#my birthdays on thursday and im actually dreading it so much
Text
will i ever have a birthday that i don’t hate with my entire soul
#my birthdays on thursday and im actually dreading it so much#i want to cry#idk if it’s a self inflicted complex cause it’s so close to christmas that i’m sure it’s not important#but i’m hating it so much i don’t want to deal with it#not the fact i’m turning older - i’ll be glad to be done with this year and all of the hurt it’s caused me#but i have no friends i have nothing planned#and unfortunately my mother is not working that day so she’ll be home#and like she wants to go bowling with my siblings and out to dinner#and i don’t want to do any of that stuff#i’ve just consented to dinner#but i’m not even close with my siblings being around them gives me anxiety i don’t want to deal with this#i hate being the center of attention i hate things being about me#idk what’s wrong with me#i’ll delete this in the morning it’s just past midnight rn and i’m crying about it#idk if it’s stress related to other stuff at the moment but i just want out i don’t want to be living here#i feel so awkward on my birthday and i don’t want my mom to try and make it anything special#but at the same time#last year i did nothing and was in my room for 4 hours#and i kinda didn’t want to do that this year. i DID want to do something#but now as the day gets closer i just feel more and more dread
1 note
·
View note
Last Seen Blogs
eppovaruvaro-blog
Untitled
willadsen00bak
제목 없음
creatneativity-blog
Untitled
thatloserkade
here 4 fun ᕕ (ᐛ) ᕗ
albertoguzman1973
Sin título