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aetherograph · 9 months ago

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it's actually so fucking sad that singing is now about writing the songs and playing an instrument and selling yourself as a character and being a triple threat instead of like, just singing itself as an art form. The only places it's still about that are opera and choir, neither of which are styles of singing I like.

#i'm just really cross about this #i like to sing #i ONLY like to perform when it's singing #i don't play an instrument other than my voice and I don't think I should be called to #I don't like to act or dance or do any other type of performance other than singing #I just like getting up on a stage and singing a song and then leaving.#My voice is my instrument and baby I'm a soloist #I used to go to a bardic circle every month and that was pretty great #but everyone eventually wandered off or straight-up died #and I miss just doing that #I miss gathering with other bards and testing out performances #and it wasn't high pressure with critique it was just being able to practise performing in a lower-stake environment #to get used to performing and harmonising #and it made me braver when i had to perform in front of laypeople strangers #my stage fright is debilitating and the only way to deal with it is constant exposure in a safe environment #and i haven't had that since i moved out #i lost so much because my mom wouldn't leave my freakin dad #and so *I* had to leave #and I've sorta been uprooted ever since

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