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[jvlianbashir]

"haha these alpha trad men really just have dom/sub kinks!" i know misogyny isn't real to a lot of you guys but did you know that some people just actually do genuinely think women are inferior creatures

[buck1eys]

goncharov was THIS YEAR are you fucking w me rn

[nommedeploom]

okay actually i have another BE meme for you all, bc i sent my sister this post and went “IT’S THEM” and then she sent me this back. eat

[flowercrowngods]

sometimes i wonder if i’m really mentally ill. my food doesn’t go bad, and my dishes don’t sit around longer than three days before i get to them. i change my sheets on the first of every month and do my laundry once a week. i put it in the wardrobe after at least a day. i go to the store to buy groceries every week, then i make food and eat it and separate my waste — plastics, paper, compostable organics and non-compostable “other”. i separate recycling and glass bottles. i wipe my surfaces and vacuum my room, i make my bed every morning, i air out my room and i water my plants and watch them grow, smiling at each new leaf winning the battle against all circumstances that want to keep life on the down-low around me.

sometimes i wonder if i’m really mentally ill when i see people unable to get out of bed let alone make it, when i see piles of dishes and laundry around them, when i see media portrayals of illness as nothing short of a disability. sometimes i wonder if that’s why i don’t get help. when i get grades no lower than a B, when i go to work and seem to all of society like a functioning member, like another cog in the machine flying under the radar.

sometimes i wonder if maybe i should stop doing the dishes. sometimes i wonder if i should stop washing my clothes, if i should stop getting any grades at all, if i should stop going to work and not get out of bed. sometimes i wonder if that’s what it takes for anyone to see. to see that there’s no joy to be found within these walls. no point, no reason, no purpose. no ambition, no hopes, no dreams.

sometimes i wonder what it means to be mentally ill, because obviously i am not. i’m too self-aware, too functional, not doing badly enough. the air constructing in my lungs is not bad enough, the tremor in my hands thinking about tomorrow is not bad enough, the hopelessness residing in the centre of my being is not bad enough, the pointlessness of everything not strong enough, the thoughts of dying not secret enough.

because i do my dishes. i eat my food before it goes bad. i have fresh clothes each day. i go to uni, i go to work, i water my plants and watch them grow.

i am not mentally ill. you will not find me on the screen. you will only read about me in an obituary.

— thoughts of a crazy person

[givehimthemedicine]

just had a horrifying family lore conversation with my grandmother and now I need to ask: did your family have an official barf bowl for when you were too sick to get out of bed in time?

if it was a bowl/pot from the kitchen, did it return to active use in the kitchen once washed?

[cannibalismyuri]

something visceral just happened to me because of nimona's backstory and how it's Such a good trans allegory. first we have the almost obvious metaphor; “i wouldn't die die, but i sure won't be living” which is such a glaringly real feeling that so many trans people emulate, because nobody would die of not being recognized as who they are, nobody would die of not presenting as their true self, but you wouldn't be living. and really, what's worse?

it lines up so perfectly with the motif of ‘when so many people see you as a villain that's all you can be in their eyes’ because Oh My God. people see nimona as a monster, because she is different. people don't see her, they see something to make them heroes. they see something different and they see something bad. which makes the scene with ballister and nimona where he tells her he sees her even when she's overcome by the sheer hatred the people have for her being even more hard hitting but im not ready to cry so we won't talk about that.

and the scene where gloreth tells her to “go back to the shadows from where she came” is even worse because it explicitly showed us that hatred of the different isn't just always there. it's learned. gloreth was the first person who she could be with who accepted her as she was. we get to see that whatever species she shape-shifts to; nobody ever accepts her. but gloreth wanted her despite her not being fully human, inspite of her being different, maybe a little but because of it. but then we see the sword scene, which solidifies so many trans peoples' fears; that they will be shunned for their otherness. for their differences, which were so readily accepted by the innocent, untrained mind, they will be treated as an outcast. because the same innocent minds will be trained to hate them because they are different.

anyway i'm just over here crying about how painfully and explicitly real of a trans allegory nimona is, ok thx 👍

[hawkinslibrary]

[someforeignband]

if sam winchester has no haters im dead

[rogueddie]

[hammity-hammer]

THIS PICCREW IS REALLY CUTE AND FUN i am collecting babies in jars like pokemon (i keep forcing my friends to do them and send them to me so i can keep them)

i would love for everybody to do it and show me your babies !!! Also-- we made ourselves as babies so yeah

HERE IS BABY AJ IN A JAR!!!

[jvlianbashir]

i think we should have a custom blog theme renaissance

[gulducock]

hi chat this might be a long shot because its not even related to star trek at all lol. but i have a following here so maybe some1 will know. but u know how theres a google drive for all the star trek shows does anyone happen to know if something like that exists for the pokemon anime, like some sort of directory that includes every ep starting at indigo league up to what exists today. thank you very much for your time

[nommedeploom]

watch beyond evil.

[flowercrowngods]

because you, my pocket friends, liked my first try, here’s baby’s second acrylic pour 🤍

(bigger canvas this time; 30x40cm

[buck1eys]

the way in season one it's may you be forgiven because aziraphale is looking up to heaven for reassurance that will never come, and then in season two it's i forgive you because either aziraphale knows that what's between him and crowley is beyond the powers of heaven and hell to forgive OR because he has already assumed his role as the new gabriel and believes it's in his power to forgive crowley, but also to forgive himself. they way he believes both at the same time. the way crowley knows it's futile, pointless, and he's furious that aziraphale can't see it. look what they did to me, he wants to say. look what they did to you, are still doing to you. crowley forgives him, and it breaks his heart.

[givehimthemedicine]

no nuance we tear our friendships apart like men