#like. its disordered and here are the ways its disordered
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its crazy to have been working in food here so long and specifically having been a food cashier a lot and watching couple after couple come up and the man orders a normal amount of food and the woman orders like Nothing. i think at least two of my woman coworkers at the bakery have eating disorders. i had a group of four older women come in and order a single (1) tiny pastry to split between all of them because they were being "bad". today a lady tipped me $3 and said "it's because i have to pay off all these sins somehow!", gesturing at her Two savory pastries. one of my coworkers who definitely has an eating disorder and has been talking about how she can't stop losing weight and her doctor is worried told me that a protein bar with 190 calories was "oh, WAY too many. nuh uh," and looked at me sideways. girl you are literally sloughing off the bone. everybody's so excited about ozempic. sitting at the dinner table with lavender's baby sisters listening to them talk about how they ate one burrito and they're gonna get fatttttt. i drive past 14 fat removal plastic surgery billboards a day. none of these women are ok nobody wants flesh nobody wants to eat everybody wants to be bloodless and pale and sharp and gleaming and it's so weird and scary
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i hate "alterhumans", "otherkin", kinners and select self shippers
i am tired of seeing people with no logical thinking skills on toyhouse parading that they're different when they're in fact just illogical
sure you can say you relate to a character, i'll even say i can relate to some, but you are not that character yourself and you are not dating another fictional character
i dont even understand why that bullshit is normalized
its a fictional character, they are not in love with you, they dont even exist, this is not a possible thing that can happen
you are not "literally" spongebob, you are not dating courage the cowardly dog, you are not A dog, you are not a horse, etc etc
and no i dont care if you're attracted to a fictional man on a dating game. hell yeah i am too, there are some characters that are just "hot" or "cute" to me. My tolerance stops when you're genuinely convinced they're real and they love you. i promise you you're not married to goku and he'd be more likely to kill you than even give you a friendly "hi"
this is not a type of mental issue or mental illness that should be or needs to be something you're proud of/dont do anything about, like an identity disorder. Be proud of yourself for having it harder and still thriving. But we are not doing this. WE are NOT normalizing people that do this. This needs therapy. Intensive therapy.
And you know what? age/pet regressors are catching strays here too. Forget the "its mostly pedos anyway" argument, you cant regress in age. You get older, and you'll never get younger. Cope with it. Blow bubbles and play in a field but in no way are you actually a 12 year old in a 45 year old mans body. And no, you cannot regress into a baby dog/cat either. What the fuck even? bro.
Jobs bro, jobs.
Ragebait used to be believable.
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i dont think they do, this whole paper is actually kind of fascinatingly bad and i was in the process of reading through it to see if the authors ever justify a bunch of their upfront demands, when i got to the passage about Mme. de Dampier and thought it was funny enough to post because of the pig anecdote.
so the paper was written in 2005,
but as someone who was not a kid already in 2005 i can tell you that the paper would have been considered medically regressive by most people even at the time. their thesis is that Tourette's, ADHD, ADD, dyslexia, dyspraxia, OCD and maybe one other im forgetting (i'll go back and take another look at the paper later but im not sure it's going to be interesting or useful so i might not) are so comorbid with each other (they claim 95% of their sample of 100 patients at a specialty clinic had 2 or more of these diagnoses and almost none of them had just one) that all of the diagnoses should be "downgraded [from discrete diagnoses] to symptoms of syndromes of developmental delay", and those are the words they use.
now i can tell you having been diagnosed with ADD prior to 2005 and having read the books about ADD (as it used to be called, ADHD was considered a subtype) that were written in the actual 90s, ADD was not considered by most researchers or prevailing public opinion to be a "delayed development disorder" in the way they mean it here, and OCD certainly wasn't. i wasnt diagnosed with the others but im pretty sure almost no one thought that about them either. we were already into the "kids with ADD are often'smarter'than everyone else despite symptoms of inattention and hyperactivity" territory by then, i never met any pediatrician or psychiatrist when i was a kid who didnt already think ADHD was the "troubled underachieving smart kid" disease. the medical mystery at the time was why these kids who were so obviously performing brilliantly a lot of the time, and testing way "smarter" than everyone else in IQ (i know IQ is bullshit) and a lot of other measures, were making terrible grades, failing out of school, had substance use disorders and higher rates of delinquency etc. im sure those doctors existed but it wasnt the mainstream concept at all, in my experience.
so i just stumbled on this paper by accident while looking for something else and spotted the same thing you did, which is that these guys are framing this whole list of disorders as 1. not separate disorders and 2. part of a general syndrome of "retardation' basically, although even at that decade people thought that word was not medically acceptable. but retarded is what they mean
anyway i havent finished reading the paper and i might not, but its called Comorbidity of dyslexia, dyspraxia, attention deficit disorder (ADD), attention deficit hyperactive disorder (ADHD), obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) and Tourette’s syndrome in children: A prospective epidemiological study and i th ohhhhh i just figured out the problem. this thing was published in a "medical journal" called "Clinical Chiropractic". see this is why we're always telling you never to go to a chiropractor. those bitches are out of their minds
so yeah they very much did mean it how it sounds! and i was reading to see if they ever have an argument as to why that is. because even to most laymen, generally these disorders have not looked like a "developmental delay", they look like someone is of normal or usually above-average "intelligence" and usually ahead of their childhood developmental milestones, and then mysteriously ALSO either just having a weird tic problem, mysterious trouble reading, inattentive traits, odd compulsions, etc. sure the other kids and the stupider adults called you a 'retard" a lot if you had any of these symptoms of any of these diagnoses, but they werent being considered or treated as such clinically in a widespread way. in my experience anyway. there are always some bad doctors around but mostly the bad doctors would tell you ADHD was fake and you were obviously smart you were just lazy and you just needed to try harder etc, not that you had a developmental disability. that wasnt really on the table in mainstream practice.
so in conclusion fuck chiropractors, never go to a chiropractor for any reason (idk what chiropractors in general think about these disorders i am just adding this to the pile of evidence against them because they do plenty of other damage)
#chiropracty#and also the whole thing is written in a really flowery and weird way#the marquise was ticcing by yelling “pigfucker” and idk why they would be cute about it in the paper#theres no rule in peer reviewed journals that you cant quote cusswords#so this writing choice was either ironic or pure squeamishness#very odd#“cochon (pig)” is the “keikaku means plan” of chiropractic research journals i guess
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its crazy that people think having multiple personality disorders makes you more dangerous or fucked up bc like, the more abuse and trauma you suffer as a child, the more symptoms of PDs you will check off bc your behavior becomes so disordered in order to survive. having more than one PD (having several PDs) is common among childhood abuse survivors. PD comorbidity is crazy high and, ultimately, PDs are a way of categorizing symptoms for diagnostics and treatment.
it has nothing to do with your character, your worth as a human being, and your ability to heal. you adapted to survive your abuse. you can adapt to survive life after it.
#blue talks#signed someone with 4 of them#and this is another use for PDNOS ive heard of ppl who qualify for 5 or 6 who use this to make it simpler#like. its disordered and here are the ways its disordered#i think in some ways i do agree with the ICD going the PD - x subtype route#not a huge difference categorically but it does put less pressure on ppl for having multiple PD diagnoses#bpd#avpd#ocpd#ppd#just tagging what i actually have. actually idk if tags after the first 5 count now or not
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these are, he says, the kind of test results we see after a car crash.
#(knocks back a glass of coke like its a shot) i think i developed a personality disorder. anyway -#my art#comics#i have complicated feelings about the interconnection of my mental and physical health#but i am only sharing the parts i feel comfortable with sharing on my own terms. dont ask.#in the politest way. most people reading this simply do not know me enough to know any more than that#so interpret the art as you wish.#image id is in the alt text its always there if you call it undescribed im counting it as a microaggression because im the blind bitch here
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Your silent protagonist doesn't have to use sign language btw. They don't have to write things down, either. They don't have to use language at all. Not every single person who doesn't talk can use words the same as you, or use them at all, so your favorite silent character shouldn't have to use what you consider a grammatical language to communicate in your fanart and fics. AAC exists. Drawing exists. Gestures and body language exist. Btw.
#i said ''your silent protagonist'' bc i feel like that'd hit close with the most people but i truly mean anyone that doesn't talk#ive seen it happen SO MANY TIMES its like ''this character never uses oral words'' and every post about them ignores it or uses sign#or they already have their own language or their language difficulties have been addressed and it STILL HAPPENS. like cassandra cain#who's like me.#inumaki toge#link#link loz#loz#legend of zelda#trainer red#champion red#red pokemon#HES MY FAVORITE HIS SPEECH ARC RESEMBLES MINE SO CLOSELY#pokemon rgby#pokemon hgss#ik sun/moon and usum are there too. so many tags#controversial one here probably but#chell#portal#cass cain#cassandra cain#batgirl#batman#fandom ableism#:)))))))))))#NOT AN EXAMPLE BC IT'S LITERALLY THE COMICS WHO MADE HIM THIS WAY BUT#JONO STARSMORE#language disorder#bi rambles#ive seen exactly one fic where red has an LD. my lifeblood. also shoutout peaks and valleys for his writing difficulties. ask me abt red pls
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endos are systems.
you are cool. YOU. ARE. A. SYSTEM.
#endo safe <3
#“can we also talk about the fact that people with safe & healthy households WANT TRAUMA?” yeah actually lets talk about that#because the people who “want trauma” *are* actually traumatized! but (like with many cases of trauma) they dont remember it.#what they *want* is an explanation. a reason for why theyre like this.#anyone who has had an undiagnosed disorder knows the feeling of thinking you're just broken. and wanting nothing more than an explanation.#this is also why some people find themselves in the radqueer community. i know this isnt something i talk about much but its relevant here.#you feel like you should have trauma but you dont have any? thats okay! there a term for that! you're not broken! you're not alone!#theres an welcoming community of people just like you! where you can be accepted for who you are! no matter what!#“people from safe and healthy households want trauma” no we dont. we want an explanation.#i hate talking about radqueers but i used to id as transharmed in many ways and ended up actually being traumatized‚#i feel like its important to include that angle.#lol.exe#blackout poetry#pro endo#endo safe#endo friendly#jesus christ i talk too much
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yes im specifically targeting people WITH and WITHOUT my specific disorders, because I've always been curious about this.
SPD: sensory processing disorder
ASD: autism spectrum disorder
to my fellow carbonation-dislikers, do you dislike it because:
#autism#sensory processing disorder#and well everyone else both neurodivergent (but without autism. pls dont include yourself if youre not autistic. thats the point lol)#ive seen ppl lumping everything in as the same thing like adhd like wait no. we're both nd but in different ways. please.. research..#one time someone tried lumping themselves in bc they had depression. i was like excuse me#anyway i hate when people sneer at the juice that i drink like “yknow thats worse than soda right”#thats not why im fucking drinking iiiIIIIIIIITTTT#jennilargh#polls#i fucking LOVE you montreal. iced tea is so fucking common here nobody stares at you when you order it#back at home i cannot guarantee restaurants will have a non-soda option im always like “what juice do you have”#and people treat you like a 5 year old when you get an apple juice#like fuck you? its yummy?
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rewatching a dr2 lp and i honestly never noticed how much hajime dissociates. i almost wanna make a masterpost
#heres how osdd/dpdr hajime can win#not even mentioning kamukura#its hard because a lot of it is pretty understandable re: simulation and killing school trip and grief#so its not necessarilyyyy dissociative disorder#that said holy fuck he dissociates a Lot in very many different ways#king!!#hes just like me forreal he always has been#kostik speaks#literally just give him voices and lapses of personality and hes a textbook did#(i love fanon that gives him voices and personality lapses)#the hajime that exists in my head who has the most insane osdd known to man vs canon hajime who also has osdd but its a little more stifled#its ok what is fanon if not taking the groundwork and pushing it to its full potential
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If i re wrote red hood outlaws + arsenal n red would you want to see snippets of that or would you roast me on a pike?
#btw it would be a lot more roy and kori run this show jason is literally only here because they wont let him leave#dc fandom dont roast me on a pike for wishing outlaws was good omg they had so much potential together#mfs out here acting like you can own a person#bro people got so mad at me for liking jayroy but fucking come on#outlaws sucks?? okay so does every comic released by fucking scott#outlaws does not suck in any special way I CAN TELL YOU THAT BECAUSE I ACTUALLY READ IT INSTEAD OF BLINDLY REGURGITATING WHAT I SEE ONLINE#AND YES BEFORE YOU ASK IT WAS HELL AND IT SUCKED BUT WE OUT HERE ACTING LIKE ITS WAY WORSE THAN IT ACTUALLY IS#We have runs out here that ruin litteral decades of characters building making characters do the craziest shit#outlaws was so fucking weird about koris ch like if you wanna make a smart comment make it about that#roys main problem was that um they okay yeah they ruined his character by removing a crucial part of his identity (lian) so we where doomed#but if we isolate just his characterisation the main problem was how selfish and money driven roy was#that has never been bro he only did contract work so he could give lian a stable life..#ALSO FUCK ANYONE WHO SAYS IM NOT A ROY FAN FOR MOURNING LOST POTENTIAL#OMGOD I AM NOT A JASON STAN ABOVE ROY I JUST DONT HAVE A WEIRD FACINATION WITH HATING ON MENTALLY IL PEOPLE#seriusly its fucking weird how many people spesifically hate jason when he’s clearly got a fucking mood disorder#yall need to fucking chill w how you view mentally il people.#fucking @ me if you want to debate me#dc comics#jason todd#roy harper#koriand'r#kori anders#red hood and the outlaws#starfire#red hood#arsenal
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the problem with my n24 is that with the clock going around gradually i have periods of being awake at day and periods of being awake at night, but then because i tend to sleep really badly during night time i spend my daytime days being very tired and sluggish, and my nighttime days are much more productive and energetic. but i cant do just anything i want at night, so i cant get as much done as i have the energy and drive to. and then i also need sunlight to feel sane in the head, and so i hate missing out on daytime wakefulness. but then the sun is also why my sleep quality is much better during daytime. if im gonna stuck with a seemingly incurable sleep disorder since birth cant i at LEAST have the sleep be overall consistent? apparently not lmao
#i am multiply disabled but like. this thing? this thing right here? is THE greatest curse of my life#literally doesnt matter what other accommodations there are with the sleep disorder there#its one of those things i hate talking about normally cause its been THE major factor of shame throughout my life#cause god people assume you havent tried everything there is!!! and that youre not trying!!! or that its caused by bad habits!!!#and like because i tried to live normally despite it i suffered so much insomnia that im physically unable to force it anymore#burnt out and burnt to a crisp etc. the moment my sleep isnt catered to these days my whole body gets fucked up in new innovative ways#GOD I FEEL LIKE ALL I DO IS COMPLAINING but its just. hrghhhh!!!!#everytime it goes back to daytime i start fighting to keep it going for as long as possible#but my body doesnt wanna cooperate so i go to bed later and later#no matter how hard i fight to get up the same time everyday#so every night i sleep a shorter and shorter amount of time until it turns to insomnia. and then i crash.#this is basically why id stay awake for DAYS in a row growing up because i didnt trust myself to wake up for school lol#and thats ALSO why i developed the ability to converse in my sleep to sneak in sleep whenever i could without people yelling at me#which isnt good if you accidentally end up making plans with your mom you have no idea about until she calls asking where you are<3 LMAO#god im just frustrated cause my sleep schedule is beginning to turn back now. first noticeable delay today and by the end of this week...#itll likely turn back to night time. urghhhhhhhh. timezones all fine and dandy but im not reliably available to anyone lol#silvi talks#OR WHINES AS ALWAYS. time to paint my nails and then maybe screens
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Telling non-introject alters about characters from your source can be SO funny when you realize theyre Bascially The Same Person
#my art#doodles#cm.txt#r.txt#i... usually tag plural stuff with 'dissociation tw' but theres really no dissociation happening here so...?#uhhhh just send an ask if you need it tagged with this because boy howdy does this dissoc like to disorder#the funniest thing is roy came around YEARS before we got into megaman so like theres no way he formed with anything to do with metalman#BUT THEYRE SO SIMILAR ITS HILARIOUS#plurality#pluralgang#fictive#wow scatter has a cutman fictive who couldve seen this one coming /s
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apothecary's log, march 9th, 2025: duloxetine for treating whatever the fuck is going on with me: 1/10 rating. still feel like im being fried to death at night.
#“somatic symptom disorder” my ass#havent been talking about my health here cause its been a train wreck#general pain has lessened or gone but the spikes of pain that make their way through are sudden and horrible#it has to be lhermitte's sign because i cannot help myself but curl up into a ball at night and it backfires#theyre calling me crazy lol#if they up this dosage or shift plans horizontally im going to be pissed off#all they want to do is treat my schizophrenia when that has never been my addressed issue in the first place#“you have to accept this” ok well i tried and now you have to accept you're wrong#schizophrenia or not- somatic symptoms or not- these things dont make me immune to becoming sick or injured. why wont they test me??#and its not psychosomatic when this shit has steadily progressed for the past 3-4 years#its not psychosomatic when i check off boxes i didnt even know were relevant#its not psychosomatic when all of this started during the most stress-free year of my life#im going to die before they listen to me huh? wow what a mystery#im so mad. it cant keep going like this
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#before anything else i must warn this is going to be. unorganized thoughts mostly#in the last year or so ive tried to regain confidence that i am in fact plural and am not just faking it#or mistaking other symptoms for DID. shake off the denial y'know. as is so signature for this damn disorder#a diagnosis probably wouldnt even make me feel more sure lol. and also getting diagnosed for this specifically is like#the final boss of psychiatry to put it lightly lol#but when it quiets down in headspace ur always gonna feel like. maybe its over. whatever that was#it was just me and brandy for a while#but guess who had a godawful night and then a godawful morning and split a new alter ‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥#he hates it here! he might hate me for creating him! im not sure !#hell im not even rly sure if im juno or brandy rn lol. my mind is just so messy today#i woke up.. when did i wake up. like 9:30 i think and its 1pm now and i haven't gotten out of bed#i don't even remember all that time passing . i couldve sworn its only been like an hour. two at most#on the one hand this has all been kinda terrible and mentally exhausting but at the same time. hey cant say im faking now LMAO#the other hand is brandy. the other hand is absolutely brandy. i am tired lol#im only posting this here so i can just like. process it i guess#ive had a weird time finding an outlet to just spew random thoughts into since leaving twitter so. sorry#idk if anyone's expecting this of me but i always kinda feel like i need some level of professionalism on this account#keyword some. i know this is tumblr#but idk if these very open posts are. annoying? weird? uncomfortable? entertaining somehow?#i know I know theres no point in worrying abt how others percieve you . knowing that hasnt stopped me from doing it lol#i dont remember where i was going w this. maybe i didnt have a goal in the first place#idk if you read this far i dont rly need u to act like u didnt see it cuz like. wouldnt have posted it otherwise#but idk why i am posting. idk what i want out of anyone who has read all this#maybe just. interact w this post in some way idk. it's actually kinda grounding for me if you can believe it#bleghh im thinkin of cheating on my weed break just to treat myself after all this. weed + a long walk would fix me
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OK HERES ANOTHER ONE FOR YA:;
MARTYN / MRATYN NIBBLEWOOD FROM RATSSMP!!
This is largely just a hc that I have, but he has different "personas" he'll put on, changing and making whole different skins and mostly just NOT explaining it to make sense in-universe. He has his Santa Claus persona, which. is Santa Claus- and a Hatsune Miku persona called Ratsune Miku! While the Santa one can largely be explained away as him "dressing up for the holidays and trying to spread cheer", this one is NOT explained. They all act like she's a separate person from him completely and never allude to the fact that they might be the same person. Martyn himself even uses she/her pronouns for Ratsune Miku! (She has A WHOLE SONG. ITS AMAZING. She sings it WITH Santa Claus but of course we NEVER see them in the same room bc they DEFINITELY ARENT plural or anything) He has smaller little personas, but none are as major as these two :)).
-🌀sys (jeremy)
!!

Rating: that sounds pretty plural to me !
#i will say tho#do be careful with mcyters in here#bc we dont dare claim a real person behind the sonas has any disorder#but this one seems alright to point plurality out bc it looks a lot like its the person creating a character(or more characters) that happe#to be plural-coded in a way#but there is a thin line here and we dont dare cross it#didosdd#did#osdd#osdd system#endos dni#anti endo#plural#plurality#plural system#did system#actually dissociative#complex dissociative disorder#dissociative identity disorder#🌀 sys anon
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doing a lot of research into cluster b personality disorders and npd has kind of described everything i've been experiencing for years and it. answers. so many questions . a bit scared of trying to get a professional opinion (for obvious reasons) does anyone have any good resources I could look into?
#miko talkz#this lowkey bc i was like haha i kin inspekta haha inspekta npd haha Oh fuck#BTW THIS ISNT LIKE AN OUT OF NOWHERE THING ive been contemplating some cluster b personality disorder for like#years now but its always always always hard to find resources#funnily enough having a little fit and looking up goro akechi npd lead me to find a lot of resources BY npd people#but id like to look into it more ....#inspekta npd is so real. and relatable in ways i didnt even put together#inspekta first kin tho that was treated with kindness and was allowed to come back down and make up for his mistakes#compared to every other kin which just made me feel like a monster HAHAHAH#''its your fault for kinning antagonists'' yeah well. what if their motivations and inner workings were the only portrayals i could connect#with#made me feel like a monster and evil for like. years. so i felt like i had to reclaim a lot of them. you grow older and you can approach it#with more nuance but its still really frustrating when your symptoms and the more extreme symptoms only ever show up in villains#anyway. enough rambling abt that. its turbulent up here
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