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a9shou · 6 days ago
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FX-2/FINAL FANTASY Ⅹ-2 äč…é ïœžć…‰ăšæłąăźèš˜æ†¶ïœž [Piano Cover]
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inkskinned · 3 months ago
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but i am sick of climbing / i am sick of crawling on hand and knees and scraping myself along the ground / i am sick of self-help skills and persistence and patience / i am sick of pushing myself and burning out and thrashing about hopelessly / i am sick of being a goldfish in a hot pan / i am sick of reinventing myself every season / i am sick of this feeling / i would claw this out of me if you gave me a sharp enough object / i am sick of feeling unsafe around sharp objects / i am sick of never finding an object sharp enough
i wish you knew the answer and could tell me and pour it down my throat until i gagged on it / i made my therapist cry when i said i had a lacking in me / i told her that a train could drive through the spaces i put into myself / the lacking is what does it, not the wanting, the lack, the dullness / barely-breathing with my teeth clacking in the cold water / it's the same fucking bridge it's the same dream and the same stupid kid / i wish sometimes i had drowned in that pool / i wish i had been different, not even that it was easier but just that i had enough strength to endure it / i wish it went away / i wish i had one good fucking reason
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lumivalis · 2 months ago
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jasper-rolls · 6 months ago
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Song: äč…遠 ïœžć…‰ăšæłąăźèš˜æ†¶ïœž [KUON: Memories of Waves and Light] Artist: æ±ŸćŁèȮ担&æŸæžèł€ć­ [Takahito Eguchi & Noriko Matsueda] Album: äč…遠 ïœžć…‰ăšæłąăźèš˜æ†¶ïœž Music from FINAL FANTASY X-2 Producer: Square Enix
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crescendo-system · 1 year ago
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Having a burst of new(?) alter reveals this past week which can only mean one thing: the deep pit of horror that maybe we're faking this is looming ominously once more
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im-not-a-sheep · 2 years ago
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omg I remember I used to have this dragon oc called Night-shade
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sweetmemories94 · 1 month ago
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Tsuneo Enari, taken from his exhibition, “Japan and its Forgotten War”.
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fleuredelys · 26 days ago
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Tag dump 1/?
◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž prophecy is nothing but a vicious lie ┊headcanon.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž at the edge of light and darkness ┊addendum.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž free the souls trapped in dark worlds ┊reference.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž will it be a closure to this myth book?┊study.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž true form revealed at last ┊reflection.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž dusk has brought dawn of my fears┊musings.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž split the skies to rage against night ┊aesthetic.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž as whispers ride the wind in my ears┊music.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž halos of divine are fading ┊meme.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž starlight faint as prayers I bear with love ┊ask.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž lament of a cursed maiden ┊thread.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž pierce through the veils of lies ┊ic.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž reverberations of tidal waves ┊open.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž beckoning of the sky ┊dash comment.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž crown destined by fate ┊dash game.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž what lays beyond the dusk ┊ooc.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž to fuck around is thy human right ┊crack.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž o' stars; heed my calling ┊psa.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž connections of the righteous one ┊promotions.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž let the gale become one with me ┊self promo.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž gifts to prevail into eternity ┊keepsake.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž memories engraved in shadows of the past ┊queue.┊ ◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž nascent dreams of fading dawn ┊wishlist.┊
#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž prophecy is nothing but a vicious lie ┊headcanon.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž at the edge of light and darkness ┊addendum.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž free the souls trapped in dark worlds ┊reference.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž will it be a closure to this myth book?┊study.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž true form revealed at last ┊reflection.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž dusk has brought dawn of my fears┊musings.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž split the skies to rage against night ┊aesthetic.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž as whispers ride the wind in my ears┊music.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž halos of divine are fading ┊meme.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž starlight faint as prayers I bear with love ┊ask.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž lament of a cursed maiden ┊thread.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž pierce through the veils of lies ┊ic.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž reverberations of tidal waves ┊open.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž beckoning of the sky ┊dash comment.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž crown destined by fate ┊dash game.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž what lays beyond the dusk ┊ooc.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž to fuck around is thy human right ┊crack.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž o' stars; heed my calling ┊psa.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž connections of the righteous one ┊promotions.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž let the gale become one with me ┊self promo.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž gifts to prevail into eternity ┊keepsake.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž memories engraved in shadows of the past ┊queue.┊#◟àŒșâ˜„àŒ»â—ž nascent dreams of fading dawn ┊wishlist.┊
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listenonrepeat88 · 2 months ago
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In a realm where sound dances like tender waves upon a tranquil sea, deep house music unfolds—a soothing tapestry of basslines weaving through dimly lit spaces, seducing shadows to sway. Hues of midnight blue and vibrant violet spill across the canvas, as pulsating beats echo like heartbeats in an intimate room, where memories linger like delicate whispers. Here, the starlit silhouettes of silhouettes twist and turn, their movements reflecting the ebb and flow of introspection, inviting you to lose yourself in moments of both solitude and connection. Let each note wash over you, a gentle tide whispering secrets known only to the night.
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hydrajones · 1 year ago
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One time I was having a very minor anxiety attack while returning an overdue library book. A man I'd never met before came up to me, got my attention, and said "Everything is going to be okay". Then he walked past me into the libray without wait for a response.
I've never seen him again, but he is my hero. I hope I can be as kind to a stranger as he was to me one day. I remember him whenever my social anxiety tries to get the better of me. The world isn't so scary when I know that he's out there somewhere, perfectly willing to be nice to anxious college students for no other reason than it's kind.
Is it just me or does having a positive interaction with a stranger scratch a very particular itch? I think it's the reassurance that the world is not split solely into people who already love you and people who never will.
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a-alban-works · 6 months ago
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jasper-rolls · 5 months ago
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Song: äč…遠 ïœžć…‰ăšæłąăźèš˜æ†¶ïœž [Kuon ~Memories of Light and Waves~] Artist: Hiroko Kokubu Composer: Takahito Eguchi, Noriko Matsueda Album: Piano Collection FINAL FANTASY X-2 Producer: Square Enix
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tobeholyistobeempty · 10 days ago
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you’re drunk - simon ghost riley
“y’wanna know what stupid looks like?” he mutters, head dropping down until his lips near your jaw. “you, wakin up with my fuckin dog tags round your neck and nothin else.”
based off a request i got - tispy simon riley x drunk reader. simon is a man of morals, even when you make it very very hard for him to exercise them. 18+. lots of detailed dirty talk.
find part two here.
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it’s honestly not even your fault.
you’ll blame it all on soap, if anyone asks - he’s the one who had a tab open, a devil on his shoulder, and kept pouring shots as if they were free. now you’re blackout-adjacent, stumbling through the hallway with simon’s arm wrapped around your waist in some makeshift tourniquet while everything spins like a goddamn carousel.
simon always gets stuck on clean-up crew. mostly because he’s the only one who can handle their fuckin liquor.
needless to say, he’s used to this by now. used to the way you’ve been rambling on about nothing for the better part of five minutes - doesn’t say much when you stop and get distracted by something stupid for the billionth time. doesn’t complain when you grab his arm and lean a little too hard into his side, as if he’s a lifeline in the sea that is the floor beneath your feet.
he’s tipsy, sure, but somehow still annoyingly steady. classic simon.
“jesussi—you’re big.” it’s slurred and breathless, broken by your own laughter as your head drops lazily onto his shoulder. “like, industrial grade. military-issued big.”
the corner of his mouth tilts. if you were sober you’d see the smirk he’s biting back.
“tha right?”
“mmm. like a fuckin tank,” you hum, fingers kneading the muscle under your palm. it’s involuntary - just like it’s involuntary when he twitches. “or an armoured vehicle. y’should come with airbags.”
simon bites his cheek. the devil in you is dancing in the waves of tension rolling off him.
maybe he’s not as used to this as he thought - because this isn’t just drunk-banter. this is you, murmuring compliments with all that heat behind them. personal. stupidly involuntarily honest.
hes not used to compliments. not ones that sound like that.
“you’re drunk,” he breathes.
you grin. “so’re you.”
“not even half as much as you.”
you let out a giddy little laugh that makes him glance down, at that. it’s quick and brief, the way his eyes flick over you, like he’s checking to make sure you haven’t stripped mid-hallway. it’s just the bickering that gets you. makes you warm inside.
“m’not that drunk,” you lie through your teeth with all the drunken confidence you possess. “i mean—i am, but not like
memory loss drunk. i’m still gonna remember how wide your shoulders are tomorrow.”
it’s only seconds after that and your fingers are moving again, crawling down his arm to where leather edge meets skin.
“..and how insanely big your hands are,” you sigh in continuation, unable to help yourself. “like—biblically destructive. ruin-her-life-in-a-single-night kind of hands. anyone ever tell y’that?”
and that might just be precisely when it starts - the feeling in his gut. brought to life through the filth you’re beginning to feed.
“don’t.” he says, and it’s torn. “not now.”
he’s all but begging you - and however miraculously, his pace doesn’t break. still steady as ever even as you switch from squeezing to tracing his tattoos with your finger. the only response he gives is a devastating clench of his jaw as he keeps you moving - steering past flickering lights and sterile walls.
“y’ever choke a girl out with them?” you press, unfettered. “not like, unconscious, but like. in bed?”
he exhales. slow. almost a growl.
“jesus. stop talkin’.”
“why?” you blink up at him, all wide eyes and flushed cheeks, far too innocent for someone who’s very much not being innocent. “am i makin’ you nervouuus?”
his head tilts just slightly, just enough to peer down at you again.
“no,” he says, and even drunk you hear the grit in it. “you’re makin’ me hard.”
he says it like he hates himself for it. like it slipped out - cut from the meat of some deep place the inebriation in his veins simply won’t let him keep inside.
and you?
you blink slow, lips parting in surprise.
“fuckin’ finally.” you exhale with a smile. slow and crooked and dangerous. “thought i’d have to be on my knees and naked for you to admit that—“
he doesn’t let you finish that thought.
“fuck’s sake, y’little minx.” he’s dragging you now, as if he’s realizing the dangers that are surfacing the more this conversation continues. by this point he’s half-carrying, half-hauling your giggling form down the hall like you weigh nothing. “y’need to stop talkin.”
“you like it,” you slur between unsteady steps. “y’like me like this cause you’re a freakkk—“
his grip tightens. morals in tatters. control evaporating.
“i’d like you more if y’were unconscious.” he huffs, hard. “or duct-taped.”
that makes you giggle more. worse, it eggs you on.
“was that supposed t’be a threat?” you ask, lips glistening. “cause if so, it’s workingggg.”
he grunts - some deep, violent sound in his throat like that one hit a nerve. “bloody hell.”
by the time you make it to your door, he’s breathing heavy. less from exertion and more from sheer fucking restraint. it takes two seconds before he throws the hinges wide, kicks it shut with his boot, and all but drags you onto your bed.
and you hardly even realize you’ve reached it until the cotton caresses the side of your cheek. but that feeling is quickly forgotten when simon, the gentleman that he is, leans over you - one knee braced on the mattress as his hands go to work on the laces of your boots.
your thighs tense. he notices.
“fuck, simon.” you can’t stop yourself. not even god himself could, at this point. “i’ve been into you for ages, y’know.”
he pauses. boot in hand.
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what?”
he says it low. like a warning - like a don’t you fuckin start. but you’re too drunk to care - especially when all you smell is him and all you see are those shoulders, leaning over you while you’re flat on your back beneath him.
your lashes flutter.
“jus sayin- since, like. you’re in my room, on my bed above me like one of my codeine fever dreams.” you slur, brain sloshing. the room spins with it. “thought y’should know.”
he looks at you like you’ve hit him with a brick.
your head lolls. glassy eyes dragging up over the length of him. “used to think about it—you—when i couldn’t sleep.”
he swallows, and you watch his throat work with it. the grip he’s got on your ankle could shatter bone.
“
.you tellin me y’think bout me when y’touch yourself?” he asks.
“god yes.” you don’t even realize you’ve said it. “you. your hands. bending me over the sinks. in the showers while muttering filth in my ear, tellin me to behave—“
“—fuck.” it punches out of him like it hurts.
the silence falls heavy. he doesn’t blink, breathe, or move for what feels like forty minutes, when in reality, it’s like forty seconds - just long enough for him clamp the leash back on whatever beast is tearing through him.
not fully, but enough.
you stretch like a cat, oblivious to it. arch your back. sigh. “d’you think about it?”
he doesn’t answer. not at first. then—
“only when i breathe.”
your stomach lurches. your thighs twitch. “you mean that?”
he looks at you, finally - eyes darker than the devils deal, filled with filth and heat from the fire you started without even trying.
he shakes his head, his jaw clenches with the effort of keeping the beast at bay. “i mean, if you don’t stop talkin, m’gonna fuckin’ fold.”
the alcohol in your blood just roars, at that. fuel to the flaming fire inside you.
“tell me.” you murmur. “you think about fucking me? what i’d sound like moaning your—“
before you can finish that thought, his hand is over your mouth. it swallows your face, makes you twitch in all the wrong places — and he sees it.
“enough.” it’s barely a whisper. “christ. fuck. you’re gonna make me do somethin’ stupid.”
you moan against his hand - it spills out of you, vibrates against his fingers. he curses.
“y’wanna know what stupid looks like?” he mutters, head dropping down until his lips near your jaw. “you, wakin up with my fuckin dog tags round your neck and nothin else.”
his palm silences everything but your pulse, which is roaring, at this point.
your fingers come up, shift a few of his digits until your voice finds room to leak out. “please.”
his eyes snap shut.
“y’dont know what you’re askin for, sweet’eart,” he mutters, grabbing the edge of the blanket with his free hand and yanking it over your hips. “ain’t gonna wake up with you hatin me.”
even drunk you realize he’s a man of morals.
“you think i’d regret it?” you whisper. stars in your eyes. he doesn’t respond. “simon. i just told you i’ve fantasized about fucking you. i wonder how big you are, if it’d hurt—“
his palm tightens over your lips again.
“one more fuckin’ word and i’ll forget every goddamn reason why i shouldn’t touch you right now.” he spits. “if y’even remember this tomorrow, y’come say it to me sober. promise on every grave i’ve ever stood over i’ll bend y’over on the spot and fuck the idea of regret right outta you.”
then he pulls back, moving slow like it hurts, and you smile.
“guess i’ll see you tomorrow.”
“mhm.” he hums, take a step or two toward the door. “fuckin hope you will.”
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sunni-stuff · 7 months ago
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Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 This is part 4 Part 5
His question hit like a punch, and the pressure of it lingered in the air, heavy and suffocating. Armed Forces Day? Three years ago? A sharp jolt of recognition hit you, though the details of that night remained fuzzy. The memories were there, but they felt distant—like something you hadn't allowed yourself to fully remember after becoming a mother. 
You steadied yourself, trying to mask the unease rising in your chest. “What are you talking about?” you tried to sound steady but the tightening grip on your purse betrayed the rush of nerves running through you.
Simon shifted, his broad frame nearly eclipsing the dim light of the bar. His jaw tightened, and for a moment, he seemed to wrestle in his own head, as though each word carried a burden too heavy to bear. “There was a night,” he began, his tone low and rough, every syllable deliberate. “Here. Three years ago. You were here. So was I.”
Your heart skipped, a wave of realization hitting with an almost physical force. The hazy recollections of that night flooded back, slowly accumulating together—laughter, drinks, an unexpected connection. Something that hadn’t felt planned but had burned far too bright to ignore.
The knot in your stomach twisted painfully, every part of you urging you to push it away, but the truth had already begun to sink in. “You’re
” The words stalled in your throat, heavy and lodged, the sentence unfinished as the reality stung like an accusation between you.
Simon exhaled sharply, part sigh, part laugh—but there was no humor in it. His gaze locked onto yours with unsettling intensity, and for a moment, it felt like he was waiting for you to break. “Yeah,” he replied simply, the word thick with certainty. “And she’s mine, isn’t she?”
A cold shiver ran down your spine, your body instinctively stiffening. The truth strung in the silence between you both, too glaring to avoid. Heart racing, every sense screamed to deny it, to distance yourself from this conversation before it spiraled out of control. But anything that could be said felt wrong, heavy on your tongue as you forced them out: “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
Simon’s eyes held yours, filled with something you hadn’t seen before—a desperation that cut through his usually composed demeanor. “Please,” he urged, the plea more potent. “Just tell me.”
How could this be happening? How could something so raw, so unspoken, suddenly spill into the air between the two of you? The weight of the moment anchored you, and for a moment, you couldn’t find a way to move past it. 
“She is,” you muttered at last, the confession slipping out like an unwanted secret. Fingers clenched tightly against the table’s edge, grounding yourself against the suffocating reality pressing in. “I never thought
 never thought you'd come back into the picture.”
A brief silence stretched out before you spoke again, everything tumbling out in a rush. "I didn’t even know your name. All I recall was you kept making me." The admission hung in the air, lighter than it was, an attempt to lighten everything you didn’t want to say. 
The memory refused to stay buried. His face from that night, the intensity of his stare under the bar’s muted glow, how his presence seemed magnetic and overwhelming all at once—it all surfaced, unbidden. The connection had been undeniable, but that was your secret to carry. He didn’t need to know the details you still clung to.. 
“I don’t even know how it happened,” The sentence barely made it past your lips. “We used protection.” Doubt crept into your mind, unraveling the careful narrative you’d built for yourself. Did we? The past, fogged by alcohol and blurred moments, refused to come into focus.
Simon blinked, the blankness in his expression giving way to confusion, then disbelief. “Did we?” he asked with an edge of uncertainty. He was searching for answers neither of you seemed able to provide. Silence filled the space between you, heavy with unspoken questions.
"That parts a bit fuzzy," you admitted quietly, thoughts drifting away, the edges of the remembrance blurring with every passing second. “And clearly we didn't given our current situation.” 
Meeting his gaze, you knew this was the man from that fortunate night. Only different. More mature as if life hadn’t been kind to him. “All I know is
 I woke up, and it was just me.” The recollection hung heavier than expected, twisting in your chest. "I never imagined I’d run into you again."
A heavy silence settled between the two of you, the gravity of everything left unsaid pressing down on the air. Neither of you knew how to move forward, or even if moving forward was possible.
“I knew she was mine,” Simon muttered, his hand clenching into a fist at his side. He looked like he was trying to hold something back, fighting against his own emotions threatening to break free.
You blinked in disbelief, the reality of his revelation settling in like ice in your veins. “You saw her?” The shock was evident. The idea that he had been so close—watching, perhaps even knowing—yet remained silent was almost too much to process.
Simon nodded, his gaze never meeting yours as he began. “Last month. When you were leaving the cafĂ© with her. Johnny stopped you, and I was there.” He hesitated, swallowing hard as if the bulk of it all was pressing on him. “Johnny and the lads, they were the first to say they saw a little girl with my face. I was skeptical at first But then
 then I saw the two of you together. And I saw it. Saw me in her. I had no idea she was even a possibility. Or that you were, for that matter."
Your breath hitched, a sharp sting rising in your chest. The anger that had been simmering beneath the surface, the hurt, and the confusion all collided in one sudden wave. “Why didn’t you say anything?” The question shot out before you could stop it, the accusation sharp and loaded with all the frustration. He had been so close. Watching. Why didn’t he speak up?
Simon paused, his gaze dropping to his hands, fingers flexing as if he were trying to grasp for something he couldn’t hold. The silence stretched long between you, the tension palpable, as if the room itself was holding its breath. He wanted to say something, anything, but nothing came. 
“I
” He started, staring at his hands as though they might hold the answer. “I’m not good with things like this, love.” He rubbed the back of his neck, having a hard time fully expressing how he felt but this moment needed authenticity. “I needed time to figure out if I could step into a life that was already doing fine without me. I was afraid of complicating things, of ruining something that was just fine without me."
You didn’t expect what he said to hit you so hard. The impact of his confession—that he had stayed away because he wasn’t sure if he was fit to be a part of your life, Adira’s life—settled deep within you, heavier than you could have imagined. You’d been fine, hadn’t you? Raising Adira, carving out a life on your own. But there's always been that lingering voice in the back of your mind, that small, quiet thought of “what if?” What if things had been different? What if he had been there from the start? Maybe you wouldn’t have had to quit those overpriced mommy-and-me classes because of those judgmental women who gossiped behind your back. Maybe things would’ve been easier.
“I wasn’t about to just waltz in, love,” Simon’s voice softened, more vulnerable now, like he was carefully weighing his thoughts. “I needed to know if you’d even want me here. You and her
” His gaze darkened for a moment, his voice trailing off as though unable to bear too much out in the open. “I wasn’t sure if I was the right person to step into something already so
 perfect.”
In those words, there was something you hadn’t expected to hear from him: honesty. He was afraid. Afraid of being the one to ruin what you had built. Afraid of not being enough for you or for Adira.
“I guess I understand,” you said quietly. "I just wish you showed up sooner."
Simon didn’t answer right away. Something within him flickered with guilt, and for a moment, you both stood there in silence. He glanced down at his hands, fingers twitching like he wanted to reach out, but wasn’t sure if he had the right to.
"Can I meet her?" Simon asked nervously, a grown man fidgeting in his seat, the weight of his request sinking in.
"Now?" You chuckled, trying to brighten the moment. "It's late. I'm sure she's already asleep."
Simon’s gaze flickered with hesitation, but the desire was clear. He was barely holding it together, as if afraid that the chance to meet his daughter would slip away if he didn’t ask now. 
"I understand," he mumbles after a pause, almost to himself, but there was a longing there you couldn’t ignore. "I just
I need to see her. To know her. Even if just for a moment."
The magnitude of the situation pressed down on you again, this wasn’t something you had expected when you woke up this morning. You had no clue what to do with all of this, with him, with Adira’s future—your future. But still, you could hear his sincerity.
"Tomorrow," You decided. "We can meet up tomorrow, but it has to be on her terms. She's not exactly the warmest with new people."
Simon nodded, his expression a mix of relief and determination. "I can wait."
You gave him a small smile, a silent acknowledgment of the moment. There was still so much to figure out, but at least now, for the first time, there was a possibility. A chance to rebuild what had been lost. "Bring toys," you suggested sincerely, thinking about what would make her happy. "She likes trains. Doesn’t need to be anything cartoon-ish, just a proper train."
Simon blinked, a touch of confusion in his gaze. "She doesn't like dolls? Like most girls?" His tone had a hint of disbelief, as though he couldn’t quite picture a little girl who wasn’t into the typical, pink frilly things.
The thought of dolls made your stomach tighten, and you shook your head vehemently, as if to expel the very idea. "God, no," you replied, unease creeping into the conversation. "Please, don’t bring dolls. That’s the last thing I want." You shuddered as you spoke, recalling all the unnerving memories. "She gets all Sid from Toy Story with them."
Simon’s brow furrowed even deeper, clearly unsure. "What does that mean?"
You visibly grimaced, the image flashing vividly in your mind. "It means I wake up to doll heads scattered all over the place," you say, your voice low and serious. "And it's... creepy. Like she's planning something with them. It’s like waking up in a horror movie."
Simon chuckled at first, but as he saw the unflinching seriousness in your expression, his laughter quickly turned uncertain. His grin faded, and the unease that filled his eyes told you that he was realizing this wasn’t some joke. "You’re messing with me, right?"
Your stare at him, completely deadpan. "I wish I was."
For a moment, Simon just stared, taking in your unwavering expression. His lips parted, a nervous laugh escaping him as he absorbed warning. "Alright," he said slowly, now understanding your cautious warning. "No dolls. Trains. Got it."
You gave a relieved sigh, feeling the baggage lift off your shoulders. The tension hadn’t fully gone, but for now, at least the toy issue was settled. There were plenty of bigger things to confront later, but this? This was a small victory.
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This one is a little shorter than the rest, simply because I want the meet up chapter to be really long for yall! :3
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valleydolli · 1 year ago
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ʚɞ Gojo Satoru Fic Recommendations ʚɞ
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J’adore (O)
Scars don’t fade (C)
August (C)
Sincerely Not (C)
Sincerely Yours (O)
Everyone’s Doll (C)
Missed Connection (C)
Confessions (O)
Confidential (O)
Violet Lights (C)
Starboy (C)
The Twist of a Knife (O)
A Dangerous Game (C)
Fate’s Gamble (O)
All I Need (C)
Baby Steps (C)
Finite (C)
Sensual Epiphany (C)
Two Lines (C)
Changes (O)
Infidelity (C)
The Fuck List (C)
In Other Words, I Love You (Dead Dove: Do Not Eat) (C)
Permanent Mark (C)
Sundered (C)
Infidelity (C)
Kick Off (O)
The Unfaithful (C)
I Still Want You (O)
Concern and Control (C)
Symptoms and Causes (O)
One Moment Was All It Took (Dead Dove: Do Not Eat) (O)
Fuck The List (O)
My Love Note (O)
As You Like It (C)
People Would Assume (C) (Dead Dove: Do Not Eat)
Break Free (O)
Limerence (O)
In Memory of You (TBD)
Motherhood and Matrimony (O)
A Fairytale Wedding (O)
Velvet Lies (O)
May You Never Forget Me (O)
Open Wounds (O)
Gods and Monsters (O)
Just Friends (O)
Untameable Waves (please come back)
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edenarchives · 3 months ago
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♯┆𝐅𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐃 𝐈𝐓 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟐 .ᐟ — 𝐁𝐀𝐊𝐔𝐆𝐎 𝐊𝐀𝐓𝐒𝐔𝐊𝐈
𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘: After one unforgettable shoot with Bakugo, you’re left unable to finish with anyone else—on or off camera. He’s the only one who’s ever made it real. When you run into him at a party, the sexual tension explodes, leading to a filthy, passionate reconnection that neither of you can shake.
𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: MATURE CONTENT 18+ Explicit sexual content, unprotected sex, oral (f receiving), face riding, fingering, public sex, overstimulation, squirting, rough sex, degradation + praise, light dom/sub dynamics, breeding kink references, creampie, soft aftercare, strong language, alcohol mention, sex industry themes.
𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓: 8.2k (omg)
𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄
You haven’t cum in weeks.
Not on set. Not in the shower. Not with the $300 vibrator your manager sent as a “self-care” gift. Not even with that one video you shot with Keigo—the one that used to always do the trick.
Nothing works anymore.
Every orgasm you fake now feels like a cheap knockoff. Just muscle memory. Fake moans, fake trembling, fake gasps as the camera zooms in on your face like it’s catching something real. You used to be good at this—great, actually. Made your name off it. You could sell pleasure better than anyone. But now?
Now it’s all broken.
Because Katsuki Bakugo had the audacity to actually make you finish. Not once. Not twice. But over and over until your voice was hoarse and your legs wouldn’t stop shaking. And the worst part wasn’t even how good it felt—it was how real it was. He didn’t just make you come, he pulled it out of you. Like he knew exactly what buttons to press, what noises made you unravel, what rhythm would keep you teetering right on that edge. And then he’d tip you over it like it was nothing.
And ever since then?
Every other guy has felt like cardboard. Even the good ones. Even the pros. You tried not to be obvious about it on set, but your heart’s not in it. Your body’s not either. You’re back to acting, and that just makes it worse. Because now you know what it’s like to actually feel it. To lose control. To not have to fake it.
He ruined you.
And you hate him for it.
Kind of.
Maybe.
You dream about him. That same low, hungry growl in his voice. The weight of his hands on your thighs. The way he looked at you after the cameras cut, like he knew. Like he’d figured you out and wasn’t gonna let you forget it.
And you haven’t.
You still haven’t.
Which is why this fucking party is the last place you want to be.
You stand outside the mansion in heels that and a dress that hugs you like sin, arms crossed and jaw clenched. Your manager’s text is still glowing on your lock screen:
Be nice. Good networking. Smile.
Yeah, whatever.
Keigo’s place is massive. Of course it is. He’s been in the industry since forever, and he’s got that kind of charm that makes people want to party with him. His invite list is basically the who’s who of adult film, plus a few influencers trying to act like they belong. You hate these things. Too loud. Too fake. Everyone pretending to be friends, pretending they don’t judge each other for who they’ve worked with or how many followers they have. It’s all for show.
Still, you walk in. You know how to play the game.
The place is packed. Low red lighting makes everything look softer, sexier. Music pulses through the floor, the bass low and smooth. You’re barely through the front door before someone offers you a glass of champagne. You take it and downs half in one go.
A few people wave at you. A few others eye you up and down, probably checking who you came with. You fake a smile, offer a nod, and keep moving. You’re not here to socialize. You’re not here to flirt or network or play nice.
You’re here because your manager told you to be.
You end up leaning against the edge of a fancy-ass velvet couch, letting the music drown out your thoughts. The champagne doesn’t help much. Neither does the way some guy you vaguely recognise is trying to start a conversation with you, talking about some upcoming project and how “you should totally collab.” You tune him out.
And that’s when it happens.
You feel it before you sees it. Like something in the air shifts. Like static on your skin.
Your spine straightens. Your fingers tighten around the glass.
And then—there he is.
Across the room. Leaning against the wall like he owns the place. Dressed in black, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, rings glinting on his fingers. Blonde hair messy in that perfect, careless way. His eyes scan the crowd, bored and sharp all at once.
And then they land on you.
The breath catches in your throat. For a second, the music fades. The party disappears. It’s just him.
Bakugo.
His eyes narrow just slightly. Like he’s surprised to see you here. Like he’s not surprised that you look this good.
He pushes off the wall.
Starts walking.
Right toward you.
Your heart is beating way too fast. You hate that it is. You want to look away. Pretend you don’t care. But you can’t.
Because even now—especially now—your body remembers exactly what he did to you. The way he touched you. The way he looked at you. Like he wasn’t playing a part. Like it was real.
And worse—you know he remembers, too.
He stops in front of you. Doesn’t say anything at first. Just look’s at you.
Up close, he looks even better than you remembers. Like he’s been working out more. Like he hasn’t lost a second of sleep over you even though you haven’t stopped losing it over him.
“Didn’t think you’d be here,” he says finally, voice low and scratchy.
“Didn’t think you’d be,” you shoot back, arms still crossed. Your tone is cool, but your pulse is sprinting.
He smirks. That same damn smirk that used to drive you crazy. Still does.
“Keigo dragged me,” he says. “Said it’d be good to ‘be seen.’ Whatever the fuck that means.”
“Sounds familiar.”
You stand there in silence for a second. The air between you is thick. Heavy. Loaded.
He tilts his head slightly, eyes drifting down to the drink in your hand. “You good?”
“Peachy.”
“Mm.”
Another pause.
Then he leans in—just a little.
“You fake it again today?” he asks, voice barely above a whisper.
Your breath hitches. You hate that he knows. Hate that he’s right.
You don’t answer.
He chuckles under his breath. Not mean. Just
 smug. Like he knew it. Like he never had a doubt.
“I did,” you admit finally, voice tight.
He steps in just a little closer. Not touching you. Not yet. But you can feel the heat coming off him. The way his presence wraps around you like a damn trap.
“You try with someone else yet?”
You swallow hard. Your eyes flick away.
He already knows the answer.
“No one’s been good enough, huh?” he murmurs.
You wants to slap him. Or kiss him. Or both.
Instead, you down the rest of her champagne in one go.
He watches you the whole time.
Still smirking.
Still standing way too close.
“Why are you here, Bakugo?” You asks, voice low.
His eyes drop to your lips. Then back up.
“Maybe I missed you.”
He says it so casually.
Maybe I missed you.
Like it’s no big deal. Like he hasn’t completely wrecked your life and walked away with a goddamn smirk.
You set your empty glass down, not caring where it lands. Your heart’s still hammering in your chest, but it’s not nerves—it’s need. Hot and bitter and building in your gut like it’s been waiting for this exact moment.
You don’t look away. Don’t soften. You just say it—because fuck it. What’s the point in pretending anymore?
“I haven’t cum since you.”
His smirk falters. Just a little. But enough.
“I’m serious,” you add, stepping closer, voice low. “Nothing works. Not my hands. Not toys. Not other guys. I film a scene and fake it like always, but it’s worse now. So much worse. Because now I know what it’s supposed to feel like.”
Bakugo’s jaw tenses. His hands curl slightly at his sides, like he’s holding himself back.
You lean in, close enough that your words are only for him.
“You ruined me.”
His breath comes out sharp. Controlled—but barely.
“You think I don’t know that?” he mutters. “You think I haven’t been fuckin’ losing it, thinking about that day?”
He looks down at you, eyes dark and burning.
“You were the best thing I ever had in front of a camera. Fuck—probably the best I’ve ever had, period.”
Your stomach flips. Heat flashes under your skin.
“Every time I close my eyes,” he goes on, voice getting rougher, “I see you. Bent over, whimpering, beggin’ for it. You remember that? The way you sounded?”
You swallow, throat tight.
He leans down, lips brushing just behind your ear.
“Do you remember how wet you were when I spread you open?” he whispers. “How your thighs were shaking so bad I had to hold you down?”
Your knees nearly buckle. You grip the edge of the couch behind you, the only thing keeping you upright.
“I remember,” you breathe. “I can’t stop remembering.”
His nose grazes your jaw, not quite touching your mouth, but close enough that the air feels electric between you.
“I jerked off to that shoot so many times I lost count,” he says. “Watched it back with the volume turned all the way up. Had to bite my fuckin’ fist just to keep quiet.”
Your thighs press together. Everything in you is throbbing.
“I tried,” you say, voice barely above a whisper. “I tried to fuck it out. Tried to touch myself. Tried to forget it.”
Bakugo pulls back just enough to look at you, eyes heavy, lips parted.
“And?”
You shake your head slowly. “Didn’t work.”
His chest rises and falls a little faster now. You can see it. Feel it.
“I need you,” you say, honest and raw and a little unhinged. “Not even just your cock—you. The way you touched me. The way you talked to me. My body remembers you like muscle memory.”
He groans, low and quiet, like it slips out without his permission.
“You know what that does to me?” he mutters. “Hearin’ you say that? Standin’ here in that tight little dress, legs pressed together like you’re already aching for it?”
You don’t answer. You don’t have to.
“You want me to remind you what it feels like?” he asks, stepping in close again. His hand hovers near your hip, not touching, but so close. “Want me to bend you over that couch right now and make you scream my name again?”
Your breath shudders out of you.
“You want me to tell you all the things I’d do to you if we weren’t in the middle of this fuckin’ party?”
You nod. Slow. Deliberate.
“Say it.”
You look up at him, eyes sharp. “I want you to ruin me again.”
His control shatters for half a second. His tongue runs across his teeth. His hands twitch at his sides like they’re desperate to grab you.
“You want my fingers down your panties, feelin’ how wet you are just from talking to me?”
“Yes.”
“You want my mouth on your neck while I tell you how I’m gonna fuck you so good you’ll forget every other name you’ve ever moaned?”
“Yes,” you whisper, voice wrecked.
“You wanna know what I’d do to you if I dragged you into one of those empty rooms upstairs?”
“Tell me.”
He leans in again, mouth right at your ear, his breath hot and filthy.
“I’d eat your pussy until your legs give out. I’d make you ride my face until you’re crying. And then I’d bend you over the bed and ruin that tight little cunt all over again. No cameras. No crew. Just you, screamin’ my name into the pillow like you need me.”
You whimper. Actually fucking whimper. Your knees almost give out.
He pulls back just enough to look you in the eyes again, and his voice drops to a growl.
“Tell me to stop, or I’m taking you upstairs right now.”
Your eyes burn into his.
“I’m not telling you shit.”
He grabs your wrist—gently, but with purpose—and starts walking.
The music fades behind you as you two leave the main room, his fingers wrapped around your wrist, warm and rough and so sure. It’s not forceful—never forceful—but it’s firm. Intentional. Like he knows exactly where he’s taking you, and you’re not even thinking about stopping him.
You follow.
Of course you follow.
The air in the hallway is cooler, quieter. Dim lights line the walls, casting long shadows, the bass of the party now just a distant thump behind closed doors. Every step echoes in your ears. Your heels click against the tile, but you barely hear them. All you can feel is his hand. His grip. The burn of his touch where your skin meets.
He’s walking fast. Focused. Like he’s barely holding himself together.
But then—he pauses.
Right in the middle of the hallway, without a word, he stops. Still holding your wrist, but frozen in place.
And then he looks back at you.
And fuck.
Your cheeks are flushed, eyes wide and glassy with heat. Your lips are parted, and you’re biting the bottom one like you don’t even realize it. Your breath is shallow. Your chest rises and falls way too fast. And you look—
“Fuck,” he mutters under his breath.
It just hits him all at once.
The image of you like that—flushed, dazed, following him willingly down some dim hallway in a dress that barely covers your ass. Your mouth red from chewing on your lip, eyes shining like you want to be devoured.
It’s too much.
It’s way too much.
Bakugo turns around in one sharp move and pushes your back against the wall.
You gasp, more out of surprise than anything, and your back hits the cool plaster with a soft thud.
He doesn’t give you time to speak.
His mouth is on yours before you can breathe.
It’s not gentle. It’s not sweet. It’s a claim.
His lips crash into yours like he’s starved. Like he’s been dying for this. His other hand finds your waist, squeezing tight, pulling you flush against him until there’s not an inch of space left between your bodies.
And fuck, you melt.
You kiss him back with just as much heat, fingers curling into the front of his shirt, tugging him closer like you want to climb inside him. His mouth moves against yours with wild precision—like he knows exactly what you need and he’s giving it. All tongue and teeth and soft, filthy groans that vibrate against your lips.
His hand slips down to your hip, gripping tight. Your back arches. You moan into his mouth when his tongue brushes yours, and he growls—a low, guttural sound that sends heat straight between your thighs.
He pulls back for just a second, breathing hard.
“Been wantin’ to do that since the fuckin’ shoot,” he mutters, voice rough and wrecked.
You grab his shirt tighter, dragging him back in.
“Then shut up and do it again.”
And he does.
He kisses you like he needs it to survive. Like your mouth is the only thing that’s going to keep him sane. His hand slides up, fingers brushing under the edge of your dress, just a taste of skin, and you gasp into his mouth. He swallows the sound greedily.
Right now, it’s just him and you and all that fucking need you’ve both been drowning in for weeks.
Your hands are in his hair now, tugging, and he groans like you’re driving him insane. His lips trail down to your jaw, your neck, kissing and biting and licking like he wants to leave a mark—something real. Something that says mine.
“You feel that?” he growls against your skin, grinding his hips against yours. “That’s what you fuckin’ do to me.”
You whimper.
“You think I haven’t been aching for this? You think I don’t wake up hard, pissed off, because it’s not you under me?”
“Bakugo—”
“Say it,” he growls. “Say you missed me.”
“I missed you,” you breathe. “So fucking much.”
He grabs your face, tilts it up, and kisses you again. Harder. Deeper.
He’s losing it. Right here, in the middle of some stupid hallway, with your hands on his chest and your mouth so fucking soft and perfect under his.
Fuck he was gonna wait. He really was.
One more hallway, maybe two. Find a room, lock the door, throw you on the bed and wreck you the way you’ve been dreaming about. But then his hand drifts lower, just a little. Just enough to feel the hem of your dress under his fingers. His palm slides up, slow and sure, bunching the fabric higher and higher until—
He groans. Loud. Filthy. Like it physically hits him.
“No fuckin’ panties?”
You flinch, just a little. Lips parted, eyes dark.
“Were you expecting something to happen tonight, baby?” he breathes, voice thick with heat. “You showin’ up like this just for me?”
You don’t answer.
You don’t have to.
Bakugo presses his forehead to yours for a second, breathing hard.
“Goddamn,” he mutters, voice low and ragged. “You’re my dirty little whore, aren’t you?”
You whimper.
“You come to this party all dressed up, no fuckin’ panties, already wet for me
”
His hands are on your thighs now, spreading them just a bit. Your backs against the wall, breathing like you just ran a mile.
“You wanted this,” he growls. “You needed this.”
And then—he drops to his knees.
Just like that.
Right there in the middle of the hallway.
The air leaves your lungs in a gasp. Your back hits the wall harder this time, legs shaking, heart pounding in your throat.
“Bakugo—” you hiss, panic in your voice. “Someone could see—!”
He looks up at you, eyes dark and fucking wild.
“Baby,” he says, voice calm and sinful. “You’re a pornstar.”
He licks his lips.
“Let them see.”
And then he’s between your thighs.
One of your legs stays planted on the ground, barely holding you up. The other—he lifts and hooks it over his shoulder, gripping tight behind your knee with one hand, keeping you open for him. Exposed. Spread. His other hand pins your hip to the wall like he’s afraid you’ll float away.
Then—
Then his mouth is on you.
He groans the second he tastes you, like he’s been dreaming of this moment. Like the taste of you is everything he’s been starving for. His tongue is hot and greedy, licking through your folds, lips sealing around your clit as he sucks, hard, and you cry out, hand flying to his hair for balance.
“F-fuck—Bakugo—”
He growls against your pussy, the vibration shooting up your spine like lightning.
“Been thinkin’ about this pussy every fuckin’ day,” he mutters between licks. “You taste even better than I remembered.”
Your head falls back against the wall with a soft thud, mouth open, chest heaving. You can’t breathe. You can’t think. All you know is his mouth—his tongue flicking and licking and circling your clit just right, dragging slow, wet moans from your throat that you couldn’t fake if you tried.
His fingers dig into the back of your thigh, holding you still. Your other leg trembles, barely keeping you upright. Your dress is bunched around your waist, forgotten, as he devours you like a man possessed.
“You hear yourself?” he growls, voice muffled against your soaked cunt. “You hear how fuckin’ wet you are?”
“Y-yes—fuck—”
He flattens his tongue against your clit and drags it, slow and firm, and you nearly collapse.
“You gonna cum for me like this, baby?” he asks, licking up your slit, tongue dipping in like he wants to taste every part of you. “Gonna make a fuckin’ mess on my face?”
You’re nodding, eyes wide, lips parted in silent gasps. Your hand’s gripping his hair so tight it must hurt, but he doesn’t care. He loves it.
“Thought about this every night,” he mutters. “Me on my knees. You fallin’ apart. No cameras. No crew. Just me eatin’ you out like it’s the only thing I’m good at.”
And it is.
God, it fucking is.
Your thighs are shaking. Your stomach’s tight. You’re right there, and he knows it.
So he goes harder.
Sucks on your clit like it’s the only thing keeping him alive, tongue flicking fast and filthy, relentless. Your legs nearly give out.
You scream his name.
And then you’re gone.
Your orgasm hits like a truck, ripping through your body as you cry out, nails digging into his scalp. Your leg twitches in his grip, your body writhing against the wall as you cum for the first time in weeks—for real.
Bakugo doesn’t stop. Not until he’s sure you’re done. Not until he’s sucked you through every last wave, tongue gentle now, soft little licks that make you squirm from the sensitivity.
He pulls back, panting.
His chin’s shiny. His lips are swollen.
And he looks fucking proud.
“Goddamn,” he mutters, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. “You taste like fuckin’ heaven.”
You can’t speak. Can barely breathe. Your legs are jelly, your face flushed, your dress still hiked around your hips.
And he’s still on his knees.
Looking up at you like he owns you.
Like he always has.
You’re still trembling.
One leg weak, back still pressed to the wall, dress bunched around your hips and mouth parted in a breathless, wrecked little gasp. Your head’s spinning, body soaked in sweat and pleasure, but it’s not enough. Not for him.
Bakugo stays on his knees for a second longer, just staring up at you like he’s watching the aftermath of his own destruction—and loving every second of it. His jaw’s tight, eyes wild, chest rising and falling with every ragged breath.
Then he moves.
He rises slowly, all smooth, deliberate heat, and crowds you against the wall again, towering over you. His hand slips behind your neck and pulls you in, and his mouth crashes into yours—hot and messy, all tongue and teeth and need.
You moan into it. Loud. Desperate.
He doesn’t give a shit if anyone hears.
His tongue sweeps into your mouth, making you taste herself. He kisses you like a man obsessed, like he needs you in his lungs to fucking breathe. His hands are everywhere—sliding over your hips, your ass, up your back, gripping tight like he’s trying to memorize the shape of you all over again.
“You feel what you do to me?” he growls against your lips.
You whimper when his hips roll into yours, and fuck—he’s hard. So fucking hard it feels like it’s about to tear through his pants. Thick and heavy and ready, pressed right up against your soaked heat.
Your whole body jolts at the contact, and suddenly something shifts in you.
You’re not just trembling anymore—you’re burning. You grabs him by the front of his shirt and pushes off the wall, stumbling forward on shaky legs.
“Where’s the room?” You pant.
He grins, drunk on the sound of you.
“End of the hall. Second door.”
You don’t even wait.
Bakugo catches your wrist again as you try to walk, sees your knees still unsteady, and without saying a word—he scoops you up. Hands under your thighs, body flush to his, carrying you like you’re light as air.
You gasp. “I can walk—!”
He growls, “Don’t care.”
He carries you like you weigh nothing, like you belongs in his arms. Your legs are still trembling from the orgasm he just pulled out of you in the hallway, but your hands never stop moving—gripping his shoulders, playing with the hair at the back of his neck, dragging your lips along his jaw just to feel him shiver.
He kicks open the door, steps inside, and shoves it shut with his foot. The lock clicks.
He sets you down—not on the bed. He pins you against the wall again, just for a second, breathing hard, eyes locked on yours. His hands are all over you, sliding down your body, squeezing your hips like he’s still trying to convince himself you’re real.
And you’re looking up at him with that same fucked-out, fire-in-your-veins look that’s been haunting his dreams since your shoot.
And then—slowly—you start to sink to your knees.
His breath catches.
“Wait,” he mutters, chest heaving, “you—fuck—what’re you—”
You’re already looking up at him through your lashes, fingers tugging his belt loose with quick, desperate movements.
“You ruined me,” you say, voice low and dangerously sweet. “Let me return the favor.”
Bakugo swears under his breath as you pull his cock free—hard and leaking, twitching in your grip. Your fingers wrap around him, slow and teasing, and he shudders.
And then your mouth is on him.
“Fucking hell,” he chokes out, his hand flying to your hair, not pushing, just holding, gripping tight like it’s the only thing keeping him upright.
Your lips wrap around the head, tongue swirling in slow, wet circles, tasting him like you’ve been waiting for this moment since the second the cameras cut. You slide down his length, inch by inch, until your lips are stretched around him and your throat is already working to take more.
“Jesus fuck, baby—”
His voice is raw. Wrecked. You moan around him and his hips jerk.
“Just like that,” he groans, jaw tight. “That’s it. My perfect fuckin’ mouth.”
You hum, sending vibrations through him that almost make his knees buckle. Your hand strokes what you can’t fit, your spit coating him, dripping down your wrist. You’re relentless—pulling off to lick the tip, spit pooling on your tongue before you sink back down again.
Bakugo’s head hits the wall behind him with a soft thud. His eyes flutter shut, mouth open, breathing hard.
“You know what you fuckin’ do to me?” he growls, voice shaking. “You know how many nights I’ve jerked off thinking about you like this?”
You pull off, slowly, dragging your tongue up the underside of his cock as you go.
“Tell me,” you whisper.
He grabs your jaw, tilts your face up toward him, cock resting against your cheek.
“I’d picture this mouth every fuckin’ time,” he breathes. “Your lips all shiny, tongue out, eyes begging. Just like this.”
You moan and take him back into your mouth deep, throat fluttering around him, and he loses it. His hand tightens in your hair as his hips stutter forward, fucking into your mouth once, twice—then forcing himself to stop.
“Fuck—stop,” he groans, pulling you off with a shaky hand, even though it kills him. “Gonna blow if you keep that shit up.”
Your lips are swollen, spit dripping down your chin, eyes glazed and smug.
“Good,” you purr.
He yanks you up off the floor and spins you, pushing your back toward the bed.
“You wanna ruin me?” he growls, voice low and filthy. “Let’s see if that pretty little cunt can finish the job.”
He manhandles you onto the bed like he owns it.
Like he owns you.
You land on your back, dress still hiked up around your waist, thighs spread open without shame. Your chest is heaving, lips wet, eyes locked on him like he’s the only thing you see.
And fuck—he might as well be.
Bakugo shrugs off his shirt in one smooth pull, muscles flexing, abs on full display, veins in his arms popping from how hard he’s holding himself back. His cock’s still out, thick and leaking, twitching with every step closer.
“You sit there lookin’ like that,” he growls, crawling up onto the bed, “and expect me to take it slow?”
You grin. Daring. “I don’t expect you to do anything except ruin me.”
He laughs—dark and mean—and grabs your ankles, dragging you down the bed until your ass is right at the edge, legs hanging off, wide open for him.
“You’re fuckin’ insane,” he mutters.
And then he’s on you.
One hand hooked under your knee, pushing it back toward your chest, the other lining himself up. His eyes are locked on your soaked cunt like it’s the only thing he’s ever wanted. The tip of his cock brushes your entrance, and you both moan.
“You feel that?” he mutters, dragging it through your folds, teasing your clit. “You’re fuckin’ dripping for me.”
“Need you,” you gasp, already trembling again. “Bakugo, please—”
“Please what?” he growls, leaning over you, tip just barely nudging inside. “Say it.”
“Please fuck me.”
He doesn’t need to be told twice.
He slams into you in one deep, smooth thrust, burying himself to the hilt. Your back arches off the bed, mouth open in a silent scream as he stretches you—thick and deep and perfect.
Bakugo groans, eyes rolling back. “Fuck—this pussy missed me, huh?”
“Yes—fuck yes—”
He pulls back and thrusts again, harder this time, making the bed creak under you.
“I can feel it,” he pants. “The way you’re squeezing me. Your cunt’s starving for it.”
His pace builds—relentless, deep, every thrust angled just right to hit that spot that makes you sob. One of his hands grabs your throat, not squeezing, just holding, thumb brushing over your jaw like he owns you.
“You like that, baby?” he growls. “You like bein’ fucked stupid?”
You nod, gasping, eyes rolling back. “Yes—yes, fuck, harder—”
He gives it to you.
Hips snapping into yours, the sound of skin on skin echoing off the walls, your moans getting louder, messier, realer. Your nails drag down his back, your thighs locked around his hips as you cling to him like you’re about to fall apart.
“Gonna cum for me again?” he mutters, leaning down, forehead pressed to yours. “Gonna cream on my cock like a good fuckin’ girl?”
“I—I can’t—” you whimper.
“You can. You will.”
He reaches between them and rubs your clit—fast, tight circles—and you scream.
Your entire body locks up, and then you break.
You cum hard, legs shaking, mouth open, nails digging into his shoulders. He doesn’t stop—keeps fucking you through it, eyes locked on your wrecked, blissed-out face.
“Goddamn,” he grits out. “You’re fuckin’ unreal.”
His thrusts get rougher, deeper, like he’s chasing the edge—but then, suddenly, he pulls out.
You let out a broken whine, head thrown back against the mattress, body still twitching from your orgasm. Your pussy clenches around nothing, fluttering in the absence of him, wet and ruined and aching for more.
“N-no,” you gasp. “Why’d you—why’d you stop—”
Bakugo’s hovering over you, chest heaving, every muscle in his body tight like a live wire. His cock is soaked, twitching as it rests against your thigh, flushed and throbbing with the need to be buried again.
“Could’ve fucked blown in that pretty pussy just now,” he growls, voice wrecked. “But I’m not done with you yet.”
He leans down, kisses you hard—filthy and deep, tongue licking into your mouth like he owns it. When he pulls back, his voice is rough, laced with heat and control.
“Don’t wanna cum yet,” he pants. “Wanna watch you fall apart again.”
His fingers trail between your thighs, sliding through the slick mess he left behind. You gasp, hips twitching, eyes rolling when he pushes two fingers into you without warning—slow and deep.
“Still so fuckin’ tight,” he mutters, voice low as he watches your face twist in pleasure. “So wet for me. You like bein’ stuffed full, huh?”
You nod frantically, legs spreading wider, hips grinding down into his hand like you’re starved for it.
“Good,” he says, curling his fingers just right, pressing into that soft spot that makes your legs jump. “You’re gonna cum on my fingers now.”
“*Fuck—Katsuki—”
“Yeah?” he smirks, eyes locked on where his fingers disappear inside you. “You close again, baby? Didn’t even give you a break.”
He keeps rubbing your clit with his thumb, fingers stroking in and out slow and deep, dragging slick sounds from between your thighs that make him groan under his breath.
“You’re so fuckin’ messy already,” he says, voice tight. “Look at you. All wrecked for me.”
You sob, head tossing back, hand fisting the sheets.
“Cum again,” he whispers, mouth brushing your ear. “Wanna feel you squeeze my fingers. Wanna make a mess before I fuck you proper.”
And you do.
Your body jerks, thighs clenching around his wrist, another orgasm ripping through you so fast and hard you nearly scream. Your cunt pulses around his fingers, clenching down with each wave, slick gushing down to his palm as you trembles through it.
Bakugo watches you lose it, feels your walls fluttering around his fingers, and his cock twitches, aching with the need to be back inside you.
But not yet.
He pulls his hand out slow, dragging it over your swollen, soaked folds, and brings his fingers to his mouth.
Sucks them clean.
“Sweetest fuckin’ thing I’ve ever tasted,” he mutters, eyes never leaving yours.
You look wrecked—eyes glassy, chest heaving, lips parted like you’re still trying to breathe.
He leans in, kisses you slow, and lines himself up again.
“You ready for more?” he murmurs against your lips.
You nod, barely able to speak.
He smirks, voice dark and low.
“Good.”
He slides back into you slow. Painfully slow.
His cock pushes in deep, stretching your ruined cunt all over again, and he groans at how wet, warm, perfect you still are—even after two orgasms and his fingers inside you. You’re flushed and boneless beneath him, lips parted, hair stuck to your face, eyes barely open.
Cockdrunk.
And he knows it.
He watches your face twist as he sinks in fully, his hips flush against yours, but doesn’t move.
Just stays there. Buried to the hilt.
You whine.
He pulls back, just a little.
Thrusts again—slow, deep, teasing. Like he’s savoring every inch. Your walls flutter around him, still clenching like you can’t let go, and he groans through gritted teeth.
“You feel that?” he pants. “How tight you still are?”
You nod, whining, legs twitching.
He does it again.
Slow.
Deep.
Unbearable.
You cry out, hips jerking up toward him, trying to chase more—anything—but he holds your hips still, smirking down at your wrecked face.
“Aw, what’s wrong, baby?” he coos, breathless. “Not enough for you?”
You whimper. “Suki—”
He grins. “Tryin’ to fuck yourself on my cock now?”
And you are—rocking your hips up in tiny, desperate motions, your hands gripping the sheets, voice a string of needy little noises that go straight to his dick.
“You’re such a desperate little whore,” he groans. “Can’t even wait for me to fuck you proper, huh?”
“Suki—please—please—”
Your voice is high, slurred, half-sobs and gasp, like you’re not even forming real words anymore. Your cunt squeezes him so tight he nearly loses it.
“Oh my fucking god,” he mutters, shaking his head like he’s in pain. “You sound so fuckin’ wrecked—‘please, Suki’—you know what that does to me?”
You nod, tears pricking the corners of your eyes. “Need it—need you—need more—please—”
And then he snaps.
His grip on your hips tightens, and he slams into you.
No mercy. No hesitation.
Just filthy, hard, deep thrusts that rock the bed against the wall.
You scream, your hands scrambling for something to hold onto, but there’s nothing—just his body, his cock, him, pounding into you like he’s trying to bury himself in your soul.
“You want more?” he growls, voice wrecked. “Take it. Take every fuckin’ inch.”
You’re so loud now—moaning with every thrust, your back arching, body jerking with the force of it.
“I—I’m cumming—” you cry, body locking up again, cunt fluttering like you’re gonna break.
But he doesn’t stop.
He won’t stop.
“Yeah, baby? Already? Barely even started.”
Your third orgasm crashes through you like a wave, soaking him all over again. Your body trembles under his, and still—still—he doesn’t let up.
He grabs your legs, throws them over his shoulders, and folds you in half.
Then leans forward.
His body presses into yours, hands braced on either side of your head, his cock now driving in deeper than ever before, dragging against your walls in a way that makes you sob.
The angle is brutal. Relentless.
You gasp—eyes wide, mouth falling open. Your whole body freezes.
“Suki—!” You squeal. “Wait—wait—I think—I think I’m gonna pee—!”
He knows.
He fucking knows.
And the second you say it?
Bakugo groans. Loud. Wrecked. Ferally turned on.
“Oh fuck, baby,” he pants. “You’re gonna squirt for me?”
You’re panicking now, overwhelmed, the pleasure too much, too fast, building into something different.
“I—I can’t—Suki—Suki—!”
“Yes you can,” he growls. “Let it go. It’s okay. Fuckin’ do it.”
And you do.
Your body jerks once—twice—and then you scream, back arching off the bed as a gush of slick explodes from between your thighs, soaking both of them, soaking the sheets. Your legs shake violently. Your pussy clenches and flutters and gushes, and he pulls out just in time to watch it all.
“Holy fuck—” he groans.
He’s panting, cock dripping, and you’re still shaking, still coming, body twitching like you’ve been electrocuted.
He doesn’t even give you a second.
His hand dives down, fingers rubbing your clit fast—tight circles, no mercy.
“Gonna make a mess all over me, huh?” he pants. “Gonna soak my fuckin’ cock next?”
You’re sobbing, overwhelmed, body still spasming as more slick gushes out of you, squirting again, harder, soaking his hand and the sheets and your thighs.
“You’re such a dirty fuckin’ slut,” he groans, mouth open, watching you fall apart. “Look at you—fuckin’ look at you—”
When you finally start to come down, body trembling, tears slipping down your cheeks, Bakugo grabs your hips and slams back inside.
No pause.
No recovery.
Just more.
More of him.
He fucks you through the overstimulation, pounding into your soaked, sensitive pussy, growling every time your cunt clenches around him.
You’re babbling again, sobbing out moans and whines, brainless.
He’s close now. So close. His thrusts get sloppier, deeper, hips stuttering.
And then—
You grab his face, eyes barely open, voice slurred and high and ruined.
“Cum inside me,” you beg. “Please, Suki—want it inside—need you to fill me up—please—please—”
His whole body locks up.
His eyes roll back.
And he blows.
“Oh fuck baby, yes yes yes, FUCK—!”
His cock pulses inside you as he empties out, the hardest orgasm of his life, ropes of cum shooting deep into your twitching cunt. He groans through his teeth, forehead pressed to yours, body shaking as he keeps thrusting, slow now, drawing out every pulse, every drop.
You moan at the feeling—full, warm, messy.
“You take it so fuckin’ well,” he pants, kissing you hard. “Made for me, baby. Fuckin’ made for this.”
His cock finally softens inside you, and he collapses onto your chest, both of you panting, soaked in sweat, slick, and cum.
You’re trembling. He’s still groaning.
And neither of you can speak.
Bakugo’s chest is still heaving as he lowers himself onto his elbows, careful not to crush you. His cock slips free, spent and messy, and you wince from the overstimulation. He’s already watching you—eyes dark, but softer now. More present.
“You okay?” he murmurs, brushing sweat-damp hair from your face.
You nod slowly, eyes fluttering shut, voice hoarse. “Yeah
 just—holy shit.”
He lets out a quiet, breathless laugh and presses a kiss to your forehead. “Yeah. No kidding.”
You’re still trembling beneath him, body twitching with aftershocks. Your skin’s flushed and glowing, your chest rising and falling fast, and for a moment he just stares. Watches you breathe. Watches you try to come back to yourself.
He reaches for the edge of the bed, grabs the nearest towel—probably Keigo’s fancy ass silk robe or something, who cares—and gently wipes between your thighs. You twitch, gasps softly, but doesn’t stop him.
“Sorry,” he mutters, voice low. “I know you’re sensitive. Just wanna clean you up a bit.”
His touch is careful. Gentle. Like you’re made of glass now, even though he just had you screaming his name with your legs over his shoulders.
You watch him through half-lidded eyes. “Didn’t think you’d be the sweet type after railing me like that.”
He smirks, eyes flicking up to yours. “Shut up. You’re lucky I didn’t pass out.”
He finishes wiping you down, tosses the towel to the floor, and climbs back onto the bed beside you. One arm snakes around your waist, pulling you into his chest. You hum and bury your face into his shoulder, breathing him in.
It’s quiet now.
Just the sound of your breathing. The faint music still thumping somewhere in the house. His heartbeat under your cheek.
Bakugo presses his lips to the top of your head and holds you close.
“You really didn’t wear any panties tonight?”
You giggle sleepily. “Hoped you’d be here.”
His chest rumbles with a laugh, but there’s something else in it too—something warm. Dangerous.
“Next time,” he murmurs, voice low, lips brushing your temple, “just tell me what you want.”
You shift, just slightly, enough to look up at him.
Your voice is quiet.
Real.
“You,” you whisper. “I want you.”
He stares at you.
Heart pounding.
And says nothing.
Because there’s nothing left to say.
A few months later you’re standing outside.
The air is warm. Quiet.
No cameras. No script. No fake moans echoing off studio walls. Just the sound of a car pulling away from the curb, leaving behind nothing but soft tire tracks on the gravel and a sudden, still silence.
You exhale.
It’s done.
Your manager waved goodbye with glossy eyes and a box of farewell cupcakes like it was some emotional graduation ceremony. And maybe it was. A part of your life—the biggest part—is officially over. No more lights. No more contracts. No more “one last scene” promises.
You’re out.
Retired.
And free.
Your fans had been devastated, of course. The internet flooded with edits, fanpages posting heartfelt tributes, DM requests piling up asking if you were okay, if you’ll ever return. But you were calm about it. Because you had made your money. More than enough. Enough to buy three lives if you wanted. Yours, your future kids’, and their kids.
And for the first time
 you didn’t feel like you owed anyone anything.
The gravel crunches under your feet as you walks up the driveway of your new house. It’s not huge. Not flashy. Just a little white-brick home with a cracked front step and windows that let the morning sun spill inside. There’s barely any furniture yet. The walls are still too clean. But you open the front door and walk in anyway, because it’s yours.
You walk through the living room. Kicks off your shoes. Run your fingers along the kitchen counter. There’s a faint smell of fresh paint and wood polish and something warm. Like home.
And then—warm arms wrap around your waist.
You’re startled for a second.
Until he nuzzles into the side of your neck, all soft breath and scratchy stubble, and you relax instantly.
“Hey,” Bakugo murmurs against your skin.
You let out a breathy laugh. “You scared me.”
He hums. “You’re the one who snuck in without saying hi.”
“I live here,” you tease.
“Hey,” he says. “We live here.”
His arms tighten around your middle. His hands are calloused and warm, and he smells like clean linen and cedarwood shampoo. He presses a lazy kiss to your shoulder and then another behind your ear.
“You know,” he says, voice low and teasing, “we gotta christen all the rooms.”
You snort. “You’re horrible.”
“Yeah, but you like it.”
You turn in his arms, facing him now—barefoot and smiling, cheeks warm, heart full.
Because this is the part no one saw coming.
After that night at Keigo’s house—after the hallway, after the bedroom, after you whispered “I want you” like it was the most honest thing you’d ever said—Bakugo was done.
He left the industry the next day.
Didn’t tell anyone at first. Just walked off set, deleted the shoot schedule, and never looked back. He didn’t need the job. Didn’t want it. Not if it meant being surrounded by people who weren’t you.
He pursued you properly after that. Not with half-assed flirty texts or casual hookups. He showed up for you. Asked you out. Cooked for you. Slept next to you, not just with you. You thought it would feel weird—awkward, even. But it didn’t.
It felt easy. Natural. Real.
You left the industry a week later. For yourself. For him. For whatever this life was becoming.
Now?
Now you’re here.
In a half-empty house with your names on the mortgage and a stupid list of furniture you still need to buy, and for the first time in forever, you feel like you can just breathe.
Bakugo kisses you softly. Just once.
Then he smirks.
“Bedroom’s still got space on the headboard for scratches.”
“Bakugo.”
“What?” he shrugs, already lifting you up by the thighs. “I’m sentimental.”
You laugh, cling to him, and let him carry you down the hallway, your new life unfolding behind every door.
Your bedroom’s bathed in soft afternoon light when he pushes open the door with his foot.
It’s nothing fancy—white walls, wooden floors, a tall dresser with half the drawers still empty. The bed’s made, kind of, one corner of the blanket folded back like it’s been waiting for them. A single mug sits on the nightstand. Your side.
He lays you down gently, like you’re something delicate. Like he hasn’t already had you screaming into his pillow a dozen times since you moved in.
You pull him down with you, fingers hooked in the collar of his shirt.
Your mouths meet in a slow, lazy kiss. It’s not heated or rushed—it’s warm. Familiar. The kind of kiss you only give to someone when there’s no performance behind it. No pretending.
Just love.
He crawls over you, one hand braced beside your head, the other on your hip, thumb brushing circles into the soft skin there. You exhale against his lips, smiling.
“You gonna make good on your promise?” You tease, eyes fluttering open.
“Which one?”
“‘Christen all the rooms.’”
He grins, teeth and cocky heat.
“Yeah,” he says. “Thought I’d start with this one. Seems the most important.”
Your heart thuds. You try to act unbothered, but his weight on top of you, the way his hand slips under your shirt, palm warm on your stomach—it makes your stomach flutter.
“But we’ve already-,” you laugh, running your fingers through his hair.
“Shut up,” he mumbles into your neck, kissing there slowly. “I know.”
You laugh.
“You make me crazy,” you whisper.
His mouth stills.
He pulls back, looking down at you.
And there’s something in his face that wasn’t there before.
Something quiet. Serious.
“I think about it,” he says softly. “The future.”
You stare up at him, breath caught.
“You ever do that?”
You nod, slow. “All the time.”
He leans down, presses his forehead to yours.
“I want it all,” he murmurs. “With you.”
Your hands slide up his back, feeling every tense line of muscle under your palms. You pull him closer. Your noses bump. Your lips brush.
“Me too.”
He kisses you then—not playful, not teasing. Just real. Long and deep. Like he’s telling you something in a language only your mouths understand.
When he pulls back, he whispers against your lips, “I love you.”
You exhale and smile. “I love you too.”
His hand slips between you, fingertips ghosting down your stomach, between your thighs. He touches you like he’s got all night. Like there’s nowhere else you need to be. Like loving you isn’t something he wants—it’s something he needs.
You gasp softly, hips shifting under his touch.
“You always get like this when you talk about the future?” You whisper.
He laughs quietly. “Only with you.”
Your thighs part for him. You’re already wet. Already aching.
“Then don’t stop,” You breathe.
He doesn’t.
He makes love to you slow. Hands in your hair, forehead pressed to yours. No loud moans. No biting. No rush. Just the steady rhythm of your bodies moving like they were made to fit.
After, you lay tangled together, half under the blankets, half on top of each other. Skin warm. Hearts steady.
He runs his hand down your spine. You hum.
“Hey,” he murmurs after a few minutes.
“Mm?”
“If we ever have a kid,” he says casually, “we’re not naming them after Keigo. I don’t care how much that bastard tries to bribe us.”
You bark out a laugh, pressing your face into his chest. “I wasn’t going to!”
“He’s already been hinting. You know he has.”
“I’m naming our first kid after someone normal, like—Ida or something.”
Bakugo looks physically pained. “Absolutely not.”
You laugh until your stomachs hurt, until your eyes sting with leftover tears, and then he kisses you again—slow and sweet.
“You really want all that?” You ask later, voice small.
He nods.
“You and me,” he says. “Little monsters running around. A house full of loud shit and chaos and love.”
You bite your lip. “And a couch that doesn’t suck.”
He smirks. “Yeah. That too.”
You fall asleep like that. Wrapped up in each other. Wrapped up in something soft and real and permanent.
Something that, for the first time in both your lives, has nothing to do with being watched.
And everything to do with being seen.
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