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guest-1-2-3 · 1 month ago

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people be like “nicoooo why don’t you ever check your messages why don’t you ever text in the group chatttt why are you never onlineeeee” brother if i could delete the messages app off my phone i would. i would rather die than open the 125 notification message chain and you know it. yes my phone is on do not disturb for 75% of the day and that ain’t changing any time soon

#texting gives me so much anxiety i hate it #like. imagine just going about your life in your home. keeping to yourself doing your thing #and then a person just spawns in your room #and goes “have you seen the new episode?? let’s talk about it right now!! why aren’t you responding to me rn”#LIKE. i am not PREPARED. i am in my HOME. this is my SAFE COCOON #no i am not BUSY per se. but i am not in a social setting and thus am not immediately prepared to be social #FIVE PEOPLE SPAWN IN MY ROOM THEY ARE ALL TALKING OVER EACH OTHER AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT #i would. rather die #i message people like i’m sending letters tbh. they will be offline and i dump smth and then leave #and then they reply whenever they want and i reply whenever i want and the world is beautiful and bright #and maybe sometimes we will catch each other and maybe sometimes we won’t. and that’s okay #and we cannot expect each other to have the same fucking schedule where we’re both online at the same time #to respond to everyone’s texts live. and if you start demanding i turn off do not disturb im turning it on for another hour #jokes. but seriously we all have lives and i hate texting people xoxo #textpost #i’m being a salty little hater rn because i’m annoyed but i respect those of you who like to text #and sometimes yes it is like a fun little surprise to open my phone to text messages #on days where i’m not overwhelmed #okay thank you goodnight

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dol-dogboy · 3 months ago

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I must lock in and. Draw a fat man five times

#yappin tag #so help me GOD I will have this finished by tomorrow #and then I’ll prolly take a lil socmed break since I’ve overwhelmed myself 😔#need to take a day or two where I’m not constantly thinking abt the next Thing I’m gonna work on #I need to work on No Things. and play video games instead

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pessimisticprincess · 1 month ago

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#having one of those days where i’m really really sad about how everything has turned out #i love being a mom and ive always wanted to be a mom my kid is more than anything i could’ve even dreamed of #but its really hard and overwhelming to do everything pretty much on my own #i know i’m doing okay given the circumstances and i truly try to be the best version of myself for N #but sometimes it does make me sad to be doing this alone which feels very complicated to me lol

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kiwi-luminaryofthestars · 5 months ago

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Lolll uh no progress update today (daily streak is broken 💀) ‘cause I had much going on and then got distracted by some awesome people who I was grateful to have my time taken up by 🫡 We will get back to it tomorrow yahoo!

#thwwichphantomthief #ooohh interesting sort of dynamic happening right now #in the sense that my writing has taken me into more spaces in the fandom #which subsequently takes up the time I’d normally use for writing #which I mean to me it’s not a bad thing lmao cuz I’m really really enjoying getting to know more people here #just crazy to think this started with me just… writing a thing and posting it on ao3 #especially since the first chapter was the result of a sudden burst of inspiration and literally only a few days from start to publish #I had barely any idea of what it would be at that point #nor did I think I would continue doing saiou stuff #and now here I am fourish months later and I want to do this forever 🫡#probably can’t because motivation will run dry eventually of course #but I just am really enjoying where this stupid long and dramatic fic has gotten me #idk I’m almost getting emotional thinking about it #erghhhh kiwi is a crybaby it’s okay 😖#talking to like minded people is just such a pleasure #coming from someone who’s had such a hard time making friends her whole life this is so new #to have people talk with me because they want to #I’m ahhh socially inept if that wasn’t already very clear #never known how to talk to people #and I never realized that getting to talk to people without the pressure of showing my voice/face would feel so like freeing #I truly am just discovering what the internet is like rn and it’s overwhelming and wonderful at the same time #and I’m liking the journey so far #hoping ahhh that continues but I’m aware things aren’t always so pristine and ideal all the time #just will enjoy it while I have it!#oof sorry for long tags lmao it’s longer than the post 🤣

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gretagerwigsmuse · 3 months ago

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anyone who started at my company within the last year was invited to our headquarters (which is in boston :/) for onboarding week and it kicks off with a dinner tonight and i really really don’t want to go - so much so that i’m about to cry about it

#and the dinner is in the SEAPORT where dreams go to die #and i have no idea what i’m going to wear all week!#and we have to be IN the office 5 days instead of 3 and i can’t go to golf league tuesday and i think i’m overwhelmed #going to listen to radiohead in the shower

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alexturner2005 · 2 years ago

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WE HEARD FROM THE RITZ TO THE RUBBLE I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!! AND TRANQUILITY BASE HOTEL + CASINO!!!!! AND OG 505 WITH ALEX ON PIANO!!!! no hello you tho :(((( i wanna be yours as the encore was very disappointing, but at least it was a little special bc alex sang the original words to the john cooper clarke poem instead of AM’s version!

#also i did not need ultracheese BOTH nights 😭#still was soooo much fun tho i’m so incredibly sad that it’s all over now 😥#sorry i haven’t answered messages or posted many updates about the shows! it’s been a crazy couple days #i’ll try my best to give a recap soon but im still in CO for another day and a half #so it might be a couple days #also i don’t even know where to begin sjdkekd i’m so overwhelmed #two incredible experiences with some of my favorite people 💕#sad that not everyone could be there last night #but i loved our time together so much!!! ❤️#and i’m glad i got to share my whole car tour experience with alejandra 💖

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rozicheeks · 7 days ago

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#journaled for a bit and then ended up writing out a big long to do list #kinda word vomited for a bit #and now I’m so fucking overwhelmed?#trying to work on my life and move myself forward #hopefully one day get to a life that I love and enjoy #idk it just feels like once I finally cross something off my list - 3 more things pop up #I just want to be in a shitty little apartment where I can make my shitty little paintings #and have the bestest pup or cat to keep me company #fuck #in other news got denied from a job that I was really hoping for so that’s fun #and haven’t heard back from any of the other jobs 👌#cool cool cool #love that so much 🙃#shut up rosie

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lux-scriptum · 17 days ago

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Whoagh

#tired of being sad actually #no one hates me I’m actually very loved #so why cant I convince my brain that is true #i recognize its irrational #that doesnt stop the feelings u know?#wasnt even that bad of a day #i just out of no where got left with overwhelming feelings of being annoying and exhausting and frustrating and stupid and useless #its not true!! i know its not!!!!!!#so how do i get rid of them

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disneyprincessdxminatrix · 10 months ago

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felt a little better today, I even checked some discord servers (I muted them all on Sunday..) and sent like two messages. I’m just trying to get myself through this week and then see how this continues..

#I’m nowhere near ready to talk about what happened on here but it’s truly devastating and I’m just trying to cope #my head is full of questions still #i feel a little sad about not being on here cause this is my home where all my friends are #but I’m completely overwhelmed with life #so I reduced it to a minimum for now #I see the people who still show up in my likes these days though and it’s sweet knowing someone’s around when I’m not #my stuff

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mimiyanna · 1 month ago

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It’s actually SO crazy how like. The literal day I lost my job, and the entire week after, I set about towards working on my dream. And it was instantly a lot more successful than I thought it would be. Like obviously not enough to call it, then and there. Not enough to say, “we did it! We made this work, and now we’re good to go!” But still, more people showed up to my streams, my vods got more views than I was expecting, and. All in all, it was looking really great!! Like if I kept putting in that kind of effort, I actually COULD have made it work long-term, and the dream could have been real. And then for whatever reason I gave up, and stopped streaming and stopped working on my model and stopped feeling like I could do it or do anything, crushed under the pressure of making it all work out, and the fear that it wouldn’t. I turned my fate into a self fulfilling prophecy. And now it’s too late to give it another go. Now we’re out of time, out of money. And I only have myself to blame.

#I’ll be back… once I have an actual job again. :(#It’ll probably be like. One stream a week at most.#But I’m not giving up permanently.#I think the fact that I won’t be working off of dwindling savings will be a big boon in my ability to actually sit down and start stream #Because that’s part of what freaked me out so bad #as soon as I realized that in the world where my dream was real #I would be depending on it for my income #and that meant I had a solid time limit on how long I had in order to make it successful like that #that pressure was too much #whereas #while I’m going to hate being employed again #so much #so so so much #(I fucking hate work and I hate capitalism and I hate corporations and I hate america)#At the very least #streams will be a thing that I do for me #for us #for fun #until they DO hit the threshold where they’re profitable (if they ever do)#and then at that point I’ll be good to quit my job and rely solely on them…#Everyone always says ‘don’t quit your day job to become a streamer’#and like yeah. Duh. obviously.#But I didn’t quit my job to become a streamer #I lost my job and then I decided that was the perfect time to actually start being a streamer #and it wasn’t even all that bad of an idea…#I hate to say it #because it’s acknowledging my failure.#But if I had continued from that first stream all the way until now- still streaming and growing and working on it #I genuinely think it could have worked out…#But I fucked up. I got overwhelmed and squandered my chance.

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seventh-district · 5 months ago

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#vent post #vent blogging #Seven’s Public Diary #motivating myself to study for my driver’s permit by thinking of the Freedom and independence a license would grant me? ❌ 1/10 ineffective #motivating myself to study for my driver’s permit by imagining all the new & different possible ways i could become injured in a car crash?#✅ 7/10 it just might fucking work!!!#the only true cure for OCD is to face one’s fears. but i just might be able to find a loophole via my ever-worsening mental health #because you don’t have to Face your fears if you don’t Have any fears #and in order to rid myself of my fears regarding harm coming to myself. i simply have to stop fearing being harmed #and what better way to stop fearing it than to actively crave it!#or at the very least become so overwhelmed that i lose the capacity to feel any particular way about it #i’ve found a new OCD cure everybody - Just Stop Caring™️ /sarc #well. sarcastic or joking for everyone else. but im serious when it applies to me #bc so much of my anxiety comes from feeling unsafe. so i just have to reach the point where i stop caring if im safe or not. easy peasy #like yes i know this is flawed and unhealthy logic but i’ve resisted more compulsions via this method lately than i have via anything else #and even outside of OCD stuff even just for all my other anxiety disorders it’s also worked. im actually making a modicum of progress now #need to make a scary phone call? just get into a 3-hour family argument and then you’ll be so upset that you don’t feel fear! :)#genuinely worked very well. scared of a home invasion? well at least it’d mean you’d have some different company for once!#you might make a new friend! or if they **** you at least you’d have some Real trauma for once. it’s a win-win honestly …/hj #so. scared to drive? well even if you Do crash at least it might lead to a hospital visit and then you’ll finally get that attention you-#-want so fucking badly! you’ll finally get a break from everything while you recover. or even if you don’t survive- well. i shan’t say.#anyways. the ‘you’ in those tags is me talking to myself for the record. i wouldn’t speak to anyone else like this. i just speak in the-#-wrong tense/person sometimes. don’t know what’s up with that. just another reason i need to stop speaking altogether. as i’ve learned #i’ve been trying So fucking hard to be nice lately. letting them walk all over me. and it’s still not enough. cause i’m always-#-‘using the wrong tone’ and ‘if all im gonna do is say smthn negative i just shouldn’t speak at all’ ..okay! gladly!!!#sorry for being autistic and unsocialized and under immense stress and being unable to keep my ‘tone’ under control. my bad.#i just need to get blackout drunk with Venti at Angel’s Share. that would fix me.#that or heading down to the bottom of the Fortress of Meropide and curl up like a dog under Wriothesley’s desk. head empty no thoughts #not sexually. just. in a pet-regression sense. i can’t stop thinking abt it. i wanna write a oneshot for it but i can’t focus these days #anyways. the delusional maladaptive daydream dissociation will continue until morale improves. and brother it’s only getting worse.

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switchytransboy · 2 years ago

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finally starting to slowly feel like i’m recovering 🖤 positive and tickly messages/asks welcome or just good vibes 😌

i’ve never had such an intense, emotional, physically exhausting, and scary few weeks before i’m so sorry for the messages i haven’t gotten back to yet <3