#my hand doesnt know how to draw anymore

[purrgatoriess]

idk how to draw anymore

[wackywatchdotcom]

its kinda unclear how much the others know about kingers relation with light. we dont have a lot of information on how he interacts with the others, since most interactions he has w them is wobbly and brief. important to note that ragatha has known him the longest, and in ep 2 seems caught off guard by his sudden change in tone while talking to her- something shed have expected were she aware of the light thing. which makes me think that no one has put this together yet

(probably not out of obliviousness - the adventures dont seem dark often, and the fort only has room for one person so people dont often talk to him IN the fort. plus most of them prooobably retreat to their rooms at night and thats even IF lights go off at night, which is technically just a hc. point being that theres a good chance the others have not been in many situations where they could talk to kinger in the dark, and it doesnt seem to be something he brings up often- he only told pomni cus she asked, but hed been in the dark for a While before this and didnt say anything)

[bmpmp3]

post ankle-twisting clarity

[piccxzell]

High Honor Arthur Morgan Headcanons :3

Lowkey NSFW under the cut so…urm you have been warned

➴➵➶GENERAL HCS➴➵➶➴➵➶

Arthur loves to draw his partner, in any state, sleeping, awake, happy, sad. He wants to capture every movement and every moment. He loves going back and seeing how you looked one day as opposed to another.

If Arthur is upset or on edge about something i think he would actively avoid eating. Like not starving himself exactly….just avoiding eating. Not actively seeking out food or anything, would eat if offered something, but wouldn’t go out of his way to get food for himself.

Spends way too long critiquing himself in the mirror, picking and plucking at his hair to get it to sit right, biting his nails down to look more “masculine”, practicing facial expressions to make sure he doesn’t look like a fool.

I think he purposely hides his face with his hat, it could be dark as night, he could be inside, and he would keep his gaze down. Either too insecure to look up, or feeling as if hes too intimidating for the moment.

He likes when his partner bathes him and vice-versa. He’ll talk about whatever, Dutch’s plan, Micah’s insolence, the reverend’s refusal to get better, Sadie’s gunslinging. Anything. When hes in the bath, hes very emotionally vulnerable.

Hes so grabby. By the waist, by the hand, by the belt loop. forehead kisses, nips to the neck or shoulder, hand on his partner’s head.

Does the thumb thing idc.

He doesn’t really know how to settle down, so he isnt very good at reading people’s needs, but the second his partner mentions wanting something hes on top of it. “𝚘𝚑, 𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 (𝚡,𝚢,𝚣) 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎….” and the next morning its on their bedside table.

If he gets particularly comfortable, he would show his partner some of his drawings, maybe just the small ones, like the drawings of animals he finds, or plants. The whole time he just mutters about how bad they are or how he “hardly spent time on it” which makes his partner even more impressed.

⋆˖⁺‧₊☽◯☾₊‧⁺˖⋆personal headcanons based off MY gameplay⋆˖⁺‧₊☽◯☾₊‧⁺˖⋆

Always, always, ALWAYS has some sort of fresh fruit on him, cant STAND the taste of canned fruit after eating them for months straight, thinks the sugar level is too much and can’t handle it anymore.

talks to his horse probably more than he talks to most people. Just any horse really. He’ll sit on the porches of businesses and just talk to the horses hitched there.

Rarely steals anymore, but if he’s really low on money, he might. Of course, the second Dutch claims to have a plan hes robbing left and right. But personally, he doesnt see the appeal much anymore. Will definitely loot people who tried to shoot him though.

Loves exploring, will spend days on the trail, in different states and environments just seeing what he can. Though, he once came upon an old shack just west of a river and got so sick he had to stay back at camp for a few weeks.

Loots old abandoned buildings. Doesn’t matter if its filled with only stale bread and ammo, sometimes if he’s lucky he’ll find a few dollars and he likes the idea of holding onto it to give someone in the future.

Claims he trusts Dutch’s plan, but has never once contributed money for camp. Well, one time he did. A few cents. But only because Grimshaw had gotten upset with him. Always makes sure everyone has food though.

Spends a lot of time around camp, often times neglecting tasks in favor of just being around the gang. Besides, it pushes them to contribute too.

He rarely cuts his hair. Keeps his beard low, but prefers having long hair. Claims it covers his neck to protect him from the heat, but just likes how it covers more of his body.

sleeps for either 38 hours uninterrupted or doesn’t sleep for a week. No in between at all.

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Bites his partners lip, thinks it the hottest thing in the world. He loved seeing his partners face scrunch up with temporary pain before he kisses it all better.

Says the sweetest things in the most condescending way. “Oh…well now look atchu darlin’…” “…hush now, sweet thing, yer bein’ too loud.” “Thats it, sugar…take it.”

does the knee thing. (idc if this is canon. This is real to ME!)

Such a sucker for seeing his partner on their knees. He loves the eye contact. Thinks eyes are the window to the soul and absolutely just melts whenever he sees his partners eyes looking up at him.

Grips the headboard.

He likes to hold his partner’s hands during missionary, just one, both, holding their hands above their head. He loves it, he loves running his thumb over their veins while he does it.

Kneads his partner’s thighs when he’s between them.

He has a whole lot of self control. Stops the second he sees hes doing something wrong. His partner looks just a little too uncomfortable, hes paused. “Darlin’..? alright?” “Theres my good girl/boy.”

Keeps a pretty consistent pace. But the second he feels nails dig into his back or hands grip his hair, his hips stutter and his next few thrusts get all sloppy.

I think he would be VERY good at tying his partner up. Though it isnt really his thing, he absolutely would if they asked.

He growls, he pants. Animalistic sounds are absolutely his thing. Loves making noise.

Cant do quickies, he tried once. Left him feeling so unfinished and unfulfilled.

Hes been with women before, had a kid before, he absolutely knows what hes doing, and has discussed the possibility of kids, but inevitably came to the conclusion that if it didn’t happen by accident he didn’t want to bring a little one into this world. (Though one major point for wanting one was seeing how well his partner was with Jack.)

Absolutely will NOT do knife or gun play, worried he might hurt you. (unlike low honor Arthur who i think would love that kind of stuff.)

[comikbook]

HELLO MERCY NATION !!! big session tonight, the one ive been waiting for. Mercy finally killed the sheriff as she was tasked to do by her patron. it was insane and emotional and i cried 4 times.

if youre interesting in reading, it was really amazingly done by my dm and i have written out everything that happened below !

Mercy mades the trudge to the old church outside of town. As she peeks in, she sees the sherriff kneeling down at the foot of the statue of christ. As she walks in, the floorboard creaks. His desperate praying gets more frantic as he hears her enter. eventually he turns around, cocking his gun and pointing it at her.

At first hid behind the statue of mary at the entrance, mercy comes out holding her hands up. the sheriff is crying and shaking as she pulls out a piece of fabric, covering up the face of mary looking down at her with disappointment. he screams at her, asking what she is doing. not responding mercy goes to sit at a pew, and asks him to sit with her. she convinces him.

he sits down, still shaking. she asks if he comes to the church often, he asks her why she’s dragging this out. his voice is weak from crying. She admits to him that she isnt doing this because she wants to, and she feels its right to let him say his piece. he talks about missing his mother, who passed. Mercy asks what happened, he says the devil took her (meaning mercy’s patron).

She asks him how long its been since he had visions of her and her patron as his room was filled with drawings of them. he said since he was really little. Mercy asks him how old he is, he’s 25. She states how since theyre close in age she would have been just a kid then. He says she always appeared how she is now.

He asks if god watches us. She says she used to think so, but not anymore. He says he doesnt know about god but he believes in the devil, and he sees him in her. She asks if theres anything else he wishes to say.

He said his mother smelled of lilacs. He also has a request. Mercy listens and watches as he gets up and kneels at the statue of mary, at her feet. he asks if she can do it here. Mercy agrees and gets up from the pew, meeting him at mary’s feet. He is sobbing as she leans down and kisses his forehead, and saying she is sorry.

As he continues to cry Mercy stands back up, and takes a few steps back. She raises her shotgun, and one more says she is sorry, but this time not to the sheriff. She pulls the trigger.

As she does, the fabric covering the statue falls exposing mary’s face. she looks to be weeping as she becomes covered in blood from the sheriff. Mercy looks up at her, before going over and laying the sheriff out, hands together, and closes his eyes. She then takes the fabric and lays it over his body. The train whistle blows, and thru the glass of the church window she see’s her father. He looks at her with disappointment in his eyes before turning his back on her, guiding the sheriffs soul onto the train. She shrinks in to herself and averts his gaze in shame and doesnt look up until the train is gone.

At this point the priest and the nuns have heard the shot, and they start to make their way towards the church. Mercy takes a step back but does not run away, instead walks towards the back of the church to the confessional and enters. When shes does, she hears the shaky breathing of the deacon, who greets her. He asks what brings her to confession as if he didnt just witness what had happened. Mercy folds her hands in her lap, looking down, and says “Forgive me father, for I have sinned.”.

The deacon asks how she has sinned. she says she damned a poor man’s soul to hell. He asks if shes done this before, and she replies with “I have, and i fear I will do it again.” she begins to cry.

The deacon hesitates, before asking her to pray with him, he reaches a hand thru the slot between the booths, and she takes it. There is a moment she things to herself as she grabs his hand, how warm it is. She thinks about how she was once that warm, but it has been replaced with the coldness of death. They sit together and pray.

At the end, he says she has been absolved of her sins. She doesnt believe this, but she thanks him and exits the booth. looking up at the stained glass of the church she casts disguise self, and changes her appearance to one of an angel before leaving the church.

As she approaches the town again, she shifts back to looking like herself. she walks thru the night back to the saloon, and quietly sits at the bar, asking for a drink. She had expected to see the bartender maisy, or the boy wyatt who’d been helping her, but instead was greeted by maisy’s father, who owns the bar. He is a frail and gentle old man, and he looks at her with kindness before making her a drink.

He is happy to see her, happy as if he were looking at his own daughter returning in the night. He asks if she found the sheriff, knowing the party had been looking for him. She says no, and he mentions that he hopes they find him as he was close to the sheriffs mother. He talks about how distant the sheriff got when she passed (paralleling how mercy got when her dad was killed). She doesnt say much but offers a nod, and he says he is heading to bed.

Mercy sits alone at the bar, in the dark. She looks up at the broken mirror hanging on the wall, where she had previously saw her patron. But in this moment, nothing was there. She is completely and utterly alone. A breeze comes in thru the window. It smells of lilacs.

Hearing the gunshot, the party eventually returns to the saloon as that is where we are staying. Mercy does not react when they enter. She is now several drinks in and goes to return upstairs when they arrive. Chester asks if she’s okay, but she shrugs him off and excuses herself. When the others approach where she was sitting, they fund empty bottles, a dagger, and a cross carved into the counter.

The next morning it is discovered that the sheriff was in fact killed, and they are arresting the deacon for it. The deputy, who was a childhood friend of the sheriff, was found dead hanging in his home. he had taken his own life.

The woman that works at the post office told those looking into the case, that when she was walking home last night, she swore she saw an angel.

[townslore]

you dont wanna know how many times i teared up drawing this,

LOTS of explaining stuff under the cut,,

my bestie and i came up with a lot of new hcs for them today. mostly age stuff which i'll talk abt later but FIRSTLY oh my God the mouse plush. because they're kitty cats.

their mama made it for del originally when he was a baby. because they couldn't afford a lot del ended up giving it to bas when he was born. unfortunately, bas lost it during their time at the igniter facility, just like the paripus charm del gave him at some point.

also before anyone does point this out-- i do know metaphor has its own language letter writing system but Holy hell i'd rather die than figure that out. the way i wrote their names is supposed to be as if del wrote them, in reality it'd be like the actual letters they use. i tried simulating how kids write their names ( bc i see that a lot at my job ) and even wrote it with my left hand, aka my non dominant one, since i hc del is left-handed but he'd write these with his right hand, making it even more difficult for him.

ok now onto the stupid age timeline stuff that gives me a HEADACHE so i apologize if not everything makes complete sense

they live in a small hole-in-a-wall house which is basically just a big living room with a small kitchen space, and an attic. its in some different small corner in grand trad where mostly paripus stay

when del is 4 years old ; bas is born, their papa disappears not long after. presumably ended up like the first paripus you see in grand trad.

when del is 6 and bas is about to turn 3 ; their mama disappears ( well, dies, but they dont know how ) and they eventually end up homeless, still in grand trad

del 12 y/o bas 9 y/o ; as bas says in his third rank, he tries to enlist in the military but gets shut down for being too young, gets invited to the igniter experiment facility instead, not being told their true intentions. he tells del about it and he decides they'll join out of necessity for food and a better place to sleep.

del Maaaaybe around 16 y/o bas 12-13y/o ; this is the age where del stops growing, and bas doesnt proberly wake up one day. hes still short enough to carry and del breaks them out of there after around 4 years of hell. he makes it back to grand trad and rella hears him yell for help near the church ( dear lord please dont ask me how her canon age plays into this i cant think anymore )

; some point after this event they try enlisting in the military again and get in this time, where they.. presumably? meet louis and he takes interest in them.

all of this was put together with the help of my bestie and a lot of inspiration from my fav fanfic ever, "o welche lust" by antelopunny on ao3. go read it. now.

anyway dear god I hope this is good LOL feel free to add stuff or maybe even correct me if i happen to get anything wrong which was different in the game ( i dread the day their actual timeline gets revealed and all my headcanons die alongside it )

[where-does-the-heart-lie]

I'm up way later than I need to be and listening to music while I draw and this song gives me SUCH Sabo feelings and I would love to hear your opinions!! (Never Love An Anchor by The Crane Wives)

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Y07xArvIvjw&si=ffMbMHTWuHHnxY2C

You dare bring. The Crane Wives. Into this peaceful household.

Never Love an Anchor no less.

RELATING THE SONG TO THE BLORBO FROM MY SHOW NO LESS

The audacity.

Anyway.

Yeah it makes me think about how Sabo left Ace and Luffy on his own accord at the end. Of course it was a last resort but he left them because he knew that this was the only way for them all to be free.

He left knowing that he would probably not see him until they were 17. Or maybe even never again.

He left them so that they could be safe. Because as long as long as he was with him, as far as he could see, hands would still try to claim him, resulting in the ones he loves getting hurt.

There was no winning for Sabo or any of them. As long as he tried delaying the inevitable, it just never would have happened.

He had to give up what he loved so he could keep it.

And then after he regains his memories, him thinking how much he’s changed. His claws might hurt the one he loves so dearly, even though at this point he doesnt even know him anymore. What if when Luffy finds out that he was alive, it only hurts him deeper. Knowing that there was someone who would have made a difference that day wasnt there. Reliving not only that day in the moment of reuniting, but the say he lost Sabo, too.

I dont find it strange that Sabo didnt try to reunite with Luffy until dressrosa. And in fact i think that reuniting with luffy is something he did as an absolute last resort. I think he truly didnt want to meet him that day at all.

In the anime alone, it doesnt much show it, but in the manga and the Episode of Sabo his hesitance and nerves are really clear to me. He takes a second before he starts walking to talk to luffy. His hand is clutched and shaking. He walks as slowly as he can. And also he only does it after he knows that Luffy cant get the fruit.

They both need that fruit safe. An heirloom of their precious brother, the only thing they have left that can life on from him.

If Luffy could’ve finished that tournament, im fairly certain Sabo would’ve never revealed himself.

I think he feels like he might hurt luffy if he did, but i also think that he didnt feel he deserved it. To reunite with Luffy after all that time. After all that happened.

Going back to the song, the lyrics

“So, I did the only thing that i could And severed the rope to set you sailing from my harbor.”

Even though it was Sabo who went sailing from the harbor, what he was doing was sever the rope from his connections with luffy and Ace so that they could grow and be free without worrying about being held back by him and the weight of his life keeping him suffocating at the bottom of the harbor he’s being drowned in.

If sabo had successfully left Goa that day, and he had reunited with Ace or Luffy somewhere down the line, i think he would act the same way he did in dressrosa that day. I think he would feel his baggage is too much, someone could be after him. And he wouldnt want to reunite. Especially after how he left them.

To me, that letter didnt read as a “i hope i see you again”, but a “goodbye forever”. Which i mean,,,, it was one, at least in Ace’s case, so … 🤷‍♀️ kill me

Anyway, the sentencing of your crimes of Crane Wives-ing me will be capital punishment, i hope you understand.

Thanks for the ask!

[biolumien]

hi hi!!! i love ur hoshina fics so much wooaagh you write him so well and each fic has me thinking !!!! i like how characterized him here!!!!

this one doesnt have to be an x reader but fans self Wuah id like to ask hoshina + kaiju no. 10 with like a symbiote sorta deal with the combat suit ?! i was rereading the bit when he got deployed with the suit for the first time and their dynamics clashing was so wuoaah and im jus a sucker for vice captain and how cool he is in his suit kw

notes: wahhh!! thank you so much... i have often thought about kaiju no 10 and hoshina as well... i hope this is what you were looking for....!

with 10

not quite an x reader. a reader is barely mentioned... hm. there's a bit of phrasing that can come off as ideation kaiju no 8 spoilers, too! word count: 911

there’s something different about you.

hoshina’s brow furrows when he hears the voice of kaiju no. 10 sneering in his head. as he grew to synchronize with the suit more and more, he found that the suit almost seemed to sink into his skin, form a secondary membrane around him, the almost scorpion-like tail as natural as anything. 

“i don’t know what you mean.”

you know exactly what i mean.

back when you fought me last, you were just like me.

swept up in it all.

hoshina remembers. fighting kaiju no. 10 was difficult, brutalizing–horrible. out loud, he’d said he’d never want to fight a numbered kaiju like that one-on-one again. but, in his head–it was exhilarating in a way that he’d never be able to describe in words without sounding insane. it was the adrenaline, right? it was the adrenaline, the blood-pumping feeling of finally being alive in a fight.

no. 10 had been right.

there was nothing quite like fighting an enemy that was just as powerful as you–or possibly more powerful, even by a fraction. it was that constant back and forth that got the blood pumping, made you feel truly alive. hoshina knew it well. every fight he lunged into against a bigger, tougher kaiju was him throwing all his chips onto the betting table, a smile on his face as he declared himself all in.

he’d said he’d never do it again.

and yet he’d donned kaiju no.10 like this for the express purpose of fighting more numbered kaiju. 

and it was horrifying how comfortable the suit was. how in sync he could be with kaiju no. 10. he focuses, commanding kaiju no. 10 to coalesce around his hands–and the suit responds, shifting across his body to form concentrated, claw-like shapes. it felt right, like he and kaiju no. 10 were always the same person.

he laughs.

he’d be just like kafka if he thought that.

“i can still be swept up in all of it.”

hoshina’s voice wavers at the last second, and he winces. 

you lie.

kaiju no. 10 doesn’t sound angry.

it was cliche to say it sounded disappointed, but that’s what it seemed to be. quietly, quietly disappointed. as quiet as an angry, speaking kaiju could be. the kaiju’s intent pulsed across his arms, and hoshina watches as his hand moves upwards, flexing his fingers for him. he can hear kaiju no. 10’s quiet displeasure.

hoshina should be terrified that kaiju no. 10 had such control over his body like this–two beings sharing the same body, practically, each fighting for control of his form. 

but he was calm. all too calm. 

there’s something else in your heart now. it’s not the thrill of the fight anymore. 

you didn’t care about anything else before.

but now you’re worried. you’re worried about coming out of this alive.

“you’re saying i can’t value my life?” hoshina draws his katana, feeling the weight of it. it almost feels alive in his palms, humming with electricity as the suit responds, pulsing with power. he can almost feel kaiju no. 10 burying its way deeper into him, pulling into his chest, trying to find the thing that’d make him tick. and he watches as his hand does the same, moving towards his chest.

you don’t value your own life.

kaiju no. 10’s voice was frank.

i felt that. your revulsion at me saying the truth. but it’s true. you don’t value your own life. why else would you search so fucking desperately for something that proved you alive? you swing the sword because you know it’s fun. because it makes the blood run through your muscles, expands your lungs. it’s as easy as the most fun breath you can take.

but that’s not my point.

kaiju no. 10–soshiro hoshina’s–hand presses at his chest.

something else beats here.

you want to live. not because you think you need to.

but because you don’t want to hurt the one person you love more than anything else.

“...”

you’d even give up fighting for them. isn’t that so?

“that’s not true.”

but it is.

hoshina’s heart pounds.

it was true. when he thought of fighting, he thought of your face. he’d wonder what you’d say if he showed up in front of you littered with wounds, and the terrifying thought of appearing as an unmarked corpse in front of you terrified him beyond all words.

but mark my words, hoshina. you and i are the same. so believe me when i say, you’d find a white-picket fence life boring. devoid of all value and color.

but i’m fucking stuck with you.

kaiju no. 10’s voice is venomous.

“hoshina.”

okonogi’s voice sounds in his ear.

“you’re deploying.”

“you hear that?” hoshina says to kaiju no. 10, trying to keep the panic out of his voice–the utter and sheer panic that he had been found out completely, all his secrets laid bare and open for the taking. “we’re going.”

fine.

hoshina couldn’t get used to it, kaiju no. 10’s form rippling across his, lines of muscle and sinew forming atop his own arms, crawling across his torso. it was like diving underwater–but not into a pool, where you could at least see the bottom–no. this was diving right into an ocean canyon, only being able to trust your own strength to pull yourself back out. 

but someday you’re going to come back to this conversation.

and you’re going to realize that i’m right.

[jumexju]

SUGGESTION

Pairing !! : Carl Grimes / Fem Reader

Fic Type !! : Headcanons, Fluff, Comfort

CW !! : canon typical mentions of violence/death, gn reader unless i specify otherwise, trauma/sa mentions

Summary !! : Just some fluff hcs about carl cuz i miss him

Notes !! : feeding carl fans after I finished the series like a year ago (bcs i rewatched it) (I love that white boy) enjoy lololol :3

✦ MASTERLIST

ᰔ if youre a melomaniac, carl would def be stuffing vinyls into his bag while out on runs just in case you happen to like the music (he gets happy when u get happy)

ᰔ carl n you def sit in his room just to listen to music (lowk parallel play)

ᰔ speaking of parellel play, hes a sucker for it !! you dont gotta be doing something together, even if the two of you are doing your own thing, he prefers having you near him while doing it

ex : he's reading comics while youre drawing/writing/etc

ᰔ carl likes hearing abt your hobbies and if you got the random knowledge flavor of the tism, he loves hearing the random knowledge you bestow upon him at the strangest times

ex : "carl" "yeah?" "did you know that playing instruments can make you smarter?" ".. how?" *proceeds to explain how the brain works*

ᰔ if you play an instrument, carl loves hearing you play songs you know or have even written yourself (hes your number one fan!!!!!

ᰔ if you wear glasses, you probably lost them/cant use them anymore since the prescription has to be updated. SO : carl would do his best to help you with that

ᰔ he'd read to you if your eyes get tired and describe sights to you if your eye sight's that bad (he finds you squinting adorable, but he wont tell you that)

ᰔ he rarely ever takes off his sheriffs hat but he finds it endearing when you take it off his head and put it on yourself (he thinks u look cute chat)

ᰔ if you love to read, carls bringing you books he found on runs and likes to have you read to him, esp if you have a good reading voice

ᰔ carl sometimes struggles with his self esteem which just got worse with the loss of his eye, because of this he feels real warm when you tell him he's pretty and cup his cheek like he's your treasure

ᰔ imo carl's a pretty shy guy so he doesn't really like any pda unless its like hand holding n stuff (love this guy fr)

ᰔ he does like cheek n mouth kisses but like not in public chat sorry but that boy has like a 6/10 rizz (teenage loser rizz fr)

ᰔ michonne teases him about his affections towards you and he gets all red n sheepish (i love you michonne), he also lowk rants about u to her

ᰔ he likes locking arms with u bcs it helps him walk straight n not bump into you (due to his eye screwing with his depth perception and coordination), but also cuz he likes feeling close to u

ᰔ he escapes to the forest with you to read or just explore outside sometimes

ᰔ basic but he lets you trim his hair if youre experienced in cutting hair (i.e : if you cut your own hair)

ᰔ carl sometimes doesnt like when people touch him bcs of what happened to him (s4 2nd to last episode) and he doesnt open up abt it, but if u ask him he'll tell u

ᰔ during those moments, he prefers to just lay his head on your shoulder and just be there with you thinking about nothing

ᰔ carl would listen to descendents so bad guys trust me

ᰔ stargazing with him is a dream

ᰔ if you have trauma from sa he makes an effort to understand you and tried to get you to be open and honest with him bcs it helps him better understand your situation

---- ok now for my alt readers ----

ᰔ if youre a metalhead, he finds it so cute when he sees you get all dark n immersed in the song youre listening to and if you sing it dramatically? he's filled with a tenderness for you

ᰔ if youre a music nerd he loves it when you tell him about the bands youre into and the lore !!

ex : "yeah Ozzy bit an actual bat once cuz he thought it was a prop, he had to go to the hospital after," "im sorry- he bit a bat??"

ᰔ yes its the zombie apocalypse but that doesnt mean you cant raid hot topic/thrift stores/abandoned shop for clothes slay !!! if you're goth, he wears your studded bracelets (they remind him of you)

ᰔ he also finds the music you listen to romantic and lowk endearing (joy division listeners wya???), probably makes you playlists in cassette form so you can both listen to them

ᰔ he'd let you paint his nails black sorry its the truth and he slays with it

ok im going to sleep

bye chat

[sofiaruelle]

Oh wow, I was not expecting a whole drawing of them trying the dance and falling around. It's very beautifully done, I rmmbr just staring in awe for a while at first 🩵

I have another odd question about the she trio/ass gang, which u don't have to draw

Cause I saw a little video of Harvey going hard; dancing to MiseryxCPR(xReese's Puffs) and it had me laughing for a long while, and I wondered who would be the ones singing the song if say the stardrop saloon had some kind of karaoke night

My head tells me both Sam and Abagail would end up doing Reeses's puffs, but that would leave one of the other songs without a host :/

Harvey would probably end up saying stuff about how cpr doesn't require mouth-to-mouth anymore or smthn, and Shane probably worried Marnie would walk in-or just, too drunk off his ass having fun to care 🤔

nah man i just have to draw them. and oh look I even have another essay under readmore! 😂 😂 😂 😂 😂

✨Also my commissions are open! ✨ if anyone is interested! :D< please reblog/share the og comm sheet ,if you can! it would help me a lot thank you!!!

Honestly i can imagine them all just being pissed drunk before attempting to sing the song😂. i know fersure the SHE trio would require more liquid courage for it (heck even to join/start a kareoke sesh!)

Shane gives of major Kareoke Tito (uncle) vibes~. Yknow that one tito who specifically sings “My Way” by Frank Sinatra and has a bunch of classic rock songs under his belt. He’s not good at singing perse but he can at least carry a tune. He and Sebastian would totally connect with singing Misery. but like Shane vaguely knows the song (he’s heard it on radio a bajillion times but he doesnt know the name of the song so its not quite on his playlists) so he when he’s super sloshed and can barely read the screen, he tries to sing it from memory and misses a couple of the words. but hey! at least he knows the chorus and is in tune.

Meanwhile Sebastian has Misery “secretly” on his go to playlist. He doesnt admit it (the songs is too main stream and overplayed but he stumbled upon a vocaloid cover and rest is history.) He definitely always chooses the song every kareoke sesh (although not his first choice) and he’s passionate about it even has a little performance too(lots of head bangs, fist pumps and that classic 2000s disney knees bent together, feet wide apart moment)! For his duet with shane he’s the first to shed a lil tear and that gets shane going and they cry through most of the song in their own lil misery world ignoring the chaos around them.

Sam is a fucking menace for singing CPR and I do agree He and Abigail would go off on Reese’s Puff BUT i can definitely imagine being commited to singing CPR (we all know he’d awkwardly twerk). Especially if it was to troll on Harvey who probably thought it was a wholesome song about doing CPR at a specific BPM. 😂

Harvey good lird poor harvey! He’s probably the most sober out of everyone. It doesnt help that he’s no light weight + lowkey becomes designated baby sitter everytime (he’s soooooooo going charge them extra in the morning if they come stumbling into his clinic asking for some hangover cure). He was so excited about adding a new song to CPR tempo list he was gonna teach at the nex first aid classes!! Who would have thought that a singer with a cute wholesome name like Cupcakke was just so… sooooo SCANDALOUS!!! He should have known Sam was up to something the moment he grabbed him by the shoulder!!! “This is medical malpractice, Samson!!!” He spends the whole trying to sush Sam who’s having so much fun laughing at Harvey’s reaction 😂

Abigal. F e r a l.

Help! Elliot has fallen over! He honestly just has a mild peanut allergy but he has been drinking and hooo boi. thats not good. thank goodness Harvey is sobered up (with the help of Sam ofc) and has an epipen on hand! Catch Leah cackling from her seat by the bar before assisting Harvey.

[kiththecat]

GOD. JESUS CHRIST. okay im planning to write a full comment on the actual chapter but i had to come here about this specific bit of symbolism because i need to COME TO YOUR FRONT DOOR PERSONALLY AND SCREAM

the motif of branzy shaking when he is in true, genuine fear. such a little thing that you wouldnt notice if you didn't know, but when you do, you can't unsee it. how easily it gives away that he isn't actually scared, even when he's acting like it.

he shakes out of his skin when he first meets clown, only to slowly stop the more they interact, and clown can only get him to tremble again by doing shit like dipping him over the side of the ferris wheel cart.

he shakes after leo's visit. you literally wrote the line:

"The corner of Branzy’s lip turns up. His hands are involuntarily shaking. That’s normal and fine. He still feels betrayed by his body."

IM GONNA KILL YOU /pos

HELL, CLOWN EVEN POINTS IT OUT!!! branzy WASN'T shaking during the confrontation with minute, and it's what makes clown figure out that branzy's patheticness is all an act!!!

“You didn’t seem as scared as you were when we met either,” Clown observes. “You even slipped up out there, didn’t you? If you weren’t thinking things through, you wouldn’t have been nearly as calm. You used to tremble, Branzy.”

AUUUGHHHH.

SO THE FACT THAT BRANZY HAS BEEN SHAKING SO MUCH DURING THE HOMESTUCK ARC.

he shakes when he sees the magician's body right before he and clown sleep together, and later when he sees her in the bathroom mirror. he shakes while drinking the laced water. he shakes while playing cards with rek, after being told the park might reopen without him. he shakes when the magician's assistant implies he should kill himself.

he's genuinely, truly terrified. all the time. he isn't just acting anymore. how can he, when he's lost all but one of his marbles. he's so distraught with everything happening to him lately, i'm surprised his body doesnt feel like a live wire 24/7.

(honestly, it might be. his hands are shaking during the meeting at the end of the chapter. even when he's fully dissociating, he's still scared. fuck, man.)

but what got me to really put all of this together was THIS bit in the most recent chapter:

A pair of hands darkens Branzy’s world, and a chipper voice calls out, “Guess who!” To which Branzy yelps, heartbeat skyrocketing. In the half a second it takes for him to scramble away, his body has already decided to quiver.

he's started to shake around clown again. and not even just because of an upsetting conversation or action. all clown does is sneak up behind him and surprise him as a silly joke, something he wouldn't even have blinked at before he came to this house.

it's uncomfortably similar to the start of chapter 5, where he trembles in response to clown sneaking up behind him. the difference is that at that time, clown put a SCYTHE to his throat,

(oh my god. in the middle of that, i was going to write that another difference was that branzy hadn't seen clown in two weeks because he had disappeared to go try and kill parrot, minute, and leo. but that's not a difference. it's not a difference at all. clown confirms that he had been gone nearly two weeks in the bedroom conversation. because he was busy dealing with work. killing people. hell, possibly even trying to kill parrot, minute, and leo specifically! GOD i'm going to fucking KILL YOU. PARALLELS.)

anyway. my point is is that branzy responds to clown coming up behind him and putting his hands over his eyes in the same way he responded to clown coming up behind him and putting a goddamn scythe to his neck; by shaking. with genuine fear, because he can't PRETEND to shake. he is just as scared by his partner(?), a man who he has MADE OUT AND SLEPT WITH, now, as he he was when they were still barely more than acquaintances AND HE PUT A LARGE BLADE TO HIS THROAT. DOES ANYONE HEAR ME!??!?!?!?!?!?!?

he's regressed. he's actually, fully regressed. we're in chapter 18 and im drawing parallels to an event that happened in chapter 5. holy fucking shit, things are dire.

i just... god, and the fact that clown doesn't even notice? the fact that HE was the person to call branzy out on not actually being scared of minute because he wasn't shaking.... and he doesn't even recognize branzy is doing it towards him now. fuck, man. i know branzy is employing an advanced tactic known as "make out with my boyfriend so he doesn't question all my strange behaviors" but... FUCKING HELL, CLOWN. STOP THINKING WITH YOUR DICK, YOUR MANS IS GOING THROUGH IT RIGHT NOW.

(btw i'm probably gonna go into it more during my actual comment on the chapter, but i have an entire thing written in my head about the parallel of both the magician's assistant and branzy being terrified and in danger, but none of the people watching them realize it. none of them saw the signs, even when it was all right in front of them. god.)

it just... it tears me up inside. out of everything that has happened during this arc, the fact that branzy has become scared of clown again breaks my heart the most. it feels so wrong, especially the fact that i don't even think branzy realizes it. i know if clown realizes, it's going to destroy him, and honestly? highkey want it to. get fucked, jester boy. it's your turn on the angst.

i don't know how to end this. just.... motifs good. i love it.

i dont even know what to say this is the kind of insight that hurts me back. like i've read it like ten times and im still like "why would i do that to him:((" buuuuuuut if branzy didnt want to be tortured he shouldn't be so torturable <- lines that both the author and the titular jester of the work would say to justify their horrible treatment of branzycraft. also im so so patiently looking forward to hearing more of your thoughts im gonna be so normal about it :3

[aaasdgnklm]

watching wemmbus uu the war vid

PLS PLS PLS I WANT ZAM TO DIE SO BAD (ik he doesnt)

“is this really how you wanna go out wemmbu?” I could write a senior project on zams tone of voice when he talks to wemmbu.

UGH ZAM WHAT JS WRONG WITH YOU WHY IS HE SUCH A GOOD VILLAIN HES ACTUALLY SO PSYCHOTIC I LOVE HIM SM UUGGGGHHHHHH

kind of crazy that zam actually has some moral high ground in that he values peoples deaths much more than wemmbu does, wemmbu doesnt hesitate to kill people and the deaths of others dont effect him much. zam on the other hand is actively disgusted by the idea of killing anyone unless he has to, he’ll imprison and torture and manipulate whoever gets in his way but he wont kill unless thats the only way to keep them away- like with wemmbu, zam isnt hesitating to threaten wemmbu and his teams actual lives because he knows that killing wemmbu is the only way to keep him away. but even as he threatens wemmbus teams lives, wemmbu just laughs because hes never cared as much as zam.

oh I’m really not normal abt how close zam was standing to him in that sceneeee

“pangi!! pangi 🥺🥺 help meee!! thats what you sound like.”

the visual of zam and his three guards fully maxed out standing in front of wemmbu tangled in cobwebs in half broken armour I wish I could draw :(

“is your plan to wait for my elytra to break— cause that might work imma be honest with you—“

omg pangiiiii :3333 (was watching the colour the world vod bevofre this I’m really pangi hyped rn)

holy shit loppezz! shes important later! I didnt know she was on zams guard originally ngl i feel like so many important side characters started as zams guard and then turn into invis mafia and then became their own independent people once the mafia disbanded (side note finding some straggling invis mafia who no longer have ash but keep the beliefs would be really cool)

what would win in a fight: a massive work of engineering genius designed to commit horrible destruction and acts of terrorism, or blac rok in sky

egg actually trolling 💀

ooo not egg saying the lesson wemmbu is still trying to learn a season and a half later

wemmbu and egg taking turns being freaky about each other

wemmbu and eggs relationship where they’re both comfortable splitting up and doing their own thing and meeting back up later is so refreshing coming from spokes dependancy on mapicc and total crash out without him

YES! ! ! BECOME WHAT YOU MOST FEAR! ! ! ! ! ! ! YOU ARE THE VILLAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!

“you say you wanna have fun but you wanna wipe half the people on the server- how do you have fun then?”

“BRO THAT IS FUN”

no way wemmbus gonna let ro die right???

the duel between flame and ro is kind of insane because basically this happened in flames pov recently and I bet uu!flame was thinking about this duel the whole time and half expecting wemmbu or someone to show up and interrupt the same way

NOT WEMMBU HAVING A SHRED OF HUMANITY WHAT IS THIS????

“and then theres pangi whos uh, whos lowkey trash but hes close with zam soo”

(why does mane sound like hes stretching the entire conversation)

see the way manes talking it so so sounds like hes bullshitting about being as good as flame but from ls I know flame is only slightly better than him so wtf is happening

“you seem awfully excited to betray your friends and family”

“well… theyre not my friends.”

flame and mane brothers confirmed he didnt deny the family part (ye ik theyre cousins irl and the whole blindfold brothers thing but I still think theyre sweet)

“zam empire was the strongest team mane, I dont get why youd betray.”

“bro it was only the strongest team because I was on it.”

oh shitttttttttt that was lowkey kinda colddd

also “I’m not scared of flame. maybe a year ago, but not anymore”

“ummm we’re basically gonna blackmail him into betraying his nation and getting his friends killed :3”

ok why was pentar and yungys reunion kind of adorable yungy hears pentars voice and theyre immediately both so excited + yungys complaint of not being able to even see pentar ugh theyre adorable

NO PLEASE DONT MAKE PENTAR KILL YUNGY HES JUST A BABY I LOVE HIM

this is like a murder mystery but we’re following the murder as he slowly picks everyone off starting with the weakest

EHEHEH FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

“you know youre nothing without me right?” the manipulation is crazyyyy

“yo mane is this winnable!?”

“hahaha I dont think so!”

bro where IS parrot actually I’m 2/3 of the way in and bro has still not shown up

why do all of zams guards glaze him so hard 💀

its so funny how zams guards are just being toxic basically and calling wemmbu weak and coward really generic insults but zams insults are so specific. so targeted. theyre meant for wemmbu and theyre meant to hurt him and him specifically.

wemmbu just pulling out more and more armour is actually so funny

zam literally like yeah but I like him :3

ONCE AGAIN THE VISION OF ZAM CROUCHING OVER WEMMBU TANGLED IN COBS I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DRAW

are these hearts 🤣🤣🤣

also once again the image of wemmbu standing weak and defenceless with no armour surrounded by zams fully kitted guards watching mane and flame fight on equal ground

is this the equivalent of mane and wemmbu breaking up over text 😭

this is weirdly calm like it just feels inevitable

does this count as one strike cause if I was parrot I would NOT let this pass

why is everyone on this server so ok with dying

THE FACT THAT THE MUSIC STARTED UP AGAIN WHEN ZAM SHOWED BACK UP BECAUSE HES THE ONLY ONE THAT WEMMBU ACTUALLY CARED ENOUGH ABOUT TO GET AN ADRENALINE SPIKE FROM HIM SHOWING UP

aww zam apologized OH MY GOD IS THAT CLOWN PIERCE

WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WAHT WHATW DGWJDBDKF

[puhpandas]

hi!! :) i saw ur post asking for beckory hcs and unfortunately my brain wont think up any beckory hcs rn BUT i do remember some you have that id love to mention

I remember (i think???) you said somewhere that neither tony or gregory really ever confess. Not like “will you be my boyfriend”, instead its kind of a slow progress where they over time get more and more comfortable doing romantic gestures. Its never outwardly said but both tony and gregory see it and can feel it and know its there. Know SOMETHING is there, and i absolutely adoreeeee that. Like they just do their own thing, they dont worry about sticking a label on it. Like gregory will give tony drawings of fronnie, and tony keeps every single one. They’ll grow comfortable enough to hold hands and they just slowly become more and more comfortable with being romantic with each other. They both notice something is there but arent worried about labeling it, it doesnt need a label, its just what feels right for them (Queerplatonic beckory…..)

And then you said something in response to my post about beckory hcs where Tony is 19 when he realizes he wants to marry gregory and i think thats so cute. And im curious on how you think the eventual proposal would go. Tbh i feel like it wouldnt be anything huge, its just in private when theyre both hanging out with each other and tony casually pops the question (i say casually but he was probably a nervous wreck) but its still a sweet and romantic moment. And then a few days later gregory is hanging out with cassie and hes casually like “oh yeah im engaged to tony” and cassie is like “WHAAAAT”. But id still love to know how you’d imagine it would go :)

Also i do have one little hc actually, its just that gregory is surprisingly good at rollerskating, and tony sucks at it. They hold hands as they skate so tony doesnt fall and embarrass himself

yes!!! I think a good way to describe how I see them is a mix of queerplatonic and romantic but at the end of the day I just love seeing their relationship as unable to be labeled and that's okay. like their relationship is so complicated and deep bc of the shit that's happened to them 😭 and they're both so individually deep and complex as people they're bound to have so many different feelings about things including eachother. they definitely butt heads sometimes but overall they make eachother better because of that drive to stay close and fully involved in eachother's lives. human relationships are just so intricate I think it's interesting if it's not fit into one specific box bc irl it's just truly not always like that

the idea of anything happening to what they have going on even earlier in their relationship especially after both of them thought they 'lost' the other (Gregory literally thinking Tony was long dead by his own hands before he showed up one day at his doorstep lmao) things seem so much less world ending and important at that point especially just after what they've been through in general trauma wise. like to Gregory after (remembering) everything he's lost with his entire family being murdered and his life being completely uprooted and stuff he doesn't really see a lot of smaller things as much of a problem lmao. and that'd improve Tony's mental health and just character in general subconsciously adopting that because he takes a chill pill and isn't so high strung and self righteous about everything anymore . and it only gets more apparent and better as they get older (all this starts happening when they're like 14)

and for the proposal thing it's funny bc when I said that HC about Tony being 19 when he realizes it was because I actually have some wedding wips regarding some of that so it was on the mind! beckory isn't the focus but they definitely have importance and I was actually considering cutting it completely but this ask probably just made me decide to keep it in lol. the scene in question is actually exactly what u were talking about with how he would 'propose', but a little different. hopefully I can get it out soon lol. the beckory focus would be a sequel fic (oneshot) to a different fic (also a oneshot) and that one wouldn't be posted until July for reasons so hopefully around then I can get myself to write it. lol hopefully I can even finish the first fic o_o'

the roller skating HC is so real lol I like to think Gregory wants to be a skater boy so bad but he's better at skating tragically 💔 Tony would be so bad at it but someone sticking behind with him would make it fun for him

[sturniolo04]

Cooking Dinner C.S.

Bf!Chris x Gf!Fem!Reader

Summary: in which chris distracts anna from cooking dinner.

Anna's POV: Im standing in the kitchen preparing dinner for me and my boyfriend chris. I have my airpods in and im quietly humming along to the music. I decided to make mace and cheese just because im lazy.

Suddenly i feel two arms wrap around my waist and i scream and the the person with the cheese grater.

chris: Ow what the fuck Anna

i hear chris groans, rubbing his head

Anna; you idiot you scared me

i say smacking him with a towel

chris: damn calm down

he says raising his arms in exasperation

Anna: dont sneak up on me

i whine crossing my arms

chris: ok ok im sorry babe

he says hugging me and kissing my forehead

Anna: now go shower you stink

i tease

chris: hey working out isnt easy

he says walking to our room

-Time Skip-

I hear chris' footsteps draw closer just as I place the Mac and Cheese in the oven. I stand up straight and look at him. He's leaning on the door frame smirking at me

Anna: what

i ask feeling slightly self conscious. he doesnt say anything but walks towards slowly.

Anna; Babe are you okay

i say backing into the counter, staring into his eyes, trying to figure out his emotions. he walks to me wrapping his arms around me, placing a chaste kiss on my lips. he pulls me closer to him and then i finally feel the problem

Anna: Fuck this will not end well

she thinks

Anna: Ok Ok how about we eat then we can do this

i say trying to untangle myself from him but he just lets out a low chuckle and suddenly i am turned around. he stands behind me and whispers into my ear

chris: babygirl you dont know how much you turn me on

Anna thinks for some time and decides to cooperate.

I lean back into him and press myself into him, he reacts by letting out a gasp

chris; you know what? i cant wait anymore

he says. he places a hand on my back pushing me down onto the counter. i let out a gasp as my skin comes into contact with the cold marble counter. he pulls my sweats off with my underwear

chris: would you look at that. you were trying to stop me but youre wet

he mocks pushing two fingers in. Whining i push back onto his fingers needing more friction.Suddenly his fingers leave me feeling empty. but next i feel the head of his dick rubbing up and down my entrance. he continues teasing me and then slowly pushes in.

chris: uhhhuh there's that tightness i missed

he groans out. he starts to speed up his thrusts holding onto my hips.im not able to produce any words. All i can do us moan and claw at the counter looking for something to hold onto. he slows down and changes the angle of his hips. A gasp leaves my mouth

chris: there it is

he says as he continues to hammer that spot

Anna: Please please please please please

is all that leaves my mouth as i feel my release nearing. my mind goes blank and my mouth opens as i feel the flood of pleasure rush over me

chris: Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!

chris exclaims as he spills into me. he pulls out and picks me up.before he carries me out of the kitchen i tap his arm.

chris: hm

he says looking at me. i point to the oven not being able to produce words. he puts me down and walks over to the oven and turns it off.

chris: let's get you cleaned up

he says carrying me to the bathroom.

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[crushedsweets]

Can you share headcanons or more ninakate drawings? :)

YES I CANNNN!!! ok usual disclaimer, my AU drastically changes both characters!

i'm using this to focus on nina and 'the chaser'! mostly just rambling about how they would connect, thoughts on their relationship, whatever. not very romantic :') naturally I subdue the chaser a lot here

ok so. 'the chaser' isnt really kate, like most HCs go. the chaser is a violent, animalistic pawn of slendy that tears through everything slendy wants it to. she killed lauren, someone kate loved long before she got sick.

and dont get me wrong, nina is not some special exception. however, the chaser targets threats; lauren trying to take the pages. nina isnt a threat(slendy even sees her as an asset), but the chaser will drag her out of the mines by the leg with little care.

toby would escort nina if she's being stubborn about visiting kate. kate keeps telling both of them to stop trying to see her at the mines, saying she'll just come to the cabin more often. but they know she wont, they know she'll just sit and rot if nobody comes and drags her out - effectively leaving her completely isolated and only getting sicker and sicker.

i like the idea of the chaser eventually trusting Toby, and if Nina is always paired with him, she'll eventually be okay with Nina. especially seeing Nina tentatively bring her paper to scribble on, setting down bags of food for the chaser to tear into, water bottles, etc.

ok this is really goofy nobody laugh. you guys know that scene in tarzan where he's like poking at jane, lifting her hair and squeezing her face and stuff? i kinda see the chaser and nina like that.

theyre NEVER left alone together for the first few months, toby doesnt even let the chaser get close to nina, but maybe nina and kate are going on a walk and kate starts getting a headache and looks up and her eyes are glossed over and she hunches over and nina knows thats not kate anymore. nina taking nervous steps back, trying to figure out what she's supposed to do without toby, the chaser stalking forward. nina stumbles back and hits a tree, slides down and covers her head, immediately thinking of the time she caught kate tearing a grown man apart.

im just SO OBSESSED WITH THE CHASER BEING CURIOUS ABOUT NINA. the chaser knows ninas not a threat(+slendy likes nina), she associates nina with toby, and nina is so flashy and clams up so awkwardly. has the chaser crouched in front of a curled up nina, pushing her head back against a tree and tugging at her hoops. peeling off a fake eyelash and cringing at it. trying to bite her acrylics(in which nina yanks her hand away and the chaser stares at her hella pissy.)

really loving the idea of the chaser having a massive ass headache, curled on the floor, incapable of fighting. nina coming along and soothing its hair down and pulling it into a little hug and just sitting there. hurts a little to be squeezed so damn tight by the chaser, but she gets over it. . .

i dont think kate will EVER trust the chaser, but ninas a bit more optimistic. she'll go to the mines without toby now. she's learned to be quiet and gentle doing it, rather than her usual jumping and giggling and squealing. gives both kate AND the chaser time to wake up and come to her.

and ok ninas still totally sick in the head. while the chaser doesnt fully see her as a friend(or girlfriend), more like... a doll. ? a companion? something to pull around and grab and examine. and nina THINKS shes some special exception, she thinks she's so special that the chaser loves her, she loves how fucking terrifying it is while just squeezing her face, loves bragging to Toby and seeing his horrified face when he realizes Nina was left alone with it.

but frankly i am scared for nina cuz she is nowhere near as safe as she thinks she is. i could see kate starting to actively avoid nina. hiding out in the radio tower so nina cant find her, trying to push her away, telling her she doesnt want to see her. tell her slendy doesnt want her around, fake a headache, all of this. drama drama drama miscommunication issues etc etc ...

eventually nina needs to work on boundaries, listening to people, understanding she isnt that special, looking at things very objectively, actually examining danger, not seeking thrills, etc... all of that. big obstacle.

but nina loves the chaser, even if the chaser doesnt love her. and kates so fucking grateful it hasnt hurt nina yet.

[nikanono]

I know I'm not active on here anymore, but I need a place to get this off my chest.

And Tumblr is where I found my creativity so I guess it fits

It has been so difficult to create anything as of recent. Ive lost so much confidence in what I do with so many shortcomings with my art. And I feel as if part of it is my fault- other parts its completely out of my hands.

Yes, Ai art and the industry tossing creatives aside hasnt been the most encouraging thing in the world. Its a good reason as to why i've been feeling not so great with creating things.

In 2022, I suffered a really bad art burnout. I didnt draw anything for a year. I started to kick it back up again in 2023. I found a lot of comfort in spending a lot of time drawing my OC's- which was far different than what I used to do- which was a shit ton of fanart. It definetely ignighted my spark and I really started to draw what I loved.

I really felt I was diving back into what I was really passionate about.

But I guess i could never escape how badly I relied on external validation for things I make. Because if I truely reflect, I've mostly drawn things for others. And I kept tellling myself that that was something I found comfort in. Getting feedback from an external source is where I grounded my validation for so many years and I really need to break out of that habit. And I'm back in a rut where I'm not finding interest or enjoyment in it anymore.

But its rough- I know OC content doesnt get much attention online, not compared to fanart at least. But seeing numbers dwindle on social def hit the brain a little to hard. I know I cant ever beat the algorithm but it still does suck a whole lot

The art burnout at the start of this year hit me so hard like a 500kg Eagle Strike. I can tell that im forcing any art that I put out. But I look at the recent stuff i make, wether it be a sketch or an illustration, and just feel so disheartened. I dont hate it, I dont critique it- I just feel disheartned by it.

And I know its affecting other parts in my life. Im a lot more moody and irritable, and I have this lingering worry that its starting to affect my social circles. I do my best to check in with my friends and partner but anxiety really just isnt kind at times.

I know time is going to be my friend in overcoming burnout- I know I've overworked myself. I just hate how I'm starting to resent the things I was so passionate about.

But really, I needed to get this off my chest somewhere.

Thanks for hanging friends