#outflow

[aboyintheworld]

Poetry in love

And the next thing you know, you're in love, and now I have to live with that, knowing that I'll never be loved back. Someday he'll end up in a relationship, loving someone else, and I'll have to just watch, stare, and admire something we never were, aren't, and never will be.

[psychoticstalker]

I want to be loved, but no one can love something broken.

[twilight-resonance]

Trickle

Holy gods, I feel awful right now. Migriane - low-grade, thankfully - for the fifth day straight, which is mostly annoying but not too bad; but I'm hungry, and cold-from-the-inside in a sick way, and just kind of feel... a general malaise. A bit like being sick, but I don't think I'm sick. The smoking gun is that I went to go curl up in the laundry room earlier, with the washer and dryer running. I almost never do that unless I'm feeling truly terrible. What a strange thing.

Maybe I ate something bad? A clementine that had gone slightly off, or a weird vegetable from dinner last night? That's the closest to what it feels like... but I'm not convinced. Maybe it's just one of those days.

Anyway, I'm here to complain about it mostly. As well as to write more, for the sake of writing more. With the hopes of greasing the gears for other writing and other journaling and other work. I should also do one of those journaling-prompt posts; maybe after this.

Quite-some going on the last few weeks. My SIL/BIL/nice (Hearthsnail's sister) were out for Thanksgiving, and that was nice. Went to a discovery museum for the niece - we'll have to go to more if they come out again, turns out there's a lot in the area; and we went tidepooling one day, and mostly hung out. Learned some things about my own energy pacing that week, both as traits that have popped up before but not been solved in the same way. One is pacing energy with my niece - who is four, and still a big sink for attention as all kids that age are. I'm great with kids; and I'm great the first day or two; but I think I over-invest the energy and attention, and burn myself out pretty hard for later in the week. So in the future, I should take some designated time for myself/not entertaining the toddler early/daily so that I can give her more of what she needs sustained over time.

The second is that, apparently, I need time to focus in order to function. It doesn't have to be about anything - it could be work, it could be play, it could just be spacing out; it could be with people or alone; but having a couple hours of just focused time is apparently important to my ability to regulate myself emotionally and mentally. Discovered because the style of hanging out they have is very much not compatible with that. So, as before, taking some focused time for myself every couple of days next time. And also in general. It's not limited to them, it happens on breaks with Hearthsnail and other times too. Just something good to know in general.

Would be good things to note to my therapist, but she is in the ICU. Went for last appointment and she never showed, and got a message from her family not long after. I dunno. It's one of those things that... you know, things can happen to anyone? It's a good reminder of that. I'm fine in terms of my own stability in the interim, I hope most of her clients are in the same place, and I hope she's fine... But it's just. One of those things that happens out of the blue. Also a good reminder that we don't pick when these things happen, they happen when they will. I used to be better about remembering; I've become too comfortable with the ebb and flow of everyday life, I think. In a good way - in a stable way - but I wished I remembered more.

Had a friend over the other day; they introduced us to Dutch Blitz, and I'm so sold. We ordered a copy the same night. It's a simple game, but a good one. Also played Clank Legacy - continued a game we've been playing, that we picked up from an ex-friend group of that friend's. Legacy games are so much fun - the closest I get to playing an RPG, anymore - and, were I to dissect one, probably good professional development too. Given what I do. Given that I have to make up my own training and growth and somesuch things.

Had other obligations later that night - helping a new group of players make characters for D&D. Starting a new game for a group of friends; one wanted to add a new player, but we were already full up, so I suggested starting a new one; and she invited more friends. They were going to do their own character-making session to make it easier on me, but I wanted to be involved to help with some of the world-specific stuff... and it was probably good, at it turned out, that I was there anyway for rules help as well. I was a little uncertain about the whole thing - suppose I still am - for dumb reasons, but I think it'll be okay. Will be interesting hanging out with a bunch of queer folk that are, like, my own age? Rather than high school and college-aged folks? I love them dearly but it's nice hanging out with people a little further along in life, too, and not something I get as often.

Our usual D&D group has a session coming up soon; also doing holiday gift exchange things. Need to pick something out for that. I did a short book last year; don't want to do something directly gaming-related, but something relevant to anyone. Pretty teacups, or something that splits both functional and decorative, feels like the right thing. We'll see. Also need to pick out gifts for my family - which, I'd like to get them nice things this year since we're not coming out and it's a rough year financially - and for Hearthsnail. Others here and there too, but those are the big ones. I like coming up with gift ideas - it's a fun puzzle around what they'll like, what they won't think of themselves, what I know and don't know about the tools they need for their hobbies, etc - but it does take a time and a focus that has escaped me the last week with the migraine. And time is burning low.

Holy fuck, I still feel cold and awful. Took some excedrine a bit ago, hoping that helps; may not have had enough time to kick in yet, might be kicking in right now, hard to tell. One of those shivers just passed over me - again, the sort of sick fevery ones that well up from inside - and, eef. Been doing the work I can the last few days: emails and invoices yesterday, brainstorming for charts I need to make all throughout this week, slack management and character approvals today - but it's not nearly as much as I need or would like or it ought, again given the migraine situation. But we do what we can. I'm doing all right, I think, considering.

This is working, by the way, because it's so loose and rambly and stream-of-consciousness. Just sort of a gentle outpouring, flowing whichever way is lowest. Helping to keep the rest of my focus intact, I think, at least in some ways. And again, leaving space for other more intensive writings later.

Also need to figure out what to bring to snack this week. I know next week - it'll be brownies - but this week is escaping me more than usual. To do with all the stress people seem to be feeling around it, I think. Hearthsnail's co-workers, rather - they do a snack every Friday, but it's been a bit fraught this year for reasons as-of-yet undiscovered. But it will be nice to go spend time with them, and to make snacks. If I can figure out what.

Going to drop this and do a journaling prompt post, I think. Starting to flounder.

[draculasguidetoromania]

Bikers for Humanity Rock Fest 28-30 June 2024, Valcea

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[dilfslayer1080p]

Shoving pipes up Benreys ass again sorry

[docholligay]

If you aren't interrupting kissing to fight about the definition of seas vs lakes, are you even lesbians?

[whispers-of-the-waves]

Ah- who are you?!

My name is... Ianthe.

I'm the youngest of the triplets, apparently... Or something. I love my siblings and father a lot and uh- what else. I don't know mortal standards.

I'm going to meet some new people, I guess? Man, being outside the island is real strange.

I'm fourteen years old and my godly parent is- well his name is Proteus. I don't know my mom.

Don't mess with me or my siblings or I'll beat you up.

People I know ig

@fluid-as-the-sea

One of my siblings, the middle triplet. Tends to be- well, I don't know how to call it, actually. But they're really cool.

@i-want-to-go-back-to-the-island

The oldest of us! She doesn't really like going outside that much, but I still love her to bits.

Ooc under cut!

Kay's and Lilith's characters are super cool and you should totally visit their blogs :3

Hellooooo! @somebody-insertlyric here with a little collab thingy I did with my friends, @/onlymythologypersonatcamp's mod @glitchyk and @/christmaslightaddict @lilithloves-you :p

#the ocean has spoken — ask tag

#chilling by the shore — regular posting tag

#outflowing away — end rp tag

#no waves today — ooc tag

[anywithoutanycreativity]

I must be paying for all my sins, all the shit I've done in my life, every time I've hurt someone or wished them ill. For the sake of karma or whatever, just stop, please, I'm begging

all that's left for now is to poop💩

[aisling-saoirse]

Sultartangavirkjun Hydroelectric Plant - October 7th 2023

[littlebellesmama]

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[sysig]

#Now I just gotta figure out how to write and I'll be truly unstoppable haha

Monkey's paw curls, 9.5k into a fic later, no posts’ tags have been finished

[kamalkafir-blog]

Bitcoin Recovers After Steep Drop as ETF Outflows and Market Volatility Shape June’s Start

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[10bmnews]

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[kazifatagar]

Global Markets Falter as Trump’s 'Liberation Day' Looms, Bursa Malaysia Sees 23rd Week of Outflows

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[bitcoinmasterhub]

Bitcoin ETF Outflows: Understanding the Impact on Investors and the Market

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