#oooof visual

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I imagined Tommy’s large hand holding down probie buck and my mind had to reboot.

I love how beefy they both are now but oooof

current tommy…..probie buck. yeah, that’s a stunning visual mhmm

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@thresholdbb omg tumblr ate your ask but thankyou for asking!!!!

👕Character whose fashion you like.

Phoar! Startrek really isn't a show I associate with being fashionable. It's very camp isn't it? In theory a lot of the wardrobe is really cool and they wanted to gain that retro-future aesthetic. Did it work? I'm not sure. However it does make a statement. The Startrek aesthetic is really recognizable and that's important! I think that's where modern trek kind of looses the plot. It's not as careful about the unique visual design as a whole anymore and as a result it doesn't settle in our minds. Is it bad artistry? No but it's not as stringent. What I mean by that is older trek cared about nuance. For example every haircut was done the same way on men, or suits were tailored in a way to look sleek but practical (they weren't). Gaudy patterns were important to denote things like status. It looks ugly on the outside but when you're watching the show it envelops you and makes you feel welcomed into the universe.

I digress.

To answer this, the most fashionable character, hands down, is Quark! That mfer always looks good, and has the finest drip in the galaxy. Love that.

🥲 ST moment that makes you cry.

There are two moments that make me particularly sad. Kate's acting in the climax of Resistance is incredible. I read somewhere she had a special-wink-wink- relationship with the Director in the early seasons and she was being tested by this episode in some regard. I think it paid off. I treasure any time her captain-hood is removed, and the extreme vulnerability of Janeway is on display-MWAH MWAH poignant. This episode is beautifully intimate, particularly this scene. It's overall gorgeous and unique in how she whispers to him, as if there is nothing more important than to secure his peace of mind as he dies, and it's heart rending when it ends with her just crouching there, emotionally alone. I love how Janeway is forced into the father-daughter dynamic between her and Caylem, one that she would ordinarily resist (heh themes) because I think it inherently weakens her status. The back and forth throughout the episode of them taking care of each other's welfare is so it's terribly sad when it's torn down and we discover the truth behind Caylem's family. If you've dug around her character you know that her Admiral-Father has had impact on her life. She's haunted by him in both a figurative way by being a Captain, and literal sense later on in Coda. Much like Caylem, she looses her father in a violent manner that she has to carry around while she forges ahead. It also reflects well on Kate's relationship with her actual father, she recently revealed that she was never able to get him on her page, but in spite that she adore him with all her might. So a scene like this is really revealing-I believe she was able to draw upon those feelings and that's kinda neat to be so raw as an actor. SIGH.

This one just straight up made me cry fr because Prodigy s1 is a really mature, well done piece of (Startrek) media. Holo Janeway has an irony about it where in the end she is program designed to be a teacher, and she didn't expect to develop a strong bond with the crew. Her final moments are of displaying a huge amount of selflessness and courage to help the kids get out of trouble, similarly to how Janeway would approach dire circumstances. The music swelling and the ship activating is just OOOOF!!! I love how it parallels Dal's initiation of the first Protojump in a Moral Star. By that means It suggests how proud she is to get to do this for them. As a character she is really interesting to think about, in a way I can't entirely articulate. A lot of her moments are quite sad in general, she has to keep an active role so she isn't ignored, and help where help is needed, but at the same time she has constraints, one being that she manipulated by the antagonists. And In contrast to that, the kids do their best to help her feel like she is important and more than a command program to be used insincerely. She grew to love the Protostar crew, that's evident in her body language in this scene. She has a lot of depth overall. Equal to the real Janeway she deeply feels love, guilt and pain, but importantly she is transformed by the her time on the Protostar and while active, learns and grows with Dal, Rok-tak, Zero, Jankom and Gwyn. It's REALLY sweet that they care all care about each other.

I love her and I love JANEWAY!!!!

🥹 Favourite behind the scenes picture.

Ooooh I love all behind the scenes stuff. My brother in Christ It's super difficult to just name one thing and I'm very greedy!! I wish we had more BTS content for Voyager but sadly, it's a matter of grab what you can, however you can. Anyway, I have an inherent interest in seeing the cogs behind the wheel. I chose these samples because I think they're charming.

The continuity polaroid's are so fun and a lost technique, I like to think about assistants having to pull the actors aside and asking them to take those. How daunting! Kate's grin in the one where she is offset is SO cute. So she must have been in a good mood, super Cheeky!

Following that is a screenshot from a video of her having her makeup done. A rare catch. I like this because she often sooks about how much time hair and makeup was spent on her to become Captain Janeway. I get it's a huge time-sink, but love or hate it, the full irony is that her early season appearance is really iconic and in it's own right adds to Captain Janeway's sensibility. Silly goose Kate! Besides that, she looks hot checking herself out, haha.

Moreover, I love on-set editorial photos of actors in costume. While we did have heaps of them in the Starfleet uniform, I wish we had a larger collection with clearer releases, it would have given an opportunity to see in things of interest better detail. Particularly the lower half of unique costumes. For whatever reason special outfits weren't often established or framed for us to see the legs in the show, so a nice big photograph would have solved that. Also I love that these style of pictures capture an impression of an episode without giving it away.

Similarly, fly on the wall on-set photos are cool. They're way more intimate and candid than anything else and it makes me feel as though I am spying on the actors, but they're also a good way to document how things might have been on set.

The Timeless one is interesting too because it's of a deleted scene, we never see Chakotay look at a dead Janeway (how deliciously macabre!), but at some point in time it was in the script and they filmed it.

Hmm this bts picture of Janeway in the Cardigan is adorable! I believe it was worn by Kate for a Charity but look how cute she looks? Makes me wish we saw her mess around with things like that more because 7 Years is a long ass time to be in uniform everyday ( coming from someone who went to school in a Uniform and enjoyed it for the most part). Casual Fridays anyone?

I love this gif. It's from the first shoots of Caretaker and Kate looks so radiant! Her smile is is breathtaking! Whenever I see this gif I get a sense of delight. Poor thing had no idea what she was getting herself into, haha. Really though, check out the original Caretaker photos, they're super-cool. The history behind it is fascinating; I'd love to see more footage from that version of the pilot episode. Unfortunately, it's probably not preserved well, much like lots of Paramount's historical material.

On a similar trend, it's fun to see this set of pictures too. It's for the First Contact film / maybe the Universal studios ride, when she reprised her role as Vice AdmiralJaneway. Kate was genuinely delighted to do this cameo and it shows. As per her operandum she put her whole self into this small segment and that's so darling. It makes me wish we had more of this Janeway at that point in time. I love post Endgame chubby-Janeway. In a fictional sense it denotes that she is comfortable or stressed to be an Admiral (sadly it's the latter in real life) or whatever and I love that for her.

These kind of pictures are fun because it's been said that at times it was the most playful set to be on. There are tales that the cast were not that serious all the time. You get that impression here, and it's probably why the majority of them are still good friends to this day. They're like a family bros!!! Having worked in media I know that wrapping up after working on something for a long time is really rewarding and I bet they had a good time at parties.

Apropos previous, the opposite can be said. While they had fun, the hours were long and the scripts intensive. Kate was around for all of the episodes of Voyager in one way or another, and still managed to bring her A-game each time. She is truly admirable! Seeing her so exhausted is charming. She had a lot of weight to carry for the franchise and did an exemplary job performing her way through 7 years of weird and wonderful material. I wonder how often they fell asleep on set? I know I would. Get some rest queen!

Finally, I've been following Prodigy bts as best I can, and because of my career in animation I get pretty interested in Production art. I love seeing the fast metamorphosis of a visual style. It's really impressive how much attention they applied to the designs, maintaining the older stuff, while adapting a new frontier. One of the lead artists made some pretty neat observations to get Kate's appearance right. It's so cool that they documented that journey, because from my dabbling I know she has a very beautiful, distinct face that isn't easy to capture.

ANYWAY Thankyou for reading my fat thesis fellas. tl;dr i love this stinky Startrek Voyager and by extension the franchise.

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GET TO KNOW ME??

Yes ofc <33 thanks @sapphicwiles for tagging me MWUAH gonna overshare because it adds to the flamboyancey of my persona✨

Last song: Omg well currently my Spotify is playing “Brown Noise for 10 Hours” but the actual last song I listened to was Salt by an Aussie girl band (yes I am an Aussie) called Teen Jesus and the Jean Teasers. Saw them live last year at a teeny tiny gig that was all vibes no drama and I LOVE them. However favs from them is “AHHHH!” and “Girl Sports” GO LISTEN PLEASEEE

Fav colours: So we’re really going there— this is an audhd trap I’m telling you…fav colours are black, purple, green and brown. I also really love muted colours!! (See Pinterest board for details LOL) I’m very particular about colours and as a fashion girly it’s important to me that everyone utilises the colour wheel when styling. Use it wisely. I will find you. Respectfully that is a warning.

Specifically my Whimsigoth and PURPLEE sections <3

Last book/fic: OOOOF. Okay so I haven’t been reading physical books in a phat minute so I apologise to my bookcase that is filled with many novels (ily don’t hate me) However, if my memory stands correctly, the last book I read was the Carry on series by Rainbow Rowell, specifically the last book in the trilogy Any Way the Wind Blows. Shoutout to Snowbaz fans (the gays will forever consume my mind) NOW, the last fic I read was Heavy is the Crown by Luna_Monroe. But if we wanna get technical here, the last fic I read that was completed was Your Dearest Fantasy by shadowsandsouls aka @sapphicwiles (also the first chapter of the sequel is stunning as usual)

Last Tv Show/Movie: So tbh I don’t really watch tv or movies…which is funny seeming as I’m a raging arcane fan. The last show that I sat down and properly watched WAS arcane, and the last movie I properly watched was Deadpool and Wolverine at the Cinemas (cuz I’m cool like that). Convinced myself Hugh Jackman had the hottest abs, only to realise months later after S2 of arcane that it was the fact that I actually liked butch lesbians and was a raging lesbian (thankfully I figured it out) anyhoo, any cinematic media I visually consumed in between those time frames was against my will and not if my choosing.

Sweet/savoury/spice: Savoury girl through and through (I think that’s the saying..?) if I do need something sweet my preference is Hokey Pokey ice cream :) But I really love a good pie with mushrooms, or creamy pasta UGH SO GOOD

Current obsession/s: CAITVIIII MY BELOVEDS. Also getting back into marvel??? Like Spider-Man and also Bucky. Oh shit I gotta watch the new season of daredevil. Sigh… so much for not watching television.

Looking forward to: MOVING AHHHH. Moving states this year to study next year. Haven’t been in school for a few years so I’m excited to go back!! Also possibly see snow for the first time, go thrifting lots and make some art!

Added way too much context but yk what? That’s okay. Thanks again for tagging me MWUAH :) I unfortunately don’t talk enough to people on here so I don’t even know who to tag :,)

[nellie-elizabeth]

Starsky & Hutch LB 1x07: Pariah

All right. Fully bracing myself for this one, I know what it's about... content warning that I'm about to liveblog an episode about Starsky shooting and killing a Black teenager in this episode, so... buckle up.

I love Hutch's house so much it's so cute. Early morning visit from Starsky!

And S is just rummaging through H's fridge like he owns the place lol. They're so domestic. Sitting on the counter because he's not a normal person.

"for the autopsy record" about what H puts in his smoothie lmao.

"you're looking kinda peaked lately" - they're so funny razzing each other

Why does S follow into the doorway to watch H kiss this woman lol. They hook up with women as an intricate form of courtship between the two of them, I swear to god.

"Why'd you leave the party so early last night" / "seemed like the proper thing to do at the time" lol S being a good bro and letting H get laid...

Poor Starsky is like WHO HAS BEEN GIVING ME BAD SEX REVIEWS, he's fully frozen in shock.

And the fact that H set that up!! Oh my god. What is this friendship lolololol. This opening scene is delightful as fuck.

Oh shit right into a shootout, officer down.

The kid was pointing a gun right at S, but like... why a kill shot. Why directly a chest shot. Oh god this is fucking wrenching to watch. Fuck. His mother is there?

Okay, this is so muddy and uncomfortable already because you've got a Black witness saying that Lonnie was trying to surrender when he was shot down, but visually that's not what happens, like, the kid definitely put his hands up and then swung the gun down pointing directly at S. The chilling thing is just how fucking casually these cops discharge their weapons in the first place, but we now have this gross thing of a witness claiming it was totally unprovoked but we the viewer know that's not true so it feels like the episode is already trying to frame Starsky as not being in the wrong... oof.

Give Glaser an Emmy for the look on his face though. OOOOf.

Also framing it like S was defending a crowd of innocent bystanders... they're really stacking this to make it not S's fault within the framing of the story, but like... he killed a teenager. He killed a teenager.

Dobey is really on edge about this. I wish we had more insight into how he feels, like, as a Black police captain in this situation.

"What you're doing is throwing him to the wolves!" - Protective Hutch has entered the building...

"If throwing me to the wolves is what it takes, let 'em do it" - S says this in a tone where it's like he's playing at his usual cocky self but he actually sounds very subdued, almost like he's saying it to calm H down more than anything. And then they share this fond, kinda sad look...

And then the long, solemn silence between them... S sitting weird on a chair because nothing can stop that...

"Oh god, Hutch. He was sixteen years old." - Obviously this episode is really tough to watch and icky in a lot of ways but holy fuck is Glaser giving a world-class performance.

"I did what they tell you to do and I pulled the trigger." - like, this is the core issue right at the heart of this, that this episode is not going to be audacious/smart enough to tackle - the idea that yeah, actually, Starsky "didn't do anything wrong" by the rules of his job. But what he did SHOULD have been wrong, with regards to the law, and it already IS wrong as regards like... moral law.

H coming to support S in court and giving a lil tie wave... he's being so supportive. Like. It's gross because of the situation but also... awwww.

God, what I would pay to hear what Dobey is thinking during this courtroom scene

Oh, this suspect with the "it's hard to say", like, I wanna know what's going on in HIS head. "I guess I made a mistake" - this is rough stuff, this is a really wrenching viewing experience. Him apologizing to Lonnie's mother... it actually makes me a little physically ill to watch this Black man having to humble himself and apologize for "wrongly" accusing the police of having done something bad by killing a kid. Fuck.

"Detective Starsky in no way overstepped the bounds of reasonable force"... Godddd he calls him "commendable". This is SICKENING in light of... the real world. Like. Gawd.

Huggy in an all denim outfit is great. But also. YUCK at having Huggy verbally absolve Starsky and call him brave, really coulda done without THAT little nugget. Starsky is like the only person reacting appropriately here.

Starsky don't show up for a funeral in jeans, my dude. Actually, you probably shouldn't be showing up to this funeral at all, wtf is wrong with you

"How sorry I am that it had to happen"... I'm not strong enough for this, jesus.

So now we're framing it as Lonnie was the victim of another person, that the person responsible for his death is the guy who corrupted him into a life of crime. Which like. Nice try I guess but uhhh no?

"That's gonna make you sleep better?" / "I wanna find him for me, I wanna find him for you, but most of all I wanna find him for the next Lonnie." This like... this would be more effective if his death had been like only tangentially S's fault, not literally, factually, the result of him SHOOTING HIM DIRECTLY IN THE CHEST.

The hand shaking. Fuck. I mean, I'm not gonna lie, I'm powerfully moved by the grace of these people to shake Starsky's hand but still just so yucked out by the fact that S thought it was okay to even show up like this.

Cute lil half-hug between S&H on the way back to the car. In isolation this would be a fun episode for worried/protective Hutch stuff, love to see it.

H trying to cheer S up is so sad actually

So now we get the pivot into this episode being about a cop killing maniac? Huh.

H with the "this isn't your fault" refrain... like, the loyalty is heartwarming but Starsky should maybe resign!

H's little "thanks" to Dobey is cute though.

Oh, what a delightful lil instance of police brutality, they just break in and start roughing up this drug dealer... yeesh.

H grabbing at S's wrist to check the time. Married behavior tbh.

S speaking a lil Latin? lol.

The pivot into this plot with the cop killer is so odd, it makes the episode be about something different than it seemed like it was at the start. It deflects the attention away from the racial component entirely

H grabbing S's arm just to hold onto him at the scene of this second cop's death...

I'm glad S is choosing to resign but like it would be more emotionally powerful if he were resigning because he killed a child, not because a random baddie is on a killing spree, ya know? Still in awe of Glaser's performance in this episode tho.

Dobey's pep talk is of minimal effectiveness it would seem

UGH this hallway scene. Like, if Starsky's crime that he was being blackmailed for was anything other than the killing of a teenager, this scene would be delicious, I'd eat it right up. It feels so... strange, thematically, that the cops are mad at Starsky for staying in the force because they're personally at risk, and nobody is like "you shoulda resigned for killing a child". Like.

But, again in isolation, it's hot that Hutch is so fired up in S's defense with these guys. S grabs him kinda half-heartedly to stop H, but then just lets it happen.... Also again, Glaser's acting, he's just so meek and small and despondent. So unlike Starsky usually is.

Was shoving Tremaine's face into tomatoes really necessary though...

Ummm again I feel weird noticing this in an episode like this but Hutch has maybe never been more beautiful than when he's restraining Starsky from attacking Tremaine, god, the sheer intimacy of the way they're looking at each other in that moment is staggering. S releases this deep slow breath like H is the only thing that can regulate his mood

H literally looks so fucking anxious about this whole situation it's hurting my heart

H's hand on S's shoulder... he's trying to do the grounding touch thing and it's just too dire of a situation for it.

ooh, backstory lore drop. S&H's first out of uniform assignment was 2 year prior to now, undercover for Narco.

The cop being like "Most of the guys are behind you, Starsky." Big yikes.

Starsky insisting he'll come alone doesn't feel like macho posturing, it straight up feels suicidal.

H grabbing at him... "you're walking into suicide!" yeah, like I said...

God, the little head-nod, and H watching him drive away... that's so wild because S thinks he's doing a solemn goodbye and meanwhile H is like "oh fuck no, not in a million years" and IMMEDIATELY finds a way to follow him. Proof positive that H cares more about S than he does about the job or anything else.

They do tend to find really interesting sets for their action sequences... an abandoned zoo? How weird.

This is stressful, actually, S is completely a sitting duck, walking around...

Welp that was an EXTREMELY close call, if H hadn't yelled a warning...

An absolutely chilling echo of the beginning of the episode, with S starting by aiming the gun at him and then lifting it into the air, the reverse of what Lonnie did...

Starsky is really worn down by this whole thing, I mean, as he should be, but you really get the sense that Lonnie's death is eating him up from the inside the whole episode, culminating in this moment when he would really, really, like to act out his rage on Prudholm. I don't think he would have done it, even if H hadn't been there to say his name, but god, I do believe he was thinking about it.

The tone-deaf tag where apparently Starsky's checking in on Lonnie's mother and getting recipes? Like, this is a thing I praise in other episodes, that sense of continuity, of S&H actually getting to know the people they cross paths with in their line of work and making social calls. But in this specific case it just does not work!

I mean this would be a cute lil' tag to match the cute opening sequence if not for uhhhhhh what this episode is about. Though of course I do love that they hang out around each other's casual dates so much cuz they can't socialize alone apparently.

Welp. Okay. This episode was so strange and difficult to watch, I think for obvious reasons, but I do want to talk about the specifics here of how this is structured? It's weird! The second part of the episode, of Prudholm blackmailing Starsky, trying to get him to resign, in revenge for his own kid dying in prison... that could be an episode all on its own, right? It could even be an episode that explores the deeper ramifications of the criminal justice system. Imagine this episode where Prudholm is the inciting incident, he leaves a threatening note, the cops try and find him but too late, he starts killing other cops, getting closer and closer to Starsky each time. We piece together the truth about a former case, where Starsky booked a kid on drug charges, that kid was imprisoned, and ended up killed on the inside. Starsky could feel guilty about a juvenile delinquent dying indirectly due to his arrest, he could grapple with the tragedy that some of these "criminals" are kids who are really more victims than actually bad people... etc. etc.

But instead... the fact that the framing here is that Starsky shoots a Black teenager in the chest and kills him, is almost incidental to the actual showdown of the episode's core villain, and I honestly think that's part of what makes the whole thing so unsatisfying and uncomfortable. I was actually kinda... impressed, vibes-wise, with the start of the ep-- like, it was brutal to watch, but you had Starsky in this numb shock and despair, Hutch trying to be supportive and yet being kinda tone-deaf, Dobey deeply shaken but trying to stay professional and make the right call from a moral, legal, and practical standpoint all at once. I don't think they thought they were playing the middle on this issue when they made this, but there's this sense of equivocation. They can't go all the way. The episode would be worse and harder to forgive in some ways if Starsky had shot, say, an unarmed teen or if Lonnie had clearly been surrendering, so they go out of their way to try and make the case that what Starsky did was a regrettable necessity, and his guilt is actually just because he's such a great guy, not because he did something wrong. Maybe the episode would have worked better if Starsky had been even less directly culpable, like what if he'd hesitated to shoot, Lonnie had actually shot a bystander, Starsky then shoots again, but he aims for a leg or a something, and yet still Lonnie ends up bleeding out? I don't know. That would make it more of a "what other choice did he have" thing, which I think is what this episode was going for, but it just... it doesn't hold water, it really doesn't. Direct chest shot. He was aiming to kill.

I think it's a little more complicated than just saying that this episode doesn't hold up in today's world. It doesn't, don't get me wrong, but what intrigues me about it is its attempt to actually address the deep feeling of distrust, the deep and abiding wounds between cops and the Black community. It's clearly there, with the witness who says Lonnie was surrendering and who testifies later that he made a mistake, with the hostility of the funeral-goers when Starsky first walks up, with the fact that everybody involved knows that managing optics here is going to be difficult. But on the other hand, Lonnie's race isn't actually addressed all that much, the focus is more on the fact that he's young, not that he's Black and has been shot by a white cop. I think Huggy's the only person who brings up race in the whole episode, honestly. So there's this odd sense that they wanted to address a very real and very troubling aspect of this whole system but they didn't know how to do that while maintaining that their heroes Starsky and Hutch are in fact... the good guys. So they can't actually fully say The Thing, they can just meander around it in this convoluted way.

I'm sure smarter people than I have written a lot on the topic of this episode. I already knew before watching it that it was infamous, and having seen it for myself... I see why.

In any case. Paul Michael Glaser, ladies and gentlemen. Whew. What a star turn.

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Can I send 7 of those ask game emojis? I'm gonna do it

✅ 💕 🎀 🌅 🤔 ⛔ 🔥

Ohh hi thank you for the questions!! Game on 😎😎

✅ list one or two favorite lines you’ve written and explain why they’re your favorite

Oooof this is a hard one!! I had to rack my brain for a while.

I love this section in dreamers:

“Sirius writes slowly, takes his time to decide the right word and only taints paper when he is sure. Reads five words back each time he manages a word forward.

Their eyes meet when Remus looks up from across the table. He is writing a book, and you can see it, bedtime stories beneath his dark iris. He smiles tenderly at him.

Dreams, Sirius writes down.”

Why well I ate with this. There’s theme and character analysis there’s gay yearning there’s Remus’s soulful eyes. I think it’s a very vivid scene, like it’s very visual and has a pulse. It’s also sexyyyy. I think it goes very well with this other section from dreamers:

“Since they first had sex, Remus seamlessly weaves into his writing as an antithesis, a crystalline stream of singing water where there is remorse sucking him dry, a wide expanse of forest where there are concrete walls enclosing him in a small space, dreams where there are holes in his memories.

Sometimes he reads them aloud, when they’re alone and warm in bed, and he figures Remus understands it because he kisses him in a way that’s just impossible -“

Likeeeeeee call the cops on me and put me up in jail cause why is this so heartbreaking and homosexual. But yaaa I think this second section reads pretty and it builds on the theme of remus as dreams and poetry and freedom and beauty and I love !!! how much life r breathes into s in this little story. Dreamers is the people’s princess fr.

💕 whats your favorite part of your writing process?

Daydreaming about putting my blorbos in situations is elite. I love the little eureka moment when I have a good idea! Had a good one for my wip the prophecy yesterday and have been riding that high since.

🎀 how do you decide when something is done?

I write very very chronologically meaning I only write scene 2 when scene 1 is done, and I like to publish chapters as I go. So a story is done when I write the final scene. Not really a big editor, if there’s typos it goes with typos mwah. As for a scene hmm it feels done when I read and I go alright chaps thats it for today.

🌅 do you typically known the ending to something before you start writing it?

Hmm I think it differs from fic to fic. Generally for my longer ones I have an ideia of where its going theme/ takehome message wise, and then how we get there/ how it unravels I usually work out halfway. But it really differs like for blue I knew pretty well how it was gonna go from the jump but for abyss I was just along for the ride.

🤔 why do you write fic?

What else is a mentally ill gay to do in this day and age!!

I always liked writing - as a kid I had the imagination and the social ineptitude and the pretentiousness and the reading habit to write well enough and be encouraged by adults around me. As I entered internet spaces and fan culture I fell in love with reading fanfic - still one of my favorite things to do and art form to engage with. So I suppose I write because its the creative expression that comes easiest to me, that I know how to do/ have ideas for, that I feel the most confident doing. Also sometimes I’m sad and bored and lonely and it’s nice to put all these daydreams and dialogues and desires somewhere. It’s wonderful that others want to read them and leave nice kind words - some comments have given me such profound joy?? So I also do it for the community of it. People are out there being SERIAL sweetie pies!! I also think it’s a good skill to work on and hone, I’m proud of somethings I have written (see above) and I believe I’ll write real great stuff when I’m a “real” adult heh!!

⛔️ whats something you try to avoid in your work?

Excessively morose and whiny and self-hating internal monologue — these bitches can be insecure and traumatized but get a grip! I think it’s much more interesting when characters want something but they unconsciously self-sabotage or it doesn’t work out or wtv than when characters don’t want it from the start because they don’t think they deserve it. Like I really fw that quote “there's a lot of narcissism in self-hatred” and it puts me off when I’m reading something and everything/ the whole romantic conflict is about how much the character hates themselves.

Obv they are deeply traumatized characters but I think it’s important to have room to be sexy fun and flirty!! In my writing whenever it gets too dark I make them fuck<33

🔥 what’s something that’s currently going really well?

Hmmmm I haven’t written in a hot minute BUT I got a really good comment from someone who said they’re reading all my works now which I love!!!!! I love finding a new writer with several fics from the same blorbos and it’s really cool to be that for someone else 😎😎

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45, 30, 31

Hi anon, thank you for the ask! 💕

45. share the synopsis of a story you work on that you haven't published yet

Hahaha, bold of you to think I’m working on something but sadly, I’m not. I was looking through my drafts and came across something I wrote halfway a longggg time ago. It has an angsty Max/Charles/Pierre love triangle plot... but for now, it’s going to stay in the drafts indefinitely.

I'm currently just focusing on my two ongoing stories. After that, I'm gonna be dry af 💀

30. Hardest part of writing 

I think I'm speaking for many writers when I say that there are times when we feel so so very demotivated, whether it's due to insecurities, lack of engagement, limited time to write, or simply not being in the mood. But it's important to remember that these moments are temporary. It's okay to take a break from writing, and it's important not to feel too much pressure or let others' opinions affect you. At the end of the day, you have to remind yourself that you're doing this for you.

31. easiest part of writing

When I finally get to that scene I've been visually imagining for so long, oooof, the feeling is amazing. Everything suddenly flows, and writing feels easy. But before and after that I just suffer, hahaha.

[pitiplush]

Hey there!!

I was wondering if you could help me out a little bit! I already saw that you don't sell your crochet patterns, so I won't ask about that, but I was wondering if you had any tips or tricks for making dolls like the large Alex and Henry you made!

I'm a senior in college and I have a thesis project that I have to make. I'm considering making a crochet stop-motion animation for it!

Do you have any methods or tutorials you follow in order to make them so poseable and detailed? I noticed in the WIP photos that they have a wire skeleton! I'm also super impressed by the clothing and hair!

If you don't have any tips or anything, that's alright! I understand! I just thought I'd ask! 🙂

Hi! Of course, I'm going to try to explain everything to the best of my abilities ☺️ If you have more doubts afterwards, you can message me anytime you want!

I can't really point you to any tutorials because at this point I just do my own thing and in the case of Alex and Henry I designed the body pattern taking into consideration that the clothes will be independent pieces. Most patterns that I've seen directly crochet the body as if it is wearing the clothes, like, for example if you want your doll to wear a red sweater, the torso and arms are crocheted in red. I think that's easier and the results are nice as well. My chibi amigurumis are crocheted like that, they have less mobility because they're really small, but that same technique in a bigger amigurumi will give you both the mobility and the advantage of not having to crochet so many pieces.

Now some tips for the mobility:

— A wire skeleton, as you've mentioned! It's not a perfect solution because sometimes the wire isn't strong enough to keep weird poses, but it helps! This video tutorial is in Spanish, but it's really visual and it shows how to add a wire skeleton. Honestly it was the best video that I saw back in the day, when I was looking for tutorials for this same thing.

— You can use pipe cleaners instead of wire as well, although they're weaker.

— Don't stuff the arms.

— Not too much stuffing on the legs/waist so there's enough room when you pose the amigurumi. Just a little bit less, enough for the piece to be firm but have mobility. If your legs are thin, don't stuff them, like with the arms.

— Now, another perk to crocheting the body as if it was already clothed is that it helps with mobility too. More layers of clothing means the movement will be more hindered.

— Crochet the head as an independent piece. I'll put on a couple of pics so it's easier to understand, but basically what you need to do is, once you've reached your desired width for the neck, keep crocheting rounds with the exact same amount of stitches until you have a tube. When finished, make sure to stuff it very tightly (or put pipe cleaners inside) and close it. After that, to crochet the head, start by creating a similar tube, so the neck tube fits inside the head tube. Once you've got the size you need for your tube it's only a matter of crocheting the rest of the head as you would normally.

(I'm deeply sorry for that awful, awful drawing, I just thought it would help illustrate my point better but I'm not especially good at drawing on my phone)

— Use pins and skewers (like the ones for food). You can edit them out afterwards and that's probably the best tip because an amigurumi is a plushie and its mobility is never going to be really great 😅

These photos are unedited, that's why they're so dark but ANYWAYS, see the skewers on their backs in the first photo? And the pin keeping their hands together in the second? Think of them as aids for your purpose. Alex and Henry can stand on their own if you manage to find the perfect balance but oooof it IS frustrating. The amount of times I've managed to pose one and just then the other falls flat on his little face... AWFUL.

And for the clothes... it depends a bit on what you're crocheting I guess????? Although I highly recommend to not be like me and get obsessed with making everything in a single piece, sometimes it works better when the details are crocheted apart and then sewn or glued to the main piece. Like for example, for the jackets, the body is one piece and the neck is a different one, I just sewn them together with a row of single crochets.

Also most of the time the easier way to do something is the best way. Since crochet have certain limitations, it's important to keep in mind that sometimes it's better to simplify. This depends on the size of the amigurumi and the size of the piece, but yep, as one of my uni professors used to say: parsimoooooooony (or follow the Ockham's razor).

Another thing!!! Learn some basic embroidery techniques and how to do surface slip stitches, they can go a long way to make a piece seem more detailed! And use other materials like felt too!

I can't think of anything else right now. I tried to be as clear as I could but it's kinda hard to explain all of this when English is not your first language 😅 Anyway, I hope you find these tips interesting and you can always ask me again anytime!

[dark-elf-writes]

WHAT IF OBORO LIVED AND WAS LIVING EVERY HIMBOS DREAM OF BAGGING A MILF AND TRIPPED HIS WAY INTO BEING IZUKU’S STEP DAD AND POST

Let's do this 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

-(he is enraptured.)

Oboro, the ultimate simp.

-(all tangled hair and pillow lines on her face)

I know this man thought that she was the sexiest thing he'd ever seen in that moment. Like wanted a full blown painting of the way she looked.

-(one of his shirts to replace the one he got a little too excited to deal with the buttons of last night that hangs off of her)

Not sure who the friend is (Mitsuki? just based on canon, it's unclear) but I know for damn sure that she got pummeled with questions the millisecond she walked in the door.

-(Which yeah of course he is. That’s what moms are supposed to do, right?)

THIS MAN GETS IT!!!! We looooove him!!!!! Like this energy of parent gotta parent right? Like that a thing that just is? ahahah

-(“He’s quirkless”

He’s heard the whispers about what happens to quirkless kids and teens from other heroes,)

OOOOF like the amount of statistics and lived experience that must have flashed through his head at that moment. I know his hero brain went protec baby

-(times.)

I'm intrigued gooo ooooooon

-(And then, eventually, he meets Izuku. A timid little thing. All of seven years old)

Okay so some of my favorite fanart is little Izuku. Like they're always portrayed as positively tiny and the fact that Oboro is like seven foot tall and a scarred pro hero looking down at the itty bitty baby. I can only picture him looking down at Izuku before straight dropping to the floor to be on their level(also completely destroyed by the cute).

just

the woman he's already entirely smitten with and her tiny mini me in front of him. Never stood a chance.

-(He wants this.)

Understandable. As you should good sir

-('HOUSE HUSBAND OBORO, MALEWIFE OBORO')

rhtngjrakhuriwalngbjdksal I can't this entire ask!!!!!!

Like the image of this giant man in an apron that is meant for a 5'1" woman is fucking priceless, but the care of him making them meals and I just know that Inko became the most popular person at work for the next month solely for the gossip.(before things took a turn) Plus matching Izuku's socks by hero team up 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I love it so much!!!!!

-(DadOboro introducing his son to his best friends and little fanboy Izuku’s reaction)

I feel like this is a requirement. I think I need to learn to draw at this point, I 'll pencil it in somewhere, because I need to see this visually almost as much as I need caffeine.

-(when Oboro plops down on the couch next to him one day and asks if Izuku comfortable meeting them)

Oboro, my love, of course your fankid is going to lose their absolute shit at the opportunity. So cavalier about it, just drop next to them like hey, let me make all of your dreams come true.

~I have a weird thing about cavalier announcements about big things. My dad sorted my mail when he told me he had cancer the first time, like while he was talking. It left a mark😅😅 I need you to be as serious as what you are telling me is!!!~

-(the closest Tenya has ever gotten to a tantrum is when the train broke down and nearly made him late to daycare.)

djegilhaekagyhjaklefnrethro 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 If this isn't the most accurate descriptor of the little Iida oh my god

-(He asks Tenya about his favorite hero.)

The fact that these men have to come to terms with the fact that their biggest fans are giant hero fanboys(kids) that live in their house. AHAHAHAHA I know Shouta and Hizashi gave them sooo much shit for it. Only for the tables to turn later.

-(Shouta is very clearly A Favorite(tm))

As he should be. I come to the decision that if you don't like Shouta, I don't trust you. But for him to be Izuku's idol as a hero osdjkahgejkwabngmdfmaluigj.

-(Shouta looks in a mirror with Erasure in because he was laughing too hard and please won’t you tell me?)

I need to know this. like seriously 🤣🤣🤣 '

-(There’s not so much of a gender crisis that night as a gender revelation.)

Oh the impact of Hizashi *my heart*

-(Oboro Vs. Izuku’s elementary school.)

I need a whole stage production of this. Like broadway level. Complete with songs.

-(they won’t look at him when they say they forgot it at school.)

Those aren't flags anymore, that's a banner on a plane, that's sky writing, that a billboard on the interstate. Oh honey....

-(The man working the desk in the office sneers)

and that's a one way ticket to the hospital with a broken jaw. Oboro is absolutely making up a story to cover for Inko here. Because I know for damn sure he taught her how to knock someone on their ass. "He tripped, and fell straight into her fist, it was the oddest thing. And sorry about the security cameras, lost control of my quirk for a second, can't see a damn thing through the clouds. My bad"

-(if he doesn’t see his kid right now something very bad is going to happen.)

Oof that intuition must suck sometimes my guy.

-Okay soo the fact that the guy was just like fine whatever go, without checking paperwork is absolutely infuriating to me, as someone who (as a services provider) had to be escorted to the room I was meeting someone in 🤬🤬

But the absolute joy that Oboro felt when Inko made him official on the paperwork. Oh my goooooooood

-(Izuku sits at a table alone covered in trash and scraps clearly not left by them.

Then Izuku reaches for their pencil case, battered and mostly empty even though Oboro just bought them new pens and pencils a week ago, and he sees the red mark on their wrist when their sleeve moves.)

Oboro will level the school. It will look just like this. dramatic effect and all. Inko hit the detonator(she wouldn't have managed to stand through the force generated)

-(They were even less prepared for a Incredibly Pissed Inko Midoriya still in her scrubs from the hospital to descend on them with all the wrath of a mother bear protecting her cub.)

As much as I love a good, bad mom Inko Aizawa adopts Izuku story, there's something so special about empowered momma bear Inko. Just perfection.

-(has him call up Tensei so they can start the transfer to Tenya’s school that night)

That stings the pride. Oh sweets, I'm sorry😭😭😭

-(Imagine the sludge villain attack still happening years down the line. Imagine the conversation with All Might being mostly the same. Imagine, alone and heartbroken and on a roof, Izuku hits the emergency beacon their dad gave him with a promise to always come if they needed him.

Imagine Oboro’s rage when he finally hears what happened.)

djgavjkghalngjekwargh FUCK YESSSSS ♾️/10 no notes. Need it like I need oxygen. please please please and thank you brilliant one.

-(Thinking about the combined ADHD energy of the two of them leading to flour and mess everywhere but they’re laughing and hushing each other so they don’t wake Inko up.)

IF THAT ISN"T THE SWEETEST GODDAMN MENTAL IMAGE ON THIS GODFORSAKEN EARTH SDHJGHRJKEGSJDKghjkelsngjial

Art! Art!!! I neeeeeeed it!!!

-(when they get more serious he helps her divorce Hisashi, does this happen and how does he react?)

*maniacal cackling* of course it does... and he must suffer 😈😈

-(Endeavor once made a snide comment but got quiet real quick when Oboro asked how much older he was than his wife.)

Fuck Endeavor. I hope someone empties multiple fire extinguishers on him on live television, before someone(Oboro) punts him off a cliff like he's aiming for a field goal. Scorecards are necessary.

-(Particularly after he cuts the “locker room talk” real short)

Gentlemen of the internet, take note. Locker room talk is bullshit when it's about femme presenting folks!!!!

- (She knows that there’s a type that men like Oboro tend to chase after and it’s not her. She’s short, has packed on a few pounds between late shifts and being a single mom, and while she sees herself as pretty she’s no model.)

Fuck beauty standards. That man would cause hurricanes to protect her. And Inko has MILF energy 💯

-(And he chose her. Time and time again)

^^^ Me when reading this

-(Oboro chose her, respected her, loved her and at the end of the day that was all that mattered.)

👏👏👏

-(It hurt, however, when Mitsuki pulled away.)

Ouch, like I find the canonical Bakugou family dynamics interesting as hell, but Mitsuki is always a wild card to me. Masaru seems to be much calmer. But this hurts. Like there's nothing like a friend to stab you in the back like this to leave scars that never fully heal and split open with just the slightest pressure.

-(Hizashi alone was responsible for the end of no less than fifteen journalists’ careers and Nezu sunk so many gossip rags and talk shows that he is the Macbeth of the industry.)

We love a social powerhouse or two.

-(He had all but forgotten his wife and kid. Had moved on. Then he gets served divorce papers and his perfect little fantasy shatters around him.)

Just desserts mother fucker!!!!!

-(I want to talk to my wife”

“Who?”

“Midoriya. Inko.”

“Oh I think you mean my future wife.”)

jfkgavnrjskdgh mcvjakghsjbnjef YYEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS

-(So when Hisashi figures out Inko’s address (cough stalks her cough) and Oboro opens the door still half in costume with his bow staff draped over his shoulders and a scowl on his face because Inko definitely clocked that she was being followed and he has no patience for anyone that upsets his family)

Oh Oboro absolutely got laid that night. Izuku suddenly had a sleepover somewhere and Inko absolutely leapt on that ass. Not because she needed defending noooo, but the primitive hindbrain said fuck yes, to the impeccable specimen of a man intimidating the fuck out of the weasel that made her and her child's lives miserable for years.

-(squaring up with some low ranked hero)

She'd win. Hands down, no quirks necessary. Nope. My money's on her, any other bet is a sucker's bet. The rooftops found the popcorn and have scorecards ready and waiting for the absolute smack down

-So the combination of OfA and a big fucking stick still makes me cackle. Feral Izuku getting Yagi's attention and him pedo creepy stalking this fucking child home to use their fucked up power imbalance and pass along the quirk. Izuku should not be allowed to make big decisions without a full committee hearing.

-(she is going to shove her foot so far up the number one hero’s ass that he is going to be tasting her laces for the rest of his damn life.

Oboro breaks his jaw the next day.)

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAGUJKAGSKDGHNJKWALGNF Something about this landed just right to me and I fucking lost it reading that. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

-(BONK BONK BONK BONK)

Nothing further. No notes. Perfection. B O N K🤣🤣🤣🤣

-(I know I said that the experience of being hunted by the rooftops and Inko was unique but for Yagi it is becoming distressingly common.)

Okay but like, he should be terrified of Inko. Not just because she is Momma. But because she has multiple pro heroes that would actively cover up her crimes. Like you will never convince me that if it was for Izuku, any of the Rooftops would stop her. Noooo they would help her hide the evidence/body.

-(Oboro is very much the “actually sit on my face and if I die, I die doing what I love” Kind of man.)

As he should be.

-(ittle Zuku at maybe like ten at one of the galas Oboro has to go to in a cute little dress and sneakers)

art i neeeeeed aaarrrrttt

I can make king size blankets with a hook and string, I can make booties and hats. I can bind books, but I can't draw anything more than a stick figure and I'm so fucking angry about it.

Like everything about the gala is fucking perfection. Izuku standing on Oboro's feet when dancing, tiny sneakers and their giant counterparts. The Todoroki kids death glaring their father. Attempts at a waltz. Oh my god hgdjahterjaklnvfjkdalghuer

-"Found a stick on the ground" will forever be the best in universe joke of this AU. Because not only will Oboro never let it die, Izuku has got to make troll videos using the sound and stealing Oboro's staff. Like the idea of them with social media is amazing but like can you imagine. Oboro comes home and Izuku is very much playing it cool, only to be asked, "do you have any idea about why I may have been called in by my agency's PR department today?" Izuku "nope" runs for it.

-(Hisashi gets every headline of the three of them sent to him in triplicate.)

gkveajnrgjeaklngj AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SUFFER@!!!!!!!f

-Everything about the engagement and wedding. EVERYTHING I don't have wooooorrrdsss. Like the proposal is fantastic. Big on family, but small and of course there has to be glitter! And the backyard wedding with Flower Child Izuku turning petals into weapons. And the viral reception videos. I would pay money to see those actually

-Tattooed Oboro hhhnnnnnnggghhh OjgkahgrjklSOH MY GOD Yes. Please. Papaboro with the markers and bonding and looking fine as hell in the process and the earning of the baby's truuuussttt

-(Hizashi stumbles a cross a sad purple child while out on patrol and takes him home and suddenly Izuku has a cousin.

Oboro goes full gender reveal “It’s a boy”

Ten year old Hitoshi realizes he is the only sane member of his new family real quick.)

Okay but is he though??? 😁😁😁 I love this though. sososoooo much. Like they give each other a ton of shit but Oboro must've went full fun uncle in .02 seconds and Izuku had to have their first three sleepovers planned in his notebook before the party even started(the confidence is there people!!!)

And confetti cannons!!!!!!!

-Okay so the word prompts are great and the idea of Oboro and Hizashi both constantly losing staring contests to Shouta (who's quirk relies entire on his ability to keep his eyes open) is priceless. I know Nemuri just called them idiots and said, 'I know a losing battle when I see one'

and the home prompt!!! Like oh my god. Is that to Inko? Or Oboro? Either way I'm here for it but I'm super fucking excited for the context.

and (some unholy intersection between traumatized kids clinging to the only sources of comfort and stability they had ever known and disgruntled siblings shoved into the back seat of a cramped car for a ten hour road trip, one stray elbow away from outright bloodshed.)

nghjeaklgnjreaghrjkagn ahahahahhahahahahahahah fucking accurate. My parents specifically bought a van that had a dvd player to try to stop of from fighting and it still didn't work. Alll the sibling energy here!!!!!!

AAAAAHHHHH I love this AU so much. Like Izuku deserve a dad that will go to bat for them every time. Including breaking the number one hero's jaw. And a crew of aunt, uncles and Bibi that will have an open door and a training schedule for them whenever they want. I'd also love to see Hitoshi brainwash Bakugou into punching himself in the face when they get to UA(when he makes the mistake of calling Izuku Deku), before that pomeranian is thrown in mandatory therapy from now until eternity.

I'm seriously so excited for this to come to life someday. Like it's going to be so fantastic!!!!

❤️❤️❤️❤️

This is another one I keep wanting to come back to. I’ve had like 90% of a chapter (and most of a smut oneshot) written for this forever but I for the life of me cannot get it finished. I will definitely come back to it though I love it so much.

[dangermousie]

The way she can't get over Jing, still.

This is such an interesting scene to me. Because she has realized that she cannot have a relationship that meets her standards for love and trust (she tried with a candidate as suited to it as one could possibly be and he still ultimately failed her series of tests) and I think she knows that if Jing couldn't pass it, nobody could and she does not want to risk again. And so, very pragmatically, she has decided that (to quote that old line) "if you can't be with the one you love, love the one you are with" - there is no point trying for love but she wants a husband because she is terrified of loneliness; marriage is a way to have someone around forever and this is her escape - someone for company but someone she is not invested in and so is emotionally "safe" and won't hurt. That is why rebound relationships are a bad idea. (Her standard of perfect love or nothing pretty much evolves - it's like when much later in the novel SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER she believes Jing is dead and decides to become a xianxia nun - it's a huge escalation of this tendency of hers but it's on the same path really - she doesn't think she can get what she had/felt with Jing twice and she does not believe in settling; the nun thing is more extreme but even marriage the way she visualizes it here is not a search for love, just an attempt to stave loneliness END SPOILER SPOILER.)

Oooof, this still hurts and goads her, doesn't it? It's an utter rebound reaction.

This is fine for many characters but not for her. That is why it's so good the marriage falls through later (thank you Vampy and Jing!)

The way his face is through all of this just kills me. He knows she never sees him as anything but family and never will and he accepts that and knows he should never seek anything else from her and he won't. But I do think a small part of him is more comfortable with the thought of her in a polite bloodless marriage with respect but no affection, than a marriage full of love and desire which is what she'd have had with Jing. With this, he will always be first.

I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIMMMM!!! (If someone told me I'd be rabid about CX at the start I'd have thought you were insane.)

Their Borgia sibling thing just gets me.

I mean, different scene but she is basically offering to murder their grandfather for him if the grandfather is a threat. My God. I LOVE THEM BOTH SO MUCH!!!!

How can he not love her, the only one utterly in his corner and with ability to back it up?

[ashotofogdensoldfirewhiskey]

🥳 and ✨ pleasee

🥳 Why did you start writing fanfic?

I think I started writing fanfic in my senior year in college. I was in the midst of a very traumatic breakup and something about jumping into a different reality was very appealing at the time. I'd always loved to write, and been unhealthily obsessed with HP, and so it flowed from there. Now I just really enjoy it as a hobby, though there's always a bit of escapism in it, I think.

I think my fanfic reading gateway might've been TLAT? I read that and was like omg, people are posting these masterpieces for FREE?? Still feel that way tbh.

✨️ Out of the comments you’ve received on your fics, what are two or three of your favorites?

Oh wow I love this question, diving into my AO3 inbox is such a joy. It is my greatest shame that I am NOTORIOUSLY bad at responding to comments, so if you've ever left me a comment please know it was read and so very appreciated.

From @whatthefawkes, who has left so many lovely comments, this one in particular on Come Stay for the Summer makes me really happy:

This will sound absolutely silly, but whenever I need a pick me up, I come to reread this (spoiler alert: I've lost count of how many times I reread it). This fanfic is, for sure, my favorite Harry/Ginny AU of all time. I adore how you describe every single of the characters, their friendship, how they fall in love, and everything. Really, everything. I don't have enough words to say how amazing this is and how thankful I'm that you shared it.

The idea that people would return to something I've written for a pick-me-up brings me so much joy - it makes me think of all the ways we affect one another without even knowing it, and all the times that other people have made me feel better with their writing.

From @the-dream-team, who also has graced my inbox with SO MANY LOVELY AMAZING WORDS, but this one in particular on She Did:

Okay, you’re making it way too hard to choose a favorite chapter now!! What the heck!!! I think I might have died and gone to heaven reading this one!!! If I were to copy and paste every incredible line that I fell head over heels in love with, you’d just be rereading this entire chapter in the comment section xD But I’ll try!!! “I’m right here,” James pointed out with a smirk. “I’m meant to be champagne, aren’t I?” Ahavgxsjambdhdus STOP THAT OMG “She could feel his smile spread out beneath her fingers and she wondered if she could pocket it for later.” Shut the heck up this is a perfect line, I’m obsessed. “She wanted his bubbly champagne sunshine, so that she might bask in his warmth, like a needy little plant in his garden.” This is so beautiful and is such a lovely visual and perfectly shows her desperation to find some light in all the darkness around her oooof it hurts my heart but James IS champaign!! He really is and it’s amazing seeing these two get to this place together <3 The piggy back rides had me absolutely feral ohmyfuckinggod. These kids are too much!! My heart is bursting with love for them!! They’ve been on such a journey!! And it’s so lovely seeing them end up where they belong :’)

You know when you tinker over a few lines to try to get them just right, to try to capture the exact feeling you want to portray? And then you secretly love those few lines, and hope that they affect people the way you wanted them to? And then some queen goes and hand picks those exact lines to tell you how much they loved them? Inject that feeling into my veins.

[variousqueerthings]

I am an idiot with a box and a screwdriver, passing through, helping out, learning. I don’t need an army

Dark Water/Death In Heaven -- we're doing it as a double episode single-review, because it's one continuous story. It also wraps up a lot of the thematic threads of season eight and finally reveals that *gasp* it was the Master all along! (I genuinely do not remember if people were taken by surprise back in the day, I never watched this far at that time, and obviously I knew when I finally did)

sexism rank objectification (female character is ogled/harassed/turned into a sex joke by the doctor and/or a lead we’re supposed to root for and/or the camera): 6/10

sexism rank plot-point (lead female character is only there to serve plot, not to have her emotional interiority explored, or given agency to her emotional interiority): 6/10

interesting complex or pointlessly complex (does the complexity serve the narrative or does it just serve to be confusing as a stand-in for smart, this includes visually): 3/10

furthers character and/or lore and/or plot development (broader question that ties into the previous ones, at least two of these, ideally three should be fulfilled): 5/10

companion matters (the companion doesn’t always have to be there, but if the companion is there, can they function without the doctor– and overall per season how often is the companion the focus or POV of the story): 5/10

the doctor is more than just “godlike” (examines the doctor’s flaws and limitations, doesn’t solve a plot by having it revolve entirely around the doctor’s existence): 5/10

doesn’t look down on previous doctor who (by erasing or mocking its importance, by redoing and “bettering” previous beloved plotpoints or characters, etc.): 6/10

isn’t trying to insert hamfisted sexiness (m*ffat famously talked a lot about how dw should be sexier multiple times, he sucks at writing it): 4/10

internal world has consistency (characters have backgrounds, feel rooted in a place with other people, generally feel like they have Lives): 4/10

Politics (how conservative is the story): 2/10

FULL RATING: 46/100 (if I can count….)

the real issue with the plot of the finale, as I see it is actually solidly in the field of "pacing." there's some other stuff (I'll get into what I think about fulfilling character arcs and concepts about soldiers below), but pacing is the throughline as we take a look at various themes and arcs and whether they were sufficiently wrapped up

EDIT: this one is quite long because it also partially covers the whole season + I rant about the military

OBJECTIFICATION: oooof the four women in this finale, Clara, Kate, Osgood, and Gomez!Master, we technically don't get this much, however I do think it's interesting that M*ffat's Master is... called... Missy....

which I will not be doing, because I hate it. you see she's "Mistress" because she's a woman now, but no nonono, she needs a cutesy version of it, so it's "Missy," she's like the sexy dom you always dreamed of (just like Irene and River and several single-episode characters...)

at least he didn't dress her in leather

it's also hard to designate whether the way he writes her is so off from the way Simm!Master was written, because he for sure had a bunch of "I'm just Cu-raaazyy" moments. also he used bigotry as a casual hammer, which I'd be curious to talk with RTD about. I don't think he'd do that the same way if he were writing those episodes today, anyway, wrong era

Gomez!Master, in these episodes, has some really really stellar moments. she also has moments that make me go, "ah yes, this is a woman written by M*ffat," most noticeably in some of her one-sided "flirting" with the Doctor. again, it's hard to pinpoint, because a lot of it is just "yeah they're unhinged about each other and have been forever," but some of the "ooh Doctor I'm doing all of this for you," stuff is... it just feels like they can do that because of het Nonsense now (which I will get into in the "sexiness" point)

like she can be softer now (in a Master way) because she's portrayed by a woman opposite Capaldi's Doctor, which I think the "short for Mistress" moment is the most prime example of

I do also think though, this is (you guessed it) partially a pacing issue, because they didn't insert Gomez!Master into the main narrative until the second-to-last episode. if we could have seen her in some material way doing something prior to that -- but wait, Simm!Master also only appeared properly in the second-to-last episode, yes, correct, but Simm!Master was materially affecting the narrative from very early on, and not in a somewhat random "I gave you a number to call for a helpline that turned out to be the Tardis and also I'm sort of sitting around waiting for the plot to catch up with me" setup, but in a "I'm monitoring your family, I'm fucking with the government" kind of way -- there was even a musical cue that included the four beats that recurred so that we could connect that to the overarching story of mind-control

I'm going to get back to this in complexity, because we're getting off-point. Point is the jump from where we left off to where we find Gomez!Master being a bit lovey-dovey (again, in a Master way) just wasn't there and I feel like M*ffat thought he could do it this way because of course now they're played by a man and a woman... hypothesis. theory, if you will. Charlie Day Corkboard meme perhaps. but M*ffat would never have done this if the Master were played by a guy, looking at his track record. he might have done it if the Doctor were played by a woman, but I think the real issue there would have been how incredibly porn-opening-adjacent his Doctor/Master interactions would have become, so that's a different sort of lesbophobic bullet dodged

like, I'll take more explicit Master/Doctor stuff. but I'm fucking watching you M*ffat, youknow.

PLOT-POINT: Clara is not a plot-point in this episode, however I do think the pacing of Stuff hits her quite hard. we had a slowish build-up of her and Danny over the episodes, although fascinatingly he never really got to have proper feelings about the acres of lies she'd told him -- she was working up to telling him about it properly, but he got hit by a car before she could

this brings up a Thing about Clara, which is that she makes a loooot of bad decisions that prioritise her own current wants over what's good for her and/or people around her, and I doooo think that's intentional -- she has a line in this episode where she says to Danny, "I wasn’t very good at it, but I did love you"

now season 9 might deal with the guilt of the above, so there may be things to come, but there was certainly a lot of confusion on my side about what her journey was going to be about, and so far it seems to be a very unhealthy "I am owed things" rather than about running away from something tangible or feeling overwhelmed from life

there is the original idea that it was her mother's death that prompted her to want to travel, but something always got in the way, and that this (for example taking care of two kids whose mother died recently) indicates that she's a "good" person who cares for others -- and she doesn't not care, but it's certainly not her driving character trait in the way that it seemed to look like when Eleven met her properly and gauged her as a person who could be a companion

this is all very waffly, because I'm still not sure where Clara lands in all of this, or if I think it works in the grand scheme of things, especially in tandem with the other characterisations and themes of this season. it's got a very depressing, hopeless sort of framing to it that in other contexts I might be really into, but I may not enjoy for Doctor Who

that being said... it's consistent throughout the season. Clara sees the Doctor's red flags (and we'll get to those) and provided the ending is okay and she can control the Doctor and her own role in the situation, she's okay with the idea that people get used along the way -- as long as the Doctor doesn't try that on her

in this episode of course Clara threatens to (and makes good on that promise, even if it doesn't work) destroy the Tardis keys, stranding them both on a volcano, rails against the ordinariness of grief and feels that she is owed something more, shuts down Danny's attempts to say that he loves her, because it's not on her terms (granted, these terms are "please just accept that I'm dead," but that is kind of the point with Clara and her sense of controlling things, even death), then decides to be the one to kill Danny properly as a Cyberman, despite the Doctor explaining that Cyber-Danny will kill others, and then is fully intending to just straight up kill the Master!!!!

this is wild to me -- back in s3, when Francine and the entire Jones family are prepared to see the Master dead, it's because he destroyed the earth and made them watch and kept them as slaves for a year

in this episode, Clara wants to kill the Master because she did bad things that, yes, prolonged the sadness of Danny's death, but crucially did not actually cause Danny's death. Danny just... died. yeah, there's probably theories out there that the Master might have caused it (we'll get to this too), but this is never textual in the episode, and Clara never gives an indication that that's her belief

she's just angry that the Master is a bad person who did bad things, as concept. and mostly she's angry because her boyfriend is dead, and as far as I can see, the Doctor is now off the hook (whereas at the beginning the Doctor was very much on the hook) and the Master is the closest person around to take that anger out on

bonkers for a companion to be this way. again, Martha, my beloved Martha, Osterhagen key back in the day, she's not doing this out of anger, she's having a straight-up bad time and the whole tragedy is about the Doctor accidentally turning companions into soldiers. they've got guns and everything. Clara just bypasses this and is simply down for murder because she's upset

at the end of course she elects to not tell the Doctor about Danny's sacrifice/still being dead, because she thinks the Doctor would stay rather than return to Gallifrey (which may not be found after all, because the Doctor lies to her about that too), which is quite self-sacrificial of her. we'll see where this sentiment goes, especially as it's another lie, which is kind of their whole... thing with one another. terrible terrible for one another, which I know is the appeal for their fans, so I'm not necessarily writing this as critique

I am reminded of the Doctor and Martha again, who also had a whole unhealthy thing going on, but it was very based in the narrative and had a specific trajectory and then an ending that acknowledged this as a reason for Martha no longer wishing to travel with them (and then some things I have questions about, RTD bring Martha back I'm not satisfied!)

in this story, it feels like this is simply who Clara is. and while it does contradict some of her earlier narrative in s7, I can accept that it's consistent now. but yeah... as said, there's some plotting and pacing inconsistencies. where are the kids from before (I know she stopped taking care of them, but one feels like they had no tangible impact on the story), why was Danny's death written in the way it was (we'll get to that), where did some of her s7 characterisation go (I really missed a Clara who wasn't just smart and quippy, but was also scared and out of her depth), is this because she "knows" a lot of the Doctor lore now, so she feels like she belongs more in this world than other people? why was she in love with Danny, to the point of wanting to go to a possible afterlife to get him back (actually this is a big one, because while they did have scenes together, I don't know what drew her to him, and I have some feelings about Danny down in the politics section of this, which somewhat can be boiled down to "he gives me the vibes of a man who is kind and sensitive and easily used and Clara likes to use people so...")

like I said- it's not that Clara doesn't make sense for who she is now, but that the pacing and structure don't support her arc very well. I don't think this is the worst thing to happen to a female character during M*ffat's run, but it does make this finale less emotionally fulfilling than it clearly wants to be

am I sad that Danny is dead? yeah, but not because of Clara. I'm sad because of his unrealised potential as a character. am I shocked that Clara wanted to shoot the Master? yes, but because it was a Bonkers Yonkers bit of characterisation on top of some already wild things she did which any past Doctor I think would have said "ok, you are not suitable for this kind of life, because you are way too down with murder and have no emotional stability." When Clara left the Doctor, I was kinda like. yeah, ok, she could end this here I guess (I say that, and acknowledge that actually the Christmas Special right after gives her a bit more depth on the whole "Danny Dying Sitch" of things, although again, it does not make me think she should be continuing to travel with the Doctor, never mind be working with UNIT in s9????)

ok. but. pacing. let's get to it

COMPLEXITY: ok the problem with this episode is not technically complexity, although it does fall for a couple of M*ffat standards in that it didn't need to be doing some of the things it is doing (the cremation stuff I think is particularly unsettling in a needless way that I think crosses a line, but that is possibly subjective)

the problem is the questions I was asking in the previous sections and a whole bunch more, that shows that all of the themes and questions that were set up throughout the season weren't paced well or satisfactorily concluded

take one that I like: The Master. big fan of Gomez' portrayal of The Master barring a few things that are very M*ffat female character, with a dash of his Moriarty (so youknow the drill if you've ever spent too long engaging with a M*ffat narrative), but that's not her, that's just her having to make a "hey Missy you're so fine" dialogue work

I mentioned it was odd that she was so sidelined and just... hanging around... until the second-to-last episode. I am unclear why she "chose" Clara to travel with the Doctor, first of all. I cannot remember if this is answered in the episode, beyond like "the Universe and fate and shit" which I'm not a fan of if so. second of all... why didn't she kill Danny? (EDIT: did read there's a short story that confirmed she did kill Danny, but we're going purely by episodes here)

if we want to go big, say, why wasn't there a big, slow reveal that she'd been poking around in Clara's life, maybe also Danny's life who knows, and that she was giving all of these things to the Doctor as a gift by using humans as puppets culminating in Danny's death and this is what sets Clara off? the idea that she once again is just playing to the tune of a larger narrative that she has no control over and worse, isn't even about her, but about this fucked up dynamic between these two incredibly old aliens

I'm sure some people like the randomness of Danny's death. I personally do not. I think it's contrived angst that comes out of nowhere in the same way so much of M*ffat's narrative tends to do. why is this happening now? because we need the story to go there and we forgot to place 90% of the establishing building blocks that make it feel organic -- the worst offender for this in my opinion is still the "Amy grew up with River as her best friend the whole time, you just didn't know," but this is a pretty bad example in my opinion too, because on the surface it is very very sad, and the randomness of death is a great idea... but hey, remember when they did that story in 2005 with Rose's dad and it was really good and established and played into the overarching themes of her story? this is not that. this is using sadness as a cheap device

there's like. a story in here that is really really good, and it gets buried underneath a bunch of contrived over-the-top stuff (although, while I initially thought the "president of the earth" stuff was bad, and still kind of do, I did think it was funny that the Doctor mocked the Master about all those times they tried to rule the world and the Doctor managed it by accident)

I also -- and I'm sure many people have noticed this too -- cannot help but go, "oh isn't this just the Library plot but evil? and with a worse/less believable set of scifi nonsense explanations?" and that's such a M*ffat classic too. use three or four good (and sometimes not good) ideas over and over again, but bigger and more unwieldy

Ohhhh boy the idea of the Brigadier becoming a Cyberman, because all of earth - no wait, more than earth, some of the people who end up there aren't on earth - for the last x amount of years has just been sucked into the evil Library database. (seriously, tell me how this works, because it works across Time and Space apparently??) -- anyway billions? trillions? of people becoming Cybermen. I don't think this is explained either. I am not a fan of the Brigadier becoming a Cyberman, let's say that

none of the core scifi stuff is explained beyond a handwave, and none of the emotional arcs are given a satisfying conclusion but!

listen Michelle Gomez is so cool, I relish the future when I know she's getting better dialogue

also in theory I like the callback to the "I win" in s3. we know the Doctor doesn't kill her, but yeah, him going "you win." they're such weirdos about each other, truly. again, with all of the rest of the "stuff" this season, the poor pacing, the scrape-the-surface-and-it's-cheap-sentimentality I don't think it entirely works, but hey, Gomez will return so!

CHARACTERS/LORE/PLOT: Danny is dead. the Master is Michelle Gomez (and not dead). the Doctor is slightly? more chill in themself (maybe, idk, going by the following episode, maybe not). Gallifrey is still lost. I think that covers it?

also the Doctor just straight-up wasn't looking for Gallifrey this whole time it seems

COMPANIONS MATTER: Clara does some things in this one. notably, not a single thing she does works, but for the ways they work because the Doctor and/or Danny care about her so so much, which I think is at the heart of all of this -- if you (the audience) believe that the Doctor and Danny have so much affection and/or love for Clara that despite her behaviour they would go to the afterlife for her, they would break cyber-coding for her, then this works

if you don't believe this, then we're in trouble.

things Clara does: aforementioned attempted destruction of Tardis key, attempting to save Danny from death, passing herself off as the Doctor, killing Danny, killing the Master

I thiiiink... that covers it. within this she does convince the Doctor to take her to the afterlife, and Danny saves her life a few times

I want to note the "Clara pretends to be the Doctor" moment, because I think it's a good example of some of the flattening of her character. in her earlier entries in s7 she was afraid at times. now, obviously, like the other companions she's seen more, she's more confident, but she is still in very real danger -- contrasting with Rose in Doomsday and how she taunts the Daleks, she's still very very afraid, she's sure they're all going to die

and I think Rose in Army of Ghosts/Doomsday is the closest to Clara out of previous companions I've seen (not counting Classic Who which I haven't finished). by that point she's seen so much that her mother comments that she doesn't seem like herself anymore (I wish Clara's grandmother had made a similar observation -- or at least some kind of observation). she knows a bunch of DW lore, she loves the travel for the sake of it, she feels, yeah, special (although with the caveat that she's met previous companions, the Doom hangs over them all season, we know this is about to end one way or another)

I just sat there the whole time thinking, "why is the director not asking JLC to put more emotion into her voice, more doubt, more desperation, just... more. why is this scene so flat?"

“GODLIKE” DOCTOR: the Doctor is a headless chicken in this one, except for the fact that he's like "yeah we'll go to the afterlife" and then promptly goes "there is no afterlife, this is stupid."

it's a small thing on the whole, but hey, Doctor, you're the one who decided to go there

as for the Doctor as a seasons-arc roundup. I... don't hate it... but I still don't like how this Doctor is characterised. he's still incredibly unlikeable just on a personal level, and yeah yeah good doesn't mean nice, but he's also just not kind. and I think I struggle to enjoy an iteration of the Doctor who isn't kind, at least sometimes

I think a lot of that -- the unkindness -- falls to the wayside as a concept in this episode, because idk, it's not important I guess? whereas I think it's central to the Doctor's question of "am I good"? are you good because you try to make people not-die, sure, but you're also good because you don't mock kids. you don't casually state that you've forgotten peoples faces because they're so forgettable/unimportant to you. you don't treat people poorly that know they're about to die

if that stuff -- that domestic stuff, as Nine might have called it -- isn't important to the question, then I don't think the question is being satisfactorily answered by this episode

yes, Twelve turns down the chance to have a literal army that could just kill all bad guys, but I never doubted that. does Twelve treat others with kindness? Mmmm still not really, going by the episode right after. it's a fun little exploration of something absolutely wild the Master might try, but I don't think it tells me anything new about the Twelfth Doctor

PREVIOUS DOCTOR WHO: ok, I'm sure some people loved some of these callbacks. The Brigadier. the Cybermen outside St Pauls.

did like Osgood saying that Simm!Master prime-minister wasn't even the worst one we've had. that ages ever more hilariously

I just don't think the plot is good enough for a lot of them. and as an ending to the Brigadier well... ok, I liked it better than way back (s6) the Doctor receives a random phonecall that the Brigadier is dead and it's apropos nothing and Kate Stewart hadn't been introduced yet, so it was just some random guy that the old fans knew, but the nu fans would have been ??? about, because why does this guy dying drive the plot like that? I liked that the Brigadier has context

of course that context is, your brain was uploaded to a computer database for years and now you're fully a cyberman -- and it's not framed as super tragic? it's another one of the ways the emotional Stuff falls flat in this episode, and I just choose to pretend it's not something that happens

“SEXINESS”: M I S S Y... short for Mistress... because we need to gender this now. Anyway, the first time this character meets the Doctor in this form, she forcibly grabs him and kisses him without his consent (afterwards Clara smirks and asks if she used tongue)

so that is... that is a thing that happens. that is a thing that has happened a lot on this show, both to Ten and Eleven, but not to Twelve until now, because I guess women only humorously throw themselves at twinks

when will our suffering end?? why is this considered funny???? Stop!!!

she also at one point says "you know I should shoot you in a jealous rage, now wouldn’t that be sexy," which was one thing I was alluding to with the "where does writing the Master as kind of fucked up end and writing the Master as a Crazy Evil Sexy Lady begin" because this is definitely in the latter category

INTERNAL WORLD: is this just the Silence of the Library but evil and less believable? yes. does it make sense that they could magically put all those minds back into reconstructed Cyberbodies on top of corpses, including people who must have been dead for centuries, or died in the future not even on earth? don't think about it

POLITICS: So, you know how this season is all about the Doctor and soldiers and "am I a good man" and Danny was a soldier and calls the Doctor an officer, and on the plus-side we have the Doctor's speech about not being a good man or an officer or anything like that, but just "some fuckn guy" (paraphrased, he actually calls himself an idiot)

on the flipside of that we have... Danny. oh Danny. I. so I really want to like Danny, and I actually do like Danny, I think he's the most underserved character of the season, in the sense that everyone else being written to be an asshole just makes it shine through that he is... not. and his whole thing is that he feels guilty about having shot a kid in Afghanistan and that's what made him leave the military, because... it felt bad, I guess

I write that, because Danny didn't leave the army because he didn't agree with their politics anymore. despite having a bunch of lines derogatorily calling the Doctor "sir," and flipping shit like "watch the blood-soaked general in action" there's never actually a story of Danny realising a superior officer was using his power to hurt anyone, and he never questions that having been there in the first place, in a position to shoot a child, might have been the bad thing

he's not railing against superiors, he's just railing, which is frustrating when it's so close to getting it right. it seemed like they might be going there for awhile, there was a hot second where I thought they might, but at the end he firmly re-identifies himself as a soldier and shoots himself and the other Cybermen into the sky to save the planet. it's so... oooh it's so [flames on the side of my head]

he does send the kid back, rather than himself, which circles back to my thinking about Danny the character (kind, compassionate, sensitive) and Danny as keeper of certain themes (that it's not the system of soldiering that's bad, in fact we need to defend ourselves, see Doctor, your black and white narrative about soldiers as related to any guilt you might feel about having once killed people, or making situations happen where people die or or, is false, because it's more complicated than that, and soldiers are a good thing actually -- no, we haven't actually made a narrative about systems of soldiering, we've conflated freedom-fighting against a fictional fascist-coded alien with the British army, it's the same thing in the end)

it makes me want to -- in that oh-so-silly fandom way -- take Danny away from the writers and look back at his core traits: he's an orphan who by the sounds of things was never adopted, so in a place of being easily groomed by a structure like the army, he believes in the inherent goodness of people (I think), like I said, kind, compassionate, sensitive, lovely to kids, clearly suffers from PTSD (of course), and... in my opinion eaaasily misused by others, because he judges things to be solely on his shoulders

because Clara is a very forceful personality, I can sooo easily see how he'd be taken with her and want to forgive her over and over again and sacrifice himself for her

I wish that Danny's storyline had been about realising his worth. not his worth as a fucking soldier, but just "oh, I've been scared my whole life, I've had to do what others told me my whole life, and now this is my choice." I mean, the sacrificing is still... sigh (I do remember seeing people pointing out that great, we introduce a Black recurring character and then yeet him into the sky once his use is up, vs, say Rory who is there from beginning to end)

(I actually like Danny better than Rory on the whole, but I also think Danny and Rory have a lot of similar traits, and they both fall in love with women who have treated them abysmally, but at least Clara understands this as a part of her arc, both in the final episode of this and the subsequent Christmas episode)

but at least it wouldn't have been a sacrifice in which he reinserts himself as a cog in a machine. fucking soldier. please Danny, you deserve more from this thematic journey. if we'd had a narrative about an abusive or simply bad or incompetent or idealistically incompatible officer, this would have made more sense, but instead we just get vague references that go nowhere

ok I'm writing in circles now, so let's drop this and talk about the kid he shoots, whom he meets in the "afterlife" (argh this whole concept is so stupid) and I guess just... sits with? until he scares him away. and then sends him back to life again

there's something poignant in that to an extent, it's just of course that this random unnamed kid from Afghanistan who says not a line is a prop to absolve Danny of his personal guilt at shooting a child, and, again, not really about the nature of British colonialism and military violence

now oof, those are some heavy themes to bring up, can we expect all this from a silly show like Doctor Who? well, M*ffat did, he just wasn't able to follow through. heavy themes aren't shock value, you'd better be a good enough writer to do something with them, or idk, not want to suck the British army's dick

ooh, that was a bit aggressive on my part. I think because season eight actually has so much interesting stuff it's playing with, so this time I could finally see Stuff, but then the payoff was just a disappointing slap. RIP Danny, in my heart you had character development this season that went into all of the interesting narrative threads that were introduced, and you became a passionate speaker for not grooming kids into joining the army

the TL;DR of this point is "soldiers good sometimes. check mate Pacifist" -- but similar to Kill The Moon, it's so messy I'm not sure it actually knows what it wants to say

FULL RATING: 46/100 (if I can count….)

I feel like not everyone would agree with me, but I like the Master's overall plan. it fits with the wildly swinging way they try to win the Doctor over, just to lash out when the Doctor (understandably) turns them down, while also pinpointing the little hypocrisies of the Doctor's morals, because the Master keeps offering the ability to Change Things and the Doctor prefers little shifts of the status quo that often mean people get left behind or get hurt or it's much messier than a clean sweep of "if you just ruled the Universe with me, we'd do good things"

(the Doctor is of course right to go "yeahno, this is not a good idea, for starters we both have so many issues, for seconds anyone who sets out to be a good ruler of anything has already failed because of the premise"). it's the strongest part of the episodes for me, I just wish it had had a more satisfying build-up and been able to tie in better to the themes of the season (or rather that the themes of the season had been written better in previous episodes so as to tie in better with this wrapping-up)

and obviously the whole "soldier" stuff is just badly written

and Clara...? I'll wait and see in her final season. it's very much a "depends on how they round it off" for me

also, oh boy am I done with quips. the Wh*donesque quipping is doing my head in, please make it stooop

"One last chance. I don’t care about the rules, I don’t give a damn about paradoxes, I swear you will never step inside your Tardis again" <- this is Villain Behaviour Clara!!!!

[hopeworldjimin]

i just watched the barbie movie and oooof, the things i felt after watching it 🥺 tho i felt sooooo seen! it’s impossible to be woman because of the unrealistic standards we have to meet… but that shouldn’t stop us from becoming who we want to be. i would want to watch it again!!!! aaaaa also it is not a kid’s movie if anybody is curious 😅 if you bring kids to the cinema, they may or may not get the whole point of the film… tho they would appreciate the visual for sure anddd the dialogues are so childish 😂 will ferrell’s character deffo spoked so childish!!! and also i have a fav part there where ken (ryan gosling) was saying smth like i look so stupid i am so stupid and the barbies are like yeah 😗😭😭😭😭 so funny! i love the set and costume designs, literally healed my inner child. margot and ryan perfectly represented barbie and ken and i don’t think anyone could play it better than them.

overall, i personally appreciated this movie and i love love love the story and message so much. my heart felt so light after watching it. 10/10!!!!

[mantism0th]

3, 9, and 12 for the movie ask thing.

3. What is a film you absolutely despise and why?

Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children 😒 the books are one of my favorite YA series and they fuckin massacred it. Terrible casting, forgettable visual style, a tone that completely misses the mark (wayyy too lighthearted and whimsical), multiple unnecessary changes to the source material, and a half assed ending that tries to neatly wrap up what should be the first installment of an 8 book series? Yeah, absolutely not. Fuck Tim Burton.

9. What was the last movie you watched? What did you think of it?

Infinity pool! I really enjoyed it, not as much as Possessor but still an interesting watch. I adore Brandon Cronenberg's style much more than his father's (controversial i know). The soundtrack and visuals were hypnotic, and Mia Goth was phenomenal as always. My only criticism is it meandered a bit too much and didn't quite formulate its message as effectively as it could have.

12. Which movie has your favorite soundtrack?

Oooof this is a hard one, I think i'm gonna have to go with Blade Runner though. The film is already a comfort movie for me and I've been listening to the soundtrack for years to help me sleep. It's just gorgeous, I love how delicate the synths are. The piano and vocal pieces interwoven in are beautiful too. I actually learned Memories of Green on the piano! The runners up would probably be Interstellar and Mandy.

Thank you so much for the ask!! 💖

[stargirlfics]

Since it’s always “thinking about fucking that old man” hours for me, I’m thinking of Dom! Alfred jerking off in front of his girl’s face and n*tting on it as punishment because she can’t help herself being naughty and impatient. Bonus: he rubs his c*m across her face for humiliation *throws this at you and runs away*

SCREAM cause the way I’d be on my knees so goddamn fast like yes please paint my face, make it a mess, make me cry cause I can look but can’t touch or taste ugh!!! 🥹 YOU GET ME!

Alfred is soooo soft dom too, it fits so well! He had warned you that he’d have to give out a punishment if you couldn’t behave and be patient but his pretty baby just couldn’t wait and now you’re pouting, watching him jerk himself off so close to your face and the sight is to dieeee for, it’s so hot being knelt at his feet and seeing his muscles tense and flex as he works his fist over his shaft

And you want to taste him and touch him so badly but you can’t, that’s the punishment, you only have yourself to blame and as sweet and sympathetic as Alfred can be he indulges himself in having fun teasing you about it, knowing how much restraint it’s taking you to keep still!!!

“You always look beautiful, darling but you’re going to look especially pretty when I mark you.”

“Oh, that’s very cute, thinking you can stick your tongue out and I’ll give in and let you suck my cock. Not tonight, love.”

Oooof and what you said about finishing and rubbing his cum across your face for added humiliation I-😵‍💫 need a second, help oh my god, it’s such a nice touch, and you don’t expect it so it’s amusing to him when you can’t hold back the whimper as he does it, like he just knows you so well and knows what to do and say to make you weak

Thank you for throwing this at me hehe, I love that it’s “thinking about fucking that old man” at all hours for us!! Love youuu! 🫶🏾

Also gonna add this lil visual as a treat cause the angle of the shot reminds me of how it might be to look up at him while he’s doing all of the above!!!

[quinloki]

Oooof.

Man, next time just gut me and insult my cat XD ❤️ (I say with love).

JFC though, what a visually stunning piece, bravo.

Marace,

what it meant to be carrying you that day

[charmedghostie]

Alright, lemme tell you why I love this clip so much.

Jinx just got the gemstone for Silco after causing absolute chaos and basically putting all of Silco's work at risk (hence why he was angry with her. He pays the enforcers to ignore his crimes and to leave Zaun relatively alone. But with Jinx's actions before this, he can't pay anyone off). And AND Jinx could be been hurt, she could've been caught. But she got the gemstone, she got something that could advance his empire and Zaun so much further.

But look at the way he looks at her. He is awed by the gemstone but when looks at Jinx, you can see the adoration and love for her. He's holding the gemstone in one hand and Jinx in the other and this scene OOOOF I think this is the beginning of when Silco begins to see Jinx as his new dream. I think his rage was his fear of her getting hurt and/or caught and the risk that she is now in from Piltover.

This is the turning point for Silco, the beginning of Silco's true downfall. He's holding two dreams but the scene ends on him looking at Jinx.

Maybe this doesn't make sense but so much of their relationship is told through the faintest visual cues that if you blink, you miss it.