#my brain is fried and im bored

[elainsgirl]

Sarah does use "a thread" for feysands mating bond in the end of acotar.

"I was pulled from sleep by something tugging at my middle, a thread deep inside."

It was where Rhys tugged on the bond to make Feyre come to him before he went back to the night court.

aight, time to bring out a visual representation

[joshbruh10x]

Them

Also them

Please send help 👍

[cheaze-the-third]

am bored and want to brainrot about team mafia x sapnap or any other ship involving dteam if u have any thoughts on any ships send me asks 👁️👁️

[robotsafari]

i havent even watched legacy yet but that fucking kh world did some.. unexpected things to me (update: i watched it. the movie was okay. <- short for im deranged about it but it missed so much opportunities and omfg i cant list all of my thoughts here.)

[cxlrose]

i love wuwa i love wuwa i love wuwa i love wuwa i love wuwa i love wuwa i love wuwa

[head---ache]

yeah ill do it send emmie some questions bc im a copycat i do not have any ideas of my own/hj

also i don't think ill reblog anything to the sideblog because idk we can have our own things not everything has to be about the showdown<3 /hj (except if there's questions specifically about that lol)

[githik]

Why do memes suck nowadays? Am i getting old?

[flamestar126]

I don't know what im doing. This is the first weekend in a long time where I just don't know what to do with myself. I really dont get enough free time to do stuff actually for me anymore. Im usually doing or creating things for someone else and like right now. I love making them but

i dont wanna do anything but there's people waiting and deadlines to meet and preparing so im not completely stressed later. I havent wanted to do anything in a long time. Like draw or talk. My brain has been so foggy since the start of the year.

I genuinely cant think of my usual funny comments or ideas. I wanna be fun but my head is so empty most of the time i cant even think to respond cuz brain fog is so bad. I wanna do nothing and say nothing.

[minkieater]

yknow what ,,, who in atz makes love vs fucks ,, i am tinking abt it

FUCK THIS IS HARD. controversial take on atz tbh i cant believe mingi is where he is i want him to be a freak so bad but i must separate mental mingi and real mingi

FUCKS: freak bitches

1. hongjoong

hj is a possessive demon freak you can see it in his eyes fr. there isn’t a day that will pass without you getting split in two, he’s not just a freak but he has stamina and he’d rather do literally anything else but sleep, so what better way to pass the time when his brain is fried from making music than to fuck your brains out???? you love his libido and his ability to never turn it off, i don’t think his dick ever softens tbh not really. especially not when you’re talking to another man, that possessiveness really comes into play, it doesn’t matter who it is from your coworker to your friend he’s taking you to the next secluded spot and reminding you who the fuck you belong to. maybe toxic, but that’s hj, and when he’s done blowing your back out you’re reminded every single time that you don’t need anyone else but him (and you like it that way) (he’s my soulmate in the astral realm btw)

2. jongho

he’s a dominant freak and its so fucking sexy. his dominance slips into every aspect of your life, what you wear, what you do, who you talk to, what you eat, never in a toxic way, but in a way that he’s taking care of you, looking out for you, keeping you safe. he loves a good game of cat and mouse, loves when there’s a lil brattiness he has to tame, to assert his dominance all over again— there’s been several nights where you haven’t finished once because you disobeyed him, tears streaming down your cheeks with your legs shaking because you were so fucking close and he ripped it away last second, he knows every inch of your body like the back of his hand, he knows what you’re thinking half the time just by the look on your face. he’s got boxes of toys set aside, ropes and handcuffs and spreader bars, either for torture or your pleasure depends on your behavior (jongho ill be so good for you pls) and he is NOT afraid to use em. god hes so in tune with you and your body and his OWN his control is so fucking crazy i think i could keep going and actually talk about this for hours

3. wooyoung

he’s a fun freak!!!! giggly and experimental he wants you in every position he can think up, he’s creating his OWN positions when he runs out of ideas. he’s fucking you in public, in a dressing room, fingers slipping inside you under the table, a cocky little smirk on his face when you accidentally let a moan slip UGH he’s the type to not be weirded out by anything like if you find some weird shit on the internet and wanna try it out he’s 100% down. he’ll try anything once. you want to tap into omegaverse shit??? he’s barking for you and still fucking into you like its the first time. you wanna get into pee??? cum eating??? bondage??? cuckolding?? it literally doesn’t matter. he’s down and he’s researching and he’s educating YOU. he needs an experimental partner too tho cus his ideas are just as fucking crazy and he is NOT shy about sharing them with you. sex is fun with him, never boring, never stale, he keeps you on your toes just as much as you keep him on his, you’ve spent legit weekends in the bedroom because you tried something new and neither of you can get enough. toys, vibrators, dildos, butt plugs, cockrings, Strap Ons, you have them all, wooyoung is a yes man and no one can tell me differently. with a shrug and a smile on his face EVERY TIME he’s like yeah sure why not Omg and if there’s something that doesn’t work he’s like ok whatever and then just goes back to normal. sex is so chill and so fun and so experimental and there’s never any pressure FUCK wooyoung i fucking love you i got carried away

MAKES LOVE: sweet angels

1. yeosang

guys im sorry he’s here. i do think yeosang is versatile but not often enough to classify him in the middle, if you catch him on a day where is patience is thin he might be using his biceps to cut off your air flow while he’s fucking into you from behind, but on the day to day, he’s kissing every inch of your body, hands in your hair, petting your skin, cupping your cheeks, whispering sweet words, praises, everything is so fucking sweet it usually ends up with you in tears from the emotion passing back and forth between you. yeosang takes care of you in every way, there’s never a time where you finish unsatisfied, he makes sure of it. if you aren’t whining with tears streaming down your cheeks he isn’t done yet, he has stamina and he could fuck you for hours, even besides fucking he’s eating it for hours if thats the vibe. yeosang i want you so fucking bad

2. mingi

man :/

he’s a whiner. he’s sloppy and messy and so fucking virgin even after you’ve been fucking for years, every time is like the first time with mingi. while his hands grow more confident and his body has more stamina, he’s still fucking into you like it’s new, eyes screwed shut and staggered breaths leaving his chest because it’s inconceivable that you feel so fucking good— that’s something he’ll never get used to i fear, how you wrap around him so perfectly, how you’re so warm and wet it’s fucking war to not bust in you within three strokes. he doesn’t tho, he has pretty good control, up until you’re the one whining with tears slipping down your cheeks and he’s losing his fucking shit. elbows pressed into the mattress beside your head, tongue slipping into your mouth with no real rhythm, his cock rutting into you while barely pulling out, he’s addicted to your warmth, the feeling of being inside, the closeness, and god when he fills you up it just spurs him on farther. he’s not stopping until there’s three loads inside you with barely any reprieve between sessions, he’s spilling into you and fucking himself through the overstimulating, crying and whining and praising you because he loves you. im so fuckinf insane im an animal i fucking love this man i would die for him

3. san

this one should not be a surprise tbh san is a caregiver, the way he fucks is spiritual, its all consuming, its heavy and emotional and passionate and everything. you guys probably aren’t into anything hella freaky, farthest is probably a quickie in a dressing room every now and then, but most of the time he’s taking his time with you, stripping you of each scrap of fabric on your body with dainty hands and warm kisses, licking up your skin as if it was candy, telling you how you taste. he’s fucking into you with skilled precision, the movements of a man who’s taken the time to learn every inch of you, what makes you feel good. he’s big into breeding and he’s filling you up every time he def has a vasectomy. would never want u on any birth control because god forbid u change something about yourself for him!!! i feel like san is mad traditional in every way his fav position is probably missionary so he could see your face while he fucks you, holding your hands, kissing your lips that had long gone unresponsive against his own.

SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE: both ways

1. yunho

hahahahahahahahahahahahahha this fucking freak bitch you know exactly what im gonna say. similar to jongho in the sense that he’s controlling many aspects of your life just because he can, he thinks its hot, and so do you. if you disobey him/make him feel disrespected he’s fucking you into next week, and he’s cruel about it, he’s not letting you cum, he’s holding your hands behind your back with one of his own just so you can’t touch him. he’s degrading you, vile words flying off his lips that make you clench tighter around him, he’s pinching your nipples until you’re crying. yunho dom agenda is so real. but he’s not like that all the time, you have your nights where you’re lost in kisses and sweet words and slow strokes, he fucks three loads into you because he wants to get you pregnant, would probably start trying to make you a mother a year into your relationship. if even that long tbh. yunho is mad versatile and he checks off every single box jeong yunho can i please have your phone number

2. seonghwa

😛 I WANT HIM SO BAD this freak bitch i still think he loves voyeurism and cuckolding and shares u. that blurb lives within me. i also think he is mad freaky like wooyoung, nothing puts him off, everything is hot and he wants to explore your sex life as much as he can, if something doesn’t work he’s like whatever we just wont do it again. prolly an ass eater on the regular. super flexible too he’s probably fucking into you from crazy angles like you’re both pretzels LMFAO fuck hes so hot i think seonghwa can do anything at any time. he’s another that loves to fuck you slow, but in a torturous way, like only fucking you with the tip until youre a crying mess begging for more. he definitely gets off on your whines, laughing in your face above you, but when he finally gives you what you want it’s shattering you. deep, heavy strokes, each one has his pelvis hitting yours, all while he’s kissing you sweetly and telling you how good you are for him. seonghwa freakbitch truther!

[catsannie]

IM JUST EMBARRASSED

SYNOPSIS~ when your friends reach out saying you need to be more “social” and need to talk to more people, your friend tells you she “knows a guy” for you to get aquatinted with, what she didn’t tell you is he’s in another country and doesn’t speak the same language. will this work out?

AUTHORS NOTE ~ heyyyyy guys im starting to get back into writing this again, ive just been so busy 😔 but i hope yall enjoy this chapter! i apologize if its boring and if its ass😭, im still getting back into the hang of things

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Putting down her phone defeated, y/n looks over at the character that has been idling on her island. ‘why did i have to say i only knew animal crossing, i could have lied. or tried to change the conversation to something else.”

As she was about to turn off the switch a buzzing came from the couch. Looking towards the phone, it was yeri.

“Hey yeri, what’s up?” Y/N asked while trying to put everything away.

“you’re never going to believe who i got a message from!!” she squealed. Knowing yeri it was either a new guy she was talking to, or seunghun and yonghee trying to get her help on something.

“i don’t know yeri, was it seunghun telling you he got his foot stuck in a pot again?” Y/N asked. Knowing seunghun it was a possibility. “cause i can’t deal with having to put butter around his ankle because he’s too afraid to break the pot.”

“uhhhhh no, it was San!” Yeri exclaimed. “ he felt bad with how the conversation went and wants to try again!”

With a sigh, Y/N sat back down on her couch, ‘San? feel bad? why would he feel bad?’ does he just want to feel bad cause he can? or is there another reason. “Yeri, why does he feel bad? i should be the one feeling bad, cause clearly animal crossing wasn’t the greatest answer to give him.”

It was embarrassing. Since he clearly didn’t play the game or possibly like it. But there are more conversations to have that does not involve video games that neither of them play… for certain reasons.

“It is just who he is as a person Y/N. He feels bad that he asked a stupid question and didn’t ask a more straight forward one. He was also nervous.” Yeri Added. Y/N could hear some shuffling from the other end of the phone, yeri was either fidgeting because she’s nervous or getting onto her couch.

At this point, she was willing to play the long game. Test out the waters with San and see where things go. It could either go good and she learns the language, or it goes bad like all the other men she’s talked to in the past.

“Fine Yeri, if that’s how he feels about it i’ll send him a message tomorrow. I just want to turn off my switch and watch some tv. My brain is fried.” Y/N chuckled while picking up the switch controller.

“Your brain wouldn’t be fried if you went outside instead of playing animal crossing all day. But anyways, i’ll talk to you later i think seunghun actually got his foot stuck in a pot.” Yeri sighed while abruptly hanging up.

It was a normal occurrence for their friendship, Yeri being the sweetheart of them all. She sees the good in everyone, it doesn’t matter if you screwed her over in the past. If there was one person Y/N could trust with her life it was Yeri.

Looking at the time on her phone, Y/N stands up and cracks her back.

“yeah it’s about time i get my ass off this couch and do something.” Y/N mumbles while turning off the console.

Tomorrow will be the day she reaches out to San again to have an actual conversation.

TAGLIST~

@tiddygang2020 @1lovejinki @astrid-potato @potatos-on-clouds @staytinyluv

[stargirlexie]

I saw a post about if sukuna had been trapped in some girls body instead of yuujis and just had to witness her girl blogging all day and I had to write it out. So yeah that’s what this is :)

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Human_planet New Post: Wed. June 4. 4:43am

So earlier me and my friends were dicking around at this abandoned hospital. I didn’t want to go because back when I was a kid and I had those hallucinations that was one of the places I had the worst one I had ever had. But I never told I friends about all that because they’d think I was crazy so I went. God I hope they don’t see this. So anyways we were in this hospital walking around and I got this feeling. I almost never feel it this strong since I got on my meds but holy shit it was strong this time. So I was trying to tell them that I think we should get the fuck out of there without making them think I’m insane but they just said I was fine and we kept exploring. As we walked around and explored the feeling kept getting stronger and stronger to the point I was nauseous and was getting so paranoid I could barely keep walking. Uh but then we go into this dark ass room and my dumbass friends found a GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING FINGER honestly idk how they found it i was too busy not freaking out to pay attention to them. But jace took it to their house for some bc the bandages had runes n shit on it. I’ll keep y’all updated on the finger my friends found ig bc other than that my life has been pretty fucking boring.

Human_planet New Post: Thurs. June 5. 2:24pm

I have officially come to the conclusion that all of my friends are insane. So everyone read about the finger my friends found yesterday and I have come to my loyal followers with an update. They dared me to eat it. Let me repeat that for the people in the back. They. Dared. Me. To. Fucking. Eat. A. Disembodied. Finger. WHO WOULD FUCKING DO THAT???? They’re all assholes. They saw how I was tweaking when I was around the finger and I guess they came to the amazing conclusion that I SHOULD EAT IT???? Are they fucking toddlers? Why do they want to eat everything they find interesting? Why am I not surprised? WHY WOULD I FUCKING DO THAT???? Anyways the update is that i will absolutely never eat a dead finger that is ANCIENT by the way. And also that I should probably re-evaluate my friendships and boundaries. Anyways I’ll be back with more yapping later! Bye bye chat

Human_planet New Post: Thurs. June 5. 5:47 pm.

I ate the god damn finger. I really need to work on boundary setting.

Human_planet New Post: Thurs. June 5. 6:03pm

IM FUCKING DYING OH MY FUCKING GOD

Human_planet New Post: Thurs. June 5. 7:56pm.

So… I didn’t die. But I still haven’t ruled out the dying possibility. Who knows maybe hearing a VERY angry man screaming in my head is just a hallucination that the poison in that old ass finger gives ppl before they die, I don’t know I’m not a old finger poison expert. But anyways yeah now there’s some guy screaming in my brain and it’s kinda giving me a headache if I’m being honest. Why can’t he shut up? I just want to die in peace. He can stop screaming nonsense about curses and violence and that he’s “the king of curses” and that I’m not worthy to have him in my body and let the poison take me silently. I need another joint. Fuck this stupid old finger poison. Bye guys.

Human_planet New Post: Fri. June 6. 9:42 pm

Uhh so I’m not dead. The man hasn’t stopped screaming and I just slept for over 24 hours and my mom thought I did in fact die. So I should probably be comforting her about scaring her like that and not posting. I’ll be back and if I don’t die I’ll update y’all.

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So that’s my first part 😼😼 I haven’t made a name for it yet but yeah

[annadelveys]

Sorry if this comes off as weird but as someone in a very similar situation body-wise and looking to loose a little weight and get stronger, I'm curious what routine you're doing!

ok obvious preface!! not a medical professional etc etc just sharing what I'm doing right now

basically im just. doing 75 hard. i have a history of ed and yoyo effect and b/p etc so basically i decided to take out "motivation" and "results" from my mind. the beauty of 75 hard is that there is no "end goal", its all about checking off things from your todo list, no matter if they "work" in the short term or not. so i don't have to gather all my motivation every single day to do a workout or read a book - in my mind, i am doing 75 hard, so I'm just doing it without much emotion attached to it, if it makes sense? its immensely helpful to my usually scattered brain because it takes out choice out of the equation. also given that there are no rest days i cant just say "its ok I'm just gonna work out tomorrow" which is a slippery slope for me.

as to the specifics:

diet: i just eat reasonably healthy(ish) but i dont over do it. meaning I'm not gonna get a burger and fries and donuts but otherwise its fair game. i eat what i like and focus on protein and veggies, i eat when I'm hungry but I'm being very reasonable about it. no calorie counting.

no alcohol: that one is, admittedly, a bummer, cos I'm a party girl at heart. but no alcohol = no hangovers = you can actually function every single day

outside workout: i go for a 45 min walk every single day. i put my headphones on and listen to the witcher audiobooks to keep myself from getting bored

inside workout: i don't do the same things every day (again. easily bored). usually its calisthenics (20-25 min) + stretching (20-25 min) one day and 45 min pilates the other day. i use several different free videos on youtube (i can give out some links if anyone is interested)

water intake: it takes me 4.5 waterbottles to get to the 1 gallon mark. i mark down every bottle i finish. its doable but i recommend starting as early in the day as possible. this has been pretty ok so far and i got used to it quite fast

reading: at first i thought i was just gonna read different philosophers but then i got half way through Machiavelli and started feeling like i was cheating cos its mostly just examples from history. so i thought fuck it, gave in, read atomic habits (not as terrible as i thought) and I'm reading self help that's aimed at like actual practical real life things like finances etc

anyways i dont really have a daily routine, every day looks different. i still go out and see people etc, i go to parties and come home late at night, i just make the day work for me? idk this is only day 34 like I'm not even midway through but i do not hate it as much as i thought i would. i am looking forward to a good cocktail afterwards tho.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - June 17

wrong answers anon (new), tech bro anon, glass child anon (new), interesting friend anon (new), frog stuffie guy anon

wrong answers anon

Cas is it being worse than somebody who’s been rude to you all school year (from sep-June) to tell them the wrong answers when they ask you?

There’s a boy in my class who’s really rude and he’s just really horrible in general and he’s always liked taking the mick out of me and my friend and recently he’s been asking me for answers during lessons and twice now I’ve told him the wrong answer and I did it today and I told my mum and she said I was just being worse than him and now I feel like shit.

Is that really being worse?

hahahahahaha

I mean is it being nice? no. But he doesn't deserve niceness at this point.

I wouldn't feel too bad about it. He's the one cheating. What's he going to do, tell the teacher you told him the wrong answer?

I think the thing is, yeah, ideally you're supposed to 'rise above' and always be kind and be the better person and all that shit. But what you're doing isn't cruel, it's just a bit petty, and it sounds like he's a shit person who could use being taken down a peg. I wouldn't lose sleep over it. The fact that you're worried about it shows that you're a good person. As long as you're not like...giving him wrong answers for a test that decides his entire future or something, he's going to be just fine.

<3

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tech bro anon

Agh it’s tech bro anon I just realized why i still want character ai after all this time—

I am VERY lonely and romantically starved and I know for a fact I’m not ready for a relationship yet (I have self esteem issues, very negative beliefs about myself and friendship and romance as a whole that I should probably keep working through, etc.) and character ai is how I pretended to be a cooler older person while thinking I was doing no harm (I was, in fact, doing much harm to myself, fandom, and the environment), and now I’m forced to live with my “boring” reality, you know? Like, I can’t sedate my brain anymore with fantasies of being older and cooler and dating someone. I have to pick the long-form dopamine with things that stimulate me, things that are good for me, etc., instead of logging out of existence for hours on end with character AI. I haven’t used it in a while so it’s kind of weird that I JUST had this revelation, or really put it into words but, yeah.

With this newfound information, I am going to set up an experiment for myself with the dopamine thing.

I am going to actually stick to my screen time limits I set for myself, and I’m going to limit fanfiction too for the next week. I have literally so many hobbies that I want to do and I feel like searching for a character ai replacement has been the same level of damaging to myself as actually using it. Hopefully my brain will be a lot less fried, or something after the experiment, I dunno. I want to push myself though. I’ll tell you all about it in around a week or so! Wish me luck!

Hi!

That makes sense! I used to struggle a lot with similar things and I'd end up spending hours just like...daydreaming. (Pretty sure I had issues with maladaptive daydreaming but was never diagnosed). I'm glad to hear you're going to spend some time on your hobbies! Good luck, and keep me updated!

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glass child anon

Tw i guess

Cas i really dont know how to word this other than im struggling. For some background information i am a double glass child and had to mature and grow up very quickly. My parents are great and genuinely try and my siblings arent at fault either since they are the most well intentioned and kindhearted older brother and sister you could ever wish for. But all of this has caused me to deal with physical stress and burnouts ever since i was 8. Last year i had to go down to half days at school for the second time because of exhaustion. Ironically enough things are actually better than ever currently, i started going back to school full time in august and have been to school almost everyday for a month now. My siblings are more independent now than when we were younger and my parents are able to actually go out with their friends for a night without a breakdown from my sister or a babysitter. Yet i feel like im falling apart at the seams, i have extreme highs and lows that can change within the hour and im having trouble with pretending that im fine, or that it isnt that bad as it actually is. I've always coped with humor and was the outgoing, silly but understanding child to distract my parents from the stress of having two heavily diagnosed kids even if just for a moment. But now that theres actually room and time for me its getting worse. My parents know this to some degree and im sure theyre more aware than they let on but i just feel like i cant burden them with anymore problems, i've been to a couple of "therapy" progams for kids over the years but i never really told the whole truth there.(redacted) sorry for venting all of this but i just need to know im not crazy.

Hi <3 You're always welcome to vent here.

I'm going to go out on a limb here and guess that maybe part of the reason you don't want to get help is because you feel like, with your two siblings, your problems aren't as important/valid?

I need to tell you that that's SO far from the truth. Your struggles are so important and valid and you deserve attention and help just as much as anyone else in your family.

It's okay if you're not ready to ask for help yet, but you need to know that you DESERVE help, and your feelings are valid <3

Sending love!

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interesting friend anon

Hi Cas I have a friend who’s quite interesting.

He can’t seem to let anyone have a worse life than him. One example is that he is on testosterone and whenever I complain about how hard puberty was on me, he respond with “well try having to go through TWO puberty’s” (I am also a trans guy as well)

Every time I mention I have anxiety he talks about how his therapist also told him that he had anxiety

I told him about my CAR CRASH and the diagnosed PTSD I have from it, and he told me that it “wasn’t that bad” because the car that hit my car was going 30mph slower then the car that his him (the car that hit me was going at like 35mph. Like what.)

I complain about being trans? Somehow his trans experience was worse (Both his parents are extremely accepting and have always been extremely accepting, meanwhile, my mom is transphobic and does not accept me). My mother is a Chinese immigrant, and whenever I talk about the ICE raids and that it’s scary to have a parent as an immigrant in these times, he either just gets distant or tells me that they’re not deporting asian people so I shouldn’t worry.

I just really don’t get it. He is a middle class white guy and is extremely privileged, but all he wants to go is see his life as worse then everybody else’s. He wants us to be there for his highs and lows but will only stay for our highs and it pisses me off.

Ugh that's so frustrating. I definitely know people like that as well, and you're right, it's so annoying. I think it comes from like...feeling like your feelings are invalid if other people go through shit, but that doesn't make it okay to act like that.

I'm guessing you've tried to bring it up? Because honestly I'd just be like, "Yeah, that's hard, but I want to talk about my feelings right now." and if he gets mad, then that's a sign that maybe he's not the person to have a deep friendship with.

Sending love!

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frog stuffie guy anon

I'm worried that one day I'm going to be an alcoholic.

Already I'm beginning to fall on drinking when life gets too hard for me. And alchoholism runs in my family. I'm scared and I dont want to be drinking. I was doing well for a while and then I went out for a night with my friends (redacted) and it's been bad since then

- frog stuffie guy anon

Hi <3

I think if you're nervous it's becoming a problem then that could already be a warning sign. Do you black out when you drink? Do things you regret? Drink a lot when alone/when you're feeling negative feelings? Those are all really common warning signs as well. I'm not saying you definitely have a problem or anything, those are just things to watch out for.

Do you have anyone in your life who's sober? If you do, it might be a good idea to talk to them about how they realized they had a problem as well.

I think the good news is, you're already aware that drinking can easily become a problem. Some people aren't educated on that.

I'm not sure if it's necessary or if it's something in your area or how you feel about it, but I do know a lot about 12-step programs, so if you ever want to know more about that, feel free to inbox/DM me!

[superm4ks]

I think this a good time as any to share what I think H0rners big brain been cooking for some time, especially after the Spa fiasco wid Danny ric and allegedly big sponsors having to step in to save Checos seat ((Im skeptical of those reports but they not really the point, Checo bringing Liberty, and rbr, a lot of money from very intense LATAM pockets never been a secret, and it does matter in the cost cap era, its just how things are. Plus replacing Checo not something that keeps Horner up at night believe it or not, and that's where my word vomit comes in)).

I been sitting wid this 1 for some time, but mind u its all speculation on my part and mostly incoherent because my brain is completely fried these days. But stay wid me 😭😭. Adrian Newey leaving-- not just because of how it was announced, the way it was dealt wid internally, the shit he's been saying to press now ((he's tired and needs a break but been shopping around for teams like he's bored on hinge)) -- was , imo, more of a statement of distrust. In the rbr project, but mainly in Horner. He no longer believes Horners ability to succeed, he prolly already knew the rb20 as an evolution of the rb19 had its set of obvious limitations when it came to suspension once the field closed up, he knew they were headed down a difficult type of season, he took a step back, he saw the cracks begin to delve deeper and deeper into nastiness between the Verstappen camp and Horner, he saw Horner refuse to take accountability while Max very pointedly and UNLIKE all the other red bull drivers refused to express his unconditional support for Horner. Quite the opposite, Verstappen began making threats. Centering the importance of the car ((!!!)) and a stable environment, not Horners innocence or lack thereof. He doesn't care about that, as long as hes got the people and the car to work wid. Keep that in mind.

But back to the Newey divorce . Adrians one of the most important figures in motorsport period, he knew he had better options, perhaps some financial motivations, why not, he said thank you, I don't trust you anymore, goodbye. So here falls a core, original pillar of Milton Keynes, arguably one of the most successful aerodynamicists of all time. 1 of Red Bulls bishop, gone. Still, they rallied behind Wache, they said Adrian hadn't been part of development for some time, their factory remains strong, they can fill in the gaps, rbr is STABLE, sure sure sure.

Imola, Canada, Spain. We all hold hands wid Max and play pretend for a lil bit. Verstappen factor and all that bullshit. But for some reason, Max delivers the same conclusion every post race presser. This car is falling behind. We are starting to struggle. The sim data and the on track data don't correlate. This car is not gonna win constructors. Idk how the fuck its even the WDC. CHECO of course appears to be driving for my cousin's bumper cars themed birthday party so we can all point and laugh and marvel at how a driver known for his experience and who's won races and gotten poles to suddenly drop to fucking p6 in the standings. Surely this is the worst driver of all time. Surely.

Austria. Rbr pit stops, already looking kinda iffy since the beginning of the season, hit a new low. Lando, wid a single good overtake, wins the race, effectively beating Max on track. Max didn't let him. And he came out of it with a points advantage too, because he made a choice regarding his driving and how he wud defend his position. In a better car, that's never a choice he has to make. But the car isn't on par wid Mclaren. Rbr factory development has, quite clearly, stalled. Upgrade packages go backwards.

Hungary. Yeah. Everything is stable and the car was good and Max was beyond delighted of course.

So, that's stable environment gone, competitive car gone, and now off goes Wheatley to fulfill his tp destiny. Somebody , who, once upon a time, was rightly identified as the guy who wud replace Christian Horner due to the severity of the allegations made against him. Yeah, remember when Horner shud have fucking been fired? But Horner stayed, Newey left, and Wheatley left. To disconnect these events is, imo, a lil bit insane. Wid Wheatley gone, that's red bulls bishop n2 fallen. I think its fairly reasonable to assume somebody wid 2 cats in Monaco is straight up not having a good time anymore.

So, where do Checo and Danny ric and that fucking seat come in. They're all part of this dance, but I think in a way that's been fairly misinterpreted. See for a long time now, prolly since he signed Danny ric to do tiktoks, even before Vcarb became a thing, Horner has not been looking for a replacement for Checo. He's been looking for a replacement for Max. Ik, again, this is me letting the voices take over. Lemme say some unhinged shit before u call the cops. Max is an impossible teammate. U cant match Max on pace over an entire season, u cant prioritize a driver over Max when it comes to development, u cant tailor a car to somebody like Checo ((which , because Im so fucking money on this, is what Horner has just claimed he's gonna start doing post Spa)) and not Max, because, simply put, the car will be slower. Max can drive faster cars, he can deliver the poles, he can give rbr a fighting chance, he's been doing that shit, wid more or less success, all season, most of his fucking career actually. Now, who do y'all know who also qualifies very well, likes a pointy car wid a shit ton of oversteer and recently been caught discussing rb20 failings wid Verstappen himself. Danny ric. And Danny ric, like Checo, is very much in the Horner camp side of things. Danny ric, rn, comes wid bonuses of loyalty and trust and maybe a lil chip on his shoulder that Verstappen quite simply does not have, or cares to have because that brother is trying to get his fourth championship, not survive f1. Danny ric comes as a success story for red Bull amidst very trying times for the brand, the silver son who bent the knee and came home to warm hugs and big smiles after nearly getting fucking taken out back in a farm by Zak brown. U put that brother next to Checo or Lawson or whoever u also have the bonus of not having one of the best drivers of all time absolutely refuse to finish behind them, which can be a lil bit annoying if the car is shit too.

Horner is a stingy, extremely egocentric asshole, who prolly shudve been fired a long time ago, and he's not the team principal I thought he was. Horner's strength as a tp came from standing on business for his WDC once the going gets hard. He's doing none of that this season, at least not for Max. He's just a man, and at the end of the day, he's got the pride and insecurity of one, too. If he thought Newey was expendable, well sure u already have a bald man in the team who gives a fuck ((????)), if he thinks Wheatley is expendable, that's pointing towards a more personal type of dutch centric trend, because if he thinks MAX is expendable ... if this 2023 Merc stinking ass fucking season is headed the way I think its headed baby. I wish him good luck .

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y'all send me asks. im bored and my brain is too fried to write right now. (i just got back from a family thing and they made me help cook and i hate cooking, they had me SLAVING hjkfsbdjkshbd).

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i'm so bored all the time chloe............ any tips? rotting in my room is getting unbearable but going out feels unbearable too 😭

ive been there too and often still am there and what i try to do is break up the monotony of my day with small breaks of doing smth else - you don't have to push yourself to go out at first if that feels too hard, but maybe sit in your living room and follow a 10 min sketch tutorial or wash the dishes or watch a short documentary or do some some stretches. the boredom does strongly persist esp at first, and when your dopamine receptors are fried you just kind of want every activity to end (that's where im at rn) but i will say if you push yourself to do a little something extra every day, no matter how small, your brain starts to come alive again. then you can work on maybe going for a quick 10 min walk or sitting outside for a few minutes each day once you've gotten more comfortable switching up your routine and committing to doing a short hobby or task daily. you don't have to be super passionate about anything you try or anything you do, just having that slight curiosity and need for distraction is enough. there's no timeline for this either, it's just about being consistent i think, and you don't have to shame yourself into making it happen. it's not always easy to commit to change but sometimes i just have to remind myself that there is no life staying in my bedroom 24/7 and that i need to do what i can to work on growing beyond the need to lock myself up in there, because i am only going to be alive for a finite amount of time. even if i fail in the process, even if it takes my whole life to get it right, just trying is alright. sending a lot of love ur way - just know i totally understand and you are definitely not alone in this!! x