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scavenger-toll · 1 year ago

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i need to stop being friends eith people who are mean to me…

#the orher day i showing my buddy some of my youtube videos #snd all of the sudden he says “WOW YOU FELL OFF LOL”#like oh. oh ok then #now i dont feel like making stuff anymore #whatever.. i’ll delete this tomorrow i just needed to talk because i dont wanna bother anybody rn

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dreamsy990 · 4 months ago

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Could you perhaps draw how Penelope and Odysseus met in your monster AU?

it was a pretty friendly meeting i think

#file name for this was meet cute btw #ALSO I THOUGHT FIREALPACA WAS GOING TO CRASH AT THE END GENUINELY BC IT WAS LAGGING SO HARD #like it was STRUGGLING i would draw a line and there was a 4 second delay #but its fine i got it #fiddled with the lighting a lot here #sighh still not all that happy with it but i dont wanna look at this anymore and also im convinced firealpaca will explode if i keep drawin #anyways art tags time #doodles #epic the musical #epic monster au #odysseus #penelope #uhh do i odypen tag this #yknow what its odypen at heart <3 to me #odypen #uhh to be clear this isnt really canon #i dont have an actual idea yet #like i said before this au doesnt really have much story atm #if anyone feels like making stuff up go ahead #for me i just sorta made this au because its fun to draw!#anyways i do hesitantly have as part of odys backstory for this au that he used to be a monster hunter before he got bit #so this is actually pretty plausible #ok done rambling now eheh

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skunkes · 1 year ago

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old drawings i found and enjoyed while looking for something else

#a doodley #i dont know what happened. some of these are from so little ago and i cant do em anymore #i used to take full color full body couple comms now i cant even draw oc self ship interactions anymore.#granted the comms werent that good either but ykwim i cant even do it for leisure anymore #and its also so weird when i look at my old stuff that i always have like. non linear improvement. it rises and falls all the time #thats not good! why cant i Keep what i learn! and why does Learning make my art worse when im trying to make it better....#its crazy seeing how well i could draw faces (sometimes) before i started studying faces. now they rarely look as good.#alas. once again i feel im the result of a non artist forcing their way to it ykwim #an equivalent of a land mammal trying to live underwater

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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At what temperature INDOORS (not outdoor weather) do you start to become noticeably uncomfortable (sweaty, heavy, don't feel like doing anything, etc.) and begin trying to cool off yourself or your environment?

(Like, at what point do you start putting out fans, turning on the AC, getting ice water, etc. because the indoor room temperature has gotten too high for you?)

It's starting to get warmer weather where I live, so I was thinking about it/curious how this might vary :0

(sorry if the celsius conversions aren't entirely accurate, I just used a website to look them up/am not familiar with measuring things that way myself lol)

#polls #tumblr polls #summer #Honestly mine is like... 71F lol.. I would say it starts to get uncomfortable to the point that I'm distracted by it around 74/75F #but even at 71 I am noticably warm and will go try to check what the temperature is and would like turn on the air if I had it or etc.#What i get is just that my skin will be warm?? Like it almost feels like I'm wearing a sweater when I'm not. I just feel this sheet of heat #kind of lingering above my skin even when my arm is bare and has nothing on it. It feels like I'm shrouded. And I get a little flushed and #headacehy feeling. and super lethargic where I don't feel like doing anything or eating or anything else. Like today it was only 73 in my #room earlier and I nearly skipped lunch just to lay on the floor. I just don't feel hungry and I dont feel like moving or thinking #or doing anything really. I would eat food if it was brought to me but I don't desire it anymore the way I do sometimes in the winter.#BUT I'm also super heat sensitive due to health conditions and stuff so. Someone told me a few days ago that 72F is comfortable #for most people lol..??? Which is maybe true. Even though that's the point that I start looking around the room like 'ermm...is anyone #else warm??'. But yeah. I guess my answer would seriously be like... 71 for when I actually start to GET uncomfrotable. But then its like #74/75 at the point that I become soooo deeply uncomfortable that I'm like... I Must Do Something About This NOW. Like sometimes #it could be 71 and I'm just like.. grr.. whatever..and keep doing what I'm doing even though I'm warm. But at like 74F I'm getting up to ge #a fan or something and I'm so warm I can't distract myself from it. So as you can imagine. the summers where it gets like 83F IN my #apartment at night are misserablle.. lol..#I think my ideal spot for indoor temperature is like.. 64 - 68F or so. Though i would ALWAYS rather be cold than hot so. Like I would rathe #have to be in a 52F apartment for 5 months than in a 80F apartment for just one month LOL #Just the thought nearly makes me tear up.. oh imagine it only being 55F indoors... ah..#right now it's 77.5 in my room and I'm not like.. SWEATING. but I just feel the Sheet of warmth over everything and I feel more joint #achey and like I have a fever and this feeling like I can't take a deep enough breath because the air is thick. and I am NOT hungry at all #or maybe even a little nauseated. and I just want to lay down. I've been struggling to focus on any task all day. There's maybe a very very #light mist of sweat only on the underarms but it's not like the type of sweating where your whole body and chest is drenched. So its like #I stay dry and I don't look red or flushed or anything BUT it just makes me feel intensely lethargic and like everything is heavy.#I don't LOOK hot or SEEM warm visibly (like being red and sweaty) but it takes like a Silent Toll on my body or something lol

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gay--dog · 2 months ago

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is there a chance my plurality will get more clear and more defined or am i just gonna have to deal with never knowing who the fuck i am ever and not being able to predict or control any of it like forever until it maybe goes away if i get better in the future

#when i realized i had osdd i was like ''oh its gonna make sense now'' but it didnt. all that changed is i know i have it now 😭#everyone talks about it like its so clear but i just feel like im stumbling blindly through being a bunch of different people #even though i kinda share memories throughout all of it so i dont even forget what happened between stuff. its just all so blurry #i only have one alter thats actually clearly defined and she never fronts at all. and she barely shows up otherwise too #half the time i dont know when someones fronting and even when i do that doesnt help because i cant really tell who it is at all #i never know who i am or what i want or whats happening and i just have to guess and go based off avoiding what feels bad and weird #but thats hard when i literally have an anxiety disorder so everything feels bad and weird #and sometimes i just dissociate when im trying to do something so i stop and then by the time im done dissociating im a different person #and i dont want to do the thing anymore so i just have to stop. and i never know when im gonna be able to do it again #and i feel bad for being so distressed about this because its really not effecting me THAT much #its just on top of everything its really annoying and exhausting #and i already had enough trouble with my identity when i knew what it was... or when i thought i did... idk #awoo

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kawaii-kushami · 8 months ago

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having one of those mid-20s moments where you're like well damn. im really not a teenager anymore i dont hate myself anymore actually. like its insane

sorry i gotta ramble but this feels too silly to post anywhere else

#kk.txt #not snz #like for a while even the thought of like admitting i didn't hate myself felt like.. like i was being full of myself #idk what clicked in my brain a few years ago but it felt like i started to see myself more and like understand myself as a person #like i would a friend. and i just didn't think like that before i guess lmao #but like idk i dont talk about my personal life much but ive been recovering from post-pandemic agoraphobia #and i just went on my first big trip alone and im like. god its barely there anymore its just a little shadow in the corner of my mind #that only spreads occasionally now instead of overwhelming me #like im still terrible at a lot a lot a lot of social interaction type stuff but im like.. doing better than i thought id be able to #a few years ago. like idk im not good at.. change and especially conceptualizing myself as someone who can change and be fluid #like i really do think a majority of my person like my core morals and demeanor havent changed that much. and i like that #it makes me feel more secure to be that way #but at the same time its like my mental image isn't nearly as self hating as it used to be #like i used to picture myself as coming off basically the same way as that girl from watamote lmao like #ugly greasy awkward offputting weird #but now im like.. im just some guy... like yeah i have less experience putting effort into my appearance and i slouch and i have acne #but i am also capable of looking good occasionally. i dont need to do it all the time #ok i got off the bus and my train of thought died goodbye

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sam-loml · 3 days ago

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making up stuff for a ship is literally fine and fun but you dont have to lie and insist its all canon ://

#also applies to making stuff up about a character #who are you even enjoying anymore.#is that Character or is it just your own oc at that point #i dont know what im saying #and theres a million posts like this with better wording #just. feeling things.#probs delete later #in a mood now

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crystallizsch · 3 months ago

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every now and then i decide to do the most inane shit (to avoid responsibilties) bc guess who just switched back yuuna's emoji from 💝 -> 🩷 and added last names to my yuu oc tags and retagged ALL of my posts with them

#[—✦ rambling #:personal #THAT TOOK LIKE AROUND 2-3 HOURS I THINK.....#yippee to being quote unquote productive on the wrong thing #ngl i've been thinking about doing this for a while now but didn't want to bc of the amount of posts i have to go back through #but here we are 🧍#in the process of going through all these posts i get to relive some of my jade/yuushade crashouts tho #that was. so funny #+ also seeing old currynoodles art 🥺#ngl recently i thought i've been getting bored with making art for twst in general #which is why there's been a considerable lack of it </3 #i still enjoy the game dont get me wrong it's just i thought i was starting to move on from creating for it #my fixation in creating art for a certain media doesn't usually last this long (almost around 2 years now???)#idk why but i just have that Cycle #usually i'm chill with this happening but this feels more bittersweet bc of all the friends and connections i made throught twst #but i think this random urge to retag everything was probably a blessing in disguise #bc i realized i actually miss drawing the sillies 🥹🥹🥹#like. do you ever just get so giddy revisiting your old stuff #highkey i cooked with a lot of my oc x canon art #reminds me.... i wanna bring back postnrc currynoodles #postnrc yuusha im in love with u #maybe i'll toss in the eel in there too LMAO #it.s not a joke anymore i like the stupid dynamic too much #“why do you ship them” <- because it'll be funny #anyways. probably i'll start taking inspo from old concepts i abandoned as quick as i introduced them shdksdkkk

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seventh-district · 8 days ago

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another Sunday, another evening spent unable to decide what to do with my free time

#Seven.txt #I used to reserve my Sunday Free Time for catching up on all my gacha game weeklies before the Monday resets #but I haven't been playing them regularly lately and it's too late in the update cycles to bother with the battle passes anyway #but Genshin is about to update and I absolutely Must pull Mavuika before I miss the chance again. and I do Want to play regularly again #so I could pull for her and spend the night exploring Natlan on her bike... but Ive already missed all the past exploration rewards #and the land will always be there so the only thing I really have to do is pull for her. but I could do that tomorrow. but I should at least #do the dailies. I should do the dailies in all of them idk why its so hard for me to get into that habit when they dont even take very long #I don't wanna catch up with the last few patches worth of HSR story until I'm emotionally ready for the damage it will do to my heart #I do wanna do the current Re99 event story thing before it's gone but idk I gotta be in the Mood for it and my head is elsewhere tonight #I could just not game at all and work on Tumblr stuff instead. there's plenty of drafts I could work on and a queue I always want to fill #but never do bc I end up getting distracted. or I could backread my mutual's blogs like the morning paper to see what all I've missed.#but the Writing Bug has bitten me and I've got Such an urge to work on some of my WIPs and start some new ones too #bc Topsy has been updating Rotating Shifts and like a fool I decided to casually read the latest chapter forgetting how reading that fic #always gives me so much motivation to work on my Own DCA stuff. which isn't a bad thing it's a great thing but I forgot it would happen #just thinking 'oh Nice new RS chapter let's fucking gooo' and then like 10% of the way through the chapter I've already got Spotify up and #playing my fic playlists and daydreaming abt future scenes of my own fics. the motivation that RS gives me is insane I can't describe it #and another new chapter just came out today!! but I think I'll save it for another night bc I always read them so slowly so I can Savor it #that if I read that then it'll probably be all I do. and then just lay around daydreaming some more. but I'd like to actually Do something #but I Told Myself that I would Not work on ES again until I got my driver's license. and that won't be for another few months...#and after like more than a year I've suddenly been blasted with motivation and inspiration to write the next chapter.......#but I've also got new ideas for NMbD... and a fun little meta way of tying the two series together...#but before this DCA inspo hit I was in the middle of a small sea of Genshin WIPs and now I feel torn bc I don't know what to work on first #ppl rlly seemed to like Winter Coats and while idk if I'm gonna make a direct continuation like some ppl showed interest in #I do at least wanna write more Venti fics that are pairing him platonically with other characters instead of just my usual X Reader stuff #but it's also that time of year where I've got the urge to get real weird and self indulgent and write another Matt oneshot...#still unsure if I wanna be brave and post the Dew OCD comfort fic or if I wanna rewrite it Again with some other character #I rlly don't like it that much anymore bc I don't feel confident in the accuracy of the setting nor my characterization of Dew #plus my fixation faded ages ago and so like what's the point in posting smthn bad just bc it's already written #I genuinely think I might recycle it once more and set it in HSR this time and use it as practice for writing for Boothill #or maybe I'll do None of that tonight and just lay here listening to Sunnyland and crying a bit bc I love my ES boys sm but I can't. write.

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yewphoric · 4 months ago

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LAST ONE I SWEAR only because i don't have enough art of my other ocs BUT!! my first ever ragnar drawing (2020) and most recent (2025) <333

ragnar's personality has changed a lot and so have his pronouns and design. some parts i kept, but i've messed a lot with his colors and stuff to make him more distinct and not just a dark brown blobby mess.

but yeah as far as personality, if you can believe it, ragnar started as a cocky little bastard that fucked ulfric stormcloak for clout... so basically another joke oc that i got too attached to and changed into a respectable character lmao.

it was also my very first tes oc!!! in june i will have been developing my tes canon for 5 years! :'D

#yews stuff #yews art #ragnar (ldb)#gemtly holds #though ragnar is about as old as jenais i have not given him nearly as much attention unfortunately #really gotta remedy that. i do love to think about it and love it so much but #i need that Autism Spark to spend like weeks thinking Only about ragnar like i did with jenais and i dont know how to make that happen lskd #also i dont feel my khajiit style changed that much bc once again. i have my roots as a warrior cat artist #and while that ragnar drawing was one of my first time drawing an anthro kitty... he is still a kitty #so my khajiit art has always been pretty decent even if i don't like that first drawing anymore lskdjflskdjfs #anyways im done (for now)

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gifti3 · 3 months ago

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ivo is so snake-like

like physically

#hes so pale #and so slim #and he looks similar to Orochimaru #also his smile is scary shahshs #when he full on smiled for the first time i was spooked #idk he has weird energy....i fuck with it #im on the last season #like his character is becoming less mysterious to me and more human like #i really cant imagine how romancing him would be like tho #i feel like 5 different feelings towards ivo its so weird #theyre all conflicting each other #romance club #psi #maybe i can get myself to play through this game again if i think about the sex scenes #like....i need to know #like for science reasons #idk how i feel about romancing him tho anymore (cause i was really interested in the beginning)#i feel like i need to get friendly first but only now r things starting to lean more in that direction between him and lou #and i kinda need it to be sooner than that now that i think about it #ugh im super finicky about stuff like this #its why most of the stories probably dont click for me fully hmm #they doooo have some chill interactions tho it feels not enough for me #like when ivo gave lou the ipad to watch cocomelon on that was pretty cute #and she showed him the type of music she likes #unfortunetly its just how it has to be u know #like she cant hang out with him all the time outside of diamond choices cause it doesnt make sense to the plot #i keep adding things to the tags cause i keep having more to say lol

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aiscapades · 5 months ago

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girl i had huge crush on in school who was a very good friend to me she's so smart and wonderful and kind just told me she's proud of me for inquiring about a breast reduction i literally started crying what the absolute fuck I'm so gay and so deprived of love in my daily life what the fuck kck .?? HELLO??