#outofhope;

[hopslikerabbit]

@metalsinpile replied to your post “Been holding off on that NIKKE muse impulse but it...”:

you're welcome.

​I was already RPing Anis in the past this is unacceptable

[justtruthfulme]

Check out this post… "When Your Out Of Hope".

http://beingmeallthetime2012.blogspot.com/2024/09/when-your-out-of-hope.html

[hxpefulmuses]

On top of getting sick my whole family has been sick too, and this stresses me out since I've had so many losses last few years.

I have adhd that also worsens when my cycle kicks into overdrive which it did this week bringing on full discomfort.

On top of this my partner is stressed out, and that affects me by association. So apologies for random disappearances, and thank you to anyone who shows patience and understanding for those random disappearances.

I'll work on things I owe soon, probably even night time because I have a ton of insomnia at times >>;

[regiispruinae]

general tag drop

[myriadsofcorpses]

Pretty sure a whole shit-fuckton of people died when amassing on such rather small landscapes. The surface of the planet definitely got screwed down to less than half of what it originally was.

Do I need to include that? I’m sure you can imagine. Thinking about the past is fun, still so many things to work out~ ♪

[professorhoptoit-blog]

[ hello tumblr, glacie Still needs to be Stopped!

new post game hop!! would lost some more blogs to follow b/c Honestly i haven’t been rping in a while so idk who’s actually around heh ;;;; ]

[believinginhope]

//Okay but if Taichi still wears goggles at 22 Takeru better still wear dumb hats at 19

[monochromatic-hero-blog]

Starter call for OJ mans. Like this post, capping at three to thread with them!!

[whercyouexist]

@defyloyalty

|| i dunno, looks like he has the perfect hair for mopping.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[hxpefulmuses]

I’ve been sick the last few days so apologies on any delays on things. I’m going to try and take it easy in between resting.

[feebledetective]

[ EVERYONE! FROM THIS DAY ONWARD, ON THE 5TH OF MAY 2018, I FINALLY GOT MY ANGST CROWN BACK! PAPA BLESS, I AM THE ANGST QUEEN YET AGAIN! 

WE GOT @ctrlaltkibo AND @imperfectmusicfreak TO THANK! ]

[myriadsofcorpses]

Alot of things in Naglfar seem bleak, hopeless. People are suffering, the planet itself is dying, there’s no future.

But I still want to convey a feeling of true hope. Sometimes there is a speck of light where you’d least expect it, you just need to find it.

Quintet had lots of moments like I’m looking for in their games. To acchieve a perfect world, yet having no place for yourself in this perfection. A god should be content with people not praying because it shows that the god itself is not needed for the people to be happy. Like a child that grows into an adult and fends for themself.

That’s the kind of feeling I’m looking for.

[roguecaptain]

sometimes i’ve been feeling bad or even guilty for not being around but then i have to remind myself tumblr and rp in general is a hobby, it’s supposed to be just for fun.

and like my laptop still isn’t completely fixed, i’ve been getting sick off and on for the last couple weeks and that’s likely mostly from stress messing with my immune system because they’re piling more and more on me at work

so yeah, i’m not dead just not-- enough energy i guess?

[believinginhope]

//I’m going out for a while but it’s been a while so like/reblog this post for a starter or kick me if I owe you a reply and I’ll get to them when I get home!

[yevonalesca]

what was Yunalesca's home life like, who were her family members, and how did that effect her as an adult?

Sorry for being so late! But I answered it and it’s a little bit all over the place, but it’s a bit long so I’ll put it under a read more! I kinda touch on a lot of things, and I had to stop myself from getting too narrate-y, haha. Anyway, I hope this answers your question enough! If you want more clarification, I’d love to provide it ♥

As the daughter of Yu Yevon, the leader of Zanarkand, Yunalesca had lived a rather lavish life.  The easiest comparison I could make for her is that she would almost be like the princess equivalent of Zanarkand, ya feel me? Not spoiled, but that’s essentially what she was. Life came easy to her and she had little to worry about. But she was not materialistic, having taught to grow up as a political/spiritual leader, she genuinely wanted the best for Zanarkand, and she was more concerned about the people’s overall wellbeing as opposed to her own desires.

She very much followed in the footsteps of her father, being born into his apprenticeship. Her bloodline had been gifted with particularly strong sensitivity to pyre flies, making her another ideal candidate to become a summoner. As soon as she was old enough, Yu took her under his wing, training her to become just like him. She did not live a normal childhood, and so she matured quickly. She didn’t get out of their estate too much, and so she grew up with very biased and very limited ways of thinking. Though she desired the best for the people of Zanarkand, she had grown up with prejudice against the Bedohls, something that would be amplified when the Machina War begins, and more so in her life after death.

She had a companion and yes, you guessed it — it was a big ol’ snake! A basilisk, actually. The creatures had always intrigued her, and so she decided she would take one and make it her pet, if you will. Yunalesca also had a fascination with art, particularly statues. The more lifelike they seemed, the more she enjoyed them. But this fascination was pure, and solely based on an appreciation for the artistry. Her service in her unsent life would amplify this to freakier levels, but in life, Yunalesca would never petrify a living being to put into a gallery, at least without reason.

We don’t hear too much of her mother and the reason behind that is because she had died giving birth to Yunalesca. The death of her mother was difficult for her father, but he was never the most affectionate person, and by playing a large part in Zanarkand’s government, he did not allow himself to break down or grieve, as most people expected him to.  He would never marry or find love again, thus leaving Yunalesca as his one and only child and heir.

This put immense pressure on her, as you can imagine, but she found herself to be built for it. She spent most of her young life with her father, who personally trained her to become a summoner. When she got older, she would join him in meetings, acting as a sort of scribe, though it was more for her own education, rather than actual secretary work. She would learn a lot about how the city-state of Zanarkand would work, and though it was overwhelmingly confusing at first, after enough meetings and questions asked to her father, she began to gain a grasp on it. By the time she was 14, she was allowed to speak during meetings, voicing her opinions. Most of the council were older, and so their views would be considerably more conservative as opposed to a young Yunalesca’s more moderate/liberal views. She was blunt, truthful and outspoken, and was not afraid to go against her elders. She knew how they felt about her, believing someone so young shouldn’t be partaking in these meetings, but Yunalesca would not allow them to dismiss her voice just because of her age.

As an adult, she remained a powerful presence in meetings, sometimes dominating, with her father being the only person to successfully calm her down. She firmly believed that change was needed to better than quality of life for the citizens of Zanarkand, but she met opposition by the elder council members. Having been an only child, a lot of her social interaction was around people older than her, until she had met Zaon, who would introduce her to people around her age, though Zaon was still older than her.

When the war started, much of Yunalesca’s concern was to keep the people of Zanarkand safe, at all costs. But with knowledge of how strong Bevelle’s machina was, she began to lose hope. She didn’t want to see her people give their lives aimlessly, and actively sought ways to fight back against Bevelle, but each attempt would return a failure, only bringing more death and destruction to her home. 

[lapinsolitaire-blog1]

remember when i said i wouldn’t abandon this blog ! : D