#my issue is smth like a comment said actually

[ralvezfanatic]

having memory problems but being told I'm just being annoying or stubborn + getting told i cant have actually memory issues bc im too young ??

like do u think i forget stuff for fun ? do u think i want u to yell at me because i forgot something ??

like im not forgetting something to annoy you, i genuinely forget so many things and its annoying to me too.

its frustrating because nobody listens to me or understands that i genuinely struggle with my memory and they just think im stupid

[nightmare8-420]

tw uhhh???? sorta ish implied possible abuse??? i have no idea how to explain this. sorry. /vent / this is so long im basically reciting one of those core issues that reply again and again

this is so stupid shouldnt this stay in the noted app

isnt this basically the open notes app?

what the fuckk everrr idc

how am i supposed to even start this. christ.

april 17th. 2022. i think at least. i dont have any of the pictures anymore. new phone and stuff. it was in april at least. i hate april for more than this reason, big factor though.

i was laying on the couch, early morning, 9-10 am ish if i remember. there was something said about going up to my fathers mothers house because she was insistant, yada yada, i zoned out, then asked for the schedule. [Fathers mothers name]s house then the store? i asked something of the like i think.

and i guess that was the wrong thing to say. she lit into me about god knows what, i can barely remember honestly. dont really wanna remember tbh. i remember some of the things she said, they make me feel disgusting just thinking about it. i wont talk about those.

it was like instead of being a normal ass rider she decided to wait 7 months and then just start fucking screaming. when i say screaming, i mean literal fucking screaming. not shouting. not talking loud. screaming. to the point shes done it so much i dont know how we havent gotten a noise complaint. or domestic violence report or something.

obviously me being 12 and an idiot, i totally took this 100% well!

i dont know why exactly i have been, but, i am to say the least, a paranoid man. kinda.?? is it paranoia if it started out as unrealistic and unjustifed but then became realistic and justified? obviously my ass hasnt trusted her since i was 8. ignoring medical issues, cheating on her husband and making me lie for her. etc. so of course, assuming that shed hit me or something bc tbh that woulsnt be shocking, i went outside, crying like goddamn i was crying bro. (note; unimportant but a habit whenever i start getting yelled at, sorta just shut down and agree with whatever they say, usually making plans on how to look like im doing what they say without actually doing it.) that stupid fucking gray sweater i was wearing. far too itchy ti be considered comfortable. shaking. vision blurrier than ever before (use this line for fanfic future j stg stg)

of course she comes out there yelling too! i think. or made me come back inside. i think it was the latter?? again, tried to forget about this. kinda hard to though tbh.

more yelling ensues, as usual, my father ends up taking me to his mothers house, because we planned to go anyways.

we didnt talk the whole ride there. he asked me on the street "still kinda upset?", god it was hard to get even a "kinda" out (note, blurry memory, dk if thats correct, pretty sure it is tho)

we went in. and i as he and them were greeting each other, i had to go to the bathroom so i wouldnt (or at least not be seen) cry. (my father worked most of the time since before i was born and theyre over protective so going mostly anywhere was always with my mother) it sucked. her bathroom really, REALLY sucks okay.

anyways i come out because i cant hide in there forever. i go into the kitchen, she has a 'gift' for me, she said so. it was a little bird house. yk the ones that arent really useable and just meant to be painted? yeah those. i actually like it still, never finished working on it though.

AND 50 FUCKINF DOLLARS FUCK YOU TO MY MOTHER I GOT 50 BUCKS OUT OF THIS BITCH 🖕🖕🖕

still sucked. (also as a note, i did smoke then, but i had left it purposefully underneath my dresser, incase she was like "HE SMOKES DID YOU KNOW THAT HUH? WHY SHOULDNT I BREATE THIS CHILD" i could be like "NUH UH I LEFT IT THERE FOR ANREASON" or some shit irdk my reasoning was so weird but id still do it today.

so after that, zoning out because god i dont remember the rest, we went to his at the time place of work (truck driver, chemicals, going to the yard to get stuff from truck to swtich it to another or just to clean or look at it is so normal i cant express it)

the yard is essentially an ass ton of those dusty gray small rocks. i stayed in the honda, it was a gray day, literally. looked like it was gonna rain.

i stayed in because everything was so much and if i got out, i probably wouldve collapsed just from being too into my own thoughts.

i guess at some point when she was yelling at me it turned into about school work and how i get nothing done.

theres actually still an app for it, but i dont think you can reset passwords, if you could, then idk how. the password was extremely long and stupid, like random numbers and letters literally. i always logged on on my laptop, by muscle memory, but the ohone keyboard is different so i texted my mother to ask if she knew, yk, to 'show initiative' and of course she was still being an ass. because why not right! so that made me feel more like shit and lowkey kinda helpless. she had been yelling sorta at my father too, so its not like i could just go get run over at this point, would make it worse on him (not actively what i was thinking but i think subconsciously)

finally he finished doing whatever he was doing, dont remember because too focused on smth else (care to guess what?)

he got back in the car and asked if there was anywhere else i wanted to go. i said something along the lines of "anywhere but home".

he said "i know, but we gotta go home at sometime.." i cant express his tone but ill try.

it was in that solem, "im about to start the process of before you cry and i can feel it but im trying not to." or "i know this isnt right, but everhthing else is wrong too and i just. cant. save. you."

i feel that its very worth mentioning that since he was 3 he was severely abused by his father and mother. as he puts it "every night was a fucking argument" i dont remember the exact words but hes stated multiple times because of said fights he used to go to bed without eating. (and his mother is SO fucking weird, i mean it in the shes literally told my mother and i quote "when his chest hair was coming in it was so sexy". im not kidding. this is a real quote from this woman. hes adopted. this makes it absolutely no better but im pretty sure thatd be her justification for that comment.)

[his first father, gene who is now thankfully rotting in hell <3, was an absolute piece of shit. a whore. an abuse. everything.

the next one, Jack because no motherfucker thats MY initial. was an alcoholic, a prick when he was drunk, but not too bad when sober, my father has told me how jacks parents used to. essentially chain him (his shirt or neck?? dont remember) to a clothes line 'so he wouldnt run off'. or smth very close. foggy memory. boils down to 'very sensitive to child abuse and doesnt take that shit' a W indeed.

third, MASON MENTIONED actually was good. he doesnt talk abt mason much (idk time period, dont think he was around too long, died of cancer i think? or tb. i think. also gene was only in his childhood. a bit of gene and then after the nexts where in adult hood)

then the last/most recent, Jimmy. hes like. fine ig????? longer story for later.]

so basically having a slight panic attack because oh god what the fuck am i going to do. i asked a question.

simple. plain. basic english.

"do you ever think she'd hit me?"

you know when youre crying and your throat closes up and is scratchy? just like that. from someone thats supposed to love and protect you.

and. the worst part? this man has been married to her for somewhere around 20? years now. and the only thing he could say?

"i dont know."

i dont know. i dont know. i dont fucking know.

i was in the backseat, so i couldnt see, but i could hear him cry. gene was in the army, so of course he was the type for everything to have to be perfect. also probably why my father is assumed to have been in the military. everything has ways had to be perfect.

and you know what isnt perfect, military or just generally being seen as wrong or effeminate?

a man crying. a grown man crying.

over his wife. not because she died. not because shes sick. but because hes unsure that his own child, his son, will be safe with her. because he has to work. no matter what.

because courts never give custody to the father here. because he doesnt have enough PTO or sick days (not that thats a thing) to see it blow over.

because in the next 24 hours he will have to come to work.

he watched his wife almost kill their newborn son because she was stressed, he stopped it. because he could. because he was there. it was understandable. i dont remember what its called but after pregnancy/birth depression is real.

but thats 12 years later. with a woman that should know so much better.

we went home. it was the first time i was glad he drove slowly.

that tension in the air. it would take more than a fingernail to cut through.

we 'discussed' some things. less yelling. more just stern talkings of 'what needs to happen', i still dont do those things.

at some point we went on a walk, there was a backhanded comment about how we didnt go to the store for some reason.

the next day her and i went to the park. the major was there, she knows him, she made me take pictures with him. and the whole time the only thing i could think of was "does he even know what happened yesterday?"

[attyrocious]

cross posting yesterday's rambling thread for posterity and because tumblr lets me edit things. anyway this is a sorta long thing and i might add things i forgot to mention in the twt thread

i tend to draw on-model canon because im a coward + just personal preferences. but the way i convert the canon designs into my artstyle is that i take the distinct features oda gives them and then combine it with personal headcanons to complete what should look like a unique human. Starting with Trafalgar Law, who is unfortunately a bland-ass conventionally pretty boy

someone commented a while ago the law hat drawing tutorial i made a while ago didn't make much sense and i realize its bc of the specific way i draw law's face: heart shaped (ba-dum-tss). That meaning, a narrow chin widening into a mild defined jaw, wide cheekbones, and up to his know-it-all brain dome.

given that, the pudgy guitar pick shape of his head i mentioned here should make a lot more sense.

i don't think this design point is unique to me, as most conventional pretty anime boy gets given jaws like this. a lot of law artists tend to veer into this head shape. just how life be sometimes. other points: flat, thick eyebrows is bc im a hairy gal and i need to feel better about myself.

Killer gets to be more interesting, because he shouldn't be considered conventionally attractive. my idea behind killer's is that those individual features is smth he would be insecure with enough to hide himself in a helmet but i draw him with all the love in the world actually. i'd like to think its how kid sees him or yknow, law, bc he's my kin assigned blorbo and maybe you ship lawkill as a guilty pleasure too i mentioned before (and ruined people's days) when i said whenever i draw killer he looks like griffith before i put on his goatee. the upper half of his face is distinctly feminine, with the lower half kinda over compensating. other than that uhh...idk. stan killer

Kidd is the bane of my existence, i feel like i can never draw his face consistently. yet at the same time he's so damn fun to draw everyone gotta try it.

my problem with kidd is that this mf does have eyelids. most kidd painters out there interpret this as him having deep set eyes (think Matt Smith or jeffrey star) . and yeh skill issue on me i should practice that. other notes, i try to make him younger than canon makes him look. he is my babygirl and he deserves to look cuddly. my band au kidd version has the honor of being allowed some chubs. he's just tries to look older and more menacing with edgy makeup. also i try to give him dimples when i can because, well i can.

Rosinante last bc i lost steam after kidd. the thing abt cora is that aside from not having eyebrows, everything is structured with the generic one piece man template. which means i gotta do everything myself doffy is there bc the way to figure out how to draw these two is to give them minor differences from each other, that being doffy gets slightly sharper features. in canon, these two are also rly wide boys (more of an oda style feat tbh) but i make them long. though bigger brained donquixote artists know that of these two brothers, doffy should be the wiry-er built. anyway that's it. in conclusion, i need to draw more girls actually i feel like im becoming misogynistic by osmosis from oda's style and now i draw girls all looking the same too.

[driftwooddestiel]

do we have concrete evidence for charlie brooker being queer. and if you reply to this with an essay i would not mind in fact i encourage it.

SMILES SO WIDELY. thank you so very much for asking 🫶🫶🫶

short answer is umm welllll not technicallyyy like nothing *concrete* concrete . But theres a whole lot of definite hints. very definite indeed. and the (extremely) long answer, with said evidence, is below the cut >:)

obligatory rpf disclaimer that i do not actually claim to know anything about this man’s sexuality or his personal life . im just having fun and playing in this space

OKAY ONTO THE EVIDENCE. and oh how theres evidence.

1. flirting with men on many many occasions (pt 1)

now some may say these examples don’t count because they were clearly jokes BUT. quite frankly i think they still count because none of these situations asked him to do that like he chose to flirt with those guys entirely of his own volition and that’s gotta mean something.

 “what examples?” well…

one: pc zone, 1998, issue 62. charlie does a feature on video game phone support lines where he prank calls various companies to measure their competence. he puts on various characters for these prank calls, one of which is called Flirty. he only called as flirty once, to EIDOS interactive. in this call he, well, flirts with the (male) caller the entire time, sometimes in very over-the-top ways (asking to meet up, go dancing and spray water on each other’s bare chests??) and also by being genuinely kind of slick by asking about types of matrox graphics cards, and when the caller mentioned the matrox mystique he responded by going “you’ve got a touch of mystique about you”. he did this twice. it’s interesting to say the least

(you can listen to the call here! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YE39Elq1ov0)

also important to note here that he was afaik not asked to put on any specific personas for these prank calls, he chose them himself. also according to paul mallinson and richie shoemaker he did these calls drunk & after locking himself into the office of PC zone’s editor at the time. inch resting… ALSO. this is where the fruity charlie image in my pfp is from.

two: digital update radio show, 1998, i forget which broadcast this was exactly but its on youtube, i will find it sometime. anywayyyy. he plays a lie detector game with some guy from the marketing or smth and for no real reason, when the marketing guy gets hooked up to the lie detector, charlie asks “do you fancy me?” – yeeees its a joke. but he did not have to ask that… also i highly recommend listening to that lie detector game because the game also asks “will you fancy your partner when he’s old?” and “have you ever used a prostitute?” and its just like, really really funny. 

three we have his interactions with the mods of the SOTCAA forums aka the corpses. i dont know why he turned it into enemies to lovers stuff he just did that. this is just one example but like he legit invited them to meet up irl and also made many other jokes in this vein. im just saying… bit gay innit

2. flirting with men on many many occasions (pt 2)

these are occasions similar to the previous point in that they also take place in a comedic setting, however while they can be passed off as merely jokes they also can be interpreted with a higher degree of sincerity (mainly because they’ve happened so much)

mostly these are with david mitchell because thats just like . who he flirts with the most honestly. basically he’s implied he wants david to kiss him on multiple occasions at panel show recordings, has made various other flirtatious comments, and of course, THIS:

crazy thing to say in and of itself, even crazier if you compare his behaviour around david to his behaviour most of the time on panel shows. he literally does act all aggressive… this was also just a wild thing to say in a webchat on MUMSNET of all places. there’s also the things hes said on twitter but ill discuss those later

theres also the time richard herring joked about him and chris morris when he was on rhlstp but thats a whole other can of worms

OH MY GOD I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT “IF I DID IT TO YOU BACKSTAGE”. ONE SECOND. i have to link to my reblog of it cos the og poster deactivated. https://www.tumblr.com/driftwooddestiel/770480765641310208/davidmitchelldaily-david-mitchell-and-charlie

CRAZAYYYY. this was on david’s radio show ‘the unbelievable truth’ btw

ALSO. on big fat quiz of the year 2009, he and david mitchell are on a team together right and at LEAST 3 gay jokes are made about them. "at least they found each other now" "the married couple and the civil partnership over there" "the dancing queens, charlie and david". is this evidence for anything? not necessarily. but its wild

3. constantly depicting himself in gay scenarios

basically like. you watch screenwipe and the examples are endless. but probably most notable would be in screenwipe when theres a dream/nightmare sequence of him, and i quote, “giving blowjobs for pennies”, which shows him doing just that (in a manner appropriate for a bbc program that is). that scene was NOT necessary like at all . he did not have to do that. but he did

4. saying his favourite sex act is docking in a guardian column once

OKAY YEAH he specifies he doesn’t mean his fav to partake in but still… dude. in this (https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2009/feb/09/twitter) column he said this:

okay!!!

5. the whole 90s flatmate thing

this one is a whole saga really. to summarise:

at some point in the 90s, charlie shared a one-bedroom flat with one other guy. he claims that every night they set up the couch as a bed for one of them but like… i’m just saying. at some point you’re not gonna bother anymore. i unfortunately do not remember where he said this but i promise he did.

also in the 90s he would play a lot of tekken with his flatmate (same as before? who knows!) and has said MANY times that he noticed the homoeroticism of fighting games. and that when they played tekken till late at night they probably sounded like an S&M dungeon, and so on… and that was the inspiration for striking vipers. 

^ in addition to this, many insane things have been said about this particular story by him and by annabel jones (close friend of his for 20+ years, bm cocreator). including:

“i did think ‘well there is something, primally… a little homoerotic about this game here,’ like— here’s a thing where i am - when i’m playing that, with my flatmate - i am, in a sense, i’m wrestling, it’s like i’m controlling a hypersexualised character, in the game, and we’re sort of grappling and wrestling with each other! um… yeah, so that was the only outlet i had… (laughs) um and ya!” (charlie) [OKAY!!!]

CB: “our neighbours must have thought we were [...] an incredibly in love couple!” AJ: “and there wasn’t?” [hello???]

AJ: “did you voice that? did you have that conversation with your mate” CB: “yeah!” AJ: “YOU DID?” CB: “i said oh my god like–” AJ: “did he think you were coming onto him?” CB: “no no! and i’d say– well, no because i’d save that for afterwards” [im gonna thrup]

6. always finding the homoeroticism and phallic imagery in everything

he sees shrimp colours with this stuff sometimes and its great. comprehensive list of notable things hes described as phallic, to my knowledge:

the gun in ‘doom’

spaceships in 70s-80s arcade games

big ben

guns in general

and things hes called homoerotic:

fighting games

sports vide games (specifically in hockey games when they celebrate a win)

the tv show ‘britains hardest’

an advertisement he’s seen

and doubtless more things im forgetting rn

of course you dont have to be queer to notice these things. but it helps

7. various things he’s said in PC zone over the years

so theres the fact he makes like a hundred jokes about gay sailors in pc zone which started out looking like ordinary old homophobia but after a point its like… why do you keep bringing up big burly sailors in ENTIRELY UNRELATED SITUATIONS. why are you so fixated on this hmm…

theres also:

^ this. its VERY IMPORTANT to note that the person answering letters this issue WAS CHARLIE. he chose to answer this way. also like no smoke without fire he really was putting out gay vibes even then

and a collection of other insane pc zone moments (some u have to click on to see in full sorryy) (note that the fourth image was said in response to a letter approving of the inclusion of photos of reviewers in pc zone, saying they thought charlie looked just like the kind of substance-abusing man with no life they thought he was (paraphrased)):

there was also the time he wrote his name as shirley brooker for no reason and never gave an explanation. completely unrelated to the contents of the writing he just did that. combined with the column where he talks about feeling a disconnect from the idea of what a man is (paraphrased) i feel like its not totally unreasonable to consider that he might not be 100% cisgender. tee bee haych

9. twitter behaviour. not going in the flirting with men sections because it’s twitter so it’s like… different

hes said many crazy things on twitter but i’ll just bring up 2 of the most egregious examples

THIS. insane. he just said this. unprompted. why

E THIS. charlie condou is a friend of his who was in nathan barley btw. he is also gay. i do not know what he meant by this tweet. but it says something

10. I AM CHARLIE BROOKER. I AM GAY. and other things

this is my favourite. in 1998, charlie brooker made this update to his website superkaylo:

important context: david mccandless and paul mallinson were both also working at pc zone and were close friends of his at the time (maybe still are idk… ik he’s still in contact with paul bc he was given special thanks at the end of plaything). this was obviously a prank but like… again. where there’s smoke there’s fire. or something

there’s also the fact he has said he “fell in love with” the character of colin and has described himself as loving his character so much he kept writing him into more scenes. especially intriguing since colins design clearly takes inspiration from the outfit of rik myall’s character in the young ones, given that the young ones and rik myall in particular were huge inspirations of charlie’s. OTHER BM THING OF NOTE: a line kelly says to yorkie (“like a frightened horse on a frozen lake”) was also said by charlie on big fat quiz of the year 2009. cray cray

im so serious when i say there is definitely more. but i fear this has gotten too long so i will stop here o7

IF YOU READ THIS FAR THANK YOUUUU and thank you again for asking i had so so much fun typing this all up thank you :-)

[wheelofme]

YAP-SESH.

thinking about how they're gonna develop pikelan in s4...

previous post got yoinked by the ethereal nothingness so im doing this again but genuinely.

the whole 'kaylie's my real family' and just general ending they had in s3 got me sat down, head in my hands on the shitter and wondering about an apology scene.

if you know me (which you don't im just that mysterious), you know im a sucker for apology scenes and angst-fights-where-they-arent-actually-fighting-but-instead-practice-fighting-to-prepare-for-a-battle-or-smth-and-it-gets-angry scenes. i feel like an apology thingy would work PERFECT for pikelan !

like... 'stress stress stress oh look there's scanlan wait remember the shit he said oh hell no I hate this fucker but I kinda wanna bang him no he needs to apologise oh my sarenrae is this awakening something in me ?'

at LEAST give them an apology in the sunset/rise. we love a good sunset/rise pikelan scene, we do. ORRR as a friend of mine suggested, one of them gets brutally hurt (oops) and Scanlan just pours his heart out in apology.

said friend and i were chatting and wondering if they would do another reference to the whole 'i got you' trend that pikelan had going on in s1 and s2 (completely ABANDONDED in s3 ig) that might lead into Pike potentially becoming a vessel for the whispered one ???

-like he goes 'I got you' to help her with holding something she got from Winter's Crest (bc that's happening, if my memory serves me right). or maybe because she's very much stronger than him, it goes the other way around and she helps him carry something heavy.

-another time, they're alone, scanlan sees Pike freaking out about something-something faith related, and says 'I got you' to try and calm her down.

-badaboom, badabing, Pike gets kidnapped by cultists, they go save her and in a final super epic reprise as they're hanging on that mauve thread of endlessness, there's an 'I got you' that saves both of them.

"but cultists omg wdym you little pikelan obsessed romanian lesbian?!?!?" WELL STFU AND LISTEN.

she's got HEALING BLOOD. potentially celestial heritage, and the comment that zerxus made about her when they left his castle-thing in the Hells was creepy as shit but can't be there for nothing !!! 'Seed of doubt has been planted...' 'Fill her heart with vengeance...' 'AS WE WATCH IT GROW' (?!?!?!)

pretty much implies that Pike is gonna have another issue of doubt with her goddess, understandably ! her healing failed to reach both percy and scanlan, which I theorised was the reason she threw her symbol away (the added stress of a party member dying, and another one potentially being dead following her own failure to heal them, plus her armour not working for shit and the overall weight of fighting a dragon would make anyone do 'irrarional' behaviour). this issue of doubt will delve into voices, Zerxus's voice (its been confirmed that he can very much just make him hear her whenever tf he wants, at least when she's in hell), and him leading her down this cruel, angst filled path that leads her away from what is the eventual reunion with Scanlan and the others during Winter's Crest ! she gets stressed, can't get these visions and voices away and has to take a moment to herself - the second her and Scanlan are alone and that's when she starts fully tripping.

im talking hard-core drugs (no not actually). this build up, I imagine, could be eventual. i feel like the vecna arc will take up to 2 seasons, and we end on season 5 (they'll work tary in there somewhere lmao), so god knows when this could happen, SHOULD it happen. but it's gotta end with her near that spinning vecna ball (i call it a vecticle. vecna testicle), around CULTISTS, potentially her family members bc we know how that played out in the original and idk I feel like it would be cool if they were ACTUAL cultists.

does she die or live ? well no how else does wilhand'ildan come to existence. dumbass.

[genshinconfessions]

Honest to god, the more I see people behaving like actual monsters or children throwing a temper tantrum over characters not having skin as black as the abyss the more I flat out just do not have the capacity to care. I get it sucks that the characters aren't being diverse enough, I get it, but throwing death threats, slurs and god knows what else at the devs while behaving like spoiled rotten brats just makes me not care to any degree. If people can't behave like ACTUAL ADULTS and genuinely have polite points to say other than "Time to attack the devs again/slander the VAs or whoever for agreeing to go with this" whenever a character isn't dark skinned, they have no one to blame but themselves if the devs elect to not listen to what basically amounts to spoiled two year olds not getting what they want. I genuinely feel bad for people who want more diversity but are less hateful and end up being lumped in with the assholes who think threatening the devs lives is a okay, and I also feel bad for anyone genuinely excited about the Natlan characters getting absolutely harassed and ripped to shreds for not "thinking they're ugly for not being dark enough". I feel like if the fan base were ALOT LESS VITRIOLIC about the issue of diversity the devs would likely listen more. But as it stands now I can't wait for the harassing and death threats being thrown around to die down again so I can actually browse genshin twit and tumblr again in peace without having to worry about running into anyone being genuine human trash towards the devs over the color of fucking pixels. I've got enough stressing me out like grieving the loss of a parent, I don't need people being assholes to add to it and it sickens me that they don't see anything wrong with how they're acting. I'm just. I'm tired and wish people could be less like bullies or arseholes for once over a silly little gacha game they claim to love yet act like this. Sorry for this being a long confession, I just needed to get this off my chest cause it's been bugging me and stressing me out so much since the Natlan teaser got released whenever I've gone to look at Genshin stuff practically everywhere lately.....

i'm very sorry for your loss :( and if it will help you feel less alone, i generally agree with your sentiments.

for me, i am a pretty staunch hoyo defender (evident in previous posts when we used to comment on asks more frequently), but i must admit, i was slightly disappointed in the natlan characters since i believed the fan edits with darker skin did look better, and i wished hoyo would have listened to the intl fandom regarding south american/african/indigenous poc things.

that said, it's never okay to send death threats to anyone for any reason. i'm sure the devs are a lot less willing to make changes if all they're getting is death threats and, like you said, vitriolic hate. constructive criticism helps ppl realize where they're wrong and how to fix it; unconstructive criticism is generally useless and tends to be ignored.

the societal issue of colorism runs very, very deep, both in asia and generally around the world. it's not something that hoyo can fix singlehandedly by changing some characters. granted, i'm sure it would set a very good example for future game devs, and it would be really great if they did listen to intl feedback! but if they choose not to, that's not smth we can change their minds about.

side note, regarding a lot of the 'natlan is colonized' comments, we don't know the story yet. it's possible that hoyo will address it as social commentary, or it might be something totally different. leaks and the search for instant gratification have really made it difficult for people to enjoy a drawn-out storyline, and that's really sad.

we've said this a lot on this page but i'll say it again: why spend so much energy hating fictional media? if it no longer brings you joy for whatever reason (i.e. you dislike the natlan characters), stop playing. if the fandom is the main source of negativity, stop engaging with the fandom, block users and tags, curate your own experience. if you claim to hate everything about it but continue to engage with it, that's quite hypocritical and unconvincing.

in any case, if you like the game well enough to keep playing, keep playing. you don't need to justify your reasoning to anyone, and you definitely don't need to fall into a trap of radicalized (and dare i say often performative) social justice.

[crossover-enthusiast]

Ok so I meant to make. My own post about this months ago but I legit forgot so. I’m throwing this all at you

My friends and I think Gregor is a former cultist who defected and is using Christianity as a coping mechanism.

1. We have theories about Evermore being “involved somehow” and the “we’ll meet again father, hopefully soon” line is ominous as fuck considering what happens at the end

2. The shot of Ignacio squinting at Gregor and picking up the phone, presumably to dial what we have dubbed “9-1-cult”

3. Bonus points for it cutting to Mort, because we can’t figure out if that’s just a jump cut or meant to imply more

4. The church has a sign saying “grand opening” implying it’s something extremely new

5. Biggest piece of evidence is him saying “what do you want” right after seeing the cultists in the church, which implies he has a level of familiarity with them

We think he defected and his fixation on teaching the kids about apologizing is him accidentally projecting onto them because he knows he can’t truly get forgiveness for what he did in the cult. He even seems to kinda know his teachings are flawed because when skid and pump return to him all beat up by Roy, he doesn’t really. Comment? Just kinda looks at them sadly.

Ohhh that? That would be interesting as shit. The idea of him using it to cope, specifically -- he wants to repent, but he believes nothing will save him from the sins he committed while in the cult, smth like that

The idea of him being a former cultist also goes with this image Pelo made that he said was a "spoiler" for SM 6

Which like. Yeah it kind of spoils but there's no "grand stand" for Gregor against the cult, unless he was a former cultist and this is meant to be like. Him rebelling by choosing the words the of the Lord over the words of Eyes

Also while I was looking for that image I came across this one again and I want to ramble about it

Gregor's original character inspiration was the teacher from Courage the Cowardly Dog's final episode, "Perfect", but Pelo was specifically basing Gregor's original character on the actions of the teacher rather than the overall Aesop of the episode

However, if Gregor is a former cultist projecting his own issues onto kids, that. Kind of works more with the idea of the teacher as a character, a manifestation of Courage's doubts and insecurities that tries to forcibly change him into what he thinks is "better" when he's fine the way he is

I like this idea a lot actually. Also referring to Ignacio picking up the phone as him "dialing 9-1-cult" is hilarious I'm taking that

[stray-shinkii]

me witnessing fandom drama in literally all of my fandoms in the big ol year of 2025 as a Voltron, Steven universe, & hetalia fandom survivor & a cosplayer (cosplay community drama goes CRAZY esp in the comp sphere istg)👁️👄👁️

I SERVED MY TIME LEAVE ME TF ALONE 😂 Jkjk I’ve actually gotten pretty good at staying in my lane and not giving a shit when people are rude to me- like I’ve already gotten troll/hate comments on here since posting and I just spam heart emojis and tell them to have a good day like- at worst they ignore it or say smth else mean? and at best I get to feel good about saying smth nice idc 😂 like when I said I was in the hetalia trenches I mean my favorite character was Belarus and I was KNOWN in the community for cosplaying and role playing as her- and if you know why that was cringe YOU KNOW. But I was like 13 that’s what 13 year olds do and guess what? At least I was never intentionally bitchy to people with different opinions than me or even who partook in the problematic aspects of that series (again- it’s hetalia so the problematic side was like- PROBLEMATIC problematic 💀) I learned to deal with via this super secret technique called “minding my business” and “blocking people who are mean” 😂

Except noragami bc that fandom is like- 10 people in total who already hashed out their drama like 10 years ago back when people still knew the series existed so it’s really chill it’s fun over there (except reddit but like- that’s a Reddit issue not a noragami issue lmao😂)

[letstrythisout4]

Sometime I forget how much I know about Harry Potter (it is one of my oldest hyperfixations)

Like I'm going through youtube looking for a new video essay to watch and I found one and it’s a very long video discussing all the problems in Harry Potter. And as a Harry Potter fan and a Marauders fan etc etc I can confidently say there are a bunch of issues with the books. From not-so-subtle racism and stereotyping, ableism, to stupid worldbuilding choices, to plot holes etc etc this story is not perfect at all (and as a like quadruple minority I am not okay with it at all and the dozens of headcanons and rewrite that fix the issues listed above(or at the very least fucking address them cause what-) are the ONLY reason why I put up with it. )

But I have consumed so much Pottermore/Wizarding World articles, and read so many extra books like Fantastic Beasts and Quidditch Through the Ages and engaged so much with the fandom that like the plot holes mean nothing to me. Like I was reading through the comments and some said smth like Oh Mould on the Wold is a wizarding village and I’m like no technically Hogsmead is like the only all wizarding village in britain and there is another comment where they are like “a phoenix only gives one feather and that doesn’t make sense given how many wands must have phoenix feathers’ and its like no not really when you consider that phoenix wands are very rare and that the whole one feather per phoenix thing isn’t actually true its just that Fawkes specifically only ever gave two feathers making those two feathers and Fawkes very unique….

BUT LIKE to people who haven’t dedicated their entire life to reforming this fuck ass story in their head that like what? Idk man it’s just nothing tells reminds me that I’ve spent so much of my life in this fandom like internacting with normal people who don’t have everything fucking memorized, analyzed, and reformed in their head. 

(That said though like the way (some of)  this fandom has developed to have space for minority groups to acknowledge the issues in the story and to rewrite the story to make it more inclusive is my favorite thing)

[tiredtriedfailures]

i hate people who see something serious going on and instead of having sympathy for those suffering, they go all, "don't generalize the accused!! they're not all bad!!"

it's like, "hey man. i'm glad your advocating for something, but people are getting hurt and you're not defending them. you're focusing on an issue that, honestly, isn't necessary in this moment."

all you said was; "hey i think superman was cool for being pro-palestine in this political climate bcs it brings awareness to a real thing that is happening. even if it wasn't explicitly said, it was nice to see." and someone else comes in like "well achually it wasn't israel!!"

okay?? why are you focusing on who the "actual bad guy was" in a movie when people are dying?? like, my guy. generalizing jewish people is bad and confining them to one place is bad. sure, there are israeli citizens who oppose the palestinian genocide, but that is NOT the point right now. the point is that the israeli government is KILLING palestinians in the name of "fighting terrorism".

if you hear something bad is happening and the first thought you have is "THIS ONE TRAIT OF THE OPPRESSOR ISN'T UNIVERSAL TO ALL THOSE WHO IDENTIFY IT!!" and to defend the accused in some way, then idk. you suck i guess. idk what to tell you.

in simpler terms, i think it's similar to mha and hero society. people heard dabi say, "endeavor abused my mom and forced her to have kids" and didn't take it seriously. imagine if a hero showed up and said, "i know endeavor was accused of horrible things, but remember not all heroes are like him. some of us are cool and dont abuse our families 👉🏼👈🏼"

sure, you have a point, but to make your point, you are putting down and ignoring the suffering of others just so people don't think YOU are the bad guy for having something in common with a horrible person.

(probably not the best example, but it's 3am and i wanted to share my two cents. apologizes if this doesn't make sense. i completely agree with you and i am not trying to minimize palestinian suffering. i was trying to point out that the account trying to say "not all jewish ppl are like israel" or wtv is hypocritical bcs they're putting more energy into defending the aggressor and trying to make themselves "one of the good ones" at the expense of palestinians. it just shows they don't actually care about the bigger picture and just want to look good so they don't get hate when ppl are dying. 😐)

i like your passion my guy. your heart is in the right place but i do have some notes. youre responding to "omg not all X group" comments as if its an argument worth engaging. theyre not. theyre a deflection and distraction. the "not all men". circular. objectively true. a waste of everyones time as you correctly identified, but couldnt resist responding to lol. no worries. happens to the best of us🌹

and that mha example, instead of calling upon our flop anime in this discussion we could talk about reactive nature of those who identify too strongly with the dominant culture AND since they have aligned interest with the oppression, consciously realized or not, theyre very motivated to protect the status quo on instinct. they both feel personally attacked by the criticism, AND feel theyd only lose privilege if anything were to change. again, this isnt worth engaging intellectually, but important to know about. in the end theyre thinking with their wallet or very basic biases or smth.

also, in the last paragraph, idk which reply you mean to criticize as hypocritical and what exactly they said but "not all jewish people are like israel" is objectively true and one of our biggest hopes to hold onto. lovely that there are very loud jewish voices standing up for palestinians and speaking truth to power. maybe you meant to say "not all israelis should be held responsible for israel" which, is more fitting to your response. yeah there are inevitably Israeli individuals who detest the actions of israel (shoutout to that TaylorSwift fan who was imprisoned for refusing to join the IDF🍻) but theres absolutely a big majority who support their govt (remember the "IDF has a right to rape Palestinians" protests?) and ultimately, we are losing time and energy about hypotheticals of innocent individuals among the country committing genocide, with no probability of them getting punished in sight yet, instead of the sea of real, innocent people dying in their hands.

all in all, glad to hear your passionate thoughts on this. glad youre here. let us both keep our heads up and stand in solidarity with the oppressed, try to make our lives better.

[kurai-kurairin]

Introduction post or something... I might redo it in the future, since I don't know how to do this kind of stuff

Hi, I'm Kikurai, but please call me Kurai! This is a side account for my art and also yume/limbus related ramblings sometimes, I switch between referring to my s/i of the same name with 3rd person (she/her) and 1st person (I/me) pronouns, depending on how I see fit.

I am a yume-himejoshi, but also a multishipper who also likes straight and yaoi ships. My f/o is Don Quixote of Limbus Company! I don't mind doubles interacting and being my moot, but I am non-sharing and do not want to hear about her also being your f/o. (I am serious, one mention of any other DonQui yume and I will have a meltdown).

Art Requests: Open!

Basic DNI for P3dos TERFs, homophobes, racists, anyone that thinks a specific group of people don't deserve human rights. (Unless we're talking about sa-ers, in which case please burn them at the stake.)

More info utc

I won't reveal my actual age, but know that I am under 20 years old. I am neither a proshipper nor an anti, and I don't know where I fall, since my boundaries are very vague. That being said, I am a young person with issues and I like some not-very-conventional stuff, like yanderes and cannibalism.

I usually don't mind seeing certain Don ships like MeurDon (Sometimes I feel weird and any DonQui ships will trigger me), but hard, HARD DNI for 🎡🎠 and VergDon shippers. Those ships make me extremely uncomfortable.

I'm also new to yumeshipping, so I don't know all the stuff yet. I hope you'll excuse my lack of knowledge!

What else... my artstyle changes a lot, since I tend to try new things so I don't get bored, and since this isn't my only acc, I might post really scarcely. I also only really reblog when I have something to say, so I apologize if I only leave a like.

This blog will mostly be dominated with Limbus stuff by virtue of DonQui being my f/o, but maybe, just maybe, I'll post other stuff sometimes.

Also English isn't my first language, but you probably already figured that out by now, with how stiffly I talk and with how my s/i looks

Here's my general tagging system:

☆》 🪼Kurai tag 》

Anything with Kurai in it

☆》 🎠DonQui tag 》

DonQui <3

☆》 🎠🪼 tag 》

🎠 is DonQui, 🪼 is Kurai. Just selfshipping stuff.

☆》 art tag 》

My art! Doodles won't be tagged, it'll be tagged smth else. Art reqs may be tagged this, but that depends on how much effort I put in the req.

☆》 doodle tag 》

Will probably be filled with Notebook stuff, since my phone access is restricted by my parents. I'll probably post when I have atleast 3 photos so my blog won't be too cluttered (my main is, and I don't want to repeat that mistake since I want people to navigate this one easily...)

☆》 reblog tag 》

Reblogs. I tend to comment in tags but I might talk out of the tags sometimes. Maybe.

☆》 yapping tag 》

Anything that's purely text / only has a few pictures that aren't my art / if this is on a reblog than it's probably because I went overboard on the tags/commentary

☆》 other fandoms tag 》

Non-Limbus stuff that isn't my OCs.

☆》 ask tag 》

Asks answered! Please ask anything you want, Kurai isn't lore heavy but if you want to know where I got her main inspo other than myself, ask away!

☆》 art req tag 》

Please don't request anyone with muscles/super duper masculine, I can't draw them... (yes, Heath and Meur included. Sorry folks...) (unless it's chibi, I don't mind chibi.)

Also, if I don't want to draw something, then I don't want to draw that thing. Period.

You can send through the ask box!

[evaiskindaweird]

Inspired by @locution-youngster-enjoyeras cuz their awesome so I'm doing it w Tim n Sally (They're married but it still counts)

(Some suggestive stuff)

BOTH 🗣🗣🗣

they don't argue. Their Tim and Sally 😤💅 (if they did, it'd be smth silly like what's the best ice cream flavor)

Tim, he wouldn't go 15 minutes without crying (Sally would be crying she'd just hide it more lol)

They sew together :] Tim makes lovey lovey messages and Sally makes clothes for Tim to try on

Sally usually drives, they do rock paper scissors for the front

Sally. Girlboss and malewife duo

Darling, Love, Honey, every nickname imaginable

they proposed at the same time!!

Tim. He knows any and ALL radio songs. Nobody knows why lol, but sometimes Sally joins him if she knows the song

Tim worries about what people think too much

Sally and Tim take turns taking pictures :]

Tim! He's a silly jokester, Sally always laughs at his jokes even if they suck pure ass 😭😭

Tim. Like I said, he knows all songs for some reason. He's a music lover 🎵💖

Sally! Sometimes she orders for him without him even deciding yet lmao

Tim lol

Sally. like tell me this queen wouldn't top (on rare occasions Tim does)

Sally :]👩🏾‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏾

Tim :] 👫🏾

Sally. Like this queen will start a make out w her husband in like half a second

Tim is basically ticklish everywhere lmao

Tim will find a racoon near the trash and try and name it Rachel

they hold it TOGETHER RAHHH

they would never 😤😤

they both love bugs they wouldn't hurt a fly

Tim will wake up and wonder what a dream meant lmao

Sally, shes constantly cold

Sally has to go to work, so she wakes up at like 5am to get ready

Also Sally. Girl is NOT an early bird like her husband

If Tim is up earlier enough or Sally doesn't have work, they both make each other coffee

Tim will cry over anything

He got scared over an ARTICHOKE. That's all i need to explain.

They give each other haircuts! That they occasionally butcher but it's ok

Tim, this man will buy an entire bouquet and a poem too 😤😤💖

Tim. When they first started dating he immediately told everyone he knew like a girl writing in her diary

they are like the perfect couple everyone loves them

Sally, and occasionally Tim

For the both of them, they either make the best tasting meal ever (the way Sally was looking at Tim making the dinner in "dinner or consequences" lmao), or they make something like beans a la botsford or sum shit 😭😭😭

Sally! she knows like 20 ways to style it too

Tim. he has a whole ass book on pickup lines

Sally. No comment

Tim's jokes and pickup lines (like in "road rage, anger, and fury" when he said the ice skating would be "cool") make Sally giggle so much

Tim. He has sum sad issues but Sally always manages to cheer him up :] I also headcanon Sally can't function without her job is cuz she feels she needs to earn approval, so Tim makes sure to shower her w compliments so she knows she's important no matter what

"I am willing to trade all this cool stuff for my wife back" -Tim in The rise of miss power

Also from TROMP: "Do do do do do, Tim Botsford!"

Sally. She has an angels voice when she actually tries

Tim gardens, doodles, anything, really. Sally works, and sometimes does arts and crafts

I headcanon Tim's mom died (😔), so every year on her death anniversary he takes it really hard. To the point he can't function sometimes and just lays in bed.

Sally always tries and cheers him up, and helps him mourn by comforting him if he isn't in a cheering up mood

[norriszn]

GUYS Y'ALL GONNA WISH I WAS NORMAL BUT IT'S TIME TO #RANT lando's saying now that it's all his fault, that he has nothing to complain about bc the car and the team are doing an amazing job. and hell yeah they are. but it wasn't long ago literally just a few hours when he openly said the car didn't suit him. well, no, he's been saying that. not just once. not a throwaway comment. lando's been repeating for weeks now that the car doesn't suit his driving style. if this car genuinely isn't playing to his strengths anymore, that's a big issue, not just for him but for the whole team long term. we all know lando is always brutally honest, especially about himself. but when he starts taking on everything just to protect the bigger picture, that's when i get concerned (bc he's so freaking loyal to a fault) andrea literally said yesterday that the mcl39 was basically overhauled and oscar said two days ago that it doesn't feel that different but "it has its moments" so… who are we supposed to believe here? that's not a small gap in perception. when the tp says "the mcl39 is faster than last year's and this competitiveness came by changing many things" and a driver says "eh, not much has changed" it raises serious ((and this sport is so unserious y'all know that)) questions from me. are they not aligned on what the car is actually doing? was this design built with one driver more in mind? if there was, fine, be transparent about it. no one's gonna throw tomatoes at zak brown's face or smth lol. did they maybe overlook what makes lando lando behind the wheel? i'm trying really hard to make sense of it especially bc i know lando's been consistent, he's pushed when the machinery wasn't on his side back in 2k20 2k21 2k22, and he's proven himself time and time again. he dragged the mcl35m & mcl36 to results it barely deserved. i believe in that gremlin every single time. every year, every race, every lap, i'm there, rooting for him and when smth doesn't go right for him, it genuinely feels like weird and awful. like a part of me just sinks bc i know what he's capable of. i've seen it. so it doesn't sit right with me all of this. is it just a tough week? again? for me it's not just a tough week. it's the weight of too many tough weeks piling up, back to back, again. and yeah, there'll probably be more weekends like this. sureeee. that's the painful truth. but what makes this feel worse than last year is that the expectation is different now. the car's supposed to be better for both from the start. the team is at the front. there's talk of more podiums, wins even, and lando's right there p1 in the championship battle… but smth keeps slipping. if my driver's flopping bc the car's not there for him, i'd be biting my phone tomorrow.

[the-apple-orchard]

(Michael🌀) I'm posting my thoughts here, not to vague but simply because this is a space we feel comfortable sharing. We have been meaning to post more often. I don't think the collective I'm talking about follows me here anyway. I don't even know if they use Tumblr.

I'm unsure as to why I've been included in a DNI when I've never met the alter(s) who imposed it. I suppose that a system as a whole being on a DNI makes sense. We are all parts of a whole, after all. I just don't understand why, since we as a whole haven't had very many long interactions with this collective, much less these specific alters.

(Robin 🌺🌘, Marci ❤️‍🩹, Apple🍎) We feel so shitty about it. Like there's something we did that we don't know we did. Is it just because they're friends with other systems we've had falling-outs with? If so, did they something about us that influenced that? Or is it because we actually said or did something that was triggering or upsetting or just generally gave them the ick?

(virge🎧) i kinda think maybe its a good thing. like maybe these are systems we shouldn't be around anyway if they're close with people who actively dislike us-- which is fine! there's nothing wrong with disliking us, i just wish they'd like, spoken to us about it or smth. because we wouldn't have known we were on the dni if it hadn't been for someone else pointing it out, since we don't read alter descriptions unless someone is actively fronting *and* we are hanging out (which we never have actively hung out with this collective as it is). but i like these people! and i wish they'd just have told us they didn't like us instead of pretending to and having us find out through another person.

maybe that's entitled, idk

🌀 Many of us have issues with dialectics. That's part of the reason that Helen🚪 and I are here. While I think it is fair to put the whole system in the DNI, it is also hurtful to many of us, and while I do believe that DNI is there so that the person doesn't have to reach out, that doesn't change the fact that it did upset us. I don't think anyone did anything wrong here, I think we are simply frustrated or upset or hurt by it, which is not the person's fault.

If anyone reading this has gone through something similar or has comments, feel free to add notes or reblog. We'd appreciate the perspective. Thank you.

[gay-fordeath]

Gotta scream abt smth that happened this weekend and I do not think the tags will have enough space for this particular rant. I am yelling at myself here please just disregard.

I worked a play this weekend and while driving to the theater with my colleague and one of the actors we passed some kind of sign that had some art on it that I guessed was AI generated. May not have been but it had that look so I just made a passing comment abt it. It sparked a conversation about generative AI with the actor that has left such a bad taste in my mouth since then so we're just getting it out so I can stop stewing on it.

I expressed my dislike for generative AI and how harmful it is and how distasteful I find it and I said the classic, why should I bother to read something you couldn't be bothered to write as a way to summarize my feelings and the actor we were driving seemed to take offense to that.

He started this whole thing about what if he had this dream to make a cartoon or animation or whatever but he can't draw and it's late in his life, he's almost 40, he's not gonna take the 20yrs to learn to draw and animate especially because he can't just put his life on hold for it like he has to work and make money to survive he has no time, why do that when he could just have the ai generate it? So I explained that as a visual artist (drawing/painting) the act of creation is what makes art so wonderful and is the most enjoyable part of the process etc. We went back and forth like this a bit and I'm pretty bad with words when speaking or put on the spot so I wound up saying something that wasn't like 100% the most accurate way to express the sentiment - i said if you're not willing to put in the time and practice and effort necessary to learn a skill like art, you should just give up, why bother pursuing it at all?

Naturally that didn't go down too well, and I get it cause again that's not really the best wording for what I wanted to express. But he and my colleague went into this whole thing about like what an awful thing to say and would I say that to a child, how demoralizing and demotivating and crushing for that child and whatnot and i was like ok let me try that again. The sentiment here is that these things do take work and you've got to be willing to put that work in. If you're not, generative AI is not your only option. Why not make a collaborative project then, find artists and animators and whatnot and work together?

He made examples about music too and how he tried for years to learn guitar and just wasn't any good, couldn't do it etc and why not just use generative AI to create the music he hears in his head. To that I was like well for one we already have digital music programs that are not generative AI so just use those, you'll get a better result. And again, if not, just make it a collaborative effort?? Find some actual musicians and work with them??

At the end of the day the view I hold and tried to express in a few different ways is that art is about creation. And for some people yes the end result is the more important part to them as compared to someone like me, for whom the result is secondary to the joy of the process. But even then, maybe I'm wrong but I'm willing to bet part of what makes that end result so satisfying/important is the fact that they made it, themselves, with their own two hands - there's the pride of that end result being their work, their effort. His heels were pretty firmly dug in the soil of "if I don't have the time/desire/motivation/etc to pursue learning the thing by hand what's wrong with getting it done via generative AI, you're just gatekeeping at that point."

My friend tonight said that at that point you're just looking to make content without putting any real effort/work into it and I think that sums it up pretty well. The thing is while generative AI has other issues that make me dislike it such as environmental factors, etc, I also think it has its role as a tool to add to art - I can compare it to the idea of using practical effects on TV and film that are touched up with minimal CGI as opposed to doing the whole effect with CGI.

Maybe it is kinda gatekeeping art or whatever but like. To go back to a previous statement, not to be too harsh but: if you're not willing to put even a small amount of effort to learn an art, then as far as I'm concerned, you're not actually interested in pursuing the art. You just want to make content, quickly and easily, with no active role in the creation. Even commissioning an artist to work with you to create your vision is more effort than typing a prompt into the mediocrity machine. Commissioned work is more your work than anything you rip out of generative AI. And, as an artist, it just does not seem worth it. What is the point of art - any art - if not to be the one to create it, whether the process or the end result is more important to you?

We cut the convo off because we got a bit heated abt it, and my colleague was getting anxious. The funny thing is I didn't feel like I was arguing so much as passionately debating but there's something about that actor and how he carries himself and whatnot that just made it not sit well with me and now that my weekend is done and I can relax after the chaos it's coming back like fucking acid reflux. Sorry for this ridiculous long post that's just word-vomit on your feed.

[scoonsalicious]

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OUR SEXY MACHO swaggering into Pocket’s spiral ❤️

Mother Pookie, thou has fed thy meowies (us) sum more great cakes🤌🏻😂 ONCE AGAIN, thou has bamboozled me with thou’s writing🩷

Tis was me reaction😂

Poor poor Chloe. She was too young and if I were Pocket, I too would blame myself. Pocket is devastated af. It would lessen the guilt (a teeny tiny bit) if she didn’t know Chloe. To make it worse, she was in the SAME ROOM with Chloe. Even if I were to say that she shouldn’t blame herself (bcs well, she was seriously not in this world at that moment), the consequences are too big for her NOT to. Regardless of what, THAT was her mission. Her responsibility. It’s not a lie when I say, she’s reckless. That recklessness intensifies when she didn’t get what she wanted (her crave for Buckaroo) and now, with an extra guilt, she’ll keep on digging down to her grave. (Basically Pocket is in denial with her feelings because she miss Buckdoodle OH MY😭 but can’t bcs she shouldn’t trust him)

BUT DARE I SAY SHE NEEDS BUCKWHEAT ASAP.

Rather than making her spiral more (ohhh but she’s still going to be mad ofc initially), Bucket reappearance will be like a slap to her head😂 Something that makes her conscious bcs i feel like she’s going to hate it if Buckball saw her at her bottom (on her lowest self). And that feeling will then formed into a new one (as mother Pookie state our Pocket will seduce Buckdweeb for ‘old time sake’). It become a conquest for Pocket to once again deny her feelings but with a clearer head by trying to have a one last bite of her favourite meal (and that favourite meal is BUCKET) or yknow, she’s doing it to torture him…

THANK GOD NOTHING HAPPENED TO SAM😭 And I hope nothing serious w AJ. Dark chocolate, you will be missed but mother pookie needs to make Buckdoodle and Pocket kiss.

Now, what’s left is the revelation, Pocket and cunthage one last confrontation, and HOPEFULLY a Buckaroo and Jeremiah showdown (more fun if the whole team whopping up her ass).

So I still don’t have a clear theory of Buckwheat fucking cuntsy twice. Pookie said, first one didn’t count bcs Lil Buck didn’t wanna come out and play. He wasn’t SA, or sexed pollen. One concrete theory before was him being boned at the field (bcs our Bucky gets hard when fighting). Manipulative Jerome may touch him during it (like after the fight) and well, Lil Bucky didn’t wanna play bcs he’s injured but was too hard/painful to move, so as usual, Jeremiah took the opportunity and shove her hole there (sorry for the crassness).

THE SECOND TIME it happened, was because of the false news (Steve and Pocket) and him being guilty from the first time. And yup, this time Lil Bucky has the balls bcs well, he’s mad at Pocket and at the same time was just using Cunthage like Pocket fucking other dudes right now. (If Pocket aren’t satisfy with other man, surelyyyyyy Buckwheat too. No one is as tight as hers — again sorry😂)

Appreciate our sexy macho❤️(those pecs rawr)

BUTT, I do have a question, is the stomach bug issue solved yet? Is it a part of the revelation? Or I ACTUALLY missed smth. That is a mystery to me.😂

Anyways, I feel like that’s all the discussion and thoughts im going for today. My battery now is 10%, and it’s almost noon here. (I’ve been writing this since my battery was at 20+ish😂). My brain is still sleepy though, so that’s all I can think of for today.

As usual, Mother Pookie, thy meowies love thee🩷🩷🩷 I absolutely enjoy the thrill and brain wrecking thinking after reading Unwanted. It’s fun to read others comment/theories, cursing Jeremiah and Buckwheat, forming an anti-Steve group. It has been such a ride, can’t believe we’re almost at the end. Looking forward to do this again for With Friends Like These. Here’s your kitten SMOOCHH~

Wink wink. Btw did I tell you that I can’t wait for Bucket? Yeah, I need to say it again.

MANIFESTING BUCKETS REAPPEARANCE!!!

Goofy ass Buckwheat~

BUCKET MANIFESTATION IS COMING AT 5PM EST! BUCKET MANIFESTATION IS COMING AT 5PM EST! BUCKET MANIFESTATION IS COMING AT 5PM EST! BUCKET MANIFESTATION IS COMING AT 5PM EST! BUCKET MANIFESTATION IS COMING AT 5PM EST!

That is approximately 23 minutes! That gives me (I hope!) enough time to respond to this GLORIOUS missive and upload, lol.

And GOD. If Bucky macho-swaggered into my life like in that first gif? My PTSD would be cured! My sinuses would unclog! My mortgage would be paid, because DAY-UM.

Fortunately, Pocket's spiral is about to come to an end! We have one more issue to deal with (and it's an issue you've all been questioning for a long, long time now), but Bucket will appear at just the right time to keep her from continuing on this path of self-destruction. Boy's been spending the last two months in therapy while Our Girl's been away, so he'll drop some nuggets that will help her out. He will, literally, shake some sense into her.

I want to tell you so much more, but I think it's better if I show you, so look for the first of tonight's drops coming up in just a fee minutes! Pookie loves you so much!!!!