#lore crumbs 🍰

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In another universe, the fight is a bit different.

Reblogs are appreciated!!! 🍰💖

Credits to my twin @hoshi-tsubasa for helping with the class swapping! Gonna make a blurb list on some things about the AU ;P (also I'm developing this as I go so new stuff might be added later!)

Gray Mann's daughter Olivia took over his position as chief executive officer of Gray Gravel Company, and conducted the army of robots to take over Mann Co.

Miss Pauling is the Administrator instead of Helen. She was the one who recruited the mercenaries for the fight against Olivia Mann's army

Mortician's father-son relationship with Kickboxer is a positive one.

Timebomb makes all of his explosives himself and rigs them to have timed detonations or manual ones

Alistair is the only one who knows his real name. Whenever someone asks for his name he provides a different one every time

Alessio is from a former mafia but escaped and took refuge with Miss Pauling

The stitches on Warhorse's face were done by Mortician after an incident on the field that almost left him dead

Welder helped install the sniper eye into Headbuster's eyesocket. It acts as a scope so he doesn't need to use the ones on sniper rifles

Wildfire was a former firefighter who combatted wild forest fires with new fires (a method called backburning)

Will do more doodles of this AU and they'll be on my AF as well! 🍰💖

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My name is Xed/Pastel ^v^ (He/Xe/They)! I am 25 years old and any other art accts will likely have the username pastelxapple if you want to find me on other platforms!

This is gonna be my multifandom page for my insane thoughts and hyperfixations :3 it's basically just my outlet to unleash my insanity, so expect cringe. LOTS of cringe 🐍🎀

Life Cycle of a Mantis (Kennoi Fic):

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64127017

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The father-son dynamic that Mortician and Kickboxer have gives me life 😩💖

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When you hijack a catering van full of doves at the Prime Minister's wedding :P

(Too lazy to make a background also drawing vehicles sucks ;3;)

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"I got a job for you, are you up to the task?"

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Warhorse x Mortician doodles cuz I'm insane and I'll never not indulge in my favorite ships even if it's an AU :P

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She's beauty and grace but still pretty girlfail sometimes :P

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I'm curious, how exactly does Axel's collar-thingy work?? 👀👀

I doodled this ref of his collar as quick as I could, pls don't ask me for the specific science behind it cuz it'll fry my brain ;3; I'm not smart

But yeah Ludwig installed all of that so he could re-connect her head to their body! 💖

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Is the like a Timebomb version of Demoknight- like Timeknight? Im genuinly curious

Sorta! They call him Bombslinger :P

He shoots "quick draws" with what I'd like to think is a smaller variant of the sticky launcher which looks more like a pistol and can shoot multiple smaller bombs (which can be tough to dodge I'd imagine)

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Birds of a feather

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*points* gay men 🫵🏼🏳️‍🌈

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Ludwig, have you tried to like— "french... kiss" your sweetheart Axel before? (I bet it's difficult and turned out funny).

Yes. Yes he has. :))))

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So, wait, if Axel is the Spy that Red Medic removed the head of, how are they in a relationship? Wouldn't that spawn some kind of resentment?

I'm going to trigger warn this post for topics of s//cide, depression, and poor health because I can't exactly explain their dynamic without getting into Axel's mental health. I tried to make this as brief as I could but it ended up becoming an oc ramble anyway 😭 sorry in advance for the long post!!!

Also please note my personal lore and hcs for them isn't strictly based on canon lore, so RED Medic having Axel's head in fridge is due to different reasons than just being a crazy doctor :V

You have been warned!!!

This will be delving a bit more into Axel's character, and a lot of this I will try not to spoil too much as it is a plot point in an ongoing fic I'm writing.

Axel is, to put it simply, someone who struggles immensely with self identity and has a very nihilistic point of view. Working as a Spy for years since he was young has created a sense of worthlessness in his mind, as he viewed himself as a nobody who wears the faces of other people (especially after an incident that I won't detail since it's spoilers). He hasn't been able to hold relationships because he constantly "changes his identity", adopting a new fake name and fake history with every new assignment he's given while leaving the people he once formed bonds with behind once his work is done.

On top of that the people who had taught him to be a Spy often compared him constantly to his brother Pierre (RED Spy), so he never felt like he was good enough. He developed depression when he was a young adult and hasn't been able to cope in healthy ways, which led to him having very poor health and malnutrition. Every time he was offered help and support he rejected it out of fear and ran away (metaphorically and literally), the folly of pride and the guilt of being a burden to someone else. He's had many s//cidal tendencies (a lot of Axel is split from my personal trauma so bear with me), and believed that if he were to just disappear one day nobody would notice. He's waiting, HOPING, that one day he can just disappear forever...

So when he's taken by the RED Medic as a mere head in a fridge imagine his confusion when the enemy doctor refuses to kill him immediately no matter what he says. "Kill me" he keeps saying. "Later" is the only response he gets. Yet the doctor doesn't ever seem to want to. At first Axel thinks it's because of scientific curiosity, and he'd be right at first, but that's not the real reason Medic keeps him around. As it turns out Ludwig has a slightly twisted and odd excuse for keeping him around.

Seeing the Spy in a state of self destruction and withering health hurts Ludwig as a medical professional. A doctor's duty to heal others is something that even with his crazy mind still remains true. He can't help but feel the need to heal this person, his own enemy, who has become nearly broken beyond repair. He wants to help the Spy, but his solution is pretty bizarre and unconventional. If he keeps the Spy around he can try to heal the brokenness in his mind. As a head in a fridge he can't run away from the help offered to him. He realizes he doesn't want to just heal the Spy, he wants to help him; He wants to give Axel that feeling of value in his life that he struggles to have. He wants to be the person who can save Axel no matter how insane his methods are, a Don Quixote.

He wants to help Spy live.

"You are not the masks you wear, nor are you a nobody without them. You are you. And you are important no matter what."

As foolish as this logic is it's effective, as it doesn't give Spy that door to escape to. Now he HAS to see the damage to himself. Though the longer Spy stays with the enemy Medic the more he can see that he isn't the only one who needs healing. Out of all the people Ludwig can heal, he doesn't seem to be able to want to heal himself. All of his struggles are private, and he keeps the pain hidden away behind closed doors. It seems Spy is not alone when it comes to blocking others out. Medic knows he has sins crawling up his back, yet he actively pretends the Devil on his shoulder isn't there. Yet the more he ignores his mental strain the more volatile and unstable it becomes. He cannot see the damage he is inflicting on himself, and Spy knows he will continue to turn a blind eye unless he sees the harm it is causing. Regardless of how crazy it is, he realizes he wants to help the doctor too.

Spy wants to be someone who can help Medic see his self worth, a mirror to show him that he is more than simply a healer for others.

"How can you help those around you if you refuse to help yourself? You are deserving of healing too."

TL;DR to reiterate one of my previous posts about my MedicSpy ship their dynamic has always been about healing and finding security and comfort in someone who cares about you. Yes they have their flaws and are not perfect by any means, but they uplift and support each other because they care.

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I don’t know if you’ve covered this yet or not, but I would absolutely LOVE to know about how Jane and Fritz started dating. Btw, I absolutely love your art!

I actually did write a fic on this but I'll make a quick breakdown about them!

Basically Jane found Fritz hiding somewhere gravely injured during a match and rather than just killing him and sending him to respawn he chose to help the enemy Medic. He doesn't know why he did it but he eventually figured that the why didn't really matter much to him. Since then they'd discreetly help each other on the field like giving warnings about sniper dots or leaving health kits in the same spot for the other to find.

Eventually they started meeting each other undercover in places between the two bases since then and the rest is history! Some of the mercs on both teams are aware of their relationship (mostly Ludwig on RED and Dell and Ivan on BLU) but they don't say anything about it because they find it amusing :P

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Did Ludwig just keep Axel’s body in cold storage before deciding to return the head to the body, or was it in the possession of BLU team?

The BLU team had the body while Ludwig had Axel's head. So he snuck into the BLU base and stole it so he could reattach them :P

Imagine the BLU team's absolute horror when they found out it was just GONE

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okay wait i just had a thought, would alistair still have the eyelander but as a knife instead, or does someone else have the eyelander?

I'd like to think the Eyelander is a dagger now rather than a sword that Confidant can use! Since the Demoknight equivalent is the Bombslinger the pistol-bomb launcher would technically be the Eyelander but as a gun

The Eyelander dagger would still be haunted and sentient for Confidant tho :P