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#klance#halloween au#im projecting on the internet my own impostor syndrome#i feel that im awful and should be learning how to draw instead of writing shitty fics#and when i want to write a post and share a little doodle or smth - 'sorry' is right between the lines and its so frustrating#like???? nobody probably cares#im either here or im not#and if i need to finish that little abomination of a fic then so be it you'd think people wouldnt mind too much#and would still want to listen to my captions and see whatever silly doodle however silly it is as long as its true#..............but what if its all redundant#what if i cant draw after i had to flip my entire routine upside down#and will forever chase a thrill of feeling like a prolific artist and it will be always out of reach now#what if people scroll past my art and feel nothing now#what if world is filled with people who kinda hate klance but stay out of reflex and not bc its their deeply routed source of comfort#what if i reached an artistic plateau and will never be good enough#what if this is the limit of my 'talent'#what if i will forever love the projects i want to share but will always hate the execution of it wanting to fix it fix it fix it learn mor#i keep reading the little notes i get on orders#some screenshots i saved#i find good words and opinions and love letters to art as a whole#and i feel insufficient#subpar#i drew a comic about it to an old poem and still havent finished it#there is a point of trying your best when it stops feeling like a challenge and feels like a failure#its the moment where you keep going of course#and yet#there are emotions im sure nobody shares on social media bc we just try to get through them#but who else will take it better than tumblr tags#either way if im less around its because im dealing with creational self-hatred and artistic ambitions#but on the other hand arent all artists like that? i ran out of tag space btw have an awesome weekend
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ame goes over to russia's house and he thinks it'd be funny to see for how long he can "obliviously" stay over before he gets kicked out. unfortunately the other person in this situation is russia who by the third day will have him washing dishes and taking the trash out
#it's worth it in ame's eyes because russia cooks good and the house is nice. he could get used to it. however the moment it stops being#funny and it starts being somewhat comfortable/domestic he gets scared and has to leave.#day 5 “oh it's 2pm we eat lunch around this time i wonder what he's maki- we?us? we eat lunch? routinely around this time? I NEED TO GO.”#“phew i almost wasn't doing it purely for the bit/to tweet about it thank god i caught myself”#slop#rusame
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guy who needs floor time
#mmmm my beautiful dim apartment with my beautiful noise cancelling headphones#my one coworker continues to complain to me about the job which that part tbh is fine because i complain too#it is a little stupid sometimes but she is like 'aren't you tired of this' and i'm kind of like#sooo the thing is 👉👈#i've created a life for myself in which i'm happy frequently#all i wanted was a boring job and my independence#to go to social events Sometimes and to generally be on good terms with coworkers#to work on my own hobbies to have friends and a routine and for my family to be healthy and safe#to set fun challenges for myself on occasion#i have what i spent my 20s wanting. idk#yes it took chemical help and i had to give up on some things and restructure the whole way i thought about myself#it wasn't ever the hard work that i minded#like. every day i get up and do some tasks and daydream the whole time and sometimes listen to books!#it's basically my dream#now when it's 10 hour shifts 6 days a week that is difficult but that's only a month out of the year#do you hear that? i only want to kms a month out of the year!#it's difficult to explain all that to someone who hates doing tasks and needs social interaction/validation
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Dorian @ Manon (not quietly he literally said that to her face)
#booklr#books and reading#manon blackbeak#throne of glass#tog#dorian havilliard#manon x dorian#manorian#he just worries you know???#because why are you alternating between coffee and energy drinks???#he hates how she drinks that he says it’s unhealthy and she should stop#which is why he started her on the whole bedtime routine because if she sleeps well at night she will rely less on energy drinks#because Dorian’s end goal was to make her stop drinking them altogether because that shit is so unhealthy#but he needs to ease her into it because a couple of months later you’re not going to drink this shit babe#Manon is wild tho so while she doesn’t drink them at home at times she drinks it when she’s out but she kinda feels guilty so she actually#stopped on her own accord because Dorian trusts her and she is very familiar with shame and guilt so she just stopped#thanks to him and her sleeping routine she doesn’t feel very caffeine dependent so it’s all good#she just drinks coffee and tea now#mostly coffee tho tea is just when she’s bored#like Dorian just stepped in and fixed her sleep and made sure she gets enough nourishment and wow her life really did change#she won’t admit it out loud tho but she shows him through her actions
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today i splurged on books instead of gacha bullshit who is proud of me
#finally took the plunge on some books ive been eyeing for …. two years or so pdjdkdjd#i got a collection of yi sang’s works + demian by hermann hesse . bc i’m feeling limbus pilled#and theeen i go go when you see the green man walking by christine brooke-rose :3c#bc one of her short stories has bewitched me#i should make a goodreads or something just to remember what books i have read + want to read …..#i’ve been reading sm course lit but nothing outside of that since i finished sputnik sweetheart TvT sighs .#need to get a good routine going ..#ari noises ✩
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ingellvar must have so many strange off-putting little personal habits in their day to day life that they don't even realize come across as weird, especially if they haven't ever dated outside of the watchers much. in rye's specific case I think lucanis has a capacity for such immaculate 'sure my life is already so fucking weird this might as well happen' energy that I believe he'd be able to roll with the punches admirably given the time, but it really would be a situation like
(what was going on there was that rook was placing down some experimental wards, by the way, it's what he does to calm down before bed and if he wakes during the night. what with the necropolis itself being a liminal space of lf sorts on a cosmic scale, watchers take the additional liminal space between wakefulness and dreaming extremely seriously b/c they know there are things drifting through that would just love to get their foot/tentacle/conceptual spores in that particular half-ajar door that should not be allowed inside. or outside, I suppose, depending on your point of view. rook and lucanis are also experimenting with whether solid wards can help any with lucanis' weird post-spite dreams even if they can't do anything for the more mundane ptsd ones. third reason because in my worldstate they still live in the lighthouse after the game: unless gently dissuaded wisps will sometimes drift by while you're asleep and hover over your face curiously as they sense your mind doing stuff in the fade, and no one likes waking up on an eldritch sneeze with a well-meaning yet terrified wisp zooming about the room. important watcher novice 101 lessons.
blessed mental image of rye cross-legged on the floor, barefoot in his PJs with his hair down and no makeup, peaceably tracing out elaborate geometric shapes that somehow make your eyes scared when you look at them* while lucanis sits on the bed and reads out loud to both him and spite and occasionally sneaks some carnal looks at rook's fully unleashed curly hair and bare wrists & throat...... okay I think I've found the thing that will help me through the day thank you for coming on this journey with me)
*what is the paint he's using made out of and why is it such a deeply unsettling colour? don't worry about it! :) patented mostly well-meaning yet also borderline condescending mortalitasi hand wave of 'don't worry your sweet little non-nevarran head about it we both know you don't actually want to know. do not ask questions lest you learn the answers, especially if you're going to be annoying at me and freak out about it. let the things man was not meant to know stay unknown. unknown by you I mean I'm built different'
#*at myself through gritted teeth* good things or feelings are very much not happening right now but they DO exist and they are possible#I need you to take this on faith rn because I sure as fuck don't have any proof but source: just trust me i guess#think about spite wide-eyed listening to lucanis read while lucanis absently strokes rye's hair. I'm not sure if then you'll feel better#but it's worth a shot right. better track record than with anything else#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#rye has only had one relationship with a non-watcher before and he didn't sleep over much in that one case#and also that was shitty anaxas ex-bf who liked having a pet mortalitasi but not to be reminded that said mortalitasi#was actually pretty threateningly powerful and not just an accessory for him. I don't think rye would have done much real#necromancy around him because he was in the 'pls love me love me love me I can be anything you want just don't go' mode#so he has never had to consider what his normal bedtime routine looks like to an outsider before haha#I wrote out a whole extra rookanis thing in the tags here but I'm forcing myself to make it a proper post at some point#because while I do not have the energy to examine it right now I keep writing novels in the tags because proper posts make me nervous#my brain going 'okay you can write the sincere thing. but only if you kind of hide it somewhere so it doesn't count#if I tuck it away sufficiently that means I'm not being annoying#and people won't be mad at me' (*sigh* okay what the fuck is that about. add that to the mountain of things that need unpacking#at some point you're not so tired the very thought of starting makes you nauseous)#what if everyone will think I'm stupid and cringe and pathetically earnest. on the cringe and pathetically earnest site#the only thing more unbearable than saying blorbo things in public is not getting to say blorbo things as they boil up within my skull#and I cannot seem to write fiction right now for neither love nor money so my normal outlet is clogged up#then... the power of the tag rant to make you forget yourself in the glorious rush of getting to say blorbo shit 'unperceived'.#anyway. what do you think spite would pick for them to read. that's a much happier place to rest the mind and I'd like to go there pls lol
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hi guys :3 i got a second job and the training period is kicking my ass so i'll sadly be less active for a little while. sorry about that but as always the queue will go on!
#my current routine is wake up at 5am. experience severe levels of stress at my new job. get a headache. go home. fall asleep on the couch.#wake up. go to bed. lay awake until midnight. wake up at 5am. etc.#i'm alright i'm good i just need to get through this period of stress and stress induced headaches and then i'll be okay#anyway yes i'll pop in when i can as always but asks and requests and all that will be very slow for now i'm sorry!!!#miss you guys :3 hope you enjoy the queue#me.txt#non figure
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made more sculptures, +25 HP
#robin speaks#1 wolf 1 angel 1 sheep 1 bunny 2 wizards 2 owls#looking forward to painting them. that'll be fun#I'll do it the mornings before work#I'm getting a new routine going :] it's working for me! I'm doing okay! and I'm trying my best at work#I keep having like. anxiety about not knowing exactly what to do. but I'm doing my best and I'm doing Okay so far#and at least I'm not sleeping or watching baseball at work or stealing things like my other coworkers haha#that's a low bar and I'm not setting that as My standard of behavior but it does comfort me a little. I'm not doing too bad#my greatest vice at work is just that I tend to panic in the moment and try to do things the wrong way but I'm getting better at that#also I drink the hot chocolate set out for the guests. but I'm allowed to do that. but I do feel so guilty about it for no reason LOL#I keep like hiding the hotchocolate under the counter for no reason#Oh No What If A Guest Realizes I'm Alive And Like Hot Chocolate#like bro. (talking to myself like a nervous wolf) bro you're good buddy you can take it#ANYWAYYYYYYYY#all that to say that new job is going pretty well#I have fun money to spend also! I just bought myself a CD of ''Black Sands'' by Bonobo and I'm excited for that#AND!!!! my seagull shirt from Crowlines arrived and I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT it's such a good. TEXTURE! and it looks SO GOOD on me#and like I said I'm getting new routines figured out. I'm even more of a night owl now bc my shift is 3pm to 11pm#I get up late eat an unhurried breakfast and then either shower or do ceramics (yay) and then eat unhurried lunch and go to work#no rush in the morning at all. I am THRIVING#unlike in college I don't get grades and feedback to tell me EXACTLY what I need to change. which is. DifferentTM#but on the other hand..... don't have to get up early >:D#AND I still get to do ceramics. even MORE ceramics on my days off too. love and peace on planet earth
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Me: I'm not sure if my health can withstand a commute. Should I try to go in tomorrow?
Apollo: no
Me: should I plan to work from home?
Apollo: no
Me: ...
Apollo:
Me: migraine?
Apollo: migraine.
#(cue it starting immediately afterwards)#i managed to take some painkillers in time to stave the migraine off but i still felt like shit the next day#so i couldnt have worked regardless#this was monday night (and tbf sunday & monday were *extremely* tiring days. i was falling asleep while crocheting & playing ac#which is rare even considering my fatigue issues)#yes/no divination has been great as a way to consult apollo without pulling out the tarot deck (which is more time consuming and takes#a *lot* more spoons)#the only issue is that when i do the stones or tarot i tend to get on a Divination Kick tm which is. not helpful b/c what am i going to do??#i've already finished asking what i needed to ask???#i should probably funnel that burst of dopamine/hyperfixation into researching different methods actually#gonna add that to the routine#also! working out the kinks with the yes/no method. doing it on my floor? no good. inconsistent results. Feels Bad. Loud#doing it on my bed? wonderful 10/10. very consistent results. Feels Good. not loud#i still do tarot on the floor though b/c having a flat sturdy surface is nice#for reference: my commute is 2-2.5 hrs each way via public transit. the sensory experience drains me *very* fast if im not careful and#we're in Purgatory Weather season where it's *juuust* warm & humid enough to maybe be a problem but isnt one For Sure#*and* the state fair is on so the trains are gonna be packed when im trying to get home#coriander says#helpol#hellenic pagan#hellenic polytheism#apollo#theoi#pagans of tumblr#hellenic community#paganblr
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can't tell whether i'm getting fucked by my non-existent period or i've just fallen into a Ditch face first
#could be either one#the period is late btw#which is always so fun#why don't i still have like a proper Schedule at my big age#like why does it just go over like a week or two sometimes bro please#i'd LOVE a routine#PLEAASEEEE#it's so fucking annoying#but yeah i feel very not human#which is also . very annoying lmao#i might just need a shower but oooh my god that seems like the most impossible task rn#tomorrow..#tomorrow will be the day..#aaanyway i think i'm gonna try to sleep#since i didn't get any good sleep yesterday#i think i was only like half asleep for the most part#???????????#idk don't ask#hashtag super doomed#save me roomie satoru save meeee#mayor of loserville
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okay... didn't get as much done as i wanted to, but the sadness is creeping back in so i think... i'm gonna go play some rivals for a bit for a more complete distraction lmao...
counselling tomorrow, but if i get home early enough and have the spoons i might see about actually taking a crack at replying to some drafts. thank you all once again for your immense patience with me, as well as your continued interest in my little freak of a muse. means a lot ♡♡♡
#this was the time of day where i'd top up cookie's food bowl and spend some time with her and it just.#fucks me up going about my routine of clearing off my dinner plate and giving the dog his dessert (a dental treat) and then...#having that instinct to go to the cage but not. actually needing to anymore.#last time i still had a rattie to look after but this time it's just empty and. fuck.#i miss her so fucking much#anyway. yeah. i'll get back to threads soon bc i have been concocting some replies in my head since last night#but a little meme today was a good way to dip my toes back in and get the writing flow going again yk?#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.#pet death cw#for the tags ig
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Everyone is pissing me off so bad rn. Nobody in the comments gave ANY pushback to the idea that "a whole skincare routine" costing $100 would be affordable. What the fuck are all of you ONN
#if you need to have your skincare clean girl aesthetic shit go to fucking walmart and get some facial cleanser and a moisturizer#i didnt watch the whole video so i cant even imagine what other products there could be#also even if it was like 'a whole skincare routine for $100 that will last you literally the rest of your entire life' it still wouldnt be#a good price#hello i will personally probably spend less than $25 on non-acne related skincare over the course of my entire life#currently i use a facewash i got on sale at walmart for a couple bucks because it was xmas themed#and a facewash that my friend got as a free sample and forgot at my house one time#and those two items will last me for the next 40 years
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my main job is term-time only and every year I have such high expectations for the summer, like I'm gonna fix my whole house & garden & health & social life, apply for jobs, make money, write a book, etc.
and then inevitably I get like 2 weeks in without structure or routine or consistent human contact and it's like hm. thinking about going missing
#talking#it doesn't help that I stopped replying to like 90% of attempts to contact me#seems kind of inconsistent with the desire for human contact thing#anyway I'm gonna do a bunch of sensible constructive things about this. eventually#especially bc I very much do need to make some money this summer lol#last year I did okay with casual shifts at various places. but this year no one has any money so there is not much going#need to try and get a consistent temp job somewhere. which would also be good for routine
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top surgery…………tomorrow…………
#what the fuckkkkkk#I’ve heard people say ‘practice sleeping on your back for like three weeks prior to surgery!!!’ and as much as I understand that#on the OTHER hand. should I not be savoring every moment of side and stomach sleep I have left#that being at this point probably a grand total of like. 12 hours.#I wish I got a few more things done before im unable to carry shit for like a month but. ah well#like I wanted to get my tv mounted properly so I can use it from my bed. but yeah that didn’t happen#I’m still anxious about the travel part but less because I think it’s too close for comfort time-wise and more because I’m worried my friend#will think it’s too close and she’ll back out last moment and I’ll have to go with my mom instead#that would be a pretty shitty thing to do at this point but idk you never know#the way I have things set up I SHOULD have between 2hrs 15min - 2hrs 50min to get there with the latter being way more likely#it’s a 1.5hr drive NOT including traffic. considering going into SF always has some amount of traffic and there’s construction around sac rn#I am taking into consideration the traffic. but I would be kind of appalled if a whole extra hour got tacked on because of traffic#I’m leaving town during the morning rush But usually people are going INTO sac for the rush not the other way around. and by the time I’m at#the bay bridge it should be past the sf morning rush or at least at the tail end of it#can you tell I’ve been overthinking this like crazy. I mean. you can’t blame me considering if I somehow can’t make it on time I risk losing#my appointment that took me over a Year to get and I’d have to reschedule probably months later#worst case scenario of course but yeah.#anyway. anyway I need to stop thinking about this it’s pointless right now#ghsgahhh how does it still not feel totally real??? I mean I guess cause nothing currently is different in my life?? like I’m just. going to#work like normal. same routine tonight as usual. etc. it’s like it’s all gonna kick in at once as soon as Friday morning hits#maybe it doesn’t feel real partly because if it did I’d be even more anxious and unable to function#fuckkkkk I don’t know dude this is so weird this isn’t how I expected to feel at all#it could be worse of course I’m not really complaining so much as expressing my confusion over it#I’m gonna have so much fucking trouble sleeping before all this fuckkjjjkk#kibumblabs#also I was told id probably get some calls this week from the hospital but I haven’t gotten anything at all so that’s#idk a little nervewracking but it just as well could be a good thing ie; I got all my forms and tests and shit done early so now all I have#to do is Wait basically#guess we’ll see if they call or message me later today
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today i restarted an old gym membership and went to it for the first time in over five years! it was very fun, i dont know if i pushed a little too much or not. i will find out the consequences of that later 👍 the old man who has been constantly working on there at any hour of any day i come in is still there. he will always be there. he is the one constant on this dog gone earth.
#i like that theres a constant old man gym rat. im glad hes still going strong after all these years#i wonder if he recognized me. a lot of people were looking at me for some reason. that didnt happen much years ago#maybe it was a lot of new regulars who didnt expect me - an old regular who wasnt and then is again LOL i didnt mind but it was funny#i remember my routine. mostly arm stuff and a bit of leg stuff but the leg stuff i get bored really fast#on account of my mysteriously comically ripped calves making a lot of exercises too easy <3 BUT rn while my calves are. still buff as hell#the rest of my legs are something akin to loose pieces of fruit rollup attached to bones rn. so i did a lot more leg stuff this time LOL#i do need to figure out core exercises tho my core has always sucked ass. those exercises always make me like. woozy#so i was never able to figure out good ones outside of like 3 situps max before i lose count hjkLSKJDJSFd#but i must return to my past. as the worlds shittiest gym rat. thats who i was in highschool and early university <3#the gym rat who never seems to get much stronger but keeps coming anyway <3 <3 <3
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#no fuck it one more ramble because im going through things#i neurotically laid out my calendar marking all the times this dog needs to be walked#so i'll need to get myself into a routine with that#i plan to use tomorrow night to pack. and i have some time wednesday#and then i have evening plans friday-sunday but fuck all for monday#i fucking hate holiday weekends#like i really have jack shit planned. and i cant be gone Too long because this dog needs to be walked so i cant go to salem#and my other friend is moving that weekend. also a no-go.#i could go on a shitty date that day. or something. but i need to find fucking something#tuesday is less than ideal because i cant cowork but i'll survive because i think i have a night plan#i think i can swing Friday for a plan#saturday is wide open but it's also the last day with the dog. so i can turn that into a go home and clean day#but i also think they get home at 7?? so maybe not ugh#so i could use sunday for that which works#but that means i need saturday plans#and ive already asked one friend to hang out with me two weekends in a row. i cant do a third :'D#idk im stressing to high hell about this but maybe it'll be fine since i have a new video game coming out#but it has me twitchy#at least until monday we're good. i'll annoy my therapist thursday and ask what i should do then#if my body wasn't a wreck id say 'oo rent a car. go hiking or kayaking whatever the fuck'#But™#maybe there's a movie or a show...#or maybe i'll just fucking work. if there's enough to do. i could go to the library#the fact this dog needs to be walked at 3:30 really fucks up my normal schedule though
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