him when his mind got loud, how your words found him in the dark and brought him home to himself, every time.
But maybe they didn’t need to. Maybe it was enough that they could see it now. That the love you built behind closed doors lived out loud anyway. Maybe it was enough that the truth slipped through in the smallest glance, in the softest smile, in the shine of his eyes when they landed on you. A love so rooted, so steady, it couldn’t help but be seen. Maybe it was enough for everyone to see that this was serious for both of you, and how different this was from both of your previous relationships. 
“You’re doing great, you know?” he mumbled to you, snapping you free from the daze you’d been in for the last minute. “Last week was a trial run, for sure,” he added, his hand moving further up your side as he spoke, “But here? They love you,”. 
He wasn’t wrong; the Grammy’s red carpet was the trial run. Your first major carpet after you’d come back into the spotlight, and though it didn’t all go to plan, it prepared you for this moment. For his night. “You’re doing great too, Joey,” you whispered, “Can’t even tell that you’re the same man who skipped the honors last year because you just didn’t want to do the carpet. Paris Fashion Week really turned you into a whole new person, didn’t it?” you laughed lightly. 
“Mm, Fashion Week just made me realize that people really like to stare at my bare back. This…,” he said, motioning to the carpet and cameras with his free hand, “...This is all your doing. You made me into a whole new person. I’d still be hiding in the locker room if it weren’t for you,”.
Your head snapped over to look at him, and for a second there, you were at a loss for words. Your mouth opened only slightly before you were interrupted by the voices around you, calling out as their excitement swirled through the air.
“Y/N! Who are you wearing?”. 
“You two look incredible!” another shouted, and the flash of cameras was relentless, strobe lights bursting like tiny fireworks, capturing every moment, every subtle movement between you two. 
“Y/N, can we get a solo-shot of him, really quickly? It’s for the NFL style page!” another asked, kindly, and not to exclude you from his moment, but just to get a simple snap of the NFL’s newest fashionista—even though his fashion taste could use a bit more work. 
You exhaled slowly, letting yourself ease into the moment and giving Joe a quiet nudge forward, a second to bask in the attention, to claim his place in the spotlight. He stepped ahead just enough for the cameras to catch him clearly, his posture straight and confident. But even then, his body remained angled toward you, drawn to you by something invisible but strong. Only a few heartbeats passed before he reached for you again, as if the distance was already too much. His hand slid naturally to your waist, fingers curling possessively around your hip with an instinctual ease. Then, in a fluid motion, he drew you back into him. Closer than before. His chest to your back, his chin nearly brushing your temple, as if to say, “This isn’t just my moment, it’s ours,”.
It wasn’t subtle, not at all. It was the kind of affection that made it impossible to ignore the way he adored you. The intimacy was palpable, not performative, woven into every brush of his hand, every tilt of his head. People on the outside could feel it. They murmured to one another, camera shutters firing wildly, drawn to the undeniable pull between you. 
The flashes continued, and a few photographers kept shouting for him to turn slightly—just him, just a clean shot. But Joe wasn’t having it. “Put both of us on that page,” he called out, flashing that dimpled smile, still holding you against him, one hand placed on your hip and the other holding your hand at your side, “She looks better than me anyway,”. A few reporters laughed, others cheered, but none objected. The cameras doubled down, shutters clicking faster, wider angles being called for. You glanced up at him, heart warm and eyes soft. 
“Joey,” you whispered, touched by his refusal to do any of it without you. He looked down at you like this was more your night than his. 
“I just…I hate when you’re not next to me. Doesn’t feel right anymore,” he softly confessed. He really couldn’t stand the idea of you being left out of any part of it, not the photos, not the press, not the moment. You were his, and more than that, you were part of his story now. Just as he was part of yours. The crowd was loving every second of it, the way he looked at you like you were his home, the way he stood firm in the spotlight but kept his hand on you to make sure everyone took the hint. Because Joe Burrow didn’t just want to be seen tonight. 
He wanted you to be seen right beside him.
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After a few more minutes of posing for cameras and mingling with peers and legends alike, you both made your way inside the hall where the main show was taking place. 
Before the MVP announcement, the most coveted award of the night, the Honors ceremony was buzzing with its signature blend of pageantry, celebration, and a splash of good-natured chaos, all steered by this year’s host, Snoop Dogg himself. You and Joe were seated right in front of the stage, dressed to the nines and catching the eye of every attendee in the room because of how your presence seemed to complement each other without even trying. The cameras couldn’t seem to get enough of you both, either, especially when Joe leaned over to whisper something in your ear that made your head tip back in laughter and a lively smile form that reached your eyes. On the other side of Joe sat Ja'marr and his girlfriend, full of mischief and domestic warmth, poking fun at Joe every time the screen landed on his face too long, calling him “Hollywood” under their breath. He was still the same shit-talker he’d always been on the field, still had that edge—but the woman beside him brought out something lighter in him, something steadier. 
You’d said as much to him a few days ago over lunch at Antoine’s, the four of you packed into a corner booth with chipped plates and too many appetizers, warmth curling through the air like the scent of fresh beignets. Ja’marr and his girlfriend, Deja, had been bickering playfully over oysters—her threatening to flick hot sauce at him if he didn’t stop calling them “ocean eyeballs,” while he insisted he was the one showing culinary bravery, and he was doing a god-awful job of pretending not to be completely, hopelessly in love.
You’d leaned in, grinning as you sipped from your glass of champagne and caught his gaze over the chaos. “You both are so good together,” you said, sincere and a little soft. “She brings out something real in you. Like…peace. Like you sleep more than four hours now because she pulls the plug on Call of Duty before you can throw the controller at the screen,”.
Ja’marr had squinted at you, all mock offense and lemon juice glinting off his fingers as he flung a citrus wedge onto your plate with dramatic flair. “Don’t go soft on me now,” he huffed, but the twitch of his mouth betrayed him—half flattered, half scheming. “You only sayin’ that ‘cause I ain’t the only one simpin’ in the group anymore,”.
Then, without missing a beat, he turned to Joe and jabbed two fingers square into his chest, eyes gleaming with wicked delight. “At least I didn’t turn into a red carpet trophy husband like sheisty over here,”.
Joe raised an eyebrow, unbothered by the silly comment but amused at his best friend’s audacity. “You’re one to talk. You let her pick out your shoes this morning. You never let anyone give you fashion advice,”.
“Aye, they were designer!” Ja’marr fired back, pointing between the two of you like he was building a case. “It don’t matter. I might be in love, but you? You are full-on domesticated. Homie got that Stanley Cup and a ten-step skincare routine. He’s got a robe now. A robe. With a fuckin’ monogram,”.
Joe didn’t even flinch, just glanced at you with an infuriatingly smug little grin, leaned a fraction closer like the two of you were co-conspirators in some luxury domestic cult, and said, “Yeah. And I’m glowing. Thanks for noticing, buddy,”.
You and Deja burst out laughing at the same time, and somewhere in the middle of all that teasing and toast clinking and side-eye over fried green tomatoes, you thought—this, right here, was the good stuff. The real stuff. Not the red carpets or the flashing cameras. Just this, laughter, love, and two men who were once all edge and armor, now softened by women who knew how to hold them.
They were good together, Ja’marr and Deja, and tonight, their presence helped ease the ache of the empty seats next to Joe, ones that would’ve been filled by his parents. Their absence hadn’t been discussed aloud since you made it inside, but you’d seen the change in his body language when he spotted the gap. Just a small stiffening in his shoulders, a breath caught too long in his chest. But when he sat down beside you, he took your hand in his and didn’t let go.
Snoop, true to form, came out swinging with the jokes once the show went on air. Within minutes of taking the stage, he locked onto Joe with a grin sharp enough to cut through steel. “Smokey Joe Burrow in the house!” he hollered, pointing his mic like a spotlight. “Ayy, Joe. For real, you gon’ keep frontin’ or you finally gon’ let me smoke a cigar with you? Been waitin’ on that LSU invite for years now, man,”.
Laughter cracked across the room like lightning at the joke as photos of Joe lighting up his signature cigars filled the screens on stage. Joe leaned in close to you, brushing your ear with his nose. “Guess I gotta start carrying extras,” he said under his breath, his smile tugging crooked at the corners.
But the next bit on the screen had the entire venue holding their stomachs from laughter. A massive photo of Joe’s Batmobile filled the monitors, sleek, matte-black, armored like it had rolled straight off a Nolan set. Snoop pointed at it, mock-serious. “Now somebody please explain why this man dropped damn near $3 million on a whole-ass Batmobile. Grappling hooks? Smoke bombs? Missile deterrents?” He turned back to the audience with perfect timing, “I guess…I guess he wanted one thing in life to have a good defense,”.
The room exploded with chuckles at the jab, and Joe laughed too, but it came out a little strained, a little too quick. His smile faltered at the edges as the punchline echoed, not quite able to shake the sting underneath the humor. He reached up, rubbed the back of his neck in a kind of way he always did when he was uncomfortable, trying to mask it as casual. But you felt it, the way his heart dropped, the way his shoulders stiffened just slightly. That laugh had died in his throat a beat too early, like something in the joke had hit closer than anyone realized.
Because the truth was, it hadn’t just been a jab about the car. It was a dig dressed up in humor, aimed right where it still stung. The Bengals’ defense had been a nightmare this season, porous and inconsistent, riddled with missed tackles and blown coverages. For every brilliant drive Joe orchestrated, it felt like the other side of the ball unraveled it seconds later. And it wasn’t new. The franchise had long carried the burden of a defense that cracked under pressure; this season just made it louder. Louder for the press, louder for the fans, louder because of the fact he was doing the Quarterback show this year and everyone would see it play out in 4k all over again, and louder in moments like this, where even a joke about a Batmobile landed with the weight of a stat sheet.
You were worried that the joke would leave a bitter taste in his mouth for the rest of the night, and as you were just about to open your mouth and ask him if he was okay, Snoop’s eyes flicked to you, and that wide, knowing grin deepened. “And don’t think I ain’t see his queen right there either. Miss Songbird herself. Y’all know she dropped a bomb at the Grammys last week?” the crowd whooped, the spotlight shifting slightly to include you. “New album comin’ out July 4th. Title? Reputation. Yeah, that’s right. Badass title. She out here settin’ off fireworks before the barbecues even start,”.
The applause grew louder, whistles echoing as a few excited gasps rose from the audience. “And lemme tell you somethin’, she took Mr. Ice-in-his-veins over here,” he said, jabbing his thumb toward Joe, “And turned him into a Grade-A, love-sick, hallmark-quote-knowin’ simp. Look at this man!”. The camera zoomed in just in time to catch Joe flashing a boyish grin, one hand tugging self-consciously at his collar as the other refused to leave yours. You were laughing now, head tipped back slightly, your eyes glowing under the lights. Snoop kept going, “This man used to be the internet’s boyfriend. Now he’s off the market and out here lookin’ like he writes her love letters during halftime. Y’all know if he got her lyrics tattooed on his ribs yet? Somebody check,”.
Joe playfully shook his head, a laugh slipping from his lips. He looked dazzling under the soft gold lights of the NFL Honors stage, all sharp lines and silk-clad calm, but there was a pink flush climbing his neck, betraying the quiet chaos inside, and everyone could see it. “I’m never living this shit down,” he muttered, running a hand through his hair as the crowd’s laughter lingered like static in the air.
You leaned in, the sequins of your gown brushing against the soft fabric of his lapel, lips near his ear as Snoop shifted attention to Josh and Hailee. The room moved on, but for a beat, the spotlight drifted off of you both, letting you breathe in a quieter light. “You’re the one who said you liked being my muse,” you whispered, your voice barely audible over the hum of applause and orchestra swells.
Joe groaned softly, the sound half a chuckle, half surrender, as he turned his head to nuzzle the crown of yours. “Yeah, but I didn’t think it meant being the poster boy for domestic bliss on national TV,” he said, though there was no real protest in his voice. If anything, he sounded dazed by it—bemused and oddly proud.
You smiled, eyes flicking up to meet his, catching the flicker of starlight in his chain, the pink flush still warming his ears. “You’re glowing, baby. Just soak it in, bask in the glory,” you murmured, your thumb tracing soft circles over his thigh through his suit, each movement slow and soothing. 
He bent close again, his lips brushing the shell of your ear, “Snoop’s exposing me,”.
“Let him,” you murmured back, a smile tugging at your lips as you turned and pressed a kiss to the edge of his jaw, soft as moonlight. “You look good like this,”.
He paused, gaze dropping to where your fingers rested gently on his leg, as if your touch alone could make everything around him disappear in a flash. “Truth is…,”  he murmured, voice a touch rough, a little hoarse, “I like it more than I probably should. Being your muse, I mean. If I’m gonna be the poster boy for anything, let it be for domestic bliss, hair-tie-on-my-wrist, coffee-in-bed, you-writing-me-into-songs kind of bliss,”. His lips tilted into the barest smile, vulnerable and honest in a way he rarely showed outside your orbit, “If the world’s gonna be watching, I’d rather them see this part. The real part. The part that’s yours,”.
You blinked slowly, warmth rising in your throat as your heart fluttered at the constant certainty in his voice. Not a flicker of performance, no, just truth. He didn’t care how it looked; he only cared that you understood.
And you did. Ugh, you really did.
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The rest of the night came in bursts of color and sound, vivid snapshots you knew you’d carry with you like stills from a dream. The echo of applause rolled through the balconies like thunder, the murmur of voices rising and falling around you with each new award announcement. Somewhere, a trumpet from the house band let out a playful riff that made Joe’s shoulders shake with a quiet laugh. Between heartfelt speeches and roaring ovations, you leaned close, whispering jokes into Joe’s ear about someone’s tragically oversized velvet bow tie, or the way the camera had panned to a rookie half-asleep in the front row. Joe stifled a grin, his hand slipping down to squeeze your knee in silent appreciation, that private language of touch you two had long since perfected.
Every so often, the giant monitors would flash clips of season highlights, slow-motion spirals, brutal sacks, impossible toe-tap catches, and you’d catch the way Joe’s posture straightened, his gaze sharpening for a breath before he relaxed again, thumb tracing absent circles over your leg. You became more immersed in his world than ever before. Watching legendary names float past your seats, seeing the proud glint in a veteran’s eye as they accepted an award, hearing the muffled jokes players lobbed at each other between commercial breaks—it all drew you deeper into the fabric of the game that had shaped so much of Joe’s life.
Sometimes between awards, you noticed his leg bouncing subtly, a small, familiar jitter that betrayed the nerves humming under his carefully composed exterior. Without a word, you reached over and rested your hand on his knee, your thumb brushing slow, soothing strokes through the fine weave of his suit pants. His breath hitched ever so slightly, and after a beat, he slid his hand over yours, threading your fingers together with a quiet squeeze that said more than any thank you ever could. As the night wore on and the ceremony continued, you traced idle shapes over the fabric of his sleeve, following the strong line of his arm through his jacket with gentle, absent affection. When a loud laugh from a nearby table startled him just enough to make his shoulders flinch, you didn’t hesitate. You leaned over and pressed a soft, lingering kiss to his cheek, your lips brushing warm against his skin until you felt the tight line of his body loosen again. This wasn’t something he was used to, no doubt about that, but your presence was making it easier for him with every kiss and silent touch. 
The entire room glittered with a kind of luxury and feeling that would normally captivate you, but your entire world stayed wrapped around Joe. You made sure his glass was always topped off, making sure he had something else in his system to take some edge off, tugged him back when he shifted too far forward in his seat, giggled at his whispered commentary during everyone’s speeches. Each time you looked at him like he was the only one here, he seemed to sit up a little straighter, shoulders rolling back, chest lifting as if he could breathe just a little deeper.
But there were soft, sparkling moments tucked between the formality of it all—Deja slipping you a mini lip gloss with a conspiratorial grin, almost like she was saying make sure your lips look good for after the show because she knew Joe would be in that kind of mood regardless of if he won or not, Joe bending down to adjust the delicate strap on your heel when you winced because it dug into your ankle, his big hands steady and careful. Later, just before the final stretch of the show, the two of you swayed together in the private dining area at the back of the venue to a slow, honeyed R&B ballad, no cameras pointed your way, no stage lights seeking you out, just his cheek pressed to your temple, his breath threading tender promises into your hair.
Joe wasn’t just enduring the night. He was thriving in it—radiant in his own quiet, steadfast way. Not because the cameras demanded it, but because he was truly, deeply happy. Folding you into his world piece by piece made him happier than any shiny trophy could ever do, and getting to live this life with someone who truly understood it was worth more than anyone could possibly imagine. And even more importantly, he was loved. And every piece of him, every shy grin, every self-critical laugh, every luminous, almost boyish pride shining in his eyes, belonged to you. He truly came alive in those quiet, hidden moments, when it was just the two of you, far from the blinding lights and expectant eyes, when the weight of what he was here to be could finally slip from his shoulders. When he could just be Joey and not Joe Burrow. That’s when he thrived most, when the hush of your shared world outshone all the glitter and spectacle of the night. 
So when the final award of the night began, your heart tripped over itself, your fingers tightening around his just enough to remind him that it was still just the two of you, to steady him. That he was still Joey, and could be like that in front of everyone. “I’m right here,” you whispered, your breath catching on the edges of the words, soft enough to be swallowed by the applause as the presenter took the stage.
He didn’t have to look to believe it. But he did, and when he met your eyes, everything else fell gloriously away.
“I know,” he murmured, his tone tender in the way it always was when he let the world slip away for you. Then he leaned in and caught your mouth in a kiss, gentle but so sure, tasting faintly of champagne and the sweetness of everything he felt for you.
You both floated in your quiet bubble, detached from the swirling energy around you as the presenter methodically introduced each nominated player by highlighting their accomplishments over the past season. There were about 5 people on stage introducing each nominee, and before you knew it, a voice boomed through the hall, bright and electric with showman polish, “In a season filled with adversity, one man kept fighting and led the league in passing yards and touchdowns. Louisiana, how do you feel about LSU’s own Joe Burrow!”.
The crowd erupted, applause swelling like a living thing, whistles and cheers echoing off the gilded walls. The presenter laughed into the mic, eyes crinkling, “As a football fan and lover of quarterbacks, I feel the same way,” but you barely registered any of it. The words seemed to spin around you, muffled and distant, as if you had earplugs in. Instead, your gaze was locked on Joe, his breath catching in his chest, his shoulders stiff beneath the fine cut of his suit, that hopeful yet terrified look in his eyes. And suddenly you thought, this must be exactly how he felt when it was your name waiting in the Grammy’s envelope last weekend.
When the world paused, the air turned thick, and your whole future hung on a single breath.
That night had been the culmination of years of tears and public scrutiny, of heartbreak and healing, of hours upon hours behind studio doors, chasing something that made your soul feel seen. This night? Joe’s night. It was the culmination of months, even years, spent grinding through setbacks, fighting through injuries, of locker room speeches and film nights stretched out too long, and his voice rough at 2 in the morning when he couldn’t sleep and needed to whisper his hopes into your shoulder.
“Please,” you pleaded in your thoughts, silent tears brimming in your eyes as you looked back up at the stage. “He deserves this more than anyone. He needs this win. Please,”.
Then, slicing through the haze, the presenter’s voice rang out—sharp, unwavering, impossible to ignore even in the thick of the haze you were in,
“And this year’s AP NFL MVP…Louisiana’s favorite son…Joe Burrow!”.
You gasped, “Oh fuck,”.
The thought thundered through you, knocking the air from your lungs as if you’d just been hit by a 290-pound defensive end. The room erupted, applause exploding in a tidal wave of sound, but somehow it all felt strangely slowed, drawn out, every cheer and whistle echoing as if underwater. Time seemed to distort around you, like the whole world had paused to marvel, suspended between heartbeats.
Because he wasn’t supposed to win this. Not this year. Not after everything. 
And he knew that. 
They all knew that.
Joe froze in his seat as the cameras panned over to the two of you, his broad shoulders tightening, rigid like a coiled spring. His eyes blinked rapidly, pupils dilating as if trying to make sense of the words tumbling through the hall like thunder. His breath caught somewhere deep in his chest, faltering, uneven. The stage lights spilled over him, painting his face in golden hues that flickered with every trace of emotion—shock, disbelief, something raw and unguarded.
His eyes darted nervously across the sea of faces, searching for something steady, a lifeline, a tether he could hold onto as the weight of the moment pressed down on him. You glanced toward where his parents should have been, expecting to magically find them there instead of Ja’marr and Deja for support, but the seats still weren’t filled by the two people who were the living embodiments of midwestern charm, and a hint of fear tightened in your chest. For a heartbeat, you worried he might crack, that the overwhelming pressure and attention would shatter the calm he’d fought so hard to maintain
Then, just as the doubt threatened to swallow him whole, his gaze found you beside him.
In that instant, the world stopped for Joe. It was like the very air held its breath, sound and motion folding in on themselves until there was nothing left but the two of you. You, glowing with tears in your eyes and love written all over your face. You, his anchor and his undoing all at once.
He’d never felt anything so absolute, so soul-deep, it bordered on terrifying. Like the universe had been conspiring from the very beginning to place you here beside him, so when moments like this threatened to pull him under, he could look at you—his soulmate—and simply exist. It was more than love; it was the kind of quiet, unstoppable truth that lived in the marrow of his bones, stitched into every thud of his heart.  You were the love story he never saw coming, the lyric he’d been waiting a lifetime to write. The calm after the chaos, the soft golden hour that made everything before you look like dusk. You were the flash of color in his grayscale world, the forever he used to think belonged only in fairy tales he read as a kid, and songs that hurt too good.
Right here, with your eyes shining up at him like he hung the stars just for you, he realized again that no touchdown, no trophy, no roaring crowd could ever compare. Because this? This was the only win that ever truly mattered. 
You saw the tension begin to bleed from his shoulders in a flash, watched the rigid, uncertain mask soften until it gave way to a slow, almost disbelieving smile. Then his hand found yours—warm, a little clammy, trembling with everything he couldn’t say—and squeezed tight, a desperate, silent question sparking in the blue of his eyes.
Did you hear it too?
Your tight squeeze was the only answer he needed. 
As he rose from his seat, the applause crashing like waves around you, his hand immediately reached for yours again, tight, urgent, like he couldn’t take that next step without you. He didn’t just help you stand; he brought you flush against him, arms wrapping firmly around your waist as if to remind himself that this was real, that you were real, right here in this perfect, impossible moment. It was silly considering it had been over half a year with you, but he still couldn’t believe you were real, couldn’t believe you were his. Like some radiant being pulled from the pages of a storybook or the whispers of a melody, all light and grace and impossible wonder, and somehow, impossibly, you chose him.
The cameras closed in, hungry for every angle of the tender scene, but neither of you seemed to care. You tucked your head into the warm, familiar crook of his neck, breathing him in before he was swept away by the award that was calling his name. A soft sound broke free from your chest, something between a laugh and a sob, all tangled up with the sheer pride swelling inside you. “I’m so proud of you, Joey,” you whispered against his skin, your voice breaking around his name.
“Thank you for doing this with me. I love you,” he whispered, his breath hot against your ear, voice thick with emotion he almost never let slip. You felt the faint tremor run through him, saw the way his eyes shone under the glittering lights, wet with tears that clung stubbornly to his lashes.
Before you could even answer, he leaned back just enough to capture your mouth in a soft, meaningful kiss, tasting like gratitude and awe and every quiet promise he’d ever made you. His hand came up to cradle your cheek, thumb brushing away the tear that escaped down your skin instead of his. “I love you so much,” you mumbled back, voice a little shaky from pride, disbelief, basically every emotion a human could possibly feel.
When he finally pulled away, he stayed close for just a second, his forehead resting against yours, breaths mingling. And you realized then, it wasn’t just that he was thanking you for tonight. It was for everything—for being there through the bruises and doubts and endless late nights these past 9 months, for taking every piece of him he gave you and chershing it as if it was all you were made to do, for loving him past the roar of the crowds and headlines, for submerging yourself in his chaotic, messy, fast-paced life, for making all of this mean so much more simply because you were by his side.
“Go get ‘em, Quarterback,” you smiled through your tears, letting go of his hand, painfully so.
You swore you’d get up on that stage with him if you could, but you had to let him go, just this once. Even though every cell in your body longed to follow, you knew this was his moment. So you watched with a trembling smile, hands pressed to your lips, as your Quarterback, your forever, walked up into the golden glow, ready to claim everything he’d worked for, knowing he carried you with him all the way.
He climbed the steps like the ground itself might give way, legs heavy with disbelief and adrenaline. The lights above were so bright they blurred into golden halos, turning the whole moment into something dreamlike. When they handed him the trophy, his hand closed around it with a death grip, knuckles pale, like he was terrified it would disappear if he didn’t anchor it to himself.
Beside you, Ja’marr bumped your shoulder, trying and failing to keep his grin contained. “That’s your man right there,” he rasped, voice thick, teasing but drenched in pride because his best friend was finally getting recognized for his accomplishments on the second biggest stage of them all in the NFL. 
You let out a helpless giggle, tears already balancing on your lashes. You nodded, because he was right—Joe was yours. Entirely, irrevocably, beautifully yours. “That’s your best friend right there,” you quipped, quickly reaching behind you to grab your phone so you could record this beautiful moment and send it to his parents so that once they landed back in Ohio, they’d have a nice little surprise waiting on their phones.
At the mic, Joe stood silent for a heartbeat too long, staring down at the trophy like he couldn’t quite make sense of it. After the way this Bengals season had swung like a pendulum, he hadn’t let himself believe this could happen. Not tonight. Not for him. A thousand memories seemed to flicker behind his eyes—grueling rehab sessions, silent locker rooms after crushing defeats, the lonely echo of his cleats in empty hallways. All the bruises, physical and otherwise, that had built up over the season. It was all there, coiling tight in his throat, making it hard to speak.
But he knew he could do this; he knew he had it in him. He may have helped you piece yourself back together these past nine months, steadying your hands when they shook, reminding you of your worth when old wounds tried to convince you otherwise, but somewhere along the way, he realized he’d been healing, too. He could do this. He swallowed hard, cleared his throat, then lifted his eyes, that familiar guarded composure cracking right open under the soft vulnerability he learned to reserve for moments like this. “Thank you,” Joe’s voice rumbled low, thick with emotion, slicing through the quiet hush of the room. He shifted the trophy in his hands, holding it up just a little. The lights hit it, throwing tiny sparks across his suit jacket like stars. “But look, football’s never been a one-man deal. This? This right here–,” he gave the trophy a small, almost playful shake, “This isn’t just mine. It’s all of ours,” he smiled, a round of applause filling the room. 
Joe let out a shaky breath that almost turned into a quiet laugh, eyes glistening with the effort to keep it together. “I wanna start by thanking my coaches, my teammates, my parents and family, everyone in the Bengals building, the fans…God, the fans who’ve stuck with us through…well, through what was honestly a pretty damn tough year as you all know,”.
He paused, dragging in a breath, jaw working. “This season, man…it wasn’t easy. There were games where it felt like the whole world was sitting on my chest, losses that made me question everything, injuries that damn near broke our team inside and out. Some days, quitting might’ve seemed simpler. But that’s not who we are. That’s not what this city is. We fight. We claw. We get up, no matter how many times we get knocked down. And that’s why I love this team, this place. Because we keep going,”.
He huffed out a small, breathless laugh, one that didn’t quite hide how his eyes were turning glossy. “You know…,” he started, voice catching for a beat before he cleared it, trying to steady the rush of feeling the next few words were bringing. “I’ve been playing this game for a long time. From riding the bench at Ohio State, wondering if I’d ever get my shot to be who I’d always wanted to be…to LSU, where it all changed for me in ways I still can’t wrap my head around years later…to standing right here in front of you all tonight,”.
He drew in another breath, the corner of his mouth twitching up into a wry, tender smile. “It’s been a hell of a road. Full of moments that made me, moments that quite nearly broke me, too. And the truth is, this?” he said, looking down at the trophy in his hand. “This doesn’t decide my worth. It’s taken me a long time to understand that. Because for years, everything was about proving myself, proving I deserved a shot at Ohio State, proving I could do it at LSU and that taking that risk was worth it, proving I was worth a first-round pick, worth being trusted with a whole city’s dreams on my back,” he exhaled, almost laughing through the emotion that tightened his throat to prevent himself from getting caught up in emotions that he’d buried a long time ago. “But then there were those long months rehabbing my knee, watching everything slow down while the game kept moving on without me. Those nights after a brutal loss, when I felt like I was failing everyone. And you start to realize, your value can’t just come from moments like this. From applause or awards or headlines,”.
Joe paused, his voice dipping even softer. “I learned my worth in the quiet. In the way my teammates looked at me in the huddle when we were down by three scores and still believed. In the way people back home painted their porches stripes just because they had hope in us, even when everybody counted us out. In the way I’d walk through the door after a hard game, and she…,” his eyes flicked straight to you, shining with gratitude, “Would look at me like I was still her everything, win or lose,”.
The camera found you instantly, like it always did, catching the exact moment your hand flew to your mouth, eyes shimmering with tears that slipped freely down your cheeks. A few soft “awws” rose from the crowd, the entire room leaning into this headline-worthy moment that felt far too intimate to be shared with thousands. “…Joey,” you whispered to yourself, voice trembling with so much love it almost hurt, your blush creeping all the way to the tips of your ears. Your eyes never left his, silently telling him everything your heart was screaming, “I love you. I love you. I love you. I’m so proud of you. I’d choose you a thousand times over if it meant seeing you smile like that,”. 
His throat bobbed with another swallow, “So no, this trophy doesn’t define me. It doesn’t decide my worth. It just…it’s another chapter. A beautiful one I get to share with every single person who’s been part of this messy, incredible, impossible journey. And for that, I’ll be grateful for the rest of my life,”.
Then he let out a gentle, almost disbelieving laugh—his Joe laugh—eyes sweeping over the crowd, over his teammates and peers, the few members of Bengals staff in attendance, the families in the audience, and finally, inevitably, back to you. “I’m grateful as hell. For every person who believed in me when I didn’t always believe in myself. For every guy in that locker room who went to fight on that field right beside me, fought through the ugly, the bruises, the heartbreak, just to come back stronger. And for everyone back home in Cincy who kept the faith, who never stopped wearing that orange and black, even when it got real dark,”.
He paused again, blinking fast, jaw flexing like he was trying to keep it all inside. “It means more than I can ever say. And I promise, I’m gonna keep fighting. Keep growing. Keep earning this. For all of us,”.
Then, as if the whole room melted away, his eyes locked onto yours, with that quiet, steady kind of love that feels like coming home, like a secret only the two of you knew, clear, persistent, and full of a thousand unsaid promises. The noise softened into a distant murmur, the lights dimmed into a gentle glow, and suddenly it was just you two, wrapped in your own world. A soft smile curved his lips, warm and tender, like the first notes of your favorite love song. Beneath that calm, familiar look, you caught a hint of vulnerability, the kind of natural, soft passion that hits you deep in your bones, like you’re the only one who truly sees him, and he’s been waiting all along to be seen like that.
“But most of all…,” his breath hitched, “I want to thank the person who’s changed everything for me these past few months. More than any game, any yard, any trophy ever could,”.
He puffed a soft breath, eyes shining as more memories, softer memories, seemed to play out behind them. “This is probably really uncharacteristic for me to do and say, I usually don't talk too much about my personal life, but I mean it when I say this woman has completely changed me since the moment she caught my eye. These past nine months, man…they were supposed to be the hardest of my career. Fighting through a recovering injury, tough losses, all that noise on the outside. Long flights back to Cincy with my body aching, game tape looping in my head, wondering how I could come back from every minor setback, wondering if I could come back. And then I’d walk through the door, and there you were, barefoot in my kitchen…our kitchen, dancing to ‘Heavenly,’ humming like you were made for that little slant of moonlight coming through our window. Singing to me like there was no stadium, no cameras, like I wasn’t Joe the Quarterback, but was Joey the man who you opened your heart to. 
His voice dropped to a raw, aching softness as he shifted his weight onto his other leg, “You held me together when I felt like falling apart. Loved me even when I hated myself for missing a throw or letting the city down. When I was scared, confused, lost in the noise…you loved me harder. In ways I didn’t even know I needed. You’re my calm in the chaos of the pocket, my fire when it’s fourth and long, my home no matter how far this game takes me. I thought the plane was going down, and I still don’t know how you turned it right around, but you did. You’re magic, Y/N. And if this game’s taught me anything, it’s that stats fade, trophies collect dust, but love like this? This is what I’ll remember long after the stadium lights go out. I’m forever grateful to have fallen in love with a girl like you, who makes this so much more worth it,” he grinned, lightly raising the trophy to solidify what he meant by that.
You sucked in a tiny, startled breath, eyes going wide, your heart flipping painfully in your chest. 
“Labyrinth,” you mumbled under your breath.
That was your song. The one you wrote about how you’d fallen for him against every odd, how he saved you without even trying. And now, here he was, standing under some of the brightest lights of his career, quoting it back to you like a promise, like he knew exactly what those words meant to you because they meant the same to him.
“You’ve always been my greatest win, long before any scoreboard lit up or a trophy ended up in my hands. This is just proof to everyone else that I’m good at what I do. But you…you’re the real prize. You’re the one I get to go home to. That’s the only victory that’s ever truly mattered to me,”.
Your hand lifted softly to your cheek, brushing away another stray tear as your lips moved silently, mouthing, “I love you, Golden Boy,”. He caught the gesture, returning it with a playful wink that sent a warm spark straight through you.
The crowd shifted, some whispering, others dabbing at their eyes, but for Joe, the world collapsed into just you, bathed in the shimmer of a thousand yellow lights, every tiny sparkle catching in your hair, your eyes, the gentle part of your lips. The soft curve of your smile hit him harder than any stadium roar ever could, sending a rush of heat through his chest, making his hands flex around the trophy like he might drop it.
He drew in a final, long breath, the trophy rising in his hand, and when he spoke, his voice dipped into that husky, reverent tone that wrapped around your heart like warm velvet. “So…thank you. To every person who’s ever believed in me. But most of all, to you, babe, my compass, my calm, my spark when I didn’t even know I needed one,”.
He paused, and something unguarded, achingly gentle spread across his face, a smile meant only for you. His eyes found yours and held, tender and certain, “Because this? All of this…It’s always been yours. Just like I am. I love you,”. 
In that heartbeat, you knew this was bigger than any record, any sold-out stadium, any glittering award. This was your love story—beautiful, battered, impossibly bright—and it would outshine every accolade the world could offer. He spent nearly half his speech wrapped up in you, thanking you, loving you out loud in a way that felt almost too tender for the glare of the stage lights. It was everything you’d ever dreamed of and more. There wasn’t a hint of hesitation or insecurity in him about sharing this spotlight with you, someone whose own star shone just as bright. If anything, he seemed proud…proud to stand there and show the entire world that his biggest triumph wasn’t the award in his hands, but the love you’d built together.
You felt the emotion bubble in your throat, wanting nothing more than to cry into his suit jacket while he soothed you in every way possible, but you had to hold yourself back. That moment didn’t need to be caught on camera; some things were still supposed to be yours. 
So, you watched him stride down the steps with a newfound ease, a radiant joy in his every movement that hadn’t been there before. The way his shoulders relaxed, the subtle bounce in his step, it all hit you like a wave of pride and love crashing through your chest. He did that, he really did that with no reluctance or nerves inhibiting the passion behind every word or movement. That was growth. 
That was all your doing. 
In that perfect, unguarded moment while you watched him stroll over to you, the biggest grin on his face and confidence practically radiating off him, the only thought you could hold onto was, 
“That’s my fucking man.”
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A few hours later
“Y/N, you’re so…oh fuck,”.
The bed squeaked under you, a steady beat pounding through the room as you continued to slide down his thick length, every movement a fiery dance of reward and release. His hands gripped your hips with desperate possessiveness, thumbs pressing into your skin, surely leaving fingerprints you’d proudly show off tomorrow by wearing a crop-top, as you leaned forward, breath hitching with the wild, intoxicating heat between you. His cock stretched you perfectly, deep and relentless, and you could feel every pulse of him driving up into you, setting fire to your insides much like the alcohol you consumed during the after party did to your hormones.
You’d stumbled into the hotel suite about an hour ago, giggling like teenagers who’d just discovered how good the world could feel—buzzing off too-strong mocktails, adrenaline, and the electric high of the night. And to top it all of, you were both so unbelievably horny, hands all over each other the second the door clicked shut, tearing at fancy clothes like they were little more than wrapping paper keeping you from what you really wanted. His eyes were stuck on you the entire after-party as you mingled with other athletes, some of your industry friends, and anyone important who was dying to talk to the woman who rocked the music industry and the NFL in back-to-back weekends. That denim corset minidress was making him want to legitimately risk it all, he was even considering taking those public indecency charges you joked about on he carpet earlier in the night because he just had to get his hands on his girl. He didn’t care where or when, he just needed to feel you. 
Which is why, after that long, playful game the two of you had been locked in all evening—eyes finding each other across the crowded room again and again, your secret moments—you finally cracked. It started when he caught your gaze from across the floor, his expression all quiet mischief and heat. His brows lifted in a slow, exaggerated question that made your stomach flip. You couldn’t help it; you bit your lip, letting your lashes lower as you gave him the tiniest nod, just enough for him to see.
Joe’s answering grin was downright sinful. He didn’t look away, didn’t let you breathe for even a second. Instead, he let his gaze drop—dragging it painstakingly down your body, from your glossy lips to the way your dress hugged your hips, down to your lefs before easing back up with a hungry gleam in his eye. It was the kind of look that promised he’d ruin you the second he got you alone.
Then, with maddening slowness, he raised his hand, scratched his jaw like he was thinking something over, before barely tipping his head toward the door. Just the smallest, cocky flick of his chin, his meaning clear as day, “Wanna get out of here?”.
You swore your entire body went hot. Still, you held his gaze, deliberately letting your eyes narrow in playful challenge, “Really? right now?”,  just to tease him a little longer.
But then he did something that completely drew you in, he pointed at the door with just his eyes again, then let them travel back to your face with a knowing smirk that was somehow both boyish and filthy, and you felt yourself practically melt into the floor.
Yeah. That was it. That was all it took.
Moments later, you were both slipping out the back exit, trying to look casual, even as the thrill of your little escape burned like fire under your skin. And you’d been glued to this bed ever since, making every secret promise from across that room come true. Irish Goodbye’s were slowly becoming your staple. 
Your nails dug into his chest, clutching the cool metal of his chains, dragging them taut against his throat as you bounced on his cock, wild and gasping. Your hips snapped in a frantic rhythm, the obscene wet sound of your bodies colliding filling the dim hotel room. Joe’s head fell back against the pillow, jaw tight, throat working around every broken groan as his heavy-lidded eyes devoured you—your tits bouncing beautifully with each thrust, your parted lips swollen from biting down on them, hair wild around your face like some gorgeous, reckless halo
“Fuck, look at you...riding me like you were made for it. My gorgeous girl,” his big hands gripped your ass, fingertips biting deep as he drove up into you, sharp, greedy thrusts that made the headboard slam against the wall. Hopefully, nobody was staying in the room next to you…or below. You’d never show your face at this hotel again if someone heard the noises coming from this room almost every night you’d been here. 
The slide of him was devastating, stretching you until you cried out, every deep fill kissing your cervix. “Joe…fuck, please,” you choked, nails digging cruel lines into his chest. His eyes locked on yours, wild with need, every muscle taut beneath your hands.
“Gonna cum…baby…fuck,” he rasped, voice breaking on another desperate moan. His hands were everywhere now, gripping your hips so tightly, sliding up to squeeze your waist, then clutching at your tits, desperate to touch every part of you as he chased that edge. His hips snapped up into you again and again, brutal and relentless, and the chains you still fisted pulled tight against his throat, forcing another strangled moan from him that vibrated right through your chest. Then he spilled into you with a soft, wrecked groan, hips thrusting up into your slick core again and again, chasing every last wave of pleasure. Your name tumbled from his lips in a shattered loop, “Y/N, fuck, fuck…Y/N,”, half-whimper, half-praise, until it was nothing but breathless, helpless sounds. His eyes fluttered shut, lashes trembling against flushed cheeks, and his chest heaved under your hands like he’d just run miles. Then, through the haze, a small, blissed-out smile broke across his face—sweet and dazed, the kind that made your heart squeeze painfully tight.
That was all it took, the searing heat of him flooding inside you, the raw, desperate worship in his ragged moans that echoed through your core. It shattered something deep in your belly, a wildfire igniting every nerve ending at once, “Fuck, Joe!” you gasped as you clenched around him with everything you had, nails digging fierce, desperate lines down his chest, painting it with red trails, as your own orgasm exploded in a sharp, ragged scream that ripped free from your throat. Every muscle clenched tight, then shuddered uncontrollably, your walls squeezing him greedily, pulsing and milking every last drop of him as your vision blurred into a blinding, white-hot storm of pleasure that consumed you utterly.
You finally melted into him after that, completely blissed out and boneless, your chest rising and falling against his steady, powerful heartbeat. His arms closed around you like a shield, one hand threading gently through your tangled hair, fingers tracing lazy, soothing circles at your scalp. The other hand glided tenderly up and down your sweat-slicked back, never still, as if every inch of your skin was sacred, impossible to leave untouched. Your bodies clung together, trembling with the electric aftershocks of release—slick, flushed, and utterly spent—breathing each other in deeply, both completely wrecked and whole at the same time, wrapped in the sweetest, rawest, most intoxicating kind of victory.
“That was a better reward than the trophy,” he breathlessly chuckled, breaking the comforting silence with a soft, raspy laugh that vibrated against your skin. His fingers tightened just a little in your hair as he pressed a lingering kiss to your temple. “And honestly? I wouldn’t trade this moment for anything else in the world,”.
You tilted your head, eyes heavy with heat and lingering pleasure, searching his face for the words on your tongue. But before you could speak, he leaned down slowly, his breath warm against your skin, and pressed a gentle, tender kiss to your swollen, trembling lips, like he was memorizing every curve and taste, promising more to come. You smirked, voice teasing as you mumbled against his lips, “Even if the government finally dropped the news that aliens are real and living among us, would you still choose this moment over that?”. Your words hung between you, playful but heavy with meaning, daring him to say no.
“Yup,” he murmured against your cheek without hesitation, his lips warm and delicate as they lingered there, pressing a kiss that felt more like a promise than anything else. “Them confirming those suspicions would be insane, I’ve been waiting on that since high school, but it wouldn’t come close to this,” his thumb traced idle, loving patterns across your waist, his voice dipping lower, rough with something achingly raw. “Nothing could. I’m the MVP, I have the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me right here, the hottest woman to walk the earth, wrapped up in my arms, looking at me like I hung the moon…It’s like the rest of the world just stops existing. It’s only ever gonna be you for me, baby,”.
You sighed, completely undone, as you buried your face in the steady beat of his chest, your emotions doing somersaults in your brain currently. “Joe Burrow,” you whispered, voice trembling with so much adoration for this man beneath you, “What have you done to me?”. Every word soaked in the quiet, endless love that had you so utterly, hopelessly gone.
He brushed a slow, lingering kiss over the crown of your head, lips warm and tender, staying like he was trying to memorize every fragile, precious piece of you. “Made you believe in happy endings?” he murmured, voice soft and a little raspy from exhaustion, wrapped in a kind of wonder that gripped your heart in a breathless vise. It wasn’t truly a question—he already knew. It was there in the way your eyes softened every time they met his, the way your body melted closer without a single thought, as if you were always meant to find your place against him.
His breath ghosted over your temple, scattering goosebumps across your skin, and you felt the shape of his smile pressing into your hair, a smile so bright it could’ve lit the dim, golden room all on its own. When you finally shifted your face up again, the look in his eyes nearly knocked the air from your lungs. He gazed down at you like you were spun from pure starlight, a living, breathing miracle he somehow got to hold.
Happy Endings. 
He was right. He truly made you believe in the impossible, that you could have it all. Fierce love that didn’t just stand with you, it stood for you, the dizzying glow of fame, but with less expectation to constantly be this version of yourself that only existed in others’ minds, and the reckless joy of youth that you were always meant to have. Everything that had been snatched from your hands a year ago, Joe brought back to you. But not the old, worn-out versions. He gave them back to you reborn, fresh and shimmering with new light, like a second chance wrapped in the promise of forever. 
The past two weeks...they played out behind your eyelids in dazzling flashes. Your voice breaking as you held that Grammy on stage, a stage you never expected to be standing on again, the way Joe squeezed your hand so tight tonight at the Honors because he needed you—and not the thought of fame and fortune—to anchor him to the moment, his palm slick with nerves and hope. All of it building to this quiet hotel suite, where the gowns and suits lay in careless heaps on the floor, and the only spotlight was the gentle spill of lamplight catching on tangled limbs and sleepy smiles. As if every late night, every heartbreak, every high had led you here. You had never been this content with your life, from your career to your inner happiness, to your relationship. It was all…flawless.  
This was your happy ending.
A soft, shaky laugh broke through your lips, fragile and cracked as you pressed your face to his chest, right over where his heart pounded so wildly for you. “Yeah,” you whispered, voice unsteady. “You did. More than I ever thought anyone could,”.
His arms tightened protectively, pulling you closer like he wished he could tuck you inside his ribs, keep you nestled there forever, keep you safe from absolutely anything that left even the slightest bitter taste in your mouth. “I’m proud of you, you know that? You’re so good at doing this…being what I need, being in my world, but also while staying true to yourself,” he nodded, looking up at the sparkling chandelier hanging from the ceiling above where you were laying, the sparkle of the crystals mirroring the sparkles he had seen in your eyes earlier in the night when he met you after his MVP speech. 
You giggled softly, the sound light and teasing despite the weight of the moment, amused by how, even though this was his night, he couldn’t stop showering you with praise. With a slow smile tugging at your lips, you shifted your weight and lifted yourself up, straddling his hips, the warmth of his skin beneath you leveling every flutter of your heart. Your fingers reached up to brush the damp strands of hair away from his eyes, your touch gentle and purposeful, fingertips tracing the curve of his brow as you looked deep into the quiet awe shimmering in his gaze. “Well,” you breathed, voice low and sultry as you met his eyes, “I’m proud of you too…MVP. For being what I need, for fitting so well into my world, all while still being my Joey. We make a pretty good power couple, don’t we?”.
His breath caught at your words, chest rising beneath your palms as though your praise had pressed all the air from his lungs. You felt his heart thunder under your touch, a deep, rolling beat that seemed to echo the way your own pulsed wildly in your chest. He tilted his head into your hand as you swept his hair back again, his eyes fluttering closed for a heartbeat like he was memorizing the delicate feel of your fingers on his skin. “She feels the same way,” he thought to himself, smiling at how this time you’d finally admitted it and not him. 
When he opened them again, they were bright with something raw and wonderstruck. His hands slid up your thighs, slow and reverent, thumbs brushing little circles over your warm, goosebumped skin, savoring every inch. “Yeah,” he rasped, voice hoarse with affection, a crooked smile breaking across his face that sent a sharp pang straight through your heart. “We make a hell of a team. Unstoppable, actually. like…scary levels of perfect together,” his hands squeezed your hips gently, grounding himself in the lush give of your body. “You know, sometimes I still can’t believe it’s me who gets this. Who gets you. Not just the woman who lights up arenas and stadiums and takes home Grammys, or the girl who turned every eye in that theatre tonight…but you. Barefoot in our kitchen or backyard, giggling at your own jokes, singing off-key when you’re tipsy, curled up next to me like I’m the safest place you’ve ever been,”.
Your lips parted on a fragile, trembling breath as you cradled his face between your palms, your thumbs brushing over the slight dampness on his cheeks, whether from sweat, tears, or just the heat between you, you couldn’t tell. His scruff rasped deliciously against your skin, a small, grounding friction that made it all feel painfully, beautifully real. His eyes…oh god, those oceanic eyes, they gazed up at you with such open tenderness it nearly undid you right there. “Joey,” you whispered, your voice a shredded, delicate thing. How did you even begin to put words to this? To the way he saw you, really saw you—past the glitter, past the headlines, past even your carefully tended cracks. He’d loved every one of your hidden scars like they were little constellations, something to admire instead of conceal. It broke you and remade you all at once. “If you keep talking like that, I’m gonna have to drop to one knee and put a ring on your finger myself,” you tried to tease, but the words wobbled, soaked in too much truth, eyes glistening with tears you didn’t bother to fight.
A warm, shaky laugh rumbled in his chest. Then he leaned up, closing the last few inches between you to press his lips to the inside of your wrist. He lingered there, kissing your pulse like he was memorizing it, feeling it hammer just for him. “Mmm, no you won’t,” he whispered, voice low and brushed with a rough sweetness that made your heart lurch. “That’s my job. And it’ll happen…when all the pieces line up just right, when I can give you the moment you deserve. Don’t worry about that, baby. I’ve got you,”.
Something about how certain he sounded, how gently possessive, made your throat tighten with a rush of feeling so big it almost hurt. Your fingers threaded through his soft hair, tugging just enough to draw a sharp, delicious inhale from him. His eyes went dark and hungry, pupils blown wide, mouth parting like he was on the verge of saying something insatiable and respectful all at once. You leaned in, your noses brushing, breath mingling in a shared, trembling hush. The air felt thick with something golden and electric, as though the universe itself had paused to watch, holding its breath for the two of you. You could feel the slick heat of your bodies pressed together, his heart thrumming wildly under your palms, your own skipping in wild, giddy stutters that made you feel dizzy.
“Well then,” you whispered, your smile small and shaky and so full of wonder it hurt. Tears pricked your lashes again, but this time they were soft, sweet things. “Guess you’re stuck with me forever, Quarterback,”.
His hands slid up to cup your face, thumbs stroking your cheeks with an almost worshipful care. “Damn right I am,” he breathed. Then he pulled you down into a kiss—slow, melting, deep enough to make your toes curl. It tasted like salt and sugar, like victory and home, like every quiet miracle you’d ever dared to pray for finally blooming in your mouths.
Your bodies molded even closer, the silky sheets rustling beneath you, the lamplight catching on your tangled hair, and the slight sheen of sweat on your skin. The room was still faintly perfumed with champagne and roses from earlier in the night, from celebrations and bouquets that felt like another lifetime. And somewhere below it all was that soft, intimate scent that was just you and him, mingled and warm.
When you finally pulled back, breathing each other in, your forehead resting against his, you felt it again—that sure, bright spark that whispered this wasn’t the end. This was your beginning. A beginning built on late nights curled together whispering about dreams, on bright lights and blinding triumphs, on quiet moments just like this one where love felt so big it might swallow you whole. 
Your happy ending wasn’t some perfect, polished thing. It was right here, in messy sheets and tear-streaked cheeks, in unsteady laughter and trembling kisses, in two hearts that had somehow found each other and decided, against every odd, to stay. 
And god, wasn’t that the most beautiful story of all?
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--The End--
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𝐠𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐠𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐲
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genre: fluff
wc: ~5400 (don´t get used)
pairing: husband!hyunjin x f!reader
summary: you are pregnant, but hyunjin is the one who got all the symptoms
not proofread!
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the smell of grilled chicken started to spread through the kitchen as i stirred the pan with one hand and cut the rest of the potatoes with the other. i put on a calm playlist in the background just to break the afternoon silence. it was a sunny sunday, the kind that would normally put hyunjin in a good mood, but he was acting strange… again
“hyune, lunch is almost ready!” i called without taking my eyes off the pan
what i heard in response was a dull sound coming from the living room, something between a groan of pain and a muffled “oh my god”
“hyunjin?”
“i can’t even look at chicken today i swear…” he replied in a whiny voice
i walked to the kitchen door and found him lying on the couch, hugging a pillow against his stomach, legs stretched out, eyes closed
“are you feeling sick?”
“nausea. again. seriously just the smell of the chicken flipped my stomach inside out”
“again?” i leaned against the doorframe, crossing my arms
“third time this week. i woke up with a headache, heartburn, nausea, and now this. y/n, something’s wrong with me”
“maybe you should see a doctor. it’s been like this for two weeks now”
hyunjin opened his eyes slowly and looked at me like he had just made a huge discovery
“what if…” he dramatically adjusted himself on the couch “what if i’m pregnant?”
i burst out laughing right away
“sure. you’re pregnant. i’ll go mark it on the calendar”
“mocking my pain doesn’t help you know?” he placed a hand on his stomach with a suffering expression “maybe it’s sympathy pregnancy. it happens to some dads. i read about it”
“hyunjin, you can’t get pregnant”
“but what if my body is so connected to yours that it decided to go through the pregnancy with you? like soulmates… but with cramps and heartburn”
i rolled my eyes with a smile tugging at the corner of my lips but part of me froze
wait
my hands automatically went to the waistband of my sweatpants
that crazy idea made me remember something i shouldn’t have forgotten
“what is it?” he asked, raising his eyebrows at me “you look pale all of a sudden”
“nothing… i mean… just trying to remember…”
i went to the fridge and pulled off the calendar stuck with a magnet. i started counting the days
1… 2… 3… 4 weeks
“what are you trying to remember?”
“my period…” i whispered more to myself
“WHAT?” he shot up “you’re late?”
i nodded slowly
“it’s been over thirty days”
hyunjin went quiet for a second, staring at me like he was witnessing a miracle
“you think…”
“i don’t know. but i’m going to the pharmacy right now”
“want me to go with you? want me to buy it? want me to go alone and you stay here resting just in case you’re already pregnant and need to take it easy?”
“hyune, it’s just a test”
“but it’s the test”
i took a deep breath, grabbed my bag and left, feeling my heart beat differently
maybe it was just a false alarm
maybe not
20 minutes later, the bathroom felt quieter than usual
we were sitting on the floor, side by side, hyunjin’s hands tangled with mine
the pregnancy test sat on the sink, face down
time seemed to stop
“if it’s positive…” he began in a soft voice “…i promise i’ll learn to change diapers and never say i’d sell my soul for ice cream at 3 a.m. again”
“you never said that”
“but i thought it”
i laughed nervously
“and if it’s negative?”
“we try again”
“hyunjin!”
“what? it’s true! i’ve already grown attached to the imaginary baby”
i sighed and finally turned over the test
two lines
we went silent for two seconds
then hyunjin’s eyes widened and he covered his mouth, looking between the test and my face
“two lines. two lines. y/n…”
“i’m pregnant”
he started laughing and crying at the same time, completely caught between sobs and giggles
“you’re pregnant… i’m pregnant too! i knew it! i always knew. my body screamed it with every wave of nausea!”
he pulled me into a tight hug, the two of us sitting on the cold bathroom floor, the whole world suddenly too small for that moment
“i love you” he whispered in my ear “and i love this baby. even if it’s the size of a chia seed for now”
“i can’t believe we’re having a baby” i said wiping the tears off my face
he reached out and touched my belly, still flat
“you’re gonna be the perfect mom. and if i keep having symptoms, i swear i won’t complain. i’ll live this pregnancy with you. every single minute”
“ and you’re gonna be the most wonderful dad”
we stayed there a while longer, still a little shocked, but smiling
hyunjin rested his head on my shoulder and let out a dramatic sigh
“now everything makes sense. i felt it. i was pregnant with empathy. literally pregnant with love”
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the office was all white, with a light beige armchair and a little table with old magazines. but what really filled the space was the tense silence between the two of us. hyunjin was sitting next to me, one hand holding mine and the other… clutching a little pack of tissues.
“baby, why the tissues?” i asked, unable to hold back a laugh.
“i’m just getting ready. i know i’m going to cry. i saw those videos on tiktok, love, some dads hear the baby’s heartbeat and just lose it. i’m more sensitive than all of them put together"
he squeezed my hand tighter and looked at me with his eyes already glistening.
“i’m nervous"
“me too"
the doctor entered the room with a gentle smile and a clipboard in hand.
“hello, mr. and mrs. hwang, right?”
“yes, that's us”
“we’ll start with the ultrasound. is that okay?”
i nodded.
i lay down on the table while hyunjin stood next to me, holding onto my wrist like he was afraid i’d run away.
the doctor prepped the ultrasound machine, spread the cold gel on my belly, and slid the transducer over it.
hyunjin was already sniffling before we even saw anything.
“there.” the doctor pointed. “see that little flickering dot?”
“i do…” i replied, barely able to speak.
“that’s the heartbeat. we estimate about seven weeks. everything looks good with the baby.”
hyunjin let out a sound that was half cry, half laugh.
“it’s the most beautiful little bean i’ve ever seen…”
he dropped to his knees beside me, rested his head against the exam table, and sobbed with his face buried in my fingers.
“babe, it has a heart. a tiny little heart beating. like… for real.”
“hyunjin, get up, oh my god”
“i can’t. my knees gave out.”
the doctor had to stifle a laugh, and i stayed there, teary-eyed, holding the hand of the most dramatically loving man in the world.
after the exam ended, he helped me sit up with a gentleness that would make any nurse proud. he wrapped me in my little jacket, grabbed my bag, and led me to the car like i was about to give birth on the sidewalk.
at home, by late afternoon, we were lying on the bed, his head resting against my still-flat belly.
“you know, if you start kicking hard, please be gentle with daddy. he’s sensitive”
“hyunjin…”
“i just want them to hear my voice from now on”
i was running my fingers through his hair, giggling softly.
“are you feeling anything today?”
“today? headache, craving for mango with chili, nausea when i smelled our neighbor’s cologne… and i had a nightmare that the baby was born talking.”
“you seem more pregnant than i do.”
“i know.” he sighed. “but i’m happy. i never thought it was possible to love someone i haven’t even seen. but i do. i’m in love. with you… and our little bean.”
in the middle of the night, i woke up to a soft sound. i found hyunjin sitting on the floor of the bedroom, holding a little box.
“hyune? are you okay?”
“i’m writing a journal for the baby.”
“now? at three in the morning?”
“inspiration hit. i wrote: ‘dear baby, today was the day we heard your heart. the most beautiful sound in the world. your mom is a heroine and i… i’m an emotional potato, but i’ll try to be the best dad in the world. love you. signed: your daddy'”
“it's beautiful husband but come back to bed"
he smiled and climbed into bed, curling up behind me with his hands on my belly.
“good night wife, and good night little one"
i woke up with thin rays of sunlight slipping through the gap in the curtain. it was a warm, gentle light, the kind that feels like it’s hugging you in a calm way. i stretched carefully, feeling the weight of my belly becoming more present with each passing day.
next to me, hyunjin was still asleep. his messy hair had fallen over his eyes, and one of his hands, as always, rested on top of my belly — like he was afraid of losing contact with the baby during the night.
i turned slowly so i wouldn’t wake him, but of course he felt the movement.
“hmm…” he mumbled, voice raspy “already waking up, love?”
“yes” i smiled “someone in here is kicking like they’re in dance rehearsal.”
his eyes opened a little more, and a smile spread across his face even though his voice was still sleepy. he leaned in toward my belly and gently rested his face there.
“you’re growing so well, you know that? and your mom is even more beautiful with you in there.”
“are you asking for breakfast or just flirting with me?”
he gave a silly little smile, but before he could answer, his body stiffened. he sat up quickly, holding his stomach and frowning.
“ugh… oh no. oh no.”
“what is it?” i sat up too, worried.
“i… i think i’m gonna throw up. babe, i feel really sick.”
“again, hyune?”
he ran to the bathroom with one hand over his mouth. i sat there on the bed, listening to him gag and trying to understand how he had more pregnancy symptoms than i did.
a few minutes later, he came back looking pale and teary-eyed.
“false alarm, but the smell of our soap almost made me really throw up” he said, collapsing back onto the bed with a dramatic groan “that lavender one. i’ll never be able to use it again”
“you’re more pregnant than i am”
“and am i being judged for that?” he shot back, closing his eyes.
“no, i just find it funny that even air conditioning makes you nauseous”
“you don’t get it. i’m so connected to you two that i feel it. i really do. seriously. like… my body wants the full experience”
i sighed, laughing, and started running my fingers through his hair.
“let me remind you that i’m still the only person with an actual child growing inside of them, okay?”
he lifted his head slowly.
“for now…”
“hyunjin, don’t start”
he laughed, finally seeming better.
“but hey, this afternoon we need to go out and buy the rest of the baby stuff. remember?”
he sat up straighter in bed.
“today? yeah, of course. but only if i don’t faint from the store smell”
“you’re unbearable and perfect at the same time”
“the perfect recipe for an emotional dad”
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the mall was busy, but the baby store felt like a quiet bubble of cuteness. everything in pastel colors, soft fabrics, piles of teddy bears… and hyunjin, like an overgrown kid, trying to hide the sparkle in his eyes.
“babe… look at this sock. it has little ears. look at this” he practically whispered, holding up a tiny pair of pink socks.
“too cute. but focus, love, we came to get the stroller and the crib set”
but he had already gotten distracted again, this time in front of a little lion onesie.
“our baby’s gonna look like a stuffed animal in this.”
“hyunjin.”
he sighed, resigned, but still tossed the onesie into the cart.
we headed to the stroller section and he froze in front of an ultra-high-tech model that almost looked like a transformer.
“this one has suspension, a camera, and plays lullabies.”
“is it a stroller or a car?”
“what if our baby is a very picky baby? they’re gonna want comfort.”
“our baby doesn’t even know how to open their eyes yet.”
he laughed, but grabbed the stroller anyway. the problem came when it was time to fit it into the car trunk.
“hyunjin… you didn’t check if this would fit first?”
“did you check if your patience could handle dating a guy with empathy nausea?”
“touché.”
in the end, we came back with the stroller in the back seat, a bag full of tiny clothes, and a hyunjin completely in love with every inch of the experience.
night fell with the cool breeze coming through the living room window. hyunjin was already in a baggy sweatshirt, hair tied in a loose bun, and a nearly childlike excitement in his eyes. the shopping bags were scattered on the floor, and he was crouching carefully — not because he was in pain, but because he said he was “syncing with y/n's difficulty to bend down.” dramatic? absolutely. but my favorite kind of dramatic.
“ready to organize the baby stuff?” he asked, opening the first bag with almost ceremonial care.
“ready. i’m just wondering if you’re gonna cry again today.”
“y/n” he looked at me seriously “today we’re building the crib. if that’s not a reason to cry, i don’t know what is.”
i didn’t even have time to answer. he pulled out one of those little bunny security blankets and let out a sigh so dramatic it was like he had just found a lost childhood relic.
“look at this, love… the baby’s gonna hold this while they sleep. it’s gonna have their little scent.”
“or vomit, if they take after you and get nauseous from literally everything.”
he made a face but couldn’t hold back a laugh.
while he started assembling the crib with pieces scattered around the room, i sat on the pouf with a bottle of water and began sorting the clothes to wash the next day. every now and then he’d let out an “ow!” or a “hyunjin, focus!” to himself, like he was on some kind of life mission.
when he finished, the crib was facing our side of the bed. he stood there in silence for a while, eyes shining.
“we’re gonna sleep here and… right next to us will be our baby. here. with us…”
he stopped talking. literally. just opened his arms like he couldn’t put the feeling into words. and then, he ran to the closet and came back with… a doll.
“hyunjin…”
“let me play, just to see what it’ll be like.”
he carefully laid the doll in the crib and stood beside it, gently rocking the mattress with his hand.
“shhh… daddy’s here…” he whispered, acting it out.
“you know this is creepy, right?”
“it’s practice! look how well he’s sleeping.”
“hyunjin, the doll doesn’t even blink.”
“that means it’s in a deep sleep then.”
i was already crying from laughing.
after a few minutes, he sat on the floor, leaning back against the wall, watching the crib with slightly glassy eyes. i reached out my hand to him.
“come here, emotional dad.”
he crawled over and lay down with his head in my lap. i ran my fingers through his hair while i felt the baby move inside me.
“baby’s kicking.”
he stared at my belly, mesmerized.
“it feels like i have it inside me too, you know?”
“i know. you’re the only man who could have such an intense empathetic pregnancy.”
“do you think it’s possible to have cravings too? because i’m seriously craving those sugar donuts.”
“hyunjin, you ate seven yesterday.”
“the baby wants it too, y/n. the baby used me as a messenger.”
i rolled my eyes, laughing, but i was already heading to the kitchen. the truth was, i couldn’t resist him, especially when he looked at me like that, like i was the most beautiful thing in the world with this belly growing more every week.
that night, we laid together and stayed quiet for a long time, just feeling each other’s presence, and our baby’s. hyunjin with his hand on my belly, eyes closed, and that silly little smile still on his face.
“do you think he’ll have my eyes?” he whispered, already half asleep.
“if he does, he’s gonna melt the world just like his dad did.”
and that’s how we fell asleep. him, me… and our little kicker.
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the garden looked like it had come straight out of a dream. baby blue and soft pink balloons covered every corner, in arches above the table, scattered between white chairs, and tied to the ground with ribbons that danced in the wind. hanging from a tree were photos of us since the beginning of the pregnancy, hyunjin kissing my belly, the first ultrasound, me laughing with my hand on my stomach while he pretended to feel sick beside me. it was impossible to look around and not smile.
but hyunjin… he was a walking ball of nerves.
“do you want to sit down? want some water?” i asked for the third time, watching him rub the back of his neck for what felt like the thousandth time in five minutes.
“i don’t even know what i want, babe.” he replied with a nervous laugh. “maybe pass out? can i come back after the reveal?”
“you’re pale!”
“i’m about to find out if i’m going to be the dad of a little girl who’ll shatter my heart with two glances or of a mini-hyunjin who’s gonna drive me crazy climbing on everything. pale is an understatement.”
i slowly stood up from the chair and walked over to him. i placed my hand on his cheek.
“you’re already the dad of anyone’s dreams. whoever this baby is, they’re the luckiest in the world.”
he held my hand against his face and closed his eyes.
“do you think she… or he… can already feel all of this?”
“absolutely. this baby’s going to grow up surrounded by so much love it won’t even fit.”
hyunjin opened his eyes, a glimmer of emotion threatening to spill. then he looked at my belly and bent down slightly, speaking softly as if the world around us had disappeared:
“hey, baby… it’s daddy here. today’s our big day, okay? we’re going to find out who you are. but no matter what… i already love you so much it doesn’t even fit inside me.”
“babe…” i said, feeling my eyes fill too.
he stood up, squeezed my hand, and took a deep breath.
“is it time?”
i nodded. people around us were already calling, guests getting their phones ready. in the center, the big black balloon swayed gently in the wind, with a small golden tag that read in cursive: “girl or boy?”
we stood under the balloon. hyunjin looked at me.
“last chance to run.”
“you run slower than i do pregnant. there’s no escape.”
he laughed.
“i love you.”
“i love you too, hyunjin.”
we grabbed the stick together. one, two… three.
POUF!
the balloon burst with a pop, and for a second, time froze. a shower of pink confetti flew into the sky and started falling around us like flower petals.
everything went quiet. and then…
“is… is it a girl?” he asked, as if he couldn’t believe what he was seeing. “pink… it’s pink, right? oh my god, it’s a girl!”
he brought his hands to his head, then let the tears fall, smiling like it was the most beautiful thing in the world.
“it’s a girl… she’s my little girl…” his voice broke completely. he dropped to his knees in the grass. “i’m… i’m doomed.”
i knelt beside him. held him tightly. we were both laughing and crying at the same time as the guests cheered around us.
“i knew it… i knew it was you.” he whispered to my belly, overwhelmed. “i felt everything, every wave of nausea, every fear, every joy. it was you telling me you were here all along.”
“she already knows she has the silliest dad in the universe.” i said, my hand in his hair.
“silly and totally smitten.” he chuckled, eyes still glistening. then he brought his face close to my belly. “you already have my heart, princess. and i promise i’ll protect you forever.”
in that moment, between confetti, promises, and tears, there was no doubt: our daughter was already loved more than words could ever explain.
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“babe, have you seen the pouch with my breast pads?” i asked, rummaging through the dresser with one hand and holding the checklist with the other.
hyunjin appeared at the door, flushed and breathless, holding two toothbrushes, one of my socks, and the makeup case.
“i found this. is this useful? this is useful, right?” he sounded out of breath just from running up and down the room.
“hyun, that’s the eyeliner case. and this is the baby’s sock.”
he stepped closer, eyes wide.
“the baby’s sock?! how did i put the baby’s sock in your pouch?? oh god, i’m going to faint.”
“breathe. you’re not the one giving birth, i am.”
“you think?! because i’m starting to doubt that!” he put a hand on his belly, frowning. “ow… ow. ow. oh my god…”
“hyunjin…”
“it’s like a cramp, babe. it’s coming in waves. it’s coming in waves”
“you’ve got gas”
“i’ve got contractions”
“you’ve got drama”
he placed his hands on his hips and started pacing in circles.
“i think the baby’s going to be born through me. my body absorbed the suffering. i’m the new birth canal. take me to the hospital”
“hyun, grab my blue button-up shirt and stop with the theatrics”
he left the room talking to himself, still clutching his belly and moaning like he was about to have his water break. i laughed to myself, organizing the last things in the hospital bag, when i felt… a pop.
pluc.
and then… the warmth.
“hyunjin…” i called out, frozen in place.
he came running back with the blue shirt, still acting out his contractions.
“what it is babe?”
“my water just broke”
he froze.
“YOUR WHAT?”
“my water broke. the baby’s coming”
panic. silence. eyes locked.
hyunjin let out a high-pitched squeal, stumbled, and nearly fell on his butt.
“oh my god it’s real? oh my god it’s today?!”
“yes! and you need to stop pretending you’re in pain and help me up!”
he rushed over, tripping over his own feet, hands on his head.
“okay, okay! bag! keys! car! you! me! ah no, i’m feeling another contraction!”
“hyunjin!”
“sorry! i’m coming! everything’s gonna be okay! don’t go into labor yet, let me find my wallet!”
“i’m the one giving birth!”
“i know, love, but i’m just as pregnant as you are in spirit!!”
amid the chaos, we finally left the house. hyunjin driving like a rocket, whispering prayers, cursing at red lights, and tearing up every time i took a deep breath.
“if she’s born with this sense of timing, she’s definitely gonna be a drama queen like her dad.” i said, between contractions.
“she inherited the talent and comedic timing, yes. but i hope she gets her mom’s common sense. ow, ow… phantom pain again!”
“you’ll give birth through your mouth if you keep saying that.”
we arrived at the hospital with hyunjin practically skidding into the emergency parking spot. he jumped out of the car, shouting at the nurses:
“my wife is in labor! and so am i!”
“he’s not in labor!” i yelled from the car door. “but i am, and he’s about to pass out!”
it was the most beautiful chaos of our lives. the beginning of the greatest love of all.
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the room was softly lit. the nurse adjusted the equipment, the doctor spoke in a calm voice, but everything sounded muffled. the loudest sound was hyunjin’s heavy breathing and the rhythmic echo of contractions, each one stronger than the last.
he was squeezing my hand so tightly I couldn’t even tell who was comforting who anymore.
“you’re doing so good, baby. so, so good. i’m right here, okay? i’m not going anywhere. not even if i faint. if i faint, just pick me up, but i’m staying.” he spoke fast, his voice trembling, eyes glassy.
“you’ve said that like ten times already, hyune” I murmured, trying to smile between the pain.
“i have to keep reminding you because… you’re incredible. i don’t even know how you’re doing this. and i wish i could take all this pain and carry it for you…”
“you’ve already felt everything for me so far.” I replied, my gaze soft.
he let out a nervous laugh, wiping sweat from his forehead with the back of his hand. he was pale, hair stuck to his skin from the anxiety. he turned to the doctor:
“she’s almost there, right? you can see the head? the ears? everything’s coming out already?!”
the doctor answered with a patient smile:
“almost there, dad. we just need a little more strength, mama. you can do this.”
I nodded, my eyes filling with tears. the pain was intense, but love overflowed. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and pushed with everything I had left.
“yes! that’s it, baby! oh my god! you’re doing it! she’s coming, you’re bringing her to us!” Hyunjin shouted, voice cracking with emotion, like he was witnessing a miracle.
one more contraction. one more push. and then… the sound.
the first cry. small. fragile. loud.
my eyes opened instantly. and the world stopped.
“did she… is she here?” I asked, breathless.
the doctor held that tiny little being, wrapped in a white and pink cloth, eyes shut and mouth slightly open.
“she’s a beautiful little girl.” she said with a smile. “congratulations, mama. congratulations, papa.”
hyunjin broke down.
tears streamed freely down his face. He fell to his knees beside the bed, resting his head on my legs as he sobbed.
“she’s here… she’s really here… she’s real…” he repeated, broken. “you did this. you brought her to us.”
the nurse called him, and he stood up on shaky legs, clumsily wiping his face, and took the first steps toward our daughter.
“hi…” he whispered, approaching gently. “i’m your dad. you have no idea how long we’ve waited for you.”
he held the little bundle in his arms like she was made of porcelain and brought her back to me.
“look at her, baby… she’s perfect. she has your lips.”
“and your nose.” I smiled, crying too.
hyunjin sat beside me, arms wrapped around both of us, the three of us fitting together like a single heartbeat.
“we did it.” he murmured, kissing my forehead. “she’s here.”
we stayed like that, in silence, while the world outside kept spinning. Inside that room, there was only peace. only love.
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the apartment door closed with a soft click. hyunjin pushed it shut with his foot as he helped me inside. the baby was sleeping curled up in my arms, wrapped in a white blanket with tiny pink bows.
the silence in the air felt strange. After months of waiting, running, pain, tears, and dreams… now she was here. Home.
“i think she likes it here.” I whispered, feeling my heart on the verge of bursting.
hyunjin kicked off his shoes in the hallway like any sound might wake her. Then he ran to the couch and threw all the pillows around.
“wait, wait, sit here, babe. rest your arm on this side. yeah, slowly…” he instructed every move like I was made of glass. “want water? fruit? a pillow for your back? your feet? a massage? the moon? i’ll bring it.”
I let out a soft laugh.
“i want you to sit down next to me and stop spinning around the house like a top.”
he froze, laughed nervously, and collapsed onto the couch beside me.
“sorry. i’m kinda freaking out. it’s just… damn, she’s here. like… really here.”
I looked at our daughter. she was sleeping with her lips slightly parted and her tiny hands balled up like she was dreaming of her own birth.
“do you think she’ll hate the crib?” I asked, stroking the edge of the blanket.
“if she does, she sleeps with us. we’ll manage.” he replied, resting his head against mine. “or i’ll stay up all night with her in my arms. no big deal.”
“of course it is. you’ll fall asleep standing up.”
“not true. i’m a dad now, i’ve reached monk-level self-control.”
“hyunjin, you cried yesterday because she sneezed.”
“and it was the cutest sneeze in the entire world. don’t even deny it.”
i let out a muffled laugh, but quickly went quiet when the baby stirred. Hyunjin held his breath. she let out a tiny sigh… and fell back asleep.
he melted into the couch, relieved.
“okay. we survived her first sigh.”
we sat there for a while, admiring that tiny little face like it was the eighth wonder of the world. after a moment, he whispered:
“can I hold her for a bit?”
I nodded. He gently took her into his arms like he was holding a falling star.
“hi, my love…” he whispered. “it’s your dad. we made it. this is your home now.”
my eyes welled up again.
“you’re gonna spoil her.”
"with love? absolutely.” he said with a goofy smile, kissing her forehead.
suddenly, she opened her mouth and made a soft sound… and then the dreaded little cry began.
hyunjin went pale.
“she’s hungry? diaper? cold? hot? help me!”
I carefully took the baby back and opened her onesie.
“it’s okay. just a dirty diaper. want to change her?”
he jumped to his feet, excited:
“yes! of course I do! I practiced with the training doll! I’m a total profe—”
“she pooped all the way up to her neck.”
he froze.
“okay. copy that. plan b: i’ll grab the wipes and offer emotional support.”
while he fumbled with wipes, a burp cloth, the portable changing mat and a roll of paper towels, I couldn’t stop smiling. even with the dark circles under my eyes and exhaustion dragging me down… my whole world was right there, in two sets of eyes: my daughter’s, and my husband, who was now looking at me with the purest expression of love… and poop on his finger.
“are you laughing at me?” he asked, horrified.
“hyun, the diaper’s on backwards.”
“it’s conceptual.”
“it’s a disaster.”
later that night, once she finally fell asleep in the crib for the very first time, we collapsed into bed, hand in hand.
“i’m scared I won’t be able to handle this.” he confessed quietly, staring at the ceiling.
I turned to face him.
“you already are. every diaper disaster, every kiss on the forehead, every dumb joke that made me laugh these past nine months… you’re the best dad she could ever have.”
he turned his face to look at me, eyes full again.
“and you’re the best mom in the universe. thank you for giving me both of you.”
we kissed slowly, feeling our hearts beat in sync.
and there, on the first night of our new life, we realized:
the chaos had begun…
but we had never been this happy
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chefs-other-corner · 3 days ago
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Sick Days |Zoey|
☆Paring: Rumi x Zoey x Mira
☆Tags: SIck Fic, fluff, a pinch of angst, a dash of hurt/comfort, and just a shit ton of domestic fluff
☆Sum Sum: Zoey Gets sick this time, her girlys take care of her   ☆Word count: 714
☆Note: This was BASED AND FULLY INSPIRDE BY THIS POST, The one behind it is called fishsticks231 uhhh idk how to add it so I'll just (bloop) Here it isss ────── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──────
Zoey had a system. Step 1: Pedialyte. Step 2: Saltines. Step 3: Vomit in private. Step 4: Bathtub nest. This wasn’t her first rodeo with bad street dumplings. It wouldn’t be her last.
She hated getting sick. Not in the “ugh, this sucks” way—but in the deep, gnawing, makes-her-feel-like-a-burden kind of way. Mira and Rumi didn’t deserve to deal with her like this. So she did what she always did when her stomach turned against her: she locked herself in the bathroom with a pack of granola bars, her water bottle, and every blanket she could steal from the linen closet.
That was around noon.
It was nearly 6pm when Rumi came home, pushing the door open with her shoulder, arms full of plastic bags from the pharmacy.
“Z?” she called. “Got the stomach meds. And the fancy crackers you like.”
No answer.
The light was on in the bathroom.
She walked in—and froze.
Zoey was curled up in the actual bathtub. Blankets, two pillows, a half-empty bottle of Pedialyte cradled against her chest like a baby. Face pale, lips dry, sweat sticking to her hairline. Fast asleep. She looked… wilted.
“Oh my god,” Rumi muttered.
She dropped the bag and stepped closer. “Zoey?” She reached out, touched her arm.
Zoey stirred weakly. “Mmph… I’m good,” she croaked.
“No, you’re not.” Rumi didn’t waste time arguing. She leaned down, scooped Zoey up bridal-style, and carried her out like a princess in crisis.
“Put me back,” Zoey mumbled, already burrowing into Rumi’s shoulder. “I had a system…”
“Your system sucks.”
By the time Mira got home, Zoey was tucked into bed, face flushed and furrowed in half-sleep. Rumi was perched on the edge with a cold rag in her hand.
“She was in the tub,” Rumi told her. “With pillows.”
Mira sighed like she expected nothing less. “Food poisoning again?”
“Street dumplings.”
“Jesus Christ.”
Zoey stirred, eyes slitting open. “Sorry,” she rasped.
“Don’t be,” Mira said immediately, crossing the room and setting down a tray with soup and toast. “You’re sick. You don’t need to apologize for needing things.”
“But I feel bad…” Zoey mumbled. “You guys are busy, and I—I hate when people have to do stuff for me.”
“You’re not ‘stuff,’ Zoey.” Rumi reached out, brushing sweaty hair from her forehead. “You’re our person. That’s different.”
Zoey didn’t say anything. But she looked away, quiet in that way she always got when her guilt was louder than her stomach.
It took both of them to lure her out again later when the nausea eased. Mira crouched in the doorway with a bowl of chicken noodle soup and said, very seriously, “Zoey. I will slide this under the door like a can of tuna. Don’t make me do it.”
Zoey opened the door five minutes later, still swaying.
“I brushed my teeth,” she announced. “And I gargled. I didn’t want to smell like barf.”
“Great,” Mira said. “Now you’re going to shower.”
“I already wiped down with a wet rag…”
“Shower.”
Eventually, Zoey was clean, redressed in Mira’s oversized hoodie, hair damp, breath minty. Mira brought her back to bed while Rumi went to reheat her soup. She still looked fragile—like one more wrong move would break her.
“Sit,” Mira said gently, guiding her down. Then she knelt behind her and picked up a brush.
Zoey stiffened. “You don’t have to—”
“Zoey.”
Her mouth shut.
The brush ran through her tangles slow and smooth, no tugging, no rush. Mira had always been careful with her like this—especially when Zoey was too tired to pretend she didn’t need it.
Eventually, Zoey relaxed. Her head tilted back slightly, her shoulders sank.
“You’re not too much,” Mira said quietly, still brushing. “You never are.”
Zoey didn’t respond. She just blinked slow, eyes falling shut, until her breathing evened out. Mira kept brushing long after Zoey was asleep, her fingers light in the hair she once dyed bubblegum pink just for a concert.
Rumi came back in and smiled when she saw them.
“She’s out?”
Mira nodded.
“She didn’t finish the soup.”
“She will in the morning.”
They climbed in beside her, one on each side, tucking Zoey between them like the most precious, pitiful stray cat who forgot how to ask for help—but still deserved it anyway.
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must-have-been-thewind · 2 hours ago
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Sooo uhhh idk I'm not that great at cooking but here's something I like to make:
You need (for 5 persons*) :
- 2 packs Schupfnudeln (in total 1kg) (finger-shaped potato dumplings/noodles)
- one or two onions
- oil or butter
- 3 cloves garlic
- 1 whole (fresh) broccoli
- 3 packs (vegan) Dino nuggets
- salt, pepper
*because I cook for my family and we're 5 and idk how much u need for a different number of people
How to make it:
1. Chop the broccoli (you can use the stem, just peel away the woody part)
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Cut it up about the size as the picture, but make the pieces from the stem about double as big
2. Chop the onion and garlic
3. Make the Dino nuggets (instructions should be on the packaging, we usually put it in the oven) ( I'd prefer giving you the instructions here but I just can't remember them) (just so we're clear I mean just start/begin making the Dino nuggets, don't wait until they're done to start the next step)
4. Heat up a (big) pan and use a little oil (u can use butter but I prefer oil) so that broccoli doesn't stick to the pan
5. Toss the broccoli in and don't forget to stir it from time to time (otherwise it will get burned and black)
6. Repeat 4. (My family swears it tastes better with butter but I definitely prefer using oil (I don't like butter)) and toss in the Schupfnudeln (don't forget to stir!!)
7. After 5-10 minutes toss the onion and garlic to the broccoli and season with salt and pepper (and whatever u like)
8. Roast the Schupfnudeln until they're brown from multiple sides and don't taste raw anymore (should take about 10-20 minutes i think)
9. Roast the broccoli for another 5-10 minutes until it's fully cooked/ has a consistency you like (just taste the broccoli occasionally until you like the taste)
10. Serve it :D
Some additional notes/comments:
- I just eat the broccoli stems. I don't like the other part of broccoli (it's a sensory nightmare and tastes disgusting)
- you can add or leave anything you (don't) want (don't like garlic? then don't use it <3)
- I don't make any kind of sauce but you might want to make one if it's too dry for you
- don't like/want/have Schupfnudeln/broccoli/Dino nuggets?
- schupfnudeln alternatives ideas: mashed potatoes, rice, gnocci
- broccoli alternatives ideas: green beans, cauliflower (I'd cook that), mushrooms
- Dino nuggets alternatives ideas: fish sticks/fish fingers, chicken (or vegan versions)
- if you have any questions feel free to ask them! I will answer!!
I love cooking i want to learn more fun recipes... anyone have meals they like to cook that are fun and interesting?
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drsheperd-bartley18 · 2 days ago
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“Best Friend” Part 4
Asks: For the bestfriends series can you do a fic where they go out and get called girlfriends by a cashier or waitress. Something along those lines if not that’s totally cool!/ I wanna see like jealous p and jealous a maybe a little fight but then it just turns into paige being completely whipped like always azzi being a brat
Hope you guys enjoy. I’m sorry it took so long. Also thank you for 235 followers!!!
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Friends go to dinner all the time.
At least that's what Paige tells herself when she came up with the idea of taking her best friend to a fancy dinner to celebrate her passing her accounting final.
And when she got heart palpitations asking her out when she asked her if she wanted to hang out while eating overpriced pasta.
And when she stopped at a flower shop to get her friend’s favorite flowers.
And especially when she saw her and heart dropped to her ass, hands got sweaty, and her brain stopped working.
Friends go to dinner all the time.
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They were sitting across from each other, legs intertwined under the table.
Which was was a very normal friendly thing to do.
Azzi was deep into a rant about one of her professors when the waiter walked over.
“Hi, I'm Taylor, do you guys want to get started on the food now?”
“Yeah…umm… I'll get the…umm,” Azzi says unable to decide what she wanted even though she had been staring at the menu since they got there.
“I’ll have the chicken alfredo and she’ll have the chicken parmesan please, also can you get her a refill on her water?” Paige says like it's nothing.
And it is. She was used to doing this. Azzi somehow was still not used to it apparently.
Paige looks away from the waiter back to the brown-skinned girl to see her dimples popping, cheeks slightly red, and big brown eyes staring at her like she just proposed or something before looking away quickly.
“Okay, your food should be here soon and I’ll be right back with your water.”
“Thank you” both the girls say.
“You okay, Mama?” Paige says reaching over and caressing Azzi’s hand.
“Yeah Paigey, thank you helping me” Azzi says flipping her hand over and intertwining their fingers.
“Of course, Az, if i let your indecisive self put we would her all day.” The blonde says laughing.
Azzi dramatically drops her hand and covers her face embarrassed, “Shut uppp, your so annoying ”
Reaching across the table Paige grabs her hand again. “I was just joking, Mama. You know I love you even if you can’t make a decision to save your life.” She says kissing the back of her best friend’s hand.
“Yeah whatever”
Lightly tugging on her hand Paige pouts, “You not gon say it back”
“Oh my god, you’re such a baby. I love you too” Azzi says unable to stop her self from smiling.
Neither can Paige who breaks out into a smile, the smile on Azzi could pull out of her. The apples of her cheeks on full display, bright red.
Then the waiter came back water in hand.
“Here you go, your food should be out soon, also I just wanted to say you guys are the cutest couple I’ve ever seen” He says as her places it in front of Azzi.
“Oh, we aren’t dating” Azzi says surprised.
“I won’t tell anyone, I promise”
“Naw man, we’re just friends. Best friends” Paige says releasing Azzi’s hand and taking a sip of her Diet Coke to distract herself from the fact that being mistaken from Azzi’s girlfriend gave her butterflies.
“Yeah we’ve known each other for a long time so we’re really close.” The brown-skinned girl says as she slides her hand under the table, placing it on Paige’s knee to stop the bouncing.
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2.
Azzi and Paige hadn't talked all day. 
Granted it was only 9 in the morning but still. 
Paige FaceTimed her as soon as she woke up, like they always did, on the off chance they didn't wake up together, to no avail. 
So, obviously, Paige started the day irritated.
Unfortunately, that irritation only got worse when Paige finally dragged herself out of bed to have breakfast, and she saw her worst nightmare.
Azzi Fudd standing too close in her opinion to some ugly guy who was definitely too short, holding a tray with two burritos, laughing at whatever stupid thing the dude said, and worse of all she had her hand on his waist jokingly pushing him away.
Paige froze. 
Her stomach dropped and the nausea hit hard. 
“Yo, you good lil paigey,” KK says, nudging her side.
The blonde didn't say anything, just kept staring, kind of wishing she could kill him with her eyes. KK followed her gaze and saw what looked like a scene in a medicine commercial after it worked.
“Girl boo, who’s s that?” she said, wincing.
“I don't know,” Paige said, closing her eyes trying to calm herself.
(Now KK could definitely make fun of her friend right now. I mean she was absolutely jealous but they are really no fun in bullying someone too dumb to even realize they’re in love to begin with.)
Before KK could say anything, Paige opened her eyes and found beautiful brown doe eyes staring back at her. Even worse, the curly-haired girl had the nerve to smile and wave. As if she isn't actively sending her best friend into a spiral.
So, Paige did the only thing she could think of and walked out. Deciding that instead of acknowledging why she feels like she was just shot in the heart she should work out she ran to the gym.
Az👸🏽💗
Are you okay?
                                                            My Paigey💗
                                                                     I'm fine.
Az👸🏽💗
You sure cause you were looking at me like I just killed your mom.
Did I do something?
                                                            My Paigey💗
                                                                            No.
Putting her phone away Paige got to work. She decided to do legs. (Now Paige might have a problem because she definitely chose legs in the hopes that the physical pain to her knee would outweigh the emotional pain she was feeling in her heart. But she wasn’t ready to acknowledge that or many things clearly). 
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A few minutes had passed when Azzi had quietly entered the room. She knew where Paige was the whole time she just wanted to give her some time to calm down. She knew her best friend had a tendency to punish herself when she got upset.
So, she set the burritos down on a bench and walked over to the blonde
“Mhm, you smell good, baby,” Azzi says as she wraps her arms around Paige from behind, while sticking her head in neck.
“Oh, now you wanna acknowledge me”, she says as she abruptly pulls away.
“What are you talking about?”
“I’m talking bout the fact that you ignored my call, then went to breakfast without me, and got comfortable with your little boyfriend,” Paige said, slightly raising her voice and pointing her accusatory finger.
“First of all lower your voice, you know we don’t yell at each other -“
“Yeah? And we also don’t do our routines with some random ass guy. So I guess things change!” Paige yells her voice cracking at the end.
Stepping closer Azzi placed her hands on Paige’s lower abdomen, hoping to ground her, and said “If you would let me talk I could tell you that I didn’t answer because I wanted to surprise you. I was grabbing us burritos, thinking we could eat in your dorm and watch a movie. Cause I missed you. I didn’t know you would turn into a jealous asshole at the sight of talking to someone else.”
Folding under Azzi's touch all her anger leaves her as Azzi rubs her stomach under her hoodie.
“It’s just…You were touching him…and he was making you laugh…and I -“ 
In disbelief, Azzi says “So, you're mad I touched him and laughed at a joke?”
Paige didn’t say anything, choosing instead not to make eye contact with her best friend, embarrassed.
Pulling the blonde closer Azzi lightly grabbed her jaw, making her look at her, “I couldn’t care less about that guy, baby. You’re who I care about. You’re who I wake up thinking about, Paige.”
Pouting, Paige dropped her head onto her shoulder, “Well, it didn’t feel like it this morning.”
Placing her hand on the back of Paige’s neck she softly massages the skin there, “So what, now you need constant reassurance that you’re my favorite person?”
“Maybe,” Paige says wrapping her arms around her tightly, “ You knew I was needy when you became friends with me”
Azzi laughed and said “I’ve known you’re needy. But you’re giving full-on brat who doesn’t realize she’ll always have a starting spot in my life.”
Deflating even more, Paige let out a sigh placing her hands under Azzi’s shirt softly scratching her back wishing she could get closer.
Kissing her forehead Azzi says “You’re mine, Paigey. And I’m yours. Always. You're my best friend. I love you”
“I love you too, Mama. But like… is there any chance the burritos are still warm”
Jokingly pushing her away, “No way I just poured my heart out to you and you’re thinking about food”
Snickering Paige pulls her back into her arms and says, “I’m sorryyy, but I’m hungry, Ma”
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phebess · 2 days ago
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Takeaways from Silverstone Day 1 (irl)
Lando has SO many fans. Even outside of the Landostand area, the overwhelming majority of folks were in McLaren gear, and most of those people were in Lando gear. The number four was everyyyywhere today 🫶🏻.
I was really shocked at the lack of Williams or Mercedes support. Merch was harder to find, and a lot of the Merc shirts were Lewis ones. Made me so sad for Alex and George specifically for their home (and half-home lol) race.
I was initially bummed the Landostand didn't cheer for Carlos when he came by. Reality check for the chronically online girls lmfao. Grass was touched.
The chrome livery looked majestic on track. With the sun at Stowe glinting off of it as they hit the turn - truly unreal. That said, my camera did not like it - all of my photos of Lando potato quality, yet the ones of a fucking vcarb belong in the louvre.
Silverstone is a dusty ass track. I am covered in dirt. (better that than rain & mud, though)
Landostand food & drink vendors are lit - Pina Coladas served in half pineapples, canned cocktails with 4-can specials, and some tasty foods of different cuisines (we had Lebanese chicken wraps)
There was a 2-3 hour line to get anything from the Lando Store, and the exclusive shirts sold out by early afternoon. We spoke to some Silvo employees who said the reason the line was so long is because it's outside the gates and therefore not run by the Silverstone event / have the same queue expectations. There were also only like 2 people working the stand (doing their best!!).
The Lando Monster tastes great with vodka. Cheers @landinrris
Okay off to go through photos and wash the dirt out of every pore of my body, cannot wait for tomorrow!
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acti-veg · 2 days ago
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The source you have provided for this very outlandish claim categorically does not state anything even close to 'farming industries have increased ten-fold to cater to veganism,' which is the statment you tried to back up with that source. This is directly contrary to every land use analysis or feed ratio report I've ever read, and I'll provide some of those for your future reference later. Before I introduce any of my own data though, I'll start by quoting from yours:
Given the environmental impact of soybean products, many may wonder if soybean products are even worse for the environment than meat – but the truth is that soybean products remain the more eco-friendly choice over a burger or fried chicken.
“ The reason why soybean products are a more environmentally friendly food choice over meat is because ultimately, meat products still require greater amounts of water to produce – in addition to greater land and resource consumption.
Here’s a breakdown of some of the environmental impacts of soybean products versus meat products:
Water Consumption – Although soybean products are indeed water intensive, meat products still take the cake on having a higher rate of water usage than soybean products. This livestock requires water for both the animals and the crops the livestock will be eating – whereas soybean production only requires an irrigation system for the crops themselves.
💡Did you know? The water footprint for a soy burger is around 158 liters of water (around 42 gallons), whereas the amount of water used for a traditional beef burger is around 660 gallons – or 2500 liters of water." So if the aim of the game is harm reduction (and I agree that it should be), according to the source that you provided, the choice resulting in less harm would still be a soy product instead of an animal product. That would be true regardless of whether or not you're buying a beefburger from the farm next door or buying imported soy, since food choice matters far more than locality, at least in terms of environmental impact.
You're also rather conveniently also ignoring the fact that most soy actually goes to feed farmed animals or is processed into vegetable oil and biofuel, rather than being used to feed vegans. Increase in soy production over the last 30 years tallies quite nicely with the global increase in animal product consumption, and has very little to do with vegans, who likely make up less than 1% of the global population. The idea that such a tiny minority could be responsible for a tenfold increase in soy farming is frankly absurd. How much do you think we eat?
I agree that thinking critically about your diet is absolutely what everyone should be doing, and I'd commend that attitude. I also agree that soy production has a negative environmental impact, but I'd point out that the single best way to reduce our reliance on soy (and feeder crops more generally) is to reduce our intake of animal products, since farmed animals take in far more calories in crops than they will ever give out in meat. In most cases, the diet of a meat eater will require far more feeder crops like corn, soy and wheat than the diet of a vegan will.
Here is some further reading, for you or anyone else who is interested:
Our World in Data - Soybeans Uses
A Well Fed World – Feed-to-meat ratios analysis
IOP Science – Food yields from animal agriculture per hectare
CIWF – Inefficiency of animal agriculture
Science Direct – Feed/food ratio animal agriculture analysis
Our World in Data - Local vs food choice
PNAS – Biomass use, production, feed & emissions
PNAS – Producing crops for humans produces 2-20 times more
PNAS – Opportunity cost of animal based diets
USDA – Estimated Amount, Value, & Calories Food Losses
Our World in Data – 3/4 of agricultural land used for livestock
Our World in Data – Plant-based diets reduce land use by 1/4
Water Footprint – Animal agriculture water usage report
Water Footprint – Water comparison of crop & animal products
Water Footprint – Global water footprint of animal agriculture
Research Gate – Human consumption and water use
Bioscience – Animal agriculture water resource use
Science Direct – Water footprint of poultry, pork and beef
Oxford Academic – Water use by livestock global perspective
Cornell – US livestock grain could feed 800 million people
I do find it weird and funny that tumblr has this like ingrained anti vegan sentiment. You are the social justice website! Consider the research!
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isabella-2025 · 3 days ago
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My sisters boyfriend 1: Warnings: (Cursing and body shaming.)
Pair: Zilla Fatu X Arabella
Plot: Zilla and Lauren have been dating for 3 years and things were great at first until they weren't. Lauren started to become distant, so Zilla hung out with her sister Arabella. He is 21 and she is 17. Zilla and Arabella grew closer much to the dismay of Lauren. Zilla was torn between Lauren and Arabella. Who will he choose and what will happen along the way?
A/N: I was going to put part 2 out tonight but I got carried away with this one at the end so Part 2 will be out tomorrow. Do let me know what you guys think. Thanks for all the love. 🤍❤️
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Lauren and Zilla met 3 years ago and things were magical. They met at a bar in Texas and he was instantly attracted to her not only because of her looks but because of her kind presence and genuineness. She was instantly attracted to him because of his looks and genuine character. They talked and drank for hours until closing time then like the gentlemen he is Zilla walked her to her uber and kissed her goodnight. A month or two later Lauren invited him to her house and he accepted. Zilla walked into the house Lauren took him to the living room pointed to the couch and said.
" Zilla, this is my sister Arabella, Arabella this is my boyfriend Zilla."
Arabella who was reading a book looked up at Zilla smiled and waved. Zilla was at a loss for words. Arabella had the prettiest red hair, glasses that fit her face just right and the most gorgeous smile he'd ever seen. He stood there frozen for a second but quickly came back to his senses and said.
" Hey, I'm Zilla it's nice to meet you."
" likewise." Arabella says as she smiles and looks away shyly.
Lauren grabs Zilla's hand looks at Arabella and says.
" Well, now that you both are acquainted the nerd has work to do."
Arabella looks back down to the book she was reading as Zilla and Lauren walked into the kitchen. She handed him a bottle of water and she said.
" I'm sorry about Arabella she is very nerdy and a little chubby the guys don't normally like to be around her."
Zilla looks at her seriously and says.
" I don't mind she's your family she doesn't bother me. "
" Wow that's a first." Lauren says as she sips her water.
Zilla does not respond because he does not know what to say. He thinks this is just their normal sibling banter but boy was he dead wrong.
It's been two years since that day and Zilla noticed a change in Lauren she became more cold and distant. Like last month she invited Zilla over for lunch and Arabella was there. Everyone sat down to eat they had Chicken, Salad and cheesecake. Arabella ate her chicken and went back for seconds but Lauren said.
" Don't you think you've had enough sis your big enough as it is cut back some."
Zilla watched as Arabella dropped her fork and ran up to her room. He looked at Lauren and said.
" What the hell was that for."
Lauren smirks and says.
" Look, I was just trying to help her she wonders why guys don't go after her she's chubby she needs to cut back."
Zilla shakes his head and starts to walk up the stairs but Lauren says.
" What are you doing she's a BIG girl she'll be okay."
" You're unbelievable." He says as he walks up the stairs to Arabella's room. He knocks on the door and says.
" Hey its Zilla can I come in?"
He waits for a moment then he hears Arabella say softly.
" come in."
Zilla walks in the room to see Arabella curled up on the floor, glasses off and a tear falling down her face. He sits down beside her and says in a soft voice.
" Hey, are you okay you know nothing she said was true right? "
Arabella looks at him and says.
" I'm used to it but she is right no guy wants me they all want her."
Zilla scoots closer to her, gently grabs her hands and says.
" beauty is more than skin deep."
"what do you mean?" Arabella asks.
" Well the way you carry yourself and treat other people make you beautiful not just your appearance." Zilla says as he looks directly into her eyes.
" You mean that?" Arabella asks.
" Yeah, I do from what i have seen so far your a kind, caring and compassionate girl you keep being you, don't listen to your sister because you look amazing." Zilla says smiling.
Arabella smiles and says.
" thank you Zilla I needed to hear that."
" Anytime." Zilla says as he gets up off the floor he heads to the door but stops and turns around. He walks over to her and to her surprise gives her a kiss on the cheek.
She watches as he walks out the door and thinks to herself.
" I cant believe he's even real I wish he could be mine even if it was just for a couple hours."
Zilla walks back downstairs and Lauren confronts him she says.
" did you seriously go comfort her, I'm your girlfriend you should have sided with me?"
Zilla looks angry and says.
" I do not have a fucking clue what happened to you but this is not the girl I started dating you've become so cruel."
Lauren smirks and says.
" I'm not being cruel I'm telling the truth and it hurts she's going to have to get used to it."
" I cannot believe you, I'm leaving." Zilla says as he walks out the door.
" Wow, I guess he's not who I thought he was." Lauren whispers to herself as she calls her side piece.
Since that night Lauren has been pulling away from Zilla, not speaking, texting or going out with him. He knew it was because he defended Arabella and not taken her side but he did not care, his mother always told him to do the right thing and he did so he didn't care about the consequences. He did go over to her house today to try to make Lauren see the light somehow but that turned into an argument with Lauren running out the door. He sat on the couch for a little bit and was about to leave but he heard the door open and saw Arabella walked in. She saw him sitting there and said.
" Oh hey Zilla, I didn't know you were coming over today, are you looking for my sister?"
" No, we just had an argument and she left." Zilla said sadly.
Arabella walks over to him and says.
" Oh, do you want to talk about it?"
" No , but I do want to go dancing." Zilla says looking at her with hopeful eyes.
" I don't dance I would look like an absolute Tran wreck next to you." Arabella says giggling.
Zilla wishes he could freeze this moment in time because God her giggle did something to him it made him feel comfortable, safe and seen.
" You can't be that bad, I'll help you." Zilla says as he gently pulls her up from the couch and puts on a song which so happened to be Arabella's favorite. It was Ed Sheeran thinking out loud. He places his hands on her waist and pulls her closer. Then he guides her hands to his shoulders and they start to sway to the music. Zilla stares at her and thinks.
" God what the hell am I doing, I shouldn't be thinking about her like this, shouldn't wish that I could touch her, hold her, love her."
Arabella notices him staring and her heart starts beating faster. She whispers.
" how did you know this was my favorite song?"
" I pay attention don't you remember whenever your sister would cancel on me we would go bowling or to the movies and talk." Zilla says smiling.
" Yeah, I remember, nobody's ever really paid attention to anything I've had to say ." She says Looking down.
Zilla frowns, pulls her closer and gently guides her head up so she is looking in his eyes. He says.
" everyone else might not care what you have to say but I do."
Arabella looks into his eyes smiles and says.
" thank you for listening like really listening."
Zilla pulls Arabella even closer to her to where their bodies are almost touching. He places his hand on her cheek leans in and says.
" I'll always listen to you Arabella, you're worth listening to."
Arabella swears her heart was going to beat out of her chest. She softly whispers.
" thank you, you don't know how much that means to me."
Zilla places Arabella's hand on his chest and whispers in her ear.
" You mean so much to me, my heart feels like it's going to beat out of my chest whenever I'm around you."
Arabella gasps at his actions and words she grabs his hand and places it on her chest she softly says.
" My heart does the same thing."
Zilla places his forehead on hers and whispers.
" Arabella, you drive me crazy, you have since the day I met you. You are so kind ot everyone but not to yourself, your generous to others but not yourself. I want to do those things for you."
Arabella says.
" I want that too Zilla but my sister she's your girlfriend I dont want to…."
Zilla gently shushes her and says.
" She's not what I want or need you are."
Arabella replies….
to be continued.
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st0neddew-valley · 7 months ago
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feeling chaotic and started a joja run farm
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chick-it-out · 6 days ago
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Have you ever had an egg deposited straight into your hand by one of your hens? Because I just had that happen ten minutes ago and uh, wow I don't think I want to experience that specific sensation again
yes!!!!!
it is. a sensation for sure
egg is wet (fresh and not dry)
egg is Warmer than u (2fresh 2fresh)
she squrrzed it out (help me)
for every typical egg feel... the Opposite
😵
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spaciebabie · 1 year ago
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RGAGRAGRGAGRGAGRGAGRAGRGAGRGARGA RIPS APART MY PILLOWS WITH MY TEETH
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arttsuka · 10 months ago
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I spent way too much time drawing this...
But yeah, Ford finally saying thank you
A continuation (kinda)
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o3o-lapd-o3o · 7 months ago
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DINNER IS (finally) SERVED
3000ish words later and part 8 is here! hope you guys enjoy!
(p.s my headcanons explainations are in the tags if you're curious)
(p.p.s credit also goes to @rin-solo for the first headcanon )
the post/thread that started this whole au
dinner scene: part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7
there's a masterlist now!
*odysseus is making his way to the dining hall, while athena and poseidon are following behind*
poseidon: *looking around at the decorations/tapestry dotted around*
poseidon: *see’s a tapestry of what looks to be a very much younger odysseus in full king & armour attire*
poseidon: *stops walking, and turns to look at the actual odysseus in front of him, then back at the tapestry*
poseidon: *to odysseus with a sardonic tone* do your weavers like making you look like a boy, or was that a decision you made to make yourself look younger?
odysseus: *pauses his walking to see what poseidon is talking about*
athena: *also pauses and turns to poseidon*
odysseus: *sees the tapestry in question*
odysseus: *sighs* of course you point that one out 
athena: *who knew odysseus before he was king*
athena: *glaring at poseidon* uncle, you shouldn’t make assumptions, especially when you don’t know the facts
odysseus: *pats athena on the shoulder as he passes her*
odysseus: it’s fine athena
odysseus: *next to poseidon and looking up at the tapestry* if you must know, that is actually the age i was. 
poseidon: *not believing him* yeah right, you couldn’t be older than fifteen in this
odysseus: *turns to him with a sharp look* you’re correct, i was fifteen
poseidon: *slightly wary of odysseus’ mood* so… you became king at fifteen? isn’t that a little bit young for a mortal to rule a kingdom?
odysseus: *turns back to the tapestry* i was already the king, i was actually crowned when i was thirteen
poseidon: *shocked and confused* why would a child be given a kingdom to run?
odysseus: *looks down with a sad smile, at the memory of his father telling him about him losing his mind, and how sorry he was to place such a huge responsibility on his young son’s shoulders*
odysseus: well, i had no choice, but i would do it again if i had to… 
odysseus: *turns to athena* besides, i had athena to help guide me
athena: *smiles with a nod at odysseus*
odysseus: *starts walking in the direction of the dining hall again* anyway…enough of that, can we please just make our way to the dining hall now
*they all continue making their way down the hall*
poseidon: *notices a stain on the floor tiles not far in front of them*
poseidon: *points* i think your servants missed a spot
athena & odysseus: *both look to where he’s pointing*
athena: *chuckles to herself in knowing*
odysseus: *smirks* 
poseidon: *sees both their expressions, and is confused* 
odysseus: oh that..oh don’t worry it’s clean
odysseus: *shrugs* it’s just so hard to get bloodstains out of white titles
poseidon: *wide eyed* blood?
odysseus: yeah.. not long after i finished with you, i arrived back on my island to find my palace overrun with 108…mutts… all vying for my wife’s hand. 
odysseus: *waving his hand like it was a simple issue* so i made sure to deal with them all myself… unfortunately one of them left a stain.
odysseus: -oh look we’ve made it
odysseus: hope we haven’t kept them too long
poseidon: *shocked at all the new odysseus lore he’s unlocked*
athena: *laughing at poseidon’s expression*
odysseus: *opening the door* come on let’s head in
poseidon: *shakes away the shock*
odysseus: *to poseidon* i guess it’s time to introduce you to my wife
*they all walk through the doorway into the dining hall*
*there penelope and telemachus both stand not too far from the dining table; which has quite the feast laid out, and from the steam coming off of it, it had not long be put there*
odysseus: *heads over to his son & wife*
odysseus: *looks at poseidon* poseidon, you’ve met my son telemachus before.
telemachus: *can barely keep in his excitement* 
telemachus: hi- i mean good evening lord poseidon, i’m so happ- grateful you accepted my father's invitation for dinner. 
telemachus: *puts his arm on his chest, and leans forward in a  bow of respect* i hope you enjoy the evening.
odysseus: *narrows his eyes at poseidon, silently threatening him to not be rude to his son*
telemachus: *looks back up at poseidon, smile on his face*
poseidon: *quickly nods his head in greeting to telemachus* good evening prince, your father tells me that this was all your idea 
telemachus: *raises a hand to nervously scratch under his chin* um… yes i guess it was
poseidon: well then, thank you for the idea to invite me.
telemachus: *hand leaves his chin and a big smile breaks out* well of course! you are my father’s friend after all!
poseidon: *eye twitches before he quickly composes himself* 
poseidon: yes… friend.
odysseus: *coughs* yes and now that you’ve both reacquainted yourselves again… telemachus why don’t you go speak with athena for a moment
telemachus: sure!
*telemachus makes his way to athena, and they start talking amongst themselves*
odysseus: *puts his arm around penelope’s waist* now, please let me introduce you to my wife; the queen of ithaca, penelope. 
penelope: *doesn’t bow like telemachus, but nods in greeting* welcome to our palace lord poseidon
poseidon: *nods back* thank you for having me queen penelope
penelope: *smiles but her eyes have a certain glint to them* 
penelope: my husband has told me all about your part in his journey home to us
poseidon: *totally not panicking a little* uh-
penelope: *glint leaves her eyes, but her smile remains*
penelope: -and also how you have helped out on his and my son’s fishing trips lately.
penelope: of course, i would also like thank you for taking the time to attend tonight
poseidon: sure… no problem?
odysseus: great, everyone has met everyone! 
odysseus: *to everyone* now, shall we sit down and eat the lovely feast the cooks have made us, before it gets cold?
odysseus: *moves to pull out one of the chairs at the head of the table for penelope as he normally does, when he notices that, there is only one chair instead of two*
odysseus: *looks up at the table and sees a piece of parchment with ‘mother’ written on it* 
odysseus: huh?
telemachus: *makes his way over to his father* oh! there’s a different than usual seating plan for tonight! i’ve put everyone's names where they should sit.
odysseus: *smiles at telemachus* oh ok, sure!
odysseus: well, i guess i should look for mine then, hey?
telemachus: yes, and please everyone else too!
*everyone makes their way to the table to see where they’re sitting (even though three of them already know)*
odysseus: *sees the parchment with ‘father’ on it* 
odysseus: *expecting to have either athena or telemachus next to him*
odysseus: *watches as athena stands in front of the seat opposite him*
odysseus: *thinks it’s weird to put athena & poseidon together, but thinks telemachus has done is as they are uncle & niece*
odysseus: *then sees telemachus stood in front of the seat next to athena*
odysseus: wait-
poseidon: *sees his name and heads towards it, only to look up and see odysseus standing in front of the seat next to him*
poseidon: wait-
poseidon & odysseus: *both look at each other in horror that they're stuck next to each other all evening*
telemachus: *not noticing the looks of doom on their faces* isn’t this great? it’s a family dinner, so what better than friends sitting together? 
telemachus: *turning to penelope* sorry you’re by yourself at the head of the table though mother
penelope: *smiles and waves her hand* i don’t mind
penelope: anyway, let's sit and eat!
*everyone but odysseus and poseidon sit down. both who have a death grip on the back of their seats*
penelope: *clears her throat* odysseus, lord poseidon… would you both please sit down.
odysseus: *snaps out of his staring at poseidon* 
odysseus: uh sure…
odysseus: *sits down and look back to poseidon, nodding his head at poseidon’s seat in the motion for him to also sit down*
poseidon: *still doesn’t sit*
odysseus: *a millisecond of a flash of red eyes* 
poseidon: *sits*
odysseus: *internally to himself* oh this is gonna be a long evening
odysseus: *to everyone* ok, everyone dig in!
odysseus: *to poseidon* can you get what you want for yourself, mighty sea god? or do you need a mortal’s help?
poseidon: *grabbing a lamb chop off a platter and tearing into it savagely in defiance*
odysseus: *rolls his eyes at poseidon, but goes to place a filet of fish on his plate*
*everyone has been eating and talking*
poseidon: *looks at penelope (who is talking to telemachus & athena) and then looks at odysseus*
poseidon: *thinking and then looks back to penelope*
odysseus: *to poseidon* is there a reason you keep looking at my wife?
poseidon: *jumps at little at being caught looking* 
poseidon: *turns to odysseus* oh do not worry yourself, i have no interest in your wife
odysseus: *unimpressed* why do you keep looking at her then?
poseidon: im..curious 
odysseus: *narrowing his eyes* about?
poseidon: normally you mortal men choose women younger than them for their wives… yet clearly your wife is; from my estimates… about a decade older than you
poseidon: *now with his hand under his chin, leaning on the table* 
poseidon: do you perhaps…prefer older women odysseus?
odysseus: *hands tighten in grip around his cutlery*
poseidon: *notices odysseus hasn’t responded yet*
poseidon: i’m right aren’t -
odysseus: no.
odysseus: *his eyes may not be red, but are clearly full of anger*
poseidon: *eyes widen in worry* whoa whoa! no need to get angry, it’s just a simple observation…. anyone if they pay attention can see the age difference
poseidon: *moves his hand to flick his hair back over his shoulder* it’s not a bad thing
odysseus: *takes a breath in to calm down and then slowly releases it*
odysseus: we are- were the same age… physically at least
poseidon: *confused* i don’t follow
odysseus: *looks at poseidon* during the 10 years it took for me to get home… i found myself stuck on a goddess’ island for 7 of them…
poseidon: ok…
odysseus: *closes his eyes* caly- the goddess had full control over everything on the island… her magic influenced everything… including a mortal's ability to age.
poseidon: so you didn’t-
odysseus: -age? yeah
odysseus: *sighs and opens his eyes* when i realised i wasn’t… i- i- 
odysseus: lets just say i didn’t handle it well
poseidon: *blinks at this new information* oh
odysseus: yep ‘oh’ indeed… 
odysseus: *looks back at poseidon*
odysseus: didn’t you think it was odd that i looked exactly the same when we met again, almost 10 years after our first meeting?
poseidon: in my defence… i was angry and trying to kill you, i wasn’t really paying attention to how you looked
odysseus: *rolls his eyes* i guess that's true
telemachus: uh lord poseidon? may i ask you a question?
poseidon: *happy to not continue his conversation with odysseus*
poseidon: *to telemachus* ask away prince of ithaca
telemachus: is it true that you gave achilles his horses balius & xanthus?
poseidon: *amazed at telemachus’ knowledge* 
poseidon: not directly… but yes i am the reason he came to acquire them. you see i gave them to his father peleus, as a wedding gift for his wife thetis…
*poseidon continues to tell the tale, and odysseus speaks with athena and penelope while more time passes*
*the meal is continuing smoothly as can be*
poseidon: *notices that odysseus has only been eating the fish. not touching a single bit of pork, beef or lamb that's also on the table* 
poseidon: *who has continuously eaten all meats available*
poseidon: *to odysseus* is there something i should know about the meat?
odysseus: huh?
poseidon: *points at the selection of meat in question* what's wrong with the meat? you’ve only touched the fish.
poseidon: if i hadn’t seen the others eat it, i’d worry you’d asked your cooks to poison it or something. 
odysseus: *raised eyebrow* poison won’t hurt you though? 
odysseus: *pointing a fork at him* also, why do you care about my eating habits?
poseidon: *frowning at the fork* i don’t, i’m just-
odysseus: curious? poseidon, i thought you were the god of the sea, not curiosity…
poseidon: *huffs* forget it-
odysseus: i can’t
poseidon: *now his eyebrow is raised* you…can’t?
odysseus: *now using the fork to push the food on his plate around* i can’t stomach eating lamb, pork or beef anymore
poseidon: *forever confused by odysseus* uh why?
odysseus: *gives poseidon a ‘do i really have to explain everything?’ look*
poseidon: *just stares*
odysseus: *once again sighing because of poseidon* well i thought you’d understand lamb… after the whole sheep incident with… your son.
odysseus: then after i escaped you with the wind bag-
poseidon: *rolls his eyes at the memory*
odysseus: we wound up on the sorceress circe’s island… where she turned my men to pigs. 
odysseus: i managed to convince her to turn them back, but it now feels weird to eat pork
odysseus: as for beef, short story is my men ignored my warnings and killed the sacred cattle of the sun god… so yeah beef is a no go for me also. 
poseidon: *wondering how one mortal managed to interact with so many gods on a journey to get home*
poseidon: *laughs at odysseus* and you’re letting that affect your eating habits? i expected you to be stronger than that odysseus
odysseus: *narrows his eyes at poseidon* oh just like how you let my handling of your trident, affect you into doing as i say?
poseidon: *now glaring back* 
poseidon: *turns away from odysseus* whatever, more meat for me
*dinner continues, with telemachus asking poseidon more questions. poseidon loving the interest in him and telelmachus’ knowledge, answers the all the questions with surprising enthusiasm*
*eventually what was once a giant feast of food has nearly been cleared from the table, thanks to having two gods eating most of it*
telemachus: have you enjoyed yourself so far lord poseidon? 
telemachus: *smiling* it’s been really fascinating and fun to learn so much more about you
poseidon: *almost letting a small smile appear on his face in return*
poseidon: *instead just nods* yes, it certainly has been an interesting & knowledgeable evening
telemachus: what about the seating, was it a good idea to put you with my father?
poseidon: *wants to answer no, but feels a kick from under the table. clearly from odysseus*
poseidon: yes, you came up with an ok-
odysseus: *gives another kick* 
poseidon: -great idea
telemachus: *laughs in happiness* 
telemachus: oh but i can’t take all the credit
odysseus: *raises an eyebrow in curiosity* 
athena: *who is sipping wine next to him*
athena: *slightly chokes* wai-
odysseus: *suspicious* son, you must make sure to tell us who else to thank for this
telemachus: *not understanding the bombshell he’s about to drop* oh athena actually came up with the idea!
athena: *suddenly nervous with the two very intense stares directed at her*
athena: w-well it was just a suggestion really…
telemachus: no ‘thena! remember you said as it’s a family dinner, friends should sit with friends!
odysseus: *to athena with the fakest smile* oh athena, how considerate!
penelope: *who has been quiet this whole exchange*
telemachus: *as if he hasn’t already unknowingly thrown one person to the wolves* but i of course had to run it by mother first, as she was helping me with all the planning!
penelope: *eyes have totally not widened*
telemachus: she said it was a great idea!
odysseus: *now to penelope* oh my dear wife, a great idea eh?
poseidon: *just chugs back his cup of wine at the revelations*
*after a awkward moment (at least for 4 of them) they continue on finishing the meal*
*eventually the food is finished and the dinner has come to an end, everyone has moved away from the dinner table and are now sitting on cushion chairs or standing around them talking amongst themselves*
poseidon: *looking out the window seeing just how dark the night sky now is* 
poseidon: well this has been a lovely evening, but it is getting late and i have been away from the sea for as long as i can.
poseidon: *turning to penelope and nodding his head in actual respect* queen penelope, thank you for your hosting
poseidon: *without nodding at them* athena, odysseus… good night.
*before poseidon can turn to bid telemachus good night, the prince runs out the room*
telemachus: *yelling before he leaves the room* please lord poseidon, wait a moment! i forgot something!
poseidon: *turns to look at odysseus in confusion* 
odysseus: *just shrugs also confused* 
poseidon: *turns back to the door, telemachus long gone* uh sure.
*not long later telemachus runs back into the room dishevelled but holding something in his hand*
telemachus: *walks up to poseidon* 
telemachus: *bows and holds out something covered in a silk cloth to him*
poseidon: uh-
telemachus: it’s a gift! i’m not expecting anything in return, and i’m sure you have better things… but i saw it and thought you’d like it
poseidon: *blinks, but takes the gift from telemachus’ hands*
poseidon: *carefully unties the silk cloth*
poseidon: *breathes in sharply*
telemachus: *not sure if that's a good or bad reaction* uh if you don’t like it that's fin-
poseidon: *holds his hand to stop telemachus* 
poseidon: prince of ithac-
telemachus: telemachus- sorry for interrupting. please my lord, call me telemachus
poseidon: …telemachus. thank you, this is a very thoughtful gift. 
poseidon: i will cherish it.
penelope & odysseus: *curious over what's got the god of the seas ‘cherishing’ something*
athena: *small smile as she knows*
*penelope & odysseus move closer to poseidon who is still staring down at his gift. once close enough they can see in his hand is a a handcrafted glass/crystal hippocampus*
*poseidon ended up wrapping it back in the silk cloth, and placing it in his chiton. He then thanked telemachus again and bid him good night & farewell. odysseus offered to walk back to the cove with him, but poseidon waved him off and told him to stay with his family*
#poseidon: *returned home back to his palace*#poseidon: *once again looking at the gift this time with a small smile on his face*#amphitrite: *looking at poseidon* whatcha got there?#poseidon: *stuffs telemachus’ gift into his chiton* uh… uh…MOLY?!#amphitrite: *raised eyebrow* the king of ithaca… odysseus gave you…moly?#poseidon: this isn't from odysse- *cough* i mean; no… he didn't#poseidon: it's from his son.#amphitrite: *now both eyebrows raised in disbelief* the prince gave you moly?#poseidon: *panicking as he's the god of the seas not of lies*#poseidon: well they're descended from hermes… he practically hands out this stuff as you know…#amphitrite: uh huh... what ever you say husband#okay headcanon 1 - calypso said 'under my spell we're stuck in paradise' & to me this made me think well if she controls everything#then surely a goddess' magic can have other consequences like stopping a mortal aging. or extremely slowly aging.#once poor odysseus realises he wasn't getting older but his son and wife would be...he broke fearing he'd outlive them#calypso obvs doesn't also want the love of her life getting old/dying on her too#also credit to @rin-solo for this head canon too!#headcanon 2 - it actually happened while i was eating a burger. i thought man i'd struggle to eat any meat after all what ody went through#and so thats how that came to be! i believe he will eat goat/rabbit/chicken etc. but fish is easier with y'know ithaca being a island#so telemachus' gift has been revealed! i thought a hippocampus would be better that just a sea creature or horse. why not both?#also there will be a part 9...ody's revenge/punishment for athena and penelope's seating plan#but i need a small break after this monstrosity#odysseus epic#poseidon epic#telemachus epic#penelope epic the musical#epic the musical#epic: the musical#friends in higher places au?#nonsense thoughts
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maishi-kibby · 7 months ago
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hi jeremey nation,, im cold so he is too
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trashhicon · 2 years ago
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Yet another starbee dump (and some sad memes I made)
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My friends called this “schröingers kiss”. Maybe I’ll paint it later (or not)
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Made this one while listening to “the land is inhospitable and so are we”. Heaven is such a good track, mitski is such a great artist.
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This one’s a meme lol
I don’t really like this next one but I spent way too long on it so it goes in the dump
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It’s also a meme lol
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Here’s more memes I made since I am the funniest ever/j
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