#p: jake 003

[reneebrxndxn]

closed starter for @jakehawk

location: playground

It had been a crazy week for Renee. Honestly, Renee thought the craziest thing that could happen would have been the whole Council position, and given the meeting regarding Cole and the hole had exhausted her enough. But then Andy arrived in town and everything changed. It was a miracle - a god damn miracle. She would never forget seeing him in the precinct for the first time in four years. How she couldn't believe her eyes until she cleaned the blood away from his face and she saw his eyes and heard him speak her name. The whirlwind of emotions that coursed through her had been overwhelming and honestly, they still did.

For the most part, Renee had stuck to the clinic. She had managed to convince Ermano to let her move him there instead of keeping him in the precinct so long as she kept an eye on him. Not that she wanted to leave because if she left he might disappear and this would be a whole, cruel joke. But she had her boys that she still had to take care of. Angie had been a godsend and promised to watch them when they couldn't be at the daycare and she still needed to be at the clinic. After all, she had told Ermano she could keep an eye on him.

Right now, though, Andy was asleep and Val was doing one of her shifts at the clinic so Renee was taking this opportunity to take her boys to the playground. She felt bad for not being around a lot right now but, amazingly enough, her boys were understanding. She hadn't quite told them why she was away for long periods of time just yet - she wanted Andy to be more awake and coherent before she brought the boys by. As they ran around on the jungle gym Renee heard the familiar echo of the Hawks running towards the playground and when she turned, she spotted Jake following behind them. Her face flushed at the sight of him and she found herself tucking her hair behind her ear before waving.

This was another complication that Renee was currently dealing with - her feelings for Jake now that her husband was here. She had already made things even more complicated by going to see Jake. Did she feel guilty about it? Yeah, but she didn't regret it. But she honestly had no idea what she was going to do. She knew that Jake said he would be patient as she figured out everything but she didn't know how long that was going to take and she felt bad. It wasn't fair to string him along if she was just going to go back to Andy, but on the other hand, she knew that she had feelings for Jake....what a mess this was. When Jake got closer she moved over on the bench to make room for him. "Hey...I guess great minds think alike, huh?" she said with a soft sort of laugh.

[davxdalexander]

David regarded Jake for a moment before nodding. He could have sworn it was some reference or something...but then again, David wasn't all that well versed in pop culture references. So he let it be before nodding. "Yeah. Now, normally the organs could be good for resources as well, but when ya got a big catch like this, it's easier to transport with less weight."

David stood up and wiped his knife on the side of his boot before sheathing it and pointing at the boar. "You're gonna field dress it. You'll want to cut down from the neck to the abdomen so you reach in and pull out the organs in the chest cavity. Be mindful of the intestines because they will spill out as soon as you get down there. It's gonna be a mess but you'll want to avoid getting any excess juice on ya. Not unless you want to be smelling like pig guts for the rest of the day."

Jake took a moment to give a prayer of thanks as the boar's life came to an end, just something he did whenever he had to kill something in order to feed himself and others. It didn't feel right to not do such a thing and if David had any thoughts about it, he didn't seem to voice them now. Instead he asked for Jake to pay attention as he began the process of field dressing the animal.

Jake was pretty sure he knew the basics of field dressing but David was a pro and Jake wasn't so full of himself as to think he couldn't learn more. He had learned a lot from his impromptu hunt with Orion but there was still room for improvement.

He positioned himself so he could get a good view of what David was doing when David turned his head and mentioned Jake's possible slip-up. "That wasn't a joke. It was an observation," he retorted. He nodded back to the boar. "What do you do after draining the blood? Gotta take out some of the organs, right?" See, Jake could take this hunting thing seriously when he wanted to!

[jaeyunluvbot]

soft spot

synopsis .ᐟ your sorority's exec board meetings always happen at the campus starbucks, so it’s hard not to notice the cute barista who keeps sneaking glances your way. falling for him was definitely not something you included in your five year plan, but who are you to deny fate?

pairing .ᐟ jake sim x fem!reader

genre .ᐟ college au, barista au, strangers to lovers, humor, fluff, downbad!jake

warnings .ᐟ swearing, suggestive language, alcohol consumption, maybe like a little bit of angst but idk, slight adult themes?

status .ᐟ ongoing

taglist .ᐟ open, send an ask or comment to be added

notes .ᐟ ok guys ik yall are tired of me starting SMAUs and not finishing them but trust this time i will finish it, i'm not gonna post this until i have a few chapters written at least, and i'll try to get one or two chapters done a week, so hopefully i will be successful. also i love keshi and frank ocean so expect many references to them in this fic :p

CHAPTERS .ᐟ

profiles zta main slayers 💌, bad girls club 💋, floor 07

001 freaky ass barista

002 #needthat

003 madame president

004 semi-formal

005 reconnect with nature

006 i'm pissed

007 count ur days

008 frank ocean

009 geeked asf

010 wear a non ugly outfit

[sieuneo]

QUIET ON SET ¿? a jake sim smau

[ description ] く for as long as you could remember, you’ve always loved movies. you were fascinated with how a crew of people could make a story come to life. however, as important as it was to show a story, you believed it was just as important to tell it also. you proposed an idea with the project managers at hybe entertainment, which they agreed to. you were going to produce your first documentary about a group called enhypen. you tried to stay focused on the project but that became hard as soon as jake sim, a member of the group, started begging for your attention. between defending your honor against his fans and actually producing the documentary, you suddenly started to regret pitching the idea. ₊☆

[ genre ] く idol!au, sm!au, fluff, comedy (i hope!), romance durrr, documentary style fic ₊☆

[ pairings ] く sim jaeyun x reader. idol x producer. ₊☆

[ warnings ] く cussing. some inaccuracies bc idk some things about the entertainment industry. many written parts for the interviews in the docu. rumors. engenes being weird what’s new. some dn jokes. ₊☆

[ extras ] く jihan (weeekly), yunjin & kazuha (le sserafim), maknae line (txt), danielle (new jeans) ₊☆

[ author’s note ] く good gawsh that description took forevs to write. i don’t even want to read over it 😭 but anyway enjoy!!! p.s. i found out how to do custom colors on the text!!!!!!!! i’m so good at this now i think :P ₊☆

[ started ] く july 11th, 2023. ₊☆

[ taglist ] く @equalheart @geombyu @aernx @i2lain @ddazed-lhs @astrid-potato @enhaz1 | open (you can send an ask, comment on this post, pm or anything else to join!) ₊☆

[ status ] く ongoing. ₊☆

PROFiLES ¿? famous ppl! 👽 : hybe homeslices 🤓

CHAPTERS ¿? 001 : we debuted first 002 : fame era?? 003 : enhypen twt just followed me. 004 : this barbie does not like studio lighting! 005 : australian men are always hot /srs

© sieuneo. 2023

[imexperiencinggrowthgetoverit]

Stranger Things Canon

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Relevant (& not) Information About the Show

(All Canon Information From *The Wikia Timeline, Show, or Books/Comics. I’m Only Human So I May Have Made Mistakes)

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Y- Year Born

A- Age in Season 1/1983**

N- Name/Identifier

S- Season Introduced****

?- Unknown Information***

x- Dead

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Y A N S

‘19 66 Victor 4

‘23 x/62 Virginia 4

?? ?? Sam Owens 2

?? ?? Brenner 1

?? ?? Wayne 4

‘38 47 Ted 1

‘38 47 Yuri 4

‘42 43 Joyce 1

‘42 43 Hopper 1

?? ?? Karen 1

‘44 41 Murray 2

‘44 x/12 Alice 4

?? ?? Neil 2

?? ?? Sam Mayfield 0

?? ?? Alexei 3

?? ?? Susan 2

‘47 38 Becky 2

‘47 38 Henry 4

‘47 38 Bob 2

‘48 37 Clarke 1

?? x/?? Benny 1

‘51 x/34 Terry 1

‘64 21 Kali 2

‘65 18 Eddie 4

‘66 17 Steve 1

‘67 16 Argyle 4

‘67 16 Eden 4

‘67 16 Jonathan 1

‘67 16 Jason 4

‘67 16 Tommy 1

‘67 16 Heather 3

‘67 16 Carol 1

‘67 16 Nancy 1

‘67 16 Billy 2

‘67 x/16 Barbara 1

‘68 15 Patrick 4

‘68 15 Robin 3

‘68 15 Chrissy 4

‘69 14 Fred 4

‘69 14 James 1

‘69 14 Troy 1

‘71 12 Angela 4

‘71 12 Jake 4

‘71 12 Stacey 4

‘71 12 Max 2

‘71 12 Dustin 1

‘71 12 Mike 1

‘71 12 Elle 1

‘71 12 Lucas 1

‘71 12 Will 1

‘71 x/12 Sara 1

‘71 12 Suzie 3

‘75 7 Erica 2

‘80 2 Holly 1

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E- Experiment Identity

N- Name/Identifier

A- Age in 1983

I- Important Information

P- Known Powers

C- Major Connections

H- Health Status in 1983

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E - N (A, I, P, C, H)

001 - Henry/Vecna (38, Telekinesis, Cognikinesis)

002 - (25, Telekinesis, died 1979)

003 - Ricky (25, Pathokinesis, Alive)

003 - (died 1979)

004 - (25, Telekinesis, Telepathy, Alive)

005 - (died 1979)

006 - Francine (25, Precognition, Died 1978)

006 - (Telekinesis, died 1979)

007 - (died 1979)

008 - Kali Prasad (21, Illusions, Rainbow Room, Alive)

009 - Jamie (17, twin to Marcy, Heat, Rainbow Room, Alive)

009 - (possibly died 1979)

009.5 - Marcy (17, twin to Jamie, Psychic?, Rainbow Room, Alive)

010 - (*****ESP, died in 1979)

011 - Elle/Jane Hopper (12, Telekinesis, Scrying, Rainbow Room, Alive)

012 - (possibly died 1979)

013 - (possibly died 1979)

014 - (possibly died 1979)

015 - (possibly died 1979)

016 - (twin to 017, died 1979)

017 - (twin to 016, died 1979)

018 - (possibly died 1979)

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*The Wikia Timeline

**If they are Dead in 1983 then I’ve included that w/ the age they would have been

***If their year/age is unknown I include them where I believe they would be but is not an accurate depiction

****0 means they were never introduced visually in show

*****What ESP Means

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Once again I want to emphasize I may have missed or mistaken information here. Please make your own list using this one if you want to see changes made.

[oceanbreaks]

            T A S K    T H R E E   :   Q U E S T I O N N A I R E

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 001. GENERAL.

does your character have any nicknames ? nope and she’ll knife emoji if u try.

when was your character born ? may 21st, 1989.

where was your character born ? valdez, colorado.

is your character allergic to anything ? nope, feck off allergies.

does your character have any illnesses ? no physical illnesses, prob a lot of undiagnosed mental shite.

what is your character’s mbti type ?  istj, the logisticisnannandjg 

what is your character’s economic status ? lower class.

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 002. APPEARANCE.

what is the color of your character’s eyes ? chocolatey brown, yom.

what is the color and texture of your character’s hair ? flat and lifeless like her.

how tall is your character ? five seven we stan.

what is your character’s body type ? string bean.

does your character have any scars ? anyways …

what is your character’s post prominent feature ? her entire face she’s beautiful ok ):  

does your character have any body modifications ? nope, nothing. plain jane.

what is your character’s clothing style ? loose fitting tops, tight fitting bottoms. plain colours b/c [ jake peralta vc ] ya boring.

what does your character’s voice sound like ? unnervingly calm.

what does your character smells like ? ragrets.

what are some unique mannerisms ( talking with their hands, accents, talking fast, etc ) your character has ? unlike bobby she just doesn’t move , she stares a lot.

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 003. FAMILY.

does your character have any siblings ? nope, sad.

what are the names of your character’s parents ? are they still alive ? her father’s mizz keisha and her mother is named winona, she’s still kicking probably to her dismay.

does your character have any children ? god no.

does your character have a spouse ? nope.

who is your character’s favorite family member ? her grandma, she’d so anything for her.

did they ever live with their family ? if so, how old were they when they left home ? lives with her gma, iconic duo.

does your character want to have children ? or do they want more, if they already have them ? she thinks she’d be a terrible mother so no probably not.

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 004. FAVORITES.

season: winter, cold like her smol heart.

curse word: doesn’t really curse, but sometimes fuck feels good.

food: eh.

book: she hasn’t read since she was a kid, maybe like to kill a mockingbird or some other curriculum shit.

artist: she rly likes any edm or house music that she can jus kinda be out of it to.

animal: fish probably, she rly wants some but hasn’t gotten around to getting any.

tv show: whatever’s on when she gets home, usually some sort of late night show.

movie: doesn’t care for movies that much but nic spark rom coms do get to her.

social media: nope.

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 005. PERSONALITY.

is your character street-smart, book-smart, intelligent, intellectual, slow-witted ? street smart because she had to be, but still definitely not the fastest.

what does your character want from a partner ? what do they think and feel of sex ? to feel safe, support. a home in a sense. but not clingy because sometime she just gotta brood on her own uk , it be like that . she changes her mind about how she feels abt sex like ten times a day so.

what are your character’s weaknesses ? she’s literally just one big weakness, and she knows it , so ig that’s a strength. check & mate.

how well does your character accept / own up to their own mistakes ? how do they deal with the mistakes of others ? owns up, but never wants to talk abt it again, and extends the same courtesy to those who fuck up.

is your character pragmatic ? responsible ? reckless?  i looked up the definition of pragmatic, ye thats definitely her.

how is your character’s imagination ? daydreaming a lot ? worried most of the time ? idk if she daydreams or if she’s just out of it half the time but wey hey.

is your character aware of who they are ? of their strengths and weaknesses ? yeah very aware, she can go with the tide that way.

how they react when facing a stranger’s suffering ?what about the suffering of their loved ones ? with awkwardness and sympathy that never quite translates right . it doesn’t matter who you are .

how do they feel about their physical body ? ’tis what it is, she doesn’t have any qualms with it.

what do other people think your character’s worst quality is ? that she’s bland af , dry chicken.

is your character an introvert or an extrovert ? introvert.

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 006. EXPERIENCES.

has your character ever been arrested ? nearly, didn’t get her tho ; p

has your character ever cheated on a partner ? well maybe but thas prolly only b/c the ‘ what are we ’ talk was never had and thus , miscommunication ensued.

has your character ever been cheated on by a partner? lack of communication rly is the silent killer.

has your character ever been in love ? how did it turn out ? eh , maybe not.

has your character ever had sex ? what was their first time like ? yeah it was fine , at some college party w/e.

what was your character’s first party like ? can’t remember it.

who was your character’s first love ? redacted cos i’m too tired to head canon.

what is their best childhood memory ? what about the worst ? knitting with her grandma, fuckin loser. and just u know parent tingz xd

what’s the most terrible thing that ever happened to your character ? when ya girl accidentally killedt her dad, that shit hunted.

what are some past occupations your character has had, if any ? grocery store, save-a-lots , always in our hearts.

what are their most embarrassing memory ? unreciprocated crushes in college sad , she’s so pretty who wld ever.

have they ever done charity work ? the grocery store once partnered with a charity that took five dollars off her pay check every month so…

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 007. QUIRKS.

does your character drink ? do they take drugs ? yes, and rarely.

what is your character’s most prized possession ? probably some piece of jewelry her grandma gave her.

what are three things you can always find in your character’s wallet / purse ? chapstick, old receipts, forms of contraception for the escorts just in cases.

what are your character’s bad habits ? biting nails, scratching at her skin, tugging at her hair uk the drill, the fun stuff.

is your character a night owl or early bird ? both, yet still manages to sleep an abhorrent amount.

do they prefer crunchy or smooth peanut butter ? smooth tf.

do they prefer netflix or hulu ? neither.

do they prefer cats or dogs ? dogs.

are they left handed, right handed or ambidextrous ? right handed, basic bitch.

⋆ ◦ ° ☾ 008. RANDOM.

did your character like school ? what was their favorite subject ? they liked school for friends and to get away from home, but academically ? hah .

is your character good at their job ? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

what is your character’s dream job ? to be a dancer on broadway or some shit.

what is your character afraid of ? what keeps them up at night ? that she never gonna stop feeling this way ):

what did your character’s childhood home look like ? was it in valdez ? it was, but it was sketch . not nice at all . probably had asbestos.

what is your character’s level of comfort with technology ? it’s aight, she likes social media, or like scrolling thru and hating her like uk.

what is a talent your character thinks they have but is very wrong about ? pimping probably djhfgkfg she’s not awful , but she’s not as cut out for it as she thinks she is .

what is a talent your character actually has ? dancing, talented bean.

what does your character’s home look like ? her grandma’s home is small but cozy, lots of throw blankets.

[crisisoninfintefandoms]

@i-am-a-bit-squeemish​ actually sent me some fandom asks!  Yay!  Apparently they couldn’t find my asks, which...I don’t know how tumblr works so, I’ll have to look into that to see what’s up, haha!  Anyway, here goes my answers!

001 | Fandom: DS9

Favorite character: Garak.  Predictable, but man I love that disaster lizard.

Least Favorite character: Probably Kai Winn.  Dukat is awful, but at least I find my fun to watch, lol.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): Garak/Bashir is my number one by a long shot, following that in no particular order: Odo/Quark, Jake/Ziyal, Odo/Kira (I coulda done without it, but I honestly think they did their romance about as well as they could have) and Rom/Leeta.

Character I find most attractive: This is a tough one.  Bashir maybe?  Or Kira.  Idk, I’m not really “into” any of the characters like that, lol.    

Character I would marry: Bashir.  Well, season 7 Bashir anyway.  He would make the best husband :-P

Character I would be best friends with: my real life best friend probably most resembles Kira so, let’s go with that :-P

a random thought: Man, Enabran Tain was a shitty dad.  

An unpopular opinion: I kind of hate mirror verse :-(

my canon OTP: Garashir :-D

Non-canon OTP: Garashir :-(

most badass character: I want to say Garak...yeah, I’ll say Garak :-P

pairing I am not a fan of: Bashir/Ezri.  And Garak/Ziyal.  Both of theose are just a world of WHAT???

character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): Hmm.  Jadzia.  I just think they could have done a lot more with her. There was so much intersting stuff that could have been explored with the symbiote, particularly in terms of gender and sexuality, but they were too preoccupied with make her the “cool hot girl” most of the time.

favourite friendship: Garak and Odo.  I’m not sure you could call it a “friendship” exactly, but they come to an understanding that I think is really interesting for such contrasting characters.  

character I want to adopt or be adopted by: Sisko is the best dad :-D

002 | Ship:  They asked for Garashir and Hannigram, so here goes!

when of if I started shipping it. Hannigram: when I first watched WotL.  Garshir: ...pretty much from the first time Garak appeared on screen, lol.  

my thoughts: idk, right now I’m kinda distracted by how Hannigram is kindof a way more fucked up version of Garashir, lol.

What makes me happy about them: Hannigram: IT’S JUST SO BEAUTIFUL!!! Garashir: How these two idiots are just so in love :-D

What makes me sad about them: Hannigram: That I’m pretty sure there is no real happy ending for them.  Garashir: that they are such idiots who can’t seem to realize how in love they both are :-(

things done in fanfic that annoys me: I try not to complain about fanfic, but since this is a questions asked...Hannigram: I’m actually not a fan of “straight Will is wierded out by sex with a dude.”  I’ve seen it done well, but to me it doesn’t jive with the character.  Garashir: I get why it’s tempting, and I kind of do it too, but it kinda bugs me when authors use Garak and/or Bashir to complain about what they don’t like about famous works of literature.  I am aware this is a very specific pet peeve, lol.   

things I look for in fanfic: ...BDSM.  For both.  I’m a kinky fuck.  

My kinks: Oh, TOO MANY TO LIST.  I’ll try to pick only one per ship that is actually for reasons that are somewhat specific to them.  Let’s see.  Hannigram: puppy play, with Hannibal as Will’s puppy.  Garashir: Dom!Bashir, specifically in Bashir being surprisingly imposing AND nurturing and Garak being WAY into it. 

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: UGH, NO, I CAN’T!  Okay, okay, let’s see...Garak/Parmak isn’t terrible.  I can kind of get with Will going back to Molly.  Hannibal/Bedelia is okay.  Bashir...hmm.  Oh!  Maybe Data?  Idk, I don’t like this question, lol.  

My happily ever after for them: Garashir: easy.  Living on Cardassia with a dozen Cardassian orphans.  Hannigram:  I guess evading the law forever while occasionally murdering people?  Idk. Maybe their happily ever after is just admitting to themselves how much they love each other and then being okay with whatever happens after that, even if it’s objectively terrible.   

003 | Character: Julian Bashir

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Garak.  That’s it.  That’s all of them.  

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Bashir/O’Brien is my ultimate BroTP for him.  

My unpopular opinion about this character: Not sure if this qualifies, but I wish he’d been gay on the show.  Not bi, gay.  So there’d have been no Jadzia crush, no weird Leeta thing, no Ezri endgame, and all of his guest star love interests like his ballet dance ex-fiance would have been men.  I don’t really have a reason, other than just that I hate his romance stuff with Jadzia, Leeta and Ezri and would happily have him be gay so that they never happened.    

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Um, admitting his feelings for Garak?  Haha, no but seriously, I do wish he’d gone to Cardassia at the end of the show to help.  It would have been a natural conclusion for his character.  

my het ship: if he must be with a woman, I kind of liked alien who couldn’t walk in gravity.  

my fem/slash ship: Garashir, all the way.  

my OTP: ...Still Garashir.  I may not be undestanding these questions.

my OT3: I’ll take Bashir/Garak/Parmak in a pinch.  

my cross over ship: I don’t do much crossover, tbh.  Does Bashir/Data count?

my kink: SecretDom!Bashir is my fav :-D

a head cannon fact: ...that he totally does go to Cardassia post finale.  Fuck you canon.  

my gender bend: Not sure what this means?  Anyway, I’ve seen enough TransMan!Bashir around that I can get with that.    

004 | send me 2 fandoms and I will give yo my crossover OTP: DS9 and Hannibal

Hoo boy, that’s...that’s intense.  Never though about that, lol.  Hmm...well, I’d get a kick out of Garak, Bashir, Will and Hannibal just having dinner together and chatting, but I don’t think I’d make an OTP out of any crossover there.  

Okay, after thinking long and hard, I have two options here.  One: Jake/Reba, for the pairing that I actually think would make a good couple (grown up Jake, obvs).  Two: Dukat/Bedelia, for the pairing that would be a complete clusterfuck when you just want to WATCH THE WORLD BURN.  

[orbyssarchives]

The one update that didn’t happen in November as originally intended

Back in the years of old (2017)…

During the month of Inktober, I posted an announcement some big update planned for the middle of November. As fate would have it, the Ides of My Month passed by and nothing went up.

It was a cold Inktober

For a while, I succeeded in keeping up with Inktober’s tight deadlines; but I was dissatisfied. I got off too a rocky start, daunted by the ages-old question of “what the FUCK do I draw?” Then, a week into Inktober, I came across 2pblog‘s own super gorgeous Inktober illustrations.

They reminded of Katsuya Terada’s old Legend of Zelda illustrations, whose style I sought to emulate and adapt into my own before I finished college. Having found a niche that I was comfortable drawing in, I tried to create a few illustrations of Mage Punk scenes along similar veins as theirs. Taking up, at most, half of a 5″x 8″ sketchbook page, they were meant to be small illustrations that I could finish in a timely manner.

Neuroticism is a Terrible Hubris

Despite their small size,, my drawings still proved to be a little too ambitious. Inktober’s daily deadlines and my own tight schedule made a tiring combination. The plan was to finish the pen and ink line art in October; then, color them in that first two weeks of November. Ultimately, I only managed to finish 17 of the 31 planned drawings for the month. Colors were done in December. The holiday season wore me down until I was unable to work on much of anything at all.

I kept fairly active on Twitter and Instagram, where first I posted the colored illustrations after finishing them; but that was about the most that I could manage at the time. I was still proud.

You can see the rest of these drawings in the new Gallery page! Check em out!

Then, November was over and suddenly, it was 2018.

The 18th year of the Third Millennium began with a few miscellaneous drawings here and there. I worked to get back into the flow of working regularly. I also began wrapping up work on some revisions for the comic pages that had already been posted on this site. Chipping away at my goals for the year was a slow going process, but everything was going smoothly otherwise. I’d taken some time off work in February to take photos of the buttons I was selling at cons last year. Along with a little research, I was starting prep for opening on online store and it’s possible that I over value presentation. I thought the photos looked pretty neat.

My phone dropped dead on me a few weeks ago.

As suddenly as that sub-headline, Phillip Mk V (my phone) just shut off on me and wouldn’t turn back on; And preparations for opening up a proper online shop were suddenly derailed because I didn’t have my phone automatically backing photos up into a cloud. Disheartened by my loss, I began working on what would eventually turn out to be the finishing touches on this website.

The Big Site Update (Part 1) The one update that didn't happen in November as originally intended Back in the years of old (2017)...

[reneebrxndxn]

Renee knew she was going to need to tell more people about Henry, especially now that she couldn't ask any of the raiders to take her to any medical stockpiles they found. It wasn't that she didn't want to hide it, it was more that she felt like it was her burden to bear. Stupid, yes, but after being the responsible one for so long and taking on everything, Renee found it harder and harder to ask for help. But Jake's offer to be on the lookout was greatly appreciated and she let out a relieved breath as her shoulders relaxed just a bit. "I appreciate that, thank you."

It honestly seemed like everything had come crashing down all at once. It was just wave after wave of trials that she had to deal with and she often felt like she was drowning. She wanted to scream sometimes or take a full on mental break day where she didn't have anything to worry about. She wanted to spend a day with just Jake without worrying about repercussions from being seen with him. But she couldn't do that and she couldn't ask Jake to do that either. It put him in just a bad spot as her. So as much as she wanted to lean against his shoulder to find some comfort, she resisted, even if it pained her.

And it was like Jake had read her mind or sensed it off of her. Even though she didn't feel like it, Jake was telling her everything she wished she could believe. But he was making good points. There were good things and her boys were happy. That would always be the most important thing. So long as her boys were taken care of. "You make me sound so much more put together than how I actually feel," she laughed softly as she smiled at him.

Before Jake could start making guesses about what his and Renee's kids were plotting about, a nasty coughing sound echoed through the playground. Oliver, Renee's eldest, brought over his little brother, Henry, to their mother. The poor little guy was wheezing and Jake suspected it was something to do with asthma. His suspicions were all but confirmed as Renee retrieved an inhaler and administered a dose from it to Henry. After a few moments, Henry's wheezing subsided and he went back to playing with the others.

Jake turned his attention to Renee as she explained more about her son's condition. "I can keep an eye out for inhalers during hunts. I mean: it's unlikely I'll find any since we tend to stay away from places where inhalers are usually found but you get what I mean, yeah?"

Renee had been dealing with a lot. That could be applied to the whole town, everyone was going through something, but Jake was closest with Renee and so had a prime view of the shit she was trying to get through up close too. He wanted to help her, make things easier. He also wanted to take her into his arms and tell her everything will be OK. That last one would only complicate things.

"You know you're doing an amazing job considering, well, every-fucking-thing, right?" He told her. "I'm not just saying that. I mean it. Your kids are loved and safe. Despite having arguments with shelving units, you're physically in good health. Andy is back. Your family is together and in a safe place. Everything else can wait, y'know?" It stung to mention Renee's husband but Jake tried his best to pay no mind to that. He swallowed back that stinging sensation and gave Renee a smile. It might not feel like it but you do have this."

[reneebrxndxn]

"Jigglypuff? I don't know, Jake, I don't think I can ever work that seamlessly into any sentence. You might be asking too much." She also knew she did not have the comedic flair like Jake did. He could easily work a pun or two into any conversation. Her? Not so much. She was not a comedian like Jake. But she would certainly give it her best shot. If not to make up for her bag attempt but just to get him to laugh like that again.

Renee hummed a bit as she looked over at the huddle and noticed the kids muttering and glancing back at them. Erin and Oliver seemed to be motioning with their hands before leading the troop to the jungle gym when they realized Jake and Renee were watching them. "I'm sure we'll find out eventually," she mused with a smirk as she turned back to look at Jake. She knew her boys and she knew the Hawks. They were devious little devils.

Although her head snapped back to look back at the boys when she heard a deep cough. She recognized it almost instantly. Oliver was already taking Henry's hand and brining him over to her. "Mom, he's doing it again," Oliver explained. Not like a tattle tale, no. Renee and Oliver had had a conversation about Henry and his condition. "Oh, come here, baby," Renee muttered, picking Henry up as he coughed again and putting him in her lap. Oliver was already running back to the Hawks as Renee rubbed his back and reached into her coat pocket to pull out the inhaler. "Just like we practiced, okay, honey?"

Renee brought the apparatus to his mouth and when he inhaled, she pressed down on the cannister. "One...two...three....good job, baby." She pocketed the canister and hugged him close to her before looking up at Jake. She quickly remembered she hadn't had a chance to tell him about this new situation. "Are you okay, Henry?" Henry nodded against her shoulder. "Did you want to go back and play with Ollie and your friends?" Once again he nodded so she smiled and kiss his cheek. "I love you, Henry-bug." "Love you too, Mommy."

Renee let him go and watched him run back to his friends. Oliver was the first to reach out and wrap his arm around him as he pulled him into the hug. "Henry has asthma," she finally said, keeping her eyes on the boys for a moment before finally glancing back to Jake. "Or at least, I think so. He's started having a deep cough more and more often. I won't know until I figure out how to rule out some things but I'm fairly certain that's what it is."

And just like that, Jake was laughing again. Renee's Pokemon reference really was terrible; much appreciated but terrible. However, it was enough to help Jake come back to a more light hearted version of himself, one that wasn't still nursing hurt feelings and pining for someone he could potentially never have.

"Jesus, Renee!" He exclaimed as his laughter subsided. He shook his head at her but there was a smirk clearly evident on his face. "Yeah, I'm gonna say it: that was awful, just awful. I know for a fact you can do so much better than that. Next time: I want you to work in Jigglypuff seamlessly into a sentence to make up for this transgression."

Jake had to agree: he had missed this too. Just the two of existing together, not worrying about the consequences of their actions and how they might effect other people. Just two friends hanging out and shooting the breeze. This was giving him much needed hope that they would find their way through all of this mess eventually.

"Yeah, I missed this too," he said before adding, "but I haven't missed those guys doing that weird scheming thing. What do you think they're plotting this time?" Out of the corner of his vision, Jake spied the five kids all huddled together. He caught sight of Erin pointing at him and Renee. "I think we might be at the centre of whatever it is they're planning, judging by the way they keep glancing at us."

[davxdalexander]

When David had first started hunting all those years ago, this had always been the hardest part - the final kill stroke. He had felt guilty killing the animal, especially so close and watching the life leave its eyes, but he remembered what his Uncle used to tell him - death is inevitable, at least you made it quick and clean. He didn’t know if those words would do anything to settle Jake as he came down from the adrenaline high that came from the experience of being chased down by a boar. The second the boar stopped moving David undid the rope from around him but kept it ready - they were gonna need it to carry the big guy home.

David gave Jake his moment as he pulled out his own knife to do a quick field dressing. He would rather Jake pay attention so he could see how he did it but Jake was still pretty fresh to this so he figured he’d let him get it out of his system before trying to show him anything. “When you’re done, get over here. You’re gonna need to learn to clean your kills.” He slid the knife along the artery of its neck so the blood could drain and was waiting until he heard Jake’s comment. Slowly his head turned and he glanced at him with a nonchalant look. “I thought the deal was no jokes on the next hunt?” he pointed out. It wasn’t mean, just very matter-of-factly.

Jake didn't waste any time once David had given his new set of orders. He shouldered his bow and climbed down the tree. By the time he had done that, David had managed to somewhat subdue the boar. As Jake approached them both, he could see the boar was still furious about this whole situation but there wasn't a lot he could do about it now.

Jake nodded as David told him what to do next. He got his knife out of the holster on his thigh and held it firmly in his grip. Without any further comment, Jake drove his knife deep into the boar's neck. The boar tried to kick its legs one last time but with a heavy sigh, it was gone. "What the actual fucking fuck, man?" Jake asked, not expecting an answer, just letting off some of the tension from that experience.

"At least bacon's back on the menu, huh?"

[reneebrxndxn]

“Oh, I’m sure you did plenty of research for your role,” she mused, glad to see his face was still very much on his face. Had she briefly worried that maybe she had destroyed the moment with the callback to their first night? Oh, absolutely, especially when he wiped his face with his hand. But it was still there and she was going to take that as a momentary win. And he seemed quite proud of her catch of his pokemon reference and even if it wasn’t the greatest, she had to come back with, “Well, I gotta try and catch them all, don’t I?”

Oh that was so bad. That was seven layers of bad. That was go into a corner and think about what you did kind of bad. And yet, she couldn’t help but laugh as she felt how cringey the reference was. It started as a laugh through her nose and eventually it spread through her face and her smile felt more natural. “Oh God, that was so bad,” she muttered through her laughs, her hands cradling both sides of her face to hide the flush of embarrassment from how absolutely terrible that was. “You can say it - that was really, really bad.”

For a second she glanced at her kids and noticed how they had all huddled again and were occasionally glancing back at them. She had a sneaky suspicion they were discussing something about them. Her hands fell from her face for a moment and came to rest on her lap before turning back to look at Jake. “I’ve missed this, y’know. Sitting, talking, laughing…..watching Erin and Oliver come up with some evil scheme.” She motioned to them with her head without looking so the kids wouldn’t notice that she had noticed. “I needed this.”

It was a glorious sight to see Renee smile again. She had tried to cover it up but Jake had seen it. He found himself smiling brightly back at her and just for a moment, everything that was making things awkward between them could be forgotten. This moment wasn't going to last forever and Jake wanted to hold onto it for as long as possible.

But it was never going to be long enough, in his opinion. Renee mentioned 'cheesecake' and Jake's smile faltered. He tried to hide this from Renee by wiping his hand over his mouth and looking away briefly. Her merely mentioning the word cheesecake brought back memories of their first night together and... It wasn't worth dwelling on. So he fixed his face and turned back to face her again, smile back in place as if nothing had happened.

Best for him to focus on things that didn't evoke memories of that night so he skipped over the cheesecake thing. "Listen, I did a lot of research for Inspector Bulbasaur so I'm gonna make use of it whenever possible, OK? But well done for picking up on the Weedle reference. Not many people would've caught that one."

[reneebrxndxn]

The second she heard his loud laugh she smiled and pinned her lips together to muffle the laugh. And in case that didn’t work, she covered her mouth to help hide the sound. Not that she didn’t want him to hear it but he had already drawn the attention of the kids and like him, she knew that if the kids caught them laughing they were bound to get curious and run over to find out what was so funny and then this moment between them would be stunted as they corralled the five kids. She loved her kids and adored the Hawks, but with how little time she and Jake had had since Andy came back, she wasn’t quite ready to let that go just yet.

Thankfully they didn’t seem too keen on figuring out why he had laughed and went back to whatever game they had decided to play. But the smile lingered on her face. Her hand did fall back into her lap and she let go of her lips, letting the smile appear more natural as she watched them run off in their various directions. “I thought you might,” she mused with a smirk, “Cheesecake had been another idea but…” she let the sentence drop, figuring he would get why mentioning that might not be a good idea, especially if they wanted to try and keep things appropriate between them.

Her body absorbed his nudge and she relaxed just a bit. The mention of Bulbasaur beans made her chuckle under breath. It was silly and cute and so totally Jake. “Did you just reference two Pokemon in one sentence?” she teased, wondering if he had done that on purpose or not. But she realized she hadn’t answered him so she nodded. “Yeah, that sounds good.” Either this was going to go really well for them or backfire in their faces and honestly, she hoped it was the former. She really didn’t want to lose having Jake in her life, even if it was just as friends.

That definitely got her attention, didn't it. Jake smirked as Renee went from having her head in her hands to sitting up straight again, her back against the bench. And it appeared as if his oddball idea might actually work for them. Alright, he was going to take that as a much-needed win. He was also going to take her choice of their shared code word as a win too.

Her suggestion made him bark out a laugh, loud enough for the kids to stop what they were doing to look over at him. He gave them a wave and as soon as they had stopped playing, they were back at it. Whatever was going on between Jake and Renee was not as interesting as their game, obviously. The five of them huddled together, talking about kid-stuff, before breaking away and going back to chasing each other with wild abandon.

"Bulbasaur, yeah I like that one." He nodded this time before looking over at her. "Good to know your sense of humour is still in tact through all of this." He ran his hand over his face and leaned forward to rest his elbows on his knees. He nudged Renee with the side of his body. "So Bulbasaur it is. And it goes both ways. And if the other ever tries to wheedle their way of spilling their Bulbasaur beans, we can't let 'em. Deal?"

[davxdalexander]

David took a moment to catch his breath as he kept a firm grip on the rope. The arrow was good - good shot, but it didn't mean it was completely down for the count. "No," he replied to Jake, looking up and waving at him with his free hand, "Go ahead and come on down." He would need help holding to the boar still so he could stick him and put him out of his misery.

The rope he looped around his arm, keeping it taught even as he moved closer. The boar was trying to thrash but with the arrow in it's side and the rope tangling him, he wasn't going anywhere. Didn't mean David was all that keen on getting hit with one of those tusks. "Easy there, big guy," he muttered to the boar, cautiously getting closer and closer until he was almost on top of the guy, "You put up a hell of a good fight."

David looked up as he saw Jake getting closer. "I'll hold him steady - you take your knife and stick it in the neck. Don't want to make him suffer more than he already is." Pulling a bit more on the rope, he knelt down and grabbed onto one of the tusks and held his head still so Jake could get the clean cut. "Just make it quick."

Everything was moving too fast for Jake to fully track and comprehend but fortunately his brain was picking up enough details to keep up with the action. He heard David's instruction to be ready to shot when told so. Without thinking more about that than required, Jake readied his bow, notching an arrow and pulling back the bowstring. He tracked the boar's progress, using his vantage point in the tree to his advantage to predict which direction the beast was likely to take next.

Of course the boar was completely focused on venting its rage on David. David was going to have to dive out of its way quickly or else Jake was going to have to find a way to finish off the boar himself before dragging David back to Redwood. Jake really didn't want things to work out that way.

Before Jake's imagination could get the better of him, David was diving out of the boar's latest charge and yelling for Jake to shoot the damned thing. Jake let the arrow fly as David got the thing to fall off of its feet. Jake's arrow hit home in the boar's side and it let out an ungodly squeal of pain and pure fury. But it stayed on its side, apparently down for the count. Even so, Jake notched another arrow and kept it trained on the animal. "Do I hit it again?" He yelled to David.

[davxdalexander]

It would be his luck that the one time he got a hunting trip where Jake was prohibited from making any joke would turn into….well, this. Jake up a tree and David currently dodging a very angry charging boar. If he was going to go boar hunting he would rather be doing this better prepared and not on the defense. If he was going to do something, he needed to do it fast. At least now he had Jake up high to warn him when the boar was charging again. Maybe….just maybe….

He rolled out of the way and sheathed his knife before shrugging off his pack real quick. “Jake, I need you to be ready to shoot it when I tell you.” No time to explain. He grabbed the rope out of his bag and hurriedly tied a lasso. It had been a while since he had to wrangle anything but if he could loop the boar and keep it still, Jake could shoot the damn thing. But that required him to not miss. Easier said than done. He loosened the loop and held it ready to throw as he waited for the boar to charge again. “Get ready…”

The boar charged and David waited to dodge and roll. As soon as he got back up he threw the loop. Right on it’s mark, it hooped around the boar and David pulled. The rope tightened and David yanked to knock the boar off of its legs and to the ground. “Alright, now!” 

Jake glanced over his shoulder at the tree David pointed at before fixing David with a frown. "Whaddya mean keep our friend occupied?!" It didn't make sense to Jake in that moment for him to climb a tree and leave David to fend for himself against a blood-thirsty boar. But David was his boss, his director if you will, and he had given his directions to Jake. It was up to Jake to follow them or else (and 'or else' didn't bare thinking about).

With a groan and a dramatic rolling of his eyes, Jake finally did as he was told and climbed the damned tree. He managed to pull himself up high enough to get a good vantage point of the action, just as the boar took its second charge at David. David managed to roll out of the way. Without any additional advice from David, Jake kept track of the boar's rampaging. "He's gone back to the bushes," he yelled back to David, his eyes training on where the bushes were wiggling with boar-like rage. "Think he's getting ready for another charge at ya. Whatever it is you're gonna do, be ready for it.... NOW!"

[reneebrxndxn]

Renee had only scratched the surface of what all had been on her plate because she was sure that if she had jumped right in that everything would just get worse. He'd run the opposite direction and she would have lost any chance of maintaining a friendship with him. Renee didn't think she could handle losing Jake on top of everything else. God this was all such a fucking mess. She couldn't blame him if he decided he wanted to walk away from this.

When she finished she had dropped her head and cradled her head in her hand. When had everything gotten so complicated? Jake's suggestion made her turn her head and she sat up just a bit, her hand dropping to rest against her leg as she regarded him. More complicated, huh? The idea made her laugh under her breath. But Jake was right - friends were always there for each other, no matter how hard or complicated something got. It was reassuring, more than anything, that he'd be willing to make things more complicated so they could talk.

"Code word, huh?" she muttered, leaning back against the bench they sat on as she thought about it. It was a little risky because if they were to spill the beans, so to speak, then there was no hiding anything that she wasn't sure she wanted to share. But maybe hiding things was what was making everything worse. "Alright, code word." At first she thought cheesecake but considering the inner connotations to that, she didn't think she could say cheesecake without thinking about that night and that was bound to make things more complicated. "What about Bulbasaur? Cheesy, I know, but I doubt the kids will pick up on it if they overhear it."

Jake's concern showed itself on his face in a deep frown. Renee had survived the excursion out of Redwood but he got the feeling she wasn't telling him the whole story. In his experience, shelves didn't usually pick fights with people. "Trust you to pick a fight with a shelf," he joked, despite the fact he was still frowning.

He waited for her to fill in some more of the blanks from her trip with Isaac but instead, Renee moved onto all of the other things weighing on her mind. There was a lot for her to list and she finished it off with a flourish, stating how she had wanted to talk to Jake about all of it but couldn't. He let out a long breath as he rubbed a hand over his face. He felt like shit about all of this. He hadn't meant to be make Renee's life more complicated but he had. But if he was hearing her correctly, he could still help her through all the complications.

"So let's make things more complicated," Jake said, looking over at her. "Let's not hold back from each other, regardless of how messy it is already. We both agreed to be friends, no matter what, right? And friends are there for each other through thick and thin. If whatever you have to say is too much, I'll tell you and we can work through it and vice versa."

This was when an idea struck him. He uttered a quiet laugh to himself about it because initially, it sounded a little ridiculous to him even though he was the one who thought of it. But he was still going to tell Renee about it. "How about this: when one of us is clearly not telling the other about whatever is going on, we use a code word. Kinda like a safe word but instead of stopping, we spill the full can of beans. Does that make sense?"