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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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let’s investigate these plants with mama!
#with mama#mamaposting#late to the party but with mama never ends#this is me and my mom if you even care#cause shes from new zealand#charlie talks#notes in the 1000s
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the vulture.
a comic about cycles.
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#cw: death mention#learnt about phillip mainlander's theory from a friend. im not normally very well read in deep-cut german philosophers#the mental image of his “earth is god's rotting corpse” was just very striking#i havent been able to make comics like this for a while now. mostly for mental reasons#but this felt good to complete#also i know some people find the creative notes annoying or condescending and i kinda dont care#i like making them if only for myself#thank you tumblr for always being here for me to be my most authentic self (annoying about media analysis)#thank you for reading#comic art#daughter of the birch tree#dotbt#stillindigo comics#stillindigo art
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The dichotomy of Brennan helping with ability score rolls for newer players:
Titan Takedown: Preps high-level base stats for the cast, with everyone having a 20 in their two most relevant ability scores and no one really having a genuine dump stat (no one's character has below a 14/+2 modifier in any ability), which allows the players to play to their class strengths and not have to worry about fucking up as much in a shorter, tighter campaign.
Fantasy High: Ally Beardsley rolls a 4 for Kristen's Dex and has to live with with the consequences of that for 6+ years
#Dimension 20#D20#Fantasy High#Titan Takedown#Just thinking about how funny it is when you look at it from the broadest possible angle#I know it's easier to have prepared high-octane PCs to make it easy for people who've never played#But without that context Brennan seeing Ally roll a -3 modifer and being like 'oh this is going to be hilarious' kills me#Ally: 'I got a low number for my dexterity but that won't matter right?'#Brennan: >:)#Seta speaks#Side note I can't remember if they rolled a 5 and dropped it to a 4 or rolled a 4 outright so disclaimer that that number might be off#top posts#EDIT: Man I've been here for like 4 months and the D20 fandom already got a post of mine to 1k this is awesome lmao
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"Holding your hand doesn't have to mean that I accept your friendship," the liar said to the truthful, trying to lie in front of the only person who understands his intentions.
He knows, of course, that the liar did not lie. For the liar is also the truthful.
#saying that pure “i forgave my best friend that created the evil woman who almost destroyed the world” vanilla cookie wont forgive you#is like saying humans can have five legs#(statistically possible but very very rare)#anyways what i was quoting is meant to refer to shmilk never actually lying to vanilla for the whole comic#(except the “pretending to understand” bit but is it rlly lying if they both know its a lie and know that the other knows)#yes he could do this and that. but he never said he would. and pv knows he wouldn't#they understand each other <3 for they are one and the same <3#i have notes on this comic so if anyone wants me to yap just come yell at me at the tags or sumn#wanted to render this tbh but i got lazy so take these ugly doodles ig#smilk drawn from memory while i barely used references for pv (like.. halfway through making this LOLL)#hopefully this is readable ;w;#admittedly i feel like some parts can be quite ooc and if so i apologize im still wrapping my head around these two#i just want to put them both in a jar and shake them around grr#my doodles#pureshadow#shadowvanilla#shadownilla#not ship but feel free to interpret whatever#pure vanilla cookie#awakened pure vanilla cookie#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#crk#alt text available
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I don't want to regret the way I lived
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#choso kamo#junpei yoshino#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#this idea started as a 2 part series . then my braincells decided to spark and supplied 7 PAGES#'did you sleep hina' no#ws looking up mentally stable things like 'who has died in jjk' smh i love my hyperfixation media im sooooo glad so many ppl r DEAD#i *could* have included more ppl but i think this is a good crew. this is a yuuji emotional support crew#also Was gna include his grandpa final panel but i Did Not Want To#he is implied through th dialogue#side note i donot like how i cn see this scenario playing out . ..yuuji this isnt ur stop u r monopoly voice Just Visiting ok >:(#anyway I broke my own heart with this and ik i hyped it up a lot but i hope that its not just me...#hope i did not hype it up fr nothing and no one else finds it devastating :((((( that would b humbling in the worst way#pls ...join the happy party train.......i hate it here i suffered pls :<<<<#also !!!! colours in this !! i cooked i fear . adding th first bit of warm hitting yuuji's face after th first 2 panels....#ive never had that kind of experience while drawing before it was wild . painful ! but wild.#the whole transition from p 2->3 might b the most emotionally moving piece ive ever made to me#not 2 sing my own praises tho i will shut up ! i wil. nap
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i love the idea of crossovering Mob with different spirits ✨️
#please note that i took inspo from one art i had in my ref folder that is like months old but i dont have the credits of the artist??#helped me understand how trains can be drawn lmao#if you know who they are say itt#mob psycho fanart#mob psycho 100#reigen arataka#mp100 fanart#shigeo kageyama#myart#mp100#studio ghibli#no face
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Lifespans.
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[Image ID: A three-way venn diagram floating against a starfield. The circles are coloured; one yellow, one light blue, one a darker shade of blue. The yellow is the smallest, the two blue ones over double its size, with the darker blue the biggest. The yellow is half covered by the two blue circles, while it takes up a small amount of the two blues. The centre overlap between all three is labelled "the precious few years we three were together".
There is very little overlap between the yellow and the darker blue without the lighter blue.
The work is signed 'aerialworms'./End ID]
#star trek#mcspirk#star trek fanart#star trek the original series#leonard mccoy#james t kirk#spock#i drew this after that short film came out last year#I don't usually acknowledge ge nerations for my own sanity but it got me thinking about how jim only knew spock for 25 years before he die#bones for 35ish#less than half his life. and then they just had to live on without him#spirk#mckirk#spones#bones and spock knew each other for far longer together than they were with jim#but they came together because of him#their relationship after he disappeared must have been in some way changed by his absence#and i really can't get over the fact that bones lived for so long as well. like he got to over double jim's age when he disappeared#they all probably thought they'd be together forever#and then.#and don't get me started on bones dying and spock immediately leaving for romulus#by my calculations (yes i did a shitton of maths for this and then took artistic liberty with the diagram anyway)#(yes i was also using rough guesstimate and headcanon for dates and ages bc canon is so conflicting)#they were all three together for 25 years. it was 28 years from jim taking command to him entering the nexus#minus three for the pre-Motion Picture divorce years. 25 years they actually got to be together as a triumvirate. not fucking fair.#also please note jim was 60 when he entered the nexus. bones lived to be 141 and spock got to 161. they were all together for 25 years.#i put the k/s overlap as only a few years because i haven't watched snw and figured there were probably only a few years cumulative where#they were together without bones being around too#mckirk overlap is roughly 11 years bc of personal headcanon that they were friends before the 5ym AHH BASTARD TUMBLR DELETED MY TAGS#Please see my reblog if you want the rest of these tags!!!
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even dogs pass the mirror test
#hello again everyone. how's it going#isat loop#in stars and time#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#isat#lucabyteart#isat spoilers#so. had this idea Before getting my hands on the artbook and being validated. literally have a voice note from 4:30am on the 8th where#i frantically noted down this just horrid horrid horrid caption because i'd been musing on the sasasap Dress line all day i suppose#just kind of rotating in my brain the way any kind of first time trying on new clothes for them would be .#just absolutely mental breakdown material and not one i think would be recovered from quickly. they hate being in their own skin#like. a lot? like a lot. the collateral of any kind of transfemme read was barely in my mind until it ended up relevant again while i was#actively working on this. because christ that's a bad combo. 2x different forms of body dysphoria in one. maybe even 3x somehow#plus any scenario where they get clothes is... likely gifted. something they react viciously negatively to in game and i doubt#would improve thereafter. just a veritable katamari of disgust and self-loathing#like i was mostly just thinking abt how a lot of our collective depictions of loop being alienated from their body are rather abstract#in a body horror way mostly. on account of loop being more of a metaphor than a person half the time. so i think i wanted to depict#something closer to just. a human level of body dysphoria. no focus on the whole duplicate thing just... raw disgust for the self#but with the addition of recent discussion and playing ball more with the she/her loop and transfem loop angle...#scenario of leaning into femininity to try throw off suspicion on who they are PLUS realising they might want that PLUS the party#trying to use this to bond with them PLUS body dysphoria PLUS new!gender dysphoria PLUS the usual revulsion for wanting and desire#like. that is a catastrophic combination . not coming out of that one without it getting worse for a few weeks thereafter#that's a real lash out at everyone around them and then recede in shame type breakdown. which im sure looks interesting from#the party's pov because jesus christ that touched a nerve something awful (<- they only have half the context AT BEST)#. so . there's your free scenario to ponder on if you'd want to. seeing as ive done a picture without a shitload of words on it for once#ALSO don't get smart with me in the tags about the mirror test being an absolutely ass test in most regards re: self-awareness#or that things like minnows pass it. i'm a fellow pedant dont worry. it's just that minnow doesn't really have the same ring as dog yknow?#this is supposed to be like an absolutely excruciatingly self loathing thought spoken aloud of a caption. it's pithy and cruel on purpose#and more than a little inspired by (reblogged yesterday) liminal space's 'there is no other dog. it's just you'
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re : how each brother reacts learning that they can't go back
you'll have to pry the "all the Brozone Bros knew what happened at the tree" headcanon outta my cold, dead dead dead hands.
#sandflakedrew#trolls clay#trolls john dory#trolls floyd#trolls bruce#on today's docket : brozone angst#added in order of who i think found out first to last#listen#listen listen listen#they Knew!!!#JD for obvious reasons#Clay from Viva#Bruce isn't taken aback hearing Viva's story either. He's heard before#the combo of Floyd's 'never thought i'd see any of my brothers ever again' & 'is it really you?' hits a similar note for me#They! Knew!#clears throat. anyways#me to me : okay but wouldn't it be a little bit /more/ fucked up if JD didn't /let/ himself be fully gray? wouldn't that be worse?#the idea of someone forcefully sucking that shit back in?#terrible.#awful.#perfect for JD#perfect perfect perfect one might even say#same kinda deal with bruce.#what if you heard the news and felt compelled to try and live for more people than yourself. in order for your current peace to be fair#what then#i have more thoughts but this is enough tags as is#trolls#dreamworks trolls
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╰➤Dish Duty
You pause in the doorway, blinking at the sight before you.
Jason. At the sink. Doing the dishes.
For a moment, your brain refuses to process it. This is Jason Todd, a man whose idea of cleaning is kicking his boots into a corner and calling it a day. A man who has been known to buy new dishes just to avoid washing the ones in his sink.
And yet, here he is, sleeves rolled up, hands in soapy water, looking criminally domestic.
You squint. "What are you doing?"
Jason glances over his shoulder. "Dishes?"
"Since when do you do that?"
"Since you told me you don’t enjoy it." He shrugs, like it’s the most obvious thing in the world, before turning back to the sink.
Your brain short-circuits.
Because what the hell.
Your heart clenches, because it’s such a small thing—so stupidly, absurdly small—but it means everything. He doesn’t say I love you all the time, but this? This is him saying it without words.
You step forward, wrapping your arms around his waist from behind, pressing your cheek against his back. He’s warm, solid, and smells faintly like dish soap and him.
Jason huffs out a laugh. "What, you get turned on by dishwashing now?"
You snort, smacking his side lightly. "Shut up."
He smirks but keeps scrubbing.
And you stand there for a moment, holding him, listening to the soft clink of dishes, feeling your heart swell.
Maybe you’ll start complaining about laundry next.
#🌟 drabbles#tbh yall loved my 'Food Love' drabble and I have to spill the beans since this one will be similar thank you for over 1k notes btw ):#my grandma married the love of her life so she tells me all the cute things they do or did#together so thats where the sharing pickles came from she HATES them and my grandfather does the dishes for my grandma when#she doesn't want to [:#jason todd x you#jason todd fluff#jason todd imagine#jason todd x reader#jason peter todd#🌟🦇 DC-BATFAM
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They don’t even attempt to assassinate US politicians anymore. You notice that? Not since the anthrax scare back for… who was it, Barack? And even that… pathetic. This new generation has no respect for an honest hitman. I’m not sure this new generation has any honest hitman - you see that shit with Boeing? Sloppy, fucking disgraceful - you kill the whistleblowers before they get halfway to a lawsuit. What kind of fucking amateur is doing faked suicides the night before testimony? Goddamn greenhorns. Back in my day someone tried to shoot Ronald Reagan in broad daylight. There used to be bomb threats to Congress. I took out a few union leaders in the utilities sector myself. Today’s generation? Won’t even threaten to throw a punch - not even over on that - what’s it now, ‘X’? They got no guts. None! And they don’t even have poor impulse control to boot! Too much of that - that panopticon anxiety bullshit. “Oh what if I get a called out post???” People used to send the president letters full of bioweapons. In the mail! Today’s generation? Not a chance. All because of woke.
#ra speaks#personal#JOKING.#this is a joke this is a parody of right wing rants regarding social phenomenon they believe to be oppressed by left leaning politics.#but within the perspective of an old fictional hitman.#this is a joke tangentially referencing my fictional hitmen from a fictional story in which no harm comes to career politicians#obviously but also if this gets me on a list o7#fbi agent in my phone I’m a disabled autistic dyke with zero engineering or chemistry background#my skills are best applied to…idk sabatoging national forest harvest regimes? but I’m not doing that they’re neglected enough as is.#edit: oops this is getting notes o/ hiiiii cia agent reading this post <3 a union leader my dad worked w got fucking assassinated#by Pinkertons and y’all didn’t do shit. I hope you have visions of hell and become a nomadic hermit self flagellating in the woods#edit 2: ooooooh there was a pres debate last night. that’s why people care about my two week old joke hitman post. was wondering why.
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The Harbinger Of Death
watch out gem and joel
close ups under cut and analysis in tags ->




#grian#mumbo jumbo#skizzleman#inthelittlewood#martyn inthelittlewood#bluerabb’s fanart#traffic smp#traffic series#traffic life#trafficblr#wild life smp#wild life fanart#wild life spoilers#wild life series#there is a few different symbolisms for who died first#most notably the order of mumbo skizz and martyn and how mumbo is the furtherest away from grian as grian keeps marching#but also that mumbo’s head is tilted the furtherest from the light#while martyn is staring directly up at it like the spotlight has just come on#as well as the fact it gets bluer the longer they’ve been dead and red the closest to living they are with grian obviously being the red#note as well also of utmost importance: skizz has heart socks and grian has a red life heart patch#pushing my ragdoll grian agenda#if you find any more meanings pls tell me in tags i want to hear it
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it's going to go exactly as written.
#dn musical reference <3 it reminded me of that scene at the end where light steps in front of the gun knowing L won't shoot#so he taunts L by pressing his forehead to the gun. but imagine he puts the gun in his mouth instead. yay.#tw blood#tw gun#death note#light yagami#lawlight#light death note#death note light#death note musical#death note fanart#squid game#screencap redraw#elle draws#I was supposed to draw L too from Light's pov but tbh I suck at colors and my eyes are fried I can barely tell if this is okay anymore lol#so have this. thank you good night
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Something that peeves me whenever I see another post going around with some variation on "autistic people take things literally which means we are the only people who communicate Clearly and Directly" is that - for any given statement, there is not one singular, agreed on, universal Literal Interpretation. If there was, none of this would be a problem!
The nature of language is that there's always some degree of interpretability. Words have several different meanings, often overlapping, and there's nuance of context, cultural references, and so on.
Faced with a statement, most people will quickly come up with an interpretation that to them makes the most sense. But if you asked a roomful of people to explain in detail their interpretations, everyone's would probably be a little different, even for a pretty simple statement. Regardless of whether those people are autistic! Everyone conceptualizes the world a little differently, and everyone has a unique personal history of all the language they've encountered, and these things effect our interpretations.
In order for communication to be workable, given this slosh in interpretability, there's another couple of processes that go on. As conversation goes on, people reassess if their initial interpretation matches up with additional context. If it doesn't, they revise it, or ask clarifying questions. And on the flipside of this process, the other person in conversation is tracking if your reactions make sense with *their* understanding of what they're trying to convey to you, and offering context or rephrasing things if it seems you're out of alignment.
These processes are social skillsets that are, like most social skillsets, not ever directly articulated or explained. Many people are bad at one or both. Sometimes you encounter someone who is really, notably good at it - the vaunted "good listener", who puts in the effort to really understand what you're trying to say, or that really excellent teacher who engages with you back and forth until you really get it. But a lot of the time, it's a sort of passive social friction - people just not getting each other.
Sometimes, you encounter someone whose brain works so much like yours that talking to them feels almost effortless - you just get each other. But that's a pretty rare occurrence for anyone. More often, as you get to know someone, you start to understand the shape of the way they interpret things and learn to account for it, so over time it's easier to make sense to each other.
It's honestly not uncommon in society for people to aggregate in groups of people who interpret things similarly, and who are thus easier to talk to, rather than actually building the skills of communicating across interpretation gaps. Particularly egregious are those groups of men who talk about Women as an incomprehensible monolith, but it turns up to a greater or lesser degree on a lot of levels.
I suspect this is the root of a lot of parenting problems - people who have never built this communication skillset, and relied on choosing friends who make sense to them without a lot of effort, and who are then totally unprepared to interact with a child who interprets things in ways they don't expect.
Obviously I can't speak to The Universal Typical Experience, not least because it doesn't exist. But in general I would posit that:
Most people, give or take a few assholes, are not trying to say things that are confusing. Most people think they are communicating clearly, because the first interpretation *they* would come up with on hearing one of their own sentences is the correct interpretation.
Many people are not very good at accounting for different ways people could interpret things they're saying. However, it is normal and polite social behavior to be somewhat flexible about this and forgiving of misunderstandings. If people are being shitty to you about not understanding them, they are assholes. And I wouldn't assume that the rest of the communication they have with everyone else they know goes totally smoothly for them.
I suspect there is a bit of an unfortunate feedback loop, where people have bad experiences when someone gets mad at them for not getting something, and learn to hide when they're confused. Which then leads to larger, more complicated misunderstandings, which other different people get upset at them about, because those people think they should have asked for clarification in the first place.
Truly you can't win with everyone. No one can win with everyone. There is no monolith of "neurotypical communication" which resolves all these contradictions - all those people you're lumping in together under "neurotypical" have just as much trouble with each other.
#this post brought to you by: the irony of people in the notes of a post about Literal Direct Communication arguing about#what would be a clearer and more unambiguous way to express the sentiment meant by 'autistic people take things literally'#'no *your* phrasing is even *more* confusing it should be -' do you see the problem yet perhaps#Look. If someone says 'I'm the only person who communicates Clearly and everyone else is the problem'#what I hear is 'I have no ability whatsoever to account for other ways people might be interpreting things differently from me'#This is all pretty longwinded. I might try to revise down a more concise version.#Concise is hard for me; that's something I'm working on#I just took out a paragraph about literal vs figurative language because it was clunking things up#But the long and short of it is that those aren't as clearly seperable as people sometimes claim#For one thing I often see 'literal speech' used to mean 'i think the interpretation is obvious' which is sure. A tautology.#anyway sorry for my rambling slash thank you for reading it#long post
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Okay but do you know what really gets me?
There's no one left in-universe who can or will talk about Jaybin as he really was.
Bruce is the founder of the Jaybin Slander Department;
Alfred is no better.
Dick wasn't around much, didn't know him that well.
If Barbara ever interacted with him in his original run, I haven't found it yet.
I mean, he had some interactions with the Teen Titans, but was he really close with any of them?
I suppose Gordon could, assuming he isn't in on the Jason-bashing. I haven't seen it but I could be missing something.
And, well, Jason... somehow, I don't think anyone's asking Jason what he was like as a kid, nor is he really a reliable source. Autobiographical memory is weird.
No one in-universe will ever really talk about this bright, friendly, eager kid, and it's a tragedy.
He was smart and clever and had so much compassion.
He wanted so badly to help people, and he found joy in his work as Robin.
He had a dramatic flair and he was kind of a nerd and he was really funny on occasion.
He was so deeply, fundamentally good, and the fact that somehow his legacy has been twisted into one of anger and recklessness is honestly a crime.
It makes me so desperately sad that there's not a single character who can even start to undo the lasting damage of a four-decade smear campaign against a kid who did nothing to deserve it.
#warrior's thoughts#jason todd#bruce wayne#jaybin#jaybin readthrough#comics#it's all jim starlin's fault btw#the way he writes jason does not align with any of jason's other appearances in contemporary books#every time dc writes something about jason being angry or reckless as a child an angel loses their wings#he has his moments of anger but it's not like he's not justified in those#also he's 12-15; i feel like some anger is normal at that age#and a lot of his seemingly reckless moments were actually calculated; he just didn't lay out the plan for bruce before doing it#jim starlin is the only writer who writes jason the way he does. everyone else seemed to understand that this was a good kid#it's really jarring to go from batman 413 to batman 415 (jay doesn't appear in 414) because of the stark difference in how jay is written#genuine question for mr starlin if you didn't like the character of robin why did you agree to write batman?#i can't be too upset; i really like red hood and it's only because jim starlin hated jason that we got utrh in the first place#but the character assassination of jaybin is just depressing#(btw if you want me to figure out image sources lmk i did not keep track lol)#also i should note that it is implied that dick and jason were actually pretty close#we just don't get to see much of it#so all we have are those implications. same with babs actually - she never appears in the jaybin era#but later comics (and her presence at his funeral) suggest they knew each other
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