#outofsarcasm;

[agentvharrison]

// I wrote a long post on fb about why it's been so hard to be here, and I'm tempted to copy it here.

Long story short, someone I thought I could trust and was crucial to my tumblr rp experience proved I was wrong to trust her. I asked her for support and was victim-blamed and gaslit instead - and then called abusive for being angry about it.

I've had a hard time returning here when that's hanging over my head, and the fallout has made it hard to trust anyone who knew both of us. I've already had supposed "friends" call me manipulative and passive aggressive for outright asking them if we were still on good terms. Apparently "I feel like you're angry with me, are you?" is now unacceptable.

This is NOT about anyone still following me. I should be clear about that. I just feel the need to admit that there's something beyond my personal issues that's a problem I need to deal with, because if I don't I'll think I'll be stuck.

I WANT to be back here. I love Vivian so fucking much. I love the muses she's interacted with! There are SO MANY stories to be told that she's a part of and I WANT TO TELL THEM.

And yes, a lot of it's on me. When I accidentally/subconsciously deleted Vivian's blog, I deleted 4+ years of character development and headcanons, and I feel like i can't come back without re-establishing that. That's on me. On my creative blocks, on my executive functioning issues, on my lack of spoons. And I honestly don't know how to fix those issues. I don't know if they CAN be fixed.

But I DO know that I want to be back here.

I just don't know how to.

Im working on it, though.

ETA: this is NOT me trying to push people to "pick a side". I'm not even saying who the other 'side' is, and I'm not going to. But after everything I've experienced and after everything the other party has said, I think I have the right to say I've been harmed, my feelings are justified, and that this is affecting me.

[tough-girl-sydney]

FUCK this week, I am so tired and so glad tomorrow is fucking Friday. I need the weekend to be here now.

[stcriestcld]

// You know what?  Fuck Pottermore; Dylan’s still developing but I think anyone who survived over 200 years as agender without knowing it was an option counts as Gryffindor.

[agentharrisonofshield-a]

Zen’s Holiday Cards

In last Monday’s cleaning spree I finally found my adult-coloring-holiday-season cards!

So I once again offer up to mutuals who I��ve at the least spoken to OOC once or twice, and who are comfortable giving me their address, the joy of a fun color-it-yourself holiday card in celebration of the seasonal holiday of your choosing!

I won’t hold onto anyone’s address once the cards are in the mail.  Promise promise.

Just like or comment and send the address via ask or IM.

[thestilesstilinski24]

So…kind of disappeared for a bit but may be back now. Anyways if anyone wants something, wants to do something come at me.

[rxsmyers-a]

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[necrxmancer]

@agentharrisonofshield:

#about Zen #outofsarcasm #ME AND SPOOKS #WE DON'T EVEN HAVE SIX PEOPLE #OR A SHOELACE #MAY WE PLEASE HAVE A SHOELACE?

You have you & Satan Fish, and I got a Tom muse THAT I AM STILL TOO NERVOUS TO WRITE FOR!!!

The Spooks/MI-5 fandom is...so sad and tiny...

[sarcasmandstarwars]

Hello friends. I’m not sure who all is still active who followed me before. I may eventually start this blog back up, but for now, catch me over at @illdosxmething .

[ohsolikeabestiary]

stiles would want duran to be free.  

[thereforall-archived]

#I do not have a house #I do not have a daughter #I'm just going to go on Skype and be all 'wtf' now #like seriously #what is this shit? #I feel so attacked? #in other news Heather is hilarious you should all love her #look at this little shit #wtf Heather #outofsarcasm #tbd

These are some beautiful tags, and I need to save them for reasons.

[agentvharrison]

// "Under the circumstances, they were reasonable questions. 'Get to Medical,' I told her. I didn’t want to answer any reasonable questions. If I was wrong, I’d probably be dead, and that was bad enough. Being stupid and dead would just be that much worse." --Network Effect, The Murderbot Diaries

Murderbot and Vivian are actually the same person confirmed.

[tough-girl-sydney]

Can I just say that this is the first time I have been pissed about owning an xbox? Literally have had one since high school and finally got to freaking watch The Last of Us show on HBO and holy FUCKING SHIT now I need a playstation!! 

Also, the similarities between my OC and Ellie just connects me to her character even more, please stop me from making a new Tumblr for that wonderful child cause I’ll do it, and I’ll have all the punny jokes and vulgar language and trauma you could ask for, I mean it!

[stcriestcld]

Okay actually going to be here tomorrow. Got distracted by The Silt Verses. And starting a second job.

[agentharrisonofshield-a]

// So I’ve just thrown Vivian’s current bio, which I’m unhappy with, up on the new blog, just so I can archive this one already.

That being said my brain isn’t going to leave me alone until I fix the damn thing.  So, question I should have thought of earlier:

What do you guys look for in someone’s bio?  Particularly the bio of an OC or a character from a fandom you’re not familiar with?

[rxsmyers-a]

wxldchxld replied to your post

ROS COME BACK TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND DEMANDS

// NO SPACE AWAITS SHE’S ALWAYS WANTED TO GO TO SPACE IT IS TIME TO GO TO SPACE BECK.  JOIN HER IN SPACE.  SO MANY NEW ANIMALS TO MEET.

[asarcasticdefence-blog]

[ out of sarcasm; HI SWEETHEART. YEAH TWINS. SORRY I HAD TO GO OUT PFFT BUT ILU STILL ]